Daily Archives: November 29, 2016

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Celebrating Me

I decided at the last minute to participate in Litebeing’s Magnificent Challenge. The challenge is simply to write about your “you-ness”. You would think it an easy task, but for me, it is not because I have been trying to figure out who I am my entire life. 🙂

Let’s start with the basics. In this physical form that which I am is composed of all the labels that have been given to me (and taken away). Some of the ones I identify most with are: mother, daughter, teacher, counselor, sibling, singer, writer, nature lover, animal lover, artist, loner, realist, helper, and wife. These are ones that identify my “roles” in life mainly- the ones you tend to answer with when someone asks you to tell them about yourself. These are the “expected” answers, and I, like a good little girl (woman) like to give what is expected (usually) and avoid the uncomfortable situations that result from a dose of my reality.

There are also those identifying labels that tend to come up after you get to know me. Then you find out I am a Leo, knowledge-seeker, Lightworker, Wayshower, Gridworker, Gatekeeper, member of the GFL groundcrew, Volunteer,  Starseed, astral projector, walk-in, braided soul, medium, psychic, medical intuitive, traveler between worlds, explorer of other dimensions, Contactee, etc. Very few people ever meet this me in person. Many more know me only on-line.

But if you go deeper and toss the labels, it gets a lot harder to describe one’s self. How does one even do that? We are limited by human language and there is so much more to us than what we can verbalize.

So then, I will give you the sensory stuff along with who I have found myself to be outside the constraints of this physical form (meaning while OOB or experiencing altered states of consciousness not necessarily drug induced). My color is mostly golden with specks of blue, indigo and violet. This is lately – within the last year. A few years ago it was primarily blue and green.

The sound would likely be a song of some sort, maybe an orchestra playing with colors and light flashing with each tone played (or heard since there would be no instruments really). Imagine seeing the sound. Yep. That’s how it would be. And the sound itself would be part of who you are, who I am. One and the same. Hard to imagine, but I have experienced it so I know it exists.

If you were to meet me in spiritual form I would likely come at you with everything I have. No holding back. You would get all of me whether you liked it or not. Honest, blunt, humorous yet with a more serious (task oriented) side when needed. I would not hesitate to play a joke on you or make a bet with you on one thing or another. But all of it would be full of love, in huge amounts. And acceptance. What I give to myself you would also get. Which is why it would be such a big, fantastic meeting. Right? 🙂

The feeling on your side would be whiplash-like but would then calm down and you would likely laugh. So would I – hysterically, especially when you do the same thing to me. Imagine a water balloon fight, only bigger.

Not sure about taste. Can you taste another Being? Probably. Thinking licorice here for some reason. Probably someone from my soul family played that joke on me once…lol But my favorite tastes would be peanut butter, cotton candy, and chocolate. Interesting combination that would be. 🙂

And that’s just the five basic senses. All the other ones would be in there, too. The entire package is beautifully fantastic and free. That’s me without this body. Unrestrained, full of love, joy, acceptance and potential. I have touched her once. Briefly. That’s how I know she exists.

My entire life I have been the first me – the one living according to what society has labeled her and wants her to be. If you were to meet me under “normal”, 3D circumstances, you would never have any idea that the other me, the real me, existed underneath. I would keep my distance, follow the social norms and rules. I would feel out your energy before I allowed you to get any closer. Any indication that your words don’t match your intention (energy) and I would back off.

I think I prefer that you know the real me – the me who I am without this physical body. I prefer to know her – BE her – to somehow bring her through the body instead of keeping her hidden all the time. It’s hard, though. Hopefully I have done a good job introducing you to her. Now I need to get to know her a bit better myself……to Remember. I’m working on it.

 

 

 

 

 

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OBE: Hu

Woke at 3am upset. Fell back to sleep at 4am asking to project.

OBE: Hu

Found myself in the in-between hearing noises off. I heard an entire conversation between my husband and two youngest. I remember saying I was tired and worrying about having to get up for work soon. For some reason I was confused, thinking it was 2pm and that my MIL had not come to watch the kids so I had missed work. I recognized that none of what I was hearing or saying made any sense – I was in the midst of phasing and all I had to do was shift OOB.

I silently set the intent to go OOB and when I did, the conversation that was going on around me shifted and I was pushed and then pulled very forcefully from two directions. Being I was still thinking I was with my two youngest, I assumed they were playing and so laughed and responded, pushing back and sitting up. In retrospect I believe my guides were assisting me OOB.

My vision came on and the room was golden lit and bright. I was at my mom’s house, though, sitting on the ledge of the fireplace. As soon as my vision turned on I was up and moving around very quickly, assessing the scene. I flew up and hit the ceiling. Solid. Then bounced back down to land on the ground then was up again, floating over the kitchen. I saw my youngest on the floor by two open cabinet doors. The cabinets were empty and their contents nowhere to be seen. I said to him, “What happened? Did you do that?” and laughed. “Come on! Let’s go outside.” With this he flew up toward me but my vision blacked out. I stayed in the scene, though and did not shift out of it.

I flew up again and hit the ceiling. I knew I needed to get out of the area because that is where I originally entered. I still could not see and felt my energy begin to shift, my vibration falling. I didn’t want to leave so I paused and thought, “Calm down. Bring up your energy.” With that, my energy stabilized and my vision turned on again.

I saw my youngest running toward the door. I said, “Open the door! Open the door!” He opened it and I swooped down to join him, eager to go outside. There was trepidation here, though, because I have been stopped from going through doors recently while OOB. Again, my vision turned off.

Going through the door I expected to be greeted by my youngest who already exited but instead there was an adult there. He/she grabbed me and then it felt like my face was being attacked but in retrospect I realize it was a kiss but it felt energetic, not solid. I had visions of a black, scary, faceless monster for some reason and quickly pushed it out of my mind. I said, “I know you’re ok. I’m not afraid.”

I felt myself destabilize and had to once again balance my energy and calm myself down. My eyes then were filled with light and my mother’s front yard came into view. I rushed out, feeling exceptionally free and looked up at the sky. I scanned it for a while, seeing only light gray cloud cover.  A blonde, short-haired, older woman asked me, “What are you looking for?” I said, “The light. It’s hidden but I know it’s there. I can feel it.” That’s when I realized the woman with me had been the one who greeted me at the door and kissed me on the cheek.

I turned toward her and looked at her. She came close and held a card up in front of my face. It was a driver’s license but it did not have a photo on it. Instead it had a beautiful scene of a green, hilly place with a brilliant sun in the upper left hand corner. The name on the card said, “Hu”. I tried to take the card from her but she held it away. I said, “That looks like California. Whose drivers license is it? I want to see.” I saw the name “Hu” and in my mind I said, “Hu” with an “H” sound and then felt it should be more like “You” or maybe “Hugh”. I couldn’t figure it out but finally settled on “You”.

My vision blacked out again and I felt myself shifting so I had to once again settle down. The card had caught my attention as did the message and I thought too long and hard on it. I was able to balance again and when my vision returned the woman was close. I reached for her and hugged her. She said to me, “Do you know who I am?” My vision was suddenly very vivid and crisp and I saw her left ear from the vantage point of her shoulder (I was hugging her still). She was wearing a diamond stud earring and her skin indicated she was pretty old, maybe 60-70’s. Her hair was cropped short and blondish-gray and I was able to follower her jawline to her face. I was inspecting tiny blonde hairs on her face when my vision blacked out again.

I thought a bit on her question and then replied, “Katherine.” We were still hugging and she said to me, “Yes. One day, when little junior is all grown up, he will have a child. That child is me.” I suddenly felt very emotional and hugged her really, really tightly. I could feel her hugging me back warmly. I began to cry and the emotion of it shifted me back into the in-between where I stayed for some time recovering. The tears were not sad ones, they were joyful. In the in-between I could still feel her close.

I had many questions when I woke. Like, “Who is junior? We don’t have a junior.” Then I thought she must mean my youngest because his middle name is my husband’s first name.  I thought of her name, too. Katherine. On my husband’s side of the family I know of two Katherine’s. My side I don’t know of any. Then I wondered if she was visiting from “the future” or if the person I saw was from the present yet to leave her body and transition into a new one. Finally, I was mad at myself for not asking more questions.

As for “Hu”, I guess it was my driver’s license indicating that the sun will shine again on my life some day. Hopefully not in California. I don’t want to live there. lol