Monthly Archives: March 2016

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Heart Surges, Boredom and a Great Blue Heron

The energy is a bit stagnant again this morning, but I can feel it is revving up for another surge around the full moon and eclipse on Wednesday. It will continue to cycle through the end of the month. Ebb and flow, surge and fall. The stagnant periods will replace the low, depressed, chaotic flow of the last cycle of upgrades and transmissions. I am grateful for that.

Heart Surges

I experienced several heart surges throughout the day yesterday. They were high heart surges and shifted into my throat chakra several times. My third eye was also triggered when my heart was blazing. With these surges of energy I felt hopeful, excited and a bit nervous. Something BIG is coming.

Unmotivated and Bored

Today’s stagnant energy has amplified my lack of motivation and boredom. I lingered in bed this morning feeling out of the energies and being warned of my tendency to over analyze everything. Even though I don’t like the feelings I am experiencing I have to learn to allow them to flow. They will pass. Nothing stays the same. Change is a constant.

There is a tendency in me to do, do, do. I have trouble staying still. There needs to be a project or something mentally stimulating for me to fill my time with. Right now is not a time for DOing. It is a time for BEing. There are timelines shifting and constant re-alignment. To DO anything at this time would result in NOthing for the alignment is not complete.

Charts, Graphs and Grids

A repeating pattern as I wake in the morning is a recollection of seeing shapes, patterns, charts, graphs and grids. They are random and flash through my memory as if they are being stored somewhere deep in my subconscious in order to protect my waking mind from too much information too soon. Mathematical computations are among these images.

This morning, the most prominent images were of seeing various grids superimposed one upon the other. They were spread across the universe, the Earth, and every living thing on the Earth. Some of the grids were square, others were octagonal, still others pentagons. So many different shapes! The colors also varied. Some were blue, others green, some red and still others purplish and their overlapping colors created a massive, multidimensional mandala of color. The grid pattern I saw from our galaxy had vortexes and circular patterns that swirled and seemed to breathe as they expanded and contracted.

Then there are the charts. The Venn Diagram is familiar. My guide showed me this back in 2004 to explain my spiritual transformation. The separate ares of consciousness – conscious, subconscious, superconscious, were merging, becoming less separated. There was another chart that was less familiar and dotted with mathematical formulas – positives and negatives, proportions, symbols, and geometric formulas that I cannot specifically place at this time. They are familiar – meaning I have come across them in this lifetime, but they all blend in my mind making them hard to separate. The graph itself showed an upward trend in red. Below, in a contrasting color, was a more even flow that remained lower in elevation than its counterpart. My sense from this chart is it was of human evolutionary patterns in relation to Earth changes and electromagnetic pole distribution. But I suspect there is much, much more being discussed and anticipated.

I searched the internet for something that looked familiar to me. This article, which upon reading makes my head spin, is very similar to the formulas and corresponding symbols I remember. The image below gives you an idea of what I am seeing. Mind boggling!

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Preparation – Expansion Pending

The BIG something I mentioned earlier is an expansion of Self which ultimately leads to Wholeness. Yesterday I spent most of the day receiving downloads via my heart – thus the heart blasts. The downloads have not made their way into my conscious mind as of yet, but the feeling from them is already being felt. I perceive the magnitude of what is to come more than anything.

My mentor was very, very close all day and is today as well. If I focus on him, my heart blows wide open, so I try to keep my distance. lol

The previous night’s Kundalini rising from my root to my heart must have cleared some blockages because my stomach has been extra sensitive, making my eating habits an area of particular focus lately. I ate a ton of french fries from Wendy’s on Sunday and spent yesterday paying for it. Stomach knots and lower back pain – it could have been worse. I know better than to eat that crap! Since then I have been focused on eating more clean foods – fresh veggies, fish, organic meats, whole grains. And I am extremely thirsty! Since this pattern is familiar, I know it is a preparation stage and this time I plan to avoid a stomach flu forced cleanse. 🙂

great_blue_heronSigns of Change

My husband is also feeling the stagnant energy and has been quite restless. Yesterday he came home and wasn’t even in the front door when he began to talk about selling our home and moving to Florida. lol He proceeded then to tell me that he wants to take his aunt and uncle up on their offer to fund his new business. He wants to move to Clearwater and if not there then he brought up Colorado and of all places Iowa! Iowa? No way! lol I immediately went into panic mode because if he quits and focuses on a new business then I need to work to make sure we can pay our bills, etc in the meantime. I have absolutely NO motivation to get back out there into the 3D world. Just thinking of going back to work makes me feel sick inside. Ugh! I had to tell my husband to stop talking about it and even told him he may have to do it on his own. This shut him up temporarily and I retreated to the back yard porch swing to calm down.

While out there thinking how I couldn’t possibly confront going back to work, I spotted a huge blue bird walking along the creek below me. Stunned, he looked directly at me and I recognized him to be a great blue heron. What was a bird like that doing in our creek!? His eyes met mine and he flew across the open area to the safety of the trees and then just stared at me.

When I looked up the message a blue heron brings I discovered a message to remain calm and remember my ability to adapt to changing situations. It is funny that the heron came at the time he did because it was like he was addressing the thoughts I was having at that time by saying, “Be patient. Answers and opportunity will come. Be prepared to take action when they do.”

 

 

 

 

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Kundalini Dream: MOAB

Last night was interesting to say the least.

Dream: Test Preparation

Quick dream recall to set the scene. 🙂

I was at school and preparing to take a test. My teacher, a tall, brunette, was focusing on me even though she had an entire class of kids. The other kids appeared to be about 10 years of age and the classroom was yellow and gold colors. Part of my preparation involved making myself a lunch for my trip which was to be by plane. I remember feeling I might be late and rushing.

During the preparation, a man kept calling by phone trying to talk to me and talk me out of going on the trip. I could see him in my mind and he reminded me of one of my old neighbors – older, gray hair, wrinkled and thin. I remember him calling on the phone and hearing him cock a gun and I said, “Tell him he doesn’t need to bring his gun.” I saw in my mind a shot gun and felt as if he were trying to protect me.

Then I was being send to a one-room house. These were to be my quarters while I prepared. The cottage sized house was cozy and had an attached single car garage. I remember the old man also got a cottage. I’m not sure why he came along, though.

Dream: Arranged Marriage

I was ushered into a great hall where an event was underway. There was a Hindu/Indian feel and theme to the obvious celebration. There was a stage and a band was playing. I remember being asked to sing a song, but I didn’t know the words so just kind of made them up as I went. The song reminded me of a Phil Collins song. lol Everyone was happy, dancing and/or milling about. I felt out of place, though. Why was I here?

The woman, the teacher from the last dream, informed me that I had agreed to marry a man. The marriage had been arranged and this was the celebration – our celebration. I understood this to be true and immediately looked for my my husband-to-be. I saw him sitting down near the band on a bench, not far from where I sat and to my left. I looked at him closely, inspecting his features and trying to memorize what he looked like. He had black hair, cropped short with medium skin tone and looked much, much older than me by the amount of deep lines on his face. His eyes were dark brown. He was quite thin and wiry and his face familiar.

In front of us there was a large, Asian-looking house with golden colored gates. For some reason I thought they were “garages“. There were three in a row and the same person (the woman?) told me that the garages were very difficult to operate. Then my attention was drawn to tiny figurines lined up by the house. I was told these were “idols” that people had put there and that this place was in fact a shrine of some sort. I then saw someone walking away from the house with two dolphins on leashes. They were taking them to the ocean. In the dream I remember laughing at the sight of it because it was so absurd.

Lucid Dream: MOAB

This is when the dream takes a turn and my lucidity begins to increase. The woman continued to prepare me for my upcoming wedding and spoke to me at some length. I remember someone asked me to purchase a newspaper and the man I was to marry interrupted and said, “It does not need to be purchased. It is free to everyone.” It was a newspaper I recognized, some scientific publication, but I can’t recall the name now.

Then the man was sitting very close to me on my right. I remember sensing his thoughts and saying out loud, “It’s okay. We’re going to be married anyway.” The man turned to me and I looked at him. I could only see his dark brown eyes. I asked him, “What is your name, anyway?” He said, “MO-AB. Moab.” I heard it very audibly in the dream and it brought on almost full lucidity. I repeated the name to him slowly and then he repeated it back to me.

The next thing I knew he kissed me very gently on the lips. I could feel it as if I were awake and I did not reject it. It is amazing to me how real it felt. There was an internal conversation going on in my head with him at the time. I also recall knowing what he felt and what he wanted. It was very strange. I sensed he wanted to kiss more deeply. I allowed this because his energy was so calming and soothing and the kissing felt nice.

Then I felt I needed to stop. I don’t know why but at the same time he was asking me not to stop though there were no words said. I just felt what he wanted. He wanted to embrace me and wrap me in his arms while kissing me. When the thought hit me to pull away, my heart chakra lit up intensely. The feeling in my heart was a mixture of pain and pleasure and intensified to the point that I couldn’t breathe. Then the energy from my heart shot straight down into my root chakra and began to move up with even greater intensity. I pulled away from his kiss and woke up.

Afterward

Even awake, the energy continued and I was unable to breathe. My guide kept asking me, “How do you feel?” over and over. I couldn’t really answer at the time. I was ablaze with energy and trying to recover. lol

I kept recalling the name MOAB. I had heard it before. Why was I hearing it again? What the heck is MOAB??

The clock said 3:45am. I was awake until 5:15am before I fell back to sleep. It took that long for the energy to settle. He kept asking me how I felt. I was finally able to respond, “Aroused.” LOL However, this arousal is not typical. The energy in all my lower chakras and heart chakra was intensely arousing for some reason, in a spiritual way. It was like the heart bliss spread to my lower chakras.

I knew/was told that this was just a preparation and more is coming. This “test” was to see how I would handle the energy. I was told I passed but I felt like I failed because I knew the energy was suppose to be moved up. How the hell am I suppose to remember to move it up when it is taking over all my lower chakras?? Since my heart chakra continued to blaze for a while after the experience, I practiced moving it up and got as far as my throat but lost interest.

Edit: I looked up the meaning of the name Moab. Apparently it can mean many different things, some of which we do not even have a word for. However, when reading this article I was drawn to this explanation:

“But the word אב (‘ab), meaning father, also occurs in meanings other than that of a biological parent. Sometimes it’s used to indicate the lord of a village (Isaiah 22:21), or an elder (2 Kings 2:12), or an ancestor (Genesis 10:21), and often it simply indicates a position of authority; a counselor (Genesis 45:8) or prophet (2 Kings 6:21). The word ‘ab is also ascribed to God (Isaiah 63:16, Hosea 11:1)

Specifically, I feel this name is given to represent our relationship (me and this guide/mentor). He is to me an ancestor of some sort and since he is my mentor (counselor) this applies as well. I am reminded of the church and how we use “father” or “elder” for those in divinely appointed positions. Perhaps this is also applicable here.

 

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Meeting my Mentor

This post is just to document some things for myself. 🙂

Messages

Met with one of my guides who refers to himself as my “mentor”. He has very calm energy and I feel very comfortable with it, it’s soothing and reminds me very much of the energy of a water sign. I felt he had no name but the name “Robert” popped into my head for some reason. I recognized his energy and knew he and my new entourage of guides had been in the background of my life for some time. They are the ones who planned this life with me.

Most of his communication with me was in feelings and images, though he did use words. So, most of what I recall now is in feelings. He asked me if it would be okay with me for us to meet. He explained that in this meeting he would not block the energy which would result in an amazing heart blast of bliss. I understood that this will happen either in a lucid dream or the in-between. He also explained that he will reveal aspects of himself to me. Since he is most definitely other worldly, I do not know what exactly I will perceive but he wanted to warn me of it in advance and reassure me that I could request it to stop at any point. He reassured me that I am ready for this and that it is necessary for me to become Whole. I wasn’t told exactly when this would happen. He just said, “soon”. I suspect it will be Tuesday or Wednesday based upon dream messages and the upcoming lunar eclipse.

While communicating with him we discussed the state of this world, my progress and my role in the future. Team Dark was mentioned and his reaction to this name and the energies they represent was, “It is inconsequential.” My understanding from his reaction was that Team Dark is simply a fear-based name based upon human programming and not to get caught up in the duality from which it arises. Those who choose that route are no different than those who do not – they simply wish to experience it while others choose not to. There is no judgement made and no “us versus them” mentality taken.

He advised me to avoid reading other accounts, channeled messages, books, etc right now because my experiences need to remain “untainted” by outside sources. He also triggered memories of my dreamtime activities. I recalled discussing trigonometry, specifically Sine, Cosine and Tangent and seeing/discussing actual math problems. There was acknowledgment of math and its interconnectedness to the universe and spiritual concepts. I saw the familiar triangles of the Merkaba and patterns of sacred geometry.

I also remembered that I chose to explore the social, psychological and spiritual while in physical form rather than scientific and mathematical concepts. This is because on the Other Side (or wherever we are in Spirit) my strengths are science and math and my weaknesses are the social sciences. I love to solve puzzles, just in physical life the puzzle I chose to solve was me. Pretty cool.

Throughout our conversations, I had an overwhelming familiarity hit me. There was also a feeling of anticipation and excitement – a “this is it!” feeling. My heart, third-eye, and crown were also activated at this time.

Dreams

I have been sleeping very deeply and have lots of dreams which are mostly lost to me upon waking. Last night I awoke at 1am to intense root chakra activity. It felt like a bubble of energy was expanding out from the root chakra. I do not recall the dreams associated with it, but I knew it was in preparation for whatever is coming next.

I recall being in college, specifically in a class about psychology and dreams. I asked a question about lucid dreams and astral travel and the class ended abruptly. I then met a woman with long, light brown hair who was shorter than me. When I saw her, I instantly felt drawn to her. The entire room had been dark but she was bright and her image very clear. I told her, “I like you.” lol We hugged and I felt we were long-time friends and she and I seemed inseparable. I sensed a strong heart connection with her and there was knowing that we were “partners”. She appeared to know this as well and we walked out of the room with our arms draped over each other’s shoulders. She disappeared after that, though.

Then there is memory of me and four others holding hands in a circle as we floated/hovered. The feeling was that we were co-creating/manifesting, but I can’t recall anymore. In the in-between more was revealed but I did not write it down and so now it is lost to me as well.

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Party Time

I’ve been high on life the last couple of days. This is weird for me as I have been in flat-mood-mode ever since getting sick three weeks ago. I woke up yesterday full of hope. Hope? What’s is that?? lol

I spent the entire day at a double birthday part for my youngest, Elek, and his cousin who is six weeks older than him. Elek doesn’t turn 2 until the 31st, but my Mom wanted to host a party so we celebrated early. Below are some pics.

Elek was in a mood in the beginning. I don’t think he understood what all the fuss was about. He kept giving me the evil eye and wouldn’t smile for the camera. 😦

Despite being high on life, I still separated myself quite a bit from the rest of my family. I do this because their energy can be erratic and I never know how much they will project on me. Thankfully, almost everyone had high energy. My sister made me laugh so hard I cried and the conversations were rarely stagnant. My third-eye and heart chakras were active on and off during the party as well. Good sign I guess.

I hope everyone enjoyed the energy yesterday! I sure did. It was a nice reprieve from the previous energy. Sending love to you all!

 

 

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Visiting Artemis – Message: Slow Down

It was a busy night and morning for me. I woke suddenly from a strange dream sequence at the end of which was a distinct memory of being in outer space surrounded by stars and planets. The outer space scene was completely different from the dream sequence and came with a knowing that I had been visiting with others during the night.

Dream: Mother Goose

The dream prior to the outer space experience was about helping a mother goose and her single gosling. I took them out of a cage and put them in the grass. We (I was not alone) watched as the mother and baby bonded and thrived. I remember walking to the edge of a stream. On the other side was wire and signs that said, “Keep out”. I remember being told I was not allowed to venture to the other side of the river and fence yet. If I tried, I would be stopped.

Memory Behind the Dream

The memories behind the dream emerged slowly. At first, there was just a knowing that I had been in contact with my counterpart. We were together on a ship of some sort, but we were not allowed to get close or touch. I vividly recall seeing outer space from within an open space aboard a craft and being in communication with a very, tall. E.T. I remember little about the E.T. other than seeing his hand and a feeling of great love and respect. There were also several planets visible. These planets were brightly colored, one reminded me of Jupiter.

Then there was memory of my interactions with my counterpart. There was a lot of conversation between us, but I can’t remember it now. At one point he was either dreaming or I was seeing symbolic representations of his current issues. It was explained to me that we were both working independently on our own issues and to not interfere with his lessons. What I saw of his issues/lessons looked like many small fires that were lit. Some were bigger than others, but most were small. There were approximately five total. I remember holding a garden hose and wanting to help him put them out. I was not allowed and it was explained that if I interfered the fires would actually burn out of control.

Then there was memory of standing on what I at first thought was the surface of a planet. I later was told it was a way station. I asked what it was called and heard, “Artemis“. In reading who Artemis was, I am certain the name was meant as a message to remind me to keep my own “fires” under control. lol

As I stood looking at the vastness of the universe from this vantage point, I saw a tiny craft landing. It was circular in shape. It’s entire bottom was lit up with a single, yellow light. There were also smaller lights projecting from either side.

Messages

I had so many questions about what had occurred and my guidance had to calm me down because my energy was sky high. The guide closest to me sent me an image of him coming down to my level and spinning me very, very fast. He told me, “This is what will happen if you meet him now. You need to slow down.” Then he began to spin me in the opposite direction and I felt my energy stabilize.

Calmer now, he sent me another message. This time I heard, “Inside Out” (the movie). I have not seen it but my family has and I knew what he meant by the message. He confirmed saying, “When you connect, all your emotions – everything you are – will come to the surface. All at once.” The feeling received with this message was too much too soon would be a bad thing. Again, the message was “slow down”. He said to me then, “You need to stay grounded. You are stabilizing more than just your own energy.”

I understood the messages but still, my energy was sky high. I knew something more than I remembered had happened. My body was aching all up and down my spine and my lower three chakras were raw. Apparently I am not allowed to remember everything at this time. Oh well. lol

As I tried to return to sleep, a song popped into my head. Yet another message to stay away right now. lol

 

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Taco Woman: Etheric Experience

After waking at 5:30am from a very eventful night, I tried to return to sleep. My guidance was close and I suspected I would not get anymore sleep because my energy was unusually high.

At some point I became acutely aware of music playing to my right. It was not music I recognized but it was loud and enjoyable so I tuned into it despite knowing this was part of the trance state. The words are lost to me now, but at the time the voice of the lady singing sounded familiar, like Natalie Merchant (10,000 Maniacs) but she was singing with another woman and their voices blended perfectly.

Sensing the subtle vibrations that indicated I could exit my body, I contemplated rolling out of my physical body and attempting an OBE. There was a distinct feeling at this time that said to me, “You know better.” So, I decided not to attempt an exit and just linger in the energies which encapsulated my entire physical body.

At some point my astral vision turned on. All that was visible was a shifty, black and white atmosphere of energy. This is indicative of the etheric which is the closest plane of existence to that of the physical. Usually it is an exact duplicate of the physical plane but in my experience this is not always the case. What I know for sure at this point from my experiences in this shifty, heavy energy zone, is that I am still very much connected to my physical body and something about this connection limits my perceptions and ability to move about. It is only when I shift into one of my other bodies that I can escape the heaviness of the etheric and enter the astral plane. This article gives an accurate description of the etheric body and explains what I experienced this morning. I believe it is also offers a great explanation on my experiences in the in-between.

As I lay in my bed observing the etheric plane all around me, a part of my consciousness detached from my physical body and moved around. I never went very far and I never felt the energy indicative of exiting my physical body. Yet I was able to experience the etheric in much the same way as I would have if I had been OOB. In hindsight, this is fascinating to me because it was so very obvious that I have been doing this throughout my entire spiritual journey and had never been witness to the specifics steps involved.

I saw that superimposed over the top of my bedroom was another room. This is the room I had entered and where the music, now silent, was playing. There was a large table in the center. It looked like a table one would find inside a restaurant kitchen – metal and quite high and about eight feet by six feet, maybe bigger. There were two woman bustling about. They were going through a refrigerator located at the far end of the room. I never saw it but I perceived it. One by one they pulled out empty containers from the fridge and put them on the table. They were discussing a need to replenish supplies as they did this. One woman put a large jug of orange juice on the table and there was an exclamation from one of the ladies but I don’t know the exact words other than to know she was pleased to have found the orange juice.

At this point I moved across to one of the ladies who was in the process of walking around the table. I reached out and touched her shoulder. I remember wondering if it would be solid. It was. I could feel her. Apparently she felt me, too, because she stopped suddenly, her eyes quite wide. I attempted to hug her and she pulled away. She said to me, “You can’t see me.”  I said to her, “I can see you well enough.” I remember trying to focus on her and was able to get a good glimpse of her overall features. She was shorter than me, about 5ft tall, wearing a light colored blouse and blue jeans. She had long, black hair and her skin tone was medium. Her body shape was very round and squat. I knew she was Hispanic.

She was very uncomfortable but remained there, never quite looking at me directly but instead straight through me. I asked her who she was and why she was in my bedroom. She didn’t seem to notice my room but she said to me, “Your husband buys tacos from me.” She then said something about being curious about him.

During this time I could feel the energy shift and the familiar feel of losing my firm connection to the etheric. It feels like a whirlwind of energy sucking me back into the physical. I remember thinking to myself as the woman spoke to me, “I need to look at my hands or say ‘clarity now'”. I did neither. Apparently just thinking about controlling the energy kept me from shifting back to my body awareness.

I apologized to her and let her resume her activities. I then turned to the other woman and asked her who she was. She was less apprehensive and her energy was more accepting. Unfortunately my son yelled from downstairs and I came back to awareness in my body before I could talk to her.

Considerations

Upon waking up in my body I wondered about this strange etheric experience. Were these woman real but in some other location that I somehow traveled to? Did my husband really know this woman? Was she dead or alive? Why was I allowed to go into the etheric but I could not astral project?

One of my guides was near and explained to me that I could not go far from my body right now because my Light would attract unwanted attention. I wondered aloud to him, “What do I look like? Am I really that bright?” He showed me what looked like a blue and purple flame. I recognized it. I had seen another who looked like that in one of my OBEs. I had been extremely attracted to that “flame”. It is so beautiful!

I wondered how the women perceive me. Did they see a blue/purple flame? I was then shown how they perceived me. I looked like a brilliant white and silver energy in body form, ever-shifting and fluctuating. Woah.

He explained that I was only allowed to travel to the higher realms now – the astral and lower planes were off limits. I wondered how I got to these higher levels. He told me They brought me to them, bypassing the lower planes/levels.

Later, during breakfast, I asked my husband about “Taco Woman”. He told me a woman matching her description often came by his work to sell tamales and other food during lunch. He buys tamales mostly. lol She speaks English but he usually talks to her in Spanish (he is fluent).

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Random Dreams

Just need to write these down to help me sort through them a bit. 🙂

Dream: Rainbow

I was receiving instruction. During this time, I saw a rainbow of colorful, wide, horizontal bands appear over top of my body. It appeared to follow the chakras and my interpretation was that I was aligned and ready for the next step.

Dream: Dirty Car

My husband told me he was taking my car. I got angry and stood between him and my car with my arms out. I told him, “You can’t take my car. Take your own car. This is MY car!” He ignored me and tried to get into the driver’s seat with my keys. I got in his way and noticed the black leather seats were covered in dirt. I said to him, “Look! See! You get it dirty and trash it every time you use it!” He said to me, “I will clean it up. I like using your car.” I didn’t believe him.

Dream: Moving to California

I was on a plane but this plane was much larger than any plane I have ever been on. There was a man in a very large bed who was having an affair with another man. I remember watching as he and his lover cuddled. There was an internal conflict within me. One side was okay with two men loving each other in such a way. The other felt it was unnatural.

Then I was being told I needed to buy a ticket to California. I was shown the round trip ticket was $202. Confused again, I questioned this because I knew I had already purchased my ticket. The screen showed it was a flight to San Francisco.

Then I was flying above a residential road in L.A. I was with my daughter I think but there was also a younger male with me who I knew very well. The feeling from him was that he was a friend/guide/mentor and that we often traveled together. As we flew, I remember discussing moving to California and explaining to my daughter why this was a good idea. I pointed out that we were in a rural area just outside of L.A. and so we could avoid being around too many people. There were houses situated on large plots of land. There were several that resembled houses from a Dr. Seuss book – purple and pink with lots of windows and pointed roofs.

Then we were walking along a road toward the city. We were on a hill and I could see the entire city below. It was beautiful. The sky above was a mix of day and night together. I told my daughter, “Let’s lay here and look at the stars.” I laid down on the dirt road in savasana looking up at the stars. I remember feeling happy for a brief moment. Then, a flock of sea gulls came flying in from above and landed just behind me. They began to come closer and I knew they would peck at me, so I turned and confronted them. They were so vividly real and quite large. I turned and walked toward the city.

Dream: Washing my Face

I’m in an apartment with others. The man from the last dream is there with his male partner. We are all staying together for some reason. The room is small and there are two bathroom sinks nearby. One is near a round window. I go to it to clean my face. I wash it but I notice my skin is peeling. I am sad and tell someone near me, “I hate my face.” She suggests I clean it again. So I do and noticed the peeling skin is gone but I am still unhappy with how I look. There is a huge amount of despair here and then total apathy. The woman with me tries to help me understand but my feelings overpower her words.

Dream: Winter Storm

There is a discussion about an approaching winter storm. I see images in front of me while the discussion takes place. I see a blizzard and ice and a map of the U.S. I remember telling one person, “In Montana, they have had snow as late as April. In Alaska, as late at May.” I remember being a bit confused as my waking mind tried to interfere in this dream. I was alarmed about the information because it matched a previous lucid to OBE experience I had. There is memory of visiting the southeastern U.S., specifically Florida but also the other states nearby. I see the mountains covered in a light snow and there is also snow on the beach.

Dream: White Hair

For some reason I was dying my hair. When I washed it out the dye didn’t take so I dyed it again. It ended up streaking my hair in huge chunks of brilliant white. At first I was shocked and then I laughed and said to my friend, “It’s okay. I just look like I have chunky highlights.”

 

 

 

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Earth-Quaking Energy

There is a peculiar energy today. It could be just me but my children seem to also be affected as they are restless and demanding more than usual. I also slept much later than is my norm – as did they. I love sleeping in except that I am NOT a morning person and the more I sleep, the more grumpy I am upon waking (usually).

To describe the energy is difficult but I will say that it feels like the ground beneath me is literally shifting up and down and left and right; like an earthquake is quaking under all our feet. This, I am told, is the breaking up of 3D reality and me sensing the alignment of energies of or relating to the Shift into 4/5D. It is definitely unnerving and not a feeling that I want to remain.

There have been articles by Tom Kenyon coming to my attention all at once. It is like the universe is saying, “Hey you! Look at this.” When two articles in less than 12 hours by the same author are brought to my attention – and I bother to read them both in full – this is indeed a message. lol

The first article I read was Escalation of Chaotic Nodes and the Dismantling of 3D-Reality. This article came to me yesterday right after I had been contemplating the future of mankind and my ever-increasing interest in becoming part of or helping to create a sustainable community. I was also in the midst of facing the stark contrast between what I feel my life should be like and my current reality. There has been a strong desire in me to take action for some time but the time is still not right. This makes me impatient and restless, like I feel today. Why can’t 5D just get here already!? Tom calls this “time stressed” and this is the result of trying to control circumstances in the material world rather than letting go of attachment to a particular outcome.

The other article is called Destabilization. This article answered the question I had this morning upon waking about why I have these periods of seemingly no spiritual energetic shifts and/or experiences that leave me in an eerie silence that forces me to confront aspects of my current reality that I otherwise would not. All that has previously been hidden is being revealed. NOW. There is no hiding from it anymore. “The deepest catacombs of your subconscious are being turned over like a plow cutting through a field.” So the ground literally is shifting under our feet! For me, this destabilization is manifesting in me a feeling that something is wrong, when in reality nothing is wrong. All is well.

If you have not heard of Tom Kenyon, I highly recommend checking out the above links. He also provides sound meditations free on his website. I have not had time to do more than one, but the one I did do was nice and calming and I could feel a shift within as I listened to it. There is indeed some kind of magic in his meditations.

Quake Watch

I got behind on keeping up with Suspicious Observers videos and so got caught up as I ended this post. It just so happens that today’s video is entitled “Quake Watch”.

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Class Resumes: Preparing for Contact

It was an eventful night for me. Though I slept well and deeply, I had numerous dreams. When I woke, I knew that I had been in a very advanced class with only two other students. The course was a plethora of subjects combined into one, of which the most prominent was human evolution, species adaptation, social structure, psychology, and biological and genetic architecture.

The last thing I recall from the dream was being told by the instructor that our assignment was to write an 8 page paper that would be due in 8 days. I was frantically writing notes and missed the topic of the paper. I turned to another student and asked him, “Do you remember the topic of the paper? He asked a question but I can’t remember. He didn’t write it down and I need a visual or I forget.” The other student, just looked at me quizzically. This is when I woke up.

I was immediately aware of the Being who introduced himself to me recently and he was not alone. There were a total of 12 and they stood around me in a circle. My body felt heavy but the energy was normal and I was not afraid.

I asked his name and he gave me Ephesus, which I knew was not his name but a clue. Ephesians is a book in the Old Testament and Ephesus is a city from ancient times. Ephesians Chapter 4 was given as important. I have not read it yet but plan to.

We spoke of many things but since I was still in bed and mostly in the in-between, much of the specifics have been lost. The following is what I recall:

Appearance and Origin

  • Their appearance did not frighten me but I did retract from it. They have very, large, black, almond-shaped eyes, almost imperceptible nostrils that are flat against their face, and a very small mouth with no lips.
  • They have no ears and no hair. Their skin is a light gray, like ash, and porous. They explained it was similar to salamander skin and if touched it would feel clammy to us.
  • Most stand under 5 feet tall, about the height of my daughter who is 7 years old and about 50in tall. Some are taller than that, though, but never over 5 feet, 5 inches high.
  • Their eyes are like an albino’s eyes and very sensitive to the light here on Earth. So they wear shades (like contacts) over their eyes to protect them. This gives their eyes a black, shiny appearance. I asked, “Why don’t you just wear sunglasses?” I was immediately reminded they have no ears and no nose which are needed to hold glasses in place. lol I felt stupid for asking that question then.
  • They breathe through their skin, so they have no lungs. They do not breathe oxygen but can function in our atmosphere for short periods of time (less than 1 hour).
  • They do not normally wear clothing but will when on Earth but it would always be of a breathable material since they breathe through their skin.
  • I was shown four digits on their hands and their feet looked strange. There was a large digit and then one even larger one that curved toward the main one. It reminded me of a sideways hoof. They do not have fingernails or toenails.
  • I saw no genitalia.
  • They communicate via telepathy but can speak if needed.
  • They do not eat food. They consume “Light”. I asked how this was possible and was reminded of our plants and photosynthesis.
  • They showed me their planet. I saw a gray, barren and rocky landscape. In the distance was a tower that looked like something from a Sci-Fi movie or from the Jetson’s cartoon.
  • They explained that they do not receive information about their environment like we do. They perceive differently. It is all via what humans would call our sixth sense, but there are more senses than that. This was confusing to me but they showed me how they “see” us. They can perceive all of our subtle bodies as well as other dimensions. It looked like triple vision when I saw it. Like we all had three or more bodies that shifted and moved independently of each other.
  • Their vision is akin to night vision or of a creature that is exposed to very little light. I was shown that their nights are very long and they have little sunlight exposure. Their nights are not like ours, though. It is always dusk and a sun (they have 2) is always visible even at night. I was told night lasts 12 Earth days. I got a sense that their planet was much larger than ours and was not on a tilted axis.
  • They explained they do not have water like ours. I was shown a liquid, though.
  • I asked where their home was and I heard, “Sirius A“. They did add that They are in other locations as well and I recall hearing Nibiru.
  • Their species carries some reptilian DNA.

Craft

I recalled their space craft, which is more like a shuttle. It was cylindrical in shape, like a cigar, except the back end came to a point. I don’t recall seeing any wings or landing gear. I don’t think it needed them. The entry door was a small rectangle shape. We would have to duck down to enter. Inside was completely dark with tiny colored lights. I was told they have no need for lighting, which made sense considering how they “see”. The front of the craft was domed. I don’t know if it was glass or not. The size of the entire craft was no more than 40 feet long with a diameter of around 8-10 feet. Claustrophobic for us.

I discovered an image similar to the craft I saw in this article. It just so happens to be about Nibiru.

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Purpose

They are here assisting in the evolution of the human species. I did not get much information on this. I suppose that is what my “class” is about and I will receive more information on it later. What I will share is that I was shown a device that looked like a very large laser. At first, it reminded me of a weapon and I retracted from it and questioned their intentions. They reminded me to focus on my heart and though the heavy sensation was present, I felt the familiar heart bliss, but it was very muted. I began to feel extremely drawn to them, like a magnetic pull that was almost drug-like. It was faint, though. They told me this was done purposefully. I was glad of it. The last thing I want is to fall in love with an E.T. ! lol

It was then explained that this laser was one of many strategically located across this galaxy. These lasers emit electromagnetic pulses. There was another words they gave me, but I can’t recall it now, so electromagnetic is not accurate, maybe something more like frequency modulators. These pulses are directly affecting us here on Earth. This is the whole purpose of these pulses. They are accelerating our evolution.

They told me they were preparing me for Contact.  At this point I got a bit overwhelmed because I remembered 1989 when I saw the UFO above my house and realized I had been contacted by Them before. I recognized that if it happened once, it could and most likely would, happen again.

The entire time I was typing up this post, my hands were shaking and my heart had a heavy, pulling energy. I suspect I will be exposed to the heart bliss in future encounters. How They expect me to pay attention with that distraction is beyond me.

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Chapter 4

Towards evening, after a day spent in the country with family, I began to hear a song that I hadn’t heard since I graduated high school. Boyz II Men, End of the Road. I kept hearing the chorus in my head. Since I don’t like the song (never did) or the group (sorry if you did/do like them) I pushed it out of my head. Whew!

Later, while attempting sleep, another song popped into my head. This one was more to my liking – The Doors, End. 🙂 The only part I was hearing was, “This is the end, my only friend, the end.”

I didn’t know at the time why I was receiving these messages in song about endings. I figured a relationship was coming to an end because I had an experience earlier in the day that led me to believe this was the message. I went into our back yard and as soon as I opened the door I heard an airy, “Bang!” and saw a dove fall from a tree in our back yard. I was stunned and a bit angry. The dove I had found previously had been shot and I suspected some kid was playing target practice. My suspicions confirmed, I looked all over for the perpetrator but saw no one. It was a pellet gun. I knew by the sound of it because my grandfather used them to kill squirrels. I sat outside waiting for another shot, but it remained silent. I don’t think the person wanted to be found out. Too bad. I would have confronted him and given him a piece of my mind.

It could very well be that a relationship has ended or is about to end, but that was not the message given to me as I meditated prior to sleep. I was told that Chapter 4 was beginning today and that I had concluded the previous chapter of this transformation. I still am not sure what the theme of that chapter was. Maybe illness since I was sick throughout it.

I was told that unlike the other chapters, which I had been shown were written with a partner, this chapter would be written only by me.

Chapter 4 is about initiation and preparation for Contact. This was given to me point blank and surprised me. They explained to me that I could not be distracted as any distraction would compromise learning. It was clearly stated that my main focus in life at this time was my children/family and spiritual transformation. Nothing else. Diversion from either path would interfere with preparation.

I was also asked again if I would agree to be Their channel. I agreed. I have no issue with helping Them and enjoy the energy sensations that come with channeling . I inquired as to what type of information I would be channeling. I was told it would be specifics about Their species and the work they are doing. I was assured it would be explained in a way that we humans could understand it.