Daily Archives: March 23, 2016

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Sometimes Love Isn’t Enough

This song has been following me around all day. I woke up hearing the chorus, “Sometimes love just ain’t enough”. Why was I hearing this upon waking?

In reading over the lyrics, I have to say the message doesn’t seem to be a good one.

Hang Gliding Dream

The dream just prior to waking may be a clue. I don’t recall much of it now, but I do remember very vividly a bright red hang glider that was being ridden by a young man. It was like he had wings and he kept getting in my way. I was walking up some very steep stairs and he landed right in front of me, blocking my way. The entire dream scene itself was like something out of a movie. What Dreams May Come pops into my head and the crazy afterlife scenes of never-ending stairs and people flying through the sky. This was the kind of place I found myself in.

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Scene from What Dreams May Come

There was a  vast, golden stair leading up to a large ledge. From where I stood on the stairs I could see I was close to the top and the steep stairs seemed to stretch on and on below me. Below that, a vivid green expanse and blue sky that seemed to go on forever. The sky was filled with puffy white clouds and hang gliders. Each of us was preparing for our own take off from the building high above. There were conversations but they are lost to me now. All that remains in words is the above song and that one line. Weird.

Hang gliding or seeing a hang glider in a dream symbolizes the wish for freedom from one’s limitations or limiting circumstances. The color red here may be symbolic of the root chakra and feelings of safety and security. The stairs symbolize achievement of understanding and making progress on one’s journey. The fact that I am near the top is significant here as I am able to see how far I’ve come and how close I am to reaching my goal.

There is some behind the dream memory of discussing my marriage and relationship with my husband. These discussions also occur when I’m not dreaming, so I do not doubt they continue during dream time. I can’t help but put it all together and notice. This comes with a feeling of not wanting to acknowledge some obvious truths. Even now I don’t want to look too hard for fear of what I might find. Yet, when I read the lyrics some parts practically yell at me to pay attention. Specifically the parts about staying just to have someone by my side and thinking something’s going to change but it never does.

My husband is very stubborn and determined. Even if I decide that I want to leave, he will not allow me to. He is that pig-headed. The only way he will ever let me go is if he decides it for himself. I don’t think that will ever happen. And honestly, I do love him very much, but, like the lyrics say, maybe love isn’t enough?

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Dream: Portal to Sirius

I found myself in space amidst the stars with a group of others. I do not recall feeling as if I had form or shape, but I do recall a feeling of I AM. The purpose of the trip into space was to send off a friend. I recall seeing her vividly. She was tall and slender with long, straight dark brown hair. She appeared human but she had features that indicated she was not such as slanted, oversized eyes; pale, luminous skin; and smaller than average mouth and nose. She actually reminded me of an Anime character. There was also a faint, neon blue aura about her and all around her.

We were floating above a platform I couldn’t see and there was a sensation of moving very, very fast yet at the same time we stayed completely still. There was a type of silver, metal, arch that was rotating which was causing the sensation of movement. It was destabilizing the area in which we were located in order to create a portal for passage to another location. The neon blue aura was around this machine and seemed to pulse as I focused on it.

The dark-haired woman said something to me about this blog, saying that she would not read it because I never signed it with my real signature. Her exact words, “I won’t read anything that hasn’t been signed by the writer.” In my mind I saw an image of a person’s authentic signature written in ink. This confused me as I could not understand why she would tell me something like that but I knew I had not ever signed my name. I hugged and told her, “I would read anything your wrote, no matter if you signed it or not.” Then I wished her well on her journey.

Through the forming portal I can see the outline of a very large city. The structures were pristine, shining almost white and taller than the buildings we have here on Earth. I could make out several towers and multifaceted crystalline buildings.  For some reason I identified the city with Sirius and said to her, “I can see Sirius.” I pointed to the city and she nodded and prepared to enter the portal.

At this point I am able to perceive the others in my group. There are five of us in total but they hang back as if only to observe. I watch as the portal stabilizes and rainbows of color begin to arch out from it. The colors were iridescent and you could see right through them.

When I awoke I had only been asleep about an hour because it was 10:39pm. Information poured into my mind as I tried to make sense of my surroundings. I heard, “Annunaki”  and “way station” and knew I had been preparing to travel interdimensionally. Unfortunately, my body woke me up and the transfer was suspended. I had a strange sense of saying goodbye to a part of myself which left me feeling a strange dejavu-type feeling. I wondered briefly about the signature part of the dream. Perhaps it was a message to me to take ownership of my blog and other aspects of my Self I am not openly acknowledging?

In researching known E.T. species, I discovered that there is one that resembles an Anime character: The Yahyel (Shalanaya).