Session was very productive yesterday. I continued to delve into my false beliefs and found a couple more.

False Belief: Threats will get you what you want.

This was the first false belief I ran into. This one was very embedded within my psyche. This may be unbelievable to most of you, but I followed it all the way back 8.25 million years to its source. I would not have believed it myself except that first, long ago memory was very clear. As it is likely unreal and could potentially cause upset to those reading, I will not go into detail about what I re-experienced.

The experience of going that far back in time was quite a revelation to me. My human mind had difficulty accepting it or even the possibility that my consciousness having existed for that long. Yet my HS knows this to be true, to be fact. We are timeless; infinite.

I encountered a fear also of this vastness of time. It was almost a terror and it worried me while at the same time alerted me to the fact that this was illogical. Upon further inspection I explored the source of this fear in session and was able to determine that there is an event that occurred in my existence on the time track at approximately 1 million years ago. I did not explore any further than that since my focus now is on false beliefs but I am sure I will encounter this event at some point in my exploration of Self.

Note: This fear is exactly why I do not share with you the life I re-experienced as it could lead those ill prepared for such an exploration into ten times the reaction I had. One must only go where they are ready to go else face dire consequences.

False Belief: If I’m miserable, others must be miserable, too.

This one was a doozie. Thankfully, its source only went to 1888 and into a lifetime I was well aware of already. Unfortunately, I delved into parts of it that were devastating blows to the little, eight-year-old girl I was when it occurred. This life I previously wrote about in a post Past Lives Part II. The date says 1920 (the date of my death in that life) but the entire life was traumatic.  Most of the trauma began in 1888, after the death of my mother.

Since I already recounted most of that life in the other post, I will say here that this exploration of that life was to focus on when I caused someone to take on the belief that if they are miserable so then others must be made miserable. The end result was that I, as a little girl, assumed responsibility for the actions of my father in that lifetime. I held tons of guilt and felt I needed to be punished. This was, of course, wrong, but for a little girl who could not understand what was happening to her, this was the only thing that made sense. If your parent punishes you, then you must have deserved it – right? Wrong. So this life revealed much and as a result released lifetimes of pain, guilt, anger and loss.

Lots of Work

To those reading my accounts of the extrication and elimination process, you might think it is too fast, too easy to be possible. I want to share with you just how hard this has been and will be for me.

1. These lives are so horrible, so filled with pain, that it is very difficult to find them. One’s first reaction is to think they are not real, or made-up. This is a protective mechanism of the subconscious mind and must be surpassed in order to contact past lives containing intense emotion and other trauma. When I recall these lives it is very hard to get to the memory as it is very occluded but with persistence (and many times fear) I expose them.

2. It took me 6 hours to find and eliminate the above two false beliefs. I may still have more to eliminate on the second one. Much of the time was spent re-experiencing huge amounts of emotional release. Imagine tears, more tears and a feeling of having your heart ripped out over and over. Believe-it-or-not, when you re-experience the pain, it dissolves and what is left is an objective view of what happened. You can’t get to the objective part until you release the emotion that blankets the experience.

3. It takes courage and belief in Self to do this. It is not for the faint of heart, the timid or the fearful. I schedule my sessions only twice a week because I need a break in between to fully absorb the results (which are very rewarding and positive).