Monthly Archives: December 2015

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Dream: Returning to Work

I had a dream the other night that keeps coming back to me. Since my dreams have been so numerous and long, I have avoided writing about them because I believe they are the least interesting of my experiences. In order to avoid a lengthy retelling, I will summarize.

Dream: Returning to Work

I returned to the job I left in October just to see how things were going. I saw an office that was not there before. It looked like an administrator’s office. I inquired about it and was told, “No one uses that office”. I then went by my old office and it was empty.

I ran into old students who claimed they missed me. I hugged one and helped him with his anxiety. Then, as I was leaving, I saw an old associate who I had worked with back in 2007. When I saw him he waved and I slipped in mud and got it all over my pants.

Considerations

The part of the dream that keeps returning is the office that no one used. It sat there as if waiting for someone to use it. It was in direct contrast to my old office, which was vacant. When I woke from the dream I kept thinking my old job was going to call me back. Not sure why I thought this. I also kept thinking that office, the one no one used, was waiting for me and got the idea that I need to return to counseling.

The thing is, I don’t want to have anything to do with the education system and am not interested in the system in which I would have to work if I got an LPC. Yet when I saw this office in my dreams I felt this was presented to me to consider. In response to my thoughts I received warm energy that radiated from my heart center and my third-eye began to buzz confirming my correct interpretation.

There came with this energy an unspoken message: This information is being allowed to trickle out into my conscious awareness slowly so that I can absorb it without rejecting it. It does not mean I have to do anything right now. The only thing asked of me is to consider and be open to opportunities arising in this area.

I continued to ponder the idea of counseling. What would be my ideal scene if this were to occur?

Well, for one, it would have to be spiritually oriented. I have in the past looked into transpersonal psychology but I am really in no way interested in returning to school. Plus the only schools are out of state and most are not accredited.

In further thinking of the options I know of, I became concerned because I do not see my current situation as being conducive to such a change. I was then reminded that this was just an inkling; something to consider and no action was required of me.

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Heart Chakra Intensity and Swoosh!

I’ve had some energetic activity today which has been interesting. It began this afternoon on the way home from the gym at around 11:20am. I was singing a song and it vibrated intensely inside my chest, specifically right about my heart chakra. I was fascinated with this feeling. Had I felt it before when singing? If so, why was it so obvious now? I sang different pitches to test the sensitivity. The deeper notes felt the best. The vibrations felt lovely, too. Is this why I have always loved singing so much?

Around 1pm while at the park with my children I became very calm and peaceful. I kept noticing nature and feeling I should enjoy it. So I did. What was interesting is that my attention kept being drawn to individual leaves as they fell down towards the earth. I noted how different each of them was in the way they fell – their shape and movement. Some fell quickly in a mad dash for the ground. Others flitted and seemed to change their mind, flying upward toward the sky before finally settling to the ground. Again, I was fascinated by their dance. I could almost hear the Nutcracker playing in the background. hehe

Around this time I began to feel third-eye and heart chakra activity. We went for a walk like we always do after a visit to the playground. While walking my chest began to feel odd. There was a pulling energy in the same area where I had felt the vibrations previously, but this almost hurt. It did not last long, thankfully.

While going about the rest of my day I have felt as if I was being “watched” by a very large energy and had intermittent crown chakra sensations. I could not enjoy them because my children kept interrupting, so I don’t know much more than the feeling that accompanied them. It was a familiar feeling, one that in the past would have made me nervous. But this time there was no nervousness, just acceptance.

I decided to do yoga for the hips, back and legs. This is night three this week of yoga for me. I keep feeling drawn to do it, so I have been. This particular video was new and quite challenging for me since those areas are very stiff. I was completely immersed in the stretches and then when in savasana things changed.

The voice on the video requested I focus on the upper area of my heart (this was unexpected). So I did but when I did I felt uneasy, almost faint, and so would shift my focus to my third-eye and then redirect. The feeling kept returning along with a very strong presence to my left. It was really, really close and really, really BIG. I kept thinking, “I am going to pass out” but kept doing what the man was telling me to do. Focus on the upper heart area. Relax. Try not to think. Etc. The entire time this area of my heart felt very weird and caused me to feel as if I would pass out.

As the video was ending I was so deeply relaxed that I began to feel like I was sinking into the floor. I kept hearing noises that I think were on the video but I’m not sure. It just felt so wonderful.

All along there remained the huge presence to my left.

The next thing I know my body is being pounded by wave after wave of energy. Swoosh! Swoosh! Swoosh!

I knew I had entered the trance state and my mind was alerted instantly causing my heart to speed up a bit. But the energy kept pouring over me. It was an all-over intense energy, that came in waves that swept over me each more intense than the last. It was not the energy blanket like I would normally feel in this state. It was superb!

Sadly, my middle son came into the room and asked me why I was sleeping on the floor. Energy slowed but I continued to feel as if I had become one with the floor. Wonderful!

I don’t think I would have gone OOB but I felt like if I had passed out I would have left my body. What was so strange is that I felt drugged, as if I were being lulled into this state. Perhaps that was what the BIG presence was doing?

I am also fascinated by the upper chakra activity from today. First the vibrations from singing, then the strange ache and finally it causing me to feel faint. Weird! I am intrigued!

The BIG presence is Them. You know who, etc, etc. They’re baaaackk. lol

 

 

 

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Circular Object and Strange Being

I’ve once again been battling a cold, or at least that it what it seems. It could very well be allergies as the symptoms are the same. Either way, the congestion hits me at night making it difficult for me to breathe. I finally gave in and used some nasal spray last night (night 4) and got some very good, restful sleep.

Visions

Circular Object

I saw several times images of a circular object with fluted edges. It reminded me of a pie pan in shape but it was solid instead of hollow. In my vision it did not look like a UFO initially but then I realized it was spinning so the similarity was obvious.

Strange Being

Amid the imagery of the disc, I both felt myself in a scene as well as the observer. A large ball was being thrown toward me. I reached for it,  noting the ball came up to my waistline. When I put my hand on the ball, another pair of hands took the ball gently from me. The hands were very thin with long, slender fingers that were very obviously not human hands. I looked at the arms and they, too, were thin and very long and thin in comparison to my own. I looked up, but could not see the person attached to the arms and hands. The field of my vision was blocked, only allowing me to see as if through a veil,  but I could perceive that he/she was much taller than I with an oblong, disproportionate head.

I felt no fear when the Being picked up the ball and then held out a long, slender hand to me. I took the hand, feeling completely safe and comfortable with him/her. There had been an invitation telepathically sent that preceded this feeling. I felt very much like a child being led somewhere by a parent.

The vision faded and I wondered what I had just seen. Was that child me? Or was this a representation of something that was occurring or about to occur?

Dream: Child Marriage

I then recalled a dream I had in the night. The dream was of negotiations between a woman and a man who were to be married. The woman told the man she would not marry him unless he also married her child. It was assumed that when this marriage occurred the new husband would “be” with the child in the same way as he would be with the wife. The child was no more than 9 years of age and I remember being concerned for her. Would the man have sex with her even though she was so young? Or would he wait until she was “of age”?

In recalling this dream I understood that it corresponded with the vision I had of the child. Was this what I had foreseen 5 days ago – the “transfer” that was to occur?

Considerations

When I finally got up for the day, the song, “Let it Go” was going through my head. This along with the strange visions I had caused me to wonder if perhaps there is a part of me leaving at this time, either that or being further integrated. In this the song indicates that I should release any part of me that is resisting such an exchange.

The feeling of child and parent that accompanied the vision still lingers. It is not exactly that feeling but it is the closest I can come up with. There is a trust that is hard to describe and an innocence and openness there as well. The Being was gentle, loving and accepting. I felt he/she would take care of me.

 

 

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Another Wave Approaching

Like yesterday, I am feeling something that I cannot describe. It is not unsettling really but I am noticing it.

Characteristics

What I am noticing about this energy shift is mild but noticeable.

  • It triggers a tendency to want to act. I feel like I need to do something else – make plans or begin to consider a change of scenery.
  • I feel a restlessness but have been able to avoid the traps that come with it – over thinking, irritability, fixation on things that I perceive as “wrong” or “bad”. It is like it triggers the Ego.
  • The energy is stale; stagnant. It is like it is stuck and needs to be pushed out of the space it has been occupying. Again this is not “negative” really, just old and needs to go.

I perceive there will be an opening soon that comes after this old energy moves out. It will allow for us to move into a new space in our lives, one that assists us in our mission here, allowing us to fully express whatever it is we came here to express.

The perception that this energy is old or stale is here to help us let go of that which is no longer useful. No wonder it triggers the Ego!

I see a light from far away, far off in the universe. It seems directed from above and to the left of Earth (from my South facing position here in the U.S.). The feeling of this light is similar to the “Light of Sirius” message I got previously around the time of Wave X. I feel that it carries with it a pink or fuchsia energy.

It will begin to irradiate Earth with it’s energy (in pulses) around mid-December and extend until the end of the year. The energy of this light can be accessed by anyone who wants to anytime after it reaches Earth.

I am very pleased that I am not working right now as I think the effects of this clearing would be harder for me to protect myself against if I were around others who were technically still asleep. I suspect there will be many who do not handle it well. Thankful to be home with my babies. 🙂

 

 

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Preparing for Re-Entry

I was awakened this morning at 5:30. This time I did not resist it.

As with the night before, I knew I had been “traveling”. Unfortunately, little remained of the those travels beside some strange impressions and feelings.

I knew I had gone off-planet, as I had done the night before.

Preparing for Re-Entry

When I woke I was in the midst of a discussion with my guide. I was told, “It has been six cycles since you left. Do you want to return?”

For a moment I was split into two “me’s”. The part that Remembers is the one who answered.

This Me felt very obviously to be “dead”, as in without a physical body. The realization of “death” instantly alerted the other Me. In that instant I felt very strange, as if not the person in this body, in this life. It was as if this life did not exist. My entire focus was on another aspect who current does not have a physical form.

I calmed myself and fell back into the conversation allowing the other Me to continue. I replied, “Yes…… I want to be…..male….no, female. I don’t want to be black, that is too hard…too difficult. I prefer light skin, hair, eyes….similar to now (felt this was not advisable)…..Will I be like I am now (as in this current life)?” I heard in response, “Yes, but you will remember more. You will come in knowing more”. The feeling was that I would consciously remember from birth rather than gradually gain the memory.

There was a pause in the conversation. I knew there was a query about why I was resisting the darker complexion. I was asked if I would consider any darker skin tone. I thought about it and mulled over different faces (saw them in my mind’s eyes). I saw Hispanic, Indian, and Native American and rejected them all outright. Then I said, “I would be okay with Asian. And I would be okay with being mixed race, they are beautiful (mixed black and white).”

The conversation continued with a reminder of the importance of having a family unit that would support my “other worldliness” and “knowingness”. I knew this meant that the families I could choose from that would be ideal were not Caucasian but of a darker skin tone, in this case African. I agreed and said, “You are correct. It makes no difference what I look like. It is important to have the right foundations”.

It was then brought into question whether I would walk-in or be born. There was a mild interest in being a walk-in mainly because it would avoid some of the more traumatic experiences that come with adolescence. I awoke more fully during this decisive moment so do not know exactly what was decided. However, the last input I got from my Council was that there was valuable experience that would be lost if I chose to be a walk-in.

I pulled out of the conversation thinking, “What the….!”

I wondered, “Am I about to die?”
“What is going on?”

Dream: Family Units

I was calmed by an inner nudge and listen instinctively. This was not a discussion pertaining to my current physical incarnation, but rather one that was being lived simultaneously. Apparently this other life ended prematurely and was being sent back “in”, or rather was making this choice.

I was reminded of the OBE where I learned of the loss of my friend Stephanie who took her own life. She had not been able to successfully handle the transition. I grieved heavily for her. Was this the life we were discussing? Had it been 6 cycles? Is that 6 years?

I couldn’t wrap my mind around it so I decided not to. I very obviously had felt to be another Me during this conversation and the choosing of the next life was what I was being shown for some reason.

I wondered about it and was reminded of a dream I had in the night, but only a small part of it. In this dream I was seeing from above several large circles. In each circle were smaller marks indicating family within these family circles. I understood it as “generations”. All the circles had begun as one large one but split off into three different circles. Inside were smaller circles of varying sizes representing other families within families.

The feeling in the dream was that these family units had separated for a reason and were now very different from one another.

Considerations

Just when I think things have gotten as weird as they can get, they get weirder! I understand that we are multi-dimensional beings but actually experiencing it is so strange! I have to let this experience settle in for a while I think. lol

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Light Language Workshop

Yesterday I attended an on-line light activation class. I signed up for it because when I saw it posted a couple of weeks ago my third-eye began to blaze with energy and I thought, “I should do that”. So I did.

Unfortunately, I was unable to fully focus on the second half of the class because my daughter arrived home from school and at the same time my toddler woke from his nap. He is a very fussy, clingy little one after a nap, so I had to hold him and console him, missing out of the last hour of the class.

I did, however, get to do the first part which invovled drumming and practicing vocalizing light language. The first part caused my third-eye to blaze intensely. The second half I struggled with but did participate in. Whenever I vocalized what was coming through my whole body was covered in warm energy that spread from my heart chakra outward. My third-eye also was very intense with energy.

I was able to write down some of what I received but was interrupted by the bus arriving. The picture above is what I wrote, but only the smaller symbols. The second half is what came out this morning right after waking.

Activation

I believe there was an activation initiated with this class but it has not been anything major for me as of yet. I was resistant to expressing the language coming through via vocalization and movement. However, I have no issue allowing the symbols to flow through and I hear the sounds/words/syllables in my mind.

My head began to hurt during and after the class. It was localized to the area right above my left eye. I was told in the class that this is not uncommon. It was not painful enough to disrupt my life and this morning it is gone.

Interpretation of Symbols

The symbols above have varying meanings and I will not go into detail about what each one means. The message includes: “Galactic Council of Light”, “trans-dimensional”, “communication”, “assimilation”, “build (house)”, “freedom” and “barriers”.

The second half, the larger section I wrote this morning, includes: “contact point”, “reference”, “destination”, “simultaneous”, “influx”, “energy”, “translocation” among others.

Overall the messages I received when put together send a message of connection and communication with the Council and Galactic Federation of Light. There is also a communication about an upcoming influx of energy and contact with my Team.

 

 

 

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Nudges from Higher Self

The energy was odd yesterday for a little while, likely due to geomagnetic storms. I had an odd experience during the downside of the these storms. Onthe drive home from the gym, I suddenly felt that my car and me inside of it was moving both forward and backward at the same time. It was so weird that I panicked slightly because I felt that I was moving out of this reality into another one. Thankfully it didn’t last long. I was happy to get home and out of the car!

Message from Higher Self

Later in the day I got a message out of the blue from my HS. It was a simple message and was repeated several times. Basically it was that I should get out and connect with more people in-person and tell them about my experiences. I did not reject this idea, but am allowing myself to grow comfortable with the idea because it exposes me to ridicule and criticism and just plain out rejection.

Considerations: How it Is Vs How it Should Be

Interestingly, the idea of being more open about my beliefs and experiences with those I associate with in my daily life is something I have not been doing. Since I began to have the intense experiences and E.T. contact, I have avoided talking openly about it. How does one relate such an experience to others anyway? It is hard enough to do in writing!

Sadly, I have really not fully disclosed my experiences since meeting and marrying my husband and starting a family. I found that in discussing my experiences and ideas that it resulted in an energy cut-off from my husband. This is simply because he cannot relate. It is the same feeling I get when talking with others who do not understand or don’t have the same reality. It is uncomfortable and makes talking about my experiences even harder.

And here I am being encouraged to “come out” to those closest to me. I see how withholding this part of myself has created a distance between myself and those I love most. How can I expect to feel happy in my life if I am in effect “lying” about who I am all the time?

And when I look deeper, I recognize that even I am hesitant to embrace my experiences for “what they are”. I put quotes around the last part because, honestly, I cannot define my experiences for myself. I don’t exactly know what they are! I can’t say for sure that these are E.T. communications nor can I say that the “memories” I receive and the strange feelings that accompany them are “real”.

As I write them I am asked, “What do you feel is happening to you?”

And when I hear this question I want to cry. Not because I am afraid of what it is that is happening – quite the opposite. I am overwhelmed with knowing that it IS real and it IS purposeful. The purpose being that I am suppose to tell people about my experiences. That there is something happening to Earth and the people here. That there is a very big event on the horizon that people must be ready for; an event that is important to the extent that I feel and have been feeling that “time is running out”.

What to Do?

I don’t know what to tell my friends, family and the people I meet. In the past, when I have seen things that will happen in the future and told people close to me it has either been ignored or they have (my husband specifically) reacted as if I am being negative or trying to upset them.

This happened this morning in fact. I tried to remind my husband of a knowingness I received just after the birth of my son in 2014. I knew that my mother-in-law would not be able to help take care of him or other children when my son reached the age of 2. I have since felt I should prepare for this by finding other means of childcare, which I have done (I stay home now). This morning, when I reminded my husband of my knowingness, he began to yell and get angry at me, insisting that I was trying to suppress his mother and make her incapable of watching our kids. This is not true but I did not do well in trying to dissuade him. I should not have pointed out that she is already showing signs of problems. She fell and could not get up while watching our kids and has since fallen. She is watching a three-year-old full-time, five days a week right now and is so exhausted that she has to lay down for the entire weekend! I see this and my concern just grows. Yet others seem oblivious to it.

So, as you can see, my family is not very open to what I experience or Know. It is frustrating and exhausting for me to try and act upon my knowingness around them.

HS Nudges

I am reminded how this morning my HS nudged me. I was dozing happily in the middle of a dream when suddenly a great clap of thunder sounded (it was not raining) shocking me into wakefulness. I said to my HS, “Why did you do that!? I want to sleep!” I saw in my mind’s eye, “5:30” and knew this was the normal “debriefing time”. I responded with, “I don’t want to be debriefed”. lol

I ended up not being able to sleep and got up just in time to see my husband. Thus, the above argument ensued because I opened my mouth about my knowingness of his mother’s future.

There Will Be Repercussions

Regardless of what happens, I know there will be repercussions. It is inevitable that some kind of upset will result from within my own family; either my own or others’. I recognize that I put myself in this situation. I made my bed and so must lie in it.

 

 

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The Arcturians- SYNERGY- The Anchoring of the Golden White Light Seraphim Grid and the Unification of ALL ANGELIC RACES-November 29,2015.

When I saw this blog I thought of what I was told by my HS yesterday. Re-posting because it resonates with me.

“I asked my HS to explain what was going on last night. I got an image in my mind of energy anchors coming down from my energy field and anchoring into the Earth’s energy field. I heard with this vision, “Your energy is being stabilized”. This is why I currently am not being allowed OOB. This is a preparation for something to come. When “it” happens I must be firmly anchored to the Earth grid/energy. I saw the anchors coming off the outer areas of my aura/energy (head, shoulders, arms, hands). There was energy arching like electricity off my aura to the Earth. The energy colors were green and blue and each beam looked like a laser beam but thicker.” From Emotional Overload, Cardiff and Walk-In

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The Arcturians- SYNERGY- The Anchoring of the Golden White Light Seraphim Grid and the Unification of ALL ANGELIC RACES-November 29,2015.

The Portals are now open for all who wish to experience ascension into full dimensionality and further remembering of SELF in the Heart Collective.

The Heart Collective leveled up and maintained the Highest frequency in this Now at the energetic apex of the 11/11 wave,accessing and fully anchoring the GOLDEN WHITE LIGHT SERAPHIM GRID, (angelic/christ consciousness grid).

The Angelic  “Hueman” grid.

This 5d grid begins expansion into remembering of the multidimensional SELF.

Once individually anchored, it unfolds understanding of lower dimensions, and their navigation.
From here the mechanics of time and space begin to be remembered as multidimensional tools  become accessible for all that reach the frequency of the knowledge.

These multidimensional tools are accessible in this Now to all who are ready to experience it.

Synergy between dimensions has…

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