Monthly Archives: April 2015

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The End is the Beginning

Day three and I still feel wonderful. I am much more leveled out than I started, but the feeling is staying. Hallelujah!

As per my dream, I laid in savasana yesterday afternoon just because. My household was alive with noise – my children were talking loudly, my baby was crying for attention from my husband and it was quite chaotic. Yet I felt myself relax deeply and my third eye activate. Soon my crown and third eye formed the familiar energy helmet over the top of my head and I found myself fixated on a television show my daughter was watching in the other room. I listened intently. Focused.

Then a heavy blanket of energy seemed to descend over my entire body and my eyes immediately began to twitch back and form. REM. I instantly recognized the symptoms of trance and was blown away. Wow!

Vibrating

I have heard of others experiencing kundalni energy say they have an almost constant vibratory energy all over their body. I had never experienced so it was quite alien to me. I thought maybe it was the psychic chills I frequently get from my guides. But no, they said this is quite different from psychic chills.

Yesterday mine started, and they are still with me. They are subtle but I can tune into them and make them stronger if I want. At one point yesterday my entire body felt so alive, so full of energy that I was a bit blown away. There I was, standing in my kitchen, covered in vibrations! All I did was pause for a moment to take in my surroundings, something I have been doing quite often these last few days. I do this to increase my awareness of the present moment. Well, it is working and it seems to have initiated the all-over body vibrations!

Since then I have but to change my focus and I notice the vibrations. If I don’t put attention there then they are quite inconspicuous. I can feel them everywhere – not just in my chakras. I even felt them in my feet! hehe

Dream: Gospel Songfamaviol-1

This morning I awoke in tears from a dream I was having. In it, I was in a group of people at a type of ceremony honoring someone’s accomplishments. I had chosen a rare gospel song to play that was from the 1940s. I don’t remember the song’s melody now, but there was a part in which the lyrics addressed generations and how daughters and sons later became husbands and wives, mothers and fathers and then grandmothers and grandfathers. I cried hearing this, full of such an overwhelming love for humanity.

Upon waking in tears, my guide was close and calming. I was also covered in several energy blankets. One was around my midsection, one was around my head, and another was around my legs. In addition, my entire body was lightly vibrating.

I said immediately to my guide, “I chose a very challenging personality this life”. He said, “Indeed you did”.

I knew without knowing how that the life I lived two lives before this one was much more in line with my true Self. My personality (Ego) in that life was not resistant like it is in this life. It was easier to control and much more pliable. I had such faith in that life, such patience and understanding. Yes, the life was hard, but I had faith and held onto that faith throughout.

I was also a black woman living in the South during that lifetime. I have such a deep love and respect for black women in this life. They are truly the most beautiful of women to me. I didn’t recognize where that came from until I remembered that lifetime. Such faithful, passionate, supportive, wonderful, amazing family I had in that lifetime. They taught me the true meaning of family.

Anyway, I digress. That life I chose a personality that was easier to control. I knew that in this life I chose a very resistant, stubborn, overly emotional personality on purpose. I also knew that it could also be controlled and I was learning to do that now.

Energetic Transfer (AKA Energy Swap)

If you have been reading my posts you may have read one entitled Energy Swap. In it I was told this would be happening to me. I didn’t quite understand it but, as with all the messages I receive, I put it “on the shelf” and left it for later.

Upon feeling the energy blankets, I kept waiting for the energy bolt I have had in the past, but it never came. My guide said to me, “You don’t need that anymore”.

I drifted into the in-between during this time, enjoying the calming energy. While there, I was told some things by my guide about the merging process. I can’t remember everything now (I forgot it almost instantly) but I do remember he said, “You will listen more and more”. The rest of what I was told had to do with the exchange of energy that was on-going.

When I returned to myself I said to him, “I am coming into myself”. I said it with such certainty and knowingness. Now I understand more fully what it means.

The “swap” of energy is not that I am giving up energy, it is more like I am being rewired. The energy that is coming in, or “downloaded”, is more of me. As it comes in, it redirects and channels the existing energy and “flushes” the system. In doing this, a new, more efficient system is created. So, in a nutshell, I am regaining control of the human system and personality and ultimately it will result in a well-controlled Ego.

The End is the Beginning

I am already seeing the changes within myself. The biggest is the calm that overrides any ineffective, over-reactive emotion. I am more able to sit and do nothing and think nothing. I am more able to be in the present moment. I can distance myself from other people’s dramas. I am cause more than I am effect. I control my emotions. I control my reactions. I control my words. I control my thoughts.

The me and the Me are switching places.

Examples:

My husband used my apple cider vinegar to dye Easter eggs. I thought, “This makes me angry”. Then there was a counter-thought, “It is done. There is no need to be angry.” Then I thought, “I am not angry”. The idea of the emotion was created with the initial thought but was squelched before it manifested.

All day yesterday my husband was at work. He had the day off but chose to go in. I called him twice, asking when he would be home. He was happy and motivated. I had the thought to yell at him, reprimand him for not being home with family. That thought was squelched immediately by the “calm” which came in and overrode my intention to say something. Instead, I listened to him and let him be happy. There was no counter-thought this time, just the calmness. It pervaded my being.

There are tons more examples. These are just recent. Overall, I find these scenarios more and more common. My typical reactions to minor issues are lessening. The Ego-me no longer has free-reign. Auto-pilot has been turned off.

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Preparation and Inductation: Message from the High Council

For those of you struggling with the most recent spike in energy, you will be experiencing a short reprieve before the full moon on the 4th. Use this time to refuel both spiritually and physically, for the next few weeks will cycle through more of the same as your energy adjusts and becomes accustomed to the new, higher vibration that is settling in. This vibration will remain from here on out and the energy that comes with it will spread through your physical, emotional and spiritual system similar to that of a drug as it heals the body.

The adjustment will not be easy, even for those accustomed to these intense fluctuations. There will be times when you are discouraged and feel ready to throw in the towel; to hide in your room and retreat. This is by no means the correct solution as to disconnect from the world, to hide from that which is occurring, will only add fuel to the ever raging fire inside of you. We encourage you to do the opposite – to go outside, immerse yourself in nature and take yourself away from that which is safe and routine in your life. Hiding, retreating from life and introverting is most toxic to you despite the initial relief it may bring. This is an illusion, a composite of that which has trapped you your entire life.

That unsettled, anxious energy – that energy that makes your entire body restless and your mind unable to think in clear, cohesive thoughts – is the energy you will be faced with while this new vibration takes root. When instances such as these occur, it is time to get up and get out – out of the material, concrete and plaster world and into nature. Move your body, let it help you ground the energy as it is designed to do. Focus on your feet as they make contact with the earth. Feel the breeze. Smells the smells. Look up at the trees and the sky. Immerse yourself in nature.

There can be found within a calm. It comes from your very core. If you can access this part of you, you will find radiating from within a warmth and love that will take you within and without, like a wave as it swells toward the beach and is then pulled back out to sea. This rhythm that is you will ease the uncomfortable sensations that comes with the raising frequencies inundating the planet at this time.

However, if you choose to ignore these simple solutions, allowing your “to do’s” to overcome your innate sense that guides you toward more balance and ease, then you will find the uneasy sometimes frantic dis-ease will not dissipate for it is the representation of the very patterns constituting your 3D self and work directly against the Shift.

What you resist, persists. Remain open, accepting and this too will pass.

To those who are the newest initiates to the ever growing group who has successfully transitioned, you will surrender to the new energies without incident. This time is a time to regroup and enjoy the new You. Things appear clearer with each day. Peace is something tangible when before it seemed far out of reach. Acceptance is a part of Who You Are, now second nature. Resistance is still present at times but is now embraced with love and easily eradicated with Knowingness.

Your Assistants (guides/angels) will help guide you onto your chosen path. It will increasingly be known to you via subtle integration of pathways in the framework that is You. Much is occurring while you sleep and over time will infiltrate your mind in ever more obvious and direct means. You all have a “calling” and soon shall be asked to take your rightful place alongside the others who have likewise been called into action.

This is your time to be be quiet, to take in all that has transpired throughout your many faceted transformation and induction into this new reality. Tune in and be rewarded.

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Savasana: Corpse Pose

The amazing happy feeling I had yesterday continues today. I got physically tired last night but could not fall asleep. I was still buzzing with a high, elation. Through the night I woke several times to the helmet sensation over my head, though it was greatly diminished from the intensity of April 2nd.

The energy has leveled out today. This short reprieve will likely make many people relieved who have been shaken up physically, emotionally and spiritually by this sudden shock wave of energy. Unfortunately, the reprieve will not be long as it will increase again tomorrow, April 4th.

I am looking forward to tomorrow. 🙂

Savasana: Corpse Pose

Although I do not remember many dreams last night, this morning after waking several times, I fell into the in-between and had a short semi-lucid dream.

In the dream I was in a golden colored room with golden colored furnishing. It was a very comfortable space and I felt relaxed. There was a man with me but I cannot recall his face now. He and I were discussing time and when talking about it I had a short dream within a dream about our discussion.

The dream within a dream was of me leaving a restaurant. I ran into some parents who were very happily chatting about a birthday party. One woman, who had short, curly blonde hair, said to me, “The teachers aren’t suppose to get here until later”. I said, “Oh I work different hours. I usually get to work at 9:45 and get off at 3:45”. She said, “Oh! I see. Those are odd hours”.

As I left and drove out of the parking lot I was thinking about my hours, trying to add them up 8 and finding they fell two hours short. I realized I had been late to work every day and decided to fix that.

I came back to the conversation with my guide and saw in front of me a word written on paper. It said, “Savasana”. I did not understand it at first so repeatedly spelled it to myself. At some point, though, my guide referred to the word and I knew exactly what it was and lay down on the floor in Savasana to demonstrate.

Interpretation

When I awoke I heard my children yelling downstairs and remembered they were coloring Easter Eggs (yes very early for that but my oldest is persistent!). I knew the dream was indicating that I needed to “get back to work”. My “work” being my family and physical existence. I knew this mainly because I had a song in my head that was saying, “The kids aren’t alright“.

The Savasana message was interesting to me and I knew that I was being instructed to sleep in this position, though I do not remember the specific conversation. I found this article on Savasana that gives a good explanation of why I was being instructed to lay in this position. Here is an exerpt:

Most of the time, we live in loops of distraction. Patanjali calls this avidya, or ignorance. Ignorance is related to the act of avoidance. In Savasana, however, we need not avoid. We simply notice, with evenly hovering attention, whatever shows up, and then allow it to pass on, to die, so that we can arrive in the present moment. Savasana offers the possibility of “a small death, every moment, every day,” says Pattabhi Jois. Much of what we notice in yoga practice is our patterns of attachment and repulsion…….Yet part of the process of allowing our preconceptions and our reactions to our anxieties to pass away is to allow for our categories of the unacceptable to fall away…….. Instead we lie down with all of our repulsions and all of our attachments, both of which are sacred, both of which teach us about our strategies of attraction and avoidance and where we are in relation to the present moment. Observing these patterns allows us to suspend those very strategies and surrender to the feelings that we have been avoiding. This surrender gives way to spaciousness in the mind and body. When one practices this way there is space enough for everything.

I received many messages yesterday indicating that my the next stage for me is to let go of more of those things – thoughts, beliefs, routines – which do not serve me and my purpose. I kept hearing the old gospel song, “Bringing in the Sheaves” and recognized with certainty that I need to work on letting go of two things: 1. Fear and 2. Attachment. I am also working on living in the present moment. All these fall in line with the Savasana message I received this morning.

We can all learn a thing or two from Savasana. I recommend to those struggling right now with the Shift to lie in this pose and allow yourself to surrender to the things (symptoms) you have been avoiding. Allow yourself to be detached from that which repulses you, observe it and allow it to pass as the moment passes.

As my guide loves to tell me, “This too shall pass”.

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The Consciousness Ripple Effect

I am seeing something that should have been obvious to me but up until today was not. Consciousness is a ripple effect. It moves out from the center and touches all experiencers/experiences, increasing them all to the same degree.

I have so many thoughts pouring through me right now but I can’t get out of my mind this idea. I remember all my OBEs and the crazy child personality that often comes with them. I remember how I rarely stay in the moment in my OBEs, but flit from here to there. I recall how I struggle with myself and against myself while OOB, only recently letting go and surrendering, allowing myself to be taken off by the wind even. I recall how my vision is often a problem, as is my hearing.

I am the same in waking life as I am in my OBEs. I often am on autopilot. I often fight with myself. The world is mostly gray and dismal with sparks of color here and there. I also don’t listen too well.

Yet today I saw that as I increase consciousness in this experience so will it increase in the others. I can see that this experience is but one in a million or more experiences I am having all together at the same time. My consciousness can be with any one of them at any time it chooses. Yet it will not be more in one than it is in another.

Imagine being fully conscious and aware in any one of your experiences at any time. Imagine “waking up” all at once to all of them, at once.

Mind blowing.

I also recall setting the intention recently to be more present in the moment. This is for waking life. I sense that my experience could be more clear, more real than it has been. I want that and I am looking for it throughout my days, constantly reminding myself to be “present here” and pulling my thoughts away from the past or the future.

I am happier because of it.

We must master the present experience in order to master all experience.

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Do You Feel It?

I awoke this morning to the most fantastic, happy feeling I have ever felt upon waking. My guide was right there with me and I could not go back to sleep. Again. My energy has been high the past few days but this is beyond a normal happy feeling.

The feeling reminds me very much of how I feel after having really good sex. 😀 It is an “afterglow” feeling but it is much better than any afterglow I have ever had. I don’t recall doing anything unusual in dreamland either – no astral sex, no kundalini energy, nothing out of the ordinary.

Perhaps if I look into my dreams I will find the source of this fantastic, sublime, blow your mind feeling?

Asking Forgiveness

I had a really detailed dream where I met up with an old classmate. We were in a bar in Montana just chatting and talking. I had a semi-lucid moment where I realized who it was I was talking to and so told him, “You know when we were in 7th grade and I broke up with you the way I did? That was wrong of me and I’m sorry. I felt pressured to do it and I really felt bad about it. Still do”. He smiled and said, “No problem. I understand”.

We then spent time catching up on each others lives, him talking about his wife and introducing me to her.

Then someone stole my car out of the parking lot and there was a side-dream about that and me getting it back. It was a nice sports car. I think it was black.

That was when I awoke feeling so wonderful and my guide was there talking to me. I can’t remember everything we talked about now but he was trying to communicate something important to me, encouraging me to go into the in-between. Every time a message would start coming through I would become too aware and miss most of it, though. I was just too happy and excited.

Taking the Fence Down

In one of the in-between times I recall talking with my guide while standing in a green yard. He asked me, “Do you want to keep the fence up?” I said cheerfully, “No. Take it down”.

I woke up and knew this was important but I was not sure how. I think the fence symbolizes my resistance to something, perhaps the changes I have been going through. Me taking it down suggests I am open to allowing in more of this energy and change.

Hearing From the Heart

I also recall being told this by my guide:

“You will hear me differently. Soon.”

“What does that mean?”

“You will hear me from the heart”.

I didn’t and still don’t quite understand. Perhaps it is just feeling him and not so much hearing him.

I Finished!

Another in-between message I received was seeing and hearing my daughter as she jumped up and down. She yelled, “I finished! I finished!”

I woke up knowing I had finished something. I felt very proud.

You Can Project

I told my guide I wanted to leave my body. He told me I was “blue” indicating my energy was high enough to astral.

I tossed and turned for some time, not able to settle the amazing, excited energy I felt.

I finally laid on my back long enough to feel the vibrations indicative of astral. I was fully conscious and surprised at how intense the vibrations were.

My guide said, “You can project now”, as if he wanted me to just get up out of my body.

I didn’t know if I could do that so asked, “How?”

He told me to relax into the vibrations. I tried but relaxation was not forthcoming. Again, I was too happy and excited and you know what? I didn’t mind not going OOB. I was fine right here in the physical.

The energy intensified around my head like a helmet. I also felt energy in my second chakra as well as in the other chakras. It tickled and was pleasant.

Continued Energy Helmet

I have had the energy helmet over my entire head all day. As I drove my son to his doctor appointment it was intense and I felt very floaty as I traveled the highway. I actually felt similar to how I feel in astral and I felt a juxtaposition occur. I feel like I am here and there at the same time, riding a wave right through the middle of two worlds and able to navigate either one at any time. Weird!

I was asked if I wanted it to stop and I told my guide “No”. I knew the worry was all me and the feeling was completely controllable. Just like in astral.

The energy continues even now and the amazing feeling is still with me.

I have just been all smiles today. Ear to ear.

Do you feel it?

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The Next Three Weeks: What to Expect

As the full moon approaches the energy seems to be building and building. I feel about ready to explode with energy! Yesterday I spent most of my day outside or exercising in an attempt to control the energy. Though I ended up feeling physically exhausted by day’s end, I did not sleep well. I tossed and turned most of the night and woke up four or five times. Each time I woke up from a vivid dream. All this despite taking Benadryl to help me sleep.

Today I can still feel the energy and I know it is only going to keep on rising. On a personal level this doesn’t really concern me since I seem to be better able to handle the energy increases than I use to. However, I know that with such increases others are not so good at adjusting and channeling the excess energy.

I have been forewarned that today there will be a “spike” at around 2pm CST. I am ready!

I can’t help but think about the message I received not long ago about a period of three weeks starting around the time of the full moon (coming up this Saturday). What do the upcoming changes mean for those still struggling with the Shift?

What to Expect

I am told that those who are in the beginning stages of the Shift, both conscious and unconscious of it, will be overwhelmed by the waves of energy soon to come. Some will be downright plowed over by it. This can result in flu-like symptoms – body aches and pains, headaches, fatigue, digestive problems, joint pain, stiffness, and lack of motivation to name a few. Mentally there will be some who just cannot handle the mental fog that descends down upon them seemingly from out of nowhere. They will be more negative – snapping at people and just being downright nasty at times.

Those who have progressed to the middle and later stages of the Shift may not notice much. It all depends on what chakra centers are being purged and aligned for them. Those working on the heart may find themselves overly emotionally charged both positive and negative. They also may have higher incidences of anxiety and heart palpitations. Those working on the throat chakra may be more or less talkative, have difficulties swallowing and/or have symptoms in the throat area that come on suddenly and then disappear just as suddenly.

Those working on the third-eye will sense the energy of others which could, in turn, cause them to mistakenly assume the emotions they are feeling are their own. They may pick up a myriad of emotions from others and this can be a challenge, especially if they are around people struggling with adjustment. For those new to this ultra-sensitivity to others emotions (empathy) it is a good idea to practice self-protection by grounding and protecting, using a crystal or just avoiding negative people.

Finally, those working on the crown chakra can expect physical symptoms such as skin rashes and sensitivity, insomnia, and stomach upset. Some will have more incidences of communication with their Higher Self and/or knowingness, intensely vivid dreams and even astral travel or trance states.

This website has a great list of the chakras and the body systems they affect. If you are struggling regularly with a specific physical or emotional issue you can look for it on this site and it will tell you which chakras it relates to. Then you will know what chakra(s) you are currently clearing and aligning.

I also want to remind you that chakra clearing does not always happen in a recognizable sequence. So, you may be experiencing multiple chakras clearing at once and in no particular order. I have found in my own experience, however, that the lower four chakras tend to clear prior to the three higher ones.