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Lesson: Overcoming the Fear of Death

After the weird episode of sleep paralysis, my guide was close and instructing me. Unfortunately, I don’t recall everything we discussed as I was in and out of a state that is hard to describe.

I remember being told I would project. I then began to feel odd energy sensations indicative of the trance state except that there was the familiar Kundalini energy sensations as well. I had the energy helmet over my head and my chakras were lit up from my second all the way to my crown. Oddly, the root was not lit up at all. There was confirmation that it would be soon, though, just not at this point or this night.

I went into an in-between state several times after that.

Discussing Fear

I recall standing on the top of a vast mountain range looking out on a beautiful valley that spread for miles. The colors were vibrant and it looked like someone had taken a paintbrush full of every color imaginable and painted the scenery. Fantastically beautiful!

Next to me was my guide and we were discussing fear. It was explained to me that we were to practice confronting one of my last fears. This fear was interfering with my progress.

I said to him, “I am sorry”.

He replied, “It will be easy”.

I looked out on the scene in front of me and the reality took my breathe away. It felt like I was OOB yet there was a different element to it that I couldn’t put my finger on. I began to wonder, “Where are we?” Something in my questioning took me out of this beautiful, serene place and back to my physical awareness.

I was then told there was work to be done and to think of a place that made me happy. I began to think of the mountains and tried to recall the peace and serenity I had just had, but it was hard. The energy sensations then returned and I felt the horizontal and vertical vibrations that have been the norm for me lately.

Viewing and Experiencing Death

Then next thing I remember was both watching and experiencing the death of a man. The man was laying prone, arms and legs spread, as if he had been hit hard and knocked backward to the ground. I remember he was wearing a white shirt and that he was struggling to breathe. I assumed he was either gunshot or hit with something that damaged his chest area.

What is odd here is that I experienced the man’s death as if it were my own. The strange gasping for breath and the feeling of the life draining out of me. I was choking on my own blood. It felt similar to drowning. Not pleasant at all.

I had feelings during this time similar to the feelings I have been having the past several days in which I feel propelled from my body except here I was allowed to see the predecessor to it.

To not want to die; to leave the body by force because the body is dead creates all kinds of distress for the individual inhabiting the body.

Again I felt to be OOB but there was something different about it that was noticeable but indescribable.

I came back to my physical awareness from wherever I had been experiencing this and my guide said, “Death happens to everyone”.

I responded, “I know”.

A part of me worried I was being prepared for death.

He said, “Not that kind of death”.

My thoughts continued on in this direction, trying to put together all of the experiences I had had up to that point. Was I being possessed? Where would I go when I left my body? Would I come back?

I remember hearing responses amidst my questions.

“Death is only the beginning. You must be free of this fear. There can be no resistance”.

I understood what he was referring to. It was the energy swap. Any resistance would hinder the transfer. Fear results in resistance.

I didn’t even know I feared death.

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First Ever Sleep Paralysis Experience

Sometime in the middle of the night, I became acutely aware of a presence in my room. It felt huge and loomed in the corner near the window. I didn’t really care that it was there at first, until the weird noises and odd energy sensations began.

I was awake but drowsy and so when I heard the noise, a loud, “Bang!”, on the window seeming to come from the outside rather than the inside, I didn’t really startle. Yet the noise was loud enough to cause me concern and I began to think there must be a Spirit playing jokes on me. Spirits like that were usually of the Earthbound sort and I didn’t want to deal with any of that. So, I decided to surround myself in white light and ask for protection.

I started to drift off and then felt this huge push of energy from my right. It was so powerful that I felt my body shift and I worried I would fall off the bed. Again, I didn’t really startle, just wondered, “What was that?”

I must not really have been that worried about all of the weird things going on because I again began to fall asleep. This time, the energy came from above my head. It felt like a huge, mass of something and it literally shoved my entire body several inches down toward the foot of the bed. This did startle me. What the hell?

I again began to ask for protection and searched the room mentally for the perpetrator. I saw/sensed no one.

My lower body felt weird. My legs felt three times their size and my torso was dead feeling, almost numb. My upper body was not so bad, but I felt stuck in the position I was in, laying on my back with one arm over my head.

It was while I was noticing how my body felt that I heard someone say something. It was a effeminate voice and it said, “Her tissues are ready for insertion”. This really concerned me and I wondered, “Is it E.T.s doing this? Am I being abducted? Are they “working” on me?” I felt very uneasy about this, yet at the same time I felt safe.

Before I could panic a thought entered my mind, “This is sleep paralysis”.

Sudden clarity hit me. Oh, so this is what sleep paralysis feels like?

Part of me didn’t believe it but all the symptoms fit. I never have had any concern about sleep paralysis and even upon the recognition that I was experiencing it right then, I didn’t. I was a bit worried still about this presence but eventually just moved my arm and rolled over.

My guide said to me then, “You will project”. I didn’t care one way or the other. I was still a bit concerned that I had been pushed down my bed. In actuality, it was my astral body that was pushed, not me, but it sure felt real!

I ended up projecting three times after that.

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Council Confusion Clarified

Today as I finished channeling a message and was applying the title as is my normal sequence of action, I wanted to write Andromedan instead of Pleiadian in the title. This stopped me in my tracks. What Council was I receiving communication from?

As soon as my question formed in my mind, I received memory of the dream I had in which I was face to face with an entity that resembled a bald, white humanoid. I knew he/she was Andromedan (what pronoun do you use for androgynous, “it”? That doesn’t feel right). And now, with the question asked, this memory was given in answer. I was speaking to this individual, this Andromedan, and this Andromedan was not of the Pleiadian High Council.

Of course, I had to ask, how many Council’s are there?

I received instantly the answer: 3.

I understood immediately that my immediate Council, the one assigned to me and my group during their incarnations, are an extension of the Pleiadian High Council. I have three members (emissaries) who communicate with me directly, though I do not recognize them as individuals but more as a combined consciousness. I perceive communication as if it is coming through more than one individual. It is hard to describe but it is like I am receiving three transmissions and somehow they combine into one, single message in the end. I am told it is the way my mind processes these transmissions that causes this discrepancy.

When I receive message from my High Council, this is where it is coming from.

So there is my High Council, the Pleiadian High Council, and then there is the Council of Many.

From what I am being told, the Council of Many is a combination of representatives from various planets or civilizations in the Federation. It is far larger than my High Council and the Pleiadian High Council. One could relate the Pleiadian High Council to the representative body of a state while the Council of Many is the representative body of an entire nation. An individual’s High Council is more along the lines of a personal team of consultants sent forth by the representing body. In my case, Pleiadia.

Some of you might have wondered what the difference is between one council and the other, so now you know. I don’t know why I never thought to ask before. Perhaps it is because up until today, they all felt the same with the exception of my individual Council feeling a bit closer than the others. “Closer” meaning they feel more connected to my energy, similar to a guide but with more presence.

Who’s on my Team?

Since December of last year I have sensed 12 around me pretty much non-stop. I am told this is a combination of representatives from the Council of Many, my Council (so also the Pleiadian High Council) and my guides and assistants. In my mind I am reminded of my most recent OBE where I walked past my Team and then met up with a guide. The gowns and sashes they wore was an indication of who they were. The white gowns with gold were Council members. Those in black were guides and assistants. The colors worn with the black robes indicate what their specific role was.

I am still trying to figure out what the color red signifies, as that was the color sash my guide was wearing. Is it associated with the chakras or something else? And gold and silver, what do those colors signify? I am super curious now and wish I had paid more attention while OOB. Instead, I had focused on meeting the woman who I now know was the member of my soul group (Stephanie) who left life prematurely. I wanted to see her, touch her and welcome her Home.

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Embracing Multiplicity – Message from the Council of Many

Your matriculation is immanent. There are new energies brewing; rising to the surface of your consciousness, ready to implore you to move once again forward toward the culmination of your mission, your project here in this incarnation. We applaud your progress, your persistence despite the weariness that has presently settled over you. This weariness is the eroding away of the last remnants of that which has held you back and prevented your escape from this systemic illusion you have been caught in for many countless Earth lifetimes.

The layers of the onion of illusion that has surrounded you and degraded your energy bodies has been peeled back enough now that you are beginning to see your Truth. You have but to just reach out and touch it to know it and it is this Knowing that assists you in further peeling away the layers that still remain. You are a multidimensional being; you exist beyond this illusion you have created. In your reaching out to touch your Truth will you find the other You’s, your multiplicities. It is herein that the real adventures await you.

As your weariness leaves you, there will be new energy. You can sense it now, can’t you? It is slowly building and soon will embrace you in its omniscience. When this overwhelming Knowingness, this great power from within, begins to rise, we ask that you resist the urge to allow yourself to be overwhelmed or overzealous as either of these may occur if the mind is allowed too much involvement in the unveiling process. Too much emotion, too much rejoicing, will overshadow the reverberation of this omniscience throughout every layer of your being. Remain detached. Remain calm. Be the moment. Be the process. This is what you have been waiting for.

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Dream: 40-Year-Old Virgin

I again experienced the strange separation from my body as the night before, but this time it was only once and I resisted very little. I did resist, though, as the feeling is somewhat disturbing.

Interestingly, I remembered several dreams upon waking. I have determined that the dreams I am remembering are meant to help me with this transition by allowing me, this Earth Self, to play out scenarios and sort through beliefs and worry. Technically, these dreams are doing what psychologists say dreams are meant to do.

40-Year-Old Virgin

One particularly vivid dream I remember occurred this morning and was the last dream I recall having. In this dream, I was inside a small, yellow-lit house, in the kitchen with a man. He was older than me, about 40, and confided in me that he was still a virgin. I remember that at this point in the dream he began to resemble Steve Carell and the movie, “41-Year-Old Virgin” was prominent in my mind. I am not attracted to Steven Carell in the least but in this dream there was an attraction I could feel in my root and second chakras. I recall feeling very alive and vibrant but not being overcome by desire or anything like it. I felt compassion and sympathy toward this man and also felt a very strong connection with him.

The dream seemed at first to be moving toward the sexual. We kissed and touched one another, but it was all very gentle and exploratory – there was no hot and heavy passion or flames of desire. It was like we were getting to know one another and exploring the familiarity that existed between us. It was very much like we were two teenage virgins connecting with the opposite sex for the first time.

I remember deciding that we should stop exploring one another. I was also aware of my middle son being nearby and something about his presence caused me to think of my husband. My relationship with my husband was what caused me to pull back and I remember thinking and saying, “I have to end it with him”. There was such finality in what I said/thought. I also felt to be doing the right thing because I did not want to hurt him or cause him to feel betrayed by me going ahead with another relationship while still in one with him.

At this point there was a knock on the door. It was a friend. I began to busily clean up the living area, sweeping up debris and cleaning off the furniture. I moved upstairs and I overheard the Steven Carell look-alike complaining and reprimanding my son. My stomach flip flopped and I thought to myself, “There is no point in starting a new relationship. They [men] are all the same”. Yet there was recognition that the words being said, the harsh criticism coming out of his mouth, were in fact my own words.

When I went back downstairs I was questioned by my friend, “Where were you? We have been trying to find you since last night”. I realized it was already mid-morning and so I told her, “We fell asleep”. I had a worry that someone would think we had been doing something wrong but then I knew we had not.

Interpretation

When I woke from this dream I thought, “I have to leave him” but it did not scare me and now, as I think about it, I don’t think that is necessarily what the dream means. To dream that someone is a virgin denotes integrity and honesty with one’s self. It suggests that there is an “ideal” that is being sought out in a situation. In this case, within a relationship. So I am looking at what I would like to have versus what is reality. The reality being that I am not innocent in how my relationships turn out. The statement, “I have to leave him” is representative of the Old me, not my actual husband. I have to leave behind the old me, the old habits, beliefs and criticisms, in order to achieve my ideal.

The Steven Carell look-a-like was most likely a version of myself, the me I connected with in order to explore this area of my life.

When I got online to peruse the news I found this article – Heartache for Japan’s Real-Life 40-Year-Old -Virgins. It was the first article I saw and I actually laughed when I saw it.

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Revelations from a Walk

From the perspective of the old.

I just returned from a walk with my baby. Interestingly, this walk seemed to reveal some of what I had missed upon waking.

This exchange is with another member of my soul group. Some would call this my Higher Self, but this feels more like a soul mate relationship to me.

Let me explain a bit about that. When I first me Steven I had a strong and very intense love for him that caused me some confusion. I admit that I got a bit head-over-heels for a bit but this did not last long. I believe this was a purposeful process as at the time I did not love myself and had to learn how to do this. Loving my companion was step one in the process of self love.

I have been concerned about what will happen to me when this process concludes. My companion reminded me of the OBE I had in which I traveled the astral alongside an exact duplicate of myself. During this journey I was able to experience both me’s with ease. In some instances I was both me’s combined, as if the experiences of both were merged. Yet throughout the experience I was very much aware that the other me was different; she had a knowingness and fearlessness I did not have.

It was explained that when this process concludes I will be essentially experiencing life via the other me. I will have more courage, less fear, and more certainty and knowingness. All semblance of the old will be gone. Just like in my OBE, where I was able to immediately transfer my consciousness to the other me except this will happen at the physical level. I will still be me, just better.

I assume at some point all of this will be explained via the New.

Other Memories

There is memory of discussing with my welcome Home party how to ease my transition. I remember asking them to make it comfortable and familiar and to not play any jokes on me (I once read in Life Between Lives an account where a man’s soul group played a joke on him upon his return and made themselves look like Satan. Not funny to me!). I saw in my mind a cottage in a green field. There was smoke rising out of a chimney and a feeling of rest and recuperation associated with it. This is what I feel I need and so it will be provided.

I also understood that I could transfer my consciousness back to my body anytime I needed in order to facilitate the Return. I would not be gone from this physical existence, just resting. This was decided so that I was able to continue to participate in the life I was leaving behind. I would not be a guide, but I would be a presence felt always by the New. Essentially, it will help both of us transition. The Wholeness will in itself be invaluable.

Other Considerations

I do not, personally, feel my Starseed origins, yet it is obvious to me that they exist in some form. I am told that the New has been in stasis while I lived my life. When the New was with me for that week the memories that flooded my consciousness were beyond belief and now that I feel once again “separate” from that part of myself, I have difficulty believing any of it. I suppose when all of this is over the Starseed aspects and all that they entail will be the most noticeable change in me. Right now I feel mostly to be operating on memory of that amazing week and what it revealed. I long to return to that, to feel that wholeness and certainty of purpose once again. I hope that something similar will be the end result of this process. How wonderful that would be. I hear now, “Perhaps it will be better”. Tee-hee!

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Practicing the Exchange

From the perspective of the old.

Last night was an odd night. I spent the majority of the night doing some kind of strange transfer into and out of my body. I did this over and over again, but it left me with such an odd, indescribable, foreign feeling that I then spent the rest of the night into the morning in deep conversation with my guide about what we were doing. I specifically went over and over the dream and the in/out of body experiences over and over in order to remember them. Unfortunately, upon waking at 4:50am, the images and specifics of the conversations, dreams and experiences vanished.

It is odd how my memory is being blocked. I remember a summary of what we were doing, but it is very limited. I remember nothing past this feeling of what occurred. Images sometimes come but as soon as I “catch” them, they seem to dematerialize, leaving me with only questions.

Practice

When I awoke, my guide was close and calming me down. I even recall hearing a song being sung gently, though it was in a language I did not understand and the melody appeared to be linked to the language rather than a song itself. It instantly soothed me and I regained the ability to detach from my emotions.

The in and out transfer had me very concerned. I am comfortable with the sensations related to leaving the body to venture into the astral, but this sensation was just beyond bizarre. It felt like I was being nudged out of my body, like someone else was pushing their energy in and so I would just kinda pop out. This in itself was not the strangest part, though. What was really weird was the feeling of totally amnesia, confusion and disorientation that resulted immediately upon my recognizing I was OOB. And I recognized immediately every time. When these feelings would come I would protest being OOB and grapple for some kind of memory to help me recover what I had lost. What is strange here is that I did not specifically want my body back, I just wanted myself back.

The memory of it is very vague now, which I think is purposeful based upon the upset it caused me. I do not scare easily. While OOB I usually confront the unknown or dark aspects of myself without hesitation. This experience, however, reminded me of what I suspect happens when someone actually dies unexpectedly. The memory feeling I have is that when we die we enter into a state of amnesia similar to when we come into the body as a baby. This amnesia is generally short-lived, though, as we have guides and family awaiting us to help us transition quickly.

It was explained to me that we had been practicing the transfer and had been doing so for many nights prior to this. I was being allowed to remember in small chunks in order to keep the overwhelm to a minimum.

I was again asked if I was in still in agreement and it was explained to me that I did not have to do anything I did not want to do. I wholeheartedly agreed that I still wanted to go through with the transfer. There was no hesitation or doubt at all.

Pricking Chakra Activity

I was asked to lay flat and try to return to sleep. I did lay flat but felt very energized for some reason and it took me a while to get near sleep. When I did, I felt a strange pricking sensation in my abdominal area. The sensation was centered over my second chakra but was also around my third chakra. It felt like a million tiny needles were lightly pressed up against my skin. I have never felt chakra sensations like it!

Something about the sensations caused me to remember part of the strange feeling I had when I left my body. It was similar to how one feels when all the blood comes out of their head, like a trickling, prickly, progressive flow out. I understood then that the reason these particular exit sensations were different is because I was literally disengaging from the lower three chakras. Completely disconnecting from the physical-spiritual docking mechanism. In essence, I was unplugging myself from the body.

This realization created an overwhelm in me and the meaning of it hit home hard: This really was an energy transfer. I really was going to “leave”. But where would I go? What would happen?

I heard the song/words and the gentle melody caused an instant relaxing. My worry was replaced immediately with knowingness and a peace that is indescribable.

I appealed to my Council who responded quickly. Their message was short and to the point. They confirmed that I would be coming Home soon and related that they were eager for this to take place. I had so many questions and was unable to remain centered on my heart the entire time, so much of what they told me is lost now.

My guide, or the New me, was close and comforting. He began asking me about my childhood and memories of it began to surface. He asked me again if I remembered him. I did not, do not, and this upsets me. He reminded me that he had been with me from the beginning and assisted me through some very tough times. While we talked, I saw my early childhood memories flash in my mind. I also began to finish thoughts for him. For example, he said, “We planned this” and I said, “And I am done now”.

As we talked I became so relaxed that I began to drift off to sleep. I remember vaguely discussing some future issues related to Nevada, Utah and the sea levels in Japan. I can still see the maps of the state of Nevada but I can’t remember what exactly was imparted to me.

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Lyra Painting Update

So I had time alone with my youngest (15 months old) and he took a nice long nap as a present to his mommy. 🙂 This alone time gave me a chance to update my Lyra painting. I wanted to make it look more like my “visit” there and so I took some time to view some YouTube videos on how to paint clouds and grass. I gave it a try and this is the result.

I am pretty proud of my clouds and what fun to paint! The grass is growing on me as it is more green than what I saw in my visit. Funny, but I didn’t even use green, only brown, mustard, yellow and white, yet it somehow turned out looking a dark green.

In case you forgot what the first stage of the painting looked like, here you go:

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Docking the Higher Self into the Physical Body

A couple of weeks ago I received a message. It was, “There will be a docking in December”. In my search for what this might mean, I found this amazing article.

Christine Meleriessee – Docking the Higher Self into the Physical body – Lord Adama – March 26, 2014

Greetings!

It is I, Lord Adama with the Telosian Council of Light.

Hello, Hello, Hello everyone. Welcome. I should say… you’re welcoming me instead of me welcoming you.

Let’s just take a breath. Feel the energies of this day and what it represents for us to fully understand the integration that is happening to each of you, to each of us, within this planet; and how we assimilate the movement of the energies within our physical conditioning.

Each of you are striving to bring forth your Higher Consciousness into your Physical Consciousness. Through this process you must purge through the Etheric Body and allow that Etheric Body to heal in multi-faceted ways. You’re also working within your Emotional Body and your Mental Body so that you can be fully healed in all aspects of your Soul’s existence; all lifetimes, all experiences, all moments within and without a body. That’s a pretty big tall order to allow this energy to become fully integrated and grounded upon this Earth as the Earth is changing. This is what each of you is trying to do.

Whether you think about it or not, this is truly what your Higher Self (your Soul’s Essence) is working within you to help you understand the process; to accept the changes, and to walk through the challenges in order to receive the highest frequency and acceptability within your physical body that you can hold. When we put it in those terms and have that understanding within our physical minds, it seems like a big advancement into a society that does not accept this level of understanding, which is very true. I share it in that context to help you truly grasp within your physical mind what it is you are going through.

We talk about the words Ascension, De-ascending, Enlightenment, and Spiritual Advancement. In truth, all these words represent one journey of allowing the part of you that was created in the very beginning to be remembered through your physical existence. Let’s face it, as we leave the body we exit the body, and we move into those Higher Realms. We have that Soul Body of Light, but yet the existence that you had in the physical body – you have remembrances of that but it is not like being in the physical body and trying to remember the Soul’s existence. It is quite a journey to take.

It is important for each of you to have the conceptual understanding that each moment is going to change. As your Higher Essence is trying to come more fully in the physical body, you have to make those necessary adjustments; otherwise it cannot happen. This is what you are experiencing. You are experiencing your physical body going through tremendous changes.

This is a powerful journey to begin with but then you add the frequency of GAIA shifting and her energies changing; that now you are personally feeling those frequencies of Light from the Sun, the Moon, and the planet shifting their alignment into the planet. What you have known previously no longer holds to be true; but your foundation is being cracked. It is part of your personal journey, your pathway for this to happen because otherwise you would not be in this space of knowing about the both worlds or all worlds coming together into Oneness, but it does not make it any easier. What I want to assist you with this evening before we go into this beautiful City is for you to reflect deeply within your Heart.

What is your truth in this moment?

You connect within your Higher Self. We all know that you are awakened. Everyone is on a different level of that awakening.

What is your awakening telling you in this moment?

What is it that you need to embrace to assist you to go further into this pathway?

What you have done is stepped consciously into a world that you have been training for unconsciously for your Soul’s Essence. Within that Soul’s Essence it’s an unconscious movement without a body; but within the consciousness that you hold within the development of your Light Body (your Merkabah) your frequency of Light without a Body – you have full consciousness of that moment. When you come into the body, that changes.

The Physical Body is not meant, at this present time, to accept everything that the Soul Body is supposed to bring forth; so they have to come together. There has to be a merging. It is not just like a spaceship docking into the space station. It is not a movement where it just happens and then it is altogether. You have to try, and try, and try again. All parts of the shuttle that you are commanding need to be in place. They cannot all be in place until the totality of what you are experiencing is coming together.

So the first element that you are working through is your physical body accepting a new energy to come into it. When you awaken and you decide that you want to meditate, that you want to relax, that you want to get into a higher state of consciousness, that is just the beginning. Those are the trial periods of allowing that energy to come more fully into the physical existence. Then when you come out of those meditations; you go back into that physical creation.

The more that you do the intentional meditation of those energies through your chakras and with the Rays of God, then that energy is going to surface into the physical body.

You get closer at allowing the docking element to become tighter. It takes many, many, many times for this event to occur. This is exactly what you are experiencing presently. You are trying to dock with your Higher Self within the physical existence. Your consciousness of your meditative state is a bridge between the Higher Self and the Physical Self to allow that to happen. The most important element is to allow that consciousness to be fully within you. It takes a lot of practice in order to do it consciously; we need physically, every day, every moment of your day. This is why we urge you continually to allow these changes to occur.

So then what is happening to the physical body at this time?

The physical body has to heal in order to receive the higher frequencies of the Soul Body of Light. It has to remove itself out of the 3rd dimensional construct, move into the higher levels of frequency so the Soul Body of Light can fully integrate within the Physical Body. Then the Etheric Body that you are bringing forth into your Physical Body is housing many different elements, many timelines, many thought processes, many emotions that are from all the other lifetimes. The ones that become more active are the ones that are very important. You are trying to clear those elements at the same time which is a direct reflection in your Emotional Body and your Mental Body. Those bodies have to be able to surrender onto the fact that they are going to integrate and not be separate entities any longer within your physical existence.

As you step upon the Mastery Pathway and walk through the initiations, these are the experiences that become very real. I am putting it in very simple terms to help each of you understand this process that you are undergoing. It is not an easy process and it is a continual one. Every time you go through one initiation or a step of an initiation, you plateau for a while as the body accepts the Soul Body of Light. Then you feel really peaceful and you feel the serenity. You’re able to do things more easily. It depends upon your Higher Self and what they want on the next step of that initiation phase.

Do you stay in that space for a while or do you move forward again? And everything else in the environmental conditioning of the planet and others around you also represent the focus of how this is done, how quickly you do it, or how slowly you do it.

So my focus through this discussion in this moment is to allow each of you to understand more deeply within yourself what you are experiencing.

How is the docking going?
What is happening to you through the process?
What physical symptoms are resulting?
What emotional feelings and mental thoughts are occurring?
Do you feel closer to the process?
What needs to be looked at?
Do you need to go deeper into your childhood and release some past traumas or feelings that you are still holding on to?
Look at your relationships. How do you interact with other people?
Do you allow the mirrors that you see in front of you to be cracked so that you can heal more deeply or do you continue your pathway the way that you always have been?
These are all very important thoughts to bring into your consciousness. I bring these to the forefront this evening.
The choices that you make – what is it that you are feeling?
Is there a synchronous flow that is occurring within your world, or is it a very bumpy ride and you keep hitting blockages along the way?

It also represents the ability to allow your Higher Essence (your Higher Self) to be more of your Guide Post. Your physical self can no longer walk the pathway as it had previously in an unawakened condition. In an awakened condition, you are no longer just your physical self; you are so much more. You are a part of us – that internalization of life; becoming that Multi-dimensional Being allowing those Essences to come into focus. So you may be feeling a lot of different energies from many different levels in order for you to incorporate.

What it is that you need and what you don’t need?
I want to take you into a deeper part of yourself.
What is it that is in your core Essence in this moment?
Let’s do that now by taking a deep breath.
What are the first feelings or the thoughts that come up to you?

Allow your Higher Self to guide you not your physical mind because your physical mind may want to detour you away from the full capacity of this integration that you are experiencing. As you breathe deeply into your Heart Essence, allow yourself to know that you are the truth from your Higher Essence. You understand what that truth is but you cannot fully accept it until you are ready to receive it. The physical mind has to be ready. Let us allow the Physical Mind to accept the Higher Mind in this moment. Let that flow within you.

You may already know what you need presently and what it is that you may need from another or from the depth of your soul. This is a very important part of your acceleration of understanding your inner truth. As we go forward, your inner truth will change. The depth of your knowledge will come fully within you that will create the wisdom to be shared.

It’s a powerful time and we are in the power of these Essences that are occurring presently. Every soul upon the planet will question what they are doing; when they do so, that is Illumination. The Light is fully focused within the experience that is occurring.

My truth to each of you in this moment is the fact that I deeply want you to acknowledge a more in-depth part of yourself to be accepted.

It’s not coming from whom you know yourself as a physical person, not the person that you are related to physically within this physical body; it is your truth and your knowledge from your Higher existence. Just allow those Essences That You Are to filter down through your Antakarana into your Heart Center. Even if it’s just a small little portion of what you need to acknowledge, now is the time.

Doing this will assist you in finding more balance. It is when you don’t take moments like this, that you will be hit by the bulldozer as some may say – the hand of God. In truth, it’s the hand of your Higher Self saying,

“When are you going to wake up?” When are you going to realize that these truths are our truths together?
Step into it my friend and allow yourself to fully embrace all the changes That You Are to become the One That We Are.
Breathe in deeply and allow this Essence to flow within you. It is my divine pleasure to be here with you as Lord Adama, your Brother from Telos.

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Symptoms of the Swap

From the perspective of the old.

I am feeling utterly abandoned by the other me. It is as if she just vanished. The drop from bliss to normal has been a shock. I feel like the donkey being led by the carrot. It is such a tease to have such wonderful wholeness and then to be left feeling lacking once again.

If I remember to focus on my heart center, the shock is much less, but it has been difficult for me, especially yesterday. I let my mind do too much thinking about metaphysical and philosophical things. I was warned to avoid thinking as this is the Ego’s domain and of course Ego came out and caused some upset in my household not long after it was allowed free reign.

Symptoms of the Swap

I wanted to list out some of the changes I have noticed in myself since the 28th and the sudden drop back to normalcy.

  • Losing time
  • Blue, electrical-looking lights upon waking
  • Sudden descending calm
  • Emotional detachment
  • Feeling as if my life and body are not mine
  • Warmth in lower three chakras, especially the second chakra
  • Increase in psychic chills
  • Ringing in ears
  • Feeling watched
  • Seeing Spirit
  • Buzzing around back of head connecting ears
  • Third eye buzzing
  • Confusion
  • Passivity; letting go
  • Acceptance
  • Perceiving own future
  • Mental blocks or fog
  • Loss of interest in OBEs
  • Odd, jumpy and shifty vibrations upon waking
  • Feeling “done” with life
  • Deep, dream-filled sleep
  • Inability to remember dreams upon waking
  • Profound Knowing
  • Sudden Remembering

My 5am briefings have stopped but I am still waking around this time. This is normally when I notice the blue lights. They surround images of my fading dreams as I regain conscious awareness of my body. They literally look like neurotransmitters or electrical pulses. Most every time I wake I feel odd vibrations, as if my body is being shaken up and down and left to right all at the same time. I also quickly lose dream images and story lines abruptly upon waking and recall is impossible even when I set the intention to remember.

The ringing is my ears just began a couple of days ago. It starts and then gets very loud. Then, the sound remains for a very long time, so long I get use to it and lose the sound. Yet if I focus on it I can find it immediately, still there. This disappears during the day, thankfully.

The loss of time and detachment to this life are really disorienting. I have been waking up with amnesia and it takes a while to recover my memories and locate myself in time. During the day I often forget what day it is or what time of day it is or even what I am suppose to be doing. I will have to reorient myself – “Okay, it’s Friday. I know this because I just went to work (insert regaining memory of work routine)” – only to once again forget an hour or so later. I did this so many times yesterday that I began to wonder if I was going somewhere else and it was causing these time hiccups. This sudden amnesia and detachment has been going on all week and increasing in intensity and frequency.

There is odd activity in my lower three chakras as well. It is interesting to me, since I have had a dullness in this area for many years now. It is as if my lower chakras have been on vacation, especially my second chakra. Lately, when my heart is activated and the New me comes close, initiating psychic chills (wonderful feeling) my second chakra will light up and a warmth will spread out in that area. It is so nice to feel in that area again!

Some changes have been on-going since the week of bliss and feeling whole. The descending calm, buzzing in upper chakras. profound Knowing, Remembering, loss of interest in OBEs, acceptance, letting-go, mental fog/blocks, seeing Spirit and feeling watched, and perceiving my own future are all such changes. Perhaps these are permanent?