Daily Archives: February 23, 2015

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Elohim

Since last night’s kundalini experience I have been feeling odd. The last time I had a jolt of energy like that I spent the entire next day completely unable to get a grip on my thoughts and feeling energetically chaotic to the point that I had to get outside and out of the house all day. I am not experiencing that this time, thankfully, but the entire day I’ve had a pulling feeling in my heart that is not bad but is scaring me. With the feeling comes a message that says things are about to vamp up and I need to get my head out of my (you know) and stop hiding.

I have spent most of the morning trying to avoid confronting the feeling which is connected to last night’s odd resistance to the kundalini energy. But apparently I am not too good at avoiding the unavoidable.

I was suddenly unable to avoid the feeling in my heart and was overpowered by it and at the same time overcome with a wave of calming energy from my left. I heard, “Do not be afraid” from a calm, voice. But, as you might have guessed, just hearing that made me more afraid. I sent my attention in the direction of the voice, hoping for comfort and received yet another calming wave as my heart chakra seemed to triple in size inside my chest. Then I heard, “Elohim” and my stomach dropped about ten feet into the floor. I assumed I had been given a name but hearing it so clearly took me by surprise as did the accompanying feeling of fear. Why am I so afraid?

I have already laid down on the floor about four times so far in hopes of settling my energy. It has helped but as soon as I get up the overpowering sensation in my heart comes back. It is not a bad feeling, though, just scary. What I mean is that it feels exactly like how I feel before getting up in front of an audience to sing, act or present something. It is nerves, plain and simple, and I honestly hate the feeling.

I am hearing more messages but trying not to. I really am not interested in dong this. I stopped it before and I can stop it now, right? Yet what I know and hear says the opposite. The feeling says that more is coming. More experiences like last night. I am heading into new, uncharted territory (for me at least). I hear, “You are ready” and “Let us show you” and am being encouraged to listen to my heart, focus on it and enjoy the feeling rather than fear it.

I am not sure exactly who or what Elohim is. From the brief search I did online (which I promptly stopped because of intense waves of energy and heart chakra activity every time I read something familiar) it appears that Elohim is the name given to the “Gods” by the ancients. They are “the One and the Many”. It also appears that they are “alien” in origin.

I just can’t escape the alien mumbo jumbo can I? No wonder I am so resistant. I really would prefer to stay in my hidey hole please.

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OBE to Japan

I was awakened at 3:45am by my middle son wandering the halls. I had barely any memory of the uncomfortable kundalini earlier in the night but it came back to me once I was fully awake. I fell asleep asking to astral.

OBE to Japan

I awoke from within a lucid dream. It was an image of a man’s face that brought me to full awareness. It was just a face floating in front of me. The man had a beard and resembled a character from Game of Thrones.

I immediately rolled out of my body and pulled quickly away from the sluggish energy. I could not see at first but did not focus upon that. Instead I focused upon the good feeling I had. I imagined myself walking down the road and the next thing I knew I was walking down the road of a city. My vision just opened up and there I was.

A little girl of about 12 with long, wavy black hair met up with me. I immediately smiled and reached for her hand. I greeted her with, “Hi Anna!” Then I thought to myself, “No she likes to be called…” and I said, “I mean Anna-ha”. She nodded to me in approval and smiled hugely, her eyes twinkling. I said, “Let’s go!” and pulled her hand as we ran down the street.

In no time I got her to agree to fly with me and we launched up into the sky. I let go of her hand and she stayed next to me. We flew high up above the city below and saw buildings and strange lights below. I recall seeing what appeared to be carnival rides or something similar to that. I wondered out loud where we were. I remember saying, “We must be in Asia”. Ann-ha agreed we must be somewhere Asian. I said to her, “Let’s go over the hill and we will see!”

We topped the hill and spread out below us was a wide, open city square of gray cement. There were people walking around and white, paper lanterns floating in the air above their heads. There was a large, steel structure, a monument I think, to our right and some other large structure to the far left that had lights on it.

I exclaimed, “It’s Japan! We are in Japan!” And I sped forward, leaving my companion behind me. I thought briefly to wait for her but then knew she wouldn’t mind me flying ahead.

AVN7_LANTERNS_16199fI flew higher still and went to explore the structure on the left. I only remember bright, white lights floating about and still now I do not know if they were lanterns or something else.

I then became interested in finding a man. I don’t know why, but I wanted to initiate astral sex (not like me at all). I flew down toward what appeared to be a store. The next thing I knew I was inside a brown walled room and in front of me were three openings into other rooms. I could not see into the rooms but I could tell what was in them somehow, like I could sense the energy from within. I saw a golden energy spot inside a room and thought, “That’s the one”. I went inside.

I came face to face with a man who looked exactly like Barak Obama. I thought it weird and was a bit put off by it, but decided not to care. I attempted to kiss him (yuck!) and he disappeared. He was not real.

I awoke in my body without vibrations.

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Kundalini Resistance

I couldn’t sleep last night. My baby has been sick and my husband left town on a business trip. I asked for help from my guides and fell asleep around midnight.

Penthouse Suite

I became semi-lucid in a dream. I was being escorted into a nice hotel room. Inside, the room was very bright white. I felt out of place, though, and nervous. As I was settling in, someone brought by dinner, which I wasn’t expecting. I went to check it out and began taking it out of the containers and putting into smaller ones for my daughter. What is odd is that the food wasn’t food, it was water.

I was interrupted by a knock at the door. I answered it and a woman with blonde hair wearing business attire and high heels came in. She was clearly a hotel representative. She told me she came to check on how I was doing. She saw the mess I had made with the sorting as she took me to one side of the room. It was then that I noticed the entire side of the room was floor to ceiling windows that overlooked a city. The woman put her hand on my shoulder and remarked about the view. I stared out at the city lights in awe.

The woman mentioned the food mess and said, “You should have your assistants take care of that”. I was insulted and said, “What? You think I can afford to pay assistants?” The woman smiled and looked at me. The feeling of our discussion was that I was promoted to the next level and needed to focus on my “work” and let my assistants handle the small stuff.

The woman left and I went back to my daughter and the food (water) sorting. At some point I was hit with an odd sensation that in the dream felt like I had been mildly electrocuted. It alarmed me and I assumed it came from the cell phones and instructed my daughter to turn hers off. I also turned off mine.

A man came into the room at this time. He was tall with dark hair wearing a professional looking suit. He picked up the black phone and turned it on. I freaked out and told him, “Don’t do that”. I was in a panic and overcome with an intense fear.

colors dropplet ripples waterKundalini Resistance

I awoke completely immobilized by intense bolts of energy shooting through my body at multiple locations. The energy was not painful but it was not pleasant and I could not shake the sheer panic I was feeling. I knew what was happening – kundalini – but I was not happy about it and completely resistant for some reason.

The energy was coming in from above and to my right, shooting down my body at an angle and exiting my left side. I felt it in multiple places at once – my shoulders, head, mid-section, hips. The sensation was similar to the pain felt when an exposed nerve is lightly touched. It made me grit my teeth and hold my breath.

With these jolts of energy was the strange new vibration I felt the night before. There were also hypnagogic images flashing intensely in my mind. With each flash there was a new image. They were in black and white and pink but I cannot remember what they were now. At the time I just wanted it all to stop.

When the strange energy subsided I asked what had happened and heard, “You resisted. You changed”. The hypnagogic images continued and I sent a thought, “Go away”. I was then shown a vision of me standing at a door. Right above the door knob was a sparkling, golden line of light that spread across the entire room and through me at my heart center. It appeared like golden glitter suspended in the air. Below and above the light was clear air. I didn’t know what to make of the vision. I wondered why the energy was somewhat painful this time. I heard, “Even the calmest of water will sometimes ripple” and saw an image of a placid lake become choppy with small waves. I fell asleep not long after.

Lesson? Resistance is futile.