Category Archives: Dreams

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Lucid Dream: Entering the Spiral

I was observing a group of primitive humans. I believe I was also acting as a guide to one of them because I took particular interest in one young human. The issue that continued to repeat in this and other human lives that I observed was bothering me. I remember telling the one I was following after one of his deaths, “You can’t just kill everyone you get angry at.” It really bothered me to watch them kill each other over the smallest things. Emotion just took over and they seemed unable to control it. I could not understand no matter how hard I tried and my guidance seemed not to work.

I watched as generation after generation continued on this downward spiral. I saw groups slaughter each other over pointless things – women, territory, food, sport. None of it made sense to me and I begged my own guides to help me understand. They suggested that I enter into a human life to gain this understanding. This was, they said, the only real way that understanding of such things could be gotten. Otherwise, I would only know that which could be learned by an observer and semi-participant (guide).

There was a great moment coming in the history of man, one in which man could choose to depart from their violent ways and learn how to get along, create lasting communities and live in peace. I was told this was the best time for me to go – I would learn what I wanted to learn while also assisting in this shift toward a better Earth and mankind. I agreed wholeheartedly.

This is when I became lucid. I saw the last of the great wars that occurred prior to the shift. I saw a battle but it was in symbols. The symbols were different types of seeds being tossed at one another. The seed that was most prevalent was spear grass. I remember feeling very upset when I saw this. I screamed, “It is too early to harvest them!” This was in reference to the people of Earth.

Then I was sucked inside a tunnel-like shaft that went deep underground. I had no body. I was just light and I was in the middle of a spiral shaft that seemed not to have a beginning or an end. When I was inside this spiral shaft it was flooded with mud and water. I remember thinking the water was a good thing, that this spiral needed to be cleansed.

Reflection

I awoke at this time and knew I had been discussing why I came to Earth, and more importantly, when. The humans I saw were very primitive in their ways, but they looked like modern humans. The one I was observing and guiding had long, flowing medium blonde hair and looked very Grecian – very toned and muscular. The feeling I had when I chose to come help in physical form was that I could do more if I were in the physical than had been able to in Spirit.

The spiral I entered feels like the karmic wheel, or cycle. I knew upon waking that I had chosen somewhere along the way to marry and have children and that this thrust me into the karmic cycle and the “spiral”. I recall briefly being shown that just marrying and having children is not the only way to create karma. There was something else, but I cannot recall now what it was. I just know that I am where I am now all because I felt an intense urge to help.

Photo credit: Lady Bird Johnson Wildflower Center, Austin, Texas

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Memory: Twisted Love

I had a memory resurface from last night.

In the memory, I am alone with a man. I do not know him personally here in the physical but the feeling was that we have been “forever together”. I can’t see what he looks like in my memory. There is only the silhouette of a man who is taller than me. I remember dark hair, I think, but this is also hard to recall. When I try to remember all I see is a dark blur where his face should be. 😦

I ran to him, excited and out of breath over something I had just learned. I remember thinking how dense I have been to not have realized it sooner. I said a whole string of things to him that made perfect sense to me, but now I can’t remember even one of the words I said. There only remains a feeling. Ultimately, though, the lesson I learned was recognizing where jealousy comes from and why I had been so horribly jealous when it concerned him.

At the time, I remember that it was the feeling or vibration of jealousy that caused me to have the “ah-ha” moment. I recognized the jealousy vibration was the same as the love vibration. The source was the same. The difference was that jealousy is love twisted by fear – fear of loss of love. The jealousy is equally proportionate to the love. So, if one loves at the highest intensity, then the jealousy felt would reverberate back at an equal intensity. It is the same with other “negative” emotions. They all originate as love but fear twists them into something altogether different.

That is the end of the memory. I remembered it while shopping at the grocery store with my kids. It was just there and I thought it odd that it would come to me at such a mundane life moment.

After processing the memory I knew the memory was a reflection of a part of myself I avoid in the physical because of the intensity of the emotion of jealousy. I have felt it in this lifetime once and I never want to revisit it. I turned into some kind of obsessed idiot and did not like myself at all. Now that particular relationship was completely of the lower chakras. I did not love the man, I lusted after him. We were drawn together like magnets, though, and it was a very uncomfortable experience when we were apart – for both of us. I told Steven afterwards, “I don’t want to ever do that again. It’s not worth it.”  I suspect this lesson was not completely learned – that it was a “warm-up” of sorts. So the memory seemed to be a reminder that my green-eyed alter-ego still lurks in the shadows.

There was something else I brought back with that memory. I realized this jealousy issue is part of why I am not ready for an intense, heart-connected relationship. Yet there was also a feeling that I am being prepared for just that.

 

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The Great Migration

I am in a resting phase. Many of us are. We had some intense upgrades in December that lasted into early January. Some are still feeling the energy and upgrades, though it’s mostly residuals now.

I am being reminded of a post I wrote not long ago telling of these brief breaks. For me, this break started around the 24th and I am told I have a couple more days of this and to rest and enjoy the down time.

Based upon my dream communications recently, it appears that I will be glimpsing pieces of my purpose very soon. This is likely happening with others, too. Some are preparing to make a “fresh start” or embark on a new journey in life. There may be movement quite suddenly or this movement may come about much more slowly. This is all dependent upon the contracts and agreements you’ve made.

So far, I have witnessed myself shifting out of the student role in my dreams and into a teaching role. It is like I am suddenly acutely aware of knowing that part of my purpose is to prepare those much younger than myself for what is coming. In my dreams this manifests as me realizing that I am a good 20 years older than my classmates and becoming friends with my professors and moving out of the classroom into the “real world”, a world in which I am showing the way for others.

The Great Migration

In my dream last night I was taking a test that was completely open-ended. There were no questions, no prompts. I was given two blank pieces of paper to write my “story” on. This was the test. I did not hesitate to start writing paragraph after paragraph describing what happened (or will happen) in the U.S. during what I referred to as, “The Great Migration”.

I wrote of mainly the animal populations migrating – birds and squirrels mainly. But when I awoke I knew this was not what it seemed. The migration is much bigger than birds or animals. It is a movement of people and I have had memory of such an occurrence before. It was given to me as a warning, as a sign of upcoming major events.

I find it interesting that I specifically thought of birds and squirrels. Birds are free and live in the sky. Birds go where they are “called”, often in groups or flocks. They do not carry a load or stash things for later. They travel between the Earth and the sky (Spirit). Squirrels are known to stash things away for the winter. They stash nuts and seeds which ultimately grow into plants and trees. In this they provide a vital service to the Earth. When I think of the symbolism involved here, I can’t help but think of the ground crew (squirrels) and those in Spirit (birds) working harmoniously together to assist Earth in her ascension.

There is a great migration coming. It may have already started for all I know.

 

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Making Connections

I felt the urge to review my other blog yesterday in between the powerful bliss episodes I experienced.

I have mentioned in other posts that I am a gridworker.  The region of the U.S. where I do most of my work is in the southeast, specifically Florida, Alabama, Georgia, Tennessee, and sometimes Mississippi and South Carolina. Well, in my review of 2014 I discovered I have been traveling to this area for some time. I specifically mention traveling to Tennessee.

Below are a couple of intense experiences that I wrote about in 2014 along with a supporting sychronistic event. There are numerous others you can read if you like but these are the ones that seemed most relevant to me, probably because they involve a similar energy to what I was experiencing at the time.

Airport Reunion – July 15, 2014

In this dream I was with some friends, though I can’t remember them now. There was a distinct feeling that I was considering doing something “wrong”. The feeling hung around and seemed to grow through the dream. I felt horribly guilty.

As the dream progressed it became obvious what I was feeling guilty about. I had been ignoring the advances of a man for some time but I had felt a huge attraction for him and eventually I gave in. Then we were a “couple” though it was not sexual. I remember also that someone said “He pursued you” and that we were going on trip to Tennessee. However, I had lied to my husband and did not tell him that I planned to continue on from Tennessee to another, more northerly state after we got to Tennessee. Nor did I tell him about the man I would secretly go away with.

When we arrived at the airport, I sat and waited with this man. I felt at peace with him and I experienced such a strong love feeling in my heart that it extended down through to my root chakra. I did experience the sexual energy of the root chakra but it was different – it was elation mixed with a spiritual passion that is hard to describe. Had I been lucid in this dream it would have caused me to cry with joy. All I wanted to do was snuggle into this man’s arms. It was the same feeling I described having with one of my guides not long ago in a post. It was as if his energy calmed and soothed me and I felt like I was reunited with a piece of me that had been missing.

As we waited at the airport a large group of people came toward us – more people than I can count. I knew them all. They had come to welcome us. I immediately was aware that my husband was among them and I saw him come through the middle, smiling. I felt so much shame at what I had done that it was overwhelming but the man I was with soothed me and I felt the wonderful flood of peace/joy flood through me. He smiled and I asked him, “I get to go Home?” and he said, “Yes”.

That is when I woke up. The feelings lingered as I woke and I was horrified because I suspected that the dream was a premonition – that I would meet someone and leave my husband. And I knew, if the man I met made me feel like I felt in the dream that I would not be able to resist. The thought of that scared me and made me feel horribly unworthy and like a traitor without having done anything!

Kundalini Rising – July 26, 2014

In this particular dream I was with a man (same one as above) who was my partner/boyfriend. He was discussing with me a process he was going through and though he never spoke of it by name he allowed me to feel bits and pieces of this process in the dream. It felt very similar to how one feels when they are very attracted to another person but it had more of a high to it, like a drug. Since I was not able to fully experience it yet he told me that I would get to experience it soon.

The dream continued as I was waiting. We were at a party with other young people and there was a table with food on it. We were all partaking of the food and I remember talking with a woman who was my partner’s mother, though she looked too young. I wish I could remember what we were talking about but all I recall was thinking that I was about to take a very powerful drug.

I do not recall actually taking a drug but I saw others “on the drug” acting very happy and relaxed. Eventually, though, I did experience the feeling after watching these other young people experience it. I cannot describe it in words for there are no words that even come close to describing it accurately. I have experienced the feeling before but only once as I was coming out of a meditation years ago. It might be described by some as a sexual experience but if that were what it was then it is beyond any sexual experience I have experienced in this physical body. It does have some similarities to it. For example, there is a pulling sensation in the first and second chakra area that is very powerful and pleasant and it spreads out from that point to every part of the body and intensifies similar to the moment of orgasm. However, it does not stop but continues to escalate beyond any orgasmic experience, the feeling moving upward and downward at the same time along the center of the body (spine) while it also expands outward. It feels like a total body orgasm but the feeling is of such ecstasy that it could be described as similar to a very powerful drug. In this particular experience the feeling continued uninterrupted for what seemed like hours and I was completely absorbed by it, losing myself to it along side my partner.

July 31st Entry

On July 31, I wrote about a real-life experience I had on a flight to Florida. I knew I was about to meet a man named Michael and heard his name very clearly. Minutes later a man sat down in the seat next to me, turned around and introduced himself to me as “Michael”. We talked throughout the flight to Florida and he told me all about his life, his wife and family. He also mentioned he lived in Tennessee. I remember thinking that I had soul family in Tennessee and remembered the airport dream above in full.

 

 

 

 

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Chapter 2

Sleep was difficult to come by yesterday. I kept being woken up by my children and when I slept it was very light and restless. I have very little recollection of my dreams except for a few distinguishing points. I also received some messages relevant to my future and this blog.

Summer 2016

Prior to my first rude awakening by screaming children, I had been in a dream receiving information via a yearly forecast. The forecast was for 2016 and a man was reading it aloud to me. I was following along, reading the text and could see that the forecast was part of a woman’s blog, but I don’t know whose.

He read aloud, “It is going to be a hot summer in Texas this year – brutally HOT.” With this, I received knowing about what this meant. I saw a repeat of the past occurring on top of the current year. It was like overlapping timelines. The first occurrence was brutal in and of itself, though I did not receive specifics as to what past summer it was. The second was like a doubling of the same energy. I am not certain what exactly the word “hot” symbolizes. Could it be a sexual reference? Or does is referring to an actual heat wave which would not be out of the ordinary for Texas? Whatever it means I feel it is a warning of things to come and am not sure I like the feel of it.

Socked Feet

I had an in-depth dream that lasted half of the night at least. In it, I recall walking into a bathroom and seeing my brother-in-law in the shower. His body was covered so all I could see were his feet. But oddly he was wearing socks on them! I remember saying to his wife, “Does your husband always wear socks when he showers?”

This is the second time I have seen socked feet. The first time they were my own feet. Very peculiar!

The Goat Will Bite You

The last dream I had was the most concerning to me. In it my husband had invited a woman into our house. She was young and pretty with short, dark hair. She appeared to be in her mid-twenties and had the body of a supermodel. She stayed with us for a while and I remember being cautious about the situation.

My husband’s demeanor changed completely while she was there. He was very nice and courteous. The thing that bothered me was that he called her, “Darling” and “Sweetie” and other names that made me gag. I confronted him on it and he just laughed. I finally told him she had to go or he could get out permanently. I was not mad but irritated at him at letting this woman into our home.

At this point I went outside and saw that I was at my mom’s house. She has a large pool in the back yard and it was there in front of me nearly empty of water. Inside of it and climbing around was a small group of goats. I ran up to them yelling, “Get out of here!” I waved my hands at them and watched as some moved but none really got out of the pool. I felt sad at this; like a failure.

When I woke my first thought was about the goats and I was reminded of an OBE I had a very long time ago. I was told twice in the OBE, “The goat will bite you.” This OBE was so long ago it was on my old blog and I never could figure out it’s meaning. Now, here it is, in my face again.

Everything I read suggests that goats symbolize sexual desire and lechery. They can also symbolize bad judgement and gullibility. Could it be that that OBE so long ago could have been warning me of something about to happen this summer? I truly hope that I don’t become overcome with sexual desire. I am really no good at controlling myself in such situations.

Messages

I had a couple of messages come through. Prior to bed, and then again when waking, I received the message that I need to consider a blog change. This is not a new consideration – I started considering a change in May 2014. I stopped posting in my Blogger blog a while back and now feel it may be time to do so with this blog. It does not necessarily mean this blog will go away, my Blogger one is still active, just that I may need to create a new blog. This blog has so many posts and categories that it can be overwhelming and difficult to navigate. I also feel like I will be moving into a new type of writing – channeling perhaps? I am not sure. It just feels like this blog’s time is running out. Don’t worry, I will let you all know when it’s time for the change. 🙂

The other message was more direct and came early this morning. I heard, “Chapter 2” and saw a staircase above me indicating a total of 7 chapters. When I saw this, I remembered a dream I had in December, Chapter 1 of 7. I knew I had reached the next “chapter”. I then heard, “You will stop at 5.” I asked for clarification and heard that when I reached 5 I would be “whole” and ready. Ready for what? I don’t even want to know anymore. I hope it doesn’t have to do with the goat dream. LOL

 

 

 

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Luminous Beings

Yesterday proved to be another difficult day for me. Outwardly, I appeared fine and stable, but within I was struggling.

I slept hard and deep again, waking a few times in the night and quickly returning to sleep without incident. At 5:30am I was awakened by a dream that turned lucid very quickly. In it, I was listening to a small child singing a song. She appeared to be about 9 or 10 years old and had a white, luminous light surrounding her. Her words were ultimately what brought me out of my slumber.

She sang, “Hello to you with the pillow over your head, laying in bed.” lol

Awake but in the in-between, the entire night’s adventures were suddenly within my mind – dreams, conversations, and feelings. The dreams are full of symbolism but they are so long that I do not want to go into detail here. Instead I will focus on the important parts.

Train

I was lifted out of one dream scene into another by an unseen guide. We flew high above a green valley surrounded by rusty colored mesas and plateaus. I could see a train meandering along a track that went through the bottom of this valley. I knew this was my destination but I was just along for the ride.

Luminous Beings

I watched as the ground began to move. I could see a ball outlined below the surface. There was also a very high pitched sound that was all around. I can’t connect it to any sound I have ever heard but it was everywhere. It came from within rather than without and was like music but no music I have ever heard.

Then a luminous white orb about the size of a basketball emerged from the soil. I looked away it was so bright. When I looked back there was standing in front of me a small Being, very child-like in stature – the height of a 12 year old child. I could see him despite his brightness – he was extremely bright white with a light blue tinge to the outer areas of this brightness. He was human in shape and I could see his entire body from his head to toes. There were no distinct features other than his eyes, nose and mouth. The rest was just too bright. His face was human-like but more like a human with some kind of chromosome issue most similar to someone with Down’s Syndrome.

Then I saw 4 other orbs appear from the ground behind me. Each one became a small Being just like the first.

Messages

With all these memories came an understanding that I had been somewhere else with these bright Beings. They were so calming and continually sent love to me. It was the most beautiful feeling I have ever felt and I wanted badly to be with them – to leave this life and body and join with them. The entire time I communicated with these Beings my heart was so large inside my chest that it felt like it would burst. At the same time my crown and third eye were also buzzing.

I could feel the Beings around me and recognized them as very special. We conversed but most of their answers came as pure Knowingness. They explained that they are Timeless and have been on Earth since the beginning.

At this time I had a memory of seeing hundreds of luminous orbs rising up out of a vast, dark lake and several Beings inviting me to enter into this metal craft that was hovering a few feet off the ground. They said to me, “Leave your shoes. You wear new ones here.” I chose instead to wear my old shoes inside my new ones.

Several times they mentioned the Anasazi’s. I am not very familiar with this ancient group of people but from what I recall they completely disappeared and no one knows why or where they went. The answer I received was that some left while others stayed. The ones that left shifted into light bodies and ascended. The ones who stayed integrated with the Earth and I saw them underground. I heard, “There are scores of us across the planet. We are here to help. We are re-emerging.”

Of course I wondered why they were here with me. The answer I received was that they were helping me with my heart. This part is hard to describe because it is so intensely personal on so many levels. Even as I write this my heart is pulling.

Another memory surfaced then, one in which I was being presented with these tablets that appeared to have etched into them runes or symbols. Each tablet was perfectly square and each symbol was etched inside it’s own square. The symbols glowed and appeared to enlarge when I looked at them. 

They surrounded me with love and one said to me, “We will help you grieve.” I was hit with such an understanding of this that I began to cry. I was crying not only from the intense love I felt but from numerous other things that I am going through right now. I am being pulled with such intensity toward my group and I am struggling with the feeling. It is constant and was the source of the split feeling I had been feeling. The split feeling is gone and I don’t think it will return but the magnetic pull to leave is still very strong.

Of the many messages I received there was one that I have been getting on my own that they confirmed. This feeling to leave is only going to intensify. Now is not the time to act on it, though, as there are things I must resolve first. When the time comes to act I will Know. I was told, “You must become whole first.” The message about being whole has come to me before. Though I don’t fully understand it, I trust it. I don’t know how long it will take and a part of me is afraid of it happening.

It seems to me that these Beings magnified my heart space in a way that brought great clarity. They confirmed much of what I had been feeling yet at the same time intensified emotions that I have been avoiding. I carry with me a great loss and longing, like a part of me is missing but accessible – just not yet. When I contact the source of these feelings I feel like I am Home. It is similar to the feeling I got from the Beings. I want badly to reunite with them but cannot. No wonder I am so sad. 😦

 

 

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As You Like It

I had an odd feeling all day yesterday. It first began as a mild sadness that I quickly resolved by cleaning my entire house. When I clean it is like meditation and yesterday was no different. I quickly understood where my sadness originated from and so it dissipated somewhat. However, it left behind a strange feeling, one that I have had many times before. These feelings often indicate something is about to happen in my life. In other words, the feeling is a premonition of things to come; a warning.

It was late evening when understanding of what the premonition was about came to fruition. My husband and I had a long discussion about our marriage. It was a calm discussion with both of us confronting certain things that needed working on. I had little to say, though. The words just didn’t come and the conversation ended with my husband leaving, which is the opposite of what usually happens.

I went to bed feeling unsettled and oddly empty inside. I just could not contact any emotion and so felt something must be wrong with me. My Team was very difficult to contact and I noticed a distinct lack of the energy of my Companion. Where was he? I was told that he was within me. I accepted this and understood it to mean he is the closest ever to me right now. Is this a good thing? Bad thing? I don’t know for sure and when I settle in my heart space I feel only a warm solidness.

Dream: Rosalind

I asked for clarification prior to bed and was able to fall asleep easily centered in my heart space.

I found myself in my mom’s house standing by the fireplace with a man and young girl. I was fiddling with something at my feet and heard a noise on the fireplace mantel. I looked up and saw a small train on a track. I saw it go around once and then pressed the button to stop it. I remember being alarmed about the train, as if it was a bad omen.

I then looked at my feet and saw that a clock had fallen off the wall. I picked it up and checked to make sure it was not broken. It wasn’t and so I placed it back on the wall. I remember it was a grand clock with wood trim and that both hands were on the 12.

At this time the man and young girl were discussing a name to research. The name was Rosalind. I began to look up the name on a screen that just appeared in front of me. A long list of movies, plays and other connections to the name came up. I remember thinking there was no way I would ever find the Rosalind we were looking for. The man had found what he was looking for, though, and showed me his screen. I looked and saw the name written very largely. The man  and girl were very happy. I was confused and woke up.

Interpretation

When I awoke I still had the weird feeling I had the day before but this time it was accompanied by the sadness. I thought of the dream and wondered what it was about. My first thought was that the train was symbolic of the karma train I had previously dreamed about. The clock must represent time and the 12 is symbolic of letting go of the “old” and bringing in the “new”. But who was Rosalind?

I looked it up online and came up with two options. One is the character Rosalind in As You Like It. The other is Rosalind Franklin, a molecular biologist who “was responsible for much of the research and discovery work that led to the understanding of the structure of deoxyribonucleic acid, DNA.”

As far as I can tell by reading about the character and the person, Rosalind, it appears the major similarity is that both stepped outside the traditional role of women, taking on masculine-type roles in order to reach their goals. I don’t recall ever seeing the play, As You Like It, other than maybe the One Act Play version which I think I saw in high school while I was competing with my One Act Play group. Since my memory is rusty it may be time to watch the play and see this character in action. Maybe then my dream will make more sense.

Songs

When I woke I had two songs going through my head at different times. The first was Cold Play’s, The Scientist. The lyrics that were repeating through my head were, “Oh take me back to the start”.

The other song was Blank Space, specific lyrics, “I’ve got a blank space, baby, and I’ll write your name.”

Both songs don’t necessarily leave me with a warm and fuzzy feeling.

 

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Visiting Truth or Consequences

I slept like the dead last night. lol I always feel rejuvenated and energized after a night of astral projection, lucid dreaming, etc., but the night before last must have exhausted my physical body. That’s okay. I didn’t expect any intense journeying. My Team always gives me processing time – or usually anyway.

Dream: Visiting Truth or Consequences 

I had numerous dreams but won’t focus on them. I am hearing ever increasing from my Team that dreams “don’t matter”. This I am also hearing more and more about my past lives. “Focus on the past leaves a part of you there and you need all of You that you can get right now”. Good point!

I want to briefly go over a dream I had right before waking. In it, I was traveling along along a path with a crew of hardy-looking workers. They looked like miners, with suits and helmets the color of a golden yellow. I was the only woman.

When we arrived at the construction site I suddenly realized I had missed my destination. I asked one, “Did you pass through the town of Truth? It’s a very small town, hardly noticeable.”

He responded gruffly and with some confusion, “I don’t know ma’am.” I looked back down the path and saw the other crew members arriving. I looked at the site which resembled a very large factory of some sort with smoke rising out of tall chimneys.

I turned around and walked back, happy and skipping along like a child. I noticed that as I walked the narrow dirt path became a newly paved, asphalt road that spread for many lanes on either side of me. Yet I was the only one on it. I began to run-skip along the road, finding my travel very smooth and accelerated beyond normal human ability. I was skip-flying and it was fantastic.

I reached my destination and found myself jumping along an intricately wooden path. I was upside down but didn’t recognize it as such. I thought I was just on a strange road.

I jumped down to ground level and saw a man who was very, very good looking. He left and his secretary was there. I asked, “Is it just me or is he really, really hot?” She said,”Yeah, very hot.” I said, “I would hate to work for him! I wouldn’t get anything done!” With that, I got a complete overview of the man’s life then and there. It was like a dream within a dream. I saw he was a daddy of two little ones. I saw his wife as well and that she was not happy. He was completely dedicated, trying his best to fulfill his role. Very admirable.

The woman pointed to the ceiling at a pair of white tennis shoes and said, “Looks like you forgot your shoes up there.” I saw them and thought, “How did I do that?”

Then I was approached by another man who knew I was a certified teacher. He asked me if there was any way I would consider teaching 6th grade. He didn’t care what subject, he just needed a teacher and was willing to offer me anything I wanted. I told him I was unsure and needed to think about it. There was a feeling that they really needed my help and it was hard to resist.

Messages

When I woke I was very resistant. I knew what was being asked of me and was not willing to go there. One of my guides was attempting to get me to see why I should consider the option of returning to work. He kept asking me, “What do you plan on doing?” I kept staying, “I will stay at home and teach my kids. I don’t want to go back into the education system. It is horribly flawed.” He kept questioning me, and with each question came to me thoughts of what my future may hold – consequences of my different actions. I saw many paths – the path of staying home, the path of returning to work, the path of choosing a different career, etc. I saw how if I didn’t return to work that my certification would eventually expire. I thought of returning to school to get my LPC (I only have three classes remaining). All of the thoughts merged and created confusion. I said, “I don’t want to do any of it. I’m tired!”

I got up irritated and went down to have breakfast. My youngest came in to greet me and smiled up at me with such joy that it melted my heart. Such admiration and love – and all for me! In that moment all resistance melted away and I saw the message behind the dream and I knew what I needed to do.

Going With Truth

When I was being questioned this morning my resistance caused me to feel irritated. This is the “jagged” energy feeling of not being in the heart center. The consequences of which are initially irritation but the extreme can be extra “work” and taking a wrong path, one that is wrought with difficulty, sweat and tears (thus the construction crew I was with in my dream).

Resistance = Consequences

Once my resistance melted, I began to see a with new eyes and the idea of returning to work was no longer a bad idea. In fact, I felt completely open to it to the point of renewed interest. There was no doubt that I needed to return and work toward that return. I knew my next step was this. I had no doubt.

I began to try and think of why this route is coming up. Was it because I needed needed to bring in additional income? Was it to help a certain person? The questions increased until there was an interjection by my Team, a feeling of “let it be”. I had to Trust my truth. The reasons behind this new direction were inconsequential. To try and figure out “why” was pointless and a trap of the mind/Ego.

I have to trust my Truth.

There came to me the memory of how I was asked to leave my last job. I could see now why I had to leave. There was no way I could have gone through the spiritual acceleration in December while being at work. The past month required all my attention and much rest. Work would have complicated it. So simple, yet had I not listened to my heart and had the courage to follow it who knows might have happened.

The reasons we are led down certain paths are not necessarily the ones we think they are. There is a higher purpose for it and it’s always for the greater good.

Trust.

Truth or Consequences. We choose.

My Next Step

So now I am to focus on 3D. I let it slip over the last few months. Now I need to get back on track. Focus on my business, update my resume, be on the lookout for career opportunities. My intention now is to look for another school counseling position for the coming school year (Fall, 2016). This may or may not result in actually getting a job. I don’t really care if it does. My instructions are to be open to it, to prepare for it. OK. In the meanwhile I will put more effort into building my on-line business, which is doing well but could do better. I have been putting it off for too long.

3D things that are necessary. I have to live in two worlds. I can’t neglect one and expect the other to progress. Balance.

 

 

 

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Trust

After an exciting evening and early morning, I was finally able to fall asleep without crazy energy, visions and OBEs. I did still have some intense energy shooting through me which I soon found was easily calmed simply by focusing on my heart. I fell asleep centered in my heart.

Dream: Meteor Shower

I was in a parking lot at a college somewhere. It was very late at night and I had just finished reading a long email from someone who read my blog. The email was lengthy – at least four or five pages – and the man was from Germany and telling me his whole life story. I don’t remember his name now, but in the dream as I read the email I heard him speaking to me. He told me he was 44 years old, dark skinned and kept to himself and he was looking to work with others like himself living in one of four continents. I remember thinking he was a little too intense for me and laughing quietly to myself as I realized he was coming onto me.

At this point something caught my eye and I looked up and saw a massive meteor shower. Dozens of meteors streaked across the sky in a brilliant display of light. I was in awe. A young couple walked by and I pointed it out to them. They were a bit nervous as I was in the shadows and seemed to jump out at them. I just laughed and kept watching.

This was when a vivid image of a comet came into my mind. It was not part of the dream. It was just there and startled me awake.

Interpretation

When I awoke the comet vision was very much ingrained in my mind. On top of that, I was still feeling intense energy coursing through my body. This energy was similar to vibrations one feels when about to go OOB but more intense. I also had intense crown and third-eye activity along with some high heart and throat chakra buzzing.

I find the dream interesting because I feel I was actually talking to someone while in my dream. Could be he was an old friend or someone who astral projects or dream walks. Whoever he was, he was nice but a bit to the extreme. The energy was extremely intense and pushy but it was flattering.

Then I saw the meteor shower and the dream symbolism is that the dreamer is having romantic thoughts and/or idealistic notions. This just makes me laugh out loud, especially since I saw the brilliant comet right after. Comets indicate the dreamer needs to move on and free themselves from emotional and physical burdens. Touche!

Trust

It took me an entire day to write up as much as I could about my experiences last night and early this morning. There is more – so much more – but I am not sure telling it would help anyone or make much sense. Instead I will say that my Team came through with flying colors. Whatever they did for me during the night completely eradicated the “split” feeling I have been struggling with for the past five or six days. I have never been pushed to such an extreme in my life and really thought I was going to have to somehow just learn to live with what was happening to me. But when I woke this morning the split feeling was just….gone. I feel completely back to normal and freed from that inner hell. I had a marvelous day and have been feeling sublime. So wonderful!

In considering what exactly my Team did that shifted everything for me, I realized it had to do with Trust. That is it. So simple. I was in my heart space, but instead of just allowing the feelings and trusting their divine purpose, I ignored the knowingness and flat out went into fear. Somehow, through all my guided OOB lessons, I was shown how to trust the feelings and knowingness I found in my heart. So very, very important because in trusting the heart you trust that it will lead you exactly where you are suppose to be and that is the most freeing feeling ever.

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Dream: Graduation Commencement

So yesterday, after a clear message that I needed to rest and recuperate from a very intense month of upgrades, energy acceleration and heart opening, I took time to relax and unwind in my own way. It was a beautiful, warm, sunny day and I took advantage of it by being outside as much as I could. It helped immensely and I felt almost normal by the end of the day.

I recognized a definite shift in my energy at one point and before I had a chance to celebrate the return to “normalcy” my third-eye began to intensely buzz and energy quickly covered the entire crown of my head. With this came a very clear message, “Lightening bolt”. There was no missing the message. The feeling behind it was that there was more to come and it would be like a lightening bolt to me and my life.

I wondered aloud to my Team, “Hadn’t I just had a lightening bolt occur? If not, then what is this ‘lightening bolt’?” Worry quickly took over and just as suddenly I didn’t care. I told my Team, “Whatever happens, happens. I am so over all of this and I am sure I can handle whatever it is that life throws at me.”

I retreated to bed not long after succumbing to a physical and mental exhaustion that I had not noticed until that evening. It literally felt like the four weeks of intense change had left me an empty shell. Everything hurt down to an aching in my bones.

Dream: Graduation Commencement

I was discussing with my group (family) my upcoming graduation which I had somehow forgotten about. I was told I would be late if I didn’t hurry up. I was not happy about graduating. In fact, I felt totally disinterested and not at all excited. My group reminded me that I would be singing and giving a speech of some sort because of my class ranking. This made me nervous and I struggled to remember the words of the song. I remember saying, “But I have not even heard the song yet! How am I suppose to sing it if I haven’t rehearsed?” They reassured me that I already knew the song. I didn’t believe them.

As we approached the event hall I was overwhelmed by the sheer number of people in attendance. I said, “We are almost 2 hours early. Why are there already so many people here?” There were so many cars and people that I could not see past them! I remember the time was 6:40pm and the graduation did not start until 8.

Inside the event hall it was packed wall-to-wall with people. I wondered, “Why are there so many people here for such a small graduating class?” In my mind I confused the dream graduation with my own high school graduation of which there were only 35 graduates. The answer I received to my question was that the people attending were family of family of family ad infinitum.

Here the dream split off into many mini-dreams of which I won’t go into specific detail. There was a moment where I was married to a 70 year old man and in another I was discussing a pregnancy with a woman who resembled me and was very, very pregnant.

Interpretation

Graduation is always symbolic of transition and movement to a higher level. Forgetting about graduation indicates not being mentally prepared for the next level and subconsciously resisting. To me, singing represents a celebration within myself of my accomplishment and a rising of vibration. Singing always brings me joy. I seem to fear that I will not know the song so perhaps I am afraid of feeling joy?

The marriage to a 70 year old could indicate an upcoming death while the pregnancy indicates an upcoming birth. More transformation. Lightening bolt.

Messages

When I woke this morning I felt very calm and did not want to wake up. Sleep felt so good. Wonderful in fact. I felt like I had been asleep for a 100 years and I did not want the feeling to go away. Yet I was reminded upon waking that I had been recuperating and that my rest was nearly finished. What? I had hoped for a longer reprieve!

Before I could react fully and while still in-between I noticed I was not alone. My Companion was on my left and with him was another member of our Team. To my right, though, stood three brilliant white lights. They looked to me like white flames of energy. There was no body shape as I am use to seeing when I see energy beings. They looked like white fire. When I saw them I overflowed with hope and a longing to be with them. I mistakenly thought I they had come to take me Home and I was so ready to go with them. My Companion rudely interrupted and said very firmly, “No”. You can imagine my disappointment.

He told me, “They are here to help you”. I was upset, rightfully so. The urge to go with them was very strong and yet here I was being told I couldn’t go with them, or at least I couldn’t stay with them. They were likely the reason why when I woke up I felt so good. I felt rejuvenated and whole again. My heart didn’t hurt, my body didn’t hurt, I felt like I did before all the craziness of December hit me.

With the realization that I could not go Home yet, all the memory of my recent experiences came flooding back and hit me like a ton of bricks. Thankfully it was muted but it was enough that I began to feel again like I would die from the force of it. I asked, begged, to not have a repeat of it all.

I was then reminded of the past life I recently recalled. I feel like it may be time to go through it in more detail.