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Taco Woman: Etheric Experience

After waking at 5:30am from a very eventful night, I tried to return to sleep. My guidance was close and I suspected I would not get anymore sleep because my energy was unusually high.

At some point I became acutely aware of music playing to my right. It was not music I recognized but it was loud and enjoyable so I tuned into it despite knowing this was part of the trance state. The words are lost to me now, but at the time the voice of the lady singing sounded familiar, like Natalie Merchant (10,000 Maniacs) but she was singing with another woman and their voices blended perfectly.

Sensing the subtle vibrations that indicated I could exit my body, I contemplated rolling out of my physical body and attempting an OBE. There was a distinct feeling at this time that said to me, “You know better.” So, I decided not to attempt an exit and just linger in the energies which encapsulated my entire physical body.

At some point my astral vision turned on. All that was visible was a shifty, black and white atmosphere of energy. This is indicative of the etheric which is the closest plane of existence to that of the physical. Usually it is an exact duplicate of the physical plane but in my experience this is not always the case. What I know for sure at this point from my experiences in this shifty, heavy energy zone, is that I am still very much connected to my physical body and something about this connection limits my perceptions and ability to move about. It is only when I shift into one of my other bodies that I can escape the heaviness of the etheric and enter the astral plane. This article gives an accurate description of the etheric body and explains what I experienced this morning. I believe it is also offers a great explanation on my experiences in the in-between.

As I lay in my bed observing the etheric plane all around me, a part of my consciousness detached from my physical body and moved around. I never went very far and I never felt the energy indicative of exiting my physical body. Yet I was able to experience the etheric in much the same way as I would have if I had been OOB. In hindsight, this is fascinating to me because it was so very obvious that I have been doing this throughout my entire spiritual journey and had never been witness to the specifics steps involved.

I saw that superimposed over the top of my bedroom was another room. This is the room I had entered and where the music, now silent, was playing. There was a large table in the center. It looked like a table one would find inside a restaurant kitchen – metal and quite high and about eight feet by six feet, maybe bigger. There were two woman bustling about. They were going through a refrigerator located at the far end of the room. I never saw it but I perceived it. One by one they pulled out empty containers from the fridge and put them on the table. They were discussing a need to replenish supplies as they did this. One woman put a large jug of orange juice on the table and there was an exclamation from one of the ladies but I don’t know the exact words other than to know she was pleased to have found the orange juice.

At this point I moved across to one of the ladies who was in the process of walking around the table. I reached out and touched her shoulder. I remember wondering if it would be solid. It was. I could feel her. Apparently she felt me, too, because she stopped suddenly, her eyes quite wide. I attempted to hug her and she pulled away. She said to me, “You can’t see me.”  I said to her, “I can see you well enough.” I remember trying to focus on her and was able to get a good glimpse of her overall features. She was shorter than me, about 5ft tall, wearing a light colored blouse and blue jeans. She had long, black hair and her skin tone was medium. Her body shape was very round and squat. I knew she was Hispanic.

She was very uncomfortable but remained there, never quite looking at me directly but instead straight through me. I asked her who she was and why she was in my bedroom. She didn’t seem to notice my room but she said to me, “Your husband buys tacos from me.” She then said something about being curious about him.

During this time I could feel the energy shift and the familiar feel of losing my firm connection to the etheric. It feels like a whirlwind of energy sucking me back into the physical. I remember thinking to myself as the woman spoke to me, “I need to look at my hands or say ‘clarity now'”. I did neither. Apparently just thinking about controlling the energy kept me from shifting back to my body awareness.

I apologized to her and let her resume her activities. I then turned to the other woman and asked her who she was. She was less apprehensive and her energy was more accepting. Unfortunately my son yelled from downstairs and I came back to awareness in my body before I could talk to her.

Considerations

Upon waking up in my body I wondered about this strange etheric experience. Were these woman real but in some other location that I somehow traveled to? Did my husband really know this woman? Was she dead or alive? Why was I allowed to go into the etheric but I could not astral project?

One of my guides was near and explained to me that I could not go far from my body right now because my Light would attract unwanted attention. I wondered aloud to him, “What do I look like? Am I really that bright?” He showed me what looked like a blue and purple flame. I recognized it. I had seen another who looked like that in one of my OBEs. I had been extremely attracted to that “flame”. It is so beautiful!

I wondered how the women perceive me. Did they see a blue/purple flame? I was then shown how they perceived me. I looked like a brilliant white and silver energy in body form, ever-shifting and fluctuating. Woah.

He explained that I was only allowed to travel to the higher realms now – the astral and lower planes were off limits. I wondered how I got to these higher levels. He told me They brought me to them, bypassing the lower planes/levels.

Later, during breakfast, I asked my husband about “Taco Woman”. He told me a woman matching her description often came by his work to sell tamales and other food during lunch. He buys tamales mostly. lol She speaks English but he usually talks to her in Spanish (he is fluent).

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Random Dreams

Just need to write these down to help me sort through them a bit. 🙂

Dream: Rainbow

I was receiving instruction. During this time, I saw a rainbow of colorful, wide, horizontal bands appear over top of my body. It appeared to follow the chakras and my interpretation was that I was aligned and ready for the next step.

Dream: Dirty Car

My husband told me he was taking my car. I got angry and stood between him and my car with my arms out. I told him, “You can’t take my car. Take your own car. This is MY car!” He ignored me and tried to get into the driver’s seat with my keys. I got in his way and noticed the black leather seats were covered in dirt. I said to him, “Look! See! You get it dirty and trash it every time you use it!” He said to me, “I will clean it up. I like using your car.” I didn’t believe him.

Dream: Moving to California

I was on a plane but this plane was much larger than any plane I have ever been on. There was a man in a very large bed who was having an affair with another man. I remember watching as he and his lover cuddled. There was an internal conflict within me. One side was okay with two men loving each other in such a way. The other felt it was unnatural.

Then I was being told I needed to buy a ticket to California. I was shown the round trip ticket was $202. Confused again, I questioned this because I knew I had already purchased my ticket. The screen showed it was a flight to San Francisco.

Then I was flying above a residential road in L.A. I was with my daughter I think but there was also a younger male with me who I knew very well. The feeling from him was that he was a friend/guide/mentor and that we often traveled together. As we flew, I remember discussing moving to California and explaining to my daughter why this was a good idea. I pointed out that we were in a rural area just outside of L.A. and so we could avoid being around too many people. There were houses situated on large plots of land. There were several that resembled houses from a Dr. Seuss book – purple and pink with lots of windows and pointed roofs.

Then we were walking along a road toward the city. We were on a hill and I could see the entire city below. It was beautiful. The sky above was a mix of day and night together. I told my daughter, “Let’s lay here and look at the stars.” I laid down on the dirt road in savasana looking up at the stars. I remember feeling happy for a brief moment. Then, a flock of sea gulls came flying in from above and landed just behind me. They began to come closer and I knew they would peck at me, so I turned and confronted them. They were so vividly real and quite large. I turned and walked toward the city.

Dream: Washing my Face

I’m in an apartment with others. The man from the last dream is there with his male partner. We are all staying together for some reason. The room is small and there are two bathroom sinks nearby. One is near a round window. I go to it to clean my face. I wash it but I notice my skin is peeling. I am sad and tell someone near me, “I hate my face.” She suggests I clean it again. So I do and noticed the peeling skin is gone but I am still unhappy with how I look. There is a huge amount of despair here and then total apathy. The woman with me tries to help me understand but my feelings overpower her words.

Dream: Winter Storm

There is a discussion about an approaching winter storm. I see images in front of me while the discussion takes place. I see a blizzard and ice and a map of the U.S. I remember telling one person, “In Montana, they have had snow as late as April. In Alaska, as late at May.” I remember being a bit confused as my waking mind tried to interfere in this dream. I was alarmed about the information because it matched a previous lucid to OBE experience I had. There is memory of visiting the southeastern U.S., specifically Florida but also the other states nearby. I see the mountains covered in a light snow and there is also snow on the beach.

Dream: White Hair

For some reason I was dying my hair. When I washed it out the dye didn’t take so I dyed it again. It ended up streaking my hair in huge chunks of brilliant white. At first I was shocked and then I laughed and said to my friend, “It’s okay. I just look like I have chunky highlights.”

 

 

 

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Earth-Quaking Energy

There is a peculiar energy today. It could be just me but my children seem to also be affected as they are restless and demanding more than usual. I also slept much later than is my norm – as did they. I love sleeping in except that I am NOT a morning person and the more I sleep, the more grumpy I am upon waking (usually).

To describe the energy is difficult but I will say that it feels like the ground beneath me is literally shifting up and down and left and right; like an earthquake is quaking under all our feet. This, I am told, is the breaking up of 3D reality and me sensing the alignment of energies of or relating to the Shift into 4/5D. It is definitely unnerving and not a feeling that I want to remain.

There have been articles by Tom Kenyon coming to my attention all at once. It is like the universe is saying, “Hey you! Look at this.” When two articles in less than 12 hours by the same author are brought to my attention – and I bother to read them both in full – this is indeed a message. lol

The first article I read was Escalation of Chaotic Nodes and the Dismantling of 3D-Reality. This article came to me yesterday right after I had been contemplating the future of mankind and my ever-increasing interest in becoming part of or helping to create a sustainable community. I was also in the midst of facing the stark contrast between what I feel my life should be like and my current reality. There has been a strong desire in me to take action for some time but the time is still not right. This makes me impatient and restless, like I feel today. Why can’t 5D just get here already!? Tom calls this “time stressed” and this is the result of trying to control circumstances in the material world rather than letting go of attachment to a particular outcome.

The other article is called Destabilization. This article answered the question I had this morning upon waking about why I have these periods of seemingly no spiritual energetic shifts and/or experiences that leave me in an eerie silence that forces me to confront aspects of my current reality that I otherwise would not. All that has previously been hidden is being revealed. NOW. There is no hiding from it anymore. “The deepest catacombs of your subconscious are being turned over like a plow cutting through a field.” So the ground literally is shifting under our feet! For me, this destabilization is manifesting in me a feeling that something is wrong, when in reality nothing is wrong. All is well.

If you have not heard of Tom Kenyon, I highly recommend checking out the above links. He also provides sound meditations free on his website. I have not had time to do more than one, but the one I did do was nice and calming and I could feel a shift within as I listened to it. There is indeed some kind of magic in his meditations.

Quake Watch

I got behind on keeping up with Suspicious Observers videos and so got caught up as I ended this post. It just so happens that today’s video is entitled “Quake Watch”.

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Class Resumes: Preparing for Contact

It was an eventful night for me. Though I slept well and deeply, I had numerous dreams. When I woke, I knew that I had been in a very advanced class with only two other students. The course was a plethora of subjects combined into one, of which the most prominent was human evolution, species adaptation, social structure, psychology, and biological and genetic architecture.

The last thing I recall from the dream was being told by the instructor that our assignment was to write an 8 page paper that would be due in 8 days. I was frantically writing notes and missed the topic of the paper. I turned to another student and asked him, “Do you remember the topic of the paper? He asked a question but I can’t remember. He didn’t write it down and I need a visual or I forget.” The other student, just looked at me quizzically. This is when I woke up.

I was immediately aware of the Being who introduced himself to me recently and he was not alone. There were a total of 12 and they stood around me in a circle. My body felt heavy but the energy was normal and I was not afraid.

I asked his name and he gave me Ephesus, which I knew was not his name but a clue. Ephesians is a book in the Old Testament and Ephesus is a city from ancient times. Ephesians Chapter 4 was given as important. I have not read it yet but plan to.

We spoke of many things but since I was still in bed and mostly in the in-between, much of the specifics have been lost. The following is what I recall:

Appearance and Origin

  • Their appearance did not frighten me but I did retract from it. They have very, large, black, almond-shaped eyes, almost imperceptible nostrils that are flat against their face, and a very small mouth with no lips.
  • They have no ears and no hair. Their skin is a light gray, like ash, and porous. They explained it was similar to salamander skin and if touched it would feel clammy to us.
  • Most stand under 5 feet tall, about the height of my daughter who is 7 years old and about 50in tall. Some are taller than that, though, but never over 5 feet, 5 inches high.
  • Their eyes are like an albino’s eyes and very sensitive to the light here on Earth. So they wear shades (like contacts) over their eyes to protect them. This gives their eyes a black, shiny appearance. I asked, “Why don’t you just wear sunglasses?” I was immediately reminded they have no ears and no nose which are needed to hold glasses in place. lol I felt stupid for asking that question then.
  • They breathe through their skin, so they have no lungs. They do not breathe oxygen but can function in our atmosphere for short periods of time (less than 1 hour).
  • They do not normally wear clothing but will when on Earth but it would always be of a breathable material since they breathe through their skin.
  • I was shown four digits on their hands and their feet looked strange. There was a large digit and then one even larger one that curved toward the main one. It reminded me of a sideways hoof. They do not have fingernails or toenails.
  • I saw no genitalia.
  • They communicate via telepathy but can speak if needed.
  • They do not eat food. They consume “Light”. I asked how this was possible and was reminded of our plants and photosynthesis.
  • They showed me their planet. I saw a gray, barren and rocky landscape. In the distance was a tower that looked like something from a Sci-Fi movie or from the Jetson’s cartoon.
  • They explained that they do not receive information about their environment like we do. They perceive differently. It is all via what humans would call our sixth sense, but there are more senses than that. This was confusing to me but they showed me how they “see” us. They can perceive all of our subtle bodies as well as other dimensions. It looked like triple vision when I saw it. Like we all had three or more bodies that shifted and moved independently of each other.
  • Their vision is akin to night vision or of a creature that is exposed to very little light. I was shown that their nights are very long and they have little sunlight exposure. Their nights are not like ours, though. It is always dusk and a sun (they have 2) is always visible even at night. I was told night lasts 12 Earth days. I got a sense that their planet was much larger than ours and was not on a tilted axis.
  • They explained they do not have water like ours. I was shown a liquid, though.
  • I asked where their home was and I heard, “Sirius A“. They did add that They are in other locations as well and I recall hearing Nibiru.
  • Their species carries some reptilian DNA.

Craft

I recalled their space craft, which is more like a shuttle. It was cylindrical in shape, like a cigar, except the back end came to a point. I don’t recall seeing any wings or landing gear. I don’t think it needed them. The entry door was a small rectangle shape. We would have to duck down to enter. Inside was completely dark with tiny colored lights. I was told they have no need for lighting, which made sense considering how they “see”. The front of the craft was domed. I don’t know if it was glass or not. The size of the entire craft was no more than 40 feet long with a diameter of around 8-10 feet. Claustrophobic for us.

I discovered an image similar to the craft I saw in this article. It just so happens to be about Nibiru.

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Purpose

They are here assisting in the evolution of the human species. I did not get much information on this. I suppose that is what my “class” is about and I will receive more information on it later. What I will share is that I was shown a device that looked like a very large laser. At first, it reminded me of a weapon and I retracted from it and questioned their intentions. They reminded me to focus on my heart and though the heavy sensation was present, I felt the familiar heart bliss, but it was very muted. I began to feel extremely drawn to them, like a magnetic pull that was almost drug-like. It was faint, though. They told me this was done purposefully. I was glad of it. The last thing I want is to fall in love with an E.T. ! lol

It was then explained that this laser was one of many strategically located across this galaxy. These lasers emit electromagnetic pulses. There was another words they gave me, but I can’t recall it now, so electromagnetic is not accurate, maybe something more like frequency modulators. These pulses are directly affecting us here on Earth. This is the whole purpose of these pulses. They are accelerating our evolution.

They told me they were preparing me for Contact.  At this point I got a bit overwhelmed because I remembered 1989 when I saw the UFO above my house and realized I had been contacted by Them before. I recognized that if it happened once, it could and most likely would, happen again.

The entire time I was typing up this post, my hands were shaking and my heart had a heavy, pulling energy. I suspect I will be exposed to the heart bliss in future encounters. How They expect me to pay attention with that distraction is beyond me.

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Chapter 4

Towards evening, after a day spent in the country with family, I began to hear a song that I hadn’t heard since I graduated high school. Boyz II Men, End of the Road. I kept hearing the chorus in my head. Since I don’t like the song (never did) or the group (sorry if you did/do like them) I pushed it out of my head. Whew!

Later, while attempting sleep, another song popped into my head. This one was more to my liking – The Doors, End. 🙂 The only part I was hearing was, “This is the end, my only friend, the end.”

I didn’t know at the time why I was receiving these messages in song about endings. I figured a relationship was coming to an end because I had an experience earlier in the day that led me to believe this was the message. I went into our back yard and as soon as I opened the door I heard an airy, “Bang!” and saw a dove fall from a tree in our back yard. I was stunned and a bit angry. The dove I had found previously had been shot and I suspected some kid was playing target practice. My suspicions confirmed, I looked all over for the perpetrator but saw no one. It was a pellet gun. I knew by the sound of it because my grandfather used them to kill squirrels. I sat outside waiting for another shot, but it remained silent. I don’t think the person wanted to be found out. Too bad. I would have confronted him and given him a piece of my mind.

It could very well be that a relationship has ended or is about to end, but that was not the message given to me as I meditated prior to sleep. I was told that Chapter 4 was beginning today and that I had concluded the previous chapter of this transformation. I still am not sure what the theme of that chapter was. Maybe illness since I was sick throughout it.

I was told that unlike the other chapters, which I had been shown were written with a partner, this chapter would be written only by me.

Chapter 4 is about initiation and preparation for Contact. This was given to me point blank and surprised me. They explained to me that I could not be distracted as any distraction would compromise learning. It was clearly stated that my main focus in life at this time was my children/family and spiritual transformation. Nothing else. Diversion from either path would interfere with preparation.

I was also asked again if I would agree to be Their channel. I agreed. I have no issue with helping Them and enjoy the energy sensations that come with channeling . I inquired as to what type of information I would be channeling. I was told it would be specifics about Their species and the work they are doing. I was assured it would be explained in a way that we humans could understand it.

 

 

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Clovers and Ladybugs

The energy yesterday was fantabulous! Did you take advantage of it? I did. 🙂

There were moments when the vibration got so high, though, that I got that familiar anxiety/panic feeling in my chest. I hate that feeling. How did I handle it? I went to the gym and grounded the hell out of it. lol It worked, too. Bye-bye panic feeling hello happy feeling.

When I came home, my mother-in-law took my two oldest to a birthday party. This gave me time alone with my youngest. We both love our time alone. We spent it outside enjoying the lovely Spring weather and exploring the back yard. There was a cloudless sky and a slight breeze – a perfect day.

I decided to sit in the grass. When I looked up at the sky, the crescent moon was right overhead. For some reason this made me smile and gave me great joy. I felt as if the moon was put there just for me.

Then I noticed I was sitting next to a clump of clover (which is actually Wood Sorrel). I love clover! It brought back memories from my childhood. I use to look for four leaf clovers all the time. I would eat the clover, too. They are yummy!

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The symbolism was not lost to me, either. Each clover has three, perfect heart shaped leaves. Since I had just received the message 333 by my guides the previous day I smiled because here it was again in abundance all around me. Each perfectly formed heart reminding me that I am loved and worthy of love. Thank you universe!

Here are a few pics of my son in the clover. The last one is of him tasting it. He didn’t like it too much. It’s an acquired taste. lol

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Do you see his mullet? I couldn’t cut his curls so I kept it long. We get comments on it all the time. People love it. lol

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Tasting the clover.

There were also an abundance of ladybugs about. There would be three or more on one plant!

Ladybugs symbolize happiness, good fortune, child-like innocence, and complete transformation.

Ladybug spirit animal shows that the last, big step of your transformation will result in a quantum leap from one way of being to a brand new one. You will have a gap or quiet, inactive time when this shift is happening in you, but others will be able to see it taking place. Source.

I had not seen so many ladybugs in one place before so I took some pictures and showed them to my son. He was as fascinated as I was.

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All pictures were taken with a cell phone.

There were also aphids all over the place. I pulled up some weeds and my hands were covered in the little green guys. I didn’t take any pictures of them. They kinda creeped me out so I stopped investigating the bugs of our back yard after that. lol

I learned later that ladybugs eat aphids. I didn’t know that! No wonder there were so many hanging around.

After that we took a trip down to the creek. It is actually an overflow ditch but water runs there year-round and there is an entire ecosystem available to explore. The creek marks the border of our property. We don’t even own one acre but we have way more to explore than our previous 4 acres provided. Such a blessing!

 

As you can see, Spring has sprung in Texas. It has been greening up since mid-February. Last week it rained every day and the creek overflowed its banks. Our house is very close (you can see it in the pic), but we are not located in a flood plane/zone. The water has, however, come up uncomfortably close to the house.

It is another gorgeous day today and the first day of Spring Break, too. Wishing you all a joy-filled, beautiful day!

 

 

 

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Prepare for a Journey into Yourself

I had some interesting messages come through my dreams as well as while in the in-between.

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I actually received this one yesterday morning and forgot about it until later when I saw the clock and it was 3:33pm. Then the memory came back full force as if to say, “Pay attention.”

What I saw was a visual of an invisible hand writing on a chalkboard. It was written three times like this:

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3
3

Then it would be erased and written all over again.

I looked up angel number 333 but the only part of it that stood out is the part that said this number combination was a sign of the “Jesus connection”. I figured maybe because the 3s were written vertically that perhaps I should add them up. The number 9 made sense as well. Maybe, though, it doesn’t really matter just as long as I pay attention.

Dream: Opening My Book

I had a vivid dream this morning of visiting a house with a white swimming pool and what looked like a water park tube chute next to it. The pool was being drained and re-filled. The water was completely clear and turbulent only in the tube chute area. I would not get into it, though, but was talking to the owner who was an author and discussing the many books he had written.

We were sitting at a table at a cafe. Across the way was a bald man. The other person with me pointed him out, asking me if I was interested in getting to know him. I said, “Not really. He’s old and he’s bald.”

I was then aware of a woman who I knew was a future version of me. I remember seeing her in a bikini and noting that she was still very physically attractive, but old. lol She had wrinkled, saggy skin in some areas and her skin had sun spots on it. I remember recognizing she was me and thinking, “I’m old, too.”

Then the man across the way was young. He had a lot of hair and it was long reaching to his shoulders. I remember thinking that age was just a consideration and that I could experience youth at any age. The realization made me feel hopeful and excited about life.

Then I was handed a book by the older woman (me). She had written it for me, to give me a message.

I opened the book and the page was completely black. At the top was written, “Pull tab to open.” I felt like a little child opening a present. I was so intrigued and curious! I pulled the tab and on the black page appeared white letters that said, “Prepare for a journey into yourself.” At the same time a part of the top of the page detached and upon it was a beautiful piece of artwork. I don’t recall all of it now, but I do remember that along the left hand side were letters of the alphabet, as if to represent the role of teacher. In the middle was written a name but all I recall now is the letter M. It was a collage and very colorful and bright. When I saw it I felt as if I had been given the most precious gift one could be given. I was filled with such anticipation, as if I was about to embark on a fabulous adventure.

It’s Wild World  

When I woke up the song Wild World by Cat Stevens was in my head. I have not listened to Cat Stevens in a very long time and have not heard this song recently. And I did not hear “it’s wild world” I heard, “you’re a wild one”, as if the message was to remind me of my wild side. Considering how I felt upon waking, it makes perfect sense. I felt young and eager to live. This is in such contrast to the last week that it makes me laugh.

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Contact: Visit to Zeta Reticuli

I must be well. I say that because my heart chakra is active again as is my third-eye and crown. The last two were somewhat active when I was sick, but I think it was healing energy mainly. This energy is pleasant. It comes with a very positive energy – an energy of anticipation and excitement. I welcome energy like that!

A new guide introduce himself to me. He did not give a name and his energy was not overpowering but more normal. I knew he would introduce himself because I felt him and the others with him. There are 9.

Since I could not see him, I am not sure what he looks like. However, I know he is of another world – E.T. or extradimensional, something like that.

While in the in-between I found myself inside a large, round room. The walls were smooth and cream colored and there were browns and other monochromatic accent colors. I saw no windows and the floors were of the same material as the walls. Toward the right of the room was a large structure that resembled a giant lampshade or maybe a mushroom cap. What I saw looked like a cone-shaped base that went halfway to the ceiling and was topped with a wide, brown, circular band. My first thought was that I was looking at an elaborate fireplace, but then I knew it wasn’t. I knew it was an energy source of some kind. This knowing in conjunction with the architecture and the strange smoothness and curve of surfaces around me signaled to me that I was not on Earth.

I felt a presence behind me and turned. I did not see who was there but I heard, “Welcome to Zeta Reticuli”.

Well, as you can imagine, I quickly came out of my reverie. LOL

He said quite a bit after that, but I cannot remember his exact words now. I wish I could as he spoke so clearly and precisely. It was as if he knew he needed to say things a certain way for me to understand. I also could hear echos of synonyms for words he used. I have experienced this before. Because one speaks for all of the group, I sometimes am able to hear the other group members at the same time as the one who is speaking.

He and the others are very interested in my transformation. Specifically, I was told that They had been on Earth for many thousands of years. They are here now, on Earth, and will be one of the 5 species who will make direct human contact at some point. Their main purpose is scientific – specifically genetics and hybridization of humans. He mentioned something about my chromosomes – getting rid of a faulty one so that the DNA sequence could be reformatted. Those were not his exact words but it was close. He used scientific terminology that I can’t recall now but I at least understood.

He confirmed that he is of the same species as the three Beings that visited me previously. They were not present. I have moved on to another panel or group or whatever you call it. He told me alterations to my path were being considered. I didn’t ask what that meant but I felt wonderful about it.

Although he took me to Zeta Reticuli, he was not of that species. Not exactly anyway. He explained that he could not reveal his particular species at this time. That that information must be withheld for the time being. He said that Zeta is a colony that serves as an intergalactic hub. I understood that they had physical bodies there and he questioned me about my own “body” when I asked if I was one of his kind. When I think of what I am, all I ever see is light. There is no body. So that is, I guess, what I am. lol I did, however, have a feeling that I have been in many different kinds of bodies. He was curious which physical body I liked most. I thought about it, but really I don’t recall thinking for very long. I told him I preferred the human body, all except the sexual organs and reproduction. LOL This reply was so automatic that I laugh at it now. I really do wish that sex was not part of being human. It would make things so much simpler!

He told me that I would no longer be utilizing OOB travel but would be transported in another, similar way. He said it would feel different but that it was safe and effective for our purposes. I thought of dematerialization, which I have experienced, but this was not confirmed.

He ended our communication by saying, “You’re alive”. lol I guess I am.

 

 

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Message: Release All Judgments

For the first time in a week I had clear, vivid dreams and good, restful sleep. It obviously was a night of learning and reflection.

Dream: Being a Lawyer

In this dream I was called in to consult on a conflict. It became quite obvious to me that I was a lawyer. The conflict was between a very attractive blonde woman and someone else who I never met. The woman was very familiar to me and in hindsight I feel she was representative of me. The issue up for discussion was not mentioned but the feeling was that this woman was considering her options regarding relationships.

There was actually little about the issue that was discussed. I remember I was not the only one called in to discuss the situation. One man said to me, “You sure charge a lot for your services.” I remember telling him, “$150/hour is standard.” lol I also recall seeing a large, oval, mahogany table which is where the meeting was to take place. Somehow I cannot remember the meeting now, only that options were discussed.

The dream ended with me walking down a hallway looking for the bathroom. I was aware of being in a school and looking for the faculty bathroom. I inquired about it’s location and was told it was hidden. When I found it, it was taped off with red tape and I could not enter. I remember thinking, “I am not a teacher anymore. I’m a lawyer.”

Back to Reality

I woke up with this song in my head. LOL And it was released in 1989. There’s that year again. Sorry, it’s a cheesy video. Maybe it will make you laugh like it did me.

A Child’s Observation on Marriage

After thinking of this song a memory from yesterday popped into my head. I was watching The Returned and she decided to watch a portion of it with me. The exact scene was of a marriage ceremony right at the moment when the two were exchanging their vows – “‘Til death do us part…” She said to me, “That’s a lie. People don’t stay married that long. You and daddy won’t”. I said, “What do you mean? We aren’t getting a divorce.” She said, “Well, you and [insert ex-husband’s name] did.” I said, “Sometimes people stay married until death separates them.” Then I reminded her of her great-grandparents and she acknowledged it was possible to be married that long.

In recalling this conversation I wondered why she would think her dad and I were getting a divorce. She is very perceptive and also highly intuitive.  What also surprised me is that she appeared happy about it.

Message: Release All Judgments

My thoughts then began to focus on marriage, my own patterns and issues pertaining to it, what I have been taught about marriage, and the reasons we have monogamy and “rules” pertaining to marriage and relationships.

The Yanomami Indians of Brazil popped into my head during this time. My first year in college I was required to take a research course or symposium focused on the Yanomami. What I learned about them really stayed with me, probably because I got a 68 on my first research paper about them. lol They are polygamous and can be very aggressive. What stuck with me, though, was how they lived in small, close-knit family groups. I remember at the time being fascinated by this and how happy they seemed despite having none of the creature comforts we have.

This then led me to thinking about an article I read about a community, or commune, that was fully sustainable. I can’t find the article now, but this community had its own acreage and everyone contributed in some way. There was no forced monogamy and though people would couple up it was not uncommon for them to switch partners and polyamory was common. If there was a dispute, it was settled within and by the community. Children were raised communally. It was like a big, extended family. I remember wanting to do something like this and showing my husband who was not interested.

Around this time is when my guidance intervened and asked me to release all judgments. I was shown how I was judging myself and had been doing this all my life. I was reminded how as a young child I was directed to do this via my parents who showed me what was “good” and what was “bad”. If I did something “bad” I usually got a spanking or sent to my room or grounded. For me, “bad” at first was just plain curiosity. I see this in my own children and how I also limit their urge to explore via judgments of what is good and bad.

My freedom was stifled. My curiosity and urge to follow my heart suppressed by “rules” that dictated what was right and wrong. Who would I be if this hadn’t happened?

It’s everywhere in this world. These rules are put there on purpose to avoid negative situations. But basically its all fear-based. Monogamy was created to protect the family unit, to protect the pair from unforeseen acts of violence which are more likely to result from jealous partners. Parents enforce rules for the same reasons. Don’t go past the front yard is one of my rules because I fear one of my children will wander into the street and be hit by a car. Another wide-spread rule is “Don’t talk to strangers” which came as a result of child abduction cases.

There are thousands more, some in direct conflict with others. Honestly, I became overwhelmed by it. I felt like a fly in a spider web. How can we possibly disentangle ourselves from such an elaborate web of rules? Even our language traps us in the never-ending conflict of “right” versus “wrong”. Everything is judged. How can I possibly release all judgment? It’s as impossible as releasing all attachments.

Maybe that is the point. To realize we are playing a game with numerous, elaborate and often contradictory rules. We chose to do this. What is it that we hope to accomplish by being here? For me, I think, it is to recognize that I allow myself to be trapped in the web and need only recognize the lies in order to free myself from it. Nothing I desire is wrong. Nothing that others think about me is true unless I believe it to be. I am not bad for wanting what I want or feeling what I feel. I am beautiful no matter what I think, do, or feel – “good”, “bad”  or otherwise. Freedom is not accepting as truth the fears and judgments of others but allowing ourselves to experience in each moment that which we are.

This is why I am so miserable. I am trapped by myself. Not really funny but then it is.

 

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Two Opossums

I feel nearly 100% this morning. When I woke up I could breathe, I wasn’t coughing, my head wasn’t hurting, my body wasn’t hurting, and I was starving. lol The antibiotics I have been taking for 2 days have done miracles for me. Unfortunately, I was awakened at 5am by my two youngest and have been up ever since. My husband usually lets me sleep in on the weekends but he is in Georgia visiting his rich aunt and uncle in the mountains. Bad timing really but then at least I am on the mend now and so don’t feel so overwhelmed by his absence. Unfortunately, it has been raining pretty much non-stop since Monday so the kids are going stir crazy stuck inside all day. My daughter is so desperate that she wants to ride her bike in the rain and play in the swollen creek. lol

Oh and the a/c just needed a new part and so we didn’t have to pay out for a whole new one. It is a 20-year-old unit, though, so eventually we will have to replace it.

Two Opossums

This morning opossum visited me again, well he visited all of us while we were eating breakfast. This time he was out in broad daylight and he was in a hurry. I saw him through the french doors as he ran right across our back patio. He was literally 10 feet from us. I jumped up and told the kids to look and we were all up and out the doors after him. lol Usually opossums will stop in their tracks and play dead, but this one had other ideas. He was fast! It was the same huge opossum that I saw earlier and wrote about, bigger than a house cat and really ugly. lol

I followed him with my phone trying to take a picture but he was too fast and my phone has a two second delay when it takes pictures so I just got pictures of his backside. He eventually climbed into his burrow which was located just on the other side of the hill that leads down to the overflow creek that borders our property. The kids wanted to see him so I crawled down to look, but he was dug in deep and I know better than to mess with a opossum. Those things have sharp teeth and aren’t afraid to use them. Plus, if he was out in daylight he could be rabid, but doubtful.

As I was climbing back up the hill my kids were running after me. They had gone inside to get their shoes. I always wear shoes to protect my feet since having kids. Legos and other toys really hurt! Anyway, I told them to go back to the house and as they turned around there was another opossum running for dear life across our patio! My son started chasing him and then my youngest, wearing a shirt and diapers only began yelling and running after him, too. They were all so excited and the opossum wasn’t having any of it. lol It was really quite funny and I wish I had thought to turn on my phone’s video camera.

This opossum was not as brave as the other one and tried to hide behind the neighbor’s fence in between a pile of old bricks and other junk. I was able to get two pictures of him but he high tailed it out of there, too. My kids tried to follow him and I stopped them. This one was smaller and slower and I did not want them to accidentally catch up to it.

We all went back inside and not five minutes later my daughter was yelling about seeing the opossum again. Sure enough he was across the creek running. I suspect it must be mating season and the two were trying to get it on in my back yard this morning. LOL Either that or the flooding creek has displaced them. Both were totally drenched.

Message

I have already previewed my other post since I figured my guidance was trying to remind me of the message opossum brings. However, this time the opossum was not alone and out in the day. As a nocturnal animal, this is out of character.

The past message was the wait and take no action, but now I feel the situation may have shifted. What do two, completely drenched, running opossums mean? I looked but could not find anything on that particular scenario. lol Maybe too much hiding out got them drenched in emotion and they finally had enough and freaked out? LOL These two definitely fit that description. I wonder if they found each other? One hid out in a hole and the other went looking for him/her.

I found this particular meaning applicable, especially the last line:

Opossum could also be a warning against getting caught up in a situation that is full of drama. Stop making excuses and embrace the problem head on. Remember: you do not owe anyone a reason or excuse for how you feel or what you choose to experience. Source.

What happens when you hide from yourself? You end up drenched and frantic, just like the two opossums were. What is even more synchronistic here is that this morning I woke up thinking that I should stop judging myself for how I feel and what I wish to experience. 🙂