Reset: Restoring Internal Balance

I’m still sick. 😦

This is my hypothesis on why I am sick. Kundalini. Yep. She’s the culprit. During the lucid dream I had on February 18th my body was hit with Kundalini of such intensity that it literally blew right through every one of my chakras. If there was a blockage it was obliterated. No blockage could have withstood her.

I definitely was unable to withstand her. My entire world has been different since that experience. Everything looked wrong in my life and every relationship, every like/dislike, seemed trivial and without purpose. Unfortunately, it still feels that way. I am really struggling to try and make sense of my life right now. Yeah, it was quite a shake to the core.

Apparently blowing through blockages like that is dangerous business. Thankfully I did not have many major blockages left (I don’t think) after all the “preparation” and “adjustments” I was given by my Team beforehand. Yet, there were obviously still some remaining, enough that clearing them that fast and furiously created this miserable, never-ending cold. On top of that, it fast-forwarded my monthly cycle by a full week which was a further depletion of my physical energy and resources.

I suspect the chakras most affected by the K energy surge I experienced, the ones most blocked and now unblocked, were my throat, heart, second and third chakras. I suspect this only because my current illness began in my chest and came with sore throat, stomach upset, diarrhea, cramping, and coughing. I’ve never experienced a chest cold with those lower body symptoms. Just weird.

My guidance is very quiet and very distant. There is one, lone guide around me and I do not recognize him. His energy is too distant for me to tune into but he did wrap me in wonderful energy last night and that was enough to know that whoever he is, his main objective is to help me through this tough patch. I feel like he is an angel and I don’t often use that word.

Early in the morning, after being awakened at 5:00am, I drifted back into the in-between. While there, I saw a long list. It was typed in black ink on white paper. I don’t remember all of what was listed, but I do recall that the words, “Spirit” and “Balance”. I woke immediately upon reading the word, “Balance” and was upset by it. This is because I thought it meant my external world was out of balance and I was being asked to return to the workplace. There came with this a knowing that it was not the external that needed balance, it was needed internally. Oh. Then I saw in my mind, “Reset”. Hmmm. There’s that word again. What does that mean? I got no explanation but I then saw, “6 weeks”. Ugh! 6 WEEKS!!?

Whatever this reset is I am not looking forward to it because I suspect it means that I will not be having many, if any, spiritual experiences over the next six weeks. I could be wrong, though. It could be the exact opposite I suppose. Who knows. Who cares, I guess. I’m just too sick and sick of being sick to care anyway.

 

Wipe-Out

They say about the ascension energies, “Ride the wave”. Well, sometimes the wave is so gigantic you get overwhelmed by it and it takes your all just to stay afloat and keep the water out of your lungs. Sometimes there is no avoiding a wipe-out.

Yep, the BIG, super intense energies are here and, well, they aren’t finished. More is on the way. Intense and strong and in whopper pulses each time. Hang on. If you aren’t already feeling it you likely will in some way shape or form. Unless, like me, you have been sick this whole time. Then, maybe, you won’t have energy to notice much as you will be too busy blowing your nose and laying in bed. Of course, my illness is likely a direct result of my body adjusting to the energies anyway.

These in-coming energies are focused on the solar plexus and heart primarily, though the root and crown could also be affected, depending on the individual. This means all kinds of crazy things could manifest. Illness, depression, hysteria, headache, confusion, heart palpitations, anxiety, fear, restlessness, skin issues, digestive issues….the list goes on. The solution is to stay focused on your heart. Stay out of your mind. BUT if you get sucked into some of those low, scattered emotions, it is best to not be alarmed and allow them to pass. Try to keep to yourself and communicate to those around you that you need space and time to yourself. However, I recommend having someone close by if you are prone to depression, that way you can communicate that you need help if you get in too deep. Nature is always a good place to retreat to if you can, but if not, find a sunny place and sit/lay there for a while. I found watching movies occupies my mind and allows me to avoid over-thinking. Stick to positive ones, though, like What About Bob or a Chevy Chase movie. lol  Music also helps. Again, stay positive with the music even if you want to cry in your Cheerios.

You may also notice there are tiny lulls. This is just the space between the pulses. Like the trough of the wave, it will pass soon enough, so take the brief reprieve when you can get it. I noticed one of these yesterday morning. I woke up cheerful and felt almost normal. It didn’t even last the entire day. I am not sure when the next one will come but rest assured one will.

Personally, I have not felt too much of the energies. I do get all-over energy helmet (crown, third-eye, and sides of head) but honestly I think it is my guidance sending me healing as it has been happening at night after I request healing. There has been some heart chakra activity, but nothing major and always pathetically weak in comparison to what I have experienced before. I have, however, been experiencing some major emotional surges. These emotions are way low and negative. Hopeless, death-wish-type emotions and thoughts. I also have been very tired and sleeping deeply with few dreams. On top of that my guidance has gone almost completely silent, making me feel abandoned when I most need them.

Hang in there. The most intense energies will hit on and around the 9th and will then subside for a little while. The end of the month will bring more of the same but my guidance suggests the energies at the end of the month will be more gradual and beautiful; so less internal and external upheaval. That sounds nice and something to look forward to, I guess.

Remember, you are loved. 🙂

Edit: Just now saw that the K-Index was in the red yesterday and early this morning. Not surprised. NOAA website – check out the electron flux!

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