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OBE: Haunted

After yesterday’s low blood pressure episode I was wiped out. I went to bed early and had crazy, vivid dreams. I don’t remember most of them but there is a continuing theme over the past week. I recognize people from my past randomly as dream characters. This always peaks my interest and brings more lucidity.

Lucid Dream: Reception

The first thing I recall is sitting in a cafeteria-type setting, maybe in a school cafeteria, and listening to someone talk. Awareness hit me suddenly and I felt out of place. I reached up and pulled off sunglasses I was wearing. Not sure how I knew that I was wearing them but I remember wondering why I was wearing them inside. I turned and saw a familiar face sitting across from me. He was also wearing sunglasses and seemed to be staring at me. I stared back, wondering if he was really staring at me. I didn’t acknowledge him but instead chose to consciously blend into the crowd, becoming “invisible” to them and hopefully him, too.

Then I was going to a reception with my mom and grandmother (deceased). I walked through a narrow hallway and past lots of older people into a large, open room. Then I went outside, again hoping to retreat from a social setting I didn’t feel comfortable in. Outside a little boy approached me, wide-eyed and excited to see me. He had dark hair and eyes and his skin was a bit darker than mine. He spoke in a thick, Indian accent but I could understand him and immediately liked him. We were seemingly joined at the hip from then on, him chatting away about getting a whole day to himself to do what he wanted, his sister acting as “chauffeur”. His sister, who he called Fatimah, was driving him around in a tiny, black sports car. She said he would not get to drive on his own until he was 18.

The reception was ending so we went inside. My mom and grandmother were leaving yet they still had not opened presents or had cake. I asked if they wanted to stay for cake, they ignored me. My young friend invited me to eat with him and we shared a pie but it looked like pumpkin pie. Not sure where the cake went. Again we seemed inseparable.

When it was time to leave he went with his sister and I was ushered into a large, four door truck. There were women packed inside and I was asked to get in. One woman I recognized from my past. The women were all obese and they wanted me to squeeze into the driver’s seat. I never got in, feeling for sure I would be squished.

Cafeteria – one or more issues are “eating” me up inside.
Sunglasses – poor perception of some issue.
Reception – be more receptive to some situation
Pie – reward for hard work. Since it is pumpkin then it could related to female sexuality or a situation where time is running out. 

OBE: Haunted

I felt myself return to my body and shift positions. Then I got out of bed and walked into the hallway. At this point I was wondering if I was really awake it was so realistic. I heard water running and stopped where the bedroom usually is and opened the door to a bathroom with a gigantic walk-in shower. The shower was going full force and I yelled at my husband, “Were you taking a shower? Why did you leave the water on!?” He called back, “No.” I was irritated at him and walked under the shower to turn it off. I felt water hit my clothing and the top of my bed and grew more irritated. I didn’t want to get wet! I remember feeling this odd feeling at the time, like someone else was in our house. Was it haunted?

Once I turned it off, I looked at myself in the mirror. The reflection I saw was not the me in this life. Instead I looked like a petite Asian woman. I smiled at the reflection, noting the upward slant of my eyes, my near non-existent eyebrows and the roundness of my face. She was pretty but plain. I wanted to stay and inspect myself further but then thought, “I don’t care what I look like!” I turned and left the mirror behind.

I went downstairs and found my living area not as it is in real life. It was dark and I knew my husband was sitting in a sofa chair in front of the television. I saw the back of the chair and decided I would jump/fly over it. Yet when I tried I could not lift myself up off the ground. I felt grounded. After a couple of attempts I gave up and climbed over the top. He opened his arms to me and said, “Give me a kiss.” I obliged him but when he kissed me I suddenly could not breathe and not in a good way. I felt suffocated and wanted nothing more than for the kiss to be over with. I told him I couldn’t breathe but he kept kissing me. His mere presence made me feel as if my airways were constricted. I took a few labored breaths and finally the kiss was done. I got up and felt myself return to my body briefly. I noted that I was not breathing heavily or congested.

Immediately I returned to the scene and found myself still sitting on the sofa but staring off into space. My husband was talking about something but I didn’t hear him. He asked me, “Dayna, did you hear what I said?” But I was zoned out, focusing on a sound I heard coming from upstairs. It sounded like footsteps and I knew the “ghost” had grabbed my purse. Then I heard something fall down the stairs. I looked and saw my cell phone had been thrown down. I knew it was purposeful. Whoever was in my house wanted me to see it.

I returned to my body very gently, recognizing the symbolism behind the cell phone. Communicate. Confront something I’ve been avoiding. Sigh. Again? lol

 

 

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8 OBEs: Missing Chakras?

Last night I was so exhausted I went to bed at 8pm. My eyes were heavy and my body relaxed like I had taken a sleeping pill. Very unusual for me. I ended up sleeping until about 3:30am when I woke up wide awake. I knew when I returned to bed that it was likely that I would project.

OBE: Sludge Run

I awoke seemingly in my body watching a scene play out before me. I was in it but not in it. I was being given instructions and realized that I was some kind of recruit. My group and I were then instructed to run before we were overcome by the water. The members of the group, dressed in gray PT clothing, began to run. I turned and saw a huge brick wall with thick, gray sludge pouring over the top. People were running away from the sludge and screaming. The road they were on had a huge hole in the center which slowed some down. I thought it all fun and knew they did, too. I began to giggle and felt the familiar sensation of coming back to body awareness.

OBE: Beanie Man

Realizing I had gone OBE but had not taken charge, I allowed myself to return to observer mode because I still felt very tired. Basically this means I went OOB but lingered in a horizontal position over my sleeping body and watched my dream images without being pulled into the dreamstate. I watched as a man wearing a multicolored beanie stood with his back to me. At this time I heard someone say, “The 23rd.” I said, “Of this month?” Then I couldn’t remember what month and wondered. I heard back, “September.” That’s when I remembered it’s January. The date given was familiar so I asked to be able to go to the person who it reminded me of. I heard nothing but saw the man again, back to me. I tried to enter the scene then and came back to body awareness. When I returned my heart was pounding in my chest and I felt uncomfortable, like something was very wrong. This feeling passed but I think only because I quickly entered into the in-between.

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Three Exits

I then had three separate exits from my body, each with interesting results.

The first exit started with heavy vibrations. I was able to exit only to find myself quickly back in my body. My second chakra felt to be a big, gaping hole of nothingness. In fact, the hole felt to be what was sucking me back into my body.

The second exit was the same and when I came back to body awareness I felt the nothingness, the gaping black hole, in my solar plexus. There was a sensation of my ribs bending inward from some unseen source and the vibrations were still high and stable. Again I felt them even after I exited my body and they continued upon re-entry.

The last exit was successful but the body vibrations were very intense and electric. I felt them even after I exited my body and was leaving my bedroom. What was even stranger was that the whole time I was OOB I was taking huge breath-fulls of air as if I was struggling to breathe. They were slow, deep and labored. I figured if I got away from my body it would let up, but even as I went down the stairs the labored breathing continued. I remember wondering if my physical body was struggling to breathe and if maybe it was dying. I also remember not caring if it did. Not long after this last thought, I returned to my body where I was breathing fairly normally but the vibrations were still high and my heart felt very strange, like a deep, emptiness where it should have been. For the short time I stayed with my body, I shifted positions and took deep, meditative breaths. I felt instructed to do this but not from guidance, from a Knowing that it would help stabilize my energy.

OBE: Can’t Sing

This time I was able to get OOB without incident, the vibrations not following me OOB. I successfully made it to the stairs and tried to sing because singing helps raise my vibration. I couldn’t get any sound to come out. It was like I was hoarse and this strange, raspy sound came out. I continued to sing, though, and eventually the sound was smooth but it did not come from my throat. Rather, it seemed to come from my Being, and was without sound but more of a vibration. Hard to explain. The surprise of this change brought me back to my body and my throat felt odd, but not a nothingness – indescribable.

OBE: Backward Slide

The vibrations came on quickly. Again very strong and I felt them intensify rapidly. I didn’t wait and pulled myself OOB with great ease. I was out and at the stairs, full perceptions. I saw the stairs, a golden hue tinted everything. I decided to slide down the stairs backward, floating just above them. It felt like a water slide and was great fun. When I got to the bottom, my vision was so vivid that I had to remind myself I was not awake, that I was OOB and that it was not real.

In the kitchen I saw my whole family. My two oldest were wearing their backpacks and looked directly at me. I waved and said hello while hovering above their heads near the ceiling. My husband looked directly at me and gave me a nasty look that communicated something like, “You suck. Go away. I’m going to ignore you now.” The energy from him told me he was not happy with me but I didn’t care. Then the kids began to go out the back door, which was all wrong. I remember thinking about where I would go next when I returned to my body. In retrospect, this OBE seemed to be located in the future, or at least it felt that way.

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OBE: Alarm Clock

Almost immediately strong vibrations overtook me and practically lifted me OOB. It was crazy fast and the vibrations had sound, like an electric motor or high-voltage power lines humming and crackling. I was able to pull myself out of my body with some effort. It wasn’t the sticky taffy feeling this time. Instead, it felt like the vibrations were shaking me in the opposite direction while also following me in my intended direction. I have never felt vibrations like this. Totally crazy!

Finally, OOB, the strong vibrations continued while I looked at my surroundings. It was my bedroom but there was a small nightstand to my right which isn’t normally there. I saw a black alarm clock sitting on it but the front of it was facing away from me. As soon as I wondered about it the vibrations escalated, picking me up and putting me back in my body. I felt myself enter through my sacral plexus this time and a gaping hole sensation remained after I was back in my body. I felt very dizzy and strange and decided I should open my eyes and not attempt further exits.

Considerations

I suspect the strange vibrations and chakra black holes are a result of my shifting Light body. It could be that the chakras have shifted or that they are blocked, but the latter seems wrong being I re-entered and exited my body via these chakra centers. How they are different is hard to say but my experience is that they were like black holes of nothingness. The vibrations were the most extreme I have ever felt, very stable but almost violent in intensity. Yet, strangely, they felt normal and even when they persisted while OOB I was not bothered by them. The noise was also new. I have heard all kinds of noises-off prior to exit but never while OOB and these seemed to be produced by the vibrations of my energy body because they were in sync, almost like my energy body was singing. This is something like the sound I heard:

 

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OBE: Over the Fence

I had a busy night and morning. Seems I’ve passed a milestone, or something like that.

Toward evening I began watching a Netflix series everyone has been talking about. It’s called The OA. It’s just down my ally – NDE’s, astral travel, empathic connections, psychic premonitions, etc. I only watched two episodes and in both I ended up crying. Not because of something in the show but because my guidance began to come through in their silent but unmistakable way. I recovered quickly from the feeling despite it being once again that, “Get ready for change” message I’ve been receiving for some time.

During my nightly meditation I felt the familiar warm energy in my heart. I have missed it so much! My third-eye and root chakras joined in along with the solar plexus. The energy stayed with me for quite some time, following me into sleep.

Kundalini Dream

This will be a shortened version of the experience because it is quite personal in nature.

I was in a car lot discussing the purchase of a new car. I was trading in my old one, a black sedan of some sort. The one I chose was a silver Volkswagen, maybe a Jetta but I’m not sure. I was really pleased and showing a friend of mine. He was distracted, though, and seemed somewhat concerned about something else. I remember saying I had gotten $50k for my trade-in (I wish!! lol).

He stayed with me and we chatted for some time. Eventually the discussion went to a new cell phone I had just gotten. I was playing with it, exploring the apps on it and trying to figure out why the font was so large and funky. I remember the phone had a message something like, “Will you be accepting T-Mobile…” I can’t remember now what it was asking fully, but it had to do with communication. I was talking excitedly about my phone, showing him how it worked and smiling.

Then I was singing a song to him. I don’t remember the melody now, but it was sweet. I said, “All you have to do is let your cards fall where they may…” The memory of the words is also a picture of someone dropping a deck of cards and them slowly falling on the floor. I recall seeing this woman singing but she was also me as the words were coming out of my mouth. It was like she was talking to both of us. I turned and saw my friend had lightened up and was relaxing.

The next thing I remember is lying face up and seeing his face close up to mine. We were nose to nose and he was smiling at me. It felt tender and loving and I was not afraid. He kissed me and I kissed him back. A shock went straight through my heart and then I was filled with a love so powerful that I lost my breath and thought for sure I would pass out. He pulled back and smiled at me. I saw the glimmer of humor in his eyes. He knew exactly how he was affecting me. I didn’t withdraw but just stared back at him, smiling. Then he kissed me again with the same affect. I lingered there, feeling his lips and his energy mingling with mine. It was beautiful.

The heart energy became so intense at this point that it activated my root and third-eye chakras. A full blast of Kundalini began to make its way up toward my heart. The power of it woke me. The energy continued for some time after I woke. I cried slow, happy tears.

In-Between: Conversations with a Friend

It took me a long while to fall back to sleep after that. It wasn’t until around 5:30am that I slipped into the in-between. While there I was talking to someone about a job. I was setting up an appointment for an interview. I was told to call and set the date. There was no phone in my hand yet I remember hearing the phone ringing. At this point I heard my friend David talking as if on the line, like a three-way call. He was excited, telling me how his plane had landed and minutes after it landed an inversion cloud formed right over it. I could see this oval-shaped, white cloud in my mind. It reminded me of a space craft. I remember realizing he was on the line with me when a voice mail picked up. In front of me I saw a computer screen and there was a black box in the upper right hand corner. From it came instructions to leave a message. I never did because I recognized David’s voice and said to him, “How did you get on the line?” I was laughing, though, because he repeated the story about the inversion cloud and was super excited about it.

Realizing my friend was there and I could talk with him, I began to tell him about an in-between experience I had just had (it really happened). I was walking down a hallway and just as I crossed by the opening to the living area I saw a huge group of people all wearing blue jerseys. They cheered as I walked by and I stopped and looked at them. They looked like a football team. I heard then, “Team” very loudly in my head. It made me laugh because I knew this was my team of guides making a joke. Funny guys!

OBE: Over the Fence

David listened as I excitedly told him my story. Then I became distracted. I saw a young girl climbing a wood privacy fence. There was an urge to climb it, too, and I yelled to her, “Hey! I want to climb it with you!” I ran over to her (and OOB) and jumped up and over the fence. She immediately disappeared. I knew I was OOB. I flew to another part of the fence intent on balancing on top. I remembered I had no feet and only needed to float to accomplish this. I skimmed along the top and the dropped down to the grass below.

Then I soared up into the air and took a good look at the place. I was in a suburban neighborhood somewhere. The grass was very green and in the distance I could see the lights of a fairly large city. There were some small hills but overall the terrain was flat and looked like a park. I decided to settle back down to the ground and said aloud, “I want more clarity. I want this to be real.” The scene instantly brightened and became more real just like I requested.

I walked along for a while, talking to myself. It was like I was praying aloud or saying affirmations. I said, “I want peace. I can do this. I will be happy….” I walked next to a large fountain with a fish pond of dark water. I decided to dip my hands into the water. There was some trepidation here because I didn’t know what was under the water’s surface. Yet I pushed myself to dip my hand all the way down and grab whatever was underneath. The water was cold. I felt something and pulled my hand out quickly. It was just old leaves but for some reason it freaked me out because they clung to my hand. I imagined creepy bugs and dead things for a split second and then cleared my mind. I repeated my affirmations. “I can do this. I want peace.” My vision blacked out as I continued to repeat, “I want peace.” My awareness returned to my body.

Considerations

When I woke my heart and third-eye were still active and I felt relaxed, calm, almost peaceful. This is very welcomed considering how I’ve been feeling lately. I recognize the OBE symbolism right away. I flew over a fence. Fences in a dream represent obstacles and feeling “fenced in”. Then I pushed myself to dip my hands into dark water, not knowing what I would find. I did this despite fear bubbling to the surface of my thoughts. What I feared was there was nothing at all like reality, though. My affirmations confirmed my willingness to move past my fears and seek what I want from this life. I can do this.

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OBE: OM

My travels in dreamtime continue. 🙂

Lucid Dream: Rolling Chair Road

I was traveling a familiar road from other dreams. It is a long, dirt road lined with small ranchettes with houses. Every time I travel it, this road feels like the long road leading to my grandparents house. This time I was scooting along the road in a rolling office chair. lol I was having a good time, too, pushing myself in spurts and going as fast as I could. At one point I ran into a man doing the same thing. At another point I was slowed by a massive semi-truck that was backing its flatbed trailer down the road.

After passing the truck, I slowed and stopped at small office cubicles lining the road. I assume this is why I was in a rolling office chair? I chatted with various people, stopping to chat with a group of three guys I seemed to know. The guys were flirting with me and as I flew away I heard them discussing my age. One was sure I was much younger than I was while the other two were teasing him for his interest in me. Since this guy was interested in me, I flew over to him and he propositioned me. I did not refuse but found my chakra response to him was nonexistent. Again, like in my previous OBE, when I kissed him my mouth seemed to open up into this expansiveness that was very strange and brought me to full awareness.

Lucid Dream: Left Behind

I woke briefly and then entered into another lucid dream. I was talking with a store owner about her business and there was discussion about how the transfer of ownership would be handled when she passed away. A short-haired, masculine-looking but petite woman approached me and invited me to help her with a small business. I agreed. She showed me some things but then came onto me, somewhat pressuring me into becoming her girlfriend. I remember thinking it odd and not wanting to be involved romantically with a woman. Yet at the same time I allowed her to hold my hand and kiss me. My lucidity almost peaked at this time but I remained just below OBE level.

Then I was being shown a newly purchased home on 10 acres. The cost was discussed and a tour given. It was a very large house, newly remodeled. I was envious, wishing my home was as nice.

Inside, I was watching as everyone in the home was preparing for a vacation. I was not going and was surprised to find that everyone was going to be gone and I would be left home alone. I said, “I don’t know what I will do with all the alone time. Maybe I should go? No, there is no way I would get any sleep.” I started thinking about what I should do with my alone time. Meditate? So I began to take slow, deep breaths.

OBE: OM

I began to have memories then of an OBE in which I OM’ed and heard an entire chorus of monks OM with me. The memory brought me to full awareness. I was OOB in a blackenss, a void, floating horizontally as if laying in bed, but I did not sense any other objects, not even a bed, in the space. I could feel my guidance with me but I was not focused on them. Instead, I was caught up in an amazing, energetic vibration sweeping over me in waves. It was extremely calming and comfortable. I remember considering moving out of that state into a full projection, but felt I needed to stay.

The idea came to me that I needed to OM, so I did. The sound of it made me feel lighter. It was as if my entire energetic body came alive. It was not a normal vibrational pattern, either. It was like an expansion outward. Like I grew in size, filling the void or maybe becoming a part of it.

I OM’ed over and over again, each time extending the Mmm sound for longer and longer periods. The pitch of my voice began to waver at the end, almost like a melody and my body seemed to echo the sound of my voice. I noticed this and wondered if I stopped OM’ing, would my body OM on it’s own? So I stopped. Sure enough, my entire energetic body OM’ed. It was a fantastical feeling, too. It was not a blissgasm like the Kundalini often produces. Instead it was more of an amazing explosion of pure joy. My entire body was pulsating with sound and vibration. OMmmmmmm up and down and up and down in an ecstatic wave of joy.

Eventually, the vibrations and sound began to crescendo. Louder and louder. Stronger and stronger. This brought me back to my body in a rush of energy and I couldn’t stop smiling. Absolutely beautiful.

 

 

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Thanksgiving OBEs

Happy Thanksgiving everyone! I was blessed with several OBEs this morning. 🙂

OBEs: Creation

I had a string of four or five OBEs in a row which were continuations upon the first, initial OBE. So, I am just including them all together as one OBE. Others have commented that my ability to re-enter a scene after leaving it is rare. I don’t know about that, but I have a lot of fun doing it.

It began as a lucid dream in which I found myself in two places – in my own bed and in a sleeping bag on the living room floor. My MIL came into the house with a huge duffel bag. I asked her why she was bringing in her things and she said she was moving in. I got furious and yelled for my husband. The whole time he was hurriedly taking more of her stuff upstairs and I was shifting to the other bed. The last shift brought me to full awareness and I got up out of my body and yelled his name. Suddenly, the outline of a man in energy form appeared in front of me. He grabbed me by both wrists and pulled me toward him roughly. The tangible physicality brought me back to my body but I was laughing and in the midst of vibrations.

I exited my body and again stood up. I knew I was OOB and I immediately went to creating my experience. I thought, “He will be standing right there (in front of me)” Sure enough, I reached out and felt a man there and again saw the energy outline. My vision was otherwise off and on throughout. I hugged the man and he pulled me into him. It was so real and I was thrilled to be in the experience, playing around and seeing what I could do with it. I felt his entire body and kissed him but he would not get his tongue out of my mouth and I had to tell him to stop. lol Totally a created dream character! I knew this but didn’t care because it was fun! It ended though when I realized I was fully dressed and he was not and with that I also realized I was not interested in a sexual encounter with a made-up dream man. Ha!

I shifted back into body and then went right back out. This time my room morphed into a very large theater with row upon row of seats. I was at the top looking down. I saw a man leaning over something similar to a very large control console, buttons lit up and strange levers covering it. I flew up behind him and wrapped my arms around him. He was solid and warm. I began to say to him, “Hello Jay!” but I stopped myself short. Was it Jay or Ray? Then I said to him, “I just wanted someone to hug.” And I hugged him really tight from behind. He was wearing a flannel shirt and blue jeans and had dark hair and some stubble on his face. I knew him but wasn’t sure how and it confused me. He turned, smiling and it was too much for me and I shifted back into my body.

I went back to my body in full vibration mode. I shifted out quickly, fully intending on creating a different experience and knowing I could. I sat up in bed and looked down at my lap. At the same time I knew I wanted to see a male friend of mine. I spoke aloud as I looked down at this flat board that began to swirl as an image formed upon it. It reminded me of my Kindle. I said, “I want to see ________. I don’t want to be with him. I just want to see him.” I said this a couple of times, like I was trying to convince myself of something. At one point, I remember saying, “I don’t want to be him.” haha

The image on the dream Kindle swirled and then I saw an icon show up. An hourglass. Hahaha  It was so amazingly vivid! I heard a voice say, “Do you want to see you? Do you want to be you?” It confused me and the scene shifted to the familiar blackness and energy that indicated I could travel to another location. A portal was opening. I was too aware, though, or maybe too afraid of what I was about to see?

Still completely thrilled that I was getting so much OOB time, I shifted out of body immediately and flew up into the air. There was music playing, a lovely, familiar tune. I said aloud, “I hear music!” I again was asking to see my friend but was being playful by this time, listening to the music and laughing as I began to float down stairs. I couldn’t see so I lifted what seemed like layer upon layer of a sweater-like material from over my eyes. My vision came on but it was like I was squinting. What didn’t I want to see?

As I descended the stairs, the music intensified and it was very loud in my ears. I slowed, knowing I was not meant to leave the confines of my bedroom. I had done well staying in my room but now it was time to return to my body and be done for the morning.

This was the song that was playing. When I awoke I knew it was for The Dark Crystal. I loved that movie as a kid.

I was reminded of the prophecy of the Crystal and the entire story line. It seems appropriate to my journey to Wholeness and the masculine and feminine aspects. It was a good message to receive this morning and I am grateful. If you haven’t seen the movie, I highly recommend it.

When single shines the triple sun,

What was sundered and undone

Shall be whole, the two made one,

By Gelfling hand, or else by none.

Something about my travels this morning began to re-open my second chakra. It is aching and sore this morning. I see this as a positive sign as well.

Image credit: The Dark Crystal – Esoteric Analysis.

 

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OBE: Lights Inside

Eventful night last night. I was awakened at 3am from a series of dreams. There was so much Knowing that it took me a while to fall back to sleep.

OBE: Lights Inside

I knew there was a possibility of projecting but didn’t care one way or the other. I ended up in dream set in a shopping market. I had a load of groceries I just checked out and then the lights went out – power outage. I went toward the exit and it was really dark. A woman approached me to make sure I had paid. I showed her my receipt. It was for $66.

I went home and watched a movie which morphed into my dream. I watched a man swimming through thin air. This triggered my lucidity and I knew I was dreaming. I took the opportunity to exit my body. When I sat up I was very heavy and it took a while for me to get OOB. I saw the place where I had been sitting – my old sofa in the living area of my house. I knew I had to move away quickly and headed for the front door. The entire time I was talking aloud to myself. As I reached the front door I heard myself say, “I want to be more IN my body.” This caught me off guard and I changed it to “OOB”.

When I opened the door and went outside it was dark. I made sure to close the door behind me, pulling hard on it and listening for it to shut solidly. Then I flew out across the street, still talking to myself. I was saying, “I am going to see the truth” and “I will do this.” I am not sure what I was referring to at the time but now I think I was looking for answers to my life’s issues. At the time I could tell I was very lucid and was struggling to control my energy and stay stable enough to explore the area.

Across the street I saw a very bright light. When I looked closer, I noticed it was inside a house that was completely covered with lush, green, twisty vines. In that moment I knew the house. In my memory I saw it – it was a one-story house that was abandoned. It’s exterior all gray and crumbling. When I looked at the house in front of me, though, it was obvious someone lived in it. Not only was there a brilliantly bright yellow light on the left side but the rest of it was lit up as well. Curious, I went toward it to investigate.

But I stopped short, hearing my inner guidance suggesting there was something I needed to see here and pay attention. I knew I was way too lucid at this point and felt the energy swirling around my astral body indicating re-entry. I did not resist it.

Reflection

In considering this OBE and the dreams preceding it, I am entering into a period of clearing a very deep and previously untouched/avoided area of my subconscious. There is a fear here of the unknown but also a curiosity.

lemonadeIn-Between

I lingered in the in-between for some time after returning to my body. I like feeling the energy shifting. There is something comforting about it. Plus, I get to hear my guidance more clearly and receive messages from them.

It didn’t take long for the messages to arrive. The first was a very clear 11:11. Then my vision flashed and I saw a digital clock which read 3:11. I blinked and the time changed to 13:11.

Then I was standing in front of two, glowing yellow circles. The one to my left was my circle and inside it was my energy and that of my counterpart. I felt to be IN that circle but also outside of it observing. Then, to the right, was another circle. At the base of it I saw faces upon faces of children and other people I did not recognize. There were perhaps a dozen crowded in the base of the circle and their faces were very clear, though now I have no idea who they were. Above the crowd of people and in the center of the circle was a Styrofoam cup filled halfway with lemonade. There was a white straw poking out of the top. Then I saw blue writing on the cup. It said, “THIS IS YOU”. This brought me out of my reverie quickly and I knew the circle with the lemonade was representative of: “When life gives you lemons, make lemonade.” Very funny, Team! I didn’t get mad at them at least. They are right. Doing the best I have with what I got right now.

I got many other messages but being I am up so early in the morning and am gone most of the day now, I just don’t have time to write them all down. It was hard enough to write this OBE down. Where did all my time go??? Thankfully, I was able to scribble down some of what I remember from this morning while at work. Maybe eventually I will get a chance to make a post out of it.

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Odd Thoughts, Feelings and Sensations

After six weeks of eating vegetarian, I ate meat. As soon as I did I felt sick to my stomach and very, very full despite having not eaten much. When I lay down to sleep I had a strong feeling that my eating meat was going to affect my sleep, specifically that I would project. Turns out, I slept very well and awoke feeling rested which has not been the case all week. On top of that, I was able to project six times!

Interestingly, my projections were very unreal compared to my past experiences. They seemed fake to me, but I don’t know why. In the moment each occurred, they were indeed very real and very obviously OBEs. However, there was something that felt very “off” about all of them.

When I awoke from them I was not happy about having them. I have already written about the strong feelings I have now since having these projections. I feel that “someone” or some group of someones is purposefully trying to distract me from something through these experiences. I know this is completely out of character for me, but that is how it feels.

Odd Feelings, Thoughts and Sensations

For a while now I have been having thoughts of this life, this reality, being unreal. These thoughts are random and have been increasing in frequency over the past two months.

Examples of such thoughts:

  • I will look at the sky and feel very tiny, almost insignificant while at the same time feel to be watching myself from high above where I am three times the size of Earth. The resulting feeling is that I will disappear or disintegrate. Vanish. Poof!
  • Sitting with my youngest, I was fiddling with his hair and thinking how similar it felt to that of a doll. Then with this thought came a feeling that the experience I was having – the experience of motherhood – was not real and that all my relationships were similarly unreal. It is all pretend and the only reason for it existing at all was because I wanted it to.
  • At times my body will feel foreign to me. It is hard to explain but there is a sense that it is not mine; not me.
  • I also feel that I am being watched. By who I don’t know for sure. Sometimes I think it is Me and other times I swear I catch a glimmer of a person or a shadow moving past.

I honestly don’t know what to make of all this. I find it peculiar that my OBEs this morning had the recurring theme of death. In some my sister and mother were dead. In the last there were two heads poking out of the ground and I though instantly that they were dead. Is this a reflection of me feeling disconnected from this life and everyone in it? Is that why I had such a strange feeling when I woke up? What am I missing? What is happening to me?

I was warned that I would have strange thoughts and it is coming to pass. I was warned that I would feel different, similar to a newly hatched chick. I suppose that could be why my body feels foreign to me and why I am feeling so strangely alienated from my family; family whom I should have an overwhelmingly strong emotional connection to. It could be why I have such strange sensations in my body – I am overwhelmed by noises, the sun seems to sear my eyes and later in the day I want to keep them closed all day they are so tired, I have odd urges to be touched but at the same time I reject touch, I am anxious around people I don’t know and feel overwhelmed by their energy despite shielding myself from it.

On top of all this the line from a song is repeating in my head, “You’ve gotta take it on your own from here. It’s getting pathetic and I’m almost done here”. This comes from a Greg Laswell song, “Come Back Down“.

I am still not sure what the lines in the song indicates but it causes my heart center to pull when I think of it.

Whatever is happening, I hope the part of the song that says, “I’m almost done here” is a message that this will soon be over.