Human Design: Black Roads, Red Tunnels

I want to go over the red and black lines on the body graph because I forgot to do so before jumping into circuitry (sorry!). This was covered in class #2 of Rave ABC’s.

Background

When the Big Bang occurred about 14 billion years ago and formed our universe, everything in our universe was compressed into an object smaller than one atom in size. It ignited and all the material began to expand to form the universe. The universe expanded into two parts: yin and yang. Physicists call yin material “quarks”, divided into two groups: protons and neutrons.  Yang, or “pure energy”, is broken up into electrons and neutrinos. As you probably know, the electron and proton form the atom. Neutrinos, on the other hand, you are probably less familiar with. Neutrinos were first named “dark matter” and known to be pure energy but only recently was it discovered they do have mass and travel slower than the speed of light, so not pure energy.

Most of the neutrinos are produced in stars but planets (Juptier produces 3%) and even we humans produce a small amount. It is estimated that 3 trillion neutrinos pass through every square inch of Earth all the time. These neutrinos carry information/knowledge with them and this “information feed” is passing through us all the time.

The way the planets affect us is through the neutrino stream. Those planets that intercept the neutrino stream at the time of our birth imprint those neutrinos that pass through it with information. Each planet changes the neutrino stream a little and in turn imprints that material on us. 

What are Crystals of Consciousness

At the beginning there was a yin egg (called the cosmic egg) and a yang “seed”. Both of these contained “crystals”. During the Big Bang the yin egg and yang seed crashed into each other and the crystals within them shattered into pieces and spread into the universe. As a result, every living organism is endowed with these crystals of consciousness. 

Humans have two crystals of consciousness, one from the yin and the other from the yang. From the yang we have the Personality Crystal and the Design Crystal. The Personality Crystal sits right above the head and the Design Crystal is located in the Ajna (third eye). The Personality Crystal = Who you think you are. The Design Crystal = Genetic Materia/the physical body. 

The “crystal” analogy comes into play here in that physical crystals have facets unique to only that crystal. It is the same in Human Design. Each of us is “cut” in a unique way. Similarly, if you pass light through one crystal and then another, the light on the other side will be different, as are we all. 

There is another part that sits in the G Center (Identity center middle of chest), which is called the Magnetic Monopole. It is only one pole but has two functions: Hold us together in the illusion of separateness and pull us forward through space and time via our unique path or destiny. Human Design calls this “geometry”. 

The Black and Red

If you look at the body graph you will see lines and numbers in the colors red and black. In Human Design, the black lines are part of the Personality Crystal which is determined by the exact time and location of birth. The red lines are part of the Design Crystal and are determined by going back 88/89 days prior to the date of birth. This is approximately the beginning of the last trimester of pregnancy. It is at this time that the neocortex is established and the soul enters the physical body.

The black lines are conscious aspects of one’s personality, or what one knows and is aware of about themselves (Personality Crystal). The red lines are that of which the individual is unaware; subconscious (Design Crystal, genetic).

The Personality Crystal is referred to as “the mind” and the Design Crystal as “the body” on the body graph (see above).

To recap, the Personality Crystal is located just above the Head center (crown). The Design Crystal is located in the Ajna Center (third eye). The two are held together in the illusion of separateness by the Magnetic Monopole, which is located in the G Center (Heart). I like to think of the Magnetic Monopole as the Higher Self, since that is more real to me.

The analogy of the limousine is used in HD. The Design Crystal is the limousine itself – its color, shape, number of seats, etc. In other words, the “body” or genetic material. The Personality Crystal sits in the back as the passenger (the mind), looking out the window of the car (body), enjoying the ride. The Magnetic Monopole is known as the “Driver” in Human Design because it is the only part of us that actually knows where we are going! We (the passenger) are suppose to sit back and enjoy the ride, but we incorrectly think we are the car and the driver.

We are unaware of the red aspects of our design to the point that we have to be told by others that it exists. We are completely blind to it. We may even outright reject this unconscious part. We are helpless in coming to terms with the two sides of ourselves (conscious/unconscious) because we cannot see the unconscious part except through others. The feeling of it is that something is missing that we just can’t quite put our finger on. It requires that we accept what we cannot identify with, watch/observe it, react to it and recognize that we are here for the ride (a passenger). This latter part is known as “the experiment” in HD, because that is what it is.

The Personality and Design Crystals are in a kind of “forced marriage”, held together by the Magnetic Monopole. This internal conflict is externalized in life.

Roads, Tunnels, and Overpasses

A good way to remember the black and red, conscious/unconscious, is the analogy of roads and tunnels. Black roads can be seen and identified with. Red tunnels are under ground where they cannot be seen, but they are there nonetheless. We can’t see while inside them, don’t know the direction we are traveling or when we will come out or even how that will look.

Overpasses are where both black and red are on the same road. I have this on my chart (reference chart above). See if you can find them. They are located at Gate 44, 24 and 28.

There are also partial overpasses. This is when half the channel is red and the other half is black. I have this at my 1-8 channel of Inspiration noted on the above image. So, I am aware of half of this channel. I am aware of Gate 8, while unaware of Gate 1.

Split Chart

A really helpful exercise is to split your body graph in two, one conscious and the other unconscious. This is my split view from Genetic Matrix. You can see that when separated into conscious and unconscious aspects my type changes from Projector to Reflector in both. So, I identify with and am aware of myself as a Reflector which is true for me, I do identify more as a Reflector than a Projector.

To compare, here is my mother’s split view. She has a ton of definition compared to me but you can see by her Personality view that she would identify as a Pure Generator, not a Manifesting Generator, and her authority would no longer be emotional. So she would probably not think of herself as emotional at all, yet everyone in our family would say she is emotional (and willful). If you look at her Design view, you can see a defined Heart, which better explains her willful tendencies. lol

References:

Bunnell, Lynda and Ra Uru Hu. (2011). The definitive book of human design. Carlsbad, CA. HDC Publishing.

Blanding, Theresa. (2011). Rave abc’s Student manual. Santa Fe, NM. Human Design America.

Human Design: Circuit Groups Part 1

I’m more than half-way through the Rave ABC course now and finding much of it repetitive, but this is only because I’ve done so much self-study. 🙂 The topic of the last two weeks has been circuit groups. I’m going to present my notes and findings here in two parts, not only for myself but for those doing their own HD study. 😉 Part 1 is the data, part 2 will be my application of the data to my charts and my husband’s chart (the fun part IMO).

Circuitry = How we connect and interact with others in life. A circuit is composed of channels (the lines connecting the numbers (gates) in the above example). There are a total of 36 channels.

There are three circuit groups in HD : Individual, Collective, and Tribal. 

Individual Circuitry – The middle track of the bodygraph. It has the most gates and channels of all the groups plus encompasses the four awareness centers and all the motors. 

Keywords: Empowerment, Individuality.
Format: Pulse, mutation
Time: Now
Sense: Auditory (hearing)
Emotional Wave: Spike up/down 

Collective Circuitry – The outside track on the bodygraph. It is only about sharing, nothing else. There is no reliability here. No promises kept.

Keywords: Sharing, make sense of the past, Project to the future.
Format: Cyclic and focused
Time: Past/Future
Sense: Visual
Emotional Wave – Crash wave; rise/fall

Tribal Circuitry – The inside track on the bodygraph. About gathering resources, supporting life/survival, the “team”, games, bargaining, give and take. The Tribal Circuit is “sticky”, meaning it can’t help but stick to others like glue.

Keywords: Support
Format: None 
Time: None (timeless)
Sense: Tactile (touch and smell)
Emotional Wave: Ratchet wave 

Integration Channel

It is the one channel that is different than all the other channels in that it operates through four gates instead of two. People with this channel are the most self-absorbed, selfish/self-interested. This channel has the ability of the body’s immune system to guide us to safety in the Now (Splenic Center driven). This channel is NOT mutative. It only has mutative qualities when connected to the 28 and/or 38th gate or both.

Keywords: Safety in the Now, Lone Wolf

Note: The gates of the channels in the above centers and circuitry will impact a person if present in their body graph in that they create consistency in how the person navigates through life. Those gates/channels not present will be where conditioning is present and where the mind tends to focus (the mind always focuses on what we are not).

The assignment from class #4 was to create a chart of all the white spaces in our body graph in order to see all the not-self possibilities that exist for us. This is my result (sorry the scan is crooked and I’m too lazy to rescan):

My reaction to seeing how much conditioning is possible in my design was that it was expected. I already feel like I am more like a Reflector than a Projector because I only have one channel (1-8) and it is half conscious and half unconscious (black/red respectively). This means that when my chart is split into unconscious and conscious sections I am a Reflector in both charts. Seeing all the white spaces colored in was somewhat depressing. I think I cried, actually. I can’t believe I did this to myself in this life!

Featured Image: Shadow Chart from Genetic Matrix. Highlights my undefined centers.

References:

Bunnell, Lynda and Ra Uru Hu. (2011). The definitive book of human design. Carlsbad, CA. HDC Publishing.

Blanding, Theresa. (2011). Rave abc’s Student manual. Santa Fe, NM. Human Design America.

Kundalini Dream: Tattooed Man

Busy night of dreamwork.

Kundalini Dream

I met up with a man at his home in California, a home he shared with some others. We were in his bedroom most of the time. I felt very close to this man but didn’t seem to know him well. The backstory was that everything had happened very fast, like we were both got caught up in the energy of our connection. 

What I most recall is how I felt when around him. There was the obvious sexual connection but there was also something else, a subtle sensuality and desire just to be close to him. When we moved closer together, I no longer felt separate from him. It was a very comforting and safe feeling, and as a result I had little resistance. 

Though I can’t recall his face, I do remember aspects of him. For example, he had this tattoo covering his upper back and shoulders. It looked like waves or fish scales outlined in black with red, blue and white coloring. I remember tracing it with my fingers and thinking it beautiful. I also remember noticing he had in an ear piece like he was hard of hearing. When he stood up bare chested, I could see he was very thin, carrying hardly any fat on his body. He wore blue jeans with a black belt and had his hands on his hips and a big grin on his face. I believe his hair was black or dark brown. It was messy and there was a lot of it.

When we embraced I was overcome with all sorts of feelings and emotions. I do believe we kissed, but there is little memory of the specifics of our embrace except the overwhelming feelings. I was so overcome that I blurted out that I loved him. This is uncharacteristic of me but I couldn’t help myself and neither could he. At one point I pulled away and said to him, “I can’t. It’s just too intense.” He was understanding and gave me my space. 

We sat on the bed and talked some about where our relationship was going. The overwhelming feelings I had stirred within me a strong desire to have a child with this man. I mentioned this to him and he was pleased. My mind freaked out, though, as I did the math and saw how old I would be when the child grew up. I said to him that it was not a good idea because I would be close to 70yrs old when the child was grown. Yet the desire to create new life was exponentially strong and I decided I didn’t care how old I would be.

This is when I noticed there was a massive window on the side of the room that overlooked a rectangular hot tub occupied by some young people. A little girl was trying to spy on us but the window was frosted with only a tiny edge around the window to see through. I pointed her out to the man and laughed at the sight of her saying, “She’s trying to see us but she can’t.” 

At one point we went outside of the house to gather my things from the car. This is when I finally saw the house from the outside. It looked like a nice, newer suburban home with terra cotta tiles on the roof. I remember my dog was with me and I scooped him up in my arms to take inside. The man had already gone in and so I followed but worried because I couldn’t remember where his bedroom was in the house. 

Inside I encountered his roommates. Still holding my dog, I introduced myself and a woman, who was standing in the kitchen, welcomed me. I asked if it was okay if I let my dog inside, stating that he was house trained. She said it was no problem, so I set him down. Another smaller dog barked from a nearby bedroom. I looked inside and saw a child sitting on a bed watching TV. Then a larger dog came in to sniff mine. My dog growled and hid between my legs. 

I don’t recall what happened next because my mind was a whirl of thought and considerations about the place I was and how I had gotten there. I remember thinking that the man was far too old for me and memory of what could only be a hearing aid came to mind. This caused me to wonder, “Am I old, too?” I was concerned about my lack of logic in decision making. I would never up and leave my life and move far away for a man, would I? What is wrong with me?! I was certain that, over time, the feelings I had for the man would die out. I saw that pattern in all my relationships and felt no matter what I did the connection would not last and eventually I would find myself stuck, miserable and eventually hurting him.

There was also this entire scenario that played out in a visual of this man with a woman I did not know. She was older, blonde (or gray) shoulder length hair, with wide hips that held a bit too much weight. She was very critical of the man, pointing out his faults, specifically the tattoo on his back. He, on the other hand, looked at her stretch marks and discolored skin, tracing his fingers over them lovingly and referring to them as “her map”. Watching the two interact, I immediately felt like I was similar to this woman, definitely not worthy of his love.

I was beside myself with self-destructive thoughts, specifically that I ruin relationships with my tendency to pick out all the bad and unattractive things about my partners. I turn beautiful things into rubbish.

While having these thoughts I still had all the intensely real feelings and emotions for the man. It was a gut wrenching, internal tug-o-war that woke me from the dream. 

In-Between Discussion

While the tug-o-war raged within me I was talking to a guide. I recognized that I was being shown two things. First, my overwhelm at the intensity of feelings rushing through me and the desire to surrender completely to them. Second, my mental rationalization of what I was feeling and how it sabotaged that surrender. There is a sense that feelings like that are destructive and will only lead to pain but at the same time all I want is to be overwhelmed and remain in a state of complete surrender forever. The latter part is so alien to me that I panic, well my mind does, and it becomes frantic because it cannot control what cannot be understood. My human side is in a panic, resisting that which is unknown because it is scary and unpredictable.

Yet, in the dream, my partner was totally understanding and accepting of my need for time. He gave me space and we talked about the potential of our partnership, which, oddly enough, was to create new life. I think, though, that it was more about beginnings that babies. That is how it felt in the dream. It was ripe with potential and possibility. The feeling was very attractive to me. So was the sense that I would not be alone in this new life. I would be safe, loved and cherished and no longer have to hide behind walls of protection.

My guide was asking me to look and decide what I wanted from this dream scenario. I, of course, was still caught up in the feeling and so kept saying that is what I wanted – to feel like that, to feel safe like that.

Dream #2

It took me a while to return to sleep. When I did, I found myself in a small gym. A song was playing through my mind, one I haven’t heard in a long while. I was putting weight plates on a small barbell after hearing someone (me?) say that it was okay to lift a little more weight. The voice suggested 45lbs. I was putting the weights on, one 10lb plate, then another, when I saw a small baby in diapers crawl over to a dumbbell on the floor, attempt to pick it up and smash their nose. Concerned, I went to check and the baby was okay. I offered her a 2.5lb weight telling her, “Try this instead.” She happily picked it up and smiled.

The song chorus was playing through my head very loudly as if someone turned up the volume. I could see my husband in my peripheral vision as I sat down on the weight bench to begin my workout. He tried to grab the barbell but I wouldn’t let him. He seemed to be there and then vanish only to flicker back into my visual field occasionally. 

The song chorus played on repeat: “This could be the end of everything, so why don’t we go somewhere only we know….”

I woke up and knew the dream indicated I had “work” (lifting weight) to do. 

Considerations

Symbolically, California means that I am carefully exploring my subconscious because I am nervous or apprehensive about something. The bedroom represents a private, safe space. The man inside is likely a guide and representation of the masculine. The tattoo of the scales is symbolic of the Kundalini. The hearing aid could be that this masculine energy was attempting to hear me better. The desire to create new life was an attraction to new beginnings; starting over; possibilities. The girl trying to see inside may represent my inner child or lower self who is not fully able to see what is happening. Her vision is obscured. The shift to me carrying my dog inside is likely indicating that I am wanting protection and to be more rational/logical. The vision of the older woman might be symbolic of who I do not want to be or fear I will become.

The weight room dream is very likely about doing “the work” to resolve and come to terms with the issues brought forth in the previous dream. The baby in the dream is again potential for new life/beginnings. The baby is also carrying weight, though much less.