I didn’t get much sleep last night. I went to be early but was instructed to focus on my heart, which was still blazing, and had a massive expansion of energy through all of my chakras one by one. It literally felt like each of them was turned on. I mentally saw their knobs being turned. Root, second, third, throat, third-eye, crown. I thought I was going to pop right out of my body it got so intense but then it stopped abruptly. So it is no wonder I couldn’t sleep. My energy was extremely high and I was riding a wave for most of the night.
I managed about 4 hours only. In that time I recall little but I did have one very vivid dream.
Dream: Chapter 1 of 7
I was with the young man who I saw in a previous dream. He is an apprentice, or at least that is the best word to describe what he is doing. In the past dream he was with me and several others but I had a very strong bond with him. I coddled him like he was my child – very protective. This young man had been tagging along to “learn the ropes” but was not doing any actual work in that dream.
In this dream he and I were alone. He was showing me something he was writing. He was writing it with me but he was the only one who had done the writing thus far. I saw very clearly, “Chapter 1” written at the top of the page and saw an entire hand written page below. I don’t know what it said. I was more focused on the the title because he said there were 7 chapters total. I remember being surprised and not knowing anything about this book. I was so surprised that it woke me up.
Third-Eye Intensity
I am still experiencing the intense heart chakra energy. Since I have no words to describe it well enough I am just going to call it a “fire” as it seems to burn inside my chest. I don’t think it is going away any time soon. I am spending my time outside whenever I can and keeping busy. Every once in a while I have to take a break and focus on my heart until it passes.
For about a week I lost my third-eye activity. I had been experiencing it non-stop for many weeks along with heart and crown activity to a lesser degree. This morning, upon waking, it was back and so was my Team. It has been on and off through the day along with occasional energy surges in my throat and solar plexus.
The third-eye activity tends to intensify when I am thinking something that is truth. It is validation. I didn’t realize how much I had been relying on it. I have missed it! It is a comforting addition to the heart chakra fire.
I don’t have time to go into much detail and I’m not sure I could anyway, but today has been probably the toughest day for me ever. I mean it.
I don’t call friends for help. I did twice today. Twice. It helped some, but didn’t really give me any answers. I don’t know what the <expletive> is going on but it is NOT funny.
When the intensity was at its peak I was begging and pleading with my Companion to take it away. He told me to focus on my heart. Yeah, well that made it more intense since it was coming from my heart to begin with.
I did focus there, though, since I couldn’t really do anything else. And the answer I got was, “You need this to Remember”. Okay. Thanks.
My day didn’t start out like this. My heart center has been non-stop with energy for about three days now, but nothing unbearable. I could easily forget about it by keeping busy, which I did all morning. But around 2:30pm, when I was preparing something in the kitchen, it hit full force. It nearly knocked me out of my chair.
I won’t call it a bolt of lightening but it is similar in intensity. I can’t breathe, I can’t think, I can’t really do anything about it. I finished what I was doing and went outside to sit in the sun. The whole time I am asking my Companion to make it stop, to take it away, to fix it, or whatever. Can’t really remember now. It lasted over an hour. That’s when I caved and called out to my friends. Thankfully both were there.
I understand that we are being reUnited with members of our soul group now. I understand that I will be asked to do things that are outside my comfort zone. I get it. But this feels like I am being “summoned”.
I would much rather have my Companion yell “Get out now” like he did the first time.
Please pray for me. Honestly, I don’t know what else to say except that I need help getting through whatever it is that is happening to me. I don’t think healing would help, so hold back on that. I fear it would make the intensity worse.
The energy surges are taking a toll on me. It started out as a high and then yesterday sent me into a restless numbness. I began to see my life as not my own again, but this time it was not in forgetfulness or lacking of emotion. No, this time it was a complete rejection of my life. It screamed, “This isn’t me! This isn’t my family!”
What is ironic about it is that yesterday my husband was gone all day and I had all three of my children at home with me. Since they are so young, I avoid driving places when I am alone with all three. So, we were home all day to figure out what to do with ourselves. I felt completely unmotivated and disinterested in doing anything. I was, in effect, a sloth-person. lol
The numbness bothered me so much that when my husband got home I searched the house up and down for something alcoholic. Anything. Unfortunately, all we had was scotch whiskey (yuck!). Thankfully, I was able to mix up a cocktail and have a drink despite my hating the taste of whiskey. I made one for my husband, too, but we drank them separately.
By this point I was so agitated (not sure why) that I became defiant. I got angry at this spiritual path I am on. I blamed it for how I was currently feeling and wanted the “transformation” to be done and over with. Of course, I had to show that I was in control, so out came the cigarettes my husband bought me months ago after I quit. I had one but nearly choked on the taste and nastiness of it. But I continued defiantly to smoke it until I could not longer bear the taste.
Thankfully by this time the drink had done its job and I was feeling calmer. I no longer cared one way or the other, transformation or not, and went to bed early.
Dream: Under the Bridge
I had many dreams last night, but only one stands out to me now because of the message it brings.
I was in my Mom’s house in her bedroom laying next to my husband in her bed (I know weird). He was being flirtatious. I suggested we get a fishing pole and went and got one out of the garage. I put the hook where it wouldn’t hurt us and went back into the bedroom.
My middle son was there tagging along and my other two came out of nowhere and soon I had all of them surrounding me. I gave the fishing pole to my husband and retreated, feeling suffocated by their demanding energy. I retreated into what once was my old bedroom growing up and lay down on the waterbed (yeah I had one of those in my teens).
There was a small t.v. set by the bed on a table. It was on so I hit the power button to turn it off. It was one of those older versions, silver and heavy with large knobs on the left hand side. Then the t.v. turned on on its own and showed a green reboot screen. I was upset. Why did it turn back on?? I just wanted to sleep and here it was turning on! Not only that but it was playing music!
I tried to turn it back off but it wouldn’t respond. The t.v. turned computer was rebooting. That was when I noticed the song:
Well, I don’t ever wanna feel like I did that day Take me to the place I love, take me all the way I don’t ever wanna feel like I did that day Take me to the place I love, take me all the way Yeah, yeah, yeah
I recognized the song. It was a song I use to love in high school. Red Hot Chili Peppers, Under the Bridge.
This woke me up. I looked at the clock: 5:30am. Talk about getting upset. I am so tired of waking up early for “talks”, especially after the previous day.
Spiritual Loneliness
After some prompting, I settled into my heart space and calmed a bit. It was then easy for me to see that I had slipped out of this space the previous day and the Ego had gained ground. But it was so easy to resolve that.
The first message I got was, “We must remove the negativity”. My answer was,”Good luck. I have been negative my whole life”. I saw then what looked like steam rising off my aura, but knew it was the a release from my heart chakra. So this is what is happening? Great.
A question was asked of me, “How can one be so lonely when surrounded by a family that loves them?”
I did not want to go there. To the place of loneliness. Yet I knew instantly this was my problem. I am lonely. I have been lonely my whole life. Lonely for my family. I miss them.
There was no emotional release just a request to go Home. Of course, I got, “You know you can’t. You have work to do”.
I then saw a long, hand written letter in front of my eyes. It hurt my heart to see it and I had a great longing rise up from within. I read the first line: I am sorry, brother, that we can’t be together right now….” But my conscious mind interfered and I could not read the rest. The loneliness turned to grief turned to disappointment.
I believe a reUnion occurred at some level. It is clear to me now that this reUnion has been difficult for me to process on this side. From the heart this memory is less upsetting, though there is still a reaction. The longing is so strong in the heart that I avoided it and so it was not allowed to process. I have to process it somehow. When I try, all it does is remind me of what I don’t have and what I am suppose to do.
There is memory that we (my family) chose Earth families and relationships with souls we are not as connected with – like second or third cousins. We did this on purpose. We knew it would be a lonely path. We knew it would be difficult for us. Why am I so courageous there and so cowardly here?
Remembering is not always pleasant that is for sure.
If you haven’t noticed, there is an M-Class Flare hitting the Earth right now. The K-Index has been in the red for more than 24 hours now. Only just this past hour has it dipped into the yellow.
I was bragging last post about how wonderful I was feeling. Well, I’m not feeling so grand today. I have had a headache since last night when the K-Index was at a 6. I also struggled to sleep. In fact, I had been doing my nightly meditation and was brought to full awareness by my son crying. I thought, “Is it morning already?” I looked at the clock and it was closing in on 11pm which means I had only been meditating half an hour. Where did I go?? Somewhere where I was deeply engrossed in my work, that’s for sure! Ha!
There has been a strange shift in all my energy sensations since last night as well. At first it was a blazing, wide open, blissful feeling heart chakra explosion that shot up through my crown chakra – thus the happy, giddy, “I love life” feeling I was having. However, it quickly turned into a massive front forehead headache and neck ache and this morning and the heart sensations are spreading across my chest but not blazing. They are my more normal heart sensations, the kind that often send me into panic-attack mode because of the intense pull inward. My third-eye and crown are still active but the headache makes it hard to enjoy. In fact, I suspect my headache is the result of some kind of blockage of adjustment of energy in my head area.
So intense alignment in progress for me for sure.
It feels as if my Companion has gone into hiding – he says he “stepped back” to allow me to process everything and is “not allowed to interfere”. Um thanks! Why does that always happen during times when I feel I need his guidance the most??
He did appear last night, passing me a piece of paper saying, “You have a message” but I don’t have a clue what the message was. I then saw the Southeastern U.S. region and knew I would be traveling there again. Not sure why I am assigned there when I am all the way in Texas!
ReUnion
I will provide further data on the “reUnion” information that I keep getting. Yes, it is a “reUnion”, emphasis on the Union part. Apparently this gathering is bringing together different factions that have previously been out of contact with one another here in the physical. I have heard of similar reUnions in the past but have never reunited with anyone (that I know of ).
For me, this connecting with my group is quite a bit out of my comfort zone. I am comfortable in my little bubble. I have only one connection in the physical (who is on her way here to visit btw!) who I know is part of my group. Other than that, I am a loner, doing my “work” on my own in isolation. But now I am told this “no longer applies”. I feel a push to pick up and leave this location. It is subtle right now, suggesting a move is in the future but not imminent.
From what I can tell, others like me – perhaps members of my group only but I don’t know – will feel a “call” to join up. Not just online, though this applies as well, but in the physical face-to-face. The urges will be strong sometimes and I am told “do not be alarmed”. We do not have to act, we have free-will as you know, but I feel in these cases resistance will only create struggle and to “go with the feeling”.
So far for me I am doing okay with all this new information despite my Companion heading off to watch from a distance. I am too distracted by the intense chakra activity to get caught up in future questions.
Happy solstice energy surge everyone! Ride the wave the best you can.
I had a major release of some sort yesterday and through the night. With it came a happy, care-free feeling and a lightness that I have not experienced in some time. This began in the evening and continues this morning.
It did not surprise me when I looked on the NOAA website and found that there are active geomagnetic storms that began last night and are currently in effect. One reached a 6 on the K-Index. Here is the K-Index as taken from NOAA just now (8:52am CST):
It is just recently that I found my energy surges and ascension-related “symptoms” tend to coincide with geomagnetic storms. I am also sensitive to gamma ray bursts. It should be no surprise that I am sensitive to these though since the Shift is directly related to such phenomenon.
Morning Messages
Upon waking at my normal 5:30am time, the messages began to inflow as is usual. I recognized that I had once again been working in my sleep, but the specifics of my activity was not revealed. I am OK with that, though, as I enjoyed the deep, restful sleep I received and do not need to be overly concerned with what my multidimensional Self is doing. I trust everything is as it should be.
On-going Adjustment and Alignment
I am in the process of a major energy adjustment. My solar plexus is the main concern. For those of you who are healers, you know then that when one chakra is blocked or needs adjustment, one or both of the chakras next to it is affected. In my case, both my sacral and heart have been off the charts with activity. In contrast, my solar plexus feels “dead”. lol
Vision
I was shown this morning an image that I immediately recognized but from where, I don’t know. It was an image of the outline of a person. I could see all the body systems, muscles, sinew, circulatory system, etc. There were four circles of energy alone each side of the human body (8 circles total). Each was of a different color and had an image inside that represented something. I don’t know what the images are, though, as I could not see them clearly. However, the colors of the circles corresponded to the chakra colors.
Above the head of the human body was a very large circle. It was a brilliant white and about three times the size of the human head. It looked like a starburst.
When I saw the image my first thought was that I needed to eat properly. I don’t know why I thought that. I was not corrected but told that the image represented me. My Companion told me I had made it to a certain level and this image represented that level. Of course, the image meant nothing to me as I have no idea what it represents other than maybe the 8 chakras I have previously written about.
I have searched the internet without success. If anyone is familiar with this image, please let me know.
Mission Notes
I was reminded of my mission, though I cannot relate it in words other than knowing that I am currently on track and will be expanding my “range”. There was special reminder to not be distracted; to stay focused on my present-time, karmic duties. This, of course, is my family and roles therein. There are karmic connections here, which I recognize, as well as lessons I have agreed to learn.
At the same time I am in a period of expanding my reach, at least that is the best way to explain it. Currently there is not much I am doing in this direction. However, I have this strong urge to connect to others with a similar purpose.
Finally, I was reminded that there is soon to come a great reunion of sorts. A reunion with my “family”. A reunion or gathering to prepare. For what? I am not sure. There comes with this “reassignment”. In many cases this means physical movement from one’s current physical strategic location. In other cases there is movement in other dimensions which does not directly affect one’s physical location. I feel a great anticipation of this gathering, but I doubt I will remember it for it will be happening in another dimension. Maybe I will get a glimpse of it.
So for those of you feeling the energy, the purges, the alignment, and/or the anticipation, know I am feeling it, too. We are all in this together.
When my Companion woke me at 5:30am, I had been in a dream where I was helping a young woman named Cassandra. The dream immediately vanished from my memory, though, all but her name that is.
That’s when then that I recalled my journey into 5D. The shedding of layers of density, the establishment of a Link and my transfer to my final destinations.
The Seraphim and The Eagle
The destinations for me were two. I was told the first was called “The Seraphim” and the second “The Eagle”. They appeared as balls of swirling energy/consciousness. Yet when I got closer they became locations similar to being in a room or inside a vessel of some sort. I don’t recall much of the environment other than it was familiar to me.
From these stations I joined others (crew members) and we did our “work”. On board the Seraphim which was much larger than the Eagle the work was consciousness-oriented and focused specifically on assisting with Earth ascension on a large scale. For me, it seemed like a place where I obtained my “orders” and conversed/exchanged with others with similar purpose.
The Eagle is where I am stationed and conduct my “work”. The name is symbolic of the type of work being done by those “on board”. It is one of the main vessels for the United States and so the symbol is appropriate. However, our purpose is also inherent in the name – timing, victory and spiritual quest. Eagles are known for their vision and in this I feel a strong identification as do the members of my group. Our vision is what joins us in our purpose.
While aboard the Eagle last night I have specific memory of working with the woman I called Cassandra. What was amazing to me is that I worked with her as her Assistant (guide)! I recall helping her get into what appeared to be a large box but I believe that is just how my human mind processed it. Its purpose was to align her energy but Cassandra was not liking it at all and was extremely fearful of it. Her reaction on a subconscious level projected as a nightmare and this is how her conscious mind perceived it. I do not know exactly what her dream was, but she would have awakened feeling very upset temporarily but it would appear as only a dream to her.
In this Assistance I am in essence a human guide for a fellow human. This reminded me of the encounter I had with one of my healing Assistants. He had shown me the locations where he “worked” on Earth as a healer. I had been surprised to discover he was also currently living a life. Now, here I was doing the same thing! I was once told that I was training to be a guide. I thought it was a future endeavor, not something on-going!
The work of those on board the Eagle is to assist in the awakening of individuals still technically “asleep”. We are assigned to specific individuals per our skill set. I was shown my specific skill set which was accumulated via my past incarnations (the last four were called to mind). I won’t go into detail here, though I want to, but I was able to see the specific lessons learned and why I learned them. So utterly amazing!
I now can clearly that all my lives before this one were to prepare me for my work NOW. It is a bit overwhelming as well and brings a huge amount of satisfaction. My specific work now is as an Assistant-in-training. I am assigned but watched over, similar to a student teacher in that I have progress checks and consultations with my mentor teachers.
Timeline of Concern
There is a memory I recovered that is of concern to me and others in my group. In this memory I am able to see different timelines and zero in on ones of particular interest. It is like I am high up in the sky looking down on a screen of probabilities.
From this vantage point I was able to see a specific timeline that is a probable outcome for the U.S. I will say it was quite disturbing and I do not completely understand it. I saw two massive groups of people, one which looked like a mass of yellow (confused) energy. Above that group was a face. I recognized it as “Bush”. This caused me to retract. I recognized this timeline to be an undesirable. With this came the word “witch hunt” and I immediately thought of Salem and the witch hunts that took place there. It was told to me that there is potential for those of us who are outspoken about ascension and the dangers of the “dark” to be targeted. It also reminded me of the Bible and how those who were followers of the Light were eliminated by the Dark. This gave me a sinking feeling in my stomach.
Seekers of Truth Forging a New Path
I was then reminded of a particular trait of mine (and many other Indigos). It manifests as stubbornness and standing up for what is right. I recognized myself instantly as an Indigo though my Companion says there are many names for the path I travel (he avoids labels and categories because they are limiting). I saw this personality tendency in many of my past lives. I struggle with it even in this life for it pushes me to question and I tend to get very rigid when I know something is not true or I detect deception. It also tends to lead me to isolate myself as it is there to forge a new path, a new path for others to follow. This personality trait or tendency is purposeful in those of us who came to help with the ascension. We must speak out, we must not be afraid to speak out and to stand up for what is right. That’s our job, witch hunt or not, for we are the seekers of truth forging a new path for humanity.
I have so much to share with you all this morning! However, I am unsure how to format all of the information I received. I feel about ready to explode from what I have Remembered!
I am told to start slow so here it goes.
Shifting into 5D: What it Looks Like
Without going into my specific experiences which would be rather lengthy, I will break it down for you.
I am being allowed to glimpse my progression from 3D to 5D. Though far from complete, it is manifesting in me certain “symptoms” for lack of a better word.
Enforced Amnesia
For lack of a better description, enforced amnesia is a phenomenon I am experiencing and have been experiencing for some time now. It is escalating in intensity and becoming quite confusing to me. I experience it like this:
Lost dreams and conversations from dream-time. It is like they are plucked from my mind as soon as I recognize they are there. I am then left with complete amnesia. There is no way to locate even a smidgen of what was there. When it first happened it scared me and left me disoriented. Now it is not as disruptive and only causes me to feel disappointment for the loss.
Sudden loss of memory and connection to my current life. Usually memory is accessible but as soon as I try to locate what anchors me to this life (emotions which sustain and connect me to relationships within this lifetime) it seems inaccessible. This often startles me but this is immediately calmed by an inner Knowing.
Not recognizing myself when I look in the mirror. This is sporadic and accompanied by a feeling of being a stranger in my own life. I At the same time I am fascinated by my “new” face and inspect it with a new appreciation. This has only happened twice so far (thankfully).
I am told that the amnesia is the result of a change in frequency. My human brain is unable to process this frequency as of now and so the amnesia is the result. It is like tuning into a radio station using old, outdated equipment. My brain is in the process of being upgraded but this takes time and until then these amnesiac episodes will continue.
Shifting Timelines
As a result of moving into 5D I have gained the ability to shift into different timelines. Though this is a new phenomenon to my human consciousness, I am told this is nothing new and quite accessible to anyone who has reached this frequency level.
In fact, shifting into these different timelines is in essence what it means to shift into 5D.
Thus far, I have not retained memory of doing this but have instead been reminded and shown in visions (like a return of memory) by my Companion Traveler. This new form of accessing memory is what I have been told will be my norm until the necessary upgrades to my physical body have been completed. My Companion is my direct link to 5D until I can establish it on my own.
Here is the process of shifting timelines and accessing 5D as I was shown:
A Link is established – I was shown several steps. The first is establishing a link. This was shown to me as a type of consciousness “jump” in which I shed layers of energy. It appears like shedding skin or taking off layers of clothing.
Travel to Relay Stations – This is hard to explain and really does not transfer well to human consciousness. However, the way I interpret it is travel to a spiritual hub where there is a group awareness of consciousness. When I arrive I link in to the consciousness, finding similar vibrations to my own and then move out from this hub towards a group destination. It appears like a massive, swirling, ball of colors and energy. There are lines of different colors – pink, blue, green, yellow, white – all swirling together in a great energy ball. These colors then stretch out along energy lines across space and time. These are like highways on which we travel. We are tuned into our specific “road” and so do not go off course.
Destination -From the Relay Station one moves onto other destinations. Some will have just one while others will go to multiples destinations. These destinations appear like balls of consciousness until one “arrives”. Once there, these consciousness swirls condense and separate into specific “locations” from which the individuals focus on their assigned task(s). I am told that these locations are the “vessels” or ships as identified by many who have brought back memories of their journeys to these destinations. The human brain cannot comprehend the experience and thus translates it into something identifiable and familiar.
Share to Expand Understanding
I was told that I am allowed to bear witness to my own transformation in order to help expand understanding of what it means to shift into 5D. There are many channeled messages out there which vaguely define 5D, yet there are not many actual accounts of experiences of such transformation. I am being allowed access to what, for most, is behind-the-scenes information. Many, many are going through this transformation but are not consciously aware of the specifics of the process. They know the generalities and the impressions and images left in their human consciousness. I was shown that the “ships” or “space craft” are such impressions. These are not actual physical objects in space.
What I am being allowed to retain is the experience of my multi-dimensional self and the multiple timelines that exist. It is quite amazing and extraordinary. I was told much of it is beyond the reach of my limited human mind in understanding at this time. This makes me wonder if it will be something within my grasp at a later date. I guess we will see.
I will share my specific experience from last night in my next post.
Today is the second day of low, settled energy for me. I do have some crown, third-eye and heart chakra activity but it is only when I take my mini-meditation breaks. There is an influx of information coming in but I am told it is not allowed to be processed yet. In fact, that is why I named this post “Show All Downloads”. I use Google Chrome and on the bottom, right hand side of my browser window it says “Show all downloads” and that is when I received the message – “You are preparing to download and process information that you have received but that has yet to be released to your conscious mind”.
I secretly wish I could access all the downloads I have received like I do on the computer. Just click a button and see all the files and then read or see what is inside of them. I imagine there are hundreds of files on my hard drive!
Other Strangeness
For two days now I have been picking up on an energy that I believe is trying to influence me in order to pull me down into the heavier, more fearful energies that abound right now. I do not take the bait, but it has peaked my interest.
I don’t feel like it is an entity just an energy. With it usually comes a concern that I will become ill. I see my stomach and feel it is not digesting properly. Yet I am having no issues. This thought/concern has come up several times in the last two days and does not feel accurate. I suspect I may be picking up on someone else’s concerns. I would not be surprised if I find out my Mom or someone close to me got the stomach flu. Considering I am an empath such things are not extraordinary for me.
There is also the “calm before the storm” feeling hanging around. I don’t feel like anything bad is going to happen, though. It is just a feeling of anticipation but it is quite muted. I feel, overall, very calm and stable – very normal. When I feel this way it usually doesn’t last too long. But I have the familiar feeling I sometimes get when things are quiet – I begin to think everything I have experienced is just a dream.
I attended a company Christmas party last night hosted by my husband’s boss. Normally I don’t go to such events but I promised my husband I would. As is normal for me, the large number of people along with the fact that they were consuming alcohol, caused my energy alarm to go off.
I ended up sticking close to my children and away from the crowd in order to cope. When I did this it helped immensely and I found I was able to protect my energy. What is funny is that the more drunk the crowd got, the easier it got for me. It is like once they got tipsy the group energy stabilized and thus allowed me to lower my energy defenses somewhat. I still kept my distance, though.
Toward the end I accepted a rum and coke from a friend. I didn’t drink it all but got reprimanded by my Companion for drinking it. He said, “We must keep this vehicle pure by not introducing toxic substances”. I saw a visual of my liver and understood. Though just a small amount, alcohol can dramatically shift one’s energy. I could see the diversion of energy into channels surrounding the liver while my body was processing the alcohol.
Dream: New Assignment
I struggled to sleep (not surprising after alcohol intake) and when I did sleep it was deep and restful with few dreams. However, this morning I awoke in the early morning feeling “alerted” to something. At the same time my crown chakra was buzzing.
I returned to sleep and had a dream where I entered a classroom full of high school students. I had no idea where I was but knew I was a “new” teacher at this large school. I remember another teacher came in and took over the class, allowing me to help students individually. I felt like the “co-teacher” or “assistant”.
While I was helping a student a female teacher entered the room and confronted me. “Who are you? Are you new here?” I told her I was. She began to tease me in a nice way, laughing and trying to be friendly. She invited me to lunch and I declined, feeling a bit out of my element.
There were two male teachers there as well. They also teased me, making remarks one would make to a newcomer. All was in fun and none taken the wrong way by me.
I could not for the life of me remember why I was there or where I came from. I went into the halls to find the administration and figure out how I got there and where I was. The halls did not resemble a school, though, and I wandered to a waiting area where others sat on comfy couches. I went to the front desk and was told to “Take a number”. I reached for a number but had thick gloves on so it slipped, but it was the number 8.
Then I ended up going to lunch with some others and had a dream within a dream of encountering a dark black wall which I climbed to the top of. It was nasty, like made of sludge. When I got back they had already called my number and I was told I had to draw another one. I showed them my number 8 and they accepted it. I then asked where I was and saw a planet hologram floating in front of me. It was large and resembled Earth but had a very large, dark spot on it similar to Jupiter’s spot only black or dark gray. I got confused as memory tried to surface. I recalled this planet clearly for a moment and then the memory vanished.
Message: Reassignment
When I woke I questioned the dream I had and what was going on. There came into my mind the image of symbols on a gray metal-like surface. I recognized it instantly as a ship and the symbols were familiar. I somehow knew this was not my Home ship so I asked where it was. I saw a planet with numerous rings around it and knew it was Saturn. I saw that the ship I had visited hid inside the rings, becoming a part of them so as to not be detected. I also heard, “Ashtar” which I instantly tossed from my mind assuming it was just my conscious mind interfering.
I thought I was done but more information came. The dark spot I saw on the planet in my dream was symbolic of the “dark”. I understood “dark” to mean negative energy but really it is the “misuse of energy”. The dark spot was over a specific region of Earth and I wish I could remember it better but I want to say it covered all of North American and part of Central America. I don’t know if there are more dark spots (likely) but this was the area I was shown. This is the area where I am located so it makes sense that I was shown this.
It appears that I have been “reassigned” and so was being introduced to a new “crew”. When I questioned this I was told it is a “ground crew”. “We spend most of our time on the surface” was the response I received to what this ground crew is. My dream was symbolic of my introduction to my new crew and new assignment.
There is also a faint memory of an individual, a man, who came forward to introduce himself. He presented to me a hand-written message which promptly disappeared as soon as I tried to focus on it. He was speaking as I read it so I was able to hear him say, “I am…...52“.
Because I was told this ship resides within the rings of Saturn as it observes Earth, I was curious if anyone else had received this information. I found an article that confirmed my suspicions almost right away. I also looked up Ashtar but I don’t know how I feel about it yet. Something about the information I read does not resonate with me so I am inclined to distance myself from this link until it does resonate. Perhaps the reason it doesn’t resonate is because this is “new” territory for me.
For those of you who don’t normally follow my blog, you should know that I do not seek out information via books or the internet unless I am led to do so. Therefore, I do not have background information on Ashtar or motherships in Saturn’s rings. I have in fact never considered the rings of Saturn to be anything other than a debris field.
Prior to bed last night I still felt weird. I had buzzing on the left side of my body and my crown was wide open. Then my left ear began to ring a very high, pitched ring. I felt/knew I was being “called”. I knew there would be a meeting in the night. I didn’t care if I remembered it or not.
As I began to drift into sleep, I began to hear a melody in my mind along with syllables I didn’t recognize. I felt prompted to sing this repetitive tune and the words with no meaning to me. When I did I was hit with a rush or warm, tingly energy that entered through my back at my heart center. It spread to my second and root chakras and was wonderfully comforting. I fell asleep not long after.
Dream: You May Now Exit the Karma Train
My sleep was deep without many dreams. In the early morning I had one very vivid dream, though. A dream about a train.
I was on board a train and it was being bombarded by bombs. The conductor was there, dressed in white. He seemed frantic. I joined him but saw a huge hole in the bottom of the train that had a magnetic pull to it. It sucked everything toward it. I watched a woman in black be sucked into it. The hole was black and ominous.
I decided to jump off the train. I found myself standing in the center of a circular train track. The train went round and round seemingly forever. I just stood there watching, glad to be off of it.
When I woke I knew it was the train of karma. We are stuck on it going round and round and round, over and over. All we have to do is jump off, but so many of us don’t. We don’t even know we are on the train.
Living Life in Between 