Category Archives: Messages

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Another Wave Approaching

Like yesterday, I am feeling something that I cannot describe. It is not unsettling really but I am noticing it.

Characteristics

What I am noticing about this energy shift is mild but noticeable.

  • It triggers a tendency to want to act. I feel like I need to do something else – make plans or begin to consider a change of scenery.
  • I feel a restlessness but have been able to avoid the traps that come with it – over thinking, irritability, fixation on things that I perceive as “wrong” or “bad”. It is like it triggers the Ego.
  • The energy is stale; stagnant. It is like it is stuck and needs to be pushed out of the space it has been occupying. Again this is not “negative” really, just old and needs to go.

I perceive there will be an opening soon that comes after this old energy moves out. It will allow for us to move into a new space in our lives, one that assists us in our mission here, allowing us to fully express whatever it is we came here to express.

The perception that this energy is old or stale is here to help us let go of that which is no longer useful. No wonder it triggers the Ego!

I see a light from far away, far off in the universe. It seems directed from above and to the left of Earth (from my South facing position here in the U.S.). The feeling of this light is similar to the “Light of Sirius” message I got previously around the time of Wave X. I feel that it carries with it a pink or fuchsia energy.

It will begin to irradiate Earth with it’s energy (in pulses) around mid-December and extend until the end of the year. The energy of this light can be accessed by anyone who wants to anytime after it reaches Earth.

I am very pleased that I am not working right now as I think the effects of this clearing would be harder for me to protect myself against if I were around others who were technically still asleep. I suspect there will be many who do not handle it well. Thankful to be home with my babies. 🙂

 

 

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Preparing for Re-Entry

I was awakened this morning at 5:30. This time I did not resist it.

As with the night before, I knew I had been “traveling”. Unfortunately, little remained of the those travels beside some strange impressions and feelings.

I knew I had gone off-planet, as I had done the night before.

Preparing for Re-Entry

When I woke I was in the midst of a discussion with my guide. I was told, “It has been six cycles since you left. Do you want to return?”

For a moment I was split into two “me’s”. The part that Remembers is the one who answered.

This Me felt very obviously to be “dead”, as in without a physical body. The realization of “death” instantly alerted the other Me. In that instant I felt very strange, as if not the person in this body, in this life. It was as if this life did not exist. My entire focus was on another aspect who current does not have a physical form.

I calmed myself and fell back into the conversation allowing the other Me to continue. I replied, “Yes…… I want to be…..male….no, female. I don’t want to be black, that is too hard…too difficult. I prefer light skin, hair, eyes….similar to now (felt this was not advisable)…..Will I be like I am now (as in this current life)?” I heard in response, “Yes, but you will remember more. You will come in knowing more”. The feeling was that I would consciously remember from birth rather than gradually gain the memory.

There was a pause in the conversation. I knew there was a query about why I was resisting the darker complexion. I was asked if I would consider any darker skin tone. I thought about it and mulled over different faces (saw them in my mind’s eyes). I saw Hispanic, Indian, and Native American and rejected them all outright. Then I said, “I would be okay with Asian. And I would be okay with being mixed race, they are beautiful (mixed black and white).”

The conversation continued with a reminder of the importance of having a family unit that would support my “other worldliness” and “knowingness”. I knew this meant that the families I could choose from that would be ideal were not Caucasian but of a darker skin tone, in this case African. I agreed and said, “You are correct. It makes no difference what I look like. It is important to have the right foundations”.

It was then brought into question whether I would walk-in or be born. There was a mild interest in being a walk-in mainly because it would avoid some of the more traumatic experiences that come with adolescence. I awoke more fully during this decisive moment so do not know exactly what was decided. However, the last input I got from my Council was that there was valuable experience that would be lost if I chose to be a walk-in.

I pulled out of the conversation thinking, “What the….!”

I wondered, “Am I about to die?”
“What is going on?”

Dream: Family Units

I was calmed by an inner nudge and listen instinctively. This was not a discussion pertaining to my current physical incarnation, but rather one that was being lived simultaneously. Apparently this other life ended prematurely and was being sent back “in”, or rather was making this choice.

I was reminded of the OBE where I learned of the loss of my friend Stephanie who took her own life. She had not been able to successfully handle the transition. I grieved heavily for her. Was this the life we were discussing? Had it been 6 cycles? Is that 6 years?

I couldn’t wrap my mind around it so I decided not to. I very obviously had felt to be another Me during this conversation and the choosing of the next life was what I was being shown for some reason.

I wondered about it and was reminded of a dream I had in the night, but only a small part of it. In this dream I was seeing from above several large circles. In each circle were smaller marks indicating family within these family circles. I understood it as “generations”. All the circles had begun as one large one but split off into three different circles. Inside were smaller circles of varying sizes representing other families within families.

The feeling in the dream was that these family units had separated for a reason and were now very different from one another.

Considerations

Just when I think things have gotten as weird as they can get, they get weirder! I understand that we are multi-dimensional beings but actually experiencing it is so strange! I have to let this experience settle in for a while I think. lol

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Light Language Workshop

Yesterday I attended an on-line light activation class. I signed up for it because when I saw it posted a couple of weeks ago my third-eye began to blaze with energy and I thought, “I should do that”. So I did.

Unfortunately, I was unable to fully focus on the second half of the class because my daughter arrived home from school and at the same time my toddler woke from his nap. He is a very fussy, clingy little one after a nap, so I had to hold him and console him, missing out of the last hour of the class.

I did, however, get to do the first part which invovled drumming and practicing vocalizing light language. The first part caused my third-eye to blaze intensely. The second half I struggled with but did participate in. Whenever I vocalized what was coming through my whole body was covered in warm energy that spread from my heart chakra outward. My third-eye also was very intense with energy.

I was able to write down some of what I received but was interrupted by the bus arriving. The picture above is what I wrote, but only the smaller symbols. The second half is what came out this morning right after waking.

Activation

I believe there was an activation initiated with this class but it has not been anything major for me as of yet. I was resistant to expressing the language coming through via vocalization and movement. However, I have no issue allowing the symbols to flow through and I hear the sounds/words/syllables in my mind.

My head began to hurt during and after the class. It was localized to the area right above my left eye. I was told in the class that this is not uncommon. It was not painful enough to disrupt my life and this morning it is gone.

Interpretation of Symbols

The symbols above have varying meanings and I will not go into detail about what each one means. The message includes: “Galactic Council of Light”, “trans-dimensional”, “communication”, “assimilation”, “build (house)”, “freedom” and “barriers”.

The second half, the larger section I wrote this morning, includes: “contact point”, “reference”, “destination”, “simultaneous”, “influx”, “energy”, “translocation” among others.

Overall the messages I received when put together send a message of connection and communication with the Council and Galactic Federation of Light. There is also a communication about an upcoming influx of energy and contact with my Team.

 

 

 

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Nudges from Higher Self

The energy was odd yesterday for a little while, likely due to geomagnetic storms. I had an odd experience during the downside of the these storms. Onthe drive home from the gym, I suddenly felt that my car and me inside of it was moving both forward and backward at the same time. It was so weird that I panicked slightly because I felt that I was moving out of this reality into another one. Thankfully it didn’t last long. I was happy to get home and out of the car!

Message from Higher Self

Later in the day I got a message out of the blue from my HS. It was a simple message and was repeated several times. Basically it was that I should get out and connect with more people in-person and tell them about my experiences. I did not reject this idea, but am allowing myself to grow comfortable with the idea because it exposes me to ridicule and criticism and just plain out rejection.

Considerations: How it Is Vs How it Should Be

Interestingly, the idea of being more open about my beliefs and experiences with those I associate with in my daily life is something I have not been doing. Since I began to have the intense experiences and E.T. contact, I have avoided talking openly about it. How does one relate such an experience to others anyway? It is hard enough to do in writing!

Sadly, I have really not fully disclosed my experiences since meeting and marrying my husband and starting a family. I found that in discussing my experiences and ideas that it resulted in an energy cut-off from my husband. This is simply because he cannot relate. It is the same feeling I get when talking with others who do not understand or don’t have the same reality. It is uncomfortable and makes talking about my experiences even harder.

And here I am being encouraged to “come out” to those closest to me. I see how withholding this part of myself has created a distance between myself and those I love most. How can I expect to feel happy in my life if I am in effect “lying” about who I am all the time?

And when I look deeper, I recognize that even I am hesitant to embrace my experiences for “what they are”. I put quotes around the last part because, honestly, I cannot define my experiences for myself. I don’t exactly know what they are! I can’t say for sure that these are E.T. communications nor can I say that the “memories” I receive and the strange feelings that accompany them are “real”.

As I write them I am asked, “What do you feel is happening to you?”

And when I hear this question I want to cry. Not because I am afraid of what it is that is happening – quite the opposite. I am overwhelmed with knowing that it IS real and it IS purposeful. The purpose being that I am suppose to tell people about my experiences. That there is something happening to Earth and the people here. That there is a very big event on the horizon that people must be ready for; an event that is important to the extent that I feel and have been feeling that “time is running out”.

What to Do?

I don’t know what to tell my friends, family and the people I meet. In the past, when I have seen things that will happen in the future and told people close to me it has either been ignored or they have (my husband specifically) reacted as if I am being negative or trying to upset them.

This happened this morning in fact. I tried to remind my husband of a knowingness I received just after the birth of my son in 2014. I knew that my mother-in-law would not be able to help take care of him or other children when my son reached the age of 2. I have since felt I should prepare for this by finding other means of childcare, which I have done (I stay home now). This morning, when I reminded my husband of my knowingness, he began to yell and get angry at me, insisting that I was trying to suppress his mother and make her incapable of watching our kids. This is not true but I did not do well in trying to dissuade him. I should not have pointed out that she is already showing signs of problems. She fell and could not get up while watching our kids and has since fallen. She is watching a three-year-old full-time, five days a week right now and is so exhausted that she has to lay down for the entire weekend! I see this and my concern just grows. Yet others seem oblivious to it.

So, as you can see, my family is not very open to what I experience or Know. It is frustrating and exhausting for me to try and act upon my knowingness around them.

HS Nudges

I am reminded how this morning my HS nudged me. I was dozing happily in the middle of a dream when suddenly a great clap of thunder sounded (it was not raining) shocking me into wakefulness. I said to my HS, “Why did you do that!? I want to sleep!” I saw in my mind’s eye, “5:30” and knew this was the normal “debriefing time”. I responded with, “I don’t want to be debriefed”. lol

I ended up not being able to sleep and got up just in time to see my husband. Thus, the above argument ensued because I opened my mouth about my knowingness of his mother’s future.

There Will Be Repercussions

Regardless of what happens, I know there will be repercussions. It is inevitable that some kind of upset will result from within my own family; either my own or others’. I recognize that I put myself in this situation. I made my bed and so must lie in it.

 

 

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Emotional Overload, Cardiff and Walk-In

I broke down crying again last night. I don’t remember what triggered it but I was overwhelmed by grief over the state of the planet and the people who inhabit it. I could not understand how everything got so off track. I felt so small and unable to affect any of it.

I asked my HS to take the pain away. I didn’t want to feel it. I want to be numb to it. That is the problem though and why I and so many others like me are feeling it now. The apathy has to be eliminated. Only when we allow ourselves to feel completely are we ready to make a change.

I knew that my upset was purposeful. My heart must be open, not only to receive but send love. And love is not just the pleasant feeling one gets from others that tells us we belong and are accepted, it is also everything in between. It is accepting others for what/who they are regardless of the pain they are experiencing or pushing onto others. In order to accept others we must accept all of them – the good, the bad and the ugly.

Fitful Sleep and Messages

I slept light and had numerous dreams. I woke so often I lost count. I recall at one point waking and feeling discombobulated. As I remembered my dreams I felt amnesia closing in like a big, black hole. I had to fight it off to get to the content. Sadly, I could not recall the dreams I fought so hard to remember. I should have gotten up and written them down.

My last waking I sought to remember what has occurred in my sleep. I only remember bits and pieces.

Cardiff

Cardiff. This was a word I awoke with. I was hit with a memory from the night of briefly seeing a bright light in the peripheral of my vision and hearing, “It is coming”. I automatically said something like, “I will be transferred” but this isn’t quite right. I then heard a word which I said over and over and knew was the name of my ship which was still near the Pleiades. When I awoke and searched for the name, I got, “Cardiff”. I thought, “That’s not a ship, that’s a city, isn’t it?” Sure enough, it is in the U.K., the capital of Wales.

I honestly don’t think this is the word I tried to remember in the night. I am not sure why I got it but there it is. Another word/message to add to the long list I may never find reason for.

Walk-In

This is another word I heard upon waking. Why I heard it, I don’t know, but the last time I heard it there came the most intense spiritual experience I have ever had. I felt to be hosting another person inside this body for a period of two weeks. It was not invasive and I did not reject it. Quite the opposite. I welcomed it.

When I heard this I instantly felt something would occur in five days. I tried to reject this but it kept coming back to me. What it means, I don’t know. I will put it up there on the shelf with Cardiff. Who knows what any of it means.

Explanation

I asked my HS to explain what was going on last night. I got an image in my mind of energy anchors coming down from my energy field and anchoring into the Earth’s energy field. I heard with this vision, “Your energy is being stabilized”. This is why I currently am not being allowed OOB. This is a preparation for something to come. When “it” happens I must be firmly anchored to the Earth grid/energy. I saw the anchors coming off the outer areas of my aura/energy (head, shoulders, arms, hands). There was energy arching like electricity off my aura to the Earth. The energy colors was green and blue and each beam looked like a laser beam but thicker.

It was not what I expected as an answer and I really don’t know what to make of it.

 

 

 

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3 Dreams

It was difficult for me to sleep last night. I kept waking up and it was too cold in our house. I finally got another blanket and fell asleep at around 2:30am.

My dreams were many and they had a similar theme. I was in another person’s life (or so it seemed) in each dream. In these lives I felt to be this other person fully.

Dream 1: Young Person in Greece

In the first dream, I was a young boy of about 12, maybe younger. I felt to be remembering a portion of my life. I recall running home from school. I took a route where there was construction and remember feeling tiny pebbles hurting my bare feet. I thought, “I shouldn’t have gone this way! I knew these rocks were here. Ouch!”

Around the corner I met up with an older boy and a girl at a restaurant. The boy offered to buy us food so I accepted. It was brought to our table by a round woman who we all knew. The food was not dissimilar to food I have eaten at Greek restaurants, which I why I assume I was in Greece.

After we ate, I ran home and remember again that I was barefoot because I could feel the wet grass under my feet and the cold concrete of the pavement.

Then I could see the young girl from the restaurant. She and the boy sat close and she knew he liked her. She was tall and very plain, most boys didn’t like her. But he did. I remember the round lady told the boy, “You would be better liked if you didn’t smell!”

Dream 2: Young Person in Japan

I was with a friend in an apartment. We were sitting and having tea. We heard our friend coming in and played a joke on her, hiding the tea under the table and then pretending to sleep. The tea was in small, Asian cups as was the teacup – my first hint of where I was.

We heard that the weather was changing and snow was forecast. I yelled, “Snow!” and my friend said, “We should go to _____ house” (can’t remember the name now). I said to him, “It is just snow, not an earthquake”, but I went with him anyway.

We arrived at his father’s house where soup was being served. We all sat down and it was suggested we invite the neighbors. We were in a large apartment building with many levels. A young girl came in and we both were happy she was there. I knew my friend was interested in her. He passed a spoon to her and their eyes locked. I saw he was Asian then, and knew I was also.

I remembered looking out the window and seeing that we were high up and across the way was another apartment building of many, many stories. We were obviously in a large city.

The feeling of the impending earthquake overshadowed the entire scene but I enjoyed the feeling that permeated the scene: everyone was family in that complex. We helped one another and enjoyed each others company.

Dream 3: Cleaning Fish Tanks

In this dream I was a child assisting my mother with cleaning out two fish tanks. I don’t recall much of this dream except that we transferred fish into the tank and one was near death. I worked to revive him by turning on the bubbler. I could vividly see the fish swimming around the 10 gallon tank and a frog-like creature swimming without its head (weird).

While in this dream I remembered a time in my own life when I had a nice 20 gallon tank in my apartment. I had to sell it when moving and wished I had not for it was much better than the one I was currently seeing in my dream.

I awoke at this time thinking of old memories, memories of times long past. I don’t remember the specifics now but I recall being told not to linger on them as I was purging unnecessary memories.

Considerations

It is my feeling that these dreams were actual lives somewhere in present time. They could be in another dimension or in this one but for sure they are part of me, as in an aspect of myself living right now. I felt to be visiting in order to experience what they were. I remember the feelings the most. In the Greek life I remember the feeling of first love, when two young people are attracted but do not know how to proceed. The nervous-anticipation was palpable. It was the same in the Japanese life except there was this large, family group feeling – we all were family even though not by blood. The new love was also there but this time I recognized how it contrasted to my own life and the fear of rejection and ridicule that so often accompanied it. I knew in this Japanese life that no one would ridicule the new love but it would be accepted and honored.

I believe I was shown these lives to show me my connection to the world and the very different experiences others are having right now. The earthquake bothers me some because of the large city I was in. Is this perhaps meaning one is coming? I don’t know, but I know the people there will rely on one another in a way we Americans would find surprising.

 

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A Future Exchange

I’ve been mulling over much of my experiences thus far. I’ve especially been thinking about what happened back in May when I felt to not be alone in this body. What was that? Was it the soul exchange I kept being warned about? Or was it a “visit” by another aspect of me?

As I consider the experience and how I felt while it was occurring, I suspect this was a visit by another aspect of myself, or the “we” in me. This is what feels appropriate. During this time, this other me brought with them a higher vibration and a purer energy which allowed me a glimpse of more of myself – a self in which the Ego was diminished and lessons here could be viewed as they are. The other me brought to my attention many lessons and insights I otherwise would not have had. All the while I experienced life differently and with more reverence than I ever had. I saw it through the eyes of the other me. I Remembered.

Ultimately this visit was in fact an exchange. But I wonder why it did not continue? Why was it so short lived? Was it a test to see if I would allow it to occur? Was it to prepare me for a more lengthy visit yet to come?

I am still reading Dolores Cannon’s Convoluted Universe Book 2 and recently read about soul facets which come into the body, taking turns and sometimes “braiding” one into the other for a period of time lasting  hours to days, weeks and even permanently. This resonated with me. In fact, the experience I had in May seems very much like a temporary braid-in where another facet of my soul came in and blended with me.

I must say that I long for a return of that experience. I am more than willing to allow this other facet to come in and take a turn, even permanently. Though I cannot say that I am willing to completely leave and allow them to permanently take control. Perhaps that is why the braid-in was only temporary? I changed my mind somewhere along the way and so it did not last. I keep being reminded of what my guide told me not long ago. He said, “You are ambivalent”. Perhaps that is the problem? One moment I do not want to be in life and am happy to let another aspect step in and the next I feel the exact opposite. I can relate to this very much.

Since I am told another exchange is to occur in the future, perhaps we are to give it another go and see what happens. Maybe this time the braid-in will be permanent? Or perhaps the new aspect will take over completely?

Right now I am eager to get to the moment when this exchange occurs. I can’t wait!

 

 

 

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Healing from Evanlon

At about 3pm CST yesterday the energy began to intensify and my third eye and heart chakra were buzzing intensely. I also began to feel an energy wrap around the back of my head.

When I questioned my Team, I heard, “We are here” and I felt a pang in my heart like I had been waiting for whatever it was that was happening.

Rekindling

My husband had given me time alone of almost 4 hours when all this intense energy began to materialize. I spent quite a bit of time doing relaxing things – I took a bath, I meditated and then I lay in the afternoon sun. It was nice!

Later I got a sudden strong emotional draw to my husband. All I wanted to do was be close to him; to feel him, hug him, love him. I got all giddy like a teenager in love! This surprised my husband and me, too. I have not felt this way in years, probably since right after my second son was born in 2011.

Healing Dream

I woke suddenly around midnight with thoughts of an awful Yahoo article I read yesterday. A baby had been found dead in the family’s oven. She had been put there by her two, 3-year-old siblings when all three of them had been left unattended. I could not get the upset over it out of my mind. How must her mother feel? How could she ever love the children who did this in the same way? Why would those children even do such a thing!?

I requested help and though I did not hear anything back I began to feel comforted in knowing that the little girl was okay and in good hands. She had wanted to experience this as had her siblings and mother. Though this helped somewhat it was still hard for me to understand why anyone would agree to die in such a way.

I fell into a dream in which I was meeting with a man who was quite eccentric in dress and manner. He was young, perhaps mid-twenties and was a Reiki practitioner. We were meeting because he was to give me healing.

I recall lots of things about the dream, which indicated the types of things I was healing. Issues regarding my mother, the oven incident I had just woke upset over, and other issues related to the lower three chakras. What was most interesting was the intense attraction I felt to the healer I was working with. I wanted to be close to him but he kept me at arms length always, yet somehow I received healing.

Meeting Evanlon (Ee-van-lawn)

I woke at 6:45am wide awake and in the midst of speaking with the man from my dreams. I knew much more than I usually do about what my dreams mean. In fact, I knew I had been with him to do specific healing to “clear away debris” from my lower chakras.

I asked who he was. He said, “I am an experiencer like you”. I saw him traveling between individuals he helped and remembered how my Companion told me that Earth travelers travel in pairs, one as the experiencer and the other as an assistant.

According to my guide, a spirit guide is “a traveler of the Earth Plane who is assisting others who are traveling the Earth Plane.” This assistance can take many forms, but essentially, the two travel the Earth Plane together – one as the Assistant (or Guide) and one as the Experiencer (us).

Excerpt from Spirit Guide Meditation by Dayna Stone

I said, “You mean Earth traveler?” He said, “Yes”.

I saw in my mind a map of the U.S. around the states of Kentucky, Tennessee, Mississippi, Alabama and Georgia. I saw that he traveled in this area, but that didn’t make sense.

map“Are you in a body, too?”

He said, “Yes”. I wondered if perhaps the map I saw was where he lived in the U.S. and traveled there as part of his “work”. I felt this to be true.

He then provided me with more answers. I knew he was part of my Team and that he was also “on assignment”. He told me, “We are not meant to meet [in the physical]. We have different courses”.

His primary role is as a healer, though he may not fully recognize this in his physical form. He assists others in his group when they need healing. He was now assisting me. I wondered if he was part of my Team. He confirmed he was. I asked if he had worked on me (healing) before and he said, “Yes, many times before and I will so in the future”.

I asked what my role was, was I also a healer? He said, “You have a different role”, but he did not tell me what it was. I knew/know it is more of an adviser-type role. Like a counselor or guide.

I began to fall into the in-between while speaking with him. I wanted to know more specifics and believe this occurred specifically so that I would not doubt the information I was receiving.

I heard a name that sounds strangely like Avalon. I wondered about it and then saw, “Evan” very clearly written in my mind. Then heard the name Evanlon. It was pronounced very slowly and clearly and I repeated it back. I wondered, “Strange name, should I call you Evan?” I received only a repeat of the full name. Now that I am waking I wonder if perhaps he was giving me his Earth name and that he is called Evan Long here? Not sure I will ever know.

I saw then a vision of a bright light in the sky. It looked like a meteor up close brilliantly blazing white but it was standing still. Then it began to fall down. I repeated, “It will fall three feet from you” over and over and this along with the repeating vision caused me to come out of my reverie.

When I awoke I knew the message was for me to expect a “visit”. The light in the sky was a ship, our ship. I heard Evanlon say, “We are helping you prepare for the exchange”.

“Exchange? Like what you told me about before?” I asked, surprised.

“Yes, but it is not as you expect. You are preparing. Enjoy this time of preparation”.

I got a feeling that this “preparation” was a time of calm in my life when I could fully immerse myself in experiencing. This exchange to come was not as clear to me and I am not sure I will ever be able to understand it completely. I actually thought it had already occurred. Perhaps not?

I saw then a vision of the inside of this “ship” and it was very plain with whitish-silver looking walls that appeared seamless, as if dome shaped. I saw others but only as silhouettes. I tried to get a clear look at Evanlon but he kept referring me back to the image of the man from my dream.

“What do you look like?” I asked. He said, “We take many forms. To you I would appear to be silver”. I saw a rainbow of colors on a silhouetted form, as if the individual shimmered.

“What race are you?” I asked.

This did not register to him. I felt that he did not classify himself this way.

“Where do you come from?” I asked instead.

“From beyond your sun”, he said. I asked for clarification.

“Pleiades”, I heard back.

“Where is our ship now?” I asked.

“Beyond your sun but it is not in your time. It is of another dimension”.

I didn’t quite understand. He explained it was not in the realm of Spirit. The description I received was of an energy body with form and shape that could be changed/altered. I had seen this in my OBEs before. It is beautiful.

I fell into the in-between again and again saw a map of the U.S. This time I heard, “Detroit” and saw a fire blazing in a factory-like building. I associated it instantly with the auto industry. Whether this is a premonition or a past event, I do not know.

Awake again, I focused more on the feeling I had when I was with Evanlon in my dream. I asked him about it. He said, “You recognized me. You wanted to reUnite. But that cannot be. We will reUnite when you return to us.”

I asked if this was “sex” because that is how I perceived my attraction to him. The reply was that it was similar but much more. It was an submersion into the other. I saw an exchange of places but within a joined space/energy. The feeling of it is beyond bliss; beyond anything we humans could conceive of. It is not sexual, though sex is the closest we humans can come to its understanding. I also felt this happens when we return “home” – with everyone.

I laughed and thought, “So we have a big homecoming orgy?”

The response I got was that it was not something that could be explained in human terms and orgy was not a good word for the occurrence.

Considerations

I feel strangely calm this morning after all that happened in the night and upon waking. All I can say is that I am open to whatever is about to occur. I feel ready, though I am not sure for what. I do not really understand what this coming “exchange” is.

 

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Dream: Alcatraz Paradise

I slept a long time again, about 11 hours. In that time I had a long-running dream.

Dream: Alcatraz Paradise

I received a letter while in another dream. The letter was from my ex-husband. It was inside a brochure about an island paradise, but what was odd was that the island was Alcatraz!

I noticed the brochure had family-oriented activities. I remarked with surprise when I saw that one was, “Feed the jellyfish”. Really? lol

The letters mentioned that my ex had been sent to Alcatraz for 6 years. While there he could partake in any of the activities available but had to stay within the vicinity of the island.

I remarked, “That’s not much of a prison!”

I remember being taken down one of the corridors of the prison. Instead of bare gray walls it was a pathway to a pool and lagoon area with lush plants and birds of paradise. It was light and comfortable.

No one was inside a cell.

Then the dream shifted and I was taking my ex-husband to a cul-de-sac in a neighborhood. We stood in front of a house and rang the doorbell. It was his parent’s house and he wanted to see them. But he got shy at the last minute and stood back. I remember a prison guard was there but she was not wearing a uniform of any guard I have ever seen. It was plain gray and uniform-like but there was no badge or weapon. She was happy to let me escort him around and we were nowhere near Alcatraz!

Interpretation

I am pretty sure this dream was about how Earth, though it seems like a prison, really is not. Though it is limited and we cannot easily leave (we need an escort) there are plenty of activities to partake in as long as we stay within certain parameters.

I believe the part where I was taking my ex to see his parents was symbolic of how we are each able to visit with our families in Spirit whenever we want as long as we have an escort. This is allowed and encouraged. However, we must always return to our Alcatraz paradise.

The funny thing about this dream was that when I woke I thought for sure my ex must have died. I do not believe that to be true at all now. I think perhaps he symbolizes a time when I felt the most trapped here on Earth.

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Lucid to OBE: Loving Earth

I awoke at 6:45am awake but not willing to get out of bed. I request to astral project and fell asleep talking with my guide.

Dream: No Check-Out

I was grocery shopping but didn’t really need groceries. Instead, I picked up two packs of cigarettes. I felt bad for doing it but justified it by thinking that I might as well since I needed to enjoy something while in this life.

I picked up some milk and went to the check-out. There was no one in line and so I went through fast. I gave the cashier my ID and card. She held it up and looked from me to the card and back again.

“The picture in this ID doesn’t look like you”, she said.

I said, “What? It is! I just renewed it and so the picture is brand new”.

She said, “Well this picture shows no freckles but you obviously have them”. She pointed some out.

I said, “Well I’m not wearing makeup so you can see them. It’s still me in that picture”.

She said, “I’m not so sure”.

I said,”I can prove it” and got into my wallet to get an older pic and was hoping my old ID was there. It wasn’t. None of the pictures were. Instead there were pictures of someone I did not recognize.

The cashier would not let me buy my stuff. I stood there wondering what to do. I decided to leave. I said, “Well, I guess I will go to Wal-Mart!”

As I left I told the manager, “She’s not a very good employee”. I left the two packs of cigarettes at the check-out and walked out the door.

Lucid to OBE: Loving Earth

I walked out the doors and found myself not where I thought I would be. I was at the bottom story of a gigantic grocery store and not outside. There were escalators going up all around me, but I stayed put. I needed to get outside and that would be at the ground floor.

I went through a door thinking it would lead outside and it led me into the store again. Disappointed, I sat down on a bench.

It was then I noted that I was sitting outside. How did I get outside? In front of me, standing perfectly still, was my sister, the one I haven’t seen in 9 years.

I thought to myself, “I guess I won’t go shopping. And I forgot to go workout”. I looked at my sister who just stood there and thought, “I don’t want to just sit here doing nothing”.

That was when I felt this strange energy. It poured through my body and seemed to cement me to the pavement at my feet. It was not uncomfortable but very intense and alive and it was traveling through my veins, or so it seemed. Just feeling it quickly brought me to the conclusion that I was dreaming.

I looked up at the sky and saw the blue and just lifted up into it. I looked down at my sister who was still standing there perfectly still. I left her behind despite thinking I should invite her with me.

I soared upward and my vision blacked out but I could still feel myself moving. I began to sing a song about the Earth then. The words are lost to me now but I remember saying, “Love the Earth”.

As I sang my vision returned and I saw tree upon tree in front of me. They were tall oaks and their branches spread out invitingly. I touched the top of them as I sang but my vision blacked out again. Then I felt the tree and knew I would see again. When I did, I saw I was low by the trunk.

I noted I was at my Mom’s house now. I went to the ground where the tall grass was and fell into it as if I was giving it a hug. I continued to sing, “Hug the Earth, Love the Earth”. I felt the earth and the cool grass.

My vision blacked out again and so I change my song to, “I wanna see sunshine” and soared up into the sky. I saw stars in the sky and tried to be happy about flying and being OOB but I could not. Then the sun began to show brightly and I saw an entire, brilliant scene in front of me with clouds and trees for miles. But I felt dead inside despite being free. A part of me knew I could not leave this scene; that it was self-created and purposeful to send a message.

I came back into my body quickly, my heart racing and my limbs heavy.