by

Visions

My recent communication with my Council about the state of the planet seems to be coming back to me day in and day out. I try not to think much on the changes coming but that seems not to matter. Every day there is something, some news or some current catastrophe, that brings it to the forefront.

Visions 2003

One of the most upsetting aspects of my initial spiritual awakening was the spontaneous visions and knowingness about what was to come. I don’t talk about them much because I don’t like putting that kind of negative information out there, just in case I may contribute its manifestation. Yet evidence is showing it is manifesting despite my holding back what I saw.

What did I see? I will tell you now as I feel it is relevant and believe what my Council said – there is not much that can be done about it. All we can do is prepare. That is why the information is given, so that we may prepare.

Changed Coastline

One of the first visions I had was similar to the featured image of this post. It was a detailed map of the United State. My attention went directly to the Mississippi River which was completely unrecognizable because it was flooded hundreds of miles beyond its banks. The next thing I noticed was the almost complete lack of Florida. It was just….gone. There was also a huge chunk of Texas’ coastline submerged and much of the southern United States was in the same boat.

I did not look much at the West but I knew that California was gone. I also knew a chunk of it was lost to an earthquake, sinking it further into the ocean.

You can imagine how I reacted to this. At the time I tried to stop the images, but to no avail. I then panicked and was reassured I would be okay. The time frame for this was beyond my lifetime but I would be witness to these changes as they gradually occurred.

Articles such as this one – Sea Rise Threatens Florida Coast – do not surprise me. They only confirm the inevitable is on its way.

War Zone

Another upsetting vision I had was of standing amidst the rubble of a war zone. I happened to be standing on a familiar area – a school in a flourishing city near a military base. The devastation was beyond words. Nothing was left. It was all ash.

I knew it had been bombed and many had died. I again panicked, thinking it was the near future, but was reassured it would be during a time when I was far from the area. I still worry about when it will happen but feel there is not much I can do about it.

Great Migration

Another vision I had was of a great migration of people from areas of high population to areas of low population. This is in part due to the crazy climate changes, flooding, hurricanes, tornadoes, earthquakes, drought, and civil upset. You can image the kinds of upheaval this will cause.

What I saw for the U.S. was movement inland. First it would be toward the mid-west but as the changes increase more and more people will move into areas that are now less populated, specifically the mountain regions of Nevada, Utah, Montana, Wyoming, New Mexico and Idaho. Looking at the map, you can see why this would be.

The weather changes will be weird as well. This will be in part due to the tropic and subtropic zones shifting. With the change in the poles, this is a normal occurrence. For the U.S., the tropics will be shifted north into the southern part of Texas, extending the subtropics into the Midwestern regions. Right now the tropic of Cancer goes across central Mexico.

2050

The year I kept getting was 2050 as a tipping point. Before that, denial will be rampant. People don’t like to change their ways. They will stay despite knowing it is not in their best interest. Government changes will also cause much turmoil and I saw another period where civil war was a very real threat. As for actual war occurring, I never saw it, just the possibility of it. I mostly picked up on terrorism and similar activities along with upheavals in Asia and India.

I also knew there would be epidemics. I don’t believe it is biological warfare, but I did not get specifics causes of these occurrences, just that they would occur.

Not a Scare Tactic

Honestly, I am not trying to scare anyone anymore than my visions were meant to scare me. It is just a warning giving us time to prepare.

There is evidence of these things happening now if you look for them. I was told to stay put; not to change locations. I am safest where I am for the time being. I trust I will know if I need to move my family. I know I will be safe and often times see a vision of myself standing in the middle of a hurricane-like storm of change. I stand in the eye, untouched in the calm, while chaos erupts around me.

by

Dream Themes

The sleep disturbances continue.

I have been medicating my sleep with Benadryl so that I feel rested in the morning. However, for the last couple of days I have felt I should not take it. In this time I have come to understand why. I was missing dream messages and it was time to take notice.

The change in my sleep patterns is obvious. It goes like this: I struggle to fall asleep and when I do, I wake immediately after a dream. I fall asleep and the cycle continues. I woke about five times last night and each time from a vivid dream.

Eyes

In the past two night I have had dreams where I am fiddling with my eyes. In the first dream, I was putting in my contact lenses. One of the lenses was a large, pink pill the size of my eye! I saw it, thought it odd, but went ahead and inserted it into my eye. I blink and it dissolved into my eye and I went about my dream without issue.

In last night’s dream I took out my contacts because my eyes were dry and placed them into large, square dishes the two hands in length. A woman questioned me and I told her, “My eyes are dry, so I am giving them a break”. I later put them back into my eyes as I was leaving the scene of the dream.

Eyes symbolize enlightenment, understanding, subconscious, and awareness. They also indicate there is something that is being seen clearer than it may have been in the past. I seem to be playing with my awareness in my dreams – noting how I can choose to “see” or not see. The pill is interesting and in itself indicates restoration and healing. It is pink in color, representing love. In the dream I am inserting it into my right eye which indicates that I am accepting of healing of my physical self.

Manifestation

Another dream theme I am seeing involves exploring possibilities and manifesting desires. In one dream I allowed my husband to buy us a new house. He bought a mansion and inside I explored the rooms. He spent $410,000 on the house, which was twice what I thought we could afford but I shrugged it off. Inside the house there was a room that was elaborate with gold embellishments and a huge drum set that took up half the room. I remember thinking, “This room is not necessary”. The kitchen had small, shallow, black filing cabinets lined up inside it. I remember talking to my husband about the files we could put inside them.

When I woke from this dream I immediately thought, “I need to manifest what I want”. There was a feeling that I am too self-limiting when it comes to material things in life. It is time for me to allow myself to have more. This was what I was exploring in the above dream. It exposed my belief that having too much is excessive as represented by the room with the drums. The filing cabinets represent things I store or file away for use in life such as beliefs I hold on to.

Celebration

There is also a theme that indicates I have much to celebrate. In last night’s dream I was waiting in a doctor’s office to get my papers to go home. I was with a group and we were transferred to a room where there were people gathered to remember a passed loved one. There were images of the person who passed and everyone was grieving but I felt no grief for him as I watched images on a screen of his life. In the images the man was gutting his house and there were tubes all over the place. He died as a result. I recall feeling connected to him and happy for his successful transformation. We were then were led to another room and all let out a cheer together for our accomplishment.

When I woke from this dream the leg I had surgery on was covered in healing energy and I had a feeling that all was well.

by

Separation from Ego

As this day draws to an end I am finding myself contemplating my recent change in mood. I have been angry most of the day at my husband. What I began to realize, though, is that the anger I have been feeling is not real. It is like I have been mocking it up and putting energy into it. When I take time to inspect the anger it seems fake and hollow. It has no depth to it. In recognizing this, it vanished.

Interestingly this came with the thought: I am not anger. I am joy.

When I look back at times when I am calm, happy, peaceful or joyful, these emotions are not hollow. They are real.

Anger just feels untrue. It feels self-created.

It is Ego.

I feel quite satisfied with myself right now in my ability to spot this lack of truth and end it. In doing this, though, I ran into that crazy, strange alien feeling that I had not long ago when I went OOB while wide awake. The disconnect returned and with it came the calm.

I am not completely settled. My mind is too engrossed in what just happened and I need to take some time to settle it and stop trying to force understanding.

It just goes to show that the Ego may seem “under control” but it can rise up at anytime and throw your life out of balance.

It is experiences such as these that better familiarizes me with the Ego I have in this life. It is strange how separate I feel from this part of myself now.

I wanted to share something else with you all that I somehow forgot.

The other day while waking up, I awoke in communication with who I thought was my Council. I don’t remember now what I was saying but I recognized instantly that I was talking to my Self.

And I also recognized my Higher Self as female.

Ultimately the shock of it is what pulled me completely out of my light reverie. I silently celebrated for I have never, and I mean never, identified with this part of me as female. My Higher Self has always been male to me and I seemed always to reject the female aspect completely. When I thought about this sudden change I smiled. I no longer reject the female aspect of my Self! How wonderful!

by

On Restriction

I began to notice an energy shift a couple of days ago. At first it was subtle but it was affecting me. I felt “off”, like something wasn’t quite right but I couldn’t put my finger on it. Yesterday the energy was even more noticeable and dense. It hung over me like a cloud and I recognized that the shift was coming in hard and fast. This morning I didn’t want to get out of bed and I my mood was sour. I have adjusted now, but it has been so long since I awoke in a sour mood that it surprised me.

On Restriction

Last night I requested more information on the energy shift I am perceiving. I also asked if I could go OOB, lucid dream, or at least have some sort of wonderful energy-bliss experience. Finally I asked to see my Council, since I had never seen them before.

I was told that the perceived shift was indeed real and that it was to continue for the remainder of this week. As for my request for some kind of spiritual or OOB experience, I was told, “Not for two weeks”. When I asked why, I was told, “Your body is in peril”.

When I heard the word “peril” I wondered if it meant death but immediately knew the definition here was “risk”. In contemplating why this would be, I knew that it was because my body was recovering from my recent surgery still and that what was needed now was rest and recuperation.

How odd that a simple surgery to close one vein could result in such a long period of rest. Yet there also was the knowing here that it is much more than just the surgery that is the cause of this need. The energy shift and the resulting reorganization of the energy structure of my body is also at fault. Dense energies such as these hit the lower chakras that hardest. These are the chakras that are the most blocked by upsets in life. For me the result is a bone-deep tiredness and fatigue mixed with a high mental energy and restlessness.

Golden Lights

I fell into a restless sleep, still requesting to go OOB. I received confirmation from my Council – “Your request will be considered”. This was enough for me as I have faith that my Council will do what they can to fulfill it.

I found myself in a very odd dream. In hindsight, it appears that the dream was odd because I would drift in and out of the in-between state, coming very close to achieving lucidity.

In the dream I was laying in my bed and there was someone with me. This person was nudging me and talking to me about “waking up” and kept telling me someone wanted to talk to me. This person was pointing and nudging and shaking me and I was vaguely aware of being in a gray, shifty environment. I would shrug off the nudging and say, “I want to sleep”. I could feel myself trying hard to wake up but I felt overcome with exhaustion.

At one point I spoke to this person, who by now seemed to have a feminine feeling about them. She was asking me, “Wouldn’t you like to talk to them?” and I responded, “I would like to talk to my Grandaddy”. I was flooded with images of my grandparents during this time. My arm was being pulled and I remember wanting to get up but also not wanting to.

Something about the conversation and the pulling sensation woke me up. When I came to I was in the midst of intense hypnagogic imagery and subtle vibrations. My vision was flooded with a golden mandala-like image that moved and seemed to breathe with life. It was quite beautiful and I noted that it contrasted with the black and white images that have been commonplace of late when I wake in such a state.

Recognizing that I should not focus on the images, I began to try and relax and fall into the vibrations. When I did this, I began to notice my heart pounding in my chest and immediately knew that this would be too distracting to allow me to leave my body. I ignored the heart pounding and looked through the moving mandala image. There I could see a golden, winding staircase. I willed myself toward it but I must have been trying too hard because the minute I did this the imagery disappeared and I was wide awake.

Not too upset over the missed opportunity I fell back to sleep into odd dreams. When I awoke in the morning, I was overcome with the sour mood. I immediately was hit with intense, calming energy that radiated over my entire body. When it hit my leg it was uncomfortable and it was obvious that the trauma from my surgery was causing it. I thanked my guides and sighed. Two weeks seems like such a long time. At least I got the hypnagogic images.

by

Earth Changes – Message from the High Council

It has been a while since we last made contact. We apologize for any upset this may have caused but please be reminded that this is your experience and we will not interfere unless completely necessary. We welcome any communication requests, however, for that indicates that you have reached the milestone we had anticipated.

You request information about the state of the Earth and all its inhabitants. We will say the process has not changed much in the last few weeks and the physical changes that have been ongoing will continue as such in the next few years. There will be periods of political instability across the globe as these changes manifest. The oceans will suffer great loss of species as the climate changes begin to take their toll. Countries that rely on the ocean greatly will suffer first and their economies will come close to collapse as they try to find alternatives to fill the gaps in industry that result. The changes in climate will also continue to affect the weather. Floods, tsunamis, typhoons and other natural phenomenon will increase in the coming years. Droughts will continue with great devastation in areas already suffering greatly. The water shortages in places such as California will not decrease and it will become necessary to find alternatives to water conservation.

Yes, there will be a great deal of change and upheaval. This is unavoidable and there is not much that can be done to halt the changes that will come. Change will be now a necessity rather than an option. This you have known as we have already provided you with glimpses of this future and much consultation has occurred in regard to it. You have much interest in the fate of your physical reality as do most who have come to serve others. We/you do not want the stresses of change to cause undo hardship but in many cases this cannot be avoided. It is important to remember that the choice to suffer through the changes has been made by many. Those who endure these hardships and loss have chosen these lessons for a purpose that is their own. You cannot decide for them their fate.

With these changes and sufferings there comes a great understanding of the human condition and will to survive. These lessons are paramount as is your role in serving others during this time. A great coming together and opening of the heart of mankind will occur. This will be unlike any other time in Earth’s history. Though you will not live to see it, there will come a time of great harmony and balance. The path to living in harmony with the planet will be wrought with hardship but the battle will be well worth the fight.

There are many who suffer now with what they think is the worst possible hardship they could face. Relationship troubles, loss of family members, illness, career changes, job loss, violent arguments, money troubles. These hardship pale in comparison to the hardships of the future as what is to come is not on an individual level. As the heart is opened the inflow will be greater than individuals are accustomed to. This is a necessary change everyone who chooses the physical embodiment at this time must endure for without the ability to embrace one another the plan for a harmonized Earth will fail.

by

Manifestation

This is a painting done by my husband in a matter of hours. It is an acrylic and he usually paints in oils. When I asked why he chose a peacock he said, “It is just what came out when I began to draw”.

He is a fantastic artist. I am so jealous. I am still working on my acrylic painting ever so slowly. I am almost done but it is nothing compared to my husband’s. I like my stuff to look realist, he is more of an abstract painter but he can paint anything.

Since he has yet to sign this painting, I don’t know if he is done but I think he is. He has not named it so I am naming it “Manifestation” because it is a painting of a peacock and peacocks are symbolic of manifestation. They also symbolize immortality, integrity, beauty, intuition, spirituality and increased awareness.

Such a perfect creature. I love peacocks.

by

The Shift: Symptom Update

I’ve been meaning to write an update on symptoms for quite some time but, to tell you the truth, I haven’t been having many….until today.

Current Symptoms of the Shift

  • Buzzing energy helmet
  • Pulling sensation in heart, root and solar plexus
  • Perception changes
  • Hot flashes
  • Sweating
  • Acute changes in sense of taste and smell
  • Blurred vision
  • Mental fog
  • Awareness changes/expansion
  • Deep, dreamless sleep
  • Difficulty falling asleep
  • Increased energy

The reason I am posting these today is because of the newest symptoms – acute change in taste and smell. This seems to go hand-in-hand with my recent decision to change my diet (again) back to eating clean and cutting out sugars and refined carbohydrates. I changed my diet last weekend and have been feeling fabulous. But two days ago I started noticing that things began to taste and smell “off” to me. For example, I boiled eggs for snacks. My husband cracked one so I took it with me the next day. I was happily eating it when I suddenly tasted something not right. It wasn’t bad, really, but it was enough to make me spit the rest of the egg out. This happened again when I was eating leftover sweet potato mash tonight. I took a couple of bites and finally just threw it all out. Something was wrong with it.

The smell part is what is really getting on my nerves. I smelled the egg and combined with the taste I couldn’t stomach it. It was likely perfectly O.K. yet I couldn’t eat it. Then tonight I got out some chicken breast to cook. I decided to smell it, just in case, and nearly threw up. It didn’t really smell that bad and I second guessed myself several times, going back to smell it because when I would put it away I could still smell the nasty smell. I finally tossed the whole thing. This made me sad for the waste but I couldn’t cook it for my kids with it smelling like that.

As I was typing this I started to smell smoke and ran downstairs in a panic. No one else smelled it. Turns out there is a fire in the area and I somehow smelled it. Huh.

On top of the strange change in taste and smell, I also am having vision fluctuations. My vision will get blurry out of the blue and then other times clear right up. While driving today I felt a buzzing energy at the base of my head and then felt as if I could see all around similar to how I see when in astral. It was quite cool! Yet when I try and read the words blur together. Just odd.

I am also not able to remember things again and have all kinds of typos when I try and write (forgive me if I miss some). I am zoning out and spacing out as well.

by

Back to the Top

It has been a while since I have heard from my High Council directly. I feel them all the time now, but the direct messages slowed down substantially. I know this is because I am to focus on my life and living in the physical right now. I am practicing my new found skills of being in the present moment and being constantly tuned into my Higher Self.

Thankfully, I was told a while back that any time I wanted them all I needed to do was request them. I did this last night. I asked for them to show me what was going on; what was next. I also asked to get to practice my skills in the other realms.

Back to the Top

I was awakened early in the morning to a vision of a blue piece of paper. It had white, cursive writing on it and I was reading it aloud. As I became more conscious of it, the words disappeared and the words I was mentally speaking stopped flowing. It was like I was receiving the message, “You are not to know the content of this letter”, but I know it is not that. It is simply that the conscious mind seeks information in familiar pictures, letters, numbers, facts and figures. But when information is streaming into one’s consciousness, the information is more fluid and is not limited to human symbols and identification. So as my consciousness began to follow its human blueprint, the information I was receiving was transformed into a letter and words but even that was too limited and so it was seemingly “lost” upon becoming fully aware of it.

As soon as I was awake I heard my guide say, “You will experience a top-down kundalini activation”.

As I was not expecting this information, I thought briefly about it and then smiled to myself.

“So that is the next step?”

I received a feeling and knowingness that it was so.

I then asked, “Why? Am I starting over?”

“No, you are merely integrating the changes”, my guide responded.

I wondered, “Does this mean I will have more projections?”

The response was a memory of the my first top-down activation. I immediately remembered the sudden spiritual abilities that I became aware of that first time. Not long after, I had my first ever projection.

So, yes, there will be more projections. I was (still am) briefly worried about the reemergence of my spiritual abilities.

He then offered me more information, “It will be easy. It will be fast”.

Surprised again, I asked, “How fast is fast? A day? A week? Months?” (their idea of time is quite skewed).

He responded with, “A week”.

Wow. That is fast. But then I know not to take anything future related too seriously as so much can be adjusted based upon need. I suspect it will be a week per chakra, but then who knows. Regardless, I am ready for the ride.

Tending an Egg

I fell asleep not long after and had an in-depth dream of a wedding. My wedding. In the dream, my husband and I were renewing our vows. The scene was at my mother’s pool and I was creating the ceremony as I watched it. I chose to have us walk over the water on a platform. It was beautiful and calm and very pleasant overall. I remember seeing some dressed in shorts and thought, “How casual”.

After the ceremony we were tending to our yard – mowing, watering, etc. I went in the back and there was a large chicken coup without chickens. In front of me was a small wooden box with brown eggs in it, each gently placed upon straw. I sorted through them, putting each to my ear to listen for pecking which meant the egg was about to hatch. I found one and set it apart from the others. It had a stamp on it that said it was from a special organic farm. None of the other eggs were hatching.

I then went to the front and took down and threw away some miniature crumbling houses. Then I picked up this mechanical doll that moved on its own, singing and clapping its hands. I took the doll with me and on the way found money scattered on the sidewalk. Very prominent was a $2 bill.

I went inside to talk to my husband about the yard when behind me the door opened on its own. Startled, I looked and saw a black cat sitting at the door. I said, “He’s going to come in!” and jumped up to shut the door. Then I saw he had stolen my chicken lunch and I yelled, “He stole my chicken!”

Interpretation

I have to laugh at this odd dream a little but the symbolism is what is important. Eggs are new beginnings and I am obviously preparing for one. The wedding also symbolizes new beginnings or transitions. The taking down of the houses indicates moving on as abandoned houses represent moving on with life. The doll symbolizes the desire to be someone else and the means to act on this desire. The number 2 is a message to trust that things are going in the right direction even if things seem painfully slow. A black cat symbolizes fear of using one’s psychic abilities and/or intuition. The fact that the black cat stole my chicken, which in itself can symbolize cowardliness, seems to indicate that there is nothing to fear and in fact the fear may be devoured by the results of this ability and perception.

by

Seek and Destroy

I am back in session. This time I am seeking out the last remnants my past that have a hold on me. The current step is confronting change. Changes I wanted. Changes I didn’t want. Changes I tried to make happen that didn’t. Changes that happened to others. Changes that were expected and those that were unexpected.

So far, I am finding that I am not a prisoner of change. This is refreshing and gives me hope. Change in inevitable and the more you resist, the harder it is on you. I have learned this lesson time and time again. I feel like an old pro.

The next step is eradicating old, defective, destructive and illogical belief systems. This one will be harder. I am certain my eyes will be opened to beliefs I didn’t even know I had. I will share those with you when the time comes. It will be very soon.

For now, I will share with you my current wins which are that in looking back at very upsetting, emotionally tumultuous times in my life (parent’s divorce, my own divorce, death, etc) I can say with 100% certainty that these events no longer have any hold over me. I can (and did) look at these events, see the lessons learned, and appreciate them for what they contributed to me as a person and as a soul. There are no regrets. There are no more tears. There is no more hatred or guilt. I feel completely freed.

I have not done this with past lives. Yet. But to be freed from the current life is a huge step in itself and clears the path to the bigger one. I am ready.

The Super Power You

With many on this opening up to their HIgher Self, this “ascension” and Shift, much of the changes come on without any prompting. The individual does not always want nor are they always willing to endure the transformation. This resistance builds, even without the person wanting it, because of fear of what is next and what “ascension” means. I have been there.

The fear of the unknown, I believe, is perhaps the worst. But there comes a time when you realize that nothing is truly unknown and there is nothing to fear at all of who you are transforming into. It is just You. It isn’t some new person with superpowers and sudden ability to dematerialize into thin air in broad daylight. Yeah, okay, maybe some say they have dematerialized, but it isn’t a literal loss of the physical body into tiny particles that sparkle and fly away (wouldn’t that be cool, though!). It is transcending the physical body via the consciousness, via the other subtle energy bodies that we have available to us.

The final end product of all this hoopla is that you become MORE YOU, the FULL YOU. That isn’t scary, is it? However, you can’t do that by force. Some part of it, at some point, will have to be initiated by you. Your participation is necessary. If you resist, if you say to your Higher Self, “I want no part in this”, then you will slow down and ultimately it could be that you defer your shift to another life. This doesn’t mean you fail, it just means you wait.

I don’t want to wait. So I am going to participate. I am going to battle my demons head first. I want to clear that path to my Self as best I can and I now feel totally, 100%, capable of doing so. Because I have learned it was me, all along, that was “forcing” this transformation upon me.

Do you really want to fight yourself?

Change perspective. Shift with the shift. It will flow so much better and life will transform before your eyes. This is the “super power” You. It is that simple.

by

Bobble Headed Alien

My post-surgery instructions are to walk for 20 minutes 2-3 times a day and elevate my leg as much as possible for 5-10 minutes at a time, one or two of those being for 20 minutes. I rarely am able to meet these requirements because I spend most of my day running after children and tending to the needs of my household. I am trying to walk at least once a day, though, and am elevating my legs whenever I get the chance.

Yesterday I managed to find some time to elevate my legs for 20 minutes. I hid away in my daughter’s room and was left alone. Since I can’t do much during this time, I decided to meditate.

Within a few minutes I was in-between nearing the dream state. I felt the familiar energy around my head, strong at my third eye and on either side of the base of my skull. I recall having a conversation with someone but now I don’t remember what about.

At one point I was reminded of a dream. I had forgotten about it somehow but there it was, clear as day and as if I were having it all over again.

Bobble Headed Alien

The dream memory was a short but poignant one. I saw standing in front of me three strange looking creatures. One was standing in the middle and closer to me. The other two were at his side and standing a little behind him. Their color was a reddish brown and they appeared to either be wearing armor or their skin was armor-like because it reflected the light. My first impression of these creatures was that they were large, humanoid insects, most similar to that of an insect with bulging eyes on either side of their heads.

When the memory came back to me fully, I was a bit surprised, but allowed it to continue without interruption. I wondered what I was seeing. It was then that I heard/thought, “They are Bobble Headed Aliens”.

I continued to try and focus in on these creatures to get a better idea of what they looked like. Their heads were the most prominent and I could not make out much of their bodies. Their heads appeared very bumpy and I was curious. I noticed there was a third prominent bulge in the center of their head, between their eyes. It stuck out more than their eyes. When I saw this I heard/thought, “Proboscis”. Since I do not use that word much, I remember thinking, “Isn’t that something an insect has?” I wondered then, “What is it used for?” and I focused in on it to look. It appeared that this proboscis was a sensory organ, similar to a nose but more like a nose-feeler like an insect would have.

Completely grossed out now, I tried to disengage from this seemingly forced recollection of a very vivid dream experience. With this rejection and withdrawal I was hit with an energy from my left where the visual manifested in my mind. It came on so suddenly that I took in a large breathe and held it. The feeling of the energy was not pleasant but it not unpleasant either. It was just different. It literally felt like I detached from an energetic connection with someone or something and this caused a disruption in the energy, breaking it prematurely.

Now utterly out of my reverie I attempted to mentally and physically compose myself. Yet I felt such an odd sensation in the left side of my body, specifically at the space just below my ribcage but right above my kidneys. It was uncomfortable and I felt as if there was a gaping hole in my energy body. I felt incomplete. It was a very unsettling feeling.

The energy began to spread out and seemed to ignite my lower chakras, specifically my second and third chakras. My head was still covered with energy and my third eye was blazing.

I want to make it clear that throughout all of this, I was not afraid.

Not long after my daughter came in and disrupted my leg elevation meditation. I got up and continued my day, but the odd experience and accompanying feeling lingered for about an hour afterward. I kept feeling urged to write it down so that I might be able to find some kind of explanation or clarity, but with family obligations it was not possible.

mantis2After – Be Careful What You Ask For

I researched “Bobble Head Alien” but found only those toys with heads that bobble back and forth. The closest alien descriptions I could find were of insect-like aliens but those were described as praying mantis-like and no accounts of a third eye proboscis were to be found.

I thought about drawing what I saw, and maybe I will at some point but right now I will just leave the memory in my mind. It is not going to fade as it was so distinct, so vividly clear, that I felt to have physically experienced this encounter. I wonder now if the odd disconnection feeling I experienced was me returning to my body from an OOB state.

Part of me wants to logically analyze the experience as if it were a dream and all aspects are symbols of me and my experience. Thus, this would just be an odd kundalini energy surge to my lower chakras and the aliens symbolized this “alien energy” and its effects upon me. Thus, the third eye proboscis would be symbolic of my own third eye.

This makes me feel better for the time being. However, when I woke up this morning my first thought was, “I don’t want to do this” – “this” meaning life and whatever that entails. The thought I received back from my guides/Council was, “You asked what the current state of Earth was and your role in it”. Yes, I had indeed asked that the night before the alien experience but I had not expected to see insect-like aliens or feel such strange energy! How it answers my questions, I don’t know.

Be careful what you ask for as you will get it.