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House Cleanse and Multiple Me’s

Yesterday I felt a need to smudge my entire house. I have not done so since we moved in. So, for 20 minutes, I took sage and smudge every corner while demanding negative entities and energy leave and asking the light to come in and protect us.

I have not done this in quite some time and my own energy was low in the beginning. I did not think anything of it until I reached the room where I often sleep. In reality it is my son’s room but he refuses to sleep in there – he’s only slept in there once in the nearly 2 years we’ve lived here.

While in the room I felt a distinct difference in the energy from the other rooms in the house. With this sense there came flashes of images and emotions that hit me one after the other. I realized there were quite a few imprints left here by a young girl and I knew who she was. She was the youngest daughter of the previous owners who had gotten caught up in gang life and been kicked out of the house. Apparently, this room had been hers at one point.

I recognized that she had been visiting (another aspect or her astral self) the room over time. The unsettled energy was imprinted upon the room and her frequent visits revived it. So I changed my clearing technique and focused on the imprints and the girl. I prayed for her to have closure and for healing and assistance and asked for the imprints to be cleared. I stood in the center of the room and prayed for her and then smudged the window again as this was a heavy area.

I left, finished smudging the house and felt a distinct difference in my own energy. It felt like I took a damper off of it. I returned to the room and prayed for the girl again and then checked my daughter’s room for similar energy because she has had sleeping issues recently. I found no lingering energy or imprints there or in any other room.

I can’t believe I have been sleeping in that room all this time and never noticed the energy difference!

Multiple Me’s 

While meditating this morning, I was reminded of the smudging from the day before and noticed the room’s energy was much lighter and calmer. Pleased with myself, I focused on my own energy and breath for a while, entering into the trance state quite quickly.

I noticed several strange occurrences while meditating. All of them appeared to be aspects of me exiting. The first was of a hand reaching for a cup that was not part of my reality, yet I perceived it as real and the hand as mine but not mine. The same situation arose when I felt a distinctly different part of me cross her legs but my own legs remained in their present position. There was recognition of another place as well – one in which the other me was dressed in a white lace gown.

The most significant of my observations was when I witnessed this other aspect literally get up and rise out of my chest and walk away. This was quite a shock! An entire body arose out of me. A head came out of my heart and the rest of the body climbed out with it. I did not have time to focus on what she looked like because the shock of it broke my trance state.

In hindsight, I believe all three – the hand, the legs and the entire person – were one aspect that I somehow was able to perceive. At first I thought maybe I was just falling into a dream and witnessing part of the exit from my body and the beginnings of an OBE. This almost seems accurate except that I never felt vibrations and never lost consciousness or felt the shift, etc. The typical OBE signs were never present. My only conclusion is that I witnessed another me – a multidimensional aspect. It raises questions but I don’t bother to ask them. The feeling is that I am correct in my assessment and should count myself blessed to have gotten to this point of awareness.

 

 

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Preparation for Next Phase of Acceleration

Once again I am feeling very much distanced from the spiritual part of my life. This goes hand-in-hand with a lessening of communication with my guides and a decline in energy sensations and spiritual experiences. These periods of “rest” or “normalcy” are not always welcomed. Usually I resist them vehemently. However, this time around I feel this resistance only sometimes and early in the mornings. It fades quickly upon waking and usually shifts into a calm, accepting and pleasant mood.

Despite appearing otherwise, these are times of integration and deep, inner spiritual work. Most, if not all, of this work is being done during dream time and throughout our daily lives via our multidimensional counterparts. The reason for the spiritual slow-down (lack of guide communication, energy sensations, spiritual experiences, etc) and the focus on the mundane is to occupy our waking mind – to focus it – so that the underlying work can be accomplished without interference.

Some may find that they are running into or drawn into physical life issues/concerns at this time. These physically-oriented issues come in all shapes and sizes. Illness is perhaps the most common (illness of self or loved ones), especially with the on-going integration of the intensely high energies at this time. However, other issues/concerns can and often do appear. All will be centered on the physical and our physical experience on Earth. For example, some will find their interest in spiritual things will shift almost completely to the physical. Politics, finance, family matters, career, future plans, etc. Additionally, willingness and motivation to participate in 3D life will increase. Sometimes this participation will be forced. This is especially true of those who resist the “rest” period.

It is of the utmost importance during these “rest” periods for us to find balance despite being drawn into physical-life issues and situations. Remember that this physical immersion is meant to occupy us while some deep, transformative work is being done. To completely toss the spiritual would throw us out of balance and slow down the process. The best way to remain balanced is to continue your spiritual practices – meditation, relaxation, mantras, yoga, grounding activities, etc – despite feeling a lack of motivation to do so. I, personally, struggle with maintaining my nightly meditation routine when my guides have gone silent and energy-sensations have dropped nearly to zero.

The good news (or not depending on your perspective) is that this rest period is coming to an end soon. My guides have given me the date of April 4th, but some have already entered into the next acceleration phase. For those in the second wave, this acceleration period will ramp up their transformation. Expect more heart chakra activity as more is cleared and released. This means possible anxiety, panic attacks, heart palpitations or speed-ups, random aches from heart chakra activity, perception changes (especially visual), and individual activation manifestations. This is a continuation of what came in with the early March energies.

For the forerunners, the energy will stabilize and individual patterns will be brought up for inspection. Depending on your role, you may be asked to continue to clear Collective energies, stabilize the grid, or make decisions regarding your personal and group timeline. It could be all of the above. 🙂 Some will be integrating other aspects quite rapidly while others will be shifting gears as they prepare for major life changes. If you have yet to experience contact from other dimensional beings you may find it is your turn now.

 

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Eliminate All Toxins

It is evident that this theme of the current cycle is to eliminate all toxins.

Toxins come in all shapes and forms. There is, of course, those toxins which exist within the physical body. These are perhaps the easiest to purge via a total body cleanse or special diet. We can then control (for the most part) that which we introduce into the body.

But there also exist toxic thoughts, feelings and beliefs. These toxins are not so easy to eliminate because we must first detect them in order to eliminate them.

Let’s first address toxic thoughts. Toxic thoughts here are defined as any thought which disrupts the flow of energy in the emotional and physical bodies. An example of a toxic thought would be a thought which limits or inhibits one’s natural tendency toward a particular feeling, intention or action. For example, if you suddenly feel the urge to touch a tree located across the street and think, “I can’t do that because _________”, then you have just thought a toxic thought. This is a mild example, but it gets the point across.

Another type of toxic thought would be cyclic, reactive thoughts which form the foundations of our beliefs. These thoughts often go undetected because they have become habitual. We have been thinking them so long, we believe them to be true and they have morphed into a belief. Some examples of these kinds of toxic thoughts would be, “I am stupid”, “No one loves me”, “No one listens to me,” and the list goes on.

Finally, there are toxic feelings. These feelings are feelings we think we should feel. They are fake feelings; feelings we have created. They are not our natural state. They exist because someone or some thing (experience) put them there. A prime example would be media and its effects upon us, specifically in the areas of sexuality and gender.

If you have not yet noticed the pattern here, all three – thoughts, feelings and beliefs – are intricately connected. One does not exist without the presence of the other. One, in fact, triggers the other.

So how does one eliminate these toxins?

Unfortunately, there is no easy answer to that question. One can’t eat a certain diet or fast and achieve lasting, permanent results when it comes to these kinds of toxins. One must literally start from the inside and work their way out. We must become observers of our thoughts and feelings and then, like a detective, follow those thoughts and feelings to the beliefs they are connected to.

It sounds easy, but the circuits and booby traps of the mind make this process almost impossible. The very toxic thoughts we are trying to eliminate keep us from finding them. “I am stupid” for example, or “I can’t do anything right”. Sound familiar?

I can’t say I have achieved any lasting results when it comes to eliminating these kinds of toxins, but I am learning and becoming more and more aware of them. My dreams have been revealing them to me in little chunks over the last few days. When a thought or feeling arises, I am now more cognizant of them. This eliminates them for the time being. The beliefs are much more tricky. There are so many, and so many variations on the same theme, that it seems an impossible task.

From my experience and guidance I have learned that the best way to cleanse ourselves of toxic thoughts, feelings and beliefs is to remain in the present moment as best we can. The next best thing is to be aware of signs and symbols present in both our waking hours and sleep. Our guidance is always presenting us with the answers and solutions. We just need to listen and be willing to take action when needed.

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A Dream and a Name

In this dream I was at a gym preparing for a group class. The instructor came in and had us all grab barbells. For some reason I grabbed two very small dumbbells to do push-ups and then realized we were going to do something else, so dropped them only to find all the barbells were taken. The instructor then had us line up very close, holding our barbells. Then we were attached to one another by clips. The result was that we appeared as a human grid.

Our assignment was to run a route in pairs. We would be carrying a barbell between us and our fuel was an assortment of tea.

As my partner and I ran together, we far outpaced the rest of the group. The route was a dirt path among rolling hills covered in tall, green grass. The view from the top of the hill was spectacular and my partner and I sprinted down the hill together at a high speed. I remember looking behind us and seeing our group shrink as the distance between us increased. I remember feeling intense joy and pride at our accomplishment.

Then we reached the bottom of the hill and our speed dramatically decreased. We slowly made our way to what appeared to a be a large temple or shrine made out of light gray stone. There were paved roads that meandered around green patches of grass dotted with flowers and surrounded by short hedges.

I noticed our ration of tea bags was almost gone and we were nearly out of water. How could we ever get to the finish line without our fuel? I decided to put several tea bags in our last remaining water. My partner said, “Wouldn’t that make the tea too strong?” I said yes and explained I liked it that way. There remained three gray tea bags of Oolong tea.

This is when the others in our group began to catch up to us. One pair passed us and I noticed they were on a tandem bicycle. That is when I realized my partner and I were on two separate bicycles.

As we made our way toward the main road, my partner wanted to take a different route. I hesitated but then followed him since both routes led to the same destination. As we pedaled down the path, I saw two police officers rounding up some children who did not follow the directions and were off track. I remember thinking I was glad I was not one of them.

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Dream Interpretation

The dream is suggestive of not working with my counterpart toward our common goal. There is a separation that exists, symbolized by the separate bicycle when we should be on a tandem bike. Tea is symbolic of life satisfaction and taking one’s time in regards to a relationship. Not only is tea our “fuel” and we are running low but our speed slows down significantly.

In-Between Communication

Prior to waking from this dream, I found myself in a discussion with an online friend. We were talking about desire and her lack of it and my sudden increase of it. I pointed out my partner, who appeared much as he did in past lucid dreams though he was quite a distance away in this particular lucid moment. I remember telling her, “I don’t have any issue with it (desire) now.” She had said something like, “My partner and I do not have any interest in each other anymore.”

She then said to me, “If you want to be with him why don’t you initiate?” I said, “I don’t know. I just don’t want to.” I remember looking at my partner from a distance and thinking I would like him to come over where we were standing.

That is when I became lucid in the in-between and my Companion was close. I knew he wanted me to do what he normally did in our past encounters. He wanted me to initiate our connection. My first thought was, “How? I don’t know how.” Yet I could feel my heart chakra active. It felt like my entire chest was a mass of solid energy. My third eye was also active.

There was recognition then that I preferred to be the pursued, not the pursuer. In fact, all my life I have never once pursued anyone other than one boyfriend in high school who took my advances to mean I wanted to jump right in bed with him. This was not the case and I quickly withdrew. I discovered that if I showed any interest in a man (meaning just being nice to them or friendly) it was misconstrued to mean I wanted to have sex with them. So I quickly learned to remain distant and let them pursue me. If I was interested then I would accept. It I was not, I would ignore them or straight out tell them to back off. It really sucked for me to be this way because I prefer men to women as friends yet I could never have a male friend because they always wanted it to go beyond friendship. 😦

That is when I was straight out told that I needed to reverse this role. I needed to pursue what I wanted. If I wanted sex, then I need to initiate it. If I wanted the heart connection, then I needed to initiate it. There is nothing wrong with wanting either. It is my right, my decision.

But I fear the rejection that goes with it. I recognized this fear right away.

That is when I recall hearing myself ask my Companion, “What is your name?” I heard myself reply, “Allen”. This brought me to full wakefulness and I remember hearing an entire name, “Richard Allen” but I can’t remember the last name now. Then I could not remember my own name and it took me quite some time to remember it.

As I lingered in bed, trying to get a grip on reality, I had a vivid vision of an orange cat. It was very obviously dead.

 

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Maintain a High Vibration

Yesterday was a fantastically beautiful day! Unfortunately for me, mundane life took the front seat. Things have to get done.

First off, my husband went to get an eye exam. He had been complaining of not seeing well when driving months ago but never made an appointment. The only reason he got an appointment is because I made one for him. lol Anyway, turns out his vision, which has always been 20/20, is almost as bad as mine now. I do not know how he managed to even drive! I wouldn’t dare drive without glasses or contacts. No way! So now he wears glasses and wants to get contacts. We’ll see how he adjusts. lol

Me, I had to get my teeth cleaned per the requirements of starting my orthodontic treatment. I knew I would not get good news. It was just a feeling. I had not been for a cleaning in 2 years and thought I would have to get some fillings replaced. Turns out all is well – apparently I didn’t even need a cleaning (after 2 years!). BUT they found a Grand Canyon-sized crack in one of my molars. Huh? They took a picture with tiny camera and showed me. It was plain as day. So no big deal, right? It didn’t hurt so I figured all was well. The dentist explained that it was good that I had no pain because a crack that size usually exposed the nerve causing excruciating pain. Since this was not the case yet, I was “lucky” and could get a crown and fix the problem before it began to cause me pain and cost me tons more money.

So I will be getting a $1300 crown on Tuesday. Why these things cost so much, I will never know. It definitely makes me feel old, though. How the hell does one crack a huge molar? They said I probably bit down on something hard. Hmm, yeah, of course I did! That is what teeth do – chew! lol

What is crazy curious about all this is that I was calm and collected the whole time. They took my blood pressure and it was 109/69, pulse 80. Hahaha. I’m probably the most chill patient they’ve ever had. And when I saw the crack I never once panicked or worried about money, pain, etc. This is very out of the ordinary for me. I did think about the cost, but mostly because I had not expected the added cost. In my head I was doing calculations to figure out where I would pull the money from. I knew this “bad” news was purposeful.  I need to fix it while I can afford it regardless of the cost. Who knows where I will be in the next few years and I definitely don’t want to be in the position where I am in excruciating pain and need an emergency root canal. Yuck.

On April 5th I will be getting braces. Thankfully, now days they have options that make them nearly imperceptible. Mine will be wire but with clear brackets. I won’t be able to eat normally for the entire time I wear them which is estimated to be 14 months. I still have difficulty justifying the expense for one misplaced tooth, but there is a feeling that I need to do it. Gotta go with my gut.

Despite all the “bad” news yesterday, the energy was sublime and people who I encountered were happy in a bubbly sort of way. Spring is in the air!

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Protect Yourself – Maintain a High Vibration

Today the energy is a bit different – more erratic. My household seems quite affected. This morning my husband woke on a rampage which was not pleasant. I hate it when he gives me lectures like I am one of his children!

I began to perceive this difference last night. My husband is big into Game of Thrones and so I watched it with him but kept being distracted by our stereo system. It kept flashing the message, “Connected”. This is the Bluetooth, of course, but usually it is not connected. When I saw the connected message I felt a wave of energy pour into me via my crown and from my back through my heart chakra. I knew this was a message that me and my counterpart in Spirit are “connected” and the love that washed over me was confirmation.

About half an hour later I was drinking my tea and felt a different energy. It did not scare me but I recognized it as lower in vibration than is normal. The communication from this entity suggested an earthbound (ghost) or at the very least a resident of the lower astral/etheric. This particular entity was trying to disguise himself as my Companion and I detected his disguise quite quickly and surrounded myself with Light and called upon the Violet Flame.

Afterward, I asked why this was occurring and was told to be careful of my thoughts as they manifest quite quickly. I then realized that watching that T.V. show had shifted me into fear mode and my thoughts had been along the lines of doubting what I had been experiencing. This opened me up to lower vibrational entities. NOT something I wish to experience.

Just goes to show how very important it is to keep your vibration high.

 

 

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Message: Worship Life

If you stripped away all the roles and labels you identify with, what would be left?

This question was asked of me this morning along with these messages:

Worship life.

Think “some day” and you’ll spend the rest of your life waiting for “some day” to come.

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Dreams

My dreams were also intensely vivid and related to these messages.

In one dream I was standing by an area where bundles of tall sticks had been stored vertically. Amidst them were four babies that appeared to be dead but when inspected were very much alive. We revived them and they morphed into dogs and the rest of the dream involved discussion about the dogs.

In the other dream me and my family moved to Alaska where a sustainable community was being created. The place was all gray and dreary and I kept worrying about the long nights ahead and dreading the future. I had a feeling that I should be happy but I was not and I was bored.

Memories

When I awoke all kind of things were going through my head. The song, from my previous post  was the most noticeable but there was a distinct memory of the time prior to my move to Alaska:

My ex-husband moved to Alaska before me to attend a training academy and I waited in Texas, living with my Mom and preparing for our drive to Alaska. I didn’t want to go. I knew what was waiting for me. At one point I broke down in tears while taking a shower because I wanted badly to stay in Texas. This was after I had turned down a job offer for a teaching position at a nearby school. At the time, I was too afraid to go out on my own, even with all the signs pointing to this being the right thing to do. I believed my marriage was more important; that to choose my wants and needs over my marriage was selfish and wrong. My mother had seen me crying and spoke to me about it afterward. She encouraged me to stay and I remember such pain in my heart. Unbearable pain. Excruciating.

Lessons

After this memory hit me, I was asked, “Focus on that feeling. What did it tell you?”

My response: “The feeling was showing me what I am not.”

I recognized that the feeling was trying to show me that moving to Alaska did not align with my energy/vibration. It was out of sync with me. Yet I ignored it, choosing instead to follow my ex’s path, a path that was not mine and did not align with my authentic self. The result was near disastrous for me.

I feel the beginnings of this feeling in my current life. Honestly, I don’t even want to acknowledge the feeling is emerging. I hate knowing it is there. Yet things in my life are shifting in a direction I know I am not suppose to go. What do I do with that?

Preparation

As I drifted in and out of the in-between, scenes came into my mind. One specific scene pulled me out of my reverie it surprised me so much. In this scene, a friend of mine was talking to me about needing to find a roommate. I did not recognize this friend, though. Her search came at a time in which I needed to find a place to live on my own. As I pulled myself out of the scene there came with it a knowingness that if I follow my heart, then things will align perfectly to set me on the right path.

Of course, I panicked and had thoughts like, “What will I do for a living? Where will I go? I can’t live far away from my family! I will be so alone! What about my kids?” and on and on and on. Yet the feeling with these thoughts was calm – the panic was hollow; fabricated. So weird!

In response to these thoughts there was knowing that I would be OK. I have money saved. I have a retirement fund I can cash in at any time. I can travel. I can do anything I want. I thought of traveling to Egypt and to South America. Then worry would enter and say, “But what of after all of that? What do I do when all that money is gone?”

The winning answer is “Who the f**k cares!” LOL

I know all of this is preparation for something to come. There is nothing for me to do now except prepare. It could be a year from now, two years, ten years. I don’t know. But the feeling, the PUSH is coming and I need to acknowledge it for what it is so that when it happens, the resistance will not be there.

And those labels, for me they are (in order of importance): mother, wife, daughter, sister, counselor, teacher, lover, friend. Who am I when I toss all of those? What is left?

If you try this, you will know just how scary it is to let go of these labels but at the same time extremely freeing. We can imagine ourselves without these labels but in actually letting them go – releasing the identification with them – we will find who we truly are. I don’t know the answer to this for myself yet. I have to live it. Yet there is a feeling that I will be like I was in the beginning of this life – without boundaries, always in the present moment, and endlessly exploring and loving life. Imagine that.

 

 

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Willing to Experience Anything

Though the energies have been high and quite intense, I have not noticed them quite as much as is normal. Perhaps I have adjusted? The only indicators for me that the energies are high right now are: 1. My guidance/intuition tells me they are. 2. My heart, third-eye and crown have been active on and off. 3. My sleep is more interrupted than usual and I am having more vivid dreams.

My dreams indicate that I am going through yet another transition period and making more decisions behind-the-scenes.

Community College or University – I had a dream in which I was deciding if I should go to a community college or university. A line of students were waiting for orientation at the community college and I remember mulling over my options. I was going for an advanced (doctorate) degree so I chose the university. The feeling from this dream is that I am choosing what direction I wish to go in. There comes with this dream a sense that choosing the university indicates choosing a “school” many, many others would also be attending. Maybe the lessons then are more mundane in nature?

Piranha Swimming in Air – I walked into a bedroom and saw a large aquarium with big fish in it. I prepared to feed them when I saw one of the fish swimming around in the air about me. It startled me and I left in a hurry. I told some people outside, “Do you know one of the fish escaped? Be careful because it’s a piranha and it could bite you.” I also asked, “Is it even possible for a fish to swim in the air??” Fish out of a fish tank and swimming in the air is actually a common dream for me.

Fish are usually representative of ideas and/or insights from the subconscious. A piranha is likely an idea or issue that is literally eating away at me and causing me internal upset. The fish tank itself indicates I am in control of my emotions (all but the piranha that is).

tardisRejecting Intuition – In this dream I was at a busy intersection with others. It reminded me a large city like New York. There was a man sitting on the bench. When I saw him I intuited that he would be in an accident and lose both his legs. I decided not to tell him because I believe doing so is irresponsible and unethical. I continued past him but was asked to stop and reset this machine for the next person. It reminded me of the Tardis from Dr. Who except it was smaller. I found the latch and flipped it. The latch was labeled, “Walk-in”. There was much confusion here in the dream and a thought of wishing I didn’t know what the future would bring.

Continued Shifting

There are other dreams intermixed with these but the themes are similar. When I awoke one of the six times that I woke in the night (ugh!) I recall knowing that I had chosen to slow down progress towards Wholeness. I am afraid and need to sort through that fear. I was not very nice to myself upon recognizing this and viewed it as a flaw. There was also knowing that a rest period has been entered (again) and April 4 came to mind. As usual it appears my guidance is giving me a heads up on when the next rush of energies (likely Kundalini) is coming.

In the meanwhile, physically I look and feel wonderful. There has been a physical transformation in me over the last couple of weeks that I am pleased with. My complexion is superb when it has been anything but since the end of January. I have more energy than usual and my body just feels lighter. It is hard to describe. Additionally, I am feeling more connected to my body and feel so much more than I have in a very long time (3 years?). I am actually interested in sex again. Huh? lol Happy dance. I literally feel like I am 20 years old again. Woo-hoo!

On top of these changes, I am also feeling more motivated. Today I have an appointment with an orthodontist to fix my teeth which has been an on-going irritation for me since my 20’s. I have never done anything because of the high cost involved and I could never justify paying so much for one out of place tooth. This time I’m going to do it. It’s an early 40th birthday present to myself. 🙂

There is also present an inkling that I might be able to venture back into the workplace. The thought of it is still unsettling but I sense this will break down in the next few months. There are still some things in my life that need to shift before looking for work but I am being prepared for something that is coming.

I am willing to experience anything at this point. 🙂

 

 

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Kundalini Dream: MOAB

Last night was interesting to say the least.

Dream: Test Preparation

Quick dream recall to set the scene. 🙂

I was at school and preparing to take a test. My teacher, a tall, brunette, was focusing on me even though she had an entire class of kids. The other kids appeared to be about 10 years of age and the classroom was yellow and gold colors. Part of my preparation involved making myself a lunch for my trip which was to be by plane. I remember feeling I might be late and rushing.

During the preparation, a man kept calling by phone trying to talk to me and talk me out of going on the trip. I could see him in my mind and he reminded me of one of my old neighbors – older, gray hair, wrinkled and thin. I remember him calling on the phone and hearing him cock a gun and I said, “Tell him he doesn’t need to bring his gun.” I saw in my mind a shot gun and felt as if he were trying to protect me.

Then I was being send to a one-room house. These were to be my quarters while I prepared. The cottage sized house was cozy and had an attached single car garage. I remember the old man also got a cottage. I’m not sure why he came along, though.

Dream: Arranged Marriage

I was ushered into a great hall where an event was underway. There was a Hindu/Indian feel and theme to the obvious celebration. There was a stage and a band was playing. I remember being asked to sing a song, but I didn’t know the words so just kind of made them up as I went. The song reminded me of a Phil Collins song. lol Everyone was happy, dancing and/or milling about. I felt out of place, though. Why was I here?

The woman, the teacher from the last dream, informed me that I had agreed to marry a man. The marriage had been arranged and this was the celebration – our celebration. I understood this to be true and immediately looked for my my husband-to-be. I saw him sitting down near the band on a bench, not far from where I sat and to my left. I looked at him closely, inspecting his features and trying to memorize what he looked like. He had black hair, cropped short with medium skin tone and looked much, much older than me by the amount of deep lines on his face. His eyes were dark brown. He was quite thin and wiry and his face familiar.

In front of us there was a large, Asian-looking house with golden colored gates. For some reason I thought they were “garages“. There were three in a row and the same person (the woman?) told me that the garages were very difficult to operate. Then my attention was drawn to tiny figurines lined up by the house. I was told these were “idols” that people had put there and that this place was in fact a shrine of some sort. I then saw someone walking away from the house with two dolphins on leashes. They were taking them to the ocean. In the dream I remember laughing at the sight of it because it was so absurd.

Lucid Dream: MOAB

This is when the dream takes a turn and my lucidity begins to increase. The woman continued to prepare me for my upcoming wedding and spoke to me at some length. I remember someone asked me to purchase a newspaper and the man I was to marry interrupted and said, “It does not need to be purchased. It is free to everyone.” It was a newspaper I recognized, some scientific publication, but I can’t recall the name now.

Then the man was sitting very close to me on my right. I remember sensing his thoughts and saying out loud, “It’s okay. We’re going to be married anyway.” The man turned to me and I looked at him. I could only see his dark brown eyes. I asked him, “What is your name, anyway?” He said, “MO-AB. Moab.” I heard it very audibly in the dream and it brought on almost full lucidity. I repeated the name to him slowly and then he repeated it back to me.

The next thing I knew he kissed me very gently on the lips. I could feel it as if I were awake and I did not reject it. It is amazing to me how real it felt. There was an internal conversation going on in my head with him at the time. I also recall knowing what he felt and what he wanted. It was very strange. I sensed he wanted to kiss more deeply. I allowed this because his energy was so calming and soothing and the kissing felt nice.

Then I felt I needed to stop. I don’t know why but at the same time he was asking me not to stop though there were no words said. I just felt what he wanted. He wanted to embrace me and wrap me in his arms while kissing me. When the thought hit me to pull away, my heart chakra lit up intensely. The feeling in my heart was a mixture of pain and pleasure and intensified to the point that I couldn’t breathe. Then the energy from my heart shot straight down into my root chakra and began to move up with even greater intensity. I pulled away from his kiss and woke up.

Afterward

Even awake, the energy continued and I was unable to breathe. My guide kept asking me, “How do you feel?” over and over. I couldn’t really answer at the time. I was ablaze with energy and trying to recover. lol

I kept recalling the name MOAB. I had heard it before. Why was I hearing it again? What the heck is MOAB??

The clock said 3:45am. I was awake until 5:15am before I fell back to sleep. It took that long for the energy to settle. He kept asking me how I felt. I was finally able to respond, “Aroused.” LOL However, this arousal is not typical. The energy in all my lower chakras and heart chakra was intensely arousing for some reason, in a spiritual way. It was like the heart bliss spread to my lower chakras.

I knew/was told that this was just a preparation and more is coming. This “test” was to see how I would handle the energy. I was told I passed but I felt like I failed because I knew the energy was suppose to be moved up. How the hell am I suppose to remember to move it up when it is taking over all my lower chakras?? Since my heart chakra continued to blaze for a while after the experience, I practiced moving it up and got as far as my throat but lost interest.

Edit: I looked up the meaning of the name Moab. Apparently it can mean many different things, some of which we do not even have a word for. However, when reading this article I was drawn to this explanation:

“But the word אב (‘ab), meaning father, also occurs in meanings other than that of a biological parent. Sometimes it’s used to indicate the lord of a village (Isaiah 22:21), or an elder (2 Kings 2:12), or an ancestor (Genesis 10:21), and often it simply indicates a position of authority; a counselor (Genesis 45:8) or prophet (2 Kings 6:21). The word ‘ab is also ascribed to God (Isaiah 63:16, Hosea 11:1)

Specifically, I feel this name is given to represent our relationship (me and this guide/mentor). He is to me an ancestor of some sort and since he is my mentor (counselor) this applies as well. I am reminded of the church and how we use “father” or “elder” for those in divinely appointed positions. Perhaps this is also applicable here.

 

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Meeting my Mentor

This post is just to document some things for myself. 🙂

Messages

Met with one of my guides who refers to himself as my “mentor”. He has very calm energy and I feel very comfortable with it, it’s soothing and reminds me very much of the energy of a water sign. I felt he had no name but the name “Robert” popped into my head for some reason. I recognized his energy and knew he and my new entourage of guides had been in the background of my life for some time. They are the ones who planned this life with me.

Most of his communication with me was in feelings and images, though he did use words. So, most of what I recall now is in feelings. He asked me if it would be okay with me for us to meet. He explained that in this meeting he would not block the energy which would result in an amazing heart blast of bliss. I understood that this will happen either in a lucid dream or the in-between. He also explained that he will reveal aspects of himself to me. Since he is most definitely other worldly, I do not know what exactly I will perceive but he wanted to warn me of it in advance and reassure me that I could request it to stop at any point. He reassured me that I am ready for this and that it is necessary for me to become Whole. I wasn’t told exactly when this would happen. He just said, “soon”. I suspect it will be Tuesday or Wednesday based upon dream messages and the upcoming lunar eclipse.

While communicating with him we discussed the state of this world, my progress and my role in the future. Team Dark was mentioned and his reaction to this name and the energies they represent was, “It is inconsequential.” My understanding from his reaction was that Team Dark is simply a fear-based name based upon human programming and not to get caught up in the duality from which it arises. Those who choose that route are no different than those who do not – they simply wish to experience it while others choose not to. There is no judgement made and no “us versus them” mentality taken.

He advised me to avoid reading other accounts, channeled messages, books, etc right now because my experiences need to remain “untainted” by outside sources. He also triggered memories of my dreamtime activities. I recalled discussing trigonometry, specifically Sine, Cosine and Tangent and seeing/discussing actual math problems. There was acknowledgment of math and its interconnectedness to the universe and spiritual concepts. I saw the familiar triangles of the Merkaba and patterns of sacred geometry.

I also remembered that I chose to explore the social, psychological and spiritual while in physical form rather than scientific and mathematical concepts. This is because on the Other Side (or wherever we are in Spirit) my strengths are science and math and my weaknesses are the social sciences. I love to solve puzzles, just in physical life the puzzle I chose to solve was me. Pretty cool.

Throughout our conversations, I had an overwhelming familiarity hit me. There was also a feeling of anticipation and excitement – a “this is it!” feeling. My heart, third-eye, and crown were also activated at this time.

Dreams

I have been sleeping very deeply and have lots of dreams which are mostly lost to me upon waking. Last night I awoke at 1am to intense root chakra activity. It felt like a bubble of energy was expanding out from the root chakra. I do not recall the dreams associated with it, but I knew it was in preparation for whatever is coming next.

I recall being in college, specifically in a class about psychology and dreams. I asked a question about lucid dreams and astral travel and the class ended abruptly. I then met a woman with long, light brown hair who was shorter than me. When I saw her, I instantly felt drawn to her. The entire room had been dark but she was bright and her image very clear. I told her, “I like you.” lol We hugged and I felt we were long-time friends and she and I seemed inseparable. I sensed a strong heart connection with her and there was knowing that we were “partners”. She appeared to know this as well and we walked out of the room with our arms draped over each other’s shoulders. She disappeared after that, though.

Then there is memory of me and four others holding hands in a circle as we floated/hovered. The feeling was that we were co-creating/manifesting, but I can’t recall anymore. In the in-between more was revealed but I did not write it down and so now it is lost to me as well.

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Visiting Artemis – Message: Slow Down

It was a busy night and morning for me. I woke suddenly from a strange dream sequence at the end of which was a distinct memory of being in outer space surrounded by stars and planets. The outer space scene was completely different from the dream sequence and came with a knowing that I had been visiting with others during the night.

Dream: Mother Goose

The dream prior to the outer space experience was about helping a mother goose and her single gosling. I took them out of a cage and put them in the grass. We (I was not alone) watched as the mother and baby bonded and thrived. I remember walking to the edge of a stream. On the other side was wire and signs that said, “Keep out”. I remember being told I was not allowed to venture to the other side of the river and fence yet. If I tried, I would be stopped.

Memory Behind the Dream

The memories behind the dream emerged slowly. At first, there was just a knowing that I had been in contact with my counterpart. We were together on a ship of some sort, but we were not allowed to get close or touch. I vividly recall seeing outer space from within an open space aboard a craft and being in communication with a very, tall. E.T. I remember little about the E.T. other than seeing his hand and a feeling of great love and respect. There were also several planets visible. These planets were brightly colored, one reminded me of Jupiter.

Then there was memory of my interactions with my counterpart. There was a lot of conversation between us, but I can’t remember it now. At one point he was either dreaming or I was seeing symbolic representations of his current issues. It was explained to me that we were both working independently on our own issues and to not interfere with his lessons. What I saw of his issues/lessons looked like many small fires that were lit. Some were bigger than others, but most were small. There were approximately five total. I remember holding a garden hose and wanting to help him put them out. I was not allowed and it was explained that if I interfered the fires would actually burn out of control.

Then there was memory of standing on what I at first thought was the surface of a planet. I later was told it was a way station. I asked what it was called and heard, “Artemis“. In reading who Artemis was, I am certain the name was meant as a message to remind me to keep my own “fires” under control. lol

As I stood looking at the vastness of the universe from this vantage point, I saw a tiny craft landing. It was circular in shape. It’s entire bottom was lit up with a single, yellow light. There were also smaller lights projecting from either side.

Messages

I had so many questions about what had occurred and my guidance had to calm me down because my energy was sky high. The guide closest to me sent me an image of him coming down to my level and spinning me very, very fast. He told me, “This is what will happen if you meet him now. You need to slow down.” Then he began to spin me in the opposite direction and I felt my energy stabilize.

Calmer now, he sent me another message. This time I heard, “Inside Out” (the movie). I have not seen it but my family has and I knew what he meant by the message. He confirmed saying, “When you connect, all your emotions – everything you are – will come to the surface. All at once.” The feeling received with this message was too much too soon would be a bad thing. Again, the message was “slow down”. He said to me then, “You need to stay grounded. You are stabilizing more than just your own energy.”

I understood the messages but still, my energy was sky high. I knew something more than I remembered had happened. My body was aching all up and down my spine and my lower three chakras were raw. Apparently I am not allowed to remember everything at this time. Oh well. lol

As I tried to return to sleep, a song popped into my head. Yet another message to stay away right now. lol