Feeling a shift but not sure what it means. The 1111 sign continues to show up. For example, I’ve been watching True Detective , season 4 with Jodie Foster (definitely recommend) and in one of the scenes on the ice rink I heard a whisper of a voice in my mind say “1111” and just as I heard it, there appeared on the scene, in the background, four distinct blue neon bars that were super obvious to me. It was like time paused briefly when this happened, something I have not experienced in a long while. 

Last night I felt this heaviness and a distinct sense of something coming. I sensed it might be considered “bad” and other messages from the previous days via music and other avenues started pouring into my mind. For example, a song I listen to says “I can see the signs, I’m running out of time”. With this song I’ve also had the paused time feeling, especially regarding the “running out of time” part. When this happened, I was driving home from work and life appeared to be like a moving movie and I thought, “All of this could disappear in an instant” and I felt oddly disconnected from this plane of existence. Totally a Matrix moment. 

Yesterday I was driving and something caught my eye. It was a blue blur at first and it was rising up into the sky. I recognized it was a balloon but it was in the shape of a number 3. I took a pic but it isn’t a very good one. It felt significant. Later, in the evening, I ran into a post on reels about Mercury Retrograde just concluding and someone was saying if no ex’s came into your life then you don’t have anymore work to do with them. I looked it up and turns out my ex found his new GF at the tail end of the second to the last Mercury Retro and my heart connection returned during the most recent one. Hmmm. Unfinished business? The number three can represent the combination of two opposites into one (Union), the divine triad (Christianity, Hinduism), and creativity, communication and expression.

Lyrics from the song Afterlife:

I′m trapped, in the darkness of my mind
I want it back, but I’m lost along the way
Under attack, I can feel it pull me in
I push it back, do I sink or do I swim
Now all I want is for you to drag me down, watch me drown
In what I lost, can you hear me calling out
A voice from underground

chorus

I can see the signs, I′m running out of time
I can feel it calling, from the afterlife
If I lose my mind, let the darkness cry
If I feed the demon, will it bring me back to life
Will it bring me back to life
Will it bring me back to life
Will it bring me back to life
Will it bring me back to life

verse

I’m wrapped in a vision of myself I never had
Now I’m losing my own faith
And if I stop, giving in to what they say
Could I save myself, from my own fate
′Cause all I want is for you to drag me down, watch me drown
In what I lost, I can you hear it calling out
A voice from underground

chorus

I can see the signs, I′m running out of time
I can feel it calling, from the afterlife
If I lose my mind, let the darkness cry
If I feed the demon, will it bring me back to life
Will it bring me back to life, bring me back to life