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Pyramid Meditation and Experience

As predicted in a message I received over a week ago, the 20th brought about yet another strange energy experience.

Pyramid Meditation

I have been reading Dolores Cannon’s Convoluted Universe Book 1 and am nearing the end of it. In one of the chapters there is discussion about how to balance chakras using a pyramid to help funnel the energy into the solar plexus which then balances out one’s whole energy system. This was in conjunction with information on how to manifest in the physical.

Since I had just read about it, I decided to try it as I did my nightly meditation.

The directions are simple:

Relax in your normal meditative position (mine is laying down with head propped on pillow).

Focus on your third-eye chakra while envisioning yourself laying in the center of a giant pyramid. Position yourself 1/3 of the way from the bottom, or base, of the pyramid.

When I did this, I immediately went into the in-between. I mean immediately! There was no time of clearing my mind or deep breathing. As soon as I saw myself inside the pyramid I went elsewhere. I don’t know where I went, but I went fast. So fast that I had this strange energy seemingly come at me with such force that I immediately came back from wherever I had been thinking, “What the hell!?”

The energy was that same energy as I had the night of this blog post. BUT this time the energy was not scary and did not shake me up. It felt more normal and balanced, like I had gained control of it somehow.

It is the oddest energy I have ever felt and I have felt some pretty weird energy! It felt like I was in a million pieces and then converged back into one whole piece. It’s like I am shattered, splitting into different aspects of myself and then reassembled.

The majority of the energy sensation was centered around my head this time. So this may be why I was less shaken.

Explanation

Of course, upon coming out of this strange experience, I went back to the pyramid meditation. This time there was no immediately departure but I think it is because I was looking for the experience. I did have an odd energy traveling through my body. What is interesting is that it did center around my solar plexus!

I requested an explanation but rather than a direct answer, I ended up going elsewhere again.

The memory of what occurred is mostly lost to me now. Again, it was like it was siphoned off before I had a chance to remember it in full. What I do remember is going from one “Me” to another; back and forth, back and forth. I also recall not being alone but having a man with me who was completely white. I don’t remember details of his face but I remember he had human form and facial characteristics.

The energy that went with this movement between “Me’s” is what brought me back to my body. I checked the clock and it was 10:30pm. I had expected much later as I had settled into meditation at 9:40pm. So the time from my pyramid experience to waking from the next experience was less than an hour!

When I finally came back to full, physical body awareness I remember seeing the White man. He was standing next to a smaller White person. They reminded me of statues they were so still. This visual actually shocked me enough to cause me to completely forget what immediately preceded the vision.

Mostly what I recall is the feeling of moving. It was the same strange energy of breaking apart and reassembling. What is odd is that I did not have fear and it felt like it was systematic – go to point A, then B, then CĀ  and then repeat. Could the pyramid have caused this strange movement?

Messages

I returned to sleep but woke several times in the night, each time thinking I had slept longer than I had.

I had several messages during this time:

The number 6 repeated itself. Angel number 6 has to do with maintaining balance between spiritual and physical.

The number 114 repeated itself enough to wake me up, the number still very clear in my mind. Angel number 114 says that if one uses caution and wisdom they will be successful in business and money matters and life in general. This goes well with my thoughts from last night as I kept thinking of my business.

Dream: Slaughtered Cats

Upon waking the last time this morning, I recalled a vivid dream in which I was inside a mobile home cooking dinner. The stove wouldn’t work and the bread was stale. I was with an old man whom I was suppose to marry. He kept asking me what boy’s names I liked, as if we were going to have a baby.

I left, feeling weird about the whole thing, and as I left saw that the house was made of glass and had a specific entry and exit separated by glass.

When I went out of the home, there was a maze-like walkway with walls waist high. The first thing I saw was carnage and fur. Upon closer inspection it was massacred cats. Some were still alive but they were eating the dead cats!

I walked past the cats and went into a hallway that turned into a school. I remember meeting up with some people and telling them, “It’s safe. I made it that way” and seeing all kinds of tarps and posters up in the halls. Though I couldn’t read them, I knew they had messages or invocations that made it safe.

I’m not sure what the dream implies but it was very odd. I have never seen slaughtered cats like this. Most of them were black, too. Maybe I am overcoming some bad luck? šŸ™‚

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Changes are Coming

Things have been different since the 1st of July. I am different and things are getting stranger and stranger.

Instructions: Changes are Coming

I am being given instructions pretty much non-stop. I hate using the word “instructions” because really it is not that I am being told what to do. It is more like I have an urge to change that comes from within and is accompanied by a knowingness of the specifics of the change.

Not only do I know what the changes are and how to begin creating the changes, but I see glimpses of the final product – the final “changed” me. My reaction to this is satisfaction rather than rejection. I like what I am seeing.

This is a brief list of the changes I am being asked to make:

1. A complete overhaul of my diet. This is the message I received:

Reduce toxin intake by eating organic, grass-fed meats; organic, pesticide-free produce; limited canned items; no processed foods; no sugar or sugar substitutes; organic, grass-fed dairy products.

Vegetarian diet encouraged because meat contains toxins despite being organic and grass fed. Meat contains the cellular memory of the animal. This transfers to the one who ingests the meat acting like a “toxin” in its own way.

With this information also comes a strange repulsion of certain foods. For example, I was cooking ground beef (not organic), making hamburgers for my family. The smell of it bothered me and I kept feeling I should not eat it. I continued to cook it for my family, trying to ignore the weird feelings and repulsion I was having. I had no such repulsion when I cooked a meal of organic pork chops with all organic veggies.

Another example is that when I am eating meats I sometimes become sympathetic toward the animal I am eating. I see an image of the animal in my mind and feel I should not eat animals at all. Interestingly, after such a sympathetic reaction I saw a video on FB of a child crying about eating turkey, calling them “animal-people”, and I recognized this as a confirmation that my reactions to eating meat were purposeful.

2. With the strange repulsion comes a distinct dissatisfaction with my normal workout routine. I dread it and struggle to push through it. I feel inclined to stop and there comes with this a feeling that the way the body looks is not as important to how well it functions. Too much focus on appearance triggers the Ego and distracts from purpose. The focus is away from previous cycles initiated by the Ego. We are not the body, we are stewards of it.

3. Stop wearing make-up and let my hair be natural. I get messages like this when I look in the mirror and smile when I see my reflection feeling/thinking, “I am beautiful just the way I am”. I also hear my Companion ask me, “Who would you be had you not changed for others?” This comes along with a message to “Be yourself” and “strip away the lies”. In my mind I see myself glowing and radiant, wearing comfortable clothes and not caring what I look like.

4. Stay in my body as much as possible. OBEs are counterproductive and slow progress. I still want them and ask for them but am told they will be few and far between. I am told I will get information without going OOB. I do not need to leave my body to communicate with my Council. I will go “in-between” and this in itself will become more useful to me than going OOB.

5. Finish what was started. Though I am eager to get started on my path, I must complete the cycle of action that was previously started. In particular, raise my children and focus on family. Though this may seem to slow me down, I cannot proceed until it is done. Individual pursuits will be introduced but priority always is given to family. I will know when to move forward.

These changes will be gradual. To force them all at once invites frustration and slows progress.

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Revelations from a Walk

From the perspective of the old.

I just returned from a walk with my baby. Interestingly, this walk seemed to reveal some of what I had missed upon waking.

This exchange is with another member of my soul group. Some would call this my Higher Self, but this feels more like a soul mate relationship to me.

Let me explain a bit about that. When I first me Steven I had a strong and very intense love for him that caused me some confusion. I admit that I got a bit head-over-heels for a bit but this did not last long. I believe this was a purposeful process as at the time I did not love myself and had to learn how to do this. Loving my companion was step one in the process of self love.

I have been concerned about what will happen to me when this process concludes. My companion reminded me of the OBE I had in which I traveled the astral alongside an exact duplicate of myself. During this journey I was able to experience both me’s with ease. In some instances I was both me’s combined, as if the experiences of both were merged. Yet throughout the experience I was very much aware that the other me was different; she had a knowingness and fearlessness I did not have.

It was explained that when this process concludes I will be essentially experiencing life via the other me. I will have more courage, less fear, and more certainty and knowingness. All semblance of the old will be gone. Just like in my OBE, where I was able to immediately transfer my consciousness to the other me except this will happen at the physical level. I will still be me, just better.

I assume at some point all of this will be explained via the New.

Other Memories

There is memory of discussing with my welcome Home party how to ease my transition. I remember asking them to make it comfortable and familiar and to not play any jokes on me (I once read in Life Between Lives an account where a man’s soul group played a joke on him upon his return and made themselves look like Satan. Not funny to me!). I saw in my mind a cottage in a green field. There was smoke rising out of a chimney and a feeling of rest and recuperation associated with it. This is what I feel I need and so it will be provided.

I also understood that I could transfer my consciousness back to my body anytime I needed in order to facilitate the Return. I would not be gone from this physical existence, just resting. This was decided so that I was able to continue to participate in the life I was leaving behind. I would not be a guide, but I would be a presence felt always by the New. Essentially, it will help both of us transition. The Wholeness will in itself be invaluable.

Other Considerations

I do not, personally, feel my Starseed origins, yet it is obvious to me that they exist in some form. I am told that the New has been in stasis while I lived my life. When the New was with me for that week the memories that flooded my consciousness were beyond belief and now that I feel once again “separate” from that part of myself, I have difficulty believing any of it. I suppose when all of this is over the Starseed aspects and all that they entail will be the most noticeable change in me. Right now I feel mostly to be operating on memory of that amazing week and what it revealed. I long to return to that, to feel that wholeness and certainty of purpose once again. I hope that something similar will be the end result of this process. How wonderful that would be. I hear now, “Perhaps it will be better”. Tee-hee!

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Practicing the Exchange

From the perspective of the old.

Last night was an odd night. I spent the majority of the night doing some kind of strange transfer into and out of my body. I did this over and over again, but it left me with such an odd, indescribable, foreign feeling that I then spent the rest of the night into the morning in deep conversation with my guide about what we were doing. I specifically went over and over the dream and the in/out of body experiences over and over in order to remember them. Unfortunately, upon waking at 4:50am, the images and specifics of the conversations, dreams and experiences vanished.

It is odd how my memory is being blocked. I remember a summary of what we were doing, but it is very limited. I remember nothing past this feeling of what occurred. Images sometimes come but as soon as I “catch” them, they seem to dematerialize, leaving me with only questions.

Practice

When I awoke, my guide was close and calming me down. I even recall hearing a song being sung gently, though it was in a language I did not understand and the melody appeared to be linked to the language rather than a song itself. It instantly soothed me and I regained the ability to detach from my emotions.

The in and out transfer had me very concerned. I am comfortable with the sensations related to leaving the body to venture into the astral, but this sensation was just beyond bizarre. It felt like I was being nudged out of my body, like someone else was pushing their energy in and so I would just kinda pop out. This in itself was not the strangest part, though. What was really weird was the feeling of totally amnesia, confusion and disorientation that resulted immediately upon my recognizing I was OOB. And I recognized immediately every time. When these feelings would come I would protest being OOB and grapple for some kind of memory to help me recover what I had lost. What is strange here is that I did not specifically want my body back, I just wanted myself back.

The memory of it is very vague now, which I think is purposeful based upon the upset it caused me. I do not scare easily. While OOB I usually confront the unknown or dark aspects of myself without hesitation. This experience, however, reminded me of what I suspect happens when someone actually dies unexpectedly. The memory feeling I have is that when we die we enter into a state of amnesia similar to when we come into the body as a baby. This amnesia is generally short-lived, though, as we have guides and family awaiting us to help us transition quickly.

It was explained to me that we had been practicing the transfer and had been doing so for many nights prior to this. I was being allowed to remember in small chunks in order to keep the overwhelm to a minimum.

I was again asked if I was in still in agreement and it was explained to me that I did not have to do anything I did not want to do. I wholeheartedly agreed that I still wanted to go through with the transfer. There was no hesitation or doubt at all.

Pricking Chakra Activity

I was asked to lay flat and try to return to sleep. I did lay flat but felt very energized for some reason and it took me a while to get near sleep. When I did, I felt a strange pricking sensation in my abdominal area. The sensation was centered over my second chakra but was also around my third chakra. It felt like a million tiny needles were lightly pressed up against my skin. I have never felt chakra sensations like it!

Something about the sensations caused me to remember part of the strange feeling I had when I left my body. It was similar to how one feels when all the blood comes out of their head, like a trickling, prickly, progressive flow out. I understood then that the reason these particular exit sensations were different is because I was literally disengaging from the lower three chakras. Completely disconnecting from the physical-spiritual docking mechanism. In essence, I was unplugging myself from the body.

This realization created an overwhelm in me and the meaning of it hit home hard: This really was an energy transfer. I really was going to “leave”. But where would I go? What would happen?

I heard the song/words and the gentle melody caused an instant relaxing. My worry was replaced immediately with knowingness and a peace that is indescribable.

I appealed to my Council who responded quickly. Their message was short and to the point. They confirmed that I would be coming Home soon and related that they were eager for this to take place. I had so many questions and was unable to remain centered on my heart the entire time, so much of what they told me is lost now.

My guide, or the New me, was close and comforting. He began asking me about my childhood and memories of it began to surface. He asked me again if I remembered him. I did not, do not, and this upsets me. He reminded me that he had been with me from the beginning and assisted me through some very tough times. While we talked, I saw my early childhood memories flash in my mind. I also began to finish thoughts for him. For example, he said, “We planned this” and I said, “And I am done now”.

As we talked I became so relaxed that I began to drift off to sleep. I remember vaguely discussing some future issues related to Nevada, Utah and the sea levels in Japan. I can still see the maps of the state of Nevada but I can’t remember what exactly was imparted to me.

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Symptoms of the Swap

From the perspective of the old.

I am feeling utterly abandoned by the other me. It is as if she just vanished. The drop from bliss to normal has been a shock. I feel like the donkey being led by the carrot. It is such a tease to have such wonderful wholeness and then to be left feeling lacking once again.

If I remember to focus on my heart center, the shock is much less, but it has been difficult for me, especially yesterday. I let my mind do too much thinking about metaphysical and philosophical things. I was warned to avoid thinking as this is the Ego’s domain and of course Ego came out and caused some upset in my household not long after it was allowed free reign.

Symptoms of the Swap

I wanted to list out some of the changes I have noticed in myself since the 28th and the sudden drop back to normalcy.

  • Losing time
  • Blue, electrical-looking lights upon waking
  • Sudden descending calm
  • Emotional detachment
  • Feeling as if my life and body are not mine
  • Warmth in lower three chakras, especially the second chakra
  • Increase in psychic chills
  • Ringing in ears
  • Feeling watched
  • Seeing Spirit
  • Buzzing around back of head connecting ears
  • Third eye buzzing
  • Confusion
  • Passivity; letting go
  • Acceptance
  • Perceiving own future
  • Mental blocks or fog
  • Loss of interest in OBEs
  • Odd, jumpy and shifty vibrations upon waking
  • Feeling “done” with life
  • Deep, dream-filled sleep
  • Inability to remember dreams upon waking
  • Profound Knowing
  • Sudden Remembering

My 5am briefings have stopped but I am still waking around this time. This is normally when I notice the blue lights. They surround images of my fading dreams as I regain conscious awareness of my body. They literally look like neurotransmitters or electrical pulses. Most every time I wake I feel odd vibrations, as if my body is being shaken up and down and left to right all at the same time. I also quickly lose dream images and story lines abruptly upon waking and recall is impossible even when I set the intention to remember.

The ringing is my ears just began a couple of days ago. It starts and then gets very loud. Then, the sound remains for a very long time, so long I get use to it and lose the sound. Yet if I focus on it I can find it immediately, still there. This disappears during the day, thankfully.

The loss of time and detachment to this life are really disorienting. I have been waking up with amnesia and it takes a while to recover my memories and locate myself in time. During the day I often forget what day it is or what time of day it is or even what I am suppose to be doing. I will have to reorient myself – “Okay, it’s Friday. I know this because I just went to work (insert regaining memory of work routine)” – only to once again forget an hour or so later. I did this so many times yesterday that I began to wonder if I was going somewhere else and it was causing these time hiccups. This sudden amnesia and detachment has been going on all week and increasing in intensity and frequency.

There is odd activity in my lower three chakras as well. It is interesting to me, since I have had a dullness in this area for many years now. It is as if my lower chakras have been on vacation, especially my second chakra. Lately, when my heart is activated and the New me comes close, initiating psychic chills (wonderful feeling) my second chakra will light up and a warmth will spread out in that area. It is so nice to feel in that area again!

Some changes have been on-going since the week of bliss and feeling whole. The descending calm, buzzing in upper chakras. profound Knowing, Remembering, loss of interest in OBEs, acceptance, letting-go, mental fog/blocks, seeing Spirit and feeling watched, and perceiving my own future are all such changes. Perhaps these are permanent?

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From the Perspective of the Old

When I awoke the morning of the 21st I found myself in the midst of a great influx of memory. I seemed to withdraw to the back of my mind as this other me came forward. I did not interject, just listened in awe.

Even since this dream I have had an awareness of this other me at all times. In the beginning I seemed overcome by her. The energy was intense. I felt expansive and more alive than I ever have. I was in a state of bliss for a week straight and became use to it. This resolved after the OBE in which news was given of the premature departure of a member of her soul group. Afterward, she withdrew some of her energy from me and I felt suddenly deflated of all the expansive energy I had gotten used to. Gone was the bliss and back was the “normal”. I could still feel her, but so much less, and it made me sad. This sadness, along with the sadness she experienced, made me a very melancholy person for a good 24 hours.

She has not gone, though she does seem at times unnoticeable to me. Yet, at certain times I feel to be influenced greatly by her. Either I will hear her question me, suggest something or remind me of some long lost memory. What is extremely curious to me is how my mind seems changed by her presence. I don’t react like I use to and there is a muting of most of my emotional reactions to life. If I do react negatively and reactively, it is suddenly taken from me, almost like someone comes by and just picks it up off the top of my mind and tosses it. For example, I had a very big letdown last night and found myself grieving over once again feeling so alone in life. I felt her concern. Then it was as if the grief were suddenly replaced with great joy. I went from crying and feeling all ā€œpoor me, boo-hooā€ to, ā€œhurray for life!ā€ It was, is, such a magical experience.

Considerations I Have

I have been particularly upset over the insertion of the “walk-in” term into my mind, for obvious reasons. I was raised in a household that believes such things constitute demonic possession. I keep trying to figure out what is happening to me and up until today, I have not been able to process any thought about it.

Part of the memory restoration I have been going through alongside my partner (what else do I call her? lol) is memory from my first awakening, memories I had forgotten. I experienced so much during that time that it all blurred together; however, it is obvious to me that this New me, this partner, is my Companion Traveler. One in the same. I just identified him as male in 2003. I often still find myself doing this, but I donā€™t think he/she cares one way or the other.

There were times back in the period from 2003-2007 in which I felt very much to be in the midst of a ā€œtrying onā€ period. During these times I would be asked permission to allow him to join energies with me. I didnā€™t understand why nor did I ask (not sure why) but I always said yes and I always felt amazing during the short periods he would do this. But never did I experience anything like I did recently.

I never once thought it odd that my ā€œguideā€ called himself a Companion Traveler and me the Earth Traveler. At that time I was so enamored of the whole process that I didnā€™t think to question much of what was happening. I remember he would often say to me, ā€œYou arenā€™t asking the right questionsā€. Ha! If I had only known!

It seems, though, that a Companion Traveler is more than a guide. He was merged with me prior to this lifetime and has acted as my guide, but so much more is making sense now. With my new experiences and information about walk-ins and soul exchanges, I am starting to put the pieces together.

This was planned. He and I planned it. I have no doubt about that. I get lots of leeway, though, and it seems that he has been waiting for me to decide to ā€œstep downā€ ever since our meeting in 2003. I recognize there is an agreement between us as well. What it is exactly has not been completely remembered yet.

I chose in 2007 to have a family, so he waited. I am done with that now and have been asked again what I want to do. Again, I canā€™t make up my mind. I am told we are ā€œnegotiatingā€, which makes perfect sense to me as my dreams, feelings and thoughts all point in that direction.

My last child being born was a trigger for the process to begin again. I was told in June, 2014, that I had four more years. It felt all very final to me, like I was going to ā€œdieā€. I had previous messages that were profound in nature before that, but all after the birth of my son. I quit my job, sold my house and moved my family. All these actions seemed to be preparing me for something.

Now I am feeling the urge again to quit my job. We canā€™t afford it but even with that there is an urge within saying I need to spend time with my children, cherish the time I have with them. This was the same feeling I had last June, but I got a part-time job rather than ā€œriskā€ no job. My husband agreed to let me leave my job, so it looks like that is what is going to happen.

I am told there are four more trying on periods coming up for me. Strangely, I eagerly await them. I felt complete for the first time in my entire life while in the body. No longer did I feel like a piece of me was missing. I have felt similar feelings while having profound spiritual experiences but never for an entire week.

I donā€™t know when I will next update. I am finding still that my mind blanks out when I begin to type or write my experiences down. Either that or I go from one me to the other in the midst of typing and I will look at what I typed and think, ā€œWhen did that happen?ā€ My Companion seems to come through more often and more strongly than I do. I suppose this is to be expected considering the process we are going through.

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Contract Negotiations

Written from the perspective of the Old.

Semi-Lucid Dream

Prior to sleep, I had been told that more negotiations would occur through the night, commencing at midnight. I woke at 1am to a terrible thunderstorm and when I returned to sleep I projected several times. I abandoned each projection upon reminding that it was only needed for check-in. It was then determined a semi-lucid state was best in order to protect the Ego-self from the brunt of the negotiations.

During the semi-lucid state I stood in front of a mirror talking to myself. Yet the visage in the mirror was not me, didnā€™t even resemble me. The image was of a bald, very pale individual with a strangely proportioned face. The eyes were almost normal, as were all the features, but it was obvious to me that this individual was not me nor was it human.

This otherworldly being spoke to me and we conversed about planetary events and my mission while visiting Earth. It was so foreign to me that despite being in a semi-lucid state, my Ego-self kept reacting and interfering with communication.

The dream then shifted to a classroom environment. On one side was a figure, the one who I had been talking to in the mirror. He (I will say He but really this being was androgynous) had in front of him pieces of paper with odd looking writing scribbled on them. There was cut pieces of dark hair strewn across the paper so I could not make out the symbols. I was told, ā€œYou are not allowed to see this yetā€. I did not object. I was distracted by a group of children being attended to by a tall, dark haired male.

I went to the group, intent on doing my part and was told, ā€œI have this, go meet with himā€.

I then looked out the window and knew there would be a storm at 4:30pm the next day. I said, ā€œThere is going to be a storm at 4:30, good thing I only work until 3:30. Maybe I will leave early just to be safeā€. I then turned back to the man at the table who was waiting for me.

I went over the man at the table and sat down in front of him. He put in front of me a very long piece of paper and we went over it together. I donā€™t remember the content of the sections now, but I do remember that the first two were quickly agreed upon, even though I was unfamiliar with a term used in the second. The third section, however, was about changes that would be made in my life. He explained, ā€œYou will be asked to do things that you would not normally doā€. I asked, ā€œLike what?ā€ but he would not answer. I said, ā€œThen no dealā€.

I awoke knowing why I objected. The issue was my family. I objected to them being split apart and my current personality was dead set against that happening. It was discussed during briefing and put on hold for further consideration. I was not allowed to remember the discussion.

Contract Negotiations

The contract is not yet final and I remembered that the finalization period was set to occur the end of July this year. My memory instantly went to a dream I saw as precognitive at the time, though then I thought it meant my motherā€™s death. What it actually symbolized was my own ā€œdeathā€ and it outlines the time-period specifically stating the 21st to the ā€œend of Julyā€ which in the dream was explained as the time in which full transition would be made.

My other self then took over conversations with the being from my dream, who I realized was one of the members of my Council. It was explained that my old self was not yet ready to see him. Therefore, what was seen was created as an acceptable version to the old self.