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Energy Swap

When I awoke this morning, I was succinctly aware of a message coming through to me from my guide. The only perceivable word I was able to extract from the feeling was “swap” but I understood immediately what it meant and its importance to my personal “shift”.

Vacation

I recalled instantly a dream I had where I was swept off to a tropical location somewhere in the area of Mexico.

The main parts of the dream that came to mind were getting into a vehicle and going to a parking lot. I said to my companion, “Parking costs $3”. He replied, “That’s not a lot. We have to pay $15 pesos”.

Then I was braiding the hair of a woman and talking to her. She was very anxious and uncomfortable and I was instructed to tell her to trust herself and the process. She then remarked that she was very hot and so I went to a box where I clearly saw markings indicating levels of degrees. I turned up the knob and a burner near the woman lit up very high, the flames reaching almost a foot into the air. I then knew it was time to lower them and so did, watching the flames subside to a very low level.

Messages

These images of my dream went along with the message from my guide and came with a feeling of nervousness. There came afterward a conversation which, unfortunately, is mostly lost to me. However, the main messages got through.

Swap

There will be, for me and others as well, an energy swap that will occur and has already begun. I don’t understand it completely as the message was more feelings and images than words, but from what I can gather, I will be swapping energy with my guide (Higher Self) and this will occur in small increments throughout the week with a major event around the 21st. The activity will mainly be felt in my third eye and crown chakras. The after-effects of the major event will be similar to what I have previously experienced but will last quite a bit longer. I understood this to mean that I will experience: confusion, inability to think clearly or in a concrete and linear way, sudden influx of ideas and info without the ability to express them, energy spikes throughout the physical body, and other overload symptoms.

Trust

It is important that I trust the process and do not resist it and it was asked, “Do you trust me?” When I heard this question I completely relaxed and my heart chakra began to overflow and I just wanted to melt into my bed. So I do not doubt that I will fully trust and surrender to this next shift.

Intensity of Energy

It was made clear to me that this process will be intense. I must not have understood or taken the message seriously enough because it was repeated to me, “It will be intense” and I saw the flames from my dream as they rose higher and higher and my body became overly hot with the memory. I asked if it would be like the other experiences I had and was told, “It is never the same”.

I was warned to remain centered in my heart at all times and advised of coming tendencies to become the effect of overly high and unencumbered negative emotions. Anger, spite, unhappiness, depression, jealousy and more negative emotions will be on the rise.

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Energy Matrix Acceleration – Message from the Coucil of Many

The coming week’s events are concurrent with the intensifying and development of numerous energy accelerations resulting in an overall shift in the consciousness of many who are in the midst of what is known as the “ascension” and is hereby to be known as the “shift”.

Many will find themselves caught up in a swirl of emotional overwhelm that may lead then into confusion, fear, chaos, and other emotional upheavals. It is important that if you find yourself subsequently affected by these energies that you take time to meditate and focus upon your heart center as this is where your stability is located and can always be found if sought out. However, those who are ill prepared for this current of change will crumble under its intense energetic effects. Expect the unexpected but do not be subdued by it for its purpose is to uplift and this will be seen in the coming months.

For those prepared already for these energies, there will come over you a descending energy from above that will feel intensely familiar yet make you uneasy for you have forgotten that it is part of you. This amnesia will be temporary, however, as you familiarize yourself with yourSelf. Many will experience specific energy within the head and shoulder area of the body as the adjustments are made. Please do not be afraid and do not resist but take time to yourself, by yourself, away from the thoughts and energies of others as this transition takes place for your perceptions will be heightened during this process.

As always, know you are loved and assisted through this shift and through all the coming shifts. We present to you this gift in hopes that you will remember why you are here and who you are.

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Energy Grid

Yesterday I decided that I will not stay at my current job. I am done accepting situations that I do not agree with or that are not ideal in my world. My job is not bad but the system that created it is. I wish to disconnect myself from a system that suppresses individuals.

As I went to sleep last night I asked to received assistance in determining my next course of action. I accept the feelings I have been having about my career and know what I don’t want in my life more now than ever. But what do I want? I understand that part of the process of learning what one wants is to experience enough of life to know what they don’t want. I am comfortable with the process now more than ever. I am told I will be shown what is next and I felt the truth of it so strong that I was overcome with tears. I know it will be that way and I am fully accepting of whatever is next on my agenda.

Energy Grid

Like so many nights since the birth of my son, I fell asleep while meditating. I was awakened by my son’s cries and got up to help my husband tend to him. When I lay back down I could not remember what I had been dreaming about. When I searched my memory I got a very strong impression that has me wondering about its significance.

I experienced myself as both in my body on the bed and outside my body as an observer. There was a male entity in the room who was dark and fluid in his movements. I did not sense anything negative about him.

This man moved from one side of my physical body to the other very quickly. He did not go around but over my body and as he did he wove what I can only describe as an energy web across my body. It was white and shimmery like a spider’s web with dew on it, yet it looked like a net more than a web made up of identical square boxes. When I questioned what it was, I heard “grid”.

The color of this grid changed from white to green and it reminded me of a security blanket of some sort. I am not sure what its purpose is but I felt very strongly at the time that it was meant to keep me in my body for a certain amount of time.

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Doing the Work

As you may have noticed from my most recent post, I am digging into my past lives again. I will be doing this for at least the next few weeks. As a result my posts will likely be focused upon these adventures more than on anything else.

Doing the Work

After today’s session it was clear to me that right now I am doing the work myself right now rather than the kundalni doing it. This is okay with me because I am having fun, but I it also allows me to stay more present in my body and this physical reality. Uncovering past lives and the unconscious decisions, pain and other considerations from those lives is a huge healing process. Not only does one have to confront very different perspectives and realities they have had but they also must re-experience them in order to clear the subconscious of the effects of these other lives. When done correctly, a person will feel much relief as they are unburdened from the weight of those lives and past decisions. It also allows one to be more present in this life; their attention no longer occupied by times long past. With each past life “erasure” there is another deceptive layer peeled off the conscious mind. When they are all peeled away one is left with the true self, unhindered by debris that has built up life after life.

Observations

I noticed something that may or may not lead to a discovery about myself. As I recall and re-experience more and more past lives, I am seeing just how very different I am in each of these lives. While re-experiencing the life, the thoughts I thought and the feelings I had resurface. I am many times able to get a good idea of my personality and patterns in the life as well. It has always amazed me that I am so very different life after life. I do not seem to have a “set” personality that continues unchanged from life to life. I had always thought that I would maintain some part of the “me” I know from life to life and that I would see evidence of it. Yet, I have yet to see any semblance of myself in this life in any of my other lives.

What do I see? Well, I see patterns or themes that are recurring. It is very obvious to me that I chose to play the role of victim in many of my “recent” lives (this is in quotes because I can see this pattern arising from late BC). I also notice that I have many of the same expectations of myself life after life. For example, in every life except for a few I have judged myself very harshly for not making better decisions and/or having more love or empathy for the people I interacted with.

There are also lives in which I very obviously came to experience one thing specifically. The life I recently wrote about where I was killed in combat is one of those lives. It is very different from the lives I have recalled so far in that I was in no way concerned about anyone or anything except my job which was to kill the enemy. I had no emotion, no regret, no guilt. I almost appeared to be “brain washed” into believing my sole purpose was to die for whomever I served. So far this is the only life where I have encountered a total lack of emotion upon death. Very disturbing but it served its purpose.

Finally, I notice that the farther back I remember, the “lighter” I feel when I re-experience those lives. There is an obvious lack of concern about things to come and a more adventurous attitude in general. For example, when I “failed” prior to around 1000BC I took the attitude of “I will get it right next time” rather than feel loss about whatever I failed at. This observation lends me to believe that there is some truth to how experiences in our past lives build up and impact our present self.

ascensionThe Reality of the Ego

Probably the most impressive realization of all these past life memories is just how very real the Ego is and the purpose it serves. From what I am gathering from just how very different I am life after life, it appears that the Ego is exactly what I have read it to be. It acts as our suit of personality from life to life. It is the overcoat we wear and then toss off after death. It is in fact the very reason for the differences in myself that I perceived as I re-experienced life.

The very acceptance of this is difficult for me because there is a part of me (the Ego of course!) that does not want to “disappear” when I die. I fear it so much that I grapple with ways to preserve what I perceive to be me. But my observations prove to me the opposite happens when I die. The Ego does not disappear, it is re-absorbed back into the True Self. When this happens that aspect of the Self rejoins the other aspects. This does not always happen at the moment of death but the process does begin at that point. How do I know this? Because I was able to see the two me’s distinctly at the time of my death. This was very obvious in the life where I was hanged. Though not yet merged the two aspects of myself were distinct. The one was frantic and panicked, the other was patient and understanding of the experience. From other memories of life between life I know that it takes time for the Ego to be reabsorbed completely, too. In these memories I was able to follow the Ego as distinctly separate for quite some time after death. Because these memories are not complete it leaves me wondering – does the Ego serve another purpose between life that I have yet to recall?

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Anatomy of the Kundalini

Tuesday has come and gone without any kundalini experiences or significant symptoms. It was by no means an uneventful day. I received the results of my labs and there were some subtle stirrings of kundalini. At about 8pm last night I noticed significant energy in my crown and third eye chakras. The energy in my crown was so intense I felt almost like I had a beam of light shooting out of the top of my head into the sky. The energy was not uncomfortable and I immediately forgot about it as I prepared for sleep and the coming work day.

I again had a dreamless, deep sleep and awoke much earlier than I needed to wide awake and ready for the day. What is going on?

Beginning Again

For the past three nights I have awakened with significant root chakra activity and a feeling of intense passion that is unfulfilled. I am usually warmer than usual and feel restless (who wouldn’t?). The dreams leading up to these experiences are lost to me. In fact, even upon waking I cannot for the life of me remember what I was doing before waking!

So what is going on? I have a knowingness that the initial rise of kundalini is finished and now it will begin again. The message I got about the top three chakras activating all at once was likely a true one, but since my top three chakras have been open and active since my initial awakening in 2003 the activation of them was nearly imperceptible. The reason my crown chakra was buzzing so intensely is because of those three chakras it has been the most likely to be blocked in the past and was likely once again partially blocked prior to a few nights ago.

Anatomy of the Kundalini

So now the process begins again at the root and will move up again through all of the chakras to the crown. This process will likely cycle through several times. How many? As many as it takes to purge and adjust each chakra to whatever level it needs to be at. I suspect that each rise of the kundalini will be a bit less intense than the one before.

I now understand a little more about why I feel intense energy at one chakra but then another will seem almost untouched. It is not that the other chakra is not being purged but that it has less blockages to be purged or is already in a balanced state so as not to be affected by the kundalini as it rises. This is true of my 3rd, 5th and 6th chakras. These three chakras are pretty much constantly open and clear when I check them. That doesn’t mean they are always open or without blockage but these three were wide open when the kundalini reached them.

From what I feel about the kundalini process I am experiencing right now, the intensity of the energy felt in the root chakra upon activation is indicative of how intense the kundalini energy will be felt in the chakras above it. The “lightning strike” immobilizing energy that I have felt on two occasions is similar to real lightning in that the “strike” short circuits the chakras it hits and “resets” it, clearing stagnant energy and blockages. Similarly, the smaller, all-over body vibrations is exactly what my guides said –realignment of the meridians and nerve pathways between the chakras. It really is like a complete rewire of the human energy system!

So…..here I go again on the rollercoaster of kundalini.

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Rumblings Within

For the past couple of days I have felt the intensity of the energy drop substantially. I have not had much in the way of kundalini symptoms or energy fluctuations either. It is as if everything has stopped, but I am not naive enough to think that is the case. I have been through this before and when all is quiet there is usually much, much more going on below the surface.

Deep, Dreamless Sleep

I am once again feeling full of energy when I lay down to sleep. It has been taking me an hour or longer to fall asleep. Then, when I fall asleep, I sleep so deeply that I do not remember my dreams. They fade away within seconds of me opening my eyes.

These dreamless periods are necessary for integration and when I have them I gently remind myself that it is necessary and purposeful; that no matter how little I remember, there is a part of me that remembers it all and is utilizing every moment of dream time to perfect and prepare for the next stage.

Quiet

It has also been very quiet in my life – both within my thoughts and out in my world. Except for some strange, anxious energy that settled yesterday morning, there has been little excitement in my world. I have, however, been presented with tasks in my life via my job and personal connections. It is as if my spiritual guides took a step back in order for me to “see” the signs in front of my eyes. These messages were always there but I ignored them, more interested in spiritual matters. It is obvious that I am being nudged to not forget my purpose and roles here in the physical.

At least I am not resistant to these messages. I took them with a grain of salt and acknowledged them humbly.

Rumblings Within

When I think of how my life has been these last few days, I am reminded of a dark, quiet and calm lake whose surface shows little sign that anything at all is going on within its depths. Yet, if one were to dive deep down into it, they would find it teeming with life and activity. It appears that that is what is going on with me now and maybe others who are at the same stage as I am. We are preparing and resting, gathering our strength for the next surge of energy that will set our physical bodies spinning.

And there are signs, though subtle, of these “rumblings within”. I have been seeing repetitive numbers in sequence since the end of last week. For example, I saw 11:11 then 12:12 and 1:11, 2:22 and 3:33 all within the same day. The most common numbers I see, though, are 1:11. 11:11 and 12:12. I have also been waking from my dreamless sleep with a restlessness that I cannot describe and a warmth in my body that is familiar yet out of place. When I try to “look” into my heart for the answers I am met with calm as if I am being told “Don’t worry. All is well”. I am okay with this response but I keep looking; keep hoping that this odd, quiet yet somehow “off” period will soon be replaced with something more tangible.

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Pounding Heart

It has been a rough couple of days.

After I sent healing the night before last I was kept awake by a sick baby who could not breathe from all the snot in his little nose. My mother-in-law came to help at midnight but then I could not settle to sleep. My heart was pounding in my chest like I was running and I felt “off”.

I went downstairs to take a Benadryl and saw three missed calls. This is at 1:30am and so I became worried about my husband who was scheduled to arrive home and should already have been home. I called back the number and it was the airport. She said, “He lost his car”. Hahaha! Within minutes he came through the door. By 2pm I tried to go back to sleep.

Again my heart was pounding and I was uncomfortably hot but my feet were ice cold! I eventually fell asleep but I suspect it was 3am by the time I did.

Skip to last night. After my normal bedtime routine I focused on my body’s energy like I usually do. After a few minutes my heart began to pound again like I was exercising. With it came an anxiousness with no source. I sat more upright and it helped but I was not getting any assistance from my guides. What the heck?

Strange vibrations shot through my chest area and behind my eyes was this strange blotchy light. It was greenish blue amidst the normal black. When I would see the color and feel the vibrations my heart would stop pounding (or maybe it was just not noticeable).

I asked for help and realized I needed to move my energy from top to down. After doing this a few times I found myself forgetting what I was doing in the midst of it. Before long I fell asleep.

Ascension Symptoms Update

  • Sleep disturbances
  • Pounding heart
  • Feeling uncomfortably hot
  • Short-term memory hiccups
  • Vibrations
  • Neck/back stiffness
  • Sensitivity to others energy
  • Heightened psychic/mediumship ability
  • Sweating
  • Ringing in ears
  • Pressure in head/popping in ears
  • Muscle spasms

The most noticeable and uncomfortable issues are the pounding heart, sensitivity to others energy along and heightened psychic/mediumship ability. I am pretty sure the heart pounding is a direct result of energy being trapped in my heart chakra because when I manipulated my own energy it stopped. I also know that the chakra clearing now is my heart chakra. The heightened sensitivity to others and increase in my psychic/mediumship is controllable and has not since been an issue. Thankfully, I am very good at blocking.

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Energy Funk

I’m not in a funk but it is obviously happening to many others. Wow!

Today I had my physical. At the doctor’s office I was positive and quite cheerful as I talked to the receptionist and gave her my cards. I plopped one down without incident but the other one fell sideways and spun toward her. She then looked at me with such an evil, hatred-filled looked that I was taken aback. The energy that she threw at me was just as bad. My stomach actually did a flip-flop from it! I looked at her, smiled and told her, “I promise I didn’t do that on purpose. I was just dropping it down like the other one and it did not go right”. She just stared me down.

I sat down and actually considered leaving the place. The negativity was very heavy and I felt almost overcome by it. I watched her do her thing behind the window, observing her body, her posture, her aura. She was really filled with ick!

She turned around and opened the window and gave me back my IDs. I almost told her, “Would it make you feel better if you threw them at me?” But I didn’t say anything. She might have done it as I felt she wanted to!

I eventually sat on the other end of the waiting room to get away from her energy. It took me a while to get thoughts of telling the doctor about her. I eventually let it go completely. The poor woman obviously was struggling and I meant her no ill.

Turns out the doctor was pretty low on energy, too. She was pregnant and pleasant but low, like she could turn on a dime. I was happy to get out of there.

When I got back to work I had an emergency situation that was very negative. Later, at a work event, I picked up on the thoughts and energy of some women who didn’t know me. I  introduced myself, explaining my schedule kept them from meeting me at other events, but I could feel the heavy energy from them. Later, I could feel the probing thoughts of one woman. She was wondering about me, questioning my presence there. I ignored them the best I could.

I am not a mind-reader but today I swear I heard actual thoughts/sentences with the negative energy. It was really uncomfortable for me but I handled it well. I have to be careful not to blurt out a response.

How to Respond

I understand my response was not ideal. I actually took in some of the receptionist’s energy for a bit until I realized it and discarded it. What I should have done was send her love and positive energy, even distance healing. At the time, though, I was caught off guard. I should have known better since I noticed the energy of the entire space was “off”.

I handled the second encounter better. I was pleasant and ignored the energy and protected my own energy without thinking about it. I long ago learned to put a bubble around myself to protect myself from negativity. However, hearing others thoughts (if that is really what I did) is new to me and I will have to double up on my protection and keep my Ego in check in order to not be affected. Finally, I got away from the energy, which is one of the suggestions I make in my series of posts Easing the Symptoms of Ascension.

It is obvious to me from today that some people are really struggling right now. I am going to send out prayers and healing to them tonight. Please join me if you have the time. I will be doing it around 10pm CST.

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Elohim

Since last night’s kundalini experience I have been feeling odd. The last time I had a jolt of energy like that I spent the entire next day completely unable to get a grip on my thoughts and feeling energetically chaotic to the point that I had to get outside and out of the house all day. I am not experiencing that this time, thankfully, but the entire day I’ve had a pulling feeling in my heart that is not bad but is scaring me. With the feeling comes a message that says things are about to vamp up and I need to get my head out of my (you know) and stop hiding.

I have spent most of the morning trying to avoid confronting the feeling which is connected to last night’s odd resistance to the kundalini energy. But apparently I am not too good at avoiding the unavoidable.

I was suddenly unable to avoid the feeling in my heart and was overpowered by it and at the same time overcome with a wave of calming energy from my left. I heard, “Do not be afraid” from a calm, voice. But, as you might have guessed, just hearing that made me more afraid. I sent my attention in the direction of the voice, hoping for comfort and received yet another calming wave as my heart chakra seemed to triple in size inside my chest. Then I heard, “Elohim” and my stomach dropped about ten feet into the floor. I assumed I had been given a name but hearing it so clearly took me by surprise as did the accompanying feeling of fear. Why am I so afraid?

I have already laid down on the floor about four times so far in hopes of settling my energy. It has helped but as soon as I get up the overpowering sensation in my heart comes back. It is not a bad feeling, though, just scary. What I mean is that it feels exactly like how I feel before getting up in front of an audience to sing, act or present something. It is nerves, plain and simple, and I honestly hate the feeling.

I am hearing more messages but trying not to. I really am not interested in dong this. I stopped it before and I can stop it now, right? Yet what I know and hear says the opposite. The feeling says that more is coming. More experiences like last night. I am heading into new, uncharted territory (for me at least). I hear, “You are ready” and “Let us show you” and am being encouraged to listen to my heart, focus on it and enjoy the feeling rather than fear it.

I am not sure exactly who or what Elohim is. From the brief search I did online (which I promptly stopped because of intense waves of energy and heart chakra activity every time I read something familiar) it appears that Elohim is the name given to the “Gods” by the ancients. They are “the One and the Many”. It also appears that they are “alien” in origin.

I just can’t escape the alien mumbo jumbo can I? No wonder I am so resistant. I really would prefer to stay in my hidey hole please.

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Teaching in Astral

I awoke at 5:30am a bit irritated to be wide awake at such an early time. I tried to go back to sleep by my tummy was rumbling and my mouth was dry. So, I got up to get a snack and a drink. My husband was awake preparing for the marathon. I said hi, ate my snack and returned to bed.

Within the hour my baby started crying. I had still not gone back to sleep so it was no big deal. I got him his bottle and saw my two other children were watching t.v. downstairs and had all the lights on. It was early so that was surprising. I set up the baby with his bottle and went back to bed knowing he was ready to wake up for the day and would be fine with his siblings to play with him.

I tried to fall asleep again but a dove was cooing outside my window and would not stop. I put a pillow over my head and cursed him and considered going to another room to sleep. I actually considered just getting up since I was not tired and my lower back and pelvic area ached. I decided to do some stretches in bed to alleviate the ache. It worked and I rolled over to try to sleep.

OBE #1: Conversation with Husband

I found myself in a semi-lucid dream reaching to my right and touching my husband as he lay next to me. I could feel his body, it was warm and solid. He moved and I said something to him and he responded but I don’t know what I said. What I do remember is thinking, “He’s not home right now. This must be a dream!”

This thought woke me up and I opened my eyes, blinked and thought, “I want to astral”. I rolled over and felt the familiar heavy sensation that comes with sleep followed by subtle vibrations that rolled up and down my body comfortingly. I must have fallen asleep quickly because the next thing I did was reach over to see if my husband was there. He was. He was very real and solid again and I thought, “I am dreaming. I can exit now”.

With the thought I felt the vibrations again. I rolled in the direction of my husband’s body and felt myself separate from my physical body. I immediately bobbed up over the bed and my astral vision came on clear. The room was bright and I could clearly seeing my husband’s completely naked body curled up on the bed facing where I had been. I was not there, though.

Knowing that my husband was running the marathon, I reminded myself that this was likely not him but probably one of his counterparts. I did not even consider that he was completely made up (which I am glad of). I hovered there looking at him for a while, happy that my vision was clear and I was not in a dark, gloomy environment. I then moved closer to him and touched him on the leg. He turned towards me and smiled and we talked. I asked him how his run was going and he said, “Difficult. I just got done getting around all the groups of people”. I recognized this as I had run the half marathon with him in 2011 and the beginning is like trying to push your way through a crowd until you get to mile 5 and then it thins out.

He sent me a feeling of love and reached for me and I let him. I could feel him and knew, even though it wasn’t really him, that I was communicating with him on another level and that pleased me.

My vision blacked out and I felt the familiar vibrations return and immediately thought, “I want to go back”.

OBE #2: Neighbor’s Visit

I again felt the vibrations and reached over and felt my husband lying next to me. I rolled out and up without effort and the room was dark this time. I had heard a baby crying and so looked to find my baby in the room as well. I looked for him, worried when I couldn’t find him, but then found him sleeping in a mound of blankets. I let him sleep and ventured toward the door.

I got to the door and recall mentally checking to see if this would be “okay”. I felt it was and so continued but my body felt a bit heavy. I said, “More energy” and I immediately felt lighter. I walked out the door of the room and recognized my house. I decided to go down the stairs and into the living area. It was not lit up like I expected but it was golden colored.

At this time I heard the sound of someone coming into the house and then talking to my kids. I went to investigate and saw a middle aged woman with thin, blond, short hair that came to her chin. I asked her, “Why are you in my house? What are you doing here?” She seemed completely comfortable with being there and oblivious to her intrusion. She said, “I wanted to talk to you about a problem with the fences. Our group has been working to repair all the fences in the neighborhood. They are falling down. Like yours”. She pointed to our fence in the backyard. We were standing in the kitchen area looking out, the room was well illuminated and I was looking at her closely to try and figure out who the heck she was.

Realizing she was likely dreaming and really not too interested in her, I went along with her conversation. I asked, “When are you planning to do this?” She said, “2053”. I thought that sounded weird and for a moment thought she must have said 1953 but then changed my mind.

I said, “Hmmm, that seems like way too long to me. If you were going to do it in 2015 then that would make more sense”.

I was standing at our french doors looking out at the back yard and wanting to go out when I said this. The doors swung open gently and I could feel the night breeze on my face. I also could see the night sky dotted with stars and felt a call to go out. I turned around, instantly knowing the woman would no longer be there. Sure enough, she was gone, the chair she had been sitting in was empty.

I walked outside, sending a silent query about if it was okay. I felt it was, so I walked into the yard and could feel the green grass on my bare feet. I could also see the trees and the night sky behind them and feel the cool breeze on my face. I thought, “This is beautiful” and stood there enjoying it.

I began to focus on the stars and saw they came all the way down to meet the horizon. I felt drawn to them and allowed myself to be pulled up, but not too much. I remembered how if I thought, “Up” I would sometimes go too fast. So I thought, “Only halfway”. I stopped above the trees and before I had a chance to do anything else, my vision began to black out. I knew instantly that I was suppose to go up and not stop.

I settled back over my physical body.

astral1OBE #3: Teaching Others to Fly

I thought, “Just one more time, okay?” Then, I felt the vibrations, though subtle, and rolled out of my body again. I looked for my husband but he was not there.

I decided to go downstairs and look around. My vision was not as clear – the room was darker. As I moved toward the bedroom door I could feel my energy decrease and I said, “More energy”. When I did, I felt a surge of energy and my vision cleared, but the room was still darker than before.

I got to the stairs and started to go down but decided I wanted to fly down but felt heavy. I again said, “More energy” and felt myself lift up easily. I floated downstairs, expecting to see the bright lights and my kids watching t.v. Instead, it was dark like the rest of the house. I heard voices in the kitchen area and so went that way. I immediately saw my children with two other, smaller children. They were playing together.

A little Hispanic girl with long, dark brown hair was looking at me. I greeted her and the others and took the little girl by the hand. I lifted her up with me and he face showed a look of shock. I said to her, “It’s okay. You can fly. See? There’s nothing to be afraid of. I can help you”. She smiled when she saw she was flying and I took her up with me toward the ceiling. She laughed and I let go of her hand. She went back down quickly and I hovered up near the ceiling. I felt myself falling, too, and my vision nearly blackout and I said, “More energy”. I immediately got my vision back and was able to stay in the air.

I landed and saw that a woman was with the kids. She kicked one of them, the young boy who looked to be the Hispanic girl’s brother. I went to investigate and saw a tall, middle aged, slightly obese woman with short, dark brown hair. She was wearing a blue sweater and jeans. I went up to her and looked up at her (she was taller than me). I said to her, “Did you kick him? Please don’t kick the children”.

I then saw her face very clearly and she looked to be depressed and somewhat out of it (dazed and probably not knowing where she was or what she was doing). I didn’t recognize her but she seemed harmless enough. I asked her, “Are you okay?” She said, “No, I’m not”.

I took her by the hand and lifted her up with me saying, “I can show you how to fly”. I pulled her up but felt resistance. She was heavy and cumbersome to lift. My vision threatened to go again and I said, “More energy”. When I said this, not only did my vision stay but the woman got lighter and we both lifted up easily into the air. I told her, “You can fly here and it will make you feel better. You can come back and fly alone or I can fly with you”.

I let go of her and she fell backward and landed on the wood floor with a thump. I was initially concerned but then I heard her laugh hysterically and I smiled. I went over and pulled on her to help her lift up and she then tried to stay up. She was wobbly but eventually hovered in a sitting position, still laughing.

My vision began to fade out and I knew it was time to return to my body.

Body’s Reaction

When I returned to my body the energy of my two bodies was not coming together smoothly. I don’t know how I knew this but I did. What is odd is it felt like it does most of the time but this time I just knew it was not right.

I could feel my heart pounding in my chest and knew this was part of the problem. My physical body was stressed and I mentally said, “Gently” as if saying it would help the two bodies merge better. But the energy felt off, like rocky and unstable. It was almost like my physical body was rejecting my energy body.

Realizing this strange feeling was not going to stop, I focused on moving my body to force the merging of the energy. I tried to move my hand and open my eyes. My hand moved but my astral eyes opened instead of my physical eyes and I saw the grays and blacks of the etheric. I was still not merged completely.

I focused more on my hand and then my arm, moving them both and finally feeling IN my body. I rolled over and opened my eyes. My heart stopped pounding and I felt normal.

Factors Influencing Projection

Lucidity scale: 8

Intent stated?: Yes

Time to bed: 10pm

Time to wake: 5:30am

Meditation?: No

Physical Exercise?: Yes

Mood: normal

Body: Lower back and pelvic area aching

Tiredness: Low

Number of wakings: 1

Technique?: No

Sleeping position:Left side

Supplements: Multivitamin, Natural Calm 400mg, Sleepy Time Extra Tea, Biotin 1000mg, Vitamin E 400mg, Evening Primrose Oil 1300mg