Monthly Archives: March 2015

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Sudden Past Life Memory

My left leg was aching and both legs were restless. I also felt such a heavy weariness come over me that I could not ignore. I went upstairs and got in bed, covering my eyes to help ease the headache I had all day.

I had to change positions several times because my leg kept throbbing with a strange electrical pulsing pain. I wondered briefly if it was sciatica but the thought passed quickly as I fell into the happy bliss of the in-between.

Paralyzed

It was then that I was aware of being in a house with several other people. I was in a wheelchair being wheeled around and could see the brown wood of the structure I was in. There was a door immediately in front of me and I was talking to my brother, mother and father who were huddled around me. I was also very aware that I was a man and the fact that I could not move my legs.

I began to wake up in the midst of talking with my family and when I did I struggled to determine which reality was real. Was the dream what was really happening? Or was it me, laying in bed, that was real?

I opened my eyes and still struggled to determine where I was, who I was and what was going on. My legs were not hurting, though, and I think this is what ultimately brought me back to reality.

Early 1800s

Once I was able to locate myself in present time, I thought about my “dream” and knew instantly that it was no dream. I had remembered a past life. A past life where I had been hurt and lost most if not all feeling in my legs. And there was pain with it similar to the shooting, electrical pain I had been feeling.

I wondered when the life was and knew it was the early 1800’s. I smiled, congratulating myself, but did not seek anymore information about the life. I did not want to unintentionally cause myself more harm than good. If done improperly, a past life can bring into the present life aspects of it to include pain, upset and other irrational behavior/thought. Since I had already had pain that caused me to need to lay down, I did not want to intensify it. Plus, it had gone and I felt better. I wanted to keep it that way.

It still amazes me, though, how suddenly and spontaneously some of my past lives have come to me. This one came with the sensation of sitting in the wheelchair and feeling the hardness of the seat. I also felt it being rolled around, its wheels bumping roughly on the floor. It was so vivid and real. I didn’t even know they had wheelchairs that long ago! So cool.

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A Time of Adjustment – Message from the High Council

It has been one of those days for me where I continue to get a message over and over: you are adjusting, you are adjusting, you are adjusting.

I finally asked for clarification. This is the answer I got:

In the next few months expect exponential change for you and others like yourself who are in the fourth stage of awakening. To clarify, the term “stage” is merely used to help you better understand where you stand in this process of acclimation. For you, and others like you, there is a mental adjustment being made specifically altering the way you think, the way you judge, the way you perceive others and your environment. With this adjustment also comes understanding that you are not alone in this universe nor are you alone in this world nor are you alone in the body BUT you are but one in a million upon million upon trillion of others individualized souls striving for a return the One; to Wholeness. This adjustment period will cause you to think and over think and then over think some more. You will doubt that what you are thinking is even in fact your own thought because at times these thoughts will seem so alien, so outright ridiculous to you, that you will reject them in entirety only to be puzzled to find yourself once again thinking those same thoughts. The thoughts and patterns of thinking will not be like what you are use to yet they are YOU in your most utterly beautiful of states.

For the time being, for approximately three weeks from the full moon, you will find that your mind may seem empty and your head painfully noticeable to you. Headaches, energy sensations, ringing, dizziness, visual fluctuations, sounds and other phenomenon will be noticed but not unbearable. Know that you are not alone in these sensations nor are they indicative of something dire. They are merely evidence of your adjustment so look upon them as such and do not be alarmed.

During this adjustment period also you will be quite stable in other areas of your life. Enjoy this time and the moments of calm and certainty that befall you. Because in time you will become more and more acutely aware of changes which need to be made. No this is not another turn-your-life-upside-down period but you may at first feel it is such. It will simply be asked of you to consider once again if you are in fact truly living up to your potential; your capability; your purpose. As you probably have noticed this question is asked of you often. This also is for a purpose and you will notice that you begin to answer the question with more certainty every time it is presented to you for consideration.

You are close, Dear one. Hold tight to your knowingness, your Divinity, your Truth.

I will ask of those reading this to not concern yourself with the mention of a fourth stage and to not get caught up in questions asking what current stage you are in. If you are in a similar position as myself in this process then this message will ring true to you. Otherwise, it may not.

Also, the thoughts and patterns of thinking mentioned above are not negative ones. They align with your purpose. For me, I have had thoughts hit me out of the blue to do things to help people. For example, I keep getting the thought to visit the homeless people in my community and offer them Reiki treatments free of charge. This is very unlike me yet it is very much aligned to my purpose. When I get them I immediately think, “Why am I thinking that??”

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Current Symptoms of the “Shift”

I figured it was about time that I share some of the odd sensations and physical issues I have been having since my last update.

Current Symptoms

  • Headache, especially in the mornings and at night
  • Stomach upset in the morning
  • Energy sensations in third eye, crown and base of head
  • Deep sleep
  • Vivid dreams often with messages
  • Upper back stiffness
  • Lower back (pelvis) stiffness
  • Leg pain (feels like “growing pains” from youth)
  • Restless energy in legs
  • Ringing in ears (mostly right ear)
  • Dry, flaky skin that is manageable but irritating
  • Increased thirst
  • Visual anomalies (seeing flashes of light, colored streamers coming out of son, etc)
  • Tiredness/lack of motivation
  • Periods of total calm
  • Odd, heavy energy that descends over crown of head
  • Sleep disturbances

Coping Mechanismsclary-calm-did-you-know

This is what I have been doing to handle some of my symptoms:

  • Upset stomach – I drink a glass of water and eat something calming like oatmeal with fruit
  • Leg restlessness and pain – Put feet up and/or meditate to ground energy
  • Dry skin – Wash face with grapeseed oil, limit harsh chemicals
  • Increased thirst – Drink!
  • Back pain – Yoga, stretching, exercise
  • Headache – Ask for healing, rarely I take Ibuprofen
  • Tiredness/lack of motivation – When tired, I try to sleep; for motivation I go outdoors
  • Sleep disturbances – Meditate, focus on heart chakra, let it pass without fixating on it

These are life changes I have made that have either eased or completely eliminated my symptoms:

  • Drinking mineral water with apple cider vinegar in the morning with daily probiotic
  • Limiting gluten (not gluten-free, I can’t do that)
  • Limiting sugar and refined carbohydrates
  • Drinking alkaline water from Kangen machine daily (usually 1 gallon or more)
  • Eating organic as often as possible
  • Eating 3 or more servings of veggies daily
  • Stopped using antiperspirant deodorant completely

Current DoTERRA Essential Oil Usage

  • ClaryCalm/Monthly Oil Blend– aids in self-acceptance, expressing one’s inner child, enhances sexuality, promotes balance
  • Whisper/Women’s Oil Blend – assists in balancing masculine/feminine energies; calms anger and other negative emotions
  • Patchouli – helps individuals be more grounded and stable
  • Serenity/ Calming Oil Blend – calms negative feelings, promotes forgiveness of self and others, assists in relieving self-criticism and judgement of others/self
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Three Dreams

Last night I had some odd dreams.

United

I was in a college dorm with a short, dark-haired man. I was looking for a toilet the entire time accompanied by a huge urge to have a bowel movement (when I woke up I only had to urinate). The man with me was discussing our future marriage, indicating it was in the near future. He wrote down something on a piece of paper. It said our marriage “would adhere to the Jewish tradition and follow the Kabbalah”. There was also written a statement relating to our purpose which was to unite the entire world in a similar way. I recall recognizing this man was Jewish and wondering why this was present in my dream along with such an odd message.

Interpretation

A bowel movement in a dream represents ridding one’s self of old habits and patterns of thinking. Since I did not actually use the restroom in my dream then it could indicate there is a need for me to rid myself of old habits and patterns of thinking. The message about the Kabbalah is curious to me as I do not know much about it yet it was very obviously meant to alert me to the unification of myself with my Higher Self (merging). There also is a message that this process applies to the entire world, not just to me.

Plants in the Drain

I wandered into a large, public bathroom. It was in disrepair. The toilets were all clogged or broken and as I looked around for a usable one, I came upon a group of sinks bunched together in the center of the bathroom. When I looked into them there was what appeared to be plants growing out of the drains. The planets looked normal at firs but upon further inspection they moved as if alive and their bases were flesh colored with blood-filled veins that pulsed. They were very gross and I withdrew from them, suddenly worried they would grow large and surround me.

Interpretation

Bathrooms are symbolic of self-renewal and a need to purify one’s self. The drain is symbolic of the need to purge pent up emotions and/or obstacles. The fact that a human-like plant comes out suggests that my emotions if not confronted could get out of control and have a life of their own.

testSentencing

In this final dream I was with a group of young girls being instructed on how to be more positiveand happy. The teacher asked a girl to demonstrate for the class. The girl stepped forward, smiling. She moved her hands to her face, gliding them an inch or so above her cheeks, down around her chin and neck to her heart space. There she rested them over her heart and her face glowed. The woman then asked us all to hold up our hands so she could inspect them. When I showed her my hands she said they were very large and masculine when they should be feminine. I explained it was because I did strength training.

I was then sent along with another group of both men and woman to a room where I was to fill out a “test”. I passed a table loaded with chocolate but it resembled manure so did not eat any.

Inside I laid down next to a man and a white sheet was placed over me. We were then given instructions on how to take the test and all agreed to vote the same way and allow a young girl to stay home. I felt like a part of the jury in a trial. I recall there being 13 total votes.

The test was given and I began to fill out my test. The entire time the man next to me was coming onto me, playing footsie with me and getting very close. I ignored him and thought briefly about breaking my agreement. I wondered to myself, “What if I vote the other way?”

Then the man next to me was replaced with another man. He was the chatty sort and said to me about the other man, “He wanted to have sex with you”. I recall acknowledging this but not being interested either way. My husband woke me up so the dream stopped there.

Interpretation

I am not sure about this dream’s symbolism but I believe I was being given messages about how to reconnect with my feminine aspect and my heart. The voting is odd to me and I suspect I was considering some option regarding this life and my choices.  When I awoke I wanted to return to the dream. I felt like something important had been interrupted. The most memorable of my dreams was the message about the Kabbalah.

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Questions Answered: Message from the High Council

Today I had time alone to contemplate the current state of the world. I had some questions and was once again invited to receive communication. I am sharing what I received with you. The questions are not written out but you will know what they were based upon the answers provided.

Welcome and greetings from the High Council. We have heard your call and come to answer any questions you have regarding the present wave of ascension and energy shift on Earth.

There are those in power now who do not agree with the changes that are occurring on a vast many levels and dimensions. Yes, there are many changes occurring not just in this dimension but in the others as well. This integration and transformation requires much effort on the part of those who are establishing this change and directing it. The protestors to this great shift are many but their influence grows weaker every day. As they recognize and struggle against this realization, their efforts will grow in ferocity to control that which they have so long had dominion over. It is true that the current upheavals on earth are the result of these power struggles, however, they are also a result of the massive confusion that results as many individuals begin to throw off the old and open up to the new; the part of themselves that has been hidden lifetime after lifetime by massive amounts of life debris, or as is commonly known as karma.

The weather patterns are a result of the magnetic field shifting and yes this is the reason for the term “shift” that we prefer to use in regards to the ascension and the energy changes currently under way.

There are a great many things that you do not understand and we are here to help you to better recognize that this information is located within you already. All you have to do is but seek it out, so as it touch it and it will be revealed to you. The ego as you call it does in fact interfere with this obtaining of information/knowledge however it can be controlled as simply as by controlling what one thinks when it is thought.

The ego is a mental condition and comes with the human form. It does so partially extinguish itself in time as one departs the human body, yet its function is quite obvious: survival. It is the element of biological function of the human body and its sole purpose is to allow for the proper integration of the soul body into the biological form. Think of it as the control panel of the human body. It acts as an anchor of the spiritual to the physical and within this system it is very much needed. As the human body is discarded, the ego slowly deteriorates but its main essence remains with us to serve us in the afterlife. It acts as a reminder of that which we Forget as we descend into the human form. Without this aspect of us we lose our human separateness and we must retain that in order to continue the experience we call Life.

Your Ego may seem foreign to you at times, especially as you seek to uncover the vast hidden knowledge you chose to Forget in order to live this human life. The seeking of this Knowledge is not something to forgo yet you should not despair over its loss as it is only an illusion that one will recognize upon reentry into the spiritual realms. Yes, as you ascend you shall regain more and more of this Knowledge, yet it would not be fruitful to regain all of that knowledge for the purpose of this game is to Remember who you are, as you are and while you are in the physical form and within a state of not-knowingness.

So yes the Ego though a difficult and most challenging foe is also a very reliable and easily understood and predictable ally once you get to know it.

How can one fully understand the Ego and its inner workings? One can seek it out through reconnection with the earth and the simple things in life. It is the life force within us that recognizes the elements from which it was born. Therefore a connection to this elements will subdue the ego in such a way as to come into better communication with it and control it as you may like. However, the chaos that is the environment in which we live pulls the ego into disarray as it struggles to try and control and manipulate those things which it views as anti-survival. Thus you find that when you are “unbalanced” or as such not centered within the Earth, that your Ego comes out in its most unpleasant form and such acts as a barrier to your own happiness and life satisfaction.

So you may now see why so many who are recalibrating to the changing energy of Earth are struggling the most with over-active ego infiltration! (chuckle) And why as such you would need to be in nature, touching the Earth, immersing yourself in the water, filling your lungs with clean air and connecting with nature with every sense that you have! Can you not feel yourself in the mountains at this very moment, lapping up all the wonderful, powerful essence that is You? This is what so many are missing without even knowing they are missing it! And it is right there if only you would reach for it and Remember that it is part of You.

The increase in OBEs that some experience within this readjustment period is merely a remembering of that which they are and is not to be confused with the actual ascension process. Though one affects the other as a means to an end, the two are not a result of one another. The changing magnetic field of the Earth intensifies the processes that occur during body separation and as such makes it that much more likely that one will remember their many excursions from their body while they sleep. Yes, these excursions from the body are many and common and do also occur during the day though most do not (though some will) recall these instances. As the body adjusts to the changes in energy and the magnetic field flip-flops here and there in its own readjustment these senses of other realities will become flashes in the minds of many and may cause the already heightened ego to respond with even more fervor.

OBEs are in no way an indicator of one’s level of conscious awareness being more or less than another’s, so do not be swayed by those who adamantly insist that this is so. It is simply a fact that IS at this point in time and can be a wonderful assistive tool to aid one during the adjustment period.

As is customary in your world I will say farewell for the time being. But know that I am never far away nor am I even “gone”. I am just for this instant in time not a point of focus in your conscious mind.

Until next time, Horace.

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Ancient Oak

I am being asked to consider making a change in my life. This is not a change I am against, by any means, but I recognized early on that this change might be cause for disagreement within my family unit. I have had a sequence of dreams recently that confirms my above suspicions.

Lost Shoes

In this particular dream I found myself looking for a pair of shoes and not being able to find them in my “new” closet. I then searched in my “old” closet and noticed immediately that the clothes hanging in that closet were not my own but the clothes of my baby and children. I quickly located my shoes high up on the shelf and picked up the pair I had been missing and took it to the “new” closet which was located in another room along with my adult clothing.

The symbolism here is interesting. Closets can symbolize and actual coming out of the closet as they typically represent a hidden aspect of one’s self. Searching for lost shoes symbolizes actual searching for one’s self. I seem to have misplaced “myself” within the role of mother and forgotten the other part of me. In the dream I am looking for a part of me I misplaced for a short time.

oak Ancient Oak

In this dream I was learning to become a hairdresser and was meeting my partner and a mentor. Our mentor told us we had been selected to learn from her and that our internship would last two years. She referred to a very old oak tree when discussing our selection saying that it had stood through the ages and through many similar students. I recall staring up at this towering, ancient and awesome tree and being in awe of it. She said that it was in danger of being cut down, though.

Later my partner, who arrived to work before me and stayed many hours longer than me, shot her partner dead in front of me and said something like, “There, that needed to be done”. I remember being astonished in the dream at her blunt, unemotional reaction.

The symbolism here is quite direct. An internship is representative of going to school and learning new lessons in life. Being a hairdresser represents one’s self-image. I am literally learning how to become myself. The oak tree symbolizes stability, endurance and wisdom. It also indicates success is at hand. The incident of my partner killing her husband indicates anger or frustration toward an individual of a similar description in waking life.

Research

An idea had come to me last week which I resisted and it presented itself yet again this morning but in another form. I knew where to focus my attention: transpersonal psychology.

In my research I discovered a couple of universities that offered this degree and certificates relating to it. However, the one that caught my attention was Atlantic University which was formed by Edgar Cayce in 1930.

I did not go searching for this place, I just stumbled upon it. I was at first interested in the spiritual guidance mentor certificate; however, I found the graduate certificate in Integrated Imagery – Regression Hypnosis and wanted immediately to do it. Then I realized: this will not be something my husband agrees with. Not at all.

That is when the second dream made complete sense to me.

The other option I was considering prior to my research today was one that would be more acceptable to my husband. I would do it except it limits the number of people I can help and also limits my income. I wish to be accessible to others while also making a living.

Rather than panic over the whole idea, I am putting it on the shelf for now. I am sure that an option will reveal itself that is suitable to my situation.

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Amazing Grace

The energy event I experienced early this morning was indeed very different from the others. I suspect it is not complete, so perhaps this was just the first “course”.

Crystal Beach

I was walking through a large, brown and gold colored mall searching for an exit. I came upon two glass doors and opened them. When I went into the room it resembled a waiting area and was lit up with a golden color.

A dark haired little girl was at the door and looked up at me. I said to her, “I know you” but she said, “I don’t think so”. I stared at her for quite some time trying to place her but the memory was not there.

I saw that there were two office doors ahead of me. I read their signs but all I recall now is they were businesses offering alternative healing.

I turned to my left to leave and saw double glass door with small revolving doors. I saw outside was bright and very white and thought I saw the ocean so went outside to investigate.

I walked onto a crystal white sand beach that stretched quite a distance on both sides of me. In front of me was the most vividly blue water I had ever seen. It shimmered in the sunlight and the entire scene reminded me of the Arctic except it was not snow nor was it cold. I said, “It looks like snow!”

I looked out ahead of me and saw mounds of snow-like sand piled high and people frolicking about on top of it. There were also tons of people all around me enjoying the beach. I sought out a place where there were no people and saw to my left an expanse of white and blue that stretched for miles, not a soul to be seen. I reveled in the beauty for some time, talking to an unseen companion.

Curious about where I was, I soon found myself floating high above the beach and moving farther away, watching the beach, turned coastline turned continent shrink below me. I saw an unfamiliar continent stretched out before me, the coastline shimmering brightly below me. I tried to say it was India but the shape was wrong. I soon concluded I was not on Earth. This was some other place.

heart_chakra2Healing Session

I then found myself inside one of the healing offices and could still see the beach through the glass door. There was a tall, dark haired man who was “the Dr.” His female assistant I recognized instantly as an old friend in life. I was at ease and knew why I was there.

There was a table in the center of the room. I lay down on it and the woman stood at my left shoulder. She touched it and whispered some words I did not recognize but there was a “P” sound at the beginning of the phrase. This was when the Dr., who was standing on my right at my midsection, began doing his work.

I was suddenly filled with an intense energy at my heart chakra. It felt that my chakra expanded outward and then upward forming a bubble of energy that hung over my entire body like a hot air balloon. The power of the energy caused my legs to involuntarily begin to kick out and I was uncomfortably aware of this to the point that it distracted me from the pleasant energy.

The heart energy continued to intensify and along with it my head was engulfed in energy as well. I was still focused on my legs, however, and this brought the attention of the Dr.

He came to my right leg and asked me to focus on it. So I did and the kicking stopped but the left leg still kicked so high that it was at a 90 degree angle to my body. I focused more and was able to calm it. By then, though, the heart energy has subsided.

Gathering Sand

I was then heading toward a bag and opening it up to retrieve a silver metal bowl. When I picked it up, it began to vibrate and make music. I recognized the music to be, “Amazing Grace”. I exclaimed to my healers, “It’s playing Amazing Grace!” They acknowledged this and the music stopped.

I told them I wanted to gather some white sand for later and was told that my husband was already gathering it. I looked outside and sure enough there he was with my children in the sand.

Then I was holding sand in the silver bowl. It formed into balls, like snow balls, and I held one out amazed at how easily it kept its shape.

My two healers were laid out on the table and so I approached them with the bowl. They had laid out a red, embroidered blanket and the Dr. was on my left and his assistant in front of me.

I accidentally spilled some sand on their blanket on onto the Dr. and laughed it off. Then I felt I needed to sing and began to sing Amazing Grace. Yet the words and melody that came out of my mouth were not of that song but of The Old Rugged Cross. Specifically:

And I love that old cross where the Dearest and Best
For a world of lost sinners was slain.

Refrain:
So I’ll cherish the old rugged cross,
Till my trophies at last I lay down;
I will cling to the old rugged cross,
And exchange it someday for a crown.

The assistant began to sing along with me, trying to harmonize but I was singing to high for her. I kept singing it over and over and then was overcome with tears of joy mixed with longing. I awoke sobbing.

Messages

When I awoke I still felt the energy lingering over my body and knew that I had received intense healing. My guide was there and I knew what the song meant. The song is symbolic of so many things: my Christian upbringing, how life’s sufferings will one day end with a reward, how that reward is reunion with myself/the One. I was hit with knowingness that I am soon to be done with my lives on Earth, only two more. That I am the one who determines what “level” I am at – there are no generic levels. I am learning to be a guide and am currently doing that, though I have no memory while in the physical body of doing this. This life has been successful (I was taken through parts of it and asked to evaluate them) and has gone as planned. I asked how this “success” will be experienced after death. I was shown/told that when I return to Myself there will be a great ripple of energy sent out and I will be the center of it. Every One will know my jubilation and I will be More than I was before this life. The result is a celebration of Self that is indescribable in human terms and experience.

I was also told:

  1. I am purging my heart chakra of the “things I have done and that have been done to me”.
  2. The Dr’s name is Saul and his assistant’s name is Rebecca.
  3. The Higher Beings who have been in contact with me are three. I got the name Azriel this time along with Melchizedek but resisted this. When asked by one of these Higher Beings why I was resistant, I realized I did not feel worthy.
  4. I am to listen to my heart when I find myself resistant to the messages I receive.The feeling will not lie.
  5. I am Worthy. This message brought more tears and intense emotional release.
  6. The name of the place I visited is Jelung pronounced, “Ye-Lawn”. I spell it the way I was shown but it was not written in English letters. I was told it was a place “Created for me” and “of healing”.
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The Preservers

I slept hard last night and awoke with a vivid memory of a dream.

The Preservers

In this dream I was using a computer to send emails to an online acquaintance. I had been preparing a blog entry and taking notes from information I had received via Spirit (channeling). Eventually, I sought out my friend for advice but could not find her email address. I had to search through old work emails to find it and finally found two of them. I told her this when I saw her in person and gave her my notes.

She looked at the notes and questioned them because one of them reminded her of information she had also gotten. I laughed at that and told her, “I know! Isn’t that strange?” I pointed out the sheet of paper with the information on it that I had channeled. It was written in outline form but I did not read it, instead I told her about the information I received:

There are individuals who currently reside on Earth who, like most, do not Remember their past or future nor do they Remember their purpose. But their purpose is unique. They are the Preservers of Earth and they come without Karmic debt, without cycles to conclude, without emotional baggage to burden them in their travels. These you will not notice as being different nor will they try to gain attention or seek material wealth. They will be most common among common folk yet their impact upon Earth and mankind is immense and priceless. Their role is necessary for the success and preservation of mankind.

They can be found where the unnoticed linger. These are the people you do not see as you drive by the slums and clusters of homeless on the side of the road and under the bridges of your highways. If encountered, you will not remember them if you are not meant to as they are here to serve specific individuals and groups. But, if you do happen to meet one and remember then you will be forever impacted by that most probably brief encounter with their light. It is their eyes that you will remember most. Their faces will blend into your memory with that of other faces from others lives and experiences, but their eyes will be like beacons of light in your mind, forever reminding you of who you are, where you have been and where you are going. For they are eternal, limitless, pure and forever gracious reminders of Who We Are.

I was amazed at the information I was sharing with my friend but she did not seem impressed. I could not imagine an individual withouy “karma” for to me this meant they had no burdens from past lives haunting them in the present. No guilt, no pain, no grief, no desire, no jealousy, hurt or any of those other emotions that often come upon us unknowingly and without us understanding why.

My friend continued about her busy life with barely a notice of me and I consulted with my Higher Self to better understand her actions. In this time, the questions I asked were not so much about my friend but more about certain individuals I do not remember now. I only recall now that I received instructions to “block” their communications with me.

Reflection

I believe this dream was a result of my rejecting an invitation to receive communication from Melchizedek the night before. As I started this blog post, the information from the dream about the Preservers was mostly lost to me, yet when I began to type this post words began to flow out of me about this special group of people. I honestly believe these are the “angels” among us so many believe exist.

The symbolism in this dream is also not lost to me. The entire dream is about communication. In my waking life I have been ignoring requests to receive communication from higher beings. I am not sure exactly why I feel uncomfortable with it but I do. Yet the requests continue and I feel an odd heavy sensation fall over my head and upper body when they present the invitation and my mind goes completely blank. The “blocking” in this dream is representative of me “blocking” communication out of fear of the unknown. I suspect that when I do not block that the heavy sensation will subside.

I am also aware that I am being “called to action” as in the post 954: A Call to Action. I am not sure what I am being called to do but I suspect it has something to do with channeling. I have had instances where I have awakened talking with my guides about this change but I do not remember the entire conversations except that I have said more than once, “They will not understand”, All I know is this statement is referring to the people in my life whom I love. Overall, there is a hesitance in me about the coming changes I do not understand yet.

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Melchizedek

Last night was a rough night for me. I just could not fall asleep. I was full of energy. Not the kundalini kind, at least I don’t think that was the source. I just felt very awake, body not tired and mind calm. Yet I had to be somewhere in the morning and I needed to sleep! I was also extremely hot and uncomfortable to the point that I was sweating

At 2am I awoke very wide awake and got a little perturbed about it. I was also very, very hungry. After eating I resigned myself to the fact that I was probably not going to get a good night’s sleep.

I have been having a vision for several days now of being up in the middle of the night meditating. This is not a vision of my normal meditation where I lay propped up in bed. This vision is of me, sitting on the middle of the floor in a seated yoga pose, eyes closed. This vision again came to me at this time.

I did not follow it. Instead I just meditated in bed.

With eyes closed I began to drift into the “in-between” state. As I did, I saw three white balls of light float into my vision. The center of these orbs of light was yellow and the outside glowed with white light. I did not react to seeing this but instead cleared my mind and continued to meditate.

I then heard the name, “Melchizedek” and with it came a feeling of being in the presence of pure, infinite wisdom and love. I immediately felt as if I became one with my bed; so relaxed I felt I might finally fall asleep. Then I saw a vision of the planet Earth and was presented with an invitation from Spirit to receive a message about Earth. As I was preoccupied with falling asleep, I shrugged off the invitation. I had a deep concern as well that the message would be more of what I have received in the past – Earth and its inhabitants suffering from the great many changes/challenges that lie ahead. Yet this Melchizedek was continuing to ask that I tune in and listen to what he had to say.

He kept repeating his name and I kept repeating it back and thinking, “How odd a name”. I know I was saying the name wrong and so continued to listen and then try my best to repeat it as I heard it. It is not an easy name to say!

I fell asleep a short time after this invitation to converse with Melchizedek. I suppose the love energy that poured over me was the cause, though it could be that I finally stripped down to just a shirt in order to escape the uncomfortable heat I was feeling. I honestly was so hot I wanted to take a cold shower.

When I awoke this morning, way earlier than I wanted to, I was again full of energy and wide awake. I am still feeling this way and not a bit tired even though I barely managed 6 hours of interrupted sleep.

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Energy Adjustments

Since receiving the message to expect a fluctuations in energy this week, I have yet to have a significant energy event of my own. At first I was disappointed, assuming I was supposed to be having an “event” Tuesday night and having not had anything out of the ordinary occur. This assumption was obviously wrong.

What did happen was exactly what I had been told would happen.

Monday was full of subtle activity. First, I had a dream in which I was sorting through tiny crystals of varying colors, the most memorable a small carnelian stone. During the day I had almost constant energy in my head. It felt similar to healing energy and at times it formed a type of energy helmet around my head. Toward evening, I applied some essential oil to my heart chakra, an oil blend called Clary Calm, or Women’s Blend. Almost immediately I began to experience a sharp, stabbing pain right below the point where I had applied it. I continued and did my yoga practice with the intention of self-love, and the pain subsided. As I settled down for the evening I began to experience a very unsettled, almost nervous energy and had to ground in order to relieve it. It came on very suddenly with adrenaline and everything. It was quite scary, as if I were the victim of some brutal crime.

Tuesday there was more energy over my head and my heart chakra was buzzing with intense activity near the top section of it. This came and went throughout the day and was not uncomfortable but very distracting. I also experienced tingling in my arms and a mental fog that caused me to feel like I was walking in a haze most of the day. All day I was also very, very thirsty. That evening I had vivid dreams about relationships in my life and woke early, unable to fall back to sleep.

Today I have felt much more balanced but still have some heart chakra activity from time to time. I had a dull headache that almost immediately went away after yet another energy “helmet” sensation. I am still experiencing the brain fog and memory hiccups.

List of Symptoms

  • Vivid, healing dreams
  • Brain/memory fog
  • Energy sensations in heart and head
  • Energy “helmet” over head
  • Stabbing pain in heart
  • Emotional overwhelm
  • Nervousness/fear out of nowhere
  • Tingling in arms
  • Headache
  • Increased energy that affects sleep
  • Increased thirst

Methods Used to Ease Symptoms of Adjustment

  • Yoga
  • Grounding
  • Taking long walks outside
  • Drinking lots of water
  • Looking up at the trees and listening to sounds
  • Rigorous exercise (weight lifting, running)
  • Essential oils of Frankincense, Patchouli, Serenity Blend, Clary Calm, Geranium

Note: I have avoided using the Clary Calm oil blend on my heart chakra since the stabbing pain occurred but my research shows that I may have used the right oil blend after all. This oil blend assists those who have overly masculine tendencies by helping them accept and become more in tune with their feminine side. Unknown to me, I had accidentally used exactly the right oil! So I plan to use it again today, in moderation. Perhaps it is just what my heart needed.