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OBE: Through the Screen

I had a very brief lucid-dream-to-OBE this morning.

Elevator Tube

I had been dreaming in vivid color of being taken down this elevator at intense speeds. What is odd is that the elevator was more like a tunnel-slide, similar to a water park tube slide where the top is open. Twice I got into the elevator. Twice I slide down the slide at such intense speeds that I held my breath and fought back fear.

The first time I went with the feeling, fear and all, and felt my energy body tingling from the experience. The landscape was hidden from me but others were with me and I felt safe.

The second time I saw the approach to the drop-off coming and knew what was about to happen. I saw spread out in front of me the most beautiful scene. The sky was an intense blue and there were all colors of the rainbow. I saw a patchwork countryside below and the elevator looked like a waterfall cascading down into this scene. It almost felt like I was in a cartoon the colors were so vivid and bright.

As I came to the drop-off point I detached from the me in the experience and pulled back as the Observer. I watched as I went down the tube. As I fell back I also felt different, as if I was dematerializing from the scene. The energy that was me was popping like popcorn and alive.

Through the Screen

There was a sense that I was dreaming throughout this experience and it came to me suddenly without warning that I was OOB. This likely was brought on by the strange popping energy I had which seemed almost like my energy was exploding outward like the sunspots on the sun.

As this realization hit me I was still removing myself from the experience and being the Observer. The elevator became smaller and smaller as did the scenery around it. It got to the point that I was viewing it on this large movie screen. This is when I began to take control of the experience.

I was sitting in a seat in the middle of a dark theater. On the screen was this beautiful place, still very vivid in color and playing out before me. When I took over, I moved out of the seat, stumbling over the seat in front of me which had been so dark I didn’t notice it. I moved toward the screen, getting right up close to it. My energy body was still popping and now ebbing and flowing as if it was going through a cycle. I recognized the energy, my energy, was sometimes low and not stable and I thought, “I am dreaming”.

At the screen now, I moved into it. Oddly, I felt myself blend with the screen. I became the screen for an instant and then I was through it.

On the other side I felt immobilized. My energy was still doing strange things and I felt to be powerless to stop it from doing whatever it was doing. I could see the vivid colors flashing in front of me with the popping, explosive cycling of my energy body. I knew I was in the beautiful scene but I could not move because of the strange cycling of my energy.

Within seconds of entering the scene I rushed back into my body. I was distinctly aware of my energy body in this process as it shook violently. The sensation took my breath away and I gasped for air as I awoke. My heart was pounding, skipping beats, and I still felt immobilized.

Factors Influencing Projection

Lucidity scale: 6

Intent stated?: Yes

Time to bed: 9pm

Time to wake: 6:30am

Meditation?: No

Physical Exercise?: None

Mood: normal

Body: None

Tiredness: Low

Number of wakings: 2

Technique?: WBTB

Sleeping position: Left side

Supplements: Multivitamin, Natural Calm 400mg, Sleepy Time Extra Tea, Biotin 1000mg, Vitamin E 400mg, Calcium 500mg, Vitamin D 250mg, Benadryl 25mg

Essential Oils: Clary Calm, Whisper, Lavender (diffused)

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Becoming the Observer

I was awakened this morning by my guide’s voice telling me, “You will experience a change in perception”.

Since I was still tired and wanted to sleep, I asked to astral and felt instantly this was not going to happen, not for some time. I was told, “Your focus now is in this reality”. I understood but I miss my OBEs. I am eager to see how I have changed while OOB because I know I have had some phenomenal changes in body.

I was able to fall back to sleep but it was very light sleep and many times I found myself in the in-between getting messages that made no sense. One message came in the form of a slip of paper that reminded me of a name tag. It was pushed into my vision twice. The first time I ignored it. The second I felt I needed to look at it. When I did I read very clearly, “Mansfield Emergency Services”. I did not read the rest as the paper was removed from my vision.

I don’t recall much after that. I fell asleep but my dreams seemed interrupted continually by Me, as in my Higher Self. Several times I would wake suddenly in my body to vibrations that were quite choppy and back-and-forth. I was not shocked by them but it almost felt as if I were being shaken. In one instance of this occurring I heard someone tell me, “You can project” and felt myself transfer back into my physical body. My eyes flickered the instant I returned to my body and felt the vibrations. I actually felt the transfer from my energy body to my physical body and was quite startled. Usually there is a black out or the two bodies feel to be one. This time there was a distinct separateness and an awareness of the process. I feel I was being made to observe this process time and time again throughout this morning.

Another time I was blissfully dreaming, of what I don’t now recall, and I felt to be kicked in the ribcage. The sensation was quite real and felt physical but it was not physical at all. I awoke confused at what had occurred and kept expecting to feel the residual pain in my physical body. But all I felt was a hollow spot in that space, as if energy had been removed. It was perplexing and I knew that I had been “kicked back to this reality”. I was not amused!

The more I attempted to sleep, the more aware I became. I felt as if I was being prompted to “be aware” of something. I kept hearing that I should “observe” and that was my lesson now was to become the observer in life, to practice this. I recall being instructed on why this method would be beneficial. Basically, I was told/shown how when one becomes the observer, they effectively separate from themselves in order to enhance their perception. Rather than be the effect of the emotional up’s and down’s in life, they can be emotionally objective.

I was not/am not completely comfortable with this lesson. I recognize that I hold a belief that to Live life, one must Experience all of it. Therefore, to not experience the emotion, the high’s and low’s, would mean I was not fully experiencing life. I am now recognizing, though, that because of this belief I often let myself become the Effect of life and in doing that, lose all control I have over it. I have become so use to this belief system that it has overrun my ability to control the emotion, the reaction, to life.

To regain control I must regain my objectivity and to do that I must view life from a different perspective – that of the Observer. To be the Observer is to be Cause. I am learning this now.

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About Channeling

You may have noticed me posting more and more channeled messages lately. I wanted to discuss this change briefly as it relates directly to my transformation.

What is Channeling?

First of all, what is “channeling”? In the simplest terms, channeling is allowing your divine Self (Higher Self) to come through this human form unimpeded by the Ego. There are varying degrees of channeling, all determinate upon the amount of Ego interference present in the individual. The Ego will never be completely gone, so you will likely find various amounts of Ego within every channeled message. This is OK and should not be judged harshly by either the channeler or the reader.

Why Channeling?

Why am I suddenly channeling? I recently reached a milestone which now allows the flow of information from my Higher Self to transpire with less effort and less Ego interference. What was this milestone? My heart chakra was cleared to a level previously not reached in this lifetime. When this occurred, the information from my Higher Self began flowing through my heart more freely with less interference from the mind, which is Ego’s territory.

Prior to reaching this milestone I approached moments where the channel was clear and uninhibited. I began passing on channeled messages when these moments presented themselves. I felt moved to pass on these messages quite unexpectedly which is why I began to post them to this blog. If I did not take the time to allow the messages to come through, then the image of me mediating or a strange urgency would follow me until I did.

What is Channeling Like?

What is it like to channel? For me, I feel an urge to write. Sometimes I get a vision of myself meditating, legs crossed in the middle of the floor. Other times there will be a descending and pervading calm wash over me. In these moments, if I do not sit at a computer or with a pencil and paper at hand I will have a knowing of information being transferred between my Higher Self and my physical Self. It is very much like a conduit between the two parts of myself and through it flows energy in the form of images, sensations and words. If I am close to a computer or pencil/paper then I do a sort of automatic writing with eyes closed, allowing the information to come through me. It usually comes in images and feelings before words, so often times the words are in short, choppy pieces of sentences that don’t make much sense until afterward when I read over what I have written.

When the channel is initiated and the process begins I must detach from the process or else the flow of information stops and then has to be re-established. What I mean by “detach” is that I cannot be an active participant in the flow; I cannot allow my mind to follow the conversation. The more I feel the need to ask questions as the information is presented, the more the flow is impeded. Prior to my heart clearing milestone, there was much more Ego interference and the information flow was much more inhibited. This is because the mind was more dominant in the process. This has now been corrected and I am being taught how to tune in to my heart and tune out of my mind.

Frequency of Messages

I cannot say how often I will post channeled messages. I am finding that there are messages intended just for me and there are messages intended for myself and others as well. I received an individual messages this morning. The “download” occurred without words but I knew, somehow, the message in its entirety. Still there are no words to it but just a knowing that right now I am correcting imbalances in the chakras and energy to stabilize the energy body. Specifically, the 2nd chakra is being recalibrated and adjusted. I feel like my body is a car getting a tune-up!

For now, my source of information is my Higher Self and representatives of the Council of Many, also known as the High Council. I will include the source in the title. I do not concern myself with specific names too much, though sometimes I will get a specific name when the channeling is initiated or when it is concluded. To me, all information that comes through my Higher Self is from the same source – the collective embodiment of the One (God).

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Memory Encoding – Message from the High Council

It is time now for the truth to be encoded into your DNA and throughout every cell in your body. This recollection of the Old and the New intertwines to create a new molecule for consciousness. Without and within you there will be new changes, accelerations and indoctrinations of the New, and the How of Life will forever be known. The manifestation of thought and creation is within your reach. You create every day with each breath of life and each thought that is yours. In this manifestation you will find new levels of awareness and Know more of your own divinity and ability as a Being. Do not trust that which is routine for it holds within it booby traps and injustice. It wreaks of platitudes and immorality. It is NOT you but a manifestation of all the Old and fearful Ego-centered ways that you are now leaving behind. It is a trail of your past struggles and you can look back upon it, reflect upon and learn from it but you will never again BE it.

Please hold these lessons, the ones you are currently learning, above all else in your life. The Ego tricks that tell you to worry about what will be or what was can hinder your progress and is a meddlesome thing. There is much more ease in the moment, much more breath in Being, much more life in Living when you trust in and look toward your center, the Heart of You.

Obstacles will come. You will not be without conflict in your life. But, if you remain centered and present in each moment these petty inconveniences will pass more quickly and with less destruction had you otherwise attempted to control and subvert theme. Delays in progress will not hold you back any more than when the drought dries up the water on the ground. The sky holds more of the same and will eventually drown you in a deluge. For all is a cycle of death and rebirth here in this physical, this Earth existence. One becomes none becomes All within a breath and Time shall cease not upon your passing from it. Enjoy what you have. Relish in the moment. Fulfill your deepest desires and fear not of their passing or your passing from this Time for it is but a thought away for it to return into your heart.

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Finding the Present Moment

The past few days have been interesting.

Integrating Change and Finding the Present Moment

Though I have not had any spectacular spiritual experiences like OBEs or kundalini energy zaps, I have been experiencing a new phenomenon. It is, I suspect, exactly what my guide warned me was coming. He said I would hear him differently, “from my heart”. I did not understand what he meant but I think I am beginning to.

What I have been experiencing is best described as being “moved” from within to do or say or be something other than is normal for me. Sometimes, though rarely, I do hear my guide as a very quiet thought instructing or directing me; prompting me to consider what I am doing and why. Most of the time, however, there is simply an urge or sudden disposition toward a certain direction.

Examples:

1. After an enturbulating morning cause by my preoccupation with a current problem at work, I began to view the problem from a different standpoint and the ridge of energy I had created against it began to melt away. With this relaxing and withdrawing from the problem, a feeling hit me to break my normal routine. The more I went with this feeling, the more my spirits lifted and I began to feel propelled into action. All I did that was out of the ordinary was go into places I normally wouldn’t and initiate conversations with people, some of whom I had never met.

As I allowed myself to open up, an unfolding occurred from within. It is hard to describe but I felt in my element, more myself than usual. I also noticed how people reacted to this change and how I reacted as well. There was no resistance and the spirits of both myself and those I communicated with were elevated substantially.

What I soon realized was that I had been allowing my Ego to control me and as I focused more upon the moment I was in, rather than on the past situations that my Ego held onto, I began to view everything with fresh perspective. It was as if the strings that held me back were cut and I was let free, free from invisible yet very tangible restraints.

2. Another instance similar to the one above was related to the same work problem. I had received an email and it caused me to become preoccupied with what to do and I was filled with a nervous energy. I became very aware of this energy and had a nudge from within to “let it go” and “focus on something else”. Listening, I decided to take a walk with all three of my children.

Halfway through my walk I felt relief and then an urge to play a game. I initiated what I will call the “color game” with my kids. I would pick a color and we would start looking around for the color and point it out to one another. We all had great fun and it turned into “I Spy” toward the end. All our spirits were lifted and I recognized that I not only had fun but that I had no more interest at all in the previous problem.

This example may seem like no big deal, but for me, it is. I usually do not initiate games nor do I have much fun in playing them.

time_joakim_kraemer_photography_Learning Lessons in Waking Life

It appears that the lessons I had been learning in OBEs have now shifted to physical reality. I have connected the two experiences and transferred the process into my waking life. I find the voiceless voice that guides me while OOB is guiding me in a similar way throughout my day. My perceptions are focused upon certain things quite suddenly and from within my core. It is almost like someone is saying, “Look here” or “Consider this”, but it is a feeling instead.

I find myself conversing with this part of me throughout the day and I am catching the conversations more and more. This is not the same as it once was where I would have conversations with my guide. It is more like when I am OOB, a kind of consciousness transfer, seamlessly enacted but being brought to the surface for observation and evaluation.

It is quite extraordinary.

How to Be Present in the Moment

I am being taught how to be present in the moment. It happens via the urge to change direction and focus and I do it without knowing I am doing it. When I find myself in the moment I am elated. Yet a part of me feels as if I have been “fooled”. I even one time told myself, “You’re quite clever. You know I resist if I feel forced to do something that is not my idea. So you make it my idea and I suspect nothing”.

The process is occurring more and more seamlessly now, but in the beginning it was a simple question put forth from within that propelled me into the present moment.

That question was simply: What if you look at this moment as if it had never happened, as if this were the first time you ever experienced it? What if you knew you would never again experience this moment? Imagine that.

This was the question/thought I had prior to the experience I had of looking at myself from outside myself. It was mind-blowing and life changing. I have gotten again and again and again.

And as I consider the questions even now, any ridged resistance to the moment melts away. I recognize that it is my Ego that sees these repetitive moments as drudgery because it has a past a present and a future. I have none of these things. I am eternal and timeless. I can experience anything brand new in any moment I choose.

And then there is joy, and the moment.

Other Lessons Learned

I also have seen how my Ego interferes with my purpose. My purpose is undeniable to me – I am here to help others. Currently I do this via counseling. I am seeing how my Ego makes problems, creates barriers and resistance. It forgets easily my purpose preferring to focus upon my physical representation (body) and perceived threats to it.

When I chose to look at the perceived threat from a coworker as an Ego resistance I saw it as it was and the resistance melted away. I was then left to pursue my calling and found joy in doing so. I also saw the reciprocity involved in my chosen path. That which I give to others, I also receive. The advice and lessons I provide as a counselor, I am also learning for myself. How better to learn them than to be a teacher of them. In this process I am both the teacher and the student. Ingenious!

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Problem Solving Dream

I finally got some sleep last night! Unfortunately, I woke at 4:30am and then at 5am, before I could go back to sleep, my husband wanted to cuddle because he couldn’t sleep. So I have been up since 5am.

Dream: Problem Solving

Though I cannot recall most of my dreams I do recall one.

I was late for work and trying to find a parking place. I was driving my car from outside of it, like a kid would play with a toy car. When I got to the parking lot I noticed a coworker was also late. He was putting his car in a spot when I got there. Since I was distracted by him I almost crashed into a poll but was able to park my silver car. I mentioned to him that I was glad I was not the only one who was late. He said we were not late, that we had 9 minutes to spare.

The car symbolizes my life path and this body I am currently operating. The fact that I am outside of it is representative of my new position in regards to this body. I am no longer identifying myself as a body but as Spirit, separate from the body yet controlling a body. The number 9 is indicative of endings and also reminds me that my purpose and soul mission is to be of service to humanity.

The coworker, who was a teacher, asked me if I could help him. He took me to his classroom and introduced me to his four teenage children. They were all very close in age and there were three boys and a girl. I also recognized that this teacher taught Chemistry. The teacher then asked me to evaluate each of them because he was concerned about them. I agreed but in my mind I was trying to figure out how I would find time to fit them into my schedule.

Four represents responsibility and practicality, goals and drive. It is a reminder to move toward one’s goals. “Chemistry” symbolizes the ability to manipulate situations and change one’s Self. There is problem-solving going on in this aspect of the dream.

I took the kids with me as I left the classroom and went to my office. As we walked across campus there were these pathways that were just the width of a person’s two feet. They were green and rose up and then went down, similar to small roller coasters. One time I nearly fell as one rose up as I was walking on it.

We entered a building and I took them into a classroom that resembled a small music room. Inside was cramped and there was a gigantic megaphone the size of a table and silver in color.

The pathways indicate a particular path I am either taking or considering taking. Since they are green they are literally saying, “Follow your heart”. The megaphone indicates a need or desire to speak up.

I passed out the assessments and saw an old classmate of mine sitting alongside the four kids. I exclaimed, “What are you doing here?” The kids turned and looked and one asked, “Who?” My classmate vanished and I said, “He’s gone”. I thought to myself, “He must be dead” and was completely confused and a bit paranoid. I kept expecting him to appear again, but he did not.

To see something that is not there indicates that I may be over-reacting and this may be affecting my actions. It could also indicate that I am considering “killing” the situation, or putting an end to it.

The dream seems to end here but then I am in the classroom with the teacher and he is showing me a very, very thick book. It is sitting on the desk and he points it out to me. I see it and say, “Wow, that book is really thick”. I begin to feel a bit overwhelmed as if I have to study and take a lot of time to learn.

This part of the dream represents learning of a specific subject (path). That it is very thick and I feel overwhelmed suggests that I have much still to learn.

Reflection

This dream reflects exactly a current issue I have at work. The issues causes me to want to leave my job rather than confront the issue. A coworker of mine is telling me what to do and does not have the authority to do so. This has happened before and upset me and then the coworker asked for a meeting so he could tell me that he thought I was not doing enough. My supervisor believed him and since I was unprepared for the meeting I did not defend myself. I went to bed trying to decide how to approach this situation without burning bridges.

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Awareness Expansion

I got a glimpse today of what is coming for me during this next phase. I am not certain how to put it into words but I will try my best to do it justice.

Today, while visiting with my family and watching as my mother and children were interacting, I had what I can only describe as an OBE. I was fully awake, sitting and just being when it happened. It came out of the blue and lasted probably only seconds, but at the moment that it happened I was aware of being both in my body and outside of it at the same time.

When I transferred my awareness to the me that was out of this body I saw myself and my family in the room. I was not alone while OOB either. I did not see but rather sensed the presence of the others. At this point I am not certain but I believe what I sensed as “others” with me was in fact my family also out of their bodies doing exactly the same things as I.

At the moment I realized what was happening I immediately transferred my awareness back to my body. I heard from within me, from my very core, my guide telling me what was going on. I knew this was how it was, always has been.That I had done this time and time again, lifetime after lifetime. That I was timeless and it was my focus that brought me onto the time track, into specific bodies and lifetimes. I felt so very large and expansive in that moment. It is like my entire awareness opened up and embraced something long forgotten.

My body at that instant became very alien to me, as did my own personality and my entire life. I felt strangely detached from this life – all of it. And when I looked at my mother and saw her there with my children they felt more like strangers to me, similar to how one would perceive a group of actors and actresses in a television series.

I panicked for the briefest moment and then the incident was left behind for the time being. When I later thought back to it and tried to get back the experience in the new moment, I could not.

Since then I can’t help but be reminded of memories I have had of the time in-between lives. How I looked at moving pictures that were my future life. There was the strangest feeling that this is a representative memory of how physical experience works. That me, consciousness, chooses what to focus upon and the in doing so is enveloped in the physical reality experience. This has occurred to the point that I completely “forget” all other realities, all other me’s. It became clear to me, that simply by changing that focus, putting it elsewhere, I could experience multiple realities at once.

That is what happened tonight, at least that is the best way I have of trying to logically explain it.

I feel like I experienced dejavu but rather than not know where the feeling, that odd recollection of some other time, came from, I knew because I experienced it.

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Awareness Triangle

I have reached a plateau energy-wise. The amazing shot of blissful energy has now pervaded my being and is leveling out. This is my new Normal and I am told now that We will work on adjusting to it and using this New State to make adjustments to living Life.

Dream: Awareness Triangle

I had a very deep, almost dreamless sleep last night. I recall various images of symbols and words connected to Consciousness and Awareness throughout the night. In one image there were two words side by side written in bold letters. One word, Consciousness I think, had a large triangle associated with it. The outlines of this triangle were bold but the triangle was not upright but upside down, the tip pointing down. This triangle then moved from Consciousness to the other word, which I believe was Awareness. This represented to me a transfer of one to the other as the triangle continued to pass from one to the other and more triangles followed.

I believe there is deeper meaning to what I was shown so if you know of this Triangle of Awareness please share it with me.

Dream: Choice and Discipline

In another more normal dream sequence I was at “work” and browsing through a large shelf that contained varying objects – clothes, shampoo, perfume. I perused the items, finding a shampoo. Unfortunately, I left and when I returned someone had taken my chosen shampoo.

While away I was at the buffet picking out my breakfast. What was for breakfast but apple pie! I put some on my plate as a supervisor approached me. He said, “You are a tutor, correct?” I replied, “Yes”. He said, “You don’t need to change into your uniform to day. We will be having a meeting”. I briefly recalled my uniform which resembled a nurses uniform and nodded.

I went into the room where the meeting was to be held but no one was there and it was completely empty. I stood there for a while and a man walked in. He was a tall, blonde, good-looking fellow and his eyes showed great awareness and interest. He spoke in pleasantries and I tried not to look at him too long. I felt he was interested in getting to know me but for some reason I was not interested.

I began to walk away and turned and said, “Nice to meet you…oh, what is your name?”

He replied with a name that I don’t remember now but it started with a “T” like Trevor.

I said back to him, “Hi!” and gave him my name.

Interpretation

I entitled this dream “Choice and Discipline” because it is clear to me that I was being asked to participate in change and that it was always my choice to do so. The specific change, symbolized by the shampoo, is related to clearing out old thoughts and attitudes and replacing them with new ones. This, of course, takes discipline on my part as I will be made aware of the changes that need to be made and will need to be disciplined in taking the appropriate action every time. In doing this, I develop new patterns of thinking and my attitude will change as a result.

I am told that as my awareness increases I will be asked to take on the role(s) I intended for this life. In some cases I am already in these “roles”, as represented by the “tutor” in my dream. However, in other cases I will be asked to take on roles in life that may be difficult for me to accept because they are outside my comfort zone and involve risk which can be quite scary.

Invitation

If you read my recent message from Horace, then all the information presented in this post is related to that message. If you are in a similar position as I am, meaning you are also working on conscious awareness, then you may also find that you experience similar changes to my own. If so, then I welcome you to join me in this journey. It is always easier to experience change in the company of others like yourself.

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The End is the Beginning

Day three and I still feel wonderful. I am much more leveled out than I started, but the feeling is staying. Hallelujah!

As per my dream, I laid in savasana yesterday afternoon just because. My household was alive with noise – my children were talking loudly, my baby was crying for attention from my husband and it was quite chaotic. Yet I felt myself relax deeply and my third eye activate. Soon my crown and third eye formed the familiar energy helmet over the top of my head and I found myself fixated on a television show my daughter was watching in the other room. I listened intently. Focused.

Then a heavy blanket of energy seemed to descend over my entire body and my eyes immediately began to twitch back and form. REM. I instantly recognized the symptoms of trance and was blown away. Wow!

Vibrating

I have heard of others experiencing kundalni energy say they have an almost constant vibratory energy all over their body. I had never experienced so it was quite alien to me. I thought maybe it was the psychic chills I frequently get from my guides. But no, they said this is quite different from psychic chills.

Yesterday mine started, and they are still with me. They are subtle but I can tune into them and make them stronger if I want. At one point yesterday my entire body felt so alive, so full of energy that I was a bit blown away. There I was, standing in my kitchen, covered in vibrations! All I did was pause for a moment to take in my surroundings, something I have been doing quite often these last few days. I do this to increase my awareness of the present moment. Well, it is working and it seems to have initiated the all-over body vibrations!

Since then I have but to change my focus and I notice the vibrations. If I don’t put attention there then they are quite inconspicuous. I can feel them everywhere – not just in my chakras. I even felt them in my feet! hehe

Dream: Gospel Songfamaviol-1

This morning I awoke in tears from a dream I was having. In it, I was in a group of people at a type of ceremony honoring someone’s accomplishments. I had chosen a rare gospel song to play that was from the 1940s. I don’t remember the song’s melody now, but there was a part in which the lyrics addressed generations and how daughters and sons later became husbands and wives, mothers and fathers and then grandmothers and grandfathers. I cried hearing this, full of such an overwhelming love for humanity.

Upon waking in tears, my guide was close and calming. I was also covered in several energy blankets. One was around my midsection, one was around my head, and another was around my legs. In addition, my entire body was lightly vibrating.

I said immediately to my guide, “I chose a very challenging personality this life”. He said, “Indeed you did”.

I knew without knowing how that the life I lived two lives before this one was much more in line with my true Self. My personality (Ego) in that life was not resistant like it is in this life. It was easier to control and much more pliable. I had such faith in that life, such patience and understanding. Yes, the life was hard, but I had faith and held onto that faith throughout.

I was also a black woman living in the South during that lifetime. I have such a deep love and respect for black women in this life. They are truly the most beautiful of women to me. I didn’t recognize where that came from until I remembered that lifetime. Such faithful, passionate, supportive, wonderful, amazing family I had in that lifetime. They taught me the true meaning of family.

Anyway, I digress. That life I chose a personality that was easier to control. I knew that in this life I chose a very resistant, stubborn, overly emotional personality on purpose. I also knew that it could also be controlled and I was learning to do that now.

Energetic Transfer (AKA Energy Swap)

If you have been reading my posts you may have read one entitled Energy Swap. In it I was told this would be happening to me. I didn’t quite understand it but, as with all the messages I receive, I put it “on the shelf” and left it for later.

Upon feeling the energy blankets, I kept waiting for the energy bolt I have had in the past, but it never came. My guide said to me, “You don’t need that anymore”.

I drifted into the in-between during this time, enjoying the calming energy. While there, I was told some things by my guide about the merging process. I can’t remember everything now (I forgot it almost instantly) but I do remember he said, “You will listen more and more”. The rest of what I was told had to do with the exchange of energy that was on-going.

When I returned to myself I said to him, “I am coming into myself”. I said it with such certainty and knowingness. Now I understand more fully what it means.

The “swap” of energy is not that I am giving up energy, it is more like I am being rewired. The energy that is coming in, or “downloaded”, is more of me. As it comes in, it redirects and channels the existing energy and “flushes” the system. In doing this, a new, more efficient system is created. So, in a nutshell, I am regaining control of the human system and personality and ultimately it will result in a well-controlled Ego.

The End is the Beginning

I am already seeing the changes within myself. The biggest is the calm that overrides any ineffective, over-reactive emotion. I am more able to sit and do nothing and think nothing. I am more able to be in the present moment. I can distance myself from other people’s dramas. I am cause more than I am effect. I control my emotions. I control my reactions. I control my words. I control my thoughts.

The me and the Me are switching places.

Examples:

My husband used my apple cider vinegar to dye Easter eggs. I thought, “This makes me angry”. Then there was a counter-thought, “It is done. There is no need to be angry.” Then I thought, “I am not angry”. The idea of the emotion was created with the initial thought but was squelched before it manifested.

All day yesterday my husband was at work. He had the day off but chose to go in. I called him twice, asking when he would be home. He was happy and motivated. I had the thought to yell at him, reprimand him for not being home with family. That thought was squelched immediately by the “calm” which came in and overrode my intention to say something. Instead, I listened to him and let him be happy. There was no counter-thought this time, just the calmness. It pervaded my being.

There are tons more examples. These are just recent. Overall, I find these scenarios more and more common. My typical reactions to minor issues are lessening. The Ego-me no longer has free-reign. Auto-pilot has been turned off.

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Savasana: Corpse Pose

The amazing happy feeling I had yesterday continues today. I got physically tired last night but could not fall asleep. I was still buzzing with a high, elation. Through the night I woke several times to the helmet sensation over my head, though it was greatly diminished from the intensity of April 2nd.

The energy has leveled out today. This short reprieve will likely make many people relieved who have been shaken up physically, emotionally and spiritually by this sudden shock wave of energy. Unfortunately, the reprieve will not be long as it will increase again tomorrow, April 4th.

I am looking forward to tomorrow. 🙂

Savasana: Corpse Pose

Although I do not remember many dreams last night, this morning after waking several times, I fell into the in-between and had a short semi-lucid dream.

In the dream I was in a golden colored room with golden colored furnishing. It was a very comfortable space and I felt relaxed. There was a man with me but I cannot recall his face now. He and I were discussing time and when talking about it I had a short dream within a dream about our discussion.

The dream within a dream was of me leaving a restaurant. I ran into some parents who were very happily chatting about a birthday party. One woman, who had short, curly blonde hair, said to me, “The teachers aren’t suppose to get here until later”. I said, “Oh I work different hours. I usually get to work at 9:45 and get off at 3:45”. She said, “Oh! I see. Those are odd hours”.

As I left and drove out of the parking lot I was thinking about my hours, trying to add them up 8 and finding they fell two hours short. I realized I had been late to work every day and decided to fix that.

I came back to the conversation with my guide and saw in front of me a word written on paper. It said, “Savasana”. I did not understand it at first so repeatedly spelled it to myself. At some point, though, my guide referred to the word and I knew exactly what it was and lay down on the floor in Savasana to demonstrate.

Interpretation

When I awoke I heard my children yelling downstairs and remembered they were coloring Easter Eggs (yes very early for that but my oldest is persistent!). I knew the dream was indicating that I needed to “get back to work”. My “work” being my family and physical existence. I knew this mainly because I had a song in my head that was saying, “The kids aren’t alright“.

The Savasana message was interesting to me and I knew that I was being instructed to sleep in this position, though I do not remember the specific conversation. I found this article on Savasana that gives a good explanation of why I was being instructed to lay in this position. Here is an exerpt:

Most of the time, we live in loops of distraction. Patanjali calls this avidya, or ignorance. Ignorance is related to the act of avoidance. In Savasana, however, we need not avoid. We simply notice, with evenly hovering attention, whatever shows up, and then allow it to pass on, to die, so that we can arrive in the present moment. Savasana offers the possibility of “a small death, every moment, every day,” says Pattabhi Jois. Much of what we notice in yoga practice is our patterns of attachment and repulsion…….Yet part of the process of allowing our preconceptions and our reactions to our anxieties to pass away is to allow for our categories of the unacceptable to fall away…….. Instead we lie down with all of our repulsions and all of our attachments, both of which are sacred, both of which teach us about our strategies of attraction and avoidance and where we are in relation to the present moment. Observing these patterns allows us to suspend those very strategies and surrender to the feelings that we have been avoiding. This surrender gives way to spaciousness in the mind and body. When one practices this way there is space enough for everything.

I received many messages yesterday indicating that my the next stage for me is to let go of more of those things – thoughts, beliefs, routines – which do not serve me and my purpose. I kept hearing the old gospel song, “Bringing in the Sheaves” and recognized with certainty that I need to work on letting go of two things: 1. Fear and 2. Attachment. I am also working on living in the present moment. All these fall in line with the Savasana message I received this morning.

We can all learn a thing or two from Savasana. I recommend to those struggling right now with the Shift to lie in this pose and allow yourself to surrender to the things (symptoms) you have been avoiding. Allow yourself to be detached from that which repulses you, observe it and allow it to pass as the moment passes.

As my guide loves to tell me, “This too shall pass”.