It has been a strange couple of weeks. Unusual. Challenging. Emotional.
First off, I got some upsetting news from my husband (private – sorry). Then a friend I hadn’t heard from in over a year contacted me. Surprise! Not long after (like literally days!) another friend from the past contacted me. This one was from years and years ago. WTF?
Was there something in my chart that indicated “the past will come for a visit” and “someone close to you will betray you?” Hmmmm.
Mercury retrograde perhaps? lol
A week passes, and the emotions hit, as if to say, “Okay, now PROCESS THIS SHIT”. I am sick, BTW, the whole time. No, not Corona, allergies or a maybe a cold, hard to tell which. The emotions are weird. They come up when I speak of a past incident. Suddenly the past feels to be suffocating me. The emotions get stuck in my throat. I feel unable to breathe or speak. I get super hot and uncomfortable. The tears erupt and I feel stiff, as if I will explode from the pressure building up. Then it is goes almost as soon as it comes. Huh?
The message I got was, “Hey, guess what? That pain you thought you resolved? Not resolved.”
Then, as soon as the sickness ends the emails return when I had thought no further communication would be coming. Prior to one message came energy. It came from my left, wrapped its “arms” around me and I melted into my chair. When it left I knew a message was coming. It came that night.
Again, huh?
And now, nothing. No communication but it doesn’t feel like there needs to be any. No emotion either.
I Know NOTHING
The other day, I was having some high emotion over certain life events. I had just finished a good workout and opted to take a bath in the middle of the day because I knew the workout would result in sore muscles the next day. As I prepared my bath I began to have high emotions regarding life and my design this lifetime. I questioned something I had read online about my Human Design (HD) profile – my variable. I only read about it briefly but it stuck with me.
My variable is PRR DRL. This is the description of a video I later purchased that explains my variable in more detail:
You are part of an evolutionary movement, the bridge to what is coming. You are carrying one part old Left and three parts new variation of Right. What does this mean for your life’s story?
Ra explains how you are designed to have a new receptive brain system, perspective and mind in an active body from the past. Learn how you can understand and deal with the dilemmas of living in a Left world through your correct dietary regimen and Design Nodal environment. In this lecture, you will see how important your relationships are, because they are ultimately going to define your process. Source
What is interesting to me about the description, and why I ultimately purchased the video, is the word “bridge”. It feels correct to me, like it is my purpose to be this bridge. Yet while I was thinking about it later I was angry at the word “bridge”. I thought, “Great. I’m a bridge, so people just walk all over me.” I remember thinking how the only control I have over this is to make myself unstable so that the people walking all over me fall off.
During this time I was speaking with a guide out loud. No one was home but me and I’m not sure when I started or when I realized what I was doing, but I did. The guide was so real to me, so audible in my mind, that it was just natural for me to speak to him. Then I was just laughing because I had gotten to that frustrated, insane sorta emotional tipping point when life is just making you feel batshit crazy. And then a realization hit me. I said aloud to my guide, “I know NOTHING! NOTHING!” And that was the funniest thing ever. Oh the paradox of it! To feel at once that you Know so much but also that you Know nothing at all.
When I was done laughing I no longer felt the need to be upset. There was only calm and my guide said, “Do you feel better now?” And I said, “Yes.” I knew then that all I needed to do was surrender. To be calm and go with the flow. I remember being that way in the past and I know I can be that way again. I have to get out of my monkey mind, or as HD calls it, the Not-Self. I must listen to my inner voice, which for me is my ultimate guide because I am self-projected. I need to listen to what I say when I speak because through my words my path is revealed. This has always been true for me, too, and so the whole idea of it resonates fully with me. I need to recognize and accept that right now my job is to witness, to observe what is happening around me. Action is not necessary. What I observe and witness will help me understand better my life and purpose so that when I am ready I can step into that last stage in my life, when I become the role model I am here to be (I’m a 6/2 Self-Projected Projector). BUT that last stage usually doesn’t start until around the age of 50. That is 6 more years and feels like an eternity away and I think, “What can I possibly get done at such an age?”
Drink from my Well
So, this morning I went back to the video I had reviewed the day before but never purchased. Turns out it was on sale, half-off. Wow. So I bought it.
After listening to the video on my variable type I now understand what “bridge” means. In the video, Ra Uru Hu explained that I am a bridge to the new nine centered Being which is arriving in 2027. I am 3 Right to 1 Left. Left is the past, Right is the future. Left is strategic/active. Right is receptive/passive. The new nine centered human will be all Right. I am almost there but not quite. Therefore, I act as a bridge between the old Left and the new Right.
I have a Right brain and Right mind. Because of this I am a “well of awareness” from which others come to drink. My job is to just BE awareness. I am to be active in things that I enjoy. Through this action others will be drawn to me to drink from my well. When they come to me, I give them what they need. If I do the correct activity, or that which feels good to me, then the correct people will come to me. I need to be selective when it comes to who I allow to drink from my well. Those who drink from my well may want to possess me. If I surrender to this, meaning I am not aware of it and seek to please them, I can end up forced to be strategic (Left) because I have to figure out how to get rid of them (lol I SO resonate with this!).
I see things in a very, very deep way. The video repeats over and over how I am a WELL of awareness that others drink from. That is my only purpose. I take in, take it all in, and then wait for someone to drink from my well. Those who drink from my well IS what I am aware of. If they drink murky, stagnant water, so do I. People come to me as a resource. What kind of resource will I be? I need to be selective. If I share openly what I am aware of, what I perceive, then I can easily be perceived as “crazy”. I SEE others. Others have to come to me to also see and only then should I share, not before.
In school I shouldn’t study. I wouldn’t have to. I just show up and pay attention and then when that info is needed I will have it. This is very true for me. In school I didn’t need to study. It all came naturally. Answers I didn’t know would come to me if I allowed them. I could pass tests just by using my intuition! If you asked me later why I answered a question the way I did, I wouldn’t be able to tell you except to say, “it felt right”.
Because I am 1 Left it is easy for me to convince others that I am like them but I am NOT. I should not change for others. I need to be ME.
The video says, “Don’t get stuck. You are here for the ride.” It says, “Your partner needs to bring out of you that which feels good.” The Left will be drawn to me. The Left socializes through sexuality. The Right socializes through awareness. I am NOT like the Left (this is repeated, too).
Something interesting that was said: If someone comes into my environment and I want to yawn, I need to get rid of them. I find this fascinating because that is most everyone in my environment now (except my kids).
The advice is to stay busy, busy doing things I choose and enjoy. It can be ANYTHING – gardening, reading, blogging, exercising, etc. If I remain busy doing things I enjoy, that I am drawn to, then I am PROTECTED.
I will feel the best when others drink from my well. This is why when I gave readings I felt so good. This is why when I was a teacher it felt good. Anytime another drinks from my well I will feel this way. When another comes to me, I will always give them something sweet to drink. I will often not know why I say what I say. It will just come to me and I will say it. Then later I won’t remember I said it and I won’t care because I gave them what they needed and that is why I am here. Period.
I am here to make awareness available to others.
The video left me with questions. He (Ra Uru Hu) said that the environment I live in is important. It needs to be nourishing. The wrong environment will not nourish but make me sick. He also said I need to nourish my brain the right way. If I just eat and eat without discretion then I will feed everything, even that which is not good for me. So now I want to get a HD reading for this purpose, to find out what environment is best for me and what diet I should follow.
If I think of places where I felt the most supported when I lived there, they have been inland, in the plains area or in places with lots of space. My guess is this would be my best environment, the one that nourishes me. I love the mountains and the coasts but when I lived in the mountains I did not flourish. When I visit the coasts I feel okay but I do not feel like staying. Being in the trees and forests often causes me to feel penned in. I seek open spaces.
Diet makes me curious. Should I be eating much less? Should I be eating like I am?
The good news is that if I am following my strategy and authority then I will already be in the environment that nourishes me.
Finally, I really liked Ra Uru Hu. What an amazing energy! He is a Manifestor. I wonder if I have ever met a Manifestor? I wonder what it would be like to be around someone who didn’t end up exhausting me? Instead, I have surrounded myself with Generators (my two sons) and Manifesting Generators (my daughter and husband).
Today I received a copy of the book, Human Design: The Science of Differentiation. I can’t wait to read it!
Living Life in Between 
This book sounds interesting. BTW without going into details, the reading I did for you should have answered most if not all of your questions at the beginning of the post. Thank for posting this message about where you are at. I think many will be served by this!
love, Linda
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Yes, you’re right! Since there was a general time period I didn’t think about the reading you gave me but you did say old memories and family issues likely to arise. You also mentioned Pisces energy would be attracted to me and both the people who contacted me have Pisces energy. We’ve also done lots of house additions – “adding to house” – new kitchen cabinets, new back patio addition and other various upgrades. Thanks for reminding me. It is just odd how this happened all in one short time period! Much love to you Linda. ❤
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Thank you for sharing. I had not heard of this HD system before, but it sounds very interesting.
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It is very interesting! For me it is much more accurate than astrology, numerology or any other system I have used. You should check it out. You can get your free chart here – https://www.jovianarchive.com/Get_Your_Chart
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Thanks for the link. I’ll check it out.
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Beautiful unfolding. Thank you for sharing this, Dayna. Thank you for being the well, and the bridge, and for simply being here.
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Thank you for seeing me, Eileen. Thank you. ❤
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I learn a little more about HD reading, and especially since we are Projector’s. Never had a chart done (new to it) but trying to understand the paradigm. I, too, have 6/2 (whatever that is) but followed by Role Model/Hermit. Still, I can feel some of myself in what you write. I wish I could get that book , but it’s only in paper (my fav) but I live overseas and mail/deliveries are an issue. Anyway, I like how you explain and a little bit of understanding. Thanks again for your helpful words.
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A Role Model/Hermit (which is what 6/2 means), too? Very cool! What is your authority? Did you find that out? It tells you how you Know and where in your body the Knowing is felt/emanates. For me it is my G-Center, center of chest. Self-Projected is what they call it. Sorry you can’t get the book. There are others out there and FB groups, also. I am one called Erik’s Group of Wonderment. He is a Projector and has some great videos, very informative. https://www.facebook.com/groups/209151520430283
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The chart says my authority is emotional/solar plexus. I never consider that I’m feeling anything in that area because I’m kinesthetic. I generally feel the energy around my body…like a shroud. Thanks for the FB suggestion (though I recently bid them adieu). I am now keen to learn more after reading your posts.
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I have a friend who is Emotional/Solar plexus. I can’t say I can relate to feeling in that area but I can say my chest area is really a strong indicator for me, though only since 2015. My guess is that if you researched it you would find something in line with how you perceive your answers/authority though.
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Yes, I think I need to go deeper. I have danced around this a while. Got my chart a couple years ago (it’s Greek to me) and pushed aside. Recently (within this last month) it came around again. Maybe it’s a sign. 🙂 My Gemini Rising NEEDs to know what it wants to know LOL!
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I would say it is a sign then!
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Oh, what kind of readings do/did you do? I also do readings! I am/was also a teacher. So, there’s that in common, too! 🙂
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You’re just making me grin real big now. lol Yes, teacher and school counselor for 13+ years. I am also a psychic/medium but I have been on a loooong break since 2007 and focused mainly on family. 6/2’s like us go through life in three stages. The first up until our Saturn return is as a 3 (in HD) where we learn through trying or sampling things in life. We usually have a very difficult time of it, too! Then the second stage, which I’m now in, is up until your Kiron return. In the second stage you are an Observer of life, you “go up on the roof” and watch. So life is much calmer and less traumatic during this time. The final stage is when you finally go out and live as the role model you are here to be. I’m not quite there yet, though. Maybe I will go back to do readings then? IDK
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I’m certain I must be in the 3rd stage (facing all these demons). I”m garnering my courage to be all of who I am. My mom was a high school guidance counselor and teacher for many years! I taught at the university until I retired. Now I teach online part time (students learning English). I am so delighted to meet you, via my amiga, Eileen!
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So happy to meet you as well! It makes this journey so much less lonely!
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Indeed! I feel like a real scarecrow out here. Everybody whoopin’ and hollerin’ about what’s going on in 3D with this election and nobody wants to hear anything about anything else!
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just wanted to say thank you- i have never been so surprised by how much i have resonated with something like this. i think i have been trapped in my left side which has pushed me to become an extreme psycho analyzer and chronic people pleaser. I feel like i am now gaining awareness but i was wondering if you had any tips? i also recently have realized that i was meant to be a teacher so this just felt like another sign i am in the right direction:) Would it be too much to ask to speak with you? anyways that was a lot but i am just trying to find answers i guess. peace and love:)
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Hi Grayce. I assume you are connecting with and referring to Human Design? I am fairly new to HD but find it fascinating and spot-on. If you are more right brained like me, it is normal to revert to the left brained approach because that is what our society encourages. So don’t be hard on yourself for that, I did it and still do, only now I do it more to fit in and I am aware I am doing it.
I would be happy to chat more. Head over to my Contact page and shoot me an email. 🙂
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Thank you so much Dayna! This interpretation resonated to me. I’m a REFLECTOR 5/1 and I have this variable too (PRR DRL). I’m taking home these three main ideas:
1. I have a great intuition (I also don’t have to study that much)
2. I need to be selective (I have been attracting the wrong people)
3. I have to do what I love (so I can be protected and enjoy life)
Thanks again and please keep being you! 🙂
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Hi Sandra! So glad this post has been helpful to you! I’ve never met a Reflector so Hi! and nice to meet you. 🙂
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Dayna, thank you so much for sharing your experience and this intel about PRR DLR. I was only introduced to human design early this year but it hit me sideways like nothing else has before. Also a projector but a 1/3 – my partner and my mum are 6/2s like you. but they are generators. Kev is on the roof still. Hope when he comes down he won’t slink off to hermitville.
I’m just joking.. 😉
I love experimenting with this – it blows my mind how accurate it reveals itself to be.
I wonder how your experiment is going now – a couple of years on from this post… I hope very “well’” … haha!
The bridge – thank-you – that word – my unique talents – these variables … it validates so much for me.. so much of my past experience and all that has fallen away from my life feels as though it was to make space, for this.
The first time I heard Ra talk about the great mutation – I had a similar experience.
I have the same variables – worked with the young for 25 years …..no kids of my own, although I wanted a family more than anything. it’s almost like… it was predetermined.
And I have no choice but to kick back and let it all happen.
Aroha nui & Be well. Jx
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Hi Jay! Great to meet you! HD has a way of knocking one sideways with profundity!
My journey/experiment has been going well. I got many answers to the questions I had in this post, specifically my environment and diet. You can read about it here – https://livinglifeinbetween.wordpress.com/2021/05/05/human-design-primary-health-system-phs/ I also wondered if I knew any Manifestors – well yes! My BIL and SIL as well as my maternal grandmother.
Most of all, thank you for referring me back to this old post. I needed to read it as a reminder of my variable among other things.
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Hi Dayna,
Thank you for this post. Really interesting to read about your experience of being a bridge… I am also a prr/dlr.
Could you point me in the direction of the video you talked about?
Love to hear from you.
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Hi Chantal! I got the info from the Jovian Archive website: https://www.jovianarchive.com/Products/109/IBI09_Variables_-_PRR_DRL
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Awesome, thank you. I discovered that training last week and hoped it was this one you saw.
Did you expand on being a bridge after publishing this post?
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You’re welcome! 😊 I can’t remember if I wrote more about this variable. I’ll have to get back to you on that.
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