Category Archives: Messages

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Three Dreams

Last night I had some odd dreams.

United

I was in a college dorm with a short, dark-haired man. I was looking for a toilet the entire time accompanied by a huge urge to have a bowel movement (when I woke up I only had to urinate). The man with me was discussing our future marriage, indicating it was in the near future. He wrote down something on a piece of paper. It said our marriage “would adhere to the Jewish tradition and follow the Kabbalah”. There was also written a statement relating to our purpose which was to unite the entire world in a similar way. I recall recognizing this man was Jewish and wondering why this was present in my dream along with such an odd message.

Interpretation

A bowel movement in a dream represents ridding one’s self of old habits and patterns of thinking. Since I did not actually use the restroom in my dream then it could indicate there is a need for me to rid myself of old habits and patterns of thinking. The message about the Kabbalah is curious to me as I do not know much about it yet it was very obviously meant to alert me to the unification of myself with my Higher Self (merging). There also is a message that this process applies to the entire world, not just to me.

Plants in the Drain

I wandered into a large, public bathroom. It was in disrepair. The toilets were all clogged or broken and as I looked around for a usable one, I came upon a group of sinks bunched together in the center of the bathroom. When I looked into them there was what appeared to be plants growing out of the drains. The planets looked normal at firs but upon further inspection they moved as if alive and their bases were flesh colored with blood-filled veins that pulsed. They were very gross and I withdrew from them, suddenly worried they would grow large and surround me.

Interpretation

Bathrooms are symbolic of self-renewal and a need to purify one’s self. The drain is symbolic of the need to purge pent up emotions and/or obstacles. The fact that a human-like plant comes out suggests that my emotions if not confronted could get out of control and have a life of their own.

testSentencing

In this final dream I was with a group of young girls being instructed on how to be more positiveand happy. The teacher asked a girl to demonstrate for the class. The girl stepped forward, smiling. She moved her hands to her face, gliding them an inch or so above her cheeks, down around her chin and neck to her heart space. There she rested them over her heart and her face glowed. The woman then asked us all to hold up our hands so she could inspect them. When I showed her my hands she said they were very large and masculine when they should be feminine. I explained it was because I did strength training.

I was then sent along with another group of both men and woman to a room where I was to fill out a “test”. I passed a table loaded with chocolate but it resembled manure so did not eat any.

Inside I laid down next to a man and a white sheet was placed over me. We were then given instructions on how to take the test and all agreed to vote the same way and allow a young girl to stay home. I felt like a part of the jury in a trial. I recall there being 13 total votes.

The test was given and I began to fill out my test. The entire time the man next to me was coming onto me, playing footsie with me and getting very close. I ignored him and thought briefly about breaking my agreement. I wondered to myself, “What if I vote the other way?”

Then the man next to me was replaced with another man. He was the chatty sort and said to me about the other man, “He wanted to have sex with you”. I recall acknowledging this but not being interested either way. My husband woke me up so the dream stopped there.

Interpretation

I am not sure about this dream’s symbolism but I believe I was being given messages about how to reconnect with my feminine aspect and my heart. The voting is odd to me and I suspect I was considering some option regarding this life and my choices.  When I awoke I wanted to return to the dream. I felt like something important had been interrupted. The most memorable of my dreams was the message about the Kabbalah.

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Ancient Oak

I am being asked to consider making a change in my life. This is not a change I am against, by any means, but I recognized early on that this change might be cause for disagreement within my family unit. I have had a sequence of dreams recently that confirms my above suspicions.

Lost Shoes

In this particular dream I found myself looking for a pair of shoes and not being able to find them in my “new” closet. I then searched in my “old” closet and noticed immediately that the clothes hanging in that closet were not my own but the clothes of my baby and children. I quickly located my shoes high up on the shelf and picked up the pair I had been missing and took it to the “new” closet which was located in another room along with my adult clothing.

The symbolism here is interesting. Closets can symbolize and actual coming out of the closet as they typically represent a hidden aspect of one’s self. Searching for lost shoes symbolizes actual searching for one’s self. I seem to have misplaced “myself” within the role of mother and forgotten the other part of me. In the dream I am looking for a part of me I misplaced for a short time.

oak Ancient Oak

In this dream I was learning to become a hairdresser and was meeting my partner and a mentor. Our mentor told us we had been selected to learn from her and that our internship would last two years. She referred to a very old oak tree when discussing our selection saying that it had stood through the ages and through many similar students. I recall staring up at this towering, ancient and awesome tree and being in awe of it. She said that it was in danger of being cut down, though.

Later my partner, who arrived to work before me and stayed many hours longer than me, shot her partner dead in front of me and said something like, “There, that needed to be done”. I remember being astonished in the dream at her blunt, unemotional reaction.

The symbolism here is quite direct. An internship is representative of going to school and learning new lessons in life. Being a hairdresser represents one’s self-image. I am literally learning how to become myself. The oak tree symbolizes stability, endurance and wisdom. It also indicates success is at hand. The incident of my partner killing her husband indicates anger or frustration toward an individual of a similar description in waking life.

Research

An idea had come to me last week which I resisted and it presented itself yet again this morning but in another form. I knew where to focus my attention: transpersonal psychology.

In my research I discovered a couple of universities that offered this degree and certificates relating to it. However, the one that caught my attention was Atlantic University which was formed by Edgar Cayce in 1930.

I did not go searching for this place, I just stumbled upon it. I was at first interested in the spiritual guidance mentor certificate; however, I found the graduate certificate in Integrated Imagery – Regression Hypnosis and wanted immediately to do it. Then I realized: this will not be something my husband agrees with. Not at all.

That is when the second dream made complete sense to me.

The other option I was considering prior to my research today was one that would be more acceptable to my husband. I would do it except it limits the number of people I can help and also limits my income. I wish to be accessible to others while also making a living.

Rather than panic over the whole idea, I am putting it on the shelf for now. I am sure that an option will reveal itself that is suitable to my situation.

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Amazing Grace

The energy event I experienced early this morning was indeed very different from the others. I suspect it is not complete, so perhaps this was just the first “course”.

Crystal Beach

I was walking through a large, brown and gold colored mall searching for an exit. I came upon two glass doors and opened them. When I went into the room it resembled a waiting area and was lit up with a golden color.

A dark haired little girl was at the door and looked up at me. I said to her, “I know you” but she said, “I don’t think so”. I stared at her for quite some time trying to place her but the memory was not there.

I saw that there were two office doors ahead of me. I read their signs but all I recall now is they were businesses offering alternative healing.

I turned to my left to leave and saw double glass door with small revolving doors. I saw outside was bright and very white and thought I saw the ocean so went outside to investigate.

I walked onto a crystal white sand beach that stretched quite a distance on both sides of me. In front of me was the most vividly blue water I had ever seen. It shimmered in the sunlight and the entire scene reminded me of the Arctic except it was not snow nor was it cold. I said, “It looks like snow!”

I looked out ahead of me and saw mounds of snow-like sand piled high and people frolicking about on top of it. There were also tons of people all around me enjoying the beach. I sought out a place where there were no people and saw to my left an expanse of white and blue that stretched for miles, not a soul to be seen. I reveled in the beauty for some time, talking to an unseen companion.

Curious about where I was, I soon found myself floating high above the beach and moving farther away, watching the beach, turned coastline turned continent shrink below me. I saw an unfamiliar continent stretched out before me, the coastline shimmering brightly below me. I tried to say it was India but the shape was wrong. I soon concluded I was not on Earth. This was some other place.

heart_chakra2Healing Session

I then found myself inside one of the healing offices and could still see the beach through the glass door. There was a tall, dark haired man who was “the Dr.” His female assistant I recognized instantly as an old friend in life. I was at ease and knew why I was there.

There was a table in the center of the room. I lay down on it and the woman stood at my left shoulder. She touched it and whispered some words I did not recognize but there was a “P” sound at the beginning of the phrase. This was when the Dr., who was standing on my right at my midsection, began doing his work.

I was suddenly filled with an intense energy at my heart chakra. It felt that my chakra expanded outward and then upward forming a bubble of energy that hung over my entire body like a hot air balloon. The power of the energy caused my legs to involuntarily begin to kick out and I was uncomfortably aware of this to the point that it distracted me from the pleasant energy.

The heart energy continued to intensify and along with it my head was engulfed in energy as well. I was still focused on my legs, however, and this brought the attention of the Dr.

He came to my right leg and asked me to focus on it. So I did and the kicking stopped but the left leg still kicked so high that it was at a 90 degree angle to my body. I focused more and was able to calm it. By then, though, the heart energy has subsided.

Gathering Sand

I was then heading toward a bag and opening it up to retrieve a silver metal bowl. When I picked it up, it began to vibrate and make music. I recognized the music to be, “Amazing Grace”. I exclaimed to my healers, “It’s playing Amazing Grace!” They acknowledged this and the music stopped.

I told them I wanted to gather some white sand for later and was told that my husband was already gathering it. I looked outside and sure enough there he was with my children in the sand.

Then I was holding sand in the silver bowl. It formed into balls, like snow balls, and I held one out amazed at how easily it kept its shape.

My two healers were laid out on the table and so I approached them with the bowl. They had laid out a red, embroidered blanket and the Dr. was on my left and his assistant in front of me.

I accidentally spilled some sand on their blanket on onto the Dr. and laughed it off. Then I felt I needed to sing and began to sing Amazing Grace. Yet the words and melody that came out of my mouth were not of that song but of The Old Rugged Cross. Specifically:

And I love that old cross where the Dearest and Best
For a world of lost sinners was slain.

Refrain:
So I’ll cherish the old rugged cross,
Till my trophies at last I lay down;
I will cling to the old rugged cross,
And exchange it someday for a crown.

The assistant began to sing along with me, trying to harmonize but I was singing to high for her. I kept singing it over and over and then was overcome with tears of joy mixed with longing. I awoke sobbing.

Messages

When I awoke I still felt the energy lingering over my body and knew that I had received intense healing. My guide was there and I knew what the song meant. The song is symbolic of so many things: my Christian upbringing, how life’s sufferings will one day end with a reward, how that reward is reunion with myself/the One. I was hit with knowingness that I am soon to be done with my lives on Earth, only two more. That I am the one who determines what “level” I am at – there are no generic levels. I am learning to be a guide and am currently doing that, though I have no memory while in the physical body of doing this. This life has been successful (I was taken through parts of it and asked to evaluate them) and has gone as planned. I asked how this “success” will be experienced after death. I was shown/told that when I return to Myself there will be a great ripple of energy sent out and I will be the center of it. Every One will know my jubilation and I will be More than I was before this life. The result is a celebration of Self that is indescribable in human terms and experience.

I was also told:

  1. I am purging my heart chakra of the “things I have done and that have been done to me”.
  2. The Dr’s name is Saul and his assistant’s name is Rebecca.
  3. The Higher Beings who have been in contact with me are three. I got the name Azriel this time along with Melchizedek but resisted this. When asked by one of these Higher Beings why I was resistant, I realized I did not feel worthy.
  4. I am to listen to my heart when I find myself resistant to the messages I receive.The feeling will not lie.
  5. I am Worthy. This message brought more tears and intense emotional release.
  6. The name of the place I visited is Jelung pronounced, “Ye-Lawn”. I spell it the way I was shown but it was not written in English letters. I was told it was a place “Created for me” and “of healing”.
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Energy Swap

When I awoke this morning, I was succinctly aware of a message coming through to me from my guide. The only perceivable word I was able to extract from the feeling was “swap” but I understood immediately what it meant and its importance to my personal “shift”.

Vacation

I recalled instantly a dream I had where I was swept off to a tropical location somewhere in the area of Mexico.

The main parts of the dream that came to mind were getting into a vehicle and going to a parking lot. I said to my companion, “Parking costs $3”. He replied, “That’s not a lot. We have to pay $15 pesos”.

Then I was braiding the hair of a woman and talking to her. She was very anxious and uncomfortable and I was instructed to tell her to trust herself and the process. She then remarked that she was very hot and so I went to a box where I clearly saw markings indicating levels of degrees. I turned up the knob and a burner near the woman lit up very high, the flames reaching almost a foot into the air. I then knew it was time to lower them and so did, watching the flames subside to a very low level.

Messages

These images of my dream went along with the message from my guide and came with a feeling of nervousness. There came afterward a conversation which, unfortunately, is mostly lost to me. However, the main messages got through.

Swap

There will be, for me and others as well, an energy swap that will occur and has already begun. I don’t understand it completely as the message was more feelings and images than words, but from what I can gather, I will be swapping energy with my guide (Higher Self) and this will occur in small increments throughout the week with a major event around the 21st. The activity will mainly be felt in my third eye and crown chakras. The after-effects of the major event will be similar to what I have previously experienced but will last quite a bit longer. I understood this to mean that I will experience: confusion, inability to think clearly or in a concrete and linear way, sudden influx of ideas and info without the ability to express them, energy spikes throughout the physical body, and other overload symptoms.

Trust

It is important that I trust the process and do not resist it and it was asked, “Do you trust me?” When I heard this question I completely relaxed and my heart chakra began to overflow and I just wanted to melt into my bed. So I do not doubt that I will fully trust and surrender to this next shift.

Intensity of Energy

It was made clear to me that this process will be intense. I must not have understood or taken the message seriously enough because it was repeated to me, “It will be intense” and I saw the flames from my dream as they rose higher and higher and my body became overly hot with the memory. I asked if it would be like the other experiences I had and was told, “It is never the same”.

I was warned to remain centered in my heart at all times and advised of coming tendencies to become the effect of overly high and unencumbered negative emotions. Anger, spite, unhappiness, depression, jealousy and more negative emotions will be on the rise.

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Lights in Astral

I went to sleep upset over a Yahoo article I accidentally saw when perusing the site. The article was about a woman in Pennsylvania who died of a drug overdose and then her 9-month-old son died of starvation/dehydration along with her because no one knew she was dead for at least two weeks. I cried when I read it and then couldn’t get it out of my head. Upon sleep, I asked to astral and to stop thinking of the article.

Lights in Astral

I woke up many times in the night, all from disturbing and vivid dreams. The last time I woke I asked to astral and fell back to sleep.

I woke up within a dream and then immediately felt my body and subtle vibrations that indicate exit can occur at any time. I hesitantly rolled out of my body, worrying that I may not be aware enough. When out of body I felt the typical heavy energy that usually comes immediately upon exit. I could see but not well and so I began to move away from my body. Interestingly, I got the urge to look back at my sleeping body. I turned around and looked, seeing an empty spot on the floor of a room. My vision was clear but had that jumpy energy look that is typical of whatever level of astral I am in. I knew then that I was not in real-time and for some reason projected to my old room in my mom’s home.

I went toward the bedroom door and stopped to look at myself in the mirror as I passed. I saw myself quite clearly and without distortion but I had several small zits on my nose which are not there is real life (face is clear).

Moving on, I instantly jumped into the living area and there in front of me was my middle son wearing a bright red jumper. I watched as he walked toward me. The room was brightly lit and he was the only one there. I focused on him more and saw that it was not my middle son by my youngest. As soon as I noted this he turned around and walked away from me.

With a thought I was at the front door and out of it. I felt for a moment that maybe I should not go out but think this was me worrying more than anything.

Outside it was dark but there were lights in the distance that shown so brightly that I was in awe of them. One was on my right and bright white shining as if a car had its headlights on me. The other was to my left and was a reddish-pink color. Before I could take it all in I blurted out, “Show me what I am not seeing”. I had not intended to ask this so it surprised me that it came out of my mouth.

I watched as the light on the left changed color. The one on the right would turn golden colored and then go back to white. As I watched, a song flew from my lips. It was so intricate and lovely, yet I do not know the song now. I began to sing what I was seeing – the green light and the gold, the blue light and the gold, the green light, etc.

At some point I wanted desperately to see the light and my vision blacked out. While in this state I still sang and I grabbed the clothes from my body and tore them off. It felt like I tore off a life vest. When I did this I began to see the blue of the morning sky to my left yet at the same time on my right it was still dark and the colors continued to flash.

I then noticed my voice as I sang and thought, “I don’t sing like that”. It was an unfamiliar voice and noting it brought me back into my body quickly.

higher-selfOBE Return

As soon as my awareness came back to my body I thought, “I want to go back” and rolled out again.

I was again inside my mother’s house and in front of me was my youngest child. I also felt the presence of my guide, though I could not see him. My vision was clear and bright with a golden hue to it.

I walked toward the door and this time noticed a brightly lit Christmas tree standing to the left of the door. I remember thinking it odd and then heard my guide say, “December 25th”.

We went outside to a clothesline. On the clothesline were hung two energies of individuals. One was a “father” energy and the other was a “antagonist” energy. Neither was familiar to me. I was instructed to look at them. I was asked if they could be removed and I responded, “I don’t think so”. My son said, “Look, yes they can” and pointed to a metal clip that was near the antagonist energy. He attempted to remove it and the scene went black.

OBE One Last Time

When I came into my body I again heard, “December 25th”. I said to my guide, “I want to go back”. He indicated my energy would not allow it much longer. I understood but still wanted to return.

I again rolled out of my body but could not see. I said, “Clarity now” and my vision came on, though slowly. In front of me was my youngest son clear as day and very close to me. His little face identical in every detail. I did not feel anything when I saw him, though. It was as if I was merely observing him.

I heard my guide say some things to me but most I do not remember now. The entire time he spoke my son’s face was directly in front of my own. I do recall that my guide was telling me that although I struggle with my third child, he was more a blessing to me than I knew. That is when my guide said to me, “He will be your best friend”. When I heard this I was filled with love and relief and a knowingness of my son’s purpose in my life. I reached toward my son and hugged him close to me. He then disappeared and I felt to be one with him.

I awoke in my body, my left arm numb at the bicep.

Factors Influencing Projection

Lucidity scale: 6

Intent stated?: Yes

Time to bed: 9pm

Time to wake: 11:30pm, 5:30am, 6:30am, 8am

Meditation?: No

Physical Exercise?: Yoga

Mood: normal

Body: Nasal congestion/allergies

Tiredness: Low

Number of wakings: 4

Technique?: WBTB

Sleeping position: Right side

Supplements: Multivitamin, Natural Calm 400mg, Sleepy Time Extra Tea, Biotin 1000mg, Evening Primrose Oil 1300mg

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Avatar

My eventful night continued after the dreams of going to college.

Avatar

I found myself again semi-lucid and walking through the streets of Hollywood with a man. We stopped at a night club and he pointed out a well known actor, wanting to stop and take a picture with him. I suggest he not do that and when I did the actor turned and began to urinate on the side of the building. He was clearly drunk.

We went inside and the nightclub was pretty full. The lights were purple and in front of us sitting on the floor were two half-naked dancers chained to the bar. I looked around and saw large screens playing videos of light shows and some of what appeared to be video games. I went over and picked up a game control to investigate.

The next thing I know I am transported from the nightclub scene into a new, aqua-green world. I enter into a body and begin flying and exploring this new world. It reminded me of the movie Avatar. The experience was clearly an OBE but I was not fully lucid and most of it is lost to me now. The most memorable is the blue-green water and waterfalls that were in abundance on this world.

Healing

I awoke to buzzing energy in my body that jumped from one chakra to the other. The energy was constant around the crown of my head and I was very aware that I was receiving healing. I felt very calm and relaxed and lay there for some time just enjoying the energy as it flowed through me.

When the buzzing stopped I fell back to sleep and into a dream with my husband. My root chakra was excessively active and I kept trying to initiate sex with my husband but we kept being interrupted by our children. I awoke to buzzing in my root chakra. I tried to will the energy upward, hoping for the amazing total body orgasm that sometimes follows. I then heard my guide say to me, “Not yet. You cannot force it”. I wondered when and heard, “In two days”.

I fell back to sleep and awoke late in the morning. I immediately thanked my guide for I knew so much had been accomplished in my sleep and I was so very grateful. I heard him respond, “You’re welcome” and laughed. I could still feel the energy around the back and top of my head and recalled the message from during the night. My guide responded to my thought, “In one day”. I was confused at first and then realized that it was a new day so the message had been altered.

I wonder what Tuesday will bring?

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Ominous Vision

Last night, as I lay in bed and just moments after mediating and hearing a ringing in my left ear, I saw a very vivid vision that came with a message.

The vision was of a city street. The silhouette of a man was in the front, left of the scene. Behind him it was dark and there rose up a figure with large, dark wings. I could not see the features of this figure, very obviously an angel, but his wings were immense and took up the entire background. Suddenly the wings burst into flame and the dark angelic being rushed up behind the man and moved him forward. He said, “Get away from Huntington, Alabama”.

This, of course, brought me out of my reverie immediately. I got out of a bed repeating the city name so as not to forget it and did a search on Google. I could not find Huntington in Alabama but I was able to find Huntingdon College in Montgomery, AL.

What is odd about this experience is that prior to meditating I had been feeling “off” and noticed I had 12 guides/assistants around me. I was instructed to focus on my body, which I did, and felt a strong pull in my second and third chakras. I spent some time focusing on what the feeling meant and pushing Ego out of the picture so as to get the truth. Then I heard the distinct, high pitched ringing in my left ear. I wondered about it and when it went away my thoughts were clear and I was in a light meditation. Within seconds I had this vision.

When I returned to bed to try and sleep I only had 10 guides/assistants and was able to easily fall asleep.

I do not recall ever having a vision like this before. I have had dreams with messages about other people/events (Katrina for example), but not visions. I feel I need to post this vision in case it is precognitive. If you know anyone who lives near Huntingdon College or uses the Huntington Airport to fly to Alabama keep this vision in the back of your mind.

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Kundalini Resistance

I couldn’t sleep last night. My baby has been sick and my husband left town on a business trip. I asked for help from my guides and fell asleep around midnight.

Penthouse Suite

I became semi-lucid in a dream. I was being escorted into a nice hotel room. Inside, the room was very bright white. I felt out of place, though, and nervous. As I was settling in, someone brought by dinner, which I wasn’t expecting. I went to check it out and began taking it out of the containers and putting into smaller ones for my daughter. What is odd is that the food wasn’t food, it was water.

I was interrupted by a knock at the door. I answered it and a woman with blonde hair wearing business attire and high heels came in. She was clearly a hotel representative. She told me she came to check on how I was doing. She saw the mess I had made with the sorting as she took me to one side of the room. It was then that I noticed the entire side of the room was floor to ceiling windows that overlooked a city. The woman put her hand on my shoulder and remarked about the view. I stared out at the city lights in awe.

The woman mentioned the food mess and said, “You should have your assistants take care of that”. I was insulted and said, “What? You think I can afford to pay assistants?” The woman smiled and looked at me. The feeling of our discussion was that I was promoted to the next level and needed to focus on my “work” and let my assistants handle the small stuff.

The woman left and I went back to my daughter and the food (water) sorting. At some point I was hit with an odd sensation that in the dream felt like I had been mildly electrocuted. It alarmed me and I assumed it came from the cell phones and instructed my daughter to turn hers off. I also turned off mine.

A man came into the room at this time. He was tall with dark hair wearing a professional looking suit. He picked up the black phone and turned it on. I freaked out and told him, “Don’t do that”. I was in a panic and overcome with an intense fear.

colors dropplet ripples waterKundalini Resistance

I awoke completely immobilized by intense bolts of energy shooting through my body at multiple locations. The energy was not painful but it was not pleasant and I could not shake the sheer panic I was feeling. I knew what was happening – kundalini – but I was not happy about it and completely resistant for some reason.

The energy was coming in from above and to my right, shooting down my body at an angle and exiting my left side. I felt it in multiple places at once – my shoulders, head, mid-section, hips. The sensation was similar to the pain felt when an exposed nerve is lightly touched. It made me grit my teeth and hold my breath.

With these jolts of energy was the strange new vibration I felt the night before. There were also hypnagogic images flashing intensely in my mind. With each flash there was a new image. They were in black and white and pink but I cannot remember what they were now. At the time I just wanted it all to stop.

When the strange energy subsided I asked what had happened and heard, “You resisted. You changed”. The hypnagogic images continued and I sent a thought, “Go away”. I was then shown a vision of me standing at a door. Right above the door knob was a sparkling, golden line of light that spread across the entire room and through me at my heart center. It appeared like golden glitter suspended in the air. Below and above the light was clear air. I didn’t know what to make of the vision. I wondered why the energy was somewhat painful this time. I heard, “Even the calmest of water will sometimes ripple” and saw an image of a placid lake become choppy with small waves. I fell asleep not long after.

Lesson? Resistance is futile.

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Cassiopeia

I was awakened from a particularly odd and intensely vivid experience last night. I was semi-lucid to lucid during the experience, which made it that much more intense, but I do not recall the sensation of leaving the body.

Cassiopeia

When I first became aware of being in this dream experience, I was with a guide who I could not see but could hear clearly. The guide felt male to me and was asking a female who was with me to point out her star in the sky. She pointed upward and the entire scene shifted in a circular motion, as if we were rotated in some way. Above us the entire night sky opened up and a bright star was located, focused upon and then magnified. I got extremely excited at this time but do not recall what we talked about regarding this star. I knew it represented a planet, though, as the image when magnified was of a planet and not a star. I do not remember now what the planet looked like.

The male guide who was with us then asked me, “Where is your star?” I eagerly pointed to the opposite side of the woman’s star. It was low on the horizon and very bright. “There”, I said.

Again, the entire scene around us shifted with us in it. I felt to be in some kind of circular craft or ship but could not identify it as such. However, I could see the massive image of a planet behind me. I assumed it to be Earth as it was full of blues and greens like Earth. It was just behind me in my peripheral vision and I knew then that I was not on this planet but above it actually in the night sky!

I focused on the night sky and saw my star/planet. I was very happy that we were focusing upon it. As I watched, the planet became magnified to the point that I was actually standing on it. The woman who was with me was now gone and it was just me and this being/guide. I say being because at this point he felt foreign to me and very, very intelligent and wise beyond anything I have felt from my other guides.

I found myself standing upon a blue, spongy ground that appeared to be in layers. Looking at it from above, it appeared like feathers layered upon feathers of blue.The blue was vibrant and bold and I thought nothing of it being there. It was as it should be.

I was extremely excited at this point, looking upward at the night sky from my position on the blue spongy ground. I could see platforms of similar blue material above me and asked permission to “fly/jump” up to these platforms. I got the go-ahead to explore from my guide who seemed to enjoy watching my excitement. There was a paternal feeling coming from him and I felt very much like a child embarking on an adventure of learning.

I was hesitant at first about whether I could make it to the first platform. It was oval and loomed about twenty feet above me. I could see other platforms above and to the side. They seemed almost like a staircase leading up. I saw nothing but black void above so it is no surprise that I was intimidated.

I jumped up but failed to make it the first time. I got encouragement form my guide so tried again. This time I made it.

The next thing I knew I was in a city that appeared very modern but it is a city without walls. The rooms and buildings (not sure what to call them) were divided by low walls that were short enough to step over. I went directly to a seat near one of the low dividers and sat down. I remember someone talking to me then, a female who I could not see but who was on the same level as me and was my “friend”. We were talking about eating and I saw spread out next to me food in a display waiting to be eaten. I don’t remember exactly what the food was but in my mind I saw it as “dessert”. I recall taking a bite and being encouraged to eat more by my friend who was thrilled that I was there. I told her, “I am saving it for later” and said something about it being “mine” and always being there and available to me.

My consciousness got the better of me at this point and I pulled myself out of the “dream” and into the “in-between” state. I stayed there in the void for some time talking to the guide who had shown me this mysterious planet of blue. I could see clearly in my mind a vision of the planet I had been hovering over prior to visiting the blue place. I had thought it was Earth but it did not appear as Earth. It was too large and the land masses were not the same. Plus it had odd cloud formations that swirled and had a golden coloring in them. I blinked to get a better look and the image did not falter. I wondered silently, “Where am I?

To my surprise I got a clear answer, “Cassiopeia”. I repeated it, “Cassiopeia” and heard myself corrected with, “CassiopEIa” (emphasis on the long E sound).

I felt true admiration for the name and the planet at this point and kept repeating the name so I would not forget. In the midst of my repeating I heard, “We are here”. This threw me and I began to have my alien considerations and so began to reject that any of the experience was real. I was instantly calmed and remembered then that my origins prior to Earth were likely alien and so relaxed. I did not completely reject the possibility but was not receptive to further communication.

When I opened my eyes I heard a final message, “Expect change”.

Space Traveling

I spent the rest of the morning in dreams that are hard to recall. I do, however, remember flying through space with my guide at one point being taught about different planets. I know I was on the moon of one of them being shown a planet. I wish I could remember more of what I saw and experienced but I must have been too curious and so was only allowed to recall some of it.

by

Be Aware

Last night was full of intense dreams.

Grandmother

In this dream I was with someone and we were walking through a parking lot looking at what appeared to be a water tower. I was being instructed on how to move the water in order to put our fires. I remember only that the water tower was one of those old metal ones that an individual might keep on a farm.

Then I saw my grandmother walk by and exclaimed, “Did you see that! It was Nanny!”. She appeared younger than when she passed, probably around my age instead of 89. Her hair was short and dark brown and she just walked by without looking at me.

Later, I was sorting through some things for my grandmother. I was in the “bunk house” and sitting on the floor. I was putting tiny bits of food into bags. Someone was saying to me, “Nanny is here”. I replied, “Nanny is dead, she can’t be here”. They continued to say it and I continued to sort the food until finally I took note and thought, “Nanny is here?”

The next thing I remember is sitting in my mother’s living room in her leather recliner. My grandmother was there with me and talking to me. She appeared different than normal, though. Her face was older but her body was that of a small child.

She came up and hugged me and I let her. But she smelled odd. Sweet and sickly. I didn’t like the smell. She smelled like the old people at a rest home. She smelled like death. I remember shying away from her bare skin but allowing her to hug me. I felt repulsed by her, but I loved her.

She curled up into a fetal position and I felt helpless and wanted to run away. She looked up at me and said, “Please don’t let me suffer. Please don’t let me suffer”. I jumped up with her in my arms and gave her to my mom who was sitting on the sofa next to me. I placed her curled up child body in my mother’s arms. My grandmother’s body began to look a lot like my middle son. He/she said, “Please don’t let me suffer”. I felt an overwhelming amount of guilt at the sight of seeing her/him and was overcome with grief.

I awoke in tears.

Reflection

I awoke and could not stop the tears. I understood what we had been discussing in the dream. I began to avoid my grandmother as she got older. I felt uncomfortable around her. I could sense death coming to her. I could smell it. The whole house smelled like it. Towards the end I forced myself to visit her so she could meet her latest great-grand son. He was already a month old when I finally went. I let her hold him and took a picture. I felt like running out of there as fast as I could. I always felt like that when I visited her toward the end.

When my grandmother was in hospice, I took my entire family to visit and we sat around and sang hymnals to her. She opened her eyes when I said hello to her and stared at me for some time. Her pupils were small and fixed. My mom said she likely couldn’t even see me.

I watched as my mom moistened my grandmother’s lips with glycerin. The hospice would not give my grandmother any water or food. My mom was torn up over this. She did not know this is what hospice did. She did not think she would have to sit by and watch her mother starve/dehydrate to death. I felt wretched inside. I was willing my grandmother to go, to be at peace.

I wasn’t there when my grandmother passed away a day later. I knew when it happened, though, and I felt such relief. My grandmother was finally out of her prison.

The next week my grandmother visited me often as I drove to work and throughout the day. She was around me for about a week straight. I told no one in my family. She was happy and full of energy, so unlike the woman I knew in life. I knew had I known her when she was younger that we would have had great fun together. She was adventurous and mischievous in youth. Oh how life had changed her!

Then I remembered the article I read about measles. There was a personal account by a woman in her 90’s who lost her 6 year old son to the illness. There was a picture. He looked just like my middle son. I broke down into tears at the thought of losing my son. I believe that is why the dream showed my son in the end. I so fear losing him.

I recognized my fear of what death does to the physical form. The smell. The decay. The void that follows a loved one’s departure from life. Illness and old age show no mercy. It is so difficult to confront that in life. I hate that I avoided my grandmother because of it. The guilt was present in my dream. I believe she was there helping me as part of her revitalization and as part of my healing. I mentally sent her a thank you and an I love you.

Message

I fell back to sleep and had dreams about work which I will not go into. When I finally awoke my husband would not let me return to sleep. I ended up dozing in the “in-between” state until I finally got up.

During this time I saw a very clear vision. In front of me was a simple, silver, metal lunch box. It had raised lettering that said, “Be Aware” on the top. Below those words it said, “Change Ahead”. At first I read ‘Beware” but I felt my attention drawn back to the top words and saw it was, “Be Aware”. I was corrected in order to see the correct message.

Be aware: Change ahead.

When I questioned what “change” this was, the answer I was given was a visual of my chakras from bottom to top.