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Class 6 Rave ABC’s: Keynoting

This week is the final week of the Human Design course, Rave ABC’s. I am taking it via the International Human Design School (IHDS). Last week there was a break to give the students more time to work on the assignment: keynoting another student in the class.

What is a keynote? Keynotes are archetypal words and phrases that express someone’s unique truths about specific aspects of their character, defined nature, and genetic attraction to conditioned Not-Self patterns. Keynotes can speak directly to a person’s cells and be profound because keynotes come from precise, logical and mechanical formulas that express life and resonate at a mental, emotional, and biochemical level for that person.

Keynotes are NOT an interpretation of the BodyGraph.

Keynoting is when you link together keynote words and phrases within sentences to form a paragraph based on a BodyGraph.

When hearing the keynotes for their BodyGraph, people new to HD may mostly recognize Not-Self behaviors. So, keynoting indicates where their “problems” reside.

Elements of keynoting include: defined gates, aura type, channels, circuits, profile type, etc. The top three elements to consider when keynoting are: the red and black lines on the BodyGraph (tunnels/roads, unconscious/conscious), the three types of circuitry (Individual, Collective, Tribal), and the hexagram structure (the 6 hexagrams that compose the numbers of the profile).

Examples of keywords and phrases:

Red/Black lines: aware, unaware, conscious, unconscious, overpass, road, tunnel.

Basic verbs for aura type:

Generator – Respond or available to.
Projector – When invited, when recognized.
Manifestor – Impact, act, inform.
Reflector – wait 28 days, cycle of the moon.

Phrases for authority:

Emotional – wait to sense/find your clarity.
Sacral – wait to respond, what does your spontaneous gut say?
Splenic – what does your spontaneous gut say?
G-Center – when invited what does your unique identity say?
Ego – when you inform, what does your ego say?
Mental/no inner authority – After talking it over with others, what do you hear yourself say?
No inner authority (Reflector) – After waiting a cycle of the moon (or 28 days)….

Defined center keynoting phrases:

Sacral – Creativity, life force, work, availability.
Throat – Manifestation, communication, expression, metabolism.
Root – Pressure, adrenaline, stress.
Spleen – Survival, be healthy, intuition, spontaneous, safe.
Ajna – Thought, conceptualize.
Head – Mental pressure, consciousness, inspiration.
G – Love, identity, direction, self.
Ego/Heart – Will power, resolve, worth/value.
Solar Plexus – Feelings, emotion, The Wave, There is no truth in the Now.

Phrases for the undefined centers (Not-Self themes):

Sacral – Not knowing when enough is enough.
Throat – Trying to attract attention.
Root – In a hurry to be free of pressure.
Spleen – Holding onto what isn’t good for you.
Ajna – Pretending to be certain.
Head – Thinking about things that don’t matter.
G – Fixated on trying to find love and direction.
Ego/Heart – Trying to prove yourself.
Solar Plexus – Avoiding confrontation and truth.

Keynoting Examples

The class was given several BodyGraphs to use as practice. While I won’t share those BodyGraphs, I can share the keynoting I did as my assignment. I was assigned another Self-Projected Projector like myself, but they had more definition than me.

I used the following aspects of the BodyGraph to guide my keynoting:

Type: Projector
Strategy: Wait for the invitation
Authority: G, self-projected
Not-Self/Open Themes: Worrying about what doesn’t matter, Holding onto what isn’t good for you, Not knowing when enough is enough, Trying to prove yourself, Avoiding confrontation and truth, In a hurry to be free of pressure.
Channels/Circuitry: 23-43 Channel of Structuring, Gate of Insight and Gate of Assimilation, Individual Knowing Circuit, “empower efficiency”. 1-8 Channel of Inspiration, Individual Knowing Circuit, “creative self-expression”, “I know I can or cannot make a contribution”.

Below is my first attempt at keynoting:

You are someone designed to wait for an invitation to guide others. Once recognized, your unique identity empowers others through your genius of creative self-expression, inspiring others to see and think differently. If you don’t recognize when enough is enough, you may end up rushing around unable to relieve the pressure you feel to avoid confrontation. Then, if you become preoccupied with what doesn’t matter, you risk holding onto what is no longer good for you while in an attempt to prove yourself to others.

The following is the keynoting a classmate did for me:

You are designed to wait for the invitation to guide others. Once recognized, you may empower others by being a creative role model. You are a visionary driven by love and beauty, with the focus to express your inspirations and live your unique identity. You are successful when you lead by example, rather than with explanations. You are able to lead others when you come from a place of inner direction, free from identifying with others passions or desires, not trying to prove your worth or answer the greater mysteries of life. You are fueled by the needs of your community and to support their potential. It is important for you to reflect, before being invited to share your insight. When you become wise about knowing your limits and what is healthy, you can begin to lead others by simply being and showing them new ways of living.

The bolded portions are what I feel are not completely accurate. Sure the 1-8 channel is about leading by example as is my 6th line; however the part “rather than with explanations” doesn’t sit right with me. I have experienced my greatest feelings of success when I have used my voice, specifically teaching others and providing explanations, examples, info! So to say that providing explanations will not lead to success for me, well that is hugely discouraging. How does one teach without using explanations? They don’t. 

As for “fueled by the needs of your community” – I am anything but community-driven. I don’t like groups, and community in general is not who I strive to support or help. I work one-on-one. I enjoy helping individuals and am “fueled” by the needs of the individual not groups or the community.

In general, I do not strongly identify with being a role model to others….at least not yet. Leading by example is not something I desire nor aspire to. I also do not feel like I am a visionary driven by love and/or beauty. Overall, “creative role model” just feels incorrect. I do have half that channel unconscious, though, which could be why I feel that way.

My response to the above Keynoting is a requirement of the assignment, also. I have yet to respond with what I feel resonates and what does not.

Many other students have submitted their keynoting and, so far, mine is the shortest. Most are much, much longer. My understanding of keynoting is that it is meant to be precise and to the point, not long-winded and wordy, so that is how I did mine.

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Reminder: It Takes Time for the Energy to Align

As I was organizing my Rave ABC class notes, I found my foundation reading notes, so I read through them again. It’s always good to go back and review what I am drawn to because there is usually something I missed.

I missed this nugget: “Channel [1-8] gets usurped by relationships”.

The analyst who gave me my reading indicated that any relationship I’m in will have this effect upon me because the Other wants to “hold onto me” and they will “expect me to be the representative of the group”. This response to me is because there is “a frequency of Love and Light that emanates from me [when they’re] in my frequency”. This frequency is written into my first line earth, “Venus exalted as beauty, Love is Light, the grounding of my body”. My notes also have: “Genius design Sun-Earth: the natural, receptive genius”.

Specifically, the Channel 1-8 “draws a certain kind of attention”, those with this channel “feel we deserve [the attention]”, we are “captivating, interesting, different.” Those with this throat activation have “a compelling, undeniable, demanding voice, here to speak its truth.”

Since both myself and my husband have this channel, I can see where my bitterness comes from. I have often observed of him “attention-seeking” behavior. He seems to always want attention and will seek it however he can get it, positive or negative. Of course, he seeks attention from me the most, but in my bitterness (not being invited to share my unique voice), I withhold it from him. I, too, feel I deserve attention and over many years of not being truly seen (by him and everyone else), I’ve become extremely bitter. To be married to a MG with this channel has been tough because I observe him sharing uninvited all the time without the kind of backlash I get when I do the same. I always thought of this as the curse of being a Leo (my husband has a Leo moon), a hard lesson I have to learn. Now I understand that it is more about patience and waiting for the right invitation.

So I wonder to myself, “What do I do with this information?”

I am immediately reminded of something else I was told in the reading. At one point in my reading a discussion of my 6th line in mid-life came up. The analyst told me I’m “ringing myself out”. My notes say: “You know it’s over and everything will change but it takes time for the energy to align.” It’s this last statement that came to me after my above question to myself.

It takes time for the energy to align.

I am also reminded of my Life Cycle charts which show the three stages of my 6th line life experience. I have not yet entered into my Chiron Return state, the last stage where I become the Role Model. I am close, but not quite there yet. In the second stage of life my personal sun is in Gate 2, line 3, “patience”. When I research this I find that this Gate and line indicate that I have to listen to my HS (Authority) and bide my time before heading in a new direction. I cannot change my direction without its agreement, though my mind will try. If I follow what my mind says it will be no good and create delays, so my compass is the Magnetic Monopole of the G Center and only when it says “Go” do I take action. In the meantime, I provide vision and direction to others, providing them with a plan forward but I don’t do the work or make it happen. 

I am very acutely aware of this “patience” aspect in this cycle of my life. I feel like I get all kinds of ideas and motivations to change my life but cannot. I feel stuck in place. The answer I continue to get from my HS is, “It’s not time”. It is very frustrating but I have learned how intensely strong my inner compass is. I cannot act against it. There is a feeling within that just doesn’t allow me to act against it. 

The Definitive Book of Human Design says, I “look to Gate 14 for allies, for the power and resources to bring [my] vision to fruition.” pg. 177 My own husband does not have this gate so I am left hanging, waiting for it to come along in the right way. This is sacral energy, so either it will come from a Generator who has this entire channel or just the gate, or it will be another energy type that has a hanging Gate 14.

Overall, in my review of my gates I noticed that I have lots of hanging gates in the sacral and root area. This is promising because when connected with the right person things can really move forward. 

The analyst who did my reading pointed out that I am waiting for a very specific energy, something that “tastes” just right. She reminded me that only very specific individuals will find me “irresistible” while most will either not see me, be unaffected or reject me. If it is all about design, then whoever it is will fit perfectly with me design-wise, connecting the dots and manifesting channels (life force) that otherwise are not present for either of us.

But it all must come at the right time and not a moment before or after. Like a lightning strike.  

In the meantime, I guess I perfect my ability to wait, learning to be patient until I am recognized and invited. I am recognized by the Other when I am doing those things which bring me joy. So, while I wait, I need to focus on what brings me joy. This is, of course, a repeat of what I’ve been told many times by my guidance: “Enjoy this time”.

References:

Bunnell, Lynda and Ra Uru Hu. (2011). The definitive book of human design. Carlsbad, CA. HDC Publishing.

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Human Design: Circuit Groups Part 2

Back to circuit groups and the assignment we were given:

For class #5 we went over the individual channels and gates that make up each circuit type. 

Circuitry = how energy circulates through the channels of the body graph. 

It is called “circuitry” because when you look at a body graph it looks like a circuit board. Circuits are composed of channels and each channel is composed of two gates (except the Integration Channel which has 4 gates). The flow of energy through a channel is like a spark of life and so is referred to as “life force”. This life force is then relayed through our auras which is then received by others when they interact or come close to us.

There are 36 channels and 64 gates in the Rave BodyGraph. 

The assignment from this class was: Compare your circuitry to that of your family. Does it explain how you view things differently.

I decided to compare my circuitry with my husband’s. 

Our connection chart.

Individual Circuit – Empowerment

What we have in common: 

Gate 28: Part of the Struggle Circuit, Gate of the Game Player. We have this as both conscious and unconscious (Overpass). I can see how us both having this gates causes us to be stubborn and fight things (and each other).

Gates 1 and 8 (Channel of Inspiration) – We both have this as a partial overpass and both of with a conscious Gate 8 and an unconscious Gate 1. This is the design of a creative role model. We stand out from the crowd and inspire others with our individuality. Unfortunately, I find that sharing this channel often means I go unheard and unseen by others when around him. They see and recognized him first.

Gate 2: Gate of Direction of Self. His is conscious, mine is unconscious. A visionary providing a plan or overview for a new way forward. Always looking to others for allies, resources and power to achieve your vision. Of course, I don’t see this in myself and seeing him be this way annoys me. I do notice that when someone no longer aligns with me I have no problem parting ways with them. 

Gate 20: Contemplation, the Gate of Now. He has it conscious, I have it unconscious. Fully present in the Now, providing a living example to others via your intuitive knowing, personal survival and mutative behaviors. No consideration taken to what bubbles up out of you in what you say and do. This could be my tendency to blurt but I see it best in me when I channel. I say something profound but then can’t recall what I said. I see it in my husband as a child-like wonder and awe. 

Gate 24: The Return, Gate of Rationalization.  My husband has this as a road, I have this as an overpass. Mulls over something over and over again, looking to inspire others with it but without Gate 61 cannot do this. There is knowing and then not-knowing. Gate 24 fears ignorance and never knowing for certain or not being able to explain the knowing. Always looking for the next mystery to solve. I can see this in myself but especially in my husband who seems to fixate on some things. It is just annoying but I can see how I fixate, also.

What my husband has:

Gate 55: Abundance, the Gate of Spirit. Unconscious. Susceptible to melancholy and moodiness. Constantly moving through a cycle of hope to pain. I see this very obviously in my husband but he doesn’t since it is unconscious. Since I am prone to melancholy via my 1-8 (my only consistent life force), it is not something I resist. I find that when he is melancholic I shift to hopeful and vice versa. When he is moody he can be intolerable, though. 

Gate 10/Gate 34: Channel of Exploration. He has this channel as an overpass. Gate 10 is a tunnel, Gate 34 is a road. A design of needing to be first, of following one’s convictions, leading us to love, accept and honor ourselves. I certainly see this in him and sometimes we butt heads because of it. He can be rigid and self-centered.

I have no Individual gates or channels that my husband doesn’t have. 

pg. 159 The Definitive Book of Human Design

Collective Circuit – Sharing 

What we have in common:

Gate 5: Waiting the Gate of Fixed Patterns. My husband has an overpass, I have a tunnel. We stay true to our own fixed patterns and rhythm. We like routine and don’t like to deviate from that routine. I know that I like routine but this gate is unconscious in my body graph but maybe this has been learned over time from trial and error. Since both myself and my husband have this, we tend to have similar routines and leave the other alone about being so fixed.

Gate 31: The Gate of Influence. We both have this “road”. Shows others a view for a new direction via designated leadership roles (the lines). My husband is a 31.3, Anarchist. I’m a 31.6, Authoritarian. It is only when I look at the associated line that I laugh and better understand our differences! I say “follow the rules” and he says, “Why? Do NOT follow the rules, do what you want!” We have major upsets in child rearing in regards to this among other things.

Gate 18: Work on what has been spoilt, the Gate of Correction. He has a road, I have a tunnel. We focus on what isn’t working and ways to correct it. This is someone who tends to complain and find fault in things and people. I am only aware I do this because I’ve been told to stop complaining all my life. My husband does it consciously. We often complain about each other, always seeing what is wrong instead of what is right.

Gate 48: The Well, Gate of Depth. I have a road, he has a tunnel. A desire to share and express our depth in order to help make the world better. We fear being inadequate and doubt our ability to express our depth. We can be over focused on developing skills we think we lack. I have many certifications and lots of education that I don’t use! My husband doesn’t but I do see in him a fear of inadequacy. 

Gate 56: The Wanderer, Gate of Stimulation. He has an overpass, I have a tunnel. The historian, philosopher and story teller who is always looking for new ideas. This is what was attractive to me to my husband. He loves to philosophize! I have a degree in history though I would never have told anyone I liked studying it, it just happened. 

What my husband has:

Gate 41: Decrease, Gate of Contraction. He has a tunnel. Seeking new experiences and feelings. Enjoys writing and daydreaming about what they wish to experience. Without Gate 30 there is a sense of wanting but not knowing what you want. My husband is very much this way; a daydreamer, writer and artist.

What I have:

Gate 29: The Abysmal, The Gate of Perseverance. I have a road here. This gives me this ability to persevere through whatever life brings. Always eager to say yes and commit my energy but without Gate 46 I won’t know what I am working towards. I do have the ability to stick to what I start no matter what it is. I am a finisher and I do often wonder why I persevere at times and feel like it is pointless.

Gate 9: The taming of the power of the small, Gate of Focus. I have a road. Diligence to detail and ability to focus one’s energy. Without Gate 52 I will struggle to sit still long enough to concentrate which may cause frustration. I am aware that I fidget and can’t sit still for long, especially as a student or in situations where long-term stillness and/or focus is needed. I usually multi-task to compensate.

Gate 47: Oppression, The Gate of Realization. I have a road. I remember random details and attempt to put them together to make sense of them. Pressure to see the full picture. My mind is full of random stuff all the time and I’ve just gotten use to it. I tend to get stuck in the endless cycle of finding an answer only to reveal another question and the paradoxical. I have learned to laugh at it and enjoy it.

Where we meet:

Gate 17 (him, road)/Gate 62 (me, tunnel): Channel of Acceptance, The design of an Organized Being. 17 is Structuring and 62 is details. Together we can make sense of information and are good at business, projects, events and organization. We own a business together. 🙂

Gate 42 (him, tunnel)/Gate 53 (me, tunnel): Channel of Maturation, The design of Balanced Development. He has the gate of growth and I have the gate of beginnings. Together we can move forward with understanding of the past and take something new through to a successful end. Without him, I may feel I have to finish everything I begin. Without me he will feel frustrated trying to start something that never gets going. 

Tribal Circuit – Support

What we have in common:

Gate 19: Approach, Gate of Wanting. He has a tunnel, I have a road. He has 19.3 (dedication) and I have 19.6 (recluse). We bring awareness to others about what resources are needed via enticement or bargaining. Without Gate 49 there is over sensitivity and needing to feel needed plus wondering when our own needs will be met. 

Gate 59: Dispersion, Gate of Sexuality. He has a tunnel, I have a road. How we penetrate and break through barriers to intimacy. The line determines how we approach bonding. I’m 59.3 (openness) and he is 59.5 (femme fatale/Casanova). The lines help me understand our dynamics better. Our differences have made me retreat because he is so unpredictable. 

Gate 44: Coming to Meet, Gate of Alertness. He has a road, I have an overpass. Prone to over-committing and making promises we can’t keep. We fear the baggage of the past. I don’t see this about myself but then I am partly unconscious in this gate. I use to commit too much to things but have since stopped. My husband has a button on certain past issues (baggage) and says “yes” too much to requests of his time and energy IMO.

What my husband has:

Gate 45: Gate of the Gatherer. He has it as a tunnel. The ability to gather people in order to contribute to the Tribe. Seeks to protect the Tribe’s resources. Has a tendency to be possessive. I definitely see this in him!

What I have:

Gate 27: Nourishment, Gate of Caring. I have a tunnel. Altruism, caring for the weak, sick, young, old, etc. Without Gate 50 I tend towards sacrificing my own well-being for others because of my poor boundaries. Though I don’t see this about myself, I asked my husband if I was altruistic and he said “definitely”. I do find myself crying when I watch videos or movies that involve suffering of the weak or innocent, like animals, children and old people. 

My Reaction

First, I was surprised at how much Collective circuitry we both have. Gate 9 made me laugh (not being able to sit still and focus for long). Similarly, I was shocked at all the Tribal gates we both have. So much “stickiness” I didn’t realize I had. Gate 27 really surprised me! But, overall, the Collective Circuitry wins out as the highest number of gates and channels individually and between us. I can see now why it feels like all my husband does is talk (share), and I suppose I must, also, considering my own Collective tendencies.

By the time I finished this assignment it was even clearer to me that our biggest obstacle is how similar we are! The next biggest issue would be our “collective” stubbornness (Gate 28) along with him having more channels (life force) than I do while also sharing the Channel of Inspiration with me. He has a tendency to want attention (be first) and so I have to accept being second to him so my life force can feel snuffed out when we are together.

References:

Bunnell, Lynda and Ra Uru Hu. (2011). The definitive book of human design. Carlsbad, CA. HDC Publishing.

Blanding, Theresa. (2011). Rave abc’s Student manual. Santa Fe, NM. Human Design America.

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Human Design: Black Roads, Red Tunnels

I want to go over the red and black lines on the body graph because I forgot to do so before jumping into circuitry (sorry!). This was covered in class #2 of Rave ABC’s.

Background

When the Big Bang occurred about 14 billion years ago and formed our universe, everything in our universe was compressed into an object smaller than one atom in size. It ignited and all the material began to expand to form the universe. The universe expanded into two parts: yin and yang. Physicists call yin material “quarks”, divided into two groups: protons and neutrons.  Yang, or “pure energy”, is broken up into electrons and neutrinos. As you probably know, the electron and proton form the atom. Neutrinos, on the other hand, you are probably less familiar with. Neutrinos were first named “dark matter” and known to be pure energy but only recently was it discovered they do have mass and travel slower than the speed of light, so not pure energy.

Most of the neutrinos are produced in stars but planets (Juptier produces 3%) and even we humans produce a small amount. It is estimated that 3 trillion neutrinos pass through every square inch of Earth all the time. These neutrinos carry information/knowledge with them and this “information feed” is passing through us all the time.

The way the planets affect us is through the neutrino stream. Those planets that intercept the neutrino stream at the time of our birth imprint those neutrinos that pass through it with information. Each planet changes the neutrino stream a little and in turn imprints that material on us. 

What are Crystals of Consciousness

At the beginning there was a yin egg (called the cosmic egg) and a yang “seed”. Both of these contained “crystals”. During the Big Bang the yin egg and yang seed crashed into each other and the crystals within them shattered into pieces and spread into the universe. As a result, every living organism is endowed with these crystals of consciousness. 

Humans have two crystals of consciousness, one from the yin and the other from the yang. From the yang we have the Personality Crystal and the Design Crystal. The Personality Crystal sits right above the head and the Design Crystal is located in the Ajna (third eye). The Personality Crystal = Who you think you are. The Design Crystal = Genetic Materia/the physical body. 

The “crystal” analogy comes into play here in that physical crystals have facets unique to only that crystal. It is the same in Human Design. Each of us is “cut” in a unique way. Similarly, if you pass light through one crystal and then another, the light on the other side will be different, as are we all. 

There is another part that sits in the G Center (Identity center middle of chest), which is called the Magnetic Monopole. It is only one pole but has two functions: Hold us together in the illusion of separateness and pull us forward through space and time via our unique path or destiny. Human Design calls this “geometry”. 

The Black and Red

If you look at the body graph you will see lines and numbers in the colors red and black. In Human Design, the black lines are part of the Personality Crystal which is determined by the exact time and location of birth. The red lines are part of the Design Crystal and are determined by going back 88/89 days prior to the date of birth. This is approximately the beginning of the last trimester of pregnancy. It is at this time that the neocortex is established and the soul enters the physical body.

The black lines are conscious aspects of one’s personality, or what one knows and is aware of about themselves (Personality Crystal). The red lines are that of which the individual is unaware; subconscious (Design Crystal, genetic).

The Personality Crystal is referred to as “the mind” and the Design Crystal as “the body” on the body graph (see above).

To recap, the Personality Crystal is located just above the Head center (crown). The Design Crystal is located in the Ajna Center (third eye). The two are held together in the illusion of separateness by the Magnetic Monopole, which is located in the G Center (Heart). I like to think of the Magnetic Monopole as the Higher Self, since that is more real to me.

The analogy of the limousine is used in HD. The Design Crystal is the limousine itself – its color, shape, number of seats, etc. In other words, the “body” or genetic material. The Personality Crystal sits in the back as the passenger (the mind), looking out the window of the car (body), enjoying the ride. The Magnetic Monopole is known as the “Driver” in Human Design because it is the only part of us that actually knows where we are going! We (the passenger) are suppose to sit back and enjoy the ride, but we incorrectly think we are the car and the driver.

We are unaware of the red aspects of our design to the point that we have to be told by others that it exists. We are completely blind to it. We may even outright reject this unconscious part. We are helpless in coming to terms with the two sides of ourselves (conscious/unconscious) because we cannot see the unconscious part except through others. The feeling of it is that something is missing that we just can’t quite put our finger on. It requires that we accept what we cannot identify with, watch/observe it, react to it and recognize that we are here for the ride (a passenger). This latter part is known as “the experiment” in HD, because that is what it is.

The Personality and Design Crystals are in a kind of “forced marriage”, held together by the Magnetic Monopole. This internal conflict is externalized in life.

Roads, Tunnels, and Overpasses

A good way to remember the black and red, conscious/unconscious, is the analogy of roads and tunnels. Black roads can be seen and identified with. Red tunnels are under ground where they cannot be seen, but they are there nonetheless. We can’t see while inside them, don’t know the direction we are traveling or when we will come out or even how that will look.

Overpasses are where both black and red are on the same road. I have this on my chart (reference chart above). See if you can find them. They are located at Gate 44, 24 and 28.

There are also partial overpasses. This is when half the channel is red and the other half is black. I have this at my 1-8 channel of Inspiration noted on the above image. So, I am aware of half of this channel. I am aware of Gate 8, while unaware of Gate 1.

Split Chart

A really helpful exercise is to split your body graph in two, one conscious and the other unconscious. This is my split view from Genetic Matrix. You can see that when separated into conscious and unconscious aspects my type changes from Projector to Reflector in both. So, I identify with and am aware of myself as a Reflector which is true for me, I do identify more as a Reflector than a Projector.

To compare, here is my mother’s split view. She has a ton of definition compared to me but you can see by her Personality view that she would identify as a Pure Generator, not a Manifesting Generator, and her authority would no longer be emotional. So she would probably not think of herself as emotional at all, yet everyone in our family would say she is emotional (and willful). If you look at her Design view, you can see a defined Heart, which better explains her willful tendencies. lol

References:

Bunnell, Lynda and Ra Uru Hu. (2011). The definitive book of human design. Carlsbad, CA. HDC Publishing.

Blanding, Theresa. (2011). Rave abc’s Student manual. Santa Fe, NM. Human Design America.

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Human Design: Circuit Groups Part 1

I’m more than half-way through the Rave ABC course now and finding much of it repetitive, but this is only because I’ve done so much self-study. 🙂 The topic of the last two weeks has been circuit groups. I’m going to present my notes and findings here in two parts, not only for myself but for those doing their own HD study. 😉 Part 1 is the data, part 2 will be my application of the data to my charts and my husband’s chart (the fun part IMO).

Circuitry = How we connect and interact with others in life. A circuit is composed of channels (the lines connecting the numbers (gates) in the above example). There are a total of 36 channels.

There are three circuit groups in HD : Individual, Collective, and Tribal. 

Individual Circuitry – The middle track of the bodygraph. It has the most gates and channels of all the groups plus encompasses the four awareness centers and all the motors. 

Keywords: Empowerment, Individuality.
Format: Pulse, mutation
Time: Now
Sense: Auditory (hearing)
Emotional Wave: Spike up/down 

Collective Circuitry – The outside track on the bodygraph. It is only about sharing, nothing else. There is no reliability here. No promises kept.

Keywords: Sharing, make sense of the past, Project to the future.
Format: Cyclic and focused
Time: Past/Future
Sense: Visual
Emotional Wave – Crash wave; rise/fall

Tribal Circuitry – The inside track on the bodygraph. About gathering resources, supporting life/survival, the “team”, games, bargaining, give and take. The Tribal Circuit is “sticky”, meaning it can’t help but stick to others like glue.

Keywords: Support
Format: None 
Time: None (timeless)
Sense: Tactile (touch and smell)
Emotional Wave: Ratchet wave 

Integration Channel

It is the one channel that is different than all the other channels in that it operates through four gates instead of two. People with this channel are the most self-absorbed, selfish/self-interested. This channel has the ability of the body’s immune system to guide us to safety in the Now (Splenic Center driven). This channel is NOT mutative. It only has mutative qualities when connected to the 28 and/or 38th gate or both.

Keywords: Safety in the Now, Lone Wolf

Note: The gates of the channels in the above centers and circuitry will impact a person if present in their body graph in that they create consistency in how the person navigates through life. Those gates/channels not present will be where conditioning is present and where the mind tends to focus (the mind always focuses on what we are not).

The assignment from class #4 was to create a chart of all the white spaces in our body graph in order to see all the not-self possibilities that exist for us. This is my result (sorry the scan is crooked and I’m too lazy to rescan):

My reaction to seeing how much conditioning is possible in my design was that it was expected. I already feel like I am more like a Reflector than a Projector because I only have one channel (1-8) and it is half conscious and half unconscious (black/red respectively). This means that when my chart is split into unconscious and conscious sections I am a Reflector in both charts. Seeing all the white spaces colored in was somewhat depressing. I think I cried, actually. I can’t believe I did this to myself in this life!

Featured Image: Shadow Chart from Genetic Matrix. Highlights my undefined centers.

References:

Bunnell, Lynda and Ra Uru Hu. (2011). The definitive book of human design. Carlsbad, CA. HDC Publishing.

Blanding, Theresa. (2011). Rave abc’s Student manual. Santa Fe, NM. Human Design America.

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Intuitive Health Warning

Sickness has been prevalent in my household and my extended families’ households since mid-December. Based upon what I have heard from friends, acquaintances and the media, this is happening all over. The media says it is Omicron, but other viruses are involved also. The “fluvid”, a mixture of Covid and the flu, a regular chest/head cold virus and the intestinal flu are going around.

In my family specifically we were all hit with a cold-like illness around Christmas. My husband and middle son got the worst of it, with my son spiking a 102 degree temp with a sore throat and headache. Both later developed coughing with mucus that lasted about a week. My other son and daughter did not get it and I only developed the coughing part which lasted about a week. For me, the coughing was just annoying (only in the morning and at night) but my husband and son were both miserable. My other son only got a mild cough and runny nose but never once complained and it didn’t slow him down one bit.

Then both my BIL’s families caught the same illness. Since they were tested for Covid (negative) we didn’t bother to test.

When we returned to work, I discovered a coworker had Covid over the break. She told me she wanted to die when she had it, saying, “It felt like I was being stabbed with knives all over.” She took the hydroxy stuff everyone raves about and in three days felt much better, though she was extremely weak and had to have her son’s help.

That same week my step-father got sick, also, but did not get tested because his symptoms were so mild. He had the same cold symptoms as everyone in the family had over Christmas break.

Then this week my middle son (poor baby) came down with the intestinal bug and had that for 24 hours and two days ago my MIL tested positive for Covid as did my BIL and SIL. My BIL and SIL have no symptoms but they also just had the cold that spread through our families (and tested negative for Covid then). My MIL is struggling but okay, her symptoms similar to the cold we all had but a bit more severe.

When I heard my MIL had Covid and so did my BIL and SIL, I immediately wondered about the accuracy of the test. I’ve heard the test is not very accurate and since my BIL and SIL’s family just had what my family had (the bad cold), I can’t help but wonder if it was Omicron all along but the test failed to detect it until after. I’ll never know but it does seem feasible especially since, in my family, my daughter didn’t get the cold at all and I got a very, very mild version of it. We are the only ones vaccinated in our family (except my mom who, BTW, also did not catch the ‘cold’, while her partially vaccinated husband got a mild version).

An Intuitive Health Warning

Prior to and during all this sickness, I’ve been feeling/sensing a need to slow down and listen to my body. The warning has increased in the last couple of weeks and I’m beginning to pay more attention as I notice how tired I am in general and how my body responds to my routine.

My guidance has posed some questions for my consideration. Do I really want to put so much effort into my diet and exercise? How does the exercise I have been doing make me feel? Do I want to feel that way? What could I do that I would enjoy instead?

This consideration comes with a sense that I need to pay attention and follow my intuition rather than ignore it. It isn’t a feeling of “oh no!” like I have gotten in the past, but more of a persistent nudge. 

For the first question: Do I really want to put so much effort into my diet and exercise? My answer is: Not really. I mostly exercise out of habit and boredom. I also exercise because I feel that if I don’t that I will become less healthy, less physically attractive and have less control over my body. I try and eat healthy and avoid eating certain things or indulging. I use to track everything I ate but noticed it was becoming a bit obsessive and not making me feel good so stopped doing it.

I realized recently that my diet and exercise habits stem from a deep sense of worthlessness and need to prove myself. This is in line with my completely open heart center in HD. An open heart center also causes me to tend to agree to and try to stick to plans/activities/etc. but not really have the energy or ability to do so. I have not experienced this as much as the need to prove myself, but only because I have learned to say no more often than yes. In the past, I would say yes, feel pressured to stick to what I agreed to and then have negative experiences.

My diet and exercise habits also come from an open root center that can cause me to feel a constant pressure to do, do, do. I become almost frantic if I do not follow a schedule or routine. This is not just in terms of diet and exercise but in other areas of my life as well. In HD this pressure is from an open root center. It says, “I’m in a hurry to get things done”. It causes me to rush about, trying to get rid of the pressure but nothing I do will get rid of it. I have to learn to live with the pressure. 

As for the second question: How does the exercise I have been doing make me feel? Well, lately not so good. I don’t want to finish or just don’t feel like it. I would rather go for a walk while listening to relaxing music, do deep stretching, do short bursts of cardio, or just do nothing at all. I have already started to shift away from weight training, decreasing the number of days I work out and taking more time to stretch and relax. This week I feel like doing no weight bearing exercise at all. I went for a run on Monday and enjoyed it but should’ve run less and walked more. I’ve since chosen to take long walks and do limited bodyweight exercises.

Lately I am more tired than usual, sleeping deeper and wanting to stay in bed longer. This could be a sign that my body needs more rest. I should listen to my body rather than push it so frequently. It can lead to illness and burnout, which my 2nd line body is prone to anyway.

The final couple of questions: Do I want to feel that way (the way my routine makes me feel)? What could I do that I would enjoy instead? Sometimes I get an exercise high and I love that feeling. Lately, I’ve not been getting that high much. I tire more quickly, feel exhausted or anxious and get low blood sugar more than I like. What other things could I do that I would enjoy? The other night singing came to mind, so maybe I could try singing a bit more. Sleep is always one of my favorite things to do! So that is definitely on the list. 

I feel like I should look back on my youth and what I enjoyed back then. 

If I go to my youngest years, exploring nature, being outside, swimming, fishing, and drawing were what I did the most. In my teen years I enjoyed reading, taking care of the chickens and other birds we had on our property, gardening, singing, baking (and eating it lol), and sleeping (the best sleep ever in my teens!). Most of what I enjoyed back then were solitary activities and I am still like that today. I still enjoy gardening, singing, cooking/baking, nature and animals. It wasn’t until my late 20’s that spirituality came into my life and was added as my favorite past time. 

In my teens I was “chunky” and didn’t eat very healthy. I use to eat whatever I wanted. If it tasted good, I ate it. I weighed on average about 10-15lbs more than I do now because of it. It wasn’t until I got married that I changed after seeing a picture of myself that showed how fat and unhealthy I was. This shifted me into some extremely very unhealthy habits that included binging and purging and exercising too much. I don’t want to shift to that extreme again but I also don’t want to become that overweight, sluggish, unhealthy me either. I need to find a good balance where I keep moving and eating healthy without over or under restricting, and give myself plenty of rest and breaks. Honestly, I would love to not care like I did as a kid. 

This past weekend my family took the RV to a lake I often frequented in my youth. It was beautiful but a bit cold outside. I tried fishing but had no luck. I also went for a walk with my daughter and then with my son. When walking with my daughter I found a couple of cork bobbers and a fishing lure along with a bottle of lighter fluid. I found two fossilized seashells when walking with my son. He found one right after I did and was super excited about it. He said, “This is why I love going for walks! I always find something cool.” He is a 2/4 Pure Generator so it is no wonder he loves being outside and exploring. It’s a hermit thing. 😉

It is times like the above the I really enjoy these days. Spending time in nature with my kids, either all together or one-on-one, can be a wonderful thing. I love that I have two, 2/4 Generating sons that really appreciate the outdoors, nature, wildlife and all that is has to offer. They don’t feel the need to constantly talk or over-think things. We can walk happily together in silence.

So, I guess I am going to slow down when it comes to exercise, replacing it will more enjoyable, peaceful moments in nature and with my children. We will see what comes of this change. It could open new doors by just allowing me to see something I didn’t notice was there before. And considering all the sickness around me, these changes will ensure my immune system remains strong.

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Lucid Dream: Meeting Klaus

Prior to bed last night I was thinking about something the teacher said in my Rave ABC class about Reflectors and some Projectors (those like me whose split charts have no centers defined). She said that their experience of life is surprise. Nothing turns out as expected, so they are always surprised by what life brings them. I thought to myself, “Not me. My inner voice tells me what is going to happen!” As normal, I got a reply to my thought. It asked, “Do you know what is going to happen now?” I thought about how all of this Knowing seemed to have gone silent recently and said, “No. I don’t know and that’s okay.” 

My mind wandered to our recent RV purchase. We tried it out this weekend because my husband couldn’t wait to use it. We stayed at my mom’s without hookups on a very cold night and it was not very enjoyable. The next day we went to the lake, which was much better, though I was very tired and developed a headache.

An internal dialogue commenced about the RV – Was it a good idea? What will become of it? Will it be used as I intended or will my husband take it over? 

I got an inquiry from within, as if saying, “Do you want to know?” I answered that I didn’t care and would accept the outcome regardless. I laughed at my reply because the HD Analyst had told me my life experience was a continual not-Knowing followed by moments of clarity/Knowing only to return to not-Knowing. 

I slept amazingly well last night and had an unexpected lucid moment and opportunity to go OOB.  

Lucid Dream: Meeting Klaus

I don’t know what was happening before I became lucid. I just became lucid all of a sudden.

Standing in front of me was a tall, thin man with blonde hair, blonde stubble on his face, and blue eyes. He seemed friendly and familiar. It felt like he had called me there because when he approached he had something to tell me. I decided to ask him, “What’s your name?” He said something like, “Tiff” (it started with a T) and I said, “Okay.” I remember being very pleased with myself for remembering to ask him his name. He then invited me to go with him. I assumed he meant traveling OOB as I was quite lucid and knew I was in the perfect state to do so. I said, “Sorry, I’m just too tired.” 

Accepting my answer he told me, “You have 433 [days] left.” When he said this, though, I was anticipating what he was saying and was thinking, “Hours, minutes, days, months….” I don’t know if he actually said “days”, it could have been me deciding that was what he meant. I also thought he was indicating how much time I had left to live, but afterward doubted this and decided it was more like a countdown to some event or life change. Regardless, I didn’t overthink the message, knowing that all too often I get cryptic messages from random people or guides while lucid. 433 days from now is March 27, 2023.

More lucid than I was before, I suddenly knew who the man was and asked him, “Wait, I know who you are. We’ve met several times. You’re Klaus!” He smiled and replied with, “Yes. We have met before and will meet again.” I asked, ” Why did you give me a different name?” I then remembered/heard, “We have many names”, and repeated that to him. He said, “Yes, We do.”

He had a distinct German or Nordic accent and I realized when I said “Klaus” that I said it with a similar accent. 

I hugged him and reached up to kiss him. In that moment I was really happy that I was getting to see him again and felt a connection to him. I wanted to initiate an energetic merge, but he pulled away and said something like “Not now” or “This isn’t the time for that”. His words were more of a telepathic feeling. I didn’t feel upset at the “rejection” but accepted that he was not there for that purpose. 

More was said but my lucidity dropped quickly and I moved into a dream scene.

Dream: Mongoose-Eating Cats

In this dream I continued to talk to Klaus as the dream story unfolded.

I was traveling along the road leading to my mom’s house, a road I am very familiar with in this life as I have traveled it numerous time. In fact, I was just on it Sunday. My mode of travel was flying. I moved fast, hovering as if a ball of energy. The sensation of it was very much familiar and I enjoyed moving in this way.

I saw debris littering various portions of the road. There were rectangular boxes full of supplies that had spilled out onto the road. I didn’t look close, preferring to look ahead. I saw a red car on the corner. It’s front end up crumpled up as if it had hit something very hard. I looked inside but no one was there. I couldn’t find what the car hit and briefly wondered what happened.

Another car pulled up and a man and a woman were inside. One was holding a piece of paper in his hands and I knew they were the occupants of the wrecked car. I decided to leave and fly towards my mom’s house.

Along the way I saw more debris. It looked like someone had just dumped their living room furniture in the middle of the road. Traffic was coming towards me and I decided to flash my headlights (I wasn’t in a car so not sure how I did this). None noticed and I figured they would be forced to slow to avoid the debris. One vehicle, a small bulldozer, did slow. I remember telling it to be careful. I recall seeing a set of empty book shelves standing in the road.

When I got to my mom’s house it looked different. It was more like a greenhouse than a house, with glass panels covering all sides and the roof. Inside were many house cats and another woman, my mom I think.

There were also these little ferret-looking creatures that were very playful and active. Many of these creatures had babies and I picked them up and cuddled with them. My mom showed one of her cats a baby and the cat hissed and tried to bite it. We decided to keep the cats away.

I went into the main house. Inside was no furniture and a very spacious layout. Where furniture should’ve been were potted plants placed strategically in a grid pattern on the carpet. There were more cats inside as I walked through looking at all the greenery. 

When I went back outside I saw the baby ferret creatures were playing near the front entrance where they entered through a cat door. A cat lounged nearby, barely noticing them. I asked my mom about the danger, suddenly recalling the name of the animals: Mongoose. She said the cats wouldn’t hurt the them.

Then I noticed tiny, white feet with no bodies littering the area. They looked like cat feet but I saw them as baby mongoose feet. I imagined the cat eating everything but the feet. I was horrified and grabbed a cat sleeping nearby and pushed it out the window. Then I saw where the kill must have happened, a wet area of concrete, and pointed it out to my mom. Just as I did this, a sprinkler located in the ground turned on and sprayed me hard in the face. My mom laughed. I woke up. 

When I woke up, the first thing on my mind was that the wet spot in the concrete was not a kill site at all but a sign that water was present. I thought, “I should’ve known that would happen.”

Dream Interpretation

It seems like the wreck and furniture along the road to my mom’s house is symbolic of some “impact” that results in an emptying of the contents of the home (life path/journey). In this case the contents appear to be tools (life strategy) and empty bookshelves (place to hold knowledge). The home has a greenhouse (place of growth) and is full of cats (divine feminine, feminine sexuality). The baby mongoose (playful, mischievous tendencies) is eaten by the cat (feminine sexuality). The inside of the house is empty except for plants (strategic growth). This aligns with the furniture on the road.

The dream in its entirety feels like I am being shown a future potentiality, though I don’t really know what to make of it. My mom’s house has transformed in the dream to a place of growth, full of cats and mongoose. This could indicate the two become one, in that the cat consumes/integrates the mongoose. My “mom” may be a wiser version of me, or could be my actual mom. My best guess is mom = my wiser or higher self. 

Whatever the dream indicates will happen it is certain that it will be a shock or surprise, one that pulls me out of my seriousness and catches my attention. This is indicated at the end of the dream where I am caught off-guard by a sprinkler spraying me in the face.

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Projector Question: How do I Know When to “Wait for the Invitation”?

Many Projectors, especially those new to Human Design, get confused about the strategy of “wait for the invitation”. The way I interpret it is that if what I want to do involves another person then I need to wait for the invitation no matter what it is I want to do. With anything else there is no need to wait because it only really involves me.

Basically, we need to get agreement from others whenever we want to make an impact on others. If what we want to do really doesn’t impact anyone else, why would we need their agreement? 

A simple example: When I was single and self-employed and I wanted to go on a road trip, I just did it. Along the way, if I needed something from someone else then it would need an invitation but most of the time that was just understood – hotels for example either have a room or don’t. 

Now that I am married with three kids, a road trip requires agreement or else I just end up upsetting others and creating tension in the home.

Recently, I decided that buying an RV would provide me with the space and time alone I need whenever I need it (authority). I presented my idea (strategy) to my husband who is Manifesting Generator. He liked it and ran with the idea. I didn’t have to do anything and now I have a beautiful RV parked in my driveway! It took less than a week. No kidding!

When I was younger and still learning about how life worked for me (way before HD), I seemed to intuitively know that I needed help from others to get where I wanted in life. Direction was provided by my authority and my strategy kept me moving in that direction.

For example, I wanted to go to college but I didn’t have any motivation (energy) to stick with it (common with Projectors). While college might not seem like it requires agreement from others, it does if going to college requires help financially or otherwise. In my case, financial help as well as family support (in the form of energy) was a necessity. My mom, an Emotional Manifesting Generator (MG), pushed me through at the beginning and my ex-husband, also a MG, pushed me through to the end. The way they did this was that I would mention how college might not be good for me, etc., and they would advise me to persevere, that they believed in me and would help, and they did. Later, when I wanted to get my Master’s degree, my current husband (also an MG) also pushed me through to the end. He provided me with financial resources and encouragement while also helping take care of our kids. After discovering I was pregnant, I chose to quit (authority) rather than continuing on to get my LPC and needed no invitation to do so. It was my body and so I just ended my schooling at that point.

The jobs I’ve had have been similar in that my authority guided me and my strategy got me to where I wanted to go. If ever I doubted anything about a job, it usually turned out to be not such a good idea. It is just a feeling I get, like an uneasiness or questioning inside. The feeling stems from my authority, my internal compass, warning me that something isn’t quite right and I might be going “off course”. Sometimes it feels very wrong (can’t ignore that) and other times it is more like a “are your sure?” (minor detour ahead) an then later those jobs have been okay but intolerable over a period of time with many tough lessons pushing me to exit. The longer I resisted leaving the job, the more intolerable it would become. 

The “intolerable” feeling manifests as bitterness in a Projector, but can be a wide range of feelings from depression, lack of interest and motivation, avoidance of others, to blame and frustration. Basically, all feelings that scream “get out of here” but we ignore because our mind tells us that we “need” a job, or “need” a person or situation to survive. When we ignore these feelings and listen to the Not-Self mind we are ignoring our authority and following invitations that are leading us nowhere. Simply put, we go “off course”.

The above examples show that invitations will come even if not in line with one’s authority. So, you should be selective! But the cool thing is that no matter what invitations you choose there really are no mistakes. Your authority will course correct and get you back on path and all detours are just lessons and growth; “signs” pointing you in the right direction.

Authority (Spleen, Solar Plexus, Heart, G-Center) is one’s internal compass and strategy (wait for the invitation) is the road map. If you listen to your authority and get out of your head you will get to your destination without incident. 

This same advice applies to all other aura types. How you feel/connect with your authority will vary.

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One Goal Complete, One Begun

One of my 2022 goals has been reached! The other is well on its way. The last is still in waiting.

In case you didn’t read my last post, these are the goals:

Train a new AP Manager (replacement) and then train/move into the position of CFO for our company.
Begin taking HD courses with the end goal of becoming an HD analyst.
Buy an RV to use to escape on solo trips as needed.

RV Purchased!

As a git-R-done Manifesting Generator, my husband wasted no time finding and acquiring an RV once I pointed him in the direction I wished to go. It is one of the most amazing things to watch an MG work their magic. When they know what they want they go and get it.

A business two blocks away from ours had a 2004 Tiffin Allegro Open Road 32AB sitting in their parking lot. Turns out my husband knew the owner and wasted no time getting in contact. We met with him and took a tour and test drive the next day. By the end of the test drive my husband said, “We want it!” I stood stunned and it took me a while to respond with, “Okay.” By Friday it was a done deal and the title was our hands.

The seller and his wife are really nice people with good energy. It was obvious from the moment we met them that they have high integrity. One of the reasons my husband wanted the RV was because of the sellers. We know that if anything goes wrong they will step up. In fact, they already have. The RV’s generator wouldn’t start and so they took it to be fixed before driving it to our house yesterday. Then the sellers stayed for several hours showing my husband how to work it and to drop off a care package.

Now that this goal has been met I have set some other goals that may or may not get done right away. We want to upgrade the TV’s since they are the older models from the early 2000’s. This one will likely get done soon since it was my husband’s idea. The other goal (mine) is to get solar panels for it. It is easy to go off-grid (boondocking) but only for so long. With solar panels we wouldn’t have to burn precious fuel. My husband filled up the RV yesterday and it cost $150! So solar would be significantly cheaper.

Some goals are:

  1. Get a mattress cover and sheets for the bed.
  2. Personalize it a bit (starting with a good sage smudge).
  3. Buy pots, pans, utensils and everything else in preparation for use.
  4. Fix the cracked windshield (the owner is paying half).
  5. Get electric, water and sewer to the parking space at my mom’s.
  6. Make a small porch/deck at my mom’s that is easy to move.

At the moment, #5 is probably the highest priority to me so that I can comfortably retreat to the RV whenever I want. It shouldn’t be too difficult a task for my husband and step-father. There is no septic at the site either, which is a necessity. IDK how the current residents are handling their solid waste but somehow they are. They are likely utilizing the outhouses my step-father built.

Here are some pics of our new RV:

Rave ABC’s

I attended the first class of Rave ABC’s on Saturday. Overall, I found it much more interesting and engaging than the Living Your Design class and am looking forward to the upcoming zoom meetings which are two hours on Saturdays.

The first half was mostly introductions, which went quickly because only half of the students attended. What I found most interesting were the number of 6/2’s present! Almost half of the students are 6/2’s. The next most common profile type is 2/4. There is also another Self-Projected Projector as well as several other Projectors. There is only one student on the roster with a 1st line – a 5/1 Projector. Ha!

Compared to the profile types of the students who attended to LYD course, this course is much more in tune with my type. It will be so much easier to interact with everyone!

Some of the information that I found new and interesting from class #1 was:

  1. The information on neutrinos. They have mass and they pick up and transmit information as they flow through us and everything else on this planet. Three trillion neutrinos pass through every square inch of Earth every single day. We live in a vast neutrino ocean that is constantly bombarding us with information. Our neutrino imprint creates our Body Graph in HD.
  2. Astrology in HD pinpoints the imprinting. HD uses the location of Earth in its calculation as well as the time of birth. It also uses a second time in it’s calculations, the time around the beginning of the first trimester. Aside from these things, HD is entirely separate from Astrology.
  3. Astrology vs. HD – HD is more refined using Gates/Lines. There are 32 distinct lines providing a deeper level of refinement compared to Astrology. Each sign has 5 full Gates, and one Gate with 2 lines. Each sun sign has 64 Profiles with 64 unique expressions.
  4. The Hexagrams are linked to genetic code. There is a relationship (correlation) between the Hexagram, Codon and Amino Acids.
  5. HD also has aspects of the Kabbalah. Specifically, channels between the centers connected by gates. Similarly, HD has four levels of activation.

I really liked the teacher. She is a 4/6 Generator and her teaching style is straight-forward just like I prefer. I also like that she asks us to keep our video off during class so as to not create distractions for those who are easily distracted. We can certainly have our video on, which some did, but by the middle of class everyone had opted to turn them off. I’m not really distracted by other’s videos but by my own. lol

What was especially cool was that I got a mini-reading when I introduced myself to the class. Very unexpected! Like I said, I really like the teacher. 😉

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2022 Goals

Happy New Year!

This is my first post of 2022. I’ve spent some time thinking about what I want to create this year. Not new year’s resolutions but actual goals. This is unlike me because I tend to go-with-the-flow more than plan ahead with specifics. My husband is the goal setter in the family and I’m happy to let him be that.

Abundance

A big part of my process has been accepting my new state of abundance – “affluence” may be a better word. I don’t know why, but I’ve struggled with accepting this. It is likely part of my conditioning, specifically stemming from my mother and her parents. My mom even recently said something I’ve heard her say time and time again – “I know whenever I get extra money that something’s going to break.” This was in response to her water heater breaking but very typical of something she would say. My mom taught me to save and only buy necessities. She instilled in me a fear that the other shoe will drop at any moment and it has stuck with me despite a lifetime of trying to shake free of it.

A good example of my response to our affluence is that I keep taking screenshots of our bank account. I do this because I just can’t believe what I’m seeing. I think, “I better take a picture as proof” because I think for sure it will disappear and never happen again (the other shoe will drop). Then, only a short time later, I’m taking another screenshot in disbelief because the amount has risen even higher. I think, “This has to be a dream”, but it isn’t. It’s our new reality.

In December my husband and his brother began the process of purchasing a business they have both been employees of for almost two decades. This week they finalize this first phase, which makes them owners of 80% of the company. With this purchase comes new responsibilities but also newfound wealth (I accidentally typed “weather”, so that, too!).

To try and swallow the magnitude of change this is bringing and will bring into our lives is difficult for me. I’m still in disbelief. Screenshots don’t help. Nope. Somehow, though, I have to step into acceptance and gratitude, fully embracing this gift while remaining humble.

Part of my process has been to save, save, save. Mom taught me well! Ha! Thankfully, my husband, the spender that he is, has taught me over our 14 years of marriage that my hoarding tendencies can be extreme to the point of creating in me a control-freak, fear-driven, monster. I came into this life with these tendencies and my mother reinforced them. So, basically, the more I save, the more I feel I need to save, and so save more while restricting spending to the extreme. My husband, thankfully, has helped me to become more balanced in this regard. I still struggle with guilt when I spend too freely, but I am so much less worried and preoccupied with money in general now.

So, this year, if there is something I want to do or get, I can’t use money as a stop. But I still try!!! lol

Goals for 2022

In my consideration of what I want to create this year, I couldn’t help but think of how others would respond to the affluence we have found ourselves in – travel, new home, new cars, new “stuff”. I’m not really interested in acquiring new “stuff” and I’ve had enough travel for now. So, then what?

My focus went to how I want to feel and then directly to my need for more space.

My trip to Costa Rica last year was meant to help me get more space and I did, but I’m looking for something more convenient that requires less planning. I want to be able to just go when I feel like it.

The first thing that came to mind? An RV. So, one goal is to purchase an RV so that I can go whenever and wherever I want without notice or planning. I can get space, alone time and nature all in one.

There was also a sense that I need to invest in my spiritual side more. It is what inspires and motivates me more than anything else. Human Design popped into my mind straight away and I knew that was where I needed to focus my energy. So, my next goal is to take HD courses and decide along the way whether I want to continue on the path to HD Analyst.

The final goal is more mundane but still important. I have decided to accept the offer to be our new company’s CFO. It will require more time in the office but also give me more freedom in the long-run. It will allow me to hand over my current responsibilities to another and enter into a more supervisory role.

At first I thought I should quit my job and just focus 100% on HD study, but I don’t want to leave the company high and dry at this point in time. Plus, since I am technically an owner now, that would just be irresponsible and, well, stupid. In stepping up and accepting this new role, I step more into acceptance of our new reality.

Goals:

Train a new AP Manager (replacement) and then train/move into the position of CFO for our company.
Begin taking HD courses with the end goal of becoming an HD analyst.
Buy an RV to use to escape on solo trips as needed.

New Oracle Deck

My friend visited over the holidays and gave me a new oracle deck! It is called the Starseed Oracle. I broke it in by drawing a card for the new year. This is the card I drew:

The card description says this is an invitation to “jump in” with courage. Don’t ask for permission, don’t stall until you feel ready. It says to “take the leap” and figure out the rest as you go. The question asked: How can you be more adventurous? How are you being called to jump right in and take the leap?

Ideas and Opportunity Flowing In

The same day I pulled this card, my husband and I went to visit new property just purchased by our company. It is 10 acres in the country that will be used to store materials we have to purchase in advance because of escalation (steel prices are rising).

This is what the property looks like:

I wasn’t impressed initially but as we walked towards the back section I got more interested. There is a creek that runs through the middle of the property. When I walked around it I got a lovely feeling as did my husband. We both began to daydream about the potentials of the property, specifically that it would be a great spot to build a house. I, personally, have always wanted to have a private pond. The land in this area has more clay and is perfect for ponds. With a creek that flows year round, water won’t be an issue either.

The company will only be using the front half of the property for storage, so the rest is available for whatever we want. Potential is a wonderful feeling! If anything, I could park an RV there and get all the space I want/need, whenever I like. 🙂

Speaking of RV’s, my husband liked my idea and we are looking at one this week. I am open to whatever the Universe brings me, preferably something I can drive without feeling I might crush smaller cars, but I am also okay with just parking an RV somewhere and driving to it. We’ll see what comes of it. Regardless, it is fun to shop around.

Also, yesterday I registered for Rave ABC’s, the next foundation level course leading to HD Analyst if I want to go that route. I purchased the student book, which will be here by Friday. The class starts on Saturday. 🙂 I had options that would’ve started later, but the teachers’ profile types were not ideal. One was a 1/3 MG and the other a 5/1 Generator. I really didn’t want someone with a 1st line. They are too technical for me (info overload). I selected a 4/6 Generator as a teacher. I prefer a Projector, but I couldn’t find a teacher with that aura type.

The only thing left is to start training to become the CFO. This may take a while, though, since the current CFO is not really wanting to exit yet. I’m okay with waiting. I know it will happen when it is meant to.