Slept in later than usual. Prior to bed I request that my guides show me what I needed to know.

Dream: Politics

Had a dream where I was at a movie and suddenly the lights came one and everyone was leaving and replaced by a new group. It reminded me of changing classes at a university. I lingered a bit and then left as I saw Obama walk in. I hesitated and then went outside. I was trying to decide if I wanted to talk to him or not. He seemed to intuit that and paused when I walked by him, turning toward me as if to say something.

There were some people mingling about and a long, rectangular table with older people sitting at it. I remember talking to several people about politics. I told them how I voted for Obama but generally voted Republican. Then I remember predicting what would happen with US politics. I explained how, very slowly, the two parties would switch sides. I mentioned the Wigs and Tories as an example. I described myself as a moderate and brought up my best friend from HS and how her dad is what shaped her political views. 

As I was finishing the conversation I noticed my grandmother was standing there. I called her my great, great grandmother, but she was just my grandmother. I hugged her really tightly and started to cry which woke me up. 

I fell back to sleep.

Dream: Bug-Eyed Monster

This time I had a dream at my grandparent’s underground house. My mom was sitting on the sofa and we were talking about her will. She explained it would not be like I thought and I was okay with that. Somehow her will and my grandmother’s will got intertwined and it felt normal in the dream. Mom’s will said everything had to be sold (pretty much true) and she was explaining that like I didn’t already know, again warning me that all would not go as planned, specifically that the split would leave very little for each of her children. I was again okay with it.

Then I began walking on the family land only it appeared different. There were what appeared to be pillars of sand-mountains spotting the landscape. It was eerily other-worldly. There was a circular pond full of water. Mom was with me and we were still talking. We lingered by the pond and I put my hand in it. A bug eyed fish came up. It had a huge, smiling mouth. It opened it’s mouth and I put my finger in and then played with it awhile. It seemed to like me. I showed my mom and moved to another area and tapped the water’s surface. My mom warned me not to and pointed. There was a HUGE version of the bug eyed fish that popped up. It’s mouth wide, it took up the entire length of the circular pond. In it’s mouth were sharp teeth. I freaked out and realized I needed to warn my younger sister. She somehow appeared on the other side of the pond swimming in some shallower water. She was very muscular and had on clothing like she was part of a obstacle course gameshow. She was ignoring me and rolling her eyes. I finally got her to listen so she jumped up and ran over to the pond with the monster in it. To my horror, she gave me a “I’ll show you” look and purposefully jumped in and began to swim across. The monster came to the surface but she didn’t see it, it’s gaping mouth slowly coming to view underneath her. She reach the side, turned around, and began to swim right for it’s huge mouth. I yelled at her right as a huge tooth touched her knee. She quickly turned back to shore and got out.  

I guess she realized I had saved her life and so she was much more open to talking to me. We chatted but she kept up her facade, pretending to hate me and not looking directly at me. I complimented her on her physique. She was super muscular, especially her arms and abs. I asked her how many calories she was eating, saying, “I bet you eat around 2000 a day”. She nodded. I happily shared my weekly strength training workout with her. I told her I recently realized why I wasn’t gaining the muscle I wanted. It was because I charted my calories for a couple of days and was averaging around 1600. 

I woke not long after thinking about my family – grandmother, mom, and younger sister.

Considerations

It surprised me that I had such emotion seeing my grandmother. I did not feel so emotional when she was alive. When I hugged her it was like I was relieved to have someone who understood me. The politics topic of the dream was likely related to how upset I get sometimes when I see how split the American public is becoming. Sometimes I have to distance myself from it all just to keep myself from getting too polarlized.

My mom and I discussing the will was curious to me. Though I don’t recall specifics, it seems like she was explaining that things would not go as I assumed they would after her passing. I was and am okay with it. I think our discussion brought my younger sister into the dream. She has estranged herself from the whole family with her most recently blocking my mom because she voted for Trump. My mom was going to write her out of the will and I suggested she wait until her emotions stabilized and reminded her that she loved my sister. She opted not to take her out of the will. 

Symbolically, I think the pond fish and later monster are symbolic of some hidden emotional upset that threatens to “kill” family ties. Since it is my sister who seems to taunt the monster and then gets out in the nick of time because of my warning, I suspect my younger sister will create issues with the will. She lives in CA and barely scrapes by. Half the year she is a ski instructor and half the year she does odd jobs while drawing unemployment. She is very liberal and opinionated. She is now in her mid-forties and I suspect she is finding it challenging to live like she always has. I suspect when my mother dies whatever money is left to us, her children, will result in some green-eyed monsters, especially for those who feel they desperately need the money. I already went through this when my dad died and learned my lesson. I will not fight for whatever scraps remain when my mom dies but I don’t have much faith that either of my sisters will remain sane during that time. Both have unresolved issues with our mom and will be forced to reconcile one way or the other.

I find it interesting that when I ask to be shown what I need to know that I have dreams that meet that request. I am not sure why I need to know about politics other than my tendency to get upset when I read or see news. On the other hand, I can definitely see how my mom’s passing could result in hidden, emotional monsters waking up. I haven’t seen my youngest sister in almost 20 years. I have always told my mom that she will come back at some point. I hope it isn’t my mother’s funeral that prompts her return. I would rather she come sooner, for our mom’s sake.