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Time to Elaborate a Bit

I am still processing everything that happened this morning but I wanted to share with you more of the details. I also need to write this down as I am still experiencing the effects of it. My heart chakra has been blasting away all day. The main energy is an anticipation or nervousness. At least it is not pure out panic. My third eye is also blazing away. I still feel like I am radiating energy – projecting it almost.

This morning when I awoke overwhelmed by what had just happened, I had not fully awakened despite sitting up in bed and crying. I kept going into the in-between. While there I heard a quiet voice telling me I was beautiful and the heart energy would fire up and I would get too aware again. I also had visions of seeing myself in a coffin. I saw several coffin visions, actually. This is also when I heard the voice tell me, “You’re ALIVE.” It was said in such a way as to interrupt my freaking out. There was emphasis on the word “alive”. It was said, “Ah-live”. lol At the time I didn’t think anything of it. I was too caught up in my mind, but now I realize a part of me was just born.

My mind was in overdrive. I couldn’t control it and I wanted to get up and write an email but I kept hesitating. I am glad I didn’t now as the energy of the computer would have likely thrown me off even more. But the desire to write was very strong. I knew so much all at once. It was like an inflow of huge amounts of information – information about my past, present and future. I don’t recall it all now, but it was part of the reason I was freaking out. I went down stairs and paced and paced for I don’t know how long. Too much energy. Too many thoughts.

I knew I had caused this to happen. I asked for it to happen a couple of nights ago. I actually asked for an OBE but was denied it. I had thought my requests had fallen on deaf ears. I guess not. Really happy about that now.

So this is what I experienced in that Union.

Intense love beyond anything I have ever experienced. It ignited every single chakra and I felt all the emotions connected to those chakras. It was like I lit up like a flare and sparks of energy went flying out my crown and my root at the same time. My mid-section was the most intense with a very, very pleasant yet explosive energy. Not sexual at all, believe-it-or-not. It was more like complete opening of Self. Raw, vulnerable and eager all at the same time.

In the few moments that I was caught up in this bliss I felt connected to everyone, everything; to Source. It was not just a connection to my “partner” but to everything and everyone that ever existed. It was like merging with him opened my eyes to something I had long forgotten existed. In that I realized I AM love. I AM all of it. I do not lack for anything.

When I awoke and the energy was still running through me, my vision was filled with flashes of the faces of people I had known in this life. Mom, Dad, sisters, brother, in-laws, husbands, children, friends, acquaintances, bosses….the list goes on. With each flash of a face I knew I loved them. All of them. Without a doubt. All I had was love for them. And I felt a connection to them as well. They are me.

The fear reaction I had to all of this was Ego. When I was able to get out of my mind and stay in my heart, there was only calm and a perfect happiness. There is a fullness and confidence in my heart that wasn’t there before; a knowing that everything is working out as it should.

I won’t deny that I am asking for it to happen again. Maybe this time I won’t wake up and cut it short. But then, the intensity of the experience is such that I don’t know what would have happened had I stayed. I am thanking my Team wholeheartedly this morning. They never fail to produce.

Oh and there was a song in my head as well. I almost forgot about it. Coldplay’s The Scientist (again). The only parts I kept hearing were:

I had to find you, tell you I need you, tell you I set you apart.

Tell me your secrets and ask me your questions, Oh let’s go back to the start.

Nobody said it was easy. No one ever said it would be this hard.

 

 

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Happy Birthday to Me

First off – I am OK. Better than OK. Flying high. Soaring. ALIVE. Whew!

I wasn’t this morning when I wrote my last post. I was overwhelmed. Completely. In a good way, though. I promise. Nothing bad about what happened. It was/is extraordinary. Oh and in no way is it over. Ha! It is just beginning.

The first thing I did after writing my last post was get into a bathtub to which I added Epsom salt and Lavender oil. This was at 8:30am! I don’t think I’ve ever taken a bath so early! I cranked up my ITunes – Laureena Mckennitt. For some reason her voice calms me instantly. So very angelic. And this time I felt almost like I turned into my bath water. Wonderfully calming and an instant shut-down of my mind.

As with all my baths, my children eventually found me and jumped in. Thankfully by that time I was substantially calmer.

I could not go near my computer. Again. It made my energy all bouncy. I feel like I am transmitting huge amounts of energy. Like it is pouring out of me in buckets. The computer or internet or something hits that energy all wonky and I feel even more wired.

So I went to the store. Yep. Crazy high energy and all.

On the way there a CD was playing, one I’d never heard before. When I got the CD changer replaced they gave me 5 CDs the previous owner had left inside. One was Lenny Kravitz and that was what was playing when I turned on the car.

The first song I heard was “I’m a Believer”. I didn’t pay much attention to it but my mood was way high by this time. I felt completely out of my body, in a good way. My son requested I play the song again. And again. He was a grump about it to. Both my boys are driving me nutty with their mania today. I’m right there with them laughing it off, though.

So here is “I’m a Believer” if you haven’t heard the song:

After hearing this song two times in a row, I caught the lyrics and burst out laughing.

I got to let it, got to let it, got to let it go
I got to live by faith, relax, sit back, enjoy the show
The only element that’s standing in the way is me
So now’s the time to lay it at your feet
And let it be, let it be, let it be

While listening to the song a third time I was remembering what I was told this morning after I cried and was in overwhelm mode. I kept hearing, “You’re ALIVE. Your ALIVE.” I didn’t think much of it at the time.Yeah, I’m alive. Duh. Right? lol

I remember hearing, “It is done”, too. What is done? No clue.

So I wondered if maybe these messages had something to do with the soul exchange. Was it possible that the messages were to indicate that a new me had walked in this morning? Nah. No way.

Then the next song on the CD starts to play. I got quite a laugh out of it.

This morning is a special morning
We gonna party all day long
We’re gonna celebrate the day that you were born
And we will start right with this song

Happy, happy, happy birthday
Happy birthday to you
Happy, happy, happy birthday
Happy birthday to you

There is nothing I can even add to that. The song says it all. Happy Birthday to me.

 

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Why is This Happening to Me??

I’ve been up since 3:30am so excuse me in advance for any discombobulated thoughts or wording.

The night was normal energy-wise, but I had received a message that my progress would be accelerated. No big deal. I had heard that before and so knew (kinda) what to expect.

Lucid Dream: Someone’s Been Cleaning Up

After a night of dreamless sleep, I suddenly became aware of my dream, semi-lucid. I was with someone and we were discussing my life, though what specifically is lost to me now. What I do remember is flying along a road I use to drive every day to school when I was in high school. I have everything about that road memorized I drove it so frequently. However, as we flew I noticed the road looked like someone had scraped the top of the asphalt off. Also, on the right in a field I knew well (I use to fish at the pond there) I saw enormous trash bags piled one on top of the other. These trash bags were the size of buildings! I remember saying, “Looks like someone’s been cleaning up”.

Lucid Dream: Meeting My Teacher

Then the scene shifted and I was very much more aware. I was going to school and had missed some classes so had to talk to my teacher. I remember meeting him, an average-looking man with black hair and somewhat darker skin than mine. He was older than me, probably late 40s – early 50s.

As we walked together toward the classroom, we walked on top of set dinner tables, which was odd. I remember our discussion was about him and his travels. He was telling me about India and the food. We specifically talked about Curcurma and I saw this roundish, cantaloupe looking fruit but I knew it was not cantaloupe. It was orange like the inside of the cantaloupe, though.

The class initially felt like P.E. class but then he explained I would miss the current assignment which was a lab of some sort with vials and glass tubes. I remember seeing the image in my head, like he put it there as a thought form.

He kept looking at me very strangely and I noticed this but ignored it because I am use to being stared at by men. Yet at the same time I liked him. He was very nice.

We began to talk more about me and I ended up having an in-depth conversation with him about my life – my education, my family, how I felt, etc. As we talked he would pace around in front of me and I was laying on a bed on my stomach with my head resting on my hands very relaxed. He told me about his current issues, but all I remember now is he complained about his lower back hurting him. He seemed really tired – tired of life and tired in general. I felt similarly and understood.

While we talked I began to feel a strange familiarity about this man and began to like him more and more. When he would walk closer to me (he paced a lot) I would feel this strong connection but it was bearable and he seemed to notice it, too, and would back off. I remember telling him about starting a family and my three children. He said to me in reply, “So you had three children in seven-and-a-half years?” I said, “Yeah” and then I realized how crazy it sounded and smiled. I also remember telling him that I got my Master’s degree but didn’t want to use it. He just listened and I felt he genuinely wanted to know about me. It was nice to be heard.

Then he was suddenly right next to me on the bed on my right. He took my right arm and wrapped it around his waist. Only then did I realize he had no shirt on because I could feel his bare skin. He said to me, “Put your arms around me and love me until the day you die”. When he said this (even now it is affecting me) I was overwhelmed by the most magnificent feeling in my heart center and I wrapped my arms around him as if I would never let him go. The love coming into my heart – the pure connectedness, the sensuousness, the electricity, the wholeness – surged into my heart and expanded outward. It felt like a huge bubble. Then it expanded down into my lower chakras. At the same time it expanded upward into my upper chakras.

It was pure, magnificent bliss beyond anything I have yet to experience. I felt like I was dying and being born at the same time.

Why is This Happening to Me??

Unfortunately, the intensity of the encounter woke me up and I immediately sat up and began to cry. The tears were slow and just came out of my eyes like a faucet. I both wanted to go back to him and to run away at the same time. It made no sense. It makes no sense.

I spent the majority of the morning in confusion. This encounter has me turned in all directions, not knowing what to do. I had to get up and smoke a cigarette. Yeah. It was that intense an experience and my mind was all over the place as was my heart. It was like my entire being was screaming at me, “Make a change!” WTF!?

I kept asking (still am asking), “Why is this happening to me??!” There are so many emotions and thoughts raging even now. I don’t understand. I can’t even fathom the enormity of this. It is beyond my ability to comprehend. How can I feel/BE/share such LOVE?? And what is even more crazy is that I know that love is ME! It makes me want to cuss every cuss word I know (and I have/am) and I don’t even fully comprehend why this is. Why does something so beautiful, so perfectly right, terrify me so much?

 

 

 

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More Heart Chakra Blasts

Today started out well enough and then by noon it was energy blasts to my high heart and heart center followed by a strange excitement/nervousness/panic – in that order. lol These would come in at an angle from my back through to the front in waves that lasted anywhere from 5 to 10 minutes. Afterward, I became very hot and thirsty and had to lay down several times on the floor to ground. My throat, crown and third eye were all buzzing with energy. I also found I could not go near the computer as it would trigger a weird panic. This also happened around the TV and other large electronics. A first for me and just plain weird!

By 4pm things began to settle and now I feel almost normal except that now that I am typing and sitting at my PC my heart is doing weird things again and I have energy around the back of my head.

Also, a strange thing happened to me this morning, prior to all this heart activity. While making breakfast I froze mid-egg-breaking as a knowingness hit me – hard. I suddenly knew that very soon I am going to be asked to move on to my next step. One of these happened in April 2014 and another happened in October 2002. The former was a tear-jerking realization and message from my Team. The latter was an actual command to “Get out now”. I guess this was part of the message I got to “Get er’ done” earlier today. Pretty funny then, not so much now.

I don’t know if the heart chakra blasts are connected to this sudden knowing or not. I was not too happy in getting this knowing because this next step/move is a very uncomfortable one. I hope beyond hope that I get more time to sort things, but sadly, the way these instances have worked out in the past, things really move. FAST.

Now that things are settling I feel like a major shift just occurred. I don’t know exactly what it means or what happened, but I can feel it. Something major just cleared out.

Oh and just so happens the K-Index is still in the red. STILL. Geez!

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Astrology and Relationships

As you know I have been led to review my past and then this morning the suggestion was given again. I tend to constantly look at my past anyway, but specific areas have been brought to my attention lately.

Relationships

Yeah, this is a big one for us all. Who doesn’t have a relationship of some sort? We are literally born into them and they keep coming after that.

I have not had a ton of romantic relationships. I love astrology so I am going to post the various “signs” that I hooked up with. Just to remind you, my sun is in Leo, my moon in Sagittarius and my rising in Aquarius.

Aries

I married my first love and so was tied up in that one for a good 10 years from the age of 17 to 26. He was an Aries with a Capricorn moon. I can’t remember his ascendant now. He was mostly Capricorn – workaholic. Always gone. Very career-oriented and ambitious. My job was to get him on track with his career because he had some major confidence issues. That’s it. I knew it when we met and I knew it when I left him and broke his heart. He just recently moved past that hurt. I could also read him like a book. Who can psychically read their spouse/partner? Me, apparently.

Virgo

I jumped into a relationship right after my divorce. He was a Virgo and I don’t remember much. He was my rebound, of course. I do recall he was very clean – anal retentive. He also had some weird habits, etc. He ended up cheating on me – just a make-out session. Bye bye Virgo rebound.

Aquarius

Aquarians are by far my favorite I have to say. The one I met was my first ever intense connection. I wouldn’t call it a heart connection but it was intense. He was married and much older (10yrs?) than me and his energy made me shake uncontrollably. He came onto me and I made dumb decisions. Turns out it was a past life, karmic connection that played out perfectly (husband in 1920s that killed me). In retrospect, I believe he was learning more than I was.

Taurus

This was another intense relationship but all sexual. All I will say is I don’t want to go there again, no matter how amazing the sex was. It’s not worth it. Lesson learned.

Cancer

I dated only one man younger than me. In this case he was a Cancerian and 7 years younger then me. Such wonderful, loving and gentle energy. Unfortunately, I got easily bored with him. Sigh. In retrospect, I really needed that at the time. Slow down.Take it easy. Feel. Yeah right! hahaha

Libra

This one is complicated as I wasn’t really in a relationship with him, except that I was. Kinda. lol He was 12 years older than me and I was in the middle of my Dark Night at the time. We could talk about anything – great mental connection. However, I was not attracted to him like he was me. We should have just been friends. We would have been great friends but I was very lonely at the time. I messed this one up royally and know I will have to revisit the karma created in a future life. He is still very, very angry at me and he should be.

Pisces 

Not a good match. That’s all I will say. LOL

Scorpio

Really nice energy, awesome sex drive, not too much of a talker – more of a feeler. I got bored, though, as expected. 😦 He was really a nice guy. Maybe that was the problem? He was one of the few to break up with me. I don’t do well with being the one broken up with. LOL I was not very nice to him I’m ashamed to say. 😦

Gemini

My current husband is a Gemini with a Leo moon and a Libra ascendant. Actually he is a Taurus-Gemini cusp. I think sometimes he is more Taurus and other times more Gemini. I prefer the Gemini even thought the high energy is a bit overwhelming sometimes. When I had our charts done I was told we were a perfect astrological match. I don’t know about that or even what it means, but we do get along well for the most part. My husband is very intense, like me, and our main attraction to one another was mental. We both philosophize and are into spirituality. I use to could talk to him for hours. He is very stubborn and persistent. I will say I have never been with someone more stubborn than me until now. The stubborn streak must be the Taurus. He exhausts me. He won’t let me run out of an argument. I tend to try and escape him because of his energy during a fight and he will corner me. Not good to do to a Leo on the run! Out come the claws as you can guess. So yeah, let’s just say we are volatile under the right circumstances.

Family

My children came into my life to ground me I think. My daughter is a double Taurus. My middle some a double Capricorn (double meaning sun/moon). My youngest must be here to stir things up. He is a double Aries. Firecracker. lol

My mom is a Libra with Leo moon. We are best friends. My older sister is Sagittarius with Aquarius moon but I can’t remember her ascendant. We’ve had some grand times together. My youngest sister is an Aries with Cancer moon. She is probably the moodiest Aries I have ever met. lol My dad was a Scorpio and had trouble showing his emotions. My grandparents were both Libras. I had/have a very strong connection with my grandfather. I didn’t know my grandparents on my father’s side.

My in-law relationships have been interesting as well. My ex’s parents were Sagittarius and Libra. I didn’t get alone with his mom which was a Sag. She was passive-aggressive. I loved his Dad. My current husband has only a mother left and she is a Libra. We get along great. My brother-in-laws are Aries and Virgo and my sister-in-laws are Aries and Sagittarius. I get along with them all.

Friends

I haven’t had many close friends in my life. I tend to be friends with my husband/partner and am not overly social (introverted for the most part). I was very social during my Dark Night, but mostly with my sister and her friends. I, personally, just tagged along and learned very quickly that I was not into what my sister was into. Lesson learned.

My best friends tend to be fire signs. So far Leo and Aries win out here.

Conclusion

Relationship-wise, I do best with air signs followed by fire signs. I really connect with air signs on a mental level and for me, this is where the ultimate connection happens anyway. I am very intense energy-wise, too. When I love someone, it is all out and I have heard many times, “You are too intense”. LOL Fire signs tend to bring out my sexual side and, while this is nice and all, I lose interest because there has to be that mental connection for me. This is why my first marriage failed (among other things). He was not much of a conversationalist.

Earth signs are OK but tend to make me want to stay home all the time, which is okay if that is what I want to do. They are great friends, though. Ultimately I will get bored or fed up with an Earth sign. Water signs are great pacifiers of my energy but for a relationship they are a no-go. I will just stomp all over them and their sensitive feelings.

 

 

 

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Some Suggestions

Whew! The energies are blasting away, aren’t they? Thankfully, I slept right through them….kinda. Look at all that RED!

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I could not go to sleep last night. I kept feeling this pit of anxiety in my solar plexus and then the three Beings who call themselves Yeshua came to visit and my crown started lighting up as did my third-eye. They scared the crap out of me for some reason and, though they told me “Don’t be afraid”, I couldn’t help it. They backed off and then all chakra sensation and accompanying feeling vanished. I felt “normal”.

I didn’t sleep well. I had dreams of being in a prison with another person and there being this vent from which I heard someone constantly calling my name. I kept putting my hands over my ears to not hear them. On the outside people were being “infected” with a “virus” that caused them to go insane. They would take over other people’s bodies by killing them and entering when the body was dying. Not nice! I was happy to be in my prison cell and away from the chaos.

Then I was in a green field with a man who was wearing all white and was exceptionally tall and Andromedan-looking. There was a cat with us, a white one. We (me and the cat) spotted a ground squirrel at the same exact moment. I told the cat to leave it alone but it began to stalk it. I remember watching the squirrel jump about but I kept calling it a gopher. I spoke to the tall man about the cat but can’t remember now what I said.

When I awoke I knew I needed to do some things. I want to share them with you all as they are things we probably all should do.

  • Avoid all media outlets. In fact, I am going to take a break from FB. The virus dream really hit home. There is a major rush of negative energy (Team Dark or whatever) and they are “taking over” people who are susceptible. They do this via the media – any media. Thankfully I don’t watch real TV (we stream) and I don’t visit Yahoo news anymore (learned the hard way). FB is really the only place I see local news.
  • Clean up! Clean up your eating, clean up your relationships, clean up your life. Pronto! Ouch! This one hit me hard. Looks like another fast is in my future. Sigh. I won’t go into the relationship or life part just yet.
  • Take a good long look at your past. Again. Patterns are coming up that you need to see. Don’t avoid them. Look.at.them. Very closely. Scrutinize them.
  • As some say in Texas – “Get ‘er done”. Time to tie up loose ends and get working on future projects that you never seemed to have time to start. Make your move. Take action. Do you feel the push? Yeah, that message is for YOU.
  • Listen to and pay attention to the feelings that come up for inspection. Allow yourself to feel them – the good and the bad. The key is to not react/respond to them, but allow them to come to the surface and then release them to emotion-land or wherever they go. They will likely come back. If they do, just do that releasing thing again as many times as you need to.
  • Pull the Light in through your crown as often as you can. However you do that – do it. I imagine a stream of golden-white energy pouring into my crown and going down into my toes and then back into my crown. A complete circuit of golden Light. BTW doing this will bring up those emotions. Yeah, fun, right? lol

I will let you know how I do with all these “suggestions”. Many have been a work in progress so I doubt there will be any revelations coming real soon.

 

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Missing the Missing Piece

So it seems the energy has shifted once again. This time I felt it shift yesterday, mid-morning. I had a knot in my solar plexus and knew something was about to happen. I hate that feeling.

The day was okay considering I kept myself busy. I drove to my Mom’s with my three children and we spent a lot of time outdoors. It was a brilliant day in Texas. Spring is in the air and the temps are superb! Yet throughout this visit I felt sucked dry of energy and lethargic. All I wanted to do was hide in the house but when I did that I would become restless. So it was out in the sunshine for me.

Thankfully, I was completely alert and without brain fog while driving. However, since my mood had shifted, I did not feel like singing along to my music like I usually do. Life just seemed empty, as did I. Ugh.

When I went to bed I asked for clarity on some things. I had returned once again to feeling like my life was incomplete; that I was incomplete. I hate that feeling and it has haunted me all of my life. There is nothing worse than to feel a piece of you has been lost; like there is a gaping hole inside your heart that nothing can fill.

 

The Missing Piece

I had a long conversation with my Team during the night and woke up at 4am extremely sad and asking why I couldn’t exit this life. It all felt too hard. I didn’t want to feel the emptiness anymore. How can anyone live with such a feeling?! How had I lived with the feeling for so long?

I knew I had tried to fill the hole with everything imaginable – possessions, relationships, children, careers, hobbies, etc. Nothing ever filled it, it just made it less painfully obvious. I also know this hole had been present in all my past lives. Where was the missing piece? How do I get it back?

I fell to sleep and entered a dream in which I was inside a person’s apartment. It was a tiny apartment and very clean – everything in its place. It was tiny like a guest house or maybe an efficiency apartment. The occupant arrived and caught me there. He was young and fearful. At first he was blonde and fair but then he turned dark haired and familiar to me.

For some reason I went up to him and began to tell him about himself. He was reclusive – like a hermit. He did this to avoid others and their emotions as he was an empath. He preferred animals because they did not judge and only offered pure love and acceptance. I reached out and grabbed both his hands and looked him directly in the eyes and asked him to “read” me. He wouldn’t. So I told him more about himself and explained why he was feeling what he was feeling. I remember feeling like he and I were very similar. I told him some of his future but while doing so I could see the words I was saying scripted on a holographic screen in front of me. The words vanished and I heard, “System overload. Simulation terminated.” It was really weird!

Then I saw a group of people on the sideline – like an audience. I went to join them and knew we were a “group”. I remember associating us with super heroes calling us the Avengers (lol). The young boy was part of our group but not yet ready to join us.

When I awoke I could feel the emptiness inside very strongly and felt a bubble of energy from my root chakra down to my knees. Then I burst into tears.

I really, really hate the feeling. My understanding is that this missing piece is me missing my Wholeness. I miss Home. It is extremely noticeable right now.

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Into the Abyss

I awoke at 4am wide awake and with a very interesting Being nearby. If you have ever seen the movie The Abyss, then you get an idea of what I saw this morning. She looked like a luminescent butterfly.

I have seen the movie so many times I’ve nearly got it memorized. It’s one of my favorites. And look at what year it was released! 1989. There’s that year again. hahaha I have no doubt now that I saw the “luminescent butterfly” this morning just to remind me of this movie, and likely the year as well. Makes me want to watch it again. 🙂

Also when I awoke I had energy all over my body. It was very similar to what I feel when I return to or leave my body and astral travel. It wasn’t vibrations, just residual energy and very intense, too.

My heart chakra was also pulling very intensely and the warmth was still radiating out like it was yesterday. I began to hear light language in my mind. It was coming through me and I could hear the syllables and intonation. I just allowed it, as it was me mentally saying it. I felt it was an introduction and then a kind of activation sequence. I had an urge to record it, but I was too lazy to get up.  Plus it is all audio and I am not sure yet how to make an audio clip.

As this light language was coming through me, I once again saw the symbol I saw yesterday and started mentally painting it in my head. I kept thinking I needed to paint it, but I’m not very good at painting. With that thought I was receiving instruction on what colors to use and techniques. It was really weird. lol

I kept drifting into the in-between and bringing back information. Most of it is lost to me now but the feeling is still there. I was discussing clearing my “bodies” and I recall seeing layers of me, like frequencies I have been ascending through, or descending depending on how you look at it. I felt that my lower chakras were occupied by a different energy, a different vibration than even a week ago. There was knowing here that this was purposeful – that it had to do with the clearing process.

Dream: Taking the Wheel

I had many dreams that all stayed with me upon waking. In one I was driving a very futuristic type of vehicle. In the dream I refered to it as a “car” but it looked more like the inside of a space craft. There was a long, black dash that was approximately six feet long. I struggled to steer it and was receiving instruction from my deceased grandmother of all people. lol I realized there was a steering wheel at heart level that I was able to activate just by intention. It moved out and connected at chest level. It looked like a horizontal “I” – nothing like a car steering wheel. Once I grabbed hold of the ends, all my steering difficulties vanished and I successfully hovered/flew through various tunnels that were dark and streaked with light. I flew very, very fast.

Dream: Transplantation

I landed my “craft” at a vineyard. I could see row upon row of grape vines. It reminded me of Napa.

My task was to transplant a sapling of some sort. It had been uprooted and was withering quickly. I positioned it among adult grape vines. There was a significance to this that was palpable in the dream. I felt whatever I was doing was a big accomplishment.

Considerations

I know I have not been posting my dreams lately, but I wanted to share these two because they go along with how I felt when I awoke. I felt very different when I woke up – as if my vibration shifted dramatically in the night or something. There was a silent conversation between myself and my Team – streaming in through my heart chakra. I felt a significant shift had taken place. My Team was new to go along with the “new” me. I knew they would be helping me from now on.

There was also a feeling that I was transferred (like the sapling) into this body; trying it on or getting a feel for it. Acclimating. I believe, and I know it sounds crazy, that the craft in my dream symbolizes this change. This is very much connected to the K energy I had a few days ago in the lower chakras and heart chakra. There was a connection made, like roots into the ground except that it was a higher aspect taking root and establishing a solid foundation. I still feel like me, just different. It is hard to explain.

 

 

 

 

 

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Valentine’s Day Creative Streak

Yesterday was spectacular energy-wise for me. I was overflowing with creative energy and my heart chakra was so full of love that I felt I felt I would burst. I have never felt so connected!

I rarely paint, yet I felt the need to paint what I saw that morning and did so very quickly and effortlessly. There were more paintings wanting to come out, but my family needed me and I could not indulge in painting more than one. The one above is a painting of the ball of light I saw in my vision that morning. I couldn’t get it out of my head. It is far from a realistic interpretation of my vision, but I did my best. 🙂

I also had light language symbols in my head all day. One in particular that I never got around the painting. I don’t know if I will be able to today because all my kids are home today (school holiday) making it very difficult to do things for myself.

The creative streak also had me making videos. I think I made three one after the other yesterday. I hid in the bathroom to get privacy and avoid interruption. LOL

This morning I am still feeling the energy and my heart chakra continues to feel full of a warmth and love beyond words. I am told today is a “rest” day. The energies will once again peak next Thursday into Friday. I have already been warned and now, so have you. 🙂

 

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Hybrid Child

This particular upgrade has been uniquely different for me. This morning I am experiencing a similar sensation to May, 2015. With it I am also having chakra activations throughout my body that re-stimulate emotions that I normally would not be feeling. I get a sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach, my throat tightens, my heart pulls causing an anxious feeling, my head feels weird, the areas on either side of my nose are buzzing, and my arms are tingling like I put icy hot on them. Yet at the same time there is a feeling of not being alone and that there are messages that need to be passed on. I also keep feeling like I am going to zone out or pass out.

Hybrid Child

I wanted to share with you part of the information I received in my dreams last night. In one dream I met with my “child”. I picked him out from a set of photographs because I recognized him and saw myself in him. When we met he was taller than me, approximately 5’8″. He acknowledged me as his mother but he did not know who his father was. I did not know either but I could see myself in him and kept touching his face in awe. He was approximately 17-18 years old and he looked very much like a mulatto – very light skin and dark, frizzy hair. His eyes were vivid green, though. He was absolutely beautiful!

We met inside a small room. In my dream it was my old bathroom from when I was growing up. lol He and I conversed for some time. He told me, “I’m still growing. I will eventually be over 6 feet tall.” He specifically said he would end up being 6’2″. I remember being very proud of him and I just could not stop touching his face. He looked completely human to me, yet I knew he was a hybrid – all of the “children” I saw in the photos were hybrids.

There was discussion then about this age group being overly sensitive to changes in the environment, changes in energy, and any upset to the chemical balance in their bodies. There was emphasis on their need to maintain balance in their bodies because they hold such a high vibration and need to maintain this vibration. I got the feeling they were already here on Earth – living alongside us, looking just like us. It blew my mind!

A Hybridization Program?

When I awoke I immediately wanted to know if I had been part of the hybrid program. Why else would I see my “son” and know he was a hybrid? This was when I was told I am part of the “work” They are doing. This work is of the genetic kind. I had no doubt then that my DNA had been used in the creation of hybrid children. Perhaps this beautiful boy I met was indeed a part of me?

What was really surprising to me is that these children are already among us! How it is possible that my DNA would be used to do this without me actually being pregnant and giving birth is beyond me. I suspect it is spliced into the DNA of the child prior to birth, at the very beginning around conception. Did my DNA get substituted in for the mother’s? Or were just pieces of it inserted somehow? I just don’t fully understand how this beautiful boy could be my son. It blows my mind! The love I felt for him was genuine. I loved him like I love my other children.

All this time my heart is blazing and I have this strange energy settling over me that makes me feel something big is about to happen. I am strangely excited/anxious for it to happen, too.