Lots of strange dreams and surprise Kundalini activity to recount this morning.

Dream: Georgia Trail Run

I had a long dream where I traveled to Georgia to run a trail run with my husband. When we got there I recall standing on the trail and thinking of how close I was to someone I know. I had anxiety about running the race and as it grew darker I realized the start of the race happened whenever I decided to start. So, I decided to begin the race. Most of my memory of the race is of tall pines and a trail that was mostly dirt and rocks.

Then I was at the cabins – er trailers – where we were to stay. They were very narrow, just wide enough for a sleeping person. In between the trailers was a larger space with kitchen and wreck room. I stood inside talking with a man as we made noodle (longevity, desire for something in life) soup. I was very hungry after the race so ate quite a bit. He asked me about my friend who lived nearby and if I would contact him. I said, “No, probably not.” Inside I felt it a waste of my time, that he would likely not even respond if I did.

During the dream I remember seeing a highway in GA and talking to someone in more depth about my friend. Then I recall talking to my friend and him asking me not to give up. I saw his arms and hands in vivid detail and it woke me up.

Kundalini Dream: Zero Hour

In this dream I was in a classroom with a teacher and students. I was a “student teacher”. There is brief memory of not knowing if I was male or female, like a shifting from one into the other. This was a bit disorienting but also felt absolutely normal.

I was monitoring the students doing work and saw a girl motion to the corner. I turned and saw a boy motioning to the girl and knew they were cheating. I went over to the boy and asked him if he needed help. The corner he was in was very dark because the lights in the room were off. I noticed he was stuck on #4 and showed him he already answered it. Then asked if he needed light and he said yes. I asked the teacher, a brunette, to turn on the lights. She said she not to, that the light changed when the sun came out from behind the clouds. I saw this happen but still turned on the lights.

The students finished their work and then the teacher asked them to clean up. I felt I needed to assist and asked if I could clean up the Legos (ideas, creativity) scattered across the floor. She said I could but when I went to clean up the pile I had seen the room was spotless.

Then the teacher said to the class, “It’s zero hour (critical moment, moment of decision). You can leave.” The bell had not rung yet and I was surprised she let them go so early.

When the room was empty I lingered by a fireplace (could mean Kundalini) that suddenly appeared. I recall smoking a cigarette (surrender). The teacher had given me a box of tea (spiritual enlightenment) to examine. But “she” had shifted into a “he” and I felt a strange feeling, like I highly revered him. He asked me if I would like to try the tea. I took my cigarette and put it out on the edge of the fireplace. The tea box suggested the tea be taken with applesauce (growth, abundance) in it. I told him, “Yes, but I don’t think I want applesauce in my tea.” He agreed it was not palpable, saying, “That is okay”.

I then approached the teacher’s desk. He was hunched over paperwork he was grading, tests the kids had just taken. I kept my distance as I handed him the tea box. He looked at me and I saw he resembled someone I know only his nose was different. There was an intoxicating energy coming off him that made my chakras all light up in a blissful way. His effect on me was strange and I both resisted and desired it.

He said to me, “Have you found a boyfriend/partner yet?” I said, “No. I haven’t.” He nodded and said, “Good.” It felt like he wanted me to want to be with him and no one else. He then referred to my Light saying it was very obvious to those who could perceive it. I could feel my own energy/Light as he said this. It was like a fire, ebbing and flowing, exploding in bright, white light and then subsiding. At the same time I felt near my limit, as if I had been aroused but held back by a lover who was saying, “Not yet.” It was an impossible feeling. The teacher said to me with a smile, “You feel it, don’t you?” He also said multiple times, “You are ready.” Yet at the same time I felt there was timing involved that was very important.

The entire time it was very difficult to be in his presence. I felt humbled and small in his presence.  I had great reverence for him. His power was potent and attractive, so much so that I felt unable to control my attraction and was sure it would be the end of me if he were to let me in. He felt like royalty – like a King – and I felt very obviously to be his Queen. I have never felt so magnetically drawn to anyone as I did to him.

Continued Communication

As the energy enveloped me I woke up and felt it continue to rise. A wall of anxiety formed between my solar plexus and heart. It stuck there for a while and as I noticed it and allowed it, it broke through in a sudden rush and I went immediately into a trance state with full-on hypnagogia and vibrations.

I stayed in the in-between with this teacher for a while. He no longer resembled my friend but began to look more like a Tibetan monk except he wore regular clothing. His nose was very wide and sometimes he wore a headdress that reminded me of a God or a King. I asked him if he was my friend and he said, “Yes. I am many.” I recognized he meant he was the Masculine.

He asked me if I was ready to work and I said I was. He told me many things but now all I have in my memory is a summary. I had been told today as a date previous to this and so was not surprised at his visit. He mentioned December and then May 20th. There is also memory of a visual of my future where I would leave my body and then return “changed”. I saw my body as separate and like clothing to be worn. I remember asking how to handle such a change, that people would see my body and expect what they have always gotten but that would not be possible anymore.

I was reminded of the few times when I have experienced what seemed like someone else taking over my vision. The experience always left me questioning. He responded to my memory with, “I will show you” and I became a bit nervous about what he might show me. My life? My future? The world’s future? I do not want to take on the pain of others. It is too overwhelming. He didn’t respond to my concerns, only that I would be allowed to see through his eyes.

At one point I saw this teacher very clearly. He was sitting on the edge of a huge boulder and looking directly at me. He looked kind and familiar. I asked him if this was how he always looked and he said it was just one of his many forms.

There was also much discussion about letting the K teach me. He said that the discomfort and longing was how it communicated to me where change was needed. It was aligning me, correcting imbalance.

There was so much more but sadly much is lost to me now. Whatever is to come, I know it will be transformative.