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You Have to Learn Sometime

When I woke from the extensive OBE/lucid dream experience, I was buzzing with energy and could not go to sleep. John was there to help me understand just exactly why he led me through such a strange experience.

Follow the Heart

I was reminded of when I would leave the OBE and return to the in-between and asked why this happened. I knew that it was because I tried to take sole control of the experience – to do things my way. I was only allowed to stay or return to the experience when I aligned myself with my heart. This part of the experience was lost to me until John began to talk with me about it. I had not even noticed the change in vibration that accompanied my instant pull from the OBE.

In the OBE I was very obviously not alone and had to share control with John. If I didn’t, if I shifted out of the heart, then I lost the experience. I love to be OOB and so it was like a slap on the wrist every time I would return to the in-between. The difference in vibration was very noticeable when I looked back on it. I felt out of alignment. The energy almost jagged, seeming to jump haphazardly. When in alignment the energy was smooth.

It was then that John asked me to consider how my energy felt in the physical when I was not in alignment with my heart. I had an “ah-ha” moment here because I saw it very clearly – felt it very clearly. When not in the heart the energy has the same jaggedness. I am also not allowed to continue smoothly on my path. I am slowed, delayed. It is the same except in the physical there is an emotional component that makes it more difficult. It is much, much harder in the physical.

Messages

This is what I wrote down at 1am this morning.

John: This is a journey you agreed to. Many contracts. (I see the contracts burning up. Pages of them. Piles of them). This journey is not for the faint of heart.

Me: It hurts.

John: That is evident. Ego wants to be in control; to be safe. Heart trusts, knows control is an illusion. It is all trust. Source. You are being pulled where you are suppose to go. The pull is stronger depending on necessity and contracts involved. If the pull is intensely strong then there is a lot at stake. More will come. You are Remembering.

Me: I don’t want more of this. I can’t take it!

John: You have to learn sometime.

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OBE: Theseus

As soon as I closed my eyes I went into the void and the next thing I knew I was completely lucid within a dream. My guide, John, was there with me. He was guiding me through the experience, like a teacher. I didn’t know at the time what he was teaching me.

I spent quite a bit of time getting my bearings. I looked around what appeared to be a very boring, empty room. Much of the beginnings of this experience are lost to me now, unfortunately. What I most remember about this part is that John was acclimating me to the scene and explaining that we were going to travel through it together. As such, I handed over control of the dream to him in many ways. I could make decisions but any decision made was in a shared one. It felt like he and I were one and the same, though. If ever I tried to take full control of the experience I would be thrust into the in-between, allowed to feel the vibrational dissonance and then asked to realign with my heart. When I did, I would immediately return to the scene.

I asked to be let out of the boring room I was in. He said I had to do something first. I knew instantly what it was and saw that the room shifted into almost an exact duplicate of my older sister’s room when we were kids. I knew, though, that I was to handle my youngest sister. With that, I began to go around to each toy and destroy it, the entire time yelling at my sister in anger. I did not feel the anger, though, I just knew it was there. I yelled, “You want to play with my toys? Well, you can have them all!” LOL I specifically recall crushing the Barbie Dream house we use to have. In hindsight I suspect this part of the dream was letting go of the “dream” associated with the Barbie house.

With that, I was able to leave the room and entered into a stairway of a very large house. I was directed to go down the stairs five levels. I knew that going down was equal to advancing up – it was backwards.

As I floated along the stairs I counted 1-2-3-4 as I reached each floor. Up until the fourth floor I was not interested in what was going on. I recall stopping to talk to a child on the fourth floor briefly and being given a long link of sausage she did not want to eat. I then moved up to the 5th floor.

The 5th floor was very busy and full of people. I wandered into a back room which was very obviously a kitchen of a busy restaurant. I tired to give the sausage to the cook but she told me to take it with them as they delivered food to a man. I followed her with the link in hand and placed it on a silver tray. I then took it to the man who was chained up and badly beaten. He appeared to be their prisoner. He had dark hair and was familiar to me. He looked like the actor on Continuum who played Theseus!

I turned to leave and then turned back to him. I said, “Are you awake?” He replied, “Yeah”. I said, “No, are you really awake?” He said, “I don’t know. What do you mean?” I said, “I know you. Your name is John.” He said, “How do you know that?” I was very ecstatic at this point for some reason and said, “I know you. You will remember this when you wake up and tell me about it.” I turned to leave.

As I was heading back to the stairs I ran into two women. One was dressed in pioneer clothing and the other in modern clothing. I hugged them both to me and said, “I don’t want to leave.” I felt emotional.

This was when John began talking to me and I was pulled into the in-between. He asked, “Do you want to wake up now? You have been asleep almost 2 hours”. I saw a visual of a hand written account of my journeys and knew if I did not wake up I would forget. I needed to remember. I said, “I probably should”.

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Turning Point

Last night was one of the most powerful nights I have had in a long time. So much happened that I will have to break it up into at least three posts, maybe more.

Here is a quick overview of what occurred:

  1. Discussion with one of my assistants about what has been happening with me and why.
  2. 9:30-10:30m – Semi-lucid dream/OBE.
  3. 10:30-10:45pm – awake briefly
  4. 10:45-12:30am – Fully lucid, guided dream that turned OBE several times.
  5. 12:30-1:30am – Awake and discussing what was going on and why. Multiple messages. I got up and wrote it all down.
  6. 1:30-3:00am – Couldn’t sleep. Too much energy.
  7. 3:00-3:45am – Amazing hypnagogic imagery turned guided “travel” while I was still in my body.
  8. 4:00-5:30am – Finally slept but had intensely vivid dreams related to the night’s events.

Discussion

Though my day had gone well, I was still struggling with the split feeling I have had for several weeks now. I had been asking for help – to understand and handle this feeling – for some time. For some reason last night wast he night the explanation was given. Perhaps I was finally receptive?

One of my assistants predominated the conversation that began around 8:30pm. He explained that what was happening to me was purposeful and that they (my Team) had been preparing me for some time (over a year). He reminded me that I knew this (I did) but did not consciously want to accept it. He asked me to focus on my heart, which is getting easier and easier to do. When I did there was an overwhelming knowingness of what was happening and why. It was always there, of course, but my mind has been in overdrive, my Ego not willing to accept what was happening.

According to my guide, I am currently in the process of “connecting to Source”. This involves the shedding of multiple layers of what I will call “the old me”. I again saw the onion as an analogy. Each layer that comes off reveals more old stuff to be healed, transmuted, and integrated. It is painful (obviously!). He said about the process, “Acknowledge it. Trust it. Allow it to help you transition.” What I feel in my heart is the accumulation of lifetimes, and beyond that is divine connection to Source. The closer I get to the center (Source) the stronger the pull is from it. The heart is the ultimate compass. We are meant to live through the heart, following it, trusting it. We have lived through the mind for so long that we have forgotten what it feels like to follow the heart.

He said many times, “You are at a turning point”.

He instructed me many times to return to my heart center, which I did. Each time the obviousness of what my heart was telling me to do was overwhelming but I did not run from it. It is kind of funny to think anyone could run from their own heart anyway. lol

I asked to get to travel OOB and was told it was now possible because I was “stable”.

OBE: David Bowie

I very quickly realized I was OOB but I was not in full control. It was like my lucidity was purposefully muted. I didn’t care, though, because it has been so long since I have been OOB.

I spent most of this OBE moving into and settling into two different bodies. The first was my exact duplicate or counterpart, not the physical body I reside in while on Earth. I don’t know which aspect but it felt fairly solid. I felt the energy shift as I entered and assumed this body. It was like I put on clothing. I don’t recall anything specific about the energy other than recognizing it was very obviously feminine.

Then I entered a fairly dream-like state where my lucidity was much limited. I was with my guide and knew his name was John and that he was teaching me something about myself.

The next thing I remember is moving into yet another “body”. Again it felt fairly solid but this time it was most definitely male. I had less issue shifting into this body and then, while setting in, I saw very clearly a man just in front of me. When I saw him I instantly recognized him as David Bowie! He didn’t do anything but stare into the distance, so it was likely just a symbol I was being shown. But he was very vivid!

After seeing him I realized something about myself had changed. I had a bit of amnesia as to my gender. I had no clue what gender I was and I didn’t care. I felt whole and it was wonderful!

I felt my conscious mind take over, as if allowed control, and came suddenly into my body. I was confused and elated and a bit shocked about the whole experience. My mind was going a million miles an hour with questions. My body was extremely hot and there was an intense amount of energy coursing through me. I felt like a firecracker!

I was instructed to shut down my mind, and I did so quite quickly. I looked at the clock and saw that I had been asleep only an hour. Once I closed my eyes I entered the void immediately.

In considering this OBE I believe I was shifting into different energy bodies. I don’t which ones for sure, though. Whichever energy body I shifted into was one that did not identify with gender.

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Horse Symbolism

It has been a beautiful day today and I have been outside most all of it. Today I went to visit my mom as is my normal weekly routine. I do it because I love her but also because I feel I should – as if my time with her is limited and so I should make the most of it while I can.

While at my mom’s house I sat in the sun, absorbing it’s warmth as much as I could and watching the clouds fly past. It seemed like they were in a hurry to get somewhere. Their exuberance was appealing to me. I wish I was up there with them.

Here are some shots of the clouds today. I wish I had taken video now so you could see just how fast they were moving through the sky.

After tending to (and playing with) the chickens we caught the attention of the neighbors horses. My children and I spent most of the rest of our time there with the two horses, feeding them and petting them. They were so gentle, their muzzles so soft as they tried to find food in our empty hands or eat our hair. lol

I was especially drawn to the horses today for some reason. I see them every visit but don’t care much to communicate with or pet them. But today I wanted to get up close and hug one. The closest I got was to pet their faces and smell their horse smell. That was enough considering I really am afraid of them. Baby steps. 🙂

When we got home I was still thinking about the horses. I was reminded that I have had many, many encounters with horses in dreams and OBEs. A horse has even talked to me while OOB! lol It has been suggested by many others that horse is likely one of my totems and I tend to agree. I was obsessed with them as a child and use to draw pictures of wild mustangs constantly. Every picture I drew had either a horse or a unicorn in it. 🙂 Strangely, when in the presence of a horse I am often nervous and afraid of how big and powerful they are.

I know that horses symbolize freedom, especially the wild ones. Tame horses, on the other hand, tend to represent aspects of one’s personality that they keep confined.

Rather than write it all out, you can read about the horse here.

From what I can tell, it appears that I am being drawn to the horse at this time in my life to help me with some of the current challenges I am facing. I have been really struggling with the transformation or whatever it is that I am going through. I have never in my life experienced such a split within myself and it is painfully present at all times during the day. The only reprieve I get is while I sleep but it comes back as soon as I wake. I am learning to be in my heart space despite feeling this split and it is getting easier – er well maybe I am just getting use to it. There is guidance but it is limited because whatever is happening to me is something my Team cannot interfere with. From what I can tell, there is a mountain sized issue standing in my path and I don’t think I will be able to go around it this time. Makes me want to spew out every cuss word that exists.

Thinking I should have just gone over the fence and given that horse a hug now. Maybe it would have made me feel better? Or maybe it would have kicked the crap out of me. LOL

 

 

 

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Dream: Graduation Commencement

So yesterday, after a clear message that I needed to rest and recuperate from a very intense month of upgrades, energy acceleration and heart opening, I took time to relax and unwind in my own way. It was a beautiful, warm, sunny day and I took advantage of it by being outside as much as I could. It helped immensely and I felt almost normal by the end of the day.

I recognized a definite shift in my energy at one point and before I had a chance to celebrate the return to “normalcy” my third-eye began to intensely buzz and energy quickly covered the entire crown of my head. With this came a very clear message, “Lightening bolt”. There was no missing the message. The feeling behind it was that there was more to come and it would be like a lightening bolt to me and my life.

I wondered aloud to my Team, “Hadn’t I just had a lightening bolt occur? If not, then what is this ‘lightening bolt’?” Worry quickly took over and just as suddenly I didn’t care. I told my Team, “Whatever happens, happens. I am so over all of this and I am sure I can handle whatever it is that life throws at me.”

I retreated to bed not long after succumbing to a physical and mental exhaustion that I had not noticed until that evening. It literally felt like the four weeks of intense change had left me an empty shell. Everything hurt down to an aching in my bones.

Dream: Graduation Commencement

I was discussing with my group (family) my upcoming graduation which I had somehow forgotten about. I was told I would be late if I didn’t hurry up. I was not happy about graduating. In fact, I felt totally disinterested and not at all excited. My group reminded me that I would be singing and giving a speech of some sort because of my class ranking. This made me nervous and I struggled to remember the words of the song. I remember saying, “But I have not even heard the song yet! How am I suppose to sing it if I haven’t rehearsed?” They reassured me that I already knew the song. I didn’t believe them.

As we approached the event hall I was overwhelmed by the sheer number of people in attendance. I said, “We are almost 2 hours early. Why are there already so many people here?” There were so many cars and people that I could not see past them! I remember the time was 6:40pm and the graduation did not start until 8.

Inside the event hall it was packed wall-to-wall with people. I wondered, “Why are there so many people here for such a small graduating class?” In my mind I confused the dream graduation with my own high school graduation of which there were only 35 graduates. The answer I received to my question was that the people attending were family of family of family ad infinitum.

Here the dream split off into many mini-dreams of which I won’t go into specific detail. There was a moment where I was married to a 70 year old man and in another I was discussing a pregnancy with a woman who resembled me and was very, very pregnant.

Interpretation

Graduation is always symbolic of transition and movement to a higher level. Forgetting about graduation indicates not being mentally prepared for the next level and subconsciously resisting. To me, singing represents a celebration within myself of my accomplishment and a rising of vibration. Singing always brings me joy. I seem to fear that I will not know the song so perhaps I am afraid of feeling joy?

The marriage to a 70 year old could indicate an upcoming death while the pregnancy indicates an upcoming birth. More transformation. Lightening bolt.

Messages

When I woke this morning I felt very calm and did not want to wake up. Sleep felt so good. Wonderful in fact. I felt like I had been asleep for a 100 years and I did not want the feeling to go away. Yet I was reminded upon waking that I had been recuperating and that my rest was nearly finished. What? I had hoped for a longer reprieve!

Before I could react fully and while still in-between I noticed I was not alone. My Companion was on my left and with him was another member of our Team. To my right, though, stood three brilliant white lights. They looked to me like white flames of energy. There was no body shape as I am use to seeing when I see energy beings. They looked like white fire. When I saw them I overflowed with hope and a longing to be with them. I mistakenly thought I they had come to take me Home and I was so ready to go with them. My Companion rudely interrupted and said very firmly, “No”. You can imagine my disappointment.

He told me, “They are here to help you”. I was upset, rightfully so. The urge to go with them was very strong and yet here I was being told I couldn’t go with them, or at least I couldn’t stay with them. They were likely the reason why when I woke up I felt so good. I felt rejuvenated and whole again. My heart didn’t hurt, my body didn’t hurt, I felt like I did before all the craziness of December hit me.

With the realization that I could not go Home yet, all the memory of my recent experiences came flooding back and hit me like a ton of bricks. Thankfully it was muted but it was enough that I began to feel again like I would die from the force of it. I asked, begged, to not have a repeat of it all.

I was then reminded of the past life I recently recalled. I feel like it may be time to go through it in more detail.

 

 

 

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Ylang Ylang: Oil of the Heart

Two nights ago I had a dream that I forgot about until last night. In the dream I was frantically dabbing essential oils of all kinds all over myself. I was handed an essential oil by someone to use. I was encouraged to use it generously. I read the name of the oil several times, repeating it to myself with the intention of remembering it.

The oil I was given was Ylang Ylang. I do not own this essential oil and am not very familiar with it, but my research indicates it is the best essential oil for healing the heart and getting back in touch with one’s inner child. It helps to release bottled up and buried emotions smoothly while nurturing the heart. It also reminds one that joy can be recovered by allowing the heart to feel all emotion fully.

Talk about the perfect message and oil for me right now!

Since I do not own this oil, I searched my oil blends to see if any contained this oil. I found that my most favorite oil blend – Serenity – contains Ylang Ylang. It is said that we are drawn to oils that we most need. This is definitely true for me as I have used more Serenity oil than any other oil I own. lol

Here is the DoTERRA information page for Ylang Ylang for those of you who are interested.

 

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Dream: On Restriction

I traveled with a group of people to a large warehouse. The understanding here was that this was a place to stop and rest and was located on the way to my final destination. It felt as if I had been to this place many times on my way to “work”.

A man met me at the door and asked me for my car keys. I handed them to him and he let me inside. I understood that my car would be taken and parked somewhere. I was to stay the night in this place.

I was shown my cot and I laid down for the night. Unfortunately, I could not sleep. There were tons of people around me and most of them were awake and socializing. Their energy was high compared to mine and it make it impossible for me to sleep. I remember noticing that many of the people were in pairs or small groups yet I was all alone.

At one point, as it was approaching 10pm, I got restless because I could not sleep and people were still awake and socializing. I also got a little paranoid, feeling like this place was not where I was suppose to be. I got up and began to look for an exit but a woman saw me and questioned me. I told her, “I can’t sleep. I want to go back to my house and sleep there”. She said, “Okay. Let me get your keys”.

It took a while for her to return so I went to seek her out. I saw her standing at a back door and at her feet were two piles of dog crap. I warned her not to step in them and she turned and said, “You can’t come out here”. I withdrew.

The woman then brought me my keys but they were disconnected from the remote that unlocked and locked the car. She said she could not reconnect them – they were broken. I accepted this and left on foot.

Interpretation

When I awoke from this dream I was met by my Companion and three other guides. I was told that I was on restriction for an indeterminable amount of time. I am to rest and recuperate. I asked why and sensed a high amount of concern from my Team. I accepted this and understood.

I was told, “You are hurting. You are very, very sad.” I was then shown there has been a significant decrease in my Light. I was told they had not anticipated this intense of a reaction from me and were giving me time to heal before moving forward. I tried to make light of it but this time my Companion was the somber one. Not encouraging.

Apparently, I have not been allowing love into my heart. Recent events have further inhibited the flow. Like the keys in my dream, I am detached from entry into my heart. I am broken.

I asked, “What I am suppose to do now?” and was instructed to focus on my life. Immediately my thoughts turned to plans on how to resolve certain issues in my life.

Although I may be “broken” and disconnected from my heart, my heart is still pulling with an intense energy. It is interesting because the feeling from it is almost like someone swabbed the inside of my heart with menthol. There is a cold fire there. Other times it just hurts. I am getting use to it, though, as nothing I do seems to resolve it.

I could not return to sleep and tried to meditate. Not long after I saw and heard the number 1456. I assumed it was a year but got no more information. So I looked it up and found that it could indicate a change of residence or travel. Coincidentally (or not) my husband called me this morning on his way to work telling me he had an urge to take a trip east. I said I had also thought of doing this. He wants us to go on a road trip together. I am hoping he will agree to go to Florida.

 

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Dream: Piranha Pond

A man took me and a group of people to a remote pond location. I could see the pond in front of us. It looked like a normal pond, like something you would see in a national park or some country area here in Texas. The water was dark and a bit murky making me wonder what was underneath.

Our guide stopped us just short of the pond and pointed to an animal standing on the far bank of the pond. It was a black lamb and we were told it was there as a sacrifice to offer to the piranhas that lived in the pond. Because the lamb would die soon he asked us if we wanted to bury it and put a cross on it’s grave. I saw the cross vividly in my mind and thought about whether we should bury the lamb. I said, “No. It’s just an animal. I don’t care what you do with it’s body”.

He then explained that after letting the piranhas eat the lamb they would be alerted to us being there so we needed to be careful. He then asked for volunteers and I understood that we were each to go into the water and then come back out. I raised my hand thinking I should just get it over with.

At this time I saw my sister was there and she had wandered off with a friend of mine. They were far away laughing and playing around and I remember being concerned at first and then not caring. It was her loss. There was a conscious recognition that in the past had this happened I would have been distraught over my sister taking my friend and not participating in what I was doing. It was nice to know I no longer carried that burden.

I walked into the murky water with the guide. Standing there, I saw a black cow in the water and noticed the piranhas were ignoring it. This made me feel better plus they were not bothering me, either. I then exited the water with my guide.

Interpretation

This dream if full of symbolism and insight. The piranha is representative of something eating away at my subconscious that needs to be addressed. The murky water represents the emotions surrounding this issue. The lamb represents something innocent and pure but since it is black it could indicate there is mourning or intense hurt related to this issue. It could also indicate a need to delve deeper into the subconscious. The sacrifice and acceptance of it indicates that I am willing to give up something for spiritual advancement. The black cow represents maternal instincts and in this case they are being protected.

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Intervention

It has been a challenge navigating the last four or five days – well nearly the last month really. I have never in my life experienced such up’s and down’s and emotional intensity. This intensity started mid-December and does not seem to be letting up. It is almost painful for me to have such intensity of emotion. It makes me wonder if I have been navigating through this lifetime with an almost fully closed heart. Why else would I have not felt this before? How can I have been so emotionally closed off for so long? And what am I to do with this new openness? It is blissfully fantastic in one extreme and excruciatingly painful in another.

Honestly, I am struggling to deal with this new openness, especially the painful part. There has been an overflowing of emotion that should not be there, that feels alien or to belong to someone else. It is just there out of nowhere as if it were there all along. What a crazy, amazing thing to experience. There are no words!

With it comes a past life memory that just appeared. I don’t know when it was or really where it was, but it is vivid in all ways and the emotion linked to it is beyond intense. I can’t escape it so I just live it. Daily. The memory is still unfolding. When it does I will share it with you all.

Intervention

Everyone has their breaking point. I swear I’ve reached mine. I am so done with it all. I have been demanding to be let out of whatever contract(s) I signed. I have been angry and upset for four days straight now. I will go from a numb, almost calm sort of zombie-ness to an overflowing of emotion that stops me in my tracks. The up’s and down’s have to stop. NOW. I can’t live like this.

I recognized the gathering of my Team around me a couple of days ago. There has been healing in the night and very few dreams. The intensity of concern I feel from them makes me angry and sad and concerned. It makes my heart pull with a painful, stabbing intensity as well.

I was finally mentally able to focus on my guidance last night. One of my assistants was there who was energetically familiar to me. He gave me the name “Ken” and has been asking me questions and helping me process whatever it going on with me. My resistance to staying in my heart space was the first thing to be addressed. Oh crap is all I can say. It hurts there like nothing else and there is still an intense magnetic pull that is indescribable. I hate it and I love it at the same time. What confusion!

I was told to shut off my mind and just feel, so I did, and the intensity of the heart stabbing seemed to shoot right through my back at an angle that started at the High Heart and went into my solar plexus. There was no emotion, just a physical ache. I calmed substantially and fell asleep.

There are Choices, not Options

I startled awake at 3:30am from a vivid vision of the word, “Starseed”typed in boldface. I had a moment of confusion because I had just been dreaming about being at my mom’s house where a major ice and snow storm had shut everything down. It had gotten so cold that her chickens and even wild animals were freezing to death. When I woke an entire memory of intense discussions were seemingly placed in my mind as were vivid images of something not at all related to the cold dream I had just been in.

The vision that is most memorable was of the Earth’s sky changing from vivid blue to an ominous pale yellow color. The sky seemed to break apart, blasting outward and upward, and in broad daylight one could see the entire night sky. As I watched, thousands upon thousands of golden hued energy-people (souls?) began to ascend into the sky and blend with the yellow hues until they disappeared into the stars.

With this I remembered what occurred prior to this “rapture”. I had been discussing my Starseed origins with a small group of individuals. It was a serious talk, and one in which there was much upset, more on my part than theirs. In this discussion was my role as mother to my children, which I discussed in a previous post. There was also a discussion of all that has transpired up to this point in my life, though I cannot remember the specifics of it. I clearly recall being told, “There are choices, not options”. I saw that I could choose to shut off what has been happening with me. I could stop it. Permanently. But then I could not resume again. I would no longer see. I would no longer hear the call. It was clearly explained to me that this was not like last time when I shut down. This time it would be permanent. I would be left behind.

Of course, when I awoke I questioned all this. Hadn’t I already chosen to stay behind? Why then would it matter if I was left? In this I felt a sadness, a finality. Being left in this way was not the same. It was as if I would become deaf and blind to everything.

It was then explained to me that I had been given the opportunity to choose between Self and the Whole. I was told now is not the time to make decisions based upon selfish desires. I felt very much like I was being reprimanded here. This is why there are no “options” then? I choose to participate or I choose not to participate. That is it. There are no alternate routes.

I was reminded again of the egg within an egg dream I had not long ago. I saw the egg within as the Starseed, the innermost workings of me; the part of me connected to something more, something much bigger than myself. I could choose to let it lie dormant or allow it to hatch.

I was also reminded of a dream  I had in December, 2014. Something clicked and I just laughed at all the synchronicities involved.

Of the two choices I was given I must choose to participate. I am told it will only get more intense. I can’t say I am excited but it is better than being deaf and blind.

 

 

 

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Nurturing the Starchild

My daughter asked me some questions last night about a dream she had. She began the conversation by asking, “Mommy, how many planets are there? Are there more than what we are taught about in school?”

“Yes, honey, there are many more,” I told her.

“How many?” she asked.

“Millions upon millions, maybe more,” I replied.

“Wow. Do we know about them? What are they like?”

“We don’t know because we can’t see them. They are very, very, very far away. So far away that we cannot get to them even remotely.”

She had a look of awe on her face and then got a very serious look and said, “I had a dream this morning. You were a teacher and I was in your class. Mommy, you were my teacher!”

“Really? How funny,” I said. I listened and she went on.

“We were looking at planets and there were so many but I was so happy that I was in your class.”

Questions About the Stars

My middle son has also been asking me questions. The other night he came outside to sit under the stars with me. He looked up and said, “Wow! It is so pretty! What is that star, mommy? Is that the sun?”

He was pointing to Betelgeuse and I told him, “No, that’s not the sun. That is Betelgeuse.”

“Oh. Where is the sun?”

“The sun is asleep on the other side of the Earth where it is day still.”

He took a while to process this, getting confused between the sun, the Earth and the stars and thinking the sun was each of the stars in the sky. He eventually began to understand and asked,”What are stars?”

“Stars are planets like Earth and some are other suns.”

“Oh, so that’s a planet and that’s a planet and that’s a planet (pointing to different stars)? What are their names?” He had so many questions.

I told him, “I don’t know all their names. I just like to look at them. Aren’t they pretty?”

He then sat with me for a while just looking up at the sky. It was cold so we snuggled in a blanket together.

Nurturing the Starchild

I recall discussing my children during dreamtime last night. I was shown my role in their awakening process. I am their “teacher”and a “living guide” in this lifetime. They are not my children by mistake. They chose me and my husband for a reason. Though my husband and I are very different in our beliefs and experiences thus far, we compliment each other and for a newly awakening Starchild this foundation would be completely necessary to successfully traverse the changes occurring now and in the future. We are both their teachers in this lifetime.

Upon waking all I could think about was the dream my daughter told me about and how similar it is to many of my own these days as I am relearning who I am.

The children of today, no matter their age, are going through the same process we are. In some ways this is easier because the younger they are, the less rigid belief systems, habits and conditioning they have acquired. But it can also be harder for them because they must rely on their parents and loved ones to guide them through the process. If they happen to have a non-awakened parent, then they can end up on a very lonely and difficult path.

I was reminded of my role as nurturer. Though it is highly demanding, exhausting, challenging, and mentally unrewarding, there is a purpose behind it and I am not to forget it. My children are already showing signs of being highly aware little Lights and my role is to encourage them to shine and help them gain the ability to keep their light shining on their own. What a seemingly impossible task especially when I am just learning how to do that for myself!