Still no lucidity but I was advised via the Lucid Dreaming forum to ask my dreams to show me certain things. Two nights ago I asked to be shown what to do regarding my sister. Specifically, I asked, “Show me what to do about my sister.” I got no immediate answer in my dreams; however, last night I had the idea to begin nightly prayer. So, while doing my small yoga practice, I prayed for her, our mom and the entire dramatic family situation. I also prayed for all in distress. I felt better for it. 

Last night (March 20-21st) I got an entire dream about my sister!

Dream: We Leave on the 18th

This may have actually been two dreams because there are two different environments.

The first part was inside a house, probably Mom’s house. My sister was telling me that she had just learned she was a Projector. She was explaining what it meant and I interrupted, asking her to repeat herself because she wasn’t calling it Human Design. She told me, “I’m a Projector”. I told her, “No you’re not. You’re a Generator, as is your husband and son.” I then told her their profile types and explained it further. 

This part of the dream lasted a while but it was mostly me explaining HD. I recall thinking about her design and remembering she is split definition, which can cause a person to feel extremely confused about themselves, their identity and life – they are “split”. My understanding of split definition is that it can lead to codependency tendencies because someone who has split definition finds they feel “whole” when around others. This is most definitely my sister’s issue. 

Then I was in a car. My sister was driving and we were talking as we drove. She first drove through the small town we spent most of our school years in and headed towards a certain store. I only remember it started with the word “Moon” (Divine Feminine). It sold jewelry and my sister was talking about paying the rest of the money she had put down on some jewelry. I asked her if perhaps she could think of something better to spend her money on, especially considering her situation (broke, living off our mom, no job, etc). I think I said, “Don’t you think you should pay back Mom for her help?” I don’t remember her reply but she turned the car around and never went to the store.

We got onto a highway and passed by a small, industrial complex. My sister pointed out a building amidst the warehouses (ideas put on hold, stored resources). It was a church (seeking spiritual guidance, purpose). She said, “That’s where we go.” I turned around and looked, noticed it was a church and said, “Really?” It seemed strange to me and I said, “That’s a weird place for a church.” 

We drove through more hilly terrain and my sister was happily talking about others things and acting as if everything were fine. She was clearly avoiding talking about the elephant in the room. She tends to do this in waking reality, too. She pretends like things are how they use to be, before she went to jail and started making poor life decisions.

Eventually, I interrupted and asked her about her current situation. She began to blame others, even me, for her predicament. Specially, she confronted me on not helping her out when she “needed me the most”. I didn’t deny it but reminded her that no one is perfect and I was only doing what felt correct to me. She didn’t argue and seemed to be inviting me to talk more. So, I told her what I felt she should do and what she should avoid doing in the future. I brought up her spending habits, how she spends money like it is burning a hole in her pocket rather than using it for bills and living expenses. It is like she expects other people to spend their money on her basic needs. I suggested she get a job and take the route of working her way back to independence. She didn’t say what I expected, instead she told me, “We leave on the 18th.” This woke me up.

Considerations

The dream felt more like a processing dream to me than an actual dream encounter. The first indication of that is that my sister was calling herself a Projector. My guess is the first half of the dream was my sorting through thoughts I’ve had regarding my sister and my daughter, who are both split definition. I have noticed similar tendencies in them. They both act more confident when around friends/groups. My daughter, however, has already shown that she is much better at making positive life choices and has a strong will. While my sister has always been prone to following the crowd and not having much common sense. Looking at their bodygraphs, my sister is split between her mind and her authority (sacral) while my daughter’s mind is directly linked to her authority (solar plexus).

The second half of the dream is mostly me telling my sister what I want to tell her in waking life. Very few times has she verbally or energetically sent me an invitation and sought my advice. When she has, she has opted to ignore my advice completely. 

I have no idea what the “we leave on the 18th” is about. I will take note of it for now. It may or may not be significant.

I will continue to pray for my sister nightly. Maybe it will help. It definitely can’t hurt.