When I awoke the morning of the 21st I found myself in the midst of a great influx of memory. I seemed to withdraw to the back of my mind as this other me came forward. I did not interject, just listened in awe.

Even since this dream I have had an awareness of this other me at all times. In the beginning I seemed overcome by her. The energy was intense. I felt expansive and more alive than I ever have. I was in a state of bliss for a week straight and became use to it. This resolved after the OBE in which news was given of the premature departure of a member of her soul group. Afterward, she withdrew some of her energy from me and I felt suddenly deflated of all the expansive energy I had gotten used to. Gone was the bliss and back was the “normal”. I could still feel her, but so much less, and it made me sad. This sadness, along with the sadness she experienced, made me a very melancholy person for a good 24 hours.

She has not gone, though she does seem at times unnoticeable to me. Yet, at certain times I feel to be influenced greatly by her. Either I will hear her question me, suggest something or remind me of some long lost memory. What is extremely curious to me is how my mind seems changed by her presence. I don’t react like I use to and there is a muting of most of my emotional reactions to life. If I do react negatively and reactively, it is suddenly taken from me, almost like someone comes by and just picks it up off the top of my mind and tosses it. For example, I had a very big letdown last night and found myself grieving over once again feeling so alone in life. I felt her concern. Then it was as if the grief were suddenly replaced with great joy. I went from crying and feeling all “poor me, boo-hoo” to, “hurray for life!” It was, is, such a magical experience.

Considerations I Have

I have been particularly upset over the insertion of the “walk-in” term into my mind, for obvious reasons. I was raised in a household that believes such things constitute demonic possession. I keep trying to figure out what is happening to me and up until today, I have not been able to process any thought about it.

Part of the memory restoration I have been going through alongside my partner (what else do I call her? lol) is memory from my first awakening, memories I had forgotten. I experienced so much during that time that it all blurred together; however, it is obvious to me that this New me, this partner, is my Companion Traveler. One in the same. I just identified him as male in 2003. I often still find myself doing this, but I don’t think he/she cares one way or the other.

There were times back in the period from 2003-2007 in which I felt very much to be in the midst of a “trying on” period. During these times I would be asked permission to allow him to join energies with me. I didn’t understand why nor did I ask (not sure why) but I always said yes and I always felt amazing during the short periods he would do this. But never did I experience anything like I did recently.

I never once thought it odd that my “guide” called himself a Companion Traveler and me the Earth Traveler. At that time I was so enamored of the whole process that I didn’t think to question much of what was happening. I remember he would often say to me, “You aren’t asking the right questions”. Ha! If I had only known!

It seems, though, that a Companion Traveler is more than a guide. He was merged with me prior to this lifetime and has acted as my guide, but so much more is making sense now. With my new experiences and information about walk-ins and soul exchanges, I am starting to put the pieces together.

This was planned. He and I planned it. I have no doubt about that. I get lots of leeway, though, and it seems that he has been waiting for me to decide to “step down” ever since our meeting in 2003. I recognize there is an agreement between us as well. What it is exactly has not been completely remembered yet.

I chose in 2007 to have a family, so he waited. I am done with that now and have been asked again what I want to do. Again, I can’t make up my mind. I am told we are “negotiating”, which makes perfect sense to me as my dreams, feelings and thoughts all point in that direction.

My last child being born was a trigger for the process to begin again. I was told in June, 2014, that I had four more years. It felt all very final to me, like I was going to “die”. I had previous messages that were profound in nature before that, but all after the birth of my son. I quit my job, sold my house and moved my family. All these actions seemed to be preparing me for something.

Now I am feeling the urge again to quit my job. We can’t afford it but even with that there is an urge within saying I need to spend time with my children, cherish the time I have with them. This was the same feeling I had last June, but I got a part-time job rather than “risk” no job. My husband agreed to let me leave my job, so it looks like that is what is going to happen.

I am told there are four more trying on periods coming up for me. Strangely, I eagerly await them. I felt complete for the first time in my entire life while in the body. No longer did I feel like a piece of me was missing. I have felt similar feelings while having profound spiritual experiences but never for an entire week.

I don’t know when I will next update. I am finding still that my mind blanks out when I begin to type or write my experiences down. Either that or I go from one me to the other in the midst of typing and I will look at what I typed and think, “When did that happen?” My Companion seems to come through more often and more strongly than I do. I suppose this is to be expected considering the process we are going through.