The earth-shattering experience I had on October 7th continues to shake me to the core. I am still processing it, trying hard to fill in the huge gaps in my memory and seeking answers from my Team of assistants.
Self-Created Experience
There came a moment yesterday when it occurred to me that perhaps what I experienced was self-created; influenced by my current reading material – The Convoluted Universe by Dolores Cannon.
This conclusion is a normal one in my specific circumstances. What I experienced on the 7th was so unreal to me, so beyond bizarre and so out of my perception’s reach that it is no surprise that it has now receded into the depths of my subconscious to the point that it appears nothing more than a very wildly vivid dream. It is so easy now to just shrug my shoulders and say, “It was just a dream. It was not real”, and move on.
And yet there is a part of me that says, “Well all experience is ‘self-created'”.
On the One Hand…
There is a part of me that believes this is what is happening to me:
The group of Beings who surrounded me the night of the 7th, whom I recall very vividly but only as silhouettes in the dark, is a group of E.T.s (for lack of a better word) who have come to “get me” and move me into whatever my next level is. This is a heightening of consciousness, a Remembering, an “Unfolding” as my Companion calls it.
I am emerging from the chrysalis.
When questioning this group, who appeared to me as 12 and whom I acknowledge as being my Council, I asked where they came from. The response I received was, “Sirius”. When I asked how far away they were, I heard 10 au’s (light years).
These beings appear to me in human form when I see them. They are not “alien” in appearance, at least not so alien that I notice. They often appear very bright and so it is difficult to discern what they look like in detail. If I am allowed to see them close up, they often show me their eyes or just aspects of their face. Usually their eyes are very bright blue.
Prior to the consideration that my Council were in fact Beings from another planet, I just thought of them as “guides” or “Spirit”. Really, even with this new E.T. consideration, it has not changed the way they appear to me or how I react to them when I see/sense them. If anything, I am calmer upon their contact with me than I have ever been.
In considering all the information that has come to me in recent weeks, I have partially come to the conclusion that the human race is heading toward the “End of Days” where a great cataclysm will rocket Earth into a New Age, one in which humanity lives in harmony with her. During the time of the great changes there will some kind of E.T. contact experienced. I do not know if this will be wide-spread, meaning that I don’t know if all will be aware of the “contact” being made. I have personally received many messages now that I will be “called”, that I will see “signs” and that I will be taken Home. The signs have been shown to me ever since my awakening in 2003. They are consistent and the warnings, visions, I receive are increasing in frequency.
How I and others like me will be taken Home is unclear at this time. I recently had a dream in which individual pods were lined up and humans walked into them. From inside these pods a great golden light emerged and the body was broken up into millions upon millions of tiny particles of light which ultimately dispersed. To me, this represents a dissolution of the physical form or perhaps a raising of vibration. It may also be some kind of transport system.
On the Other Hand….
And then I think how preposterous all of this sounds. Aliens and the “End of Days” – all of it sounds like something a crazy person would say. I think of the bearded man walking around holding a sign that says, “The end is near”.
I think of how my whole life I have rejected being here and thus rejected fully immersing myself in this life. I want to escape. I would rather be in my own fantasy world which is much more exciting. There I get to go OOB, I get to talk to “other worldly beings”, I get to see into the future, I get to talk to the deceased, I get to see people’s auras, I get to “know” things other people don’t, I get to have Kundalini experiences… The list goes on.
And I think maybe all of this is happening to me because of this desire to escape. I am creating all of it. Making it up so that I can avoid “reality”.
I just really need to suck it up and deal with life.
Which is it?
Right now I am in the stage of thinking that I need to “suck it up” and stop hiding in my fantasy world. Life is passing me by and I need to live it.
Yet there is and always has been a part of me totally and utterly bored with life, with reality. And I have been down this path before. I have rejected my “fantasy” world and gone back to “the real world” to live life like I was suppose to. I was miserable despite trying very hard to be “normal”. Yes, I had some great experiences and great times, but there was always something missing. I always felt lacking.
Maybe that is just the way it is meant to be for me in the life.
Living Life in Between 
Questioning sanity at this stage is perfectly normal. At least I would think so! I’ve struggled with this somewhat too, and have recently gone as far as to debate myself over ‘rationality’. This makes me wonder… Is that what crazy people do? Do they have discourse with themselves over releasing rationality? lol. Whew!
I can imagine, if a caterpillar has awareness, this may be how they would react in the moments leading up to its metamorphosis and emergence from the chrysalis. Significant changes to their structure, form, and function happen very quickly. And yet, no matter what it may think about the process itself, inevitably it emerges as something completely different than what it started as. If I’m saying anything coherent with this message, it would only be to hold awareness in the heart center and trust in the process. Through me typing this out, I realize it’s also applicable to me too. 🙂
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No I think crazy people don’t question, that is why they are crazy. Have you seen A Beautiful Mind? That’s crazy. lol
It’s funny that you asked how a caterpillar might experience its transformation and emergence from the cocoon. I thought about that, too. Is this what it is like?
And holding awareness in the heart is really the only way to avoid mass confusion and overwhelm. I need to do that next time I am thrown into another situation like the one that happened on the 7th.
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another common thing is to believe everything was just a “dream” Which it is not. if you could access your subconscious where everything you ever experienced is saved you could see what really happened to you! of course life needs to be lived and we are here for reasons, however we are not here to work our asses off and to live life the way our society wants us to live. We came here for other reasons, however we are living on a prison planet and we are here to rise the frequency of humanity to awaken! We all need to reach a higher frequency and then They will show themselves.
A person called Sherry Wilde has the same experiences as you (they took her in the beginning physically but after a while they started taking her astral body), she even painted the group of beings that you described as council and they taught her things about humanity, the planet etc. And she could see ships that others in her company did not see! Why? She explained it as such, after they took her to their ships (they don’t call it craft, because it can fly in air but also swim like a ship) it raised her vibrations and frequency and she was then able to see the ships in the sky when they came for her. Another person who was with her once did not see the beings and the ship, she did. That means they are here all around us but most are not conscious enough yet to see them. But many of us can feel them! IMO the only way to see them is in that relaxed state of mind where recorded events can be looked at. The state of mind when sudden vision flashes or lucidity comes in. Because it is Not only dreams.
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This is the oddest thing. A few years ago, it may have been a little after december of 2012, I can’t recall the exact dates, I had a dream about these huge ships. They were galleons ‘sailing’ through the air, slowly approaching earth. They were filled with ‘other beings’ (back then I thought they were metaphysical beings). In the dream I saw these galleons, as they slowly glided down to earth…but there were many people who wouldn’t perceive them. It seemed like only few of the humans I saw around me could perceive them.
It was an odd dream and I remember it since it felt prophetic in some way but I couldn’t figure out whom these galleons or other beings were representing. Wow
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wow that is an amazing experience to have Gia! Believe it or not I think I got an answer last evening in a movie that somehow got to my attention. This movie showed everything that I ever experienced, including the man in black with suit. The movie was called “Lost Time” and it really is amazing. It shows the fight between the reptilians and another ET species. Both looked human in the movie but had the power to transmit pictures and weird light flashes by touching the forehead of a person. In that movie the woman who was of the good kind told the person who was the main character something about frequencies and vibrations and that all outcomes are happening in the same time and you can just change the outcome and go to another dimension with this outcome by changing the way you think. Then she said something interesting “They are out there and try to get to the humans in order to change to evolve. we on the other hand are just here and waiting”. The main character asked her “for what?” and the ET woman said “for you to open the door and go through!” This dropped my jaw because in one of my meditations I saw a vision flash that showed me a white door and a wooden key that turned inside the keyhole 3 times. I never understood the message and since then many things happened. But to hear this sentence in a movie was kind of revealing to me.
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