The beginning of the dream is hazy. I remember being outside in a busy town. It was a bright, cloudless day and there was a sense that something new was beginning. I was with some friends, none I recognized except for my ex-SIL, Dawn. Everyone was discussing work, especially Dawn who was uncertain about a job opportunity that had come up. She was confused about where to report for the interview and since the others also had interviews, we followed them into an office building. I only remember that the building had lots of windows, like a high rise, and the windows had a dark blue (throat, third-eye chakras) tinge to them.

Inside the building there were many lines of people each seeming to be for a specific job type. Our friends went to their lines and Dawn and I settled in one that looked to be the one she needed to be in. I did not have an interview. I seemed to be there only for support.

A male friend approached and the dream really gets hard to recall here. He seemed more familiar than the others. Dawn and I left the line we were in and I followed the man to an upper level. It was less crowded there and there was only one line with us and a few others. To the left was a child care center (inner child, family kept close) that had large windows so parents could look in. I remember thinking it must be nice to work somewhere that allowed you to be so close to your children while you worked.

I remember waiting a bit longer, talking to Dawn who was then called into her interview. I was asked if I wanted an interview by a lady with a clipboard. I told her I did not know what kind of work they were interviewing for and was unsure I would qualify. The lady enthusiastically announced that I did and ushered me and the male friend away.

I do not remember sitting through an interview. Instead, I remember feeling like the man was someone I was to work with. He had dark hair and a scruffy, 5 day shadow of a beard. His body type was quite large like he worked out and he was at least 6ft tall. He felt to be my ex-SIL’s uncle for some reason.

The dream shifts and I am outside again. I see ahead of me the man, his back to me, standing next to Dawn. They are on a ferry standing at the end looking out over the water. I immediately hurried towards them because I felt a strong draw to the man.

When I got there I gave the man a side hug and asked him, “How come I’ve never met you before?” There was a Knowing that he was family so it was odd we had never met. He said, “I was married.” Without words we exchanged information about one another in an instant. He told me her worked in information processing (logic, masculine energy). I remember telling him I just turned 50, was recently divorced and had finances enough to retire. He said, “That was me not long ago.” I understood his reply to mean he was older than me. I kept trying to figure out how he was my family, confusing waking reality with dream reality. It was at this time that Dawn seemed to no longer be present. This is also when I became lucid.

I could feel the boats movement and looked out over a beautiful scene of crystal clear water with green streaks of algae and water plants. Every once in a while there was a large, round boulder poking out of the water. It reminded me of Florida. I noticed the rocks had something written on them. I pointed them  out to the man, “Look! There are symbols on the rocks!” They looked like Light Language symbols. He smiled and said, “They are from the serpent (Kundalini).” When I looked again it was like suddenly every rock in the water had a symbol and the symbols seemed to glow. I also saw what I thought was a dragon moving through the water effortlessly. It looked like a dragon snake (mastered power, primordial energy, protection). 

The man put his arm gently around my waist and I leaned into him. There was this amazing rush of energy between us that caused me to want to melt into him, so I did. He leaned over and began to gently kiss my forehead over and over again, covering me with kisses. With each kiss I surrendered a little more and then exhaled as my boundaries fell away. I felt more safe than I have ever felt there in his arms. His energy was strong and gentle at the same time. I felt protected and cherished. There was no  intense, burning desire or sexual desperation, just pure acceptance and love. He must have kissed me a dozen times. I could feel my third-eye blazing and at the same time my root became warm and expansive. The two energies seemed to merge in the middle somewhere between my heart and third chakra. The beauty of it woke me up.

I lingered in bed, relishing in the energy. I told my guidance, “That is what I want.” I was able to fall back into a light sleep. While there I saw the number 1121 (manifestation, alignment, partnership) and heard “210 days” (8 days before my Chiron Return). 

Kundalini Insight

When I woke, I knew that my experiences with the Kundalini, the massive clearing and purging, the seeming “twin flame” connection, the other K connection, brought me to this point. The K, with all its raging fire and deeply transformative, purging water, has cleared my energy body. The “volcanic” eruptions of energy were from a “pressure” release in areas of severe blockage. They were never meant to construe fate or “destiny” in any way whatsoever except to bring to my awareness that which had created the massive blocks and restrictions to the flow of prana. The unhealthy attachment and obsession brought about by the catalytic “twin flame”/heart connection was merely the K doing its work, helping me burn through unhealthy beliefs, past life traumas, and other blocks created in this and other lifetimes. 

It is so easy to assume the K is here to show us a path. No. It doesn’t do that. It is not a path it is US. Every part of the K is teaching us about ourselves. It is life force energy, that which comes with us into this body and merges us into physical form. It does not exist in the same form after we die. Why would it? Without a body, without the density of physical reality and the muck and mess that builds up in our physical “plumbing”, we would not have a Kundalini awakening at all.

Don’t listen to what your mind tells you when the K starts its rise within. Let it do its work. The more you let your mind try to run the show, to come up with reasons and to logically explain what is happening, the more painful the process will be.