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Questions Answered: Message from the High Council

Today I had time alone to contemplate the current state of the world. I had some questions and was once again invited to receive communication. I am sharing what I received with you. The questions are not written out but you will know what they were based upon the answers provided.

Welcome and greetings from the High Council. We have heard your call and come to answer any questions you have regarding the present wave of ascension and energy shift on Earth.

There are those in power now who do not agree with the changes that are occurring on a vast many levels and dimensions. Yes, there are many changes occurring not just in this dimension but in the others as well. This integration and transformation requires much effort on the part of those who are establishing this change and directing it. The protestors to this great shift are many but their influence grows weaker every day. As they recognize and struggle against this realization, their efforts will grow in ferocity to control that which they have so long had dominion over. It is true that the current upheavals on earth are the result of these power struggles, however, they are also a result of the massive confusion that results as many individuals begin to throw off the old and open up to the new; the part of themselves that has been hidden lifetime after lifetime by massive amounts of life debris, or as is commonly known as karma.

The weather patterns are a result of the magnetic field shifting and yes this is the reason for the term “shift” that we prefer to use in regards to the ascension and the energy changes currently under way.

There are a great many things that you do not understand and we are here to help you to better recognize that this information is located within you already. All you have to do is but seek it out, so as it touch it and it will be revealed to you. The ego as you call it does in fact interfere with this obtaining of information/knowledge however it can be controlled as simply as by controlling what one thinks when it is thought.

The ego is a mental condition and comes with the human form. It does so partially extinguish itself in time as one departs the human body, yet its function is quite obvious: survival. It is the element of biological function of the human body and its sole purpose is to allow for the proper integration of the soul body into the biological form. Think of it as the control panel of the human body. It acts as an anchor of the spiritual to the physical and within this system it is very much needed. As the human body is discarded, the ego slowly deteriorates but its main essence remains with us to serve us in the afterlife. It acts as a reminder of that which we Forget as we descend into the human form. Without this aspect of us we lose our human separateness and we must retain that in order to continue the experience we call Life.

Your Ego may seem foreign to you at times, especially as you seek to uncover the vast hidden knowledge you chose to Forget in order to live this human life. The seeking of this Knowledge is not something to forgo yet you should not despair over its loss as it is only an illusion that one will recognize upon reentry into the spiritual realms. Yes, as you ascend you shall regain more and more of this Knowledge, yet it would not be fruitful to regain all of that knowledge for the purpose of this game is to Remember who you are, as you are and while you are in the physical form and within a state of not-knowingness.

So yes the Ego though a difficult and most challenging foe is also a very reliable and easily understood and predictable ally once you get to know it.

How can one fully understand the Ego and its inner workings? One can seek it out through reconnection with the earth and the simple things in life. It is the life force within us that recognizes the elements from which it was born. Therefore a connection to this elements will subdue the ego in such a way as to come into better communication with it and control it as you may like. However, the chaos that is the environment in which we live pulls the ego into disarray as it struggles to try and control and manipulate those things which it views as anti-survival. Thus you find that when you are “unbalanced” or as such not centered within the Earth, that your Ego comes out in its most unpleasant form and such acts as a barrier to your own happiness and life satisfaction.

So you may now see why so many who are recalibrating to the changing energy of Earth are struggling the most with over-active ego infiltration! (chuckle) And why as such you would need to be in nature, touching the Earth, immersing yourself in the water, filling your lungs with clean air and connecting with nature with every sense that you have! Can you not feel yourself in the mountains at this very moment, lapping up all the wonderful, powerful essence that is You? This is what so many are missing without even knowing they are missing it! And it is right there if only you would reach for it and Remember that it is part of You.

The increase in OBEs that some experience within this readjustment period is merely a remembering of that which they are and is not to be confused with the actual ascension process. Though one affects the other as a means to an end, the two are not a result of one another. The changing magnetic field of the Earth intensifies the processes that occur during body separation and as such makes it that much more likely that one will remember their many excursions from their body while they sleep. Yes, these excursions from the body are many and common and do also occur during the day though most do not (though some will) recall these instances. As the body adjusts to the changes in energy and the magnetic field flip-flops here and there in its own readjustment these senses of other realities will become flashes in the minds of many and may cause the already heightened ego to respond with even more fervor.

OBEs are in no way an indicator of one’s level of conscious awareness being more or less than another’s, so do not be swayed by those who adamantly insist that this is so. It is simply a fact that IS at this point in time and can be a wonderful assistive tool to aid one during the adjustment period.

As is customary in your world I will say farewell for the time being. But know that I am never far away nor am I even “gone”. I am just for this instant in time not a point of focus in your conscious mind.

Until next time, Horace.

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Amazing Grace

The energy event I experienced early this morning was indeed very different from the others. I suspect it is not complete, so perhaps this was just the first “course”.

Crystal Beach

I was walking through a large, brown and gold colored mall searching for an exit. I came upon two glass doors and opened them. When I went into the room it resembled a waiting area and was lit up with a golden color.

A dark haired little girl was at the door and looked up at me. I said to her, “I know you” but she said, “I don’t think so”. I stared at her for quite some time trying to place her but the memory was not there.

I saw that there were two office doors ahead of me. I read their signs but all I recall now is they were businesses offering alternative healing.

I turned to my left to leave and saw double glass door with small revolving doors. I saw outside was bright and very white and thought I saw the ocean so went outside to investigate.

I walked onto a crystal white sand beach that stretched quite a distance on both sides of me. In front of me was the most vividly blue water I had ever seen. It shimmered in the sunlight and the entire scene reminded me of the Arctic except it was not snow nor was it cold. I said, “It looks like snow!”

I looked out ahead of me and saw mounds of snow-like sand piled high and people frolicking about on top of it. There were also tons of people all around me enjoying the beach. I sought out a place where there were no people and saw to my left an expanse of white and blue that stretched for miles, not a soul to be seen. I reveled in the beauty for some time, talking to an unseen companion.

Curious about where I was, I soon found myself floating high above the beach and moving farther away, watching the beach, turned coastline turned continent shrink below me. I saw an unfamiliar continent stretched out before me, the coastline shimmering brightly below me. I tried to say it was India but the shape was wrong. I soon concluded I was not on Earth. This was some other place.

heart_chakra2Healing Session

I then found myself inside one of the healing offices and could still see the beach through the glass door. There was a tall, dark haired man who was “the Dr.” His female assistant I recognized instantly as an old friend in life. I was at ease and knew why I was there.

There was a table in the center of the room. I lay down on it and the woman stood at my left shoulder. She touched it and whispered some words I did not recognize but there was a “P” sound at the beginning of the phrase. This was when the Dr., who was standing on my right at my midsection, began doing his work.

I was suddenly filled with an intense energy at my heart chakra. It felt that my chakra expanded outward and then upward forming a bubble of energy that hung over my entire body like a hot air balloon. The power of the energy caused my legs to involuntarily begin to kick out and I was uncomfortably aware of this to the point that it distracted me from the pleasant energy.

The heart energy continued to intensify and along with it my head was engulfed in energy as well. I was still focused on my legs, however, and this brought the attention of the Dr.

He came to my right leg and asked me to focus on it. So I did and the kicking stopped but the left leg still kicked so high that it was at a 90 degree angle to my body. I focused more and was able to calm it. By then, though, the heart energy has subsided.

Gathering Sand

I was then heading toward a bag and opening it up to retrieve a silver metal bowl. When I picked it up, it began to vibrate and make music. I recognized the music to be, “Amazing Grace”. I exclaimed to my healers, “It’s playing Amazing Grace!” They acknowledged this and the music stopped.

I told them I wanted to gather some white sand for later and was told that my husband was already gathering it. I looked outside and sure enough there he was with my children in the sand.

Then I was holding sand in the silver bowl. It formed into balls, like snow balls, and I held one out amazed at how easily it kept its shape.

My two healers were laid out on the table and so I approached them with the bowl. They had laid out a red, embroidered blanket and the Dr. was on my left and his assistant in front of me.

I accidentally spilled some sand on their blanket on onto the Dr. and laughed it off. Then I felt I needed to sing and began to sing Amazing Grace. Yet the words and melody that came out of my mouth were not of that song but of The Old Rugged Cross. Specifically:

And I love that old cross where the Dearest and Best
For a world of lost sinners was slain.

Refrain:
So I’ll cherish the old rugged cross,
Till my trophies at last I lay down;
I will cling to the old rugged cross,
And exchange it someday for a crown.

The assistant began to sing along with me, trying to harmonize but I was singing to high for her. I kept singing it over and over and then was overcome with tears of joy mixed with longing. I awoke sobbing.

Messages

When I awoke I still felt the energy lingering over my body and knew that I had received intense healing. My guide was there and I knew what the song meant. The song is symbolic of so many things: my Christian upbringing, how life’s sufferings will one day end with a reward, how that reward is reunion with myself/the One. I was hit with knowingness that I am soon to be done with my lives on Earth, only two more. That I am the one who determines what “level” I am at – there are no generic levels. I am learning to be a guide and am currently doing that, though I have no memory while in the physical body of doing this. This life has been successful (I was taken through parts of it and asked to evaluate them) and has gone as planned. I asked how this “success” will be experienced after death. I was shown/told that when I return to Myself there will be a great ripple of energy sent out and I will be the center of it. Every One will know my jubilation and I will be More than I was before this life. The result is a celebration of Self that is indescribable in human terms and experience.

I was also told:

  1. I am purging my heart chakra of the “things I have done and that have been done to me”.
  2. The Dr’s name is Saul and his assistant’s name is Rebecca.
  3. The Higher Beings who have been in contact with me are three. I got the name Azriel this time along with Melchizedek but resisted this. When asked by one of these Higher Beings why I was resistant, I realized I did not feel worthy.
  4. I am to listen to my heart when I find myself resistant to the messages I receive.The feeling will not lie.
  5. I am Worthy. This message brought more tears and intense emotional release.
  6. The name of the place I visited is Jelung pronounced, “Ye-Lawn”. I spell it the way I was shown but it was not written in English letters. I was told it was a place “Created for me” and “of healing”.
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The Preservers

I slept hard last night and awoke with a vivid memory of a dream.

The Preservers

In this dream I was using a computer to send emails to an online acquaintance. I had been preparing a blog entry and taking notes from information I had received via Spirit (channeling). Eventually, I sought out my friend for advice but could not find her email address. I had to search through old work emails to find it and finally found two of them. I told her this when I saw her in person and gave her my notes.

She looked at the notes and questioned them because one of them reminded her of information she had also gotten. I laughed at that and told her, “I know! Isn’t that strange?” I pointed out the sheet of paper with the information on it that I had channeled. It was written in outline form but I did not read it, instead I told her about the information I received:

There are individuals who currently reside on Earth who, like most, do not Remember their past or future nor do they Remember their purpose. But their purpose is unique. They are the Preservers of Earth and they come without Karmic debt, without cycles to conclude, without emotional baggage to burden them in their travels. These you will not notice as being different nor will they try to gain attention or seek material wealth. They will be most common among common folk yet their impact upon Earth and mankind is immense and priceless. Their role is necessary for the success and preservation of mankind.

They can be found where the unnoticed linger. These are the people you do not see as you drive by the slums and clusters of homeless on the side of the road and under the bridges of your highways. If encountered, you will not remember them if you are not meant to as they are here to serve specific individuals and groups. But, if you do happen to meet one and remember then you will be forever impacted by that most probably brief encounter with their light. It is their eyes that you will remember most. Their faces will blend into your memory with that of other faces from others lives and experiences, but their eyes will be like beacons of light in your mind, forever reminding you of who you are, where you have been and where you are going. For they are eternal, limitless, pure and forever gracious reminders of Who We Are.

I was amazed at the information I was sharing with my friend but she did not seem impressed. I could not imagine an individual withouy “karma” for to me this meant they had no burdens from past lives haunting them in the present. No guilt, no pain, no grief, no desire, no jealousy, hurt or any of those other emotions that often come upon us unknowingly and without us understanding why.

My friend continued about her busy life with barely a notice of me and I consulted with my Higher Self to better understand her actions. In this time, the questions I asked were not so much about my friend but more about certain individuals I do not remember now. I only recall now that I received instructions to “block” their communications with me.

Reflection

I believe this dream was a result of my rejecting an invitation to receive communication from Melchizedek the night before. As I started this blog post, the information from the dream about the Preservers was mostly lost to me, yet when I began to type this post words began to flow out of me about this special group of people. I honestly believe these are the “angels” among us so many believe exist.

The symbolism in this dream is also not lost to me. The entire dream is about communication. In my waking life I have been ignoring requests to receive communication from higher beings. I am not sure exactly why I feel uncomfortable with it but I do. Yet the requests continue and I feel an odd heavy sensation fall over my head and upper body when they present the invitation and my mind goes completely blank. The “blocking” in this dream is representative of me “blocking” communication out of fear of the unknown. I suspect that when I do not block that the heavy sensation will subside.

I am also aware that I am being “called to action” as in the post 954: A Call to Action. I am not sure what I am being called to do but I suspect it has something to do with channeling. I have had instances where I have awakened talking with my guides about this change but I do not remember the entire conversations except that I have said more than once, “They will not understand”, All I know is this statement is referring to the people in my life whom I love. Overall, there is a hesitance in me about the coming changes I do not understand yet.

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Melchizedek

Last night was a rough night for me. I just could not fall asleep. I was full of energy. Not the kundalini kind, at least I don’t think that was the source. I just felt very awake, body not tired and mind calm. Yet I had to be somewhere in the morning and I needed to sleep! I was also extremely hot and uncomfortable to the point that I was sweating

At 2am I awoke very wide awake and got a little perturbed about it. I was also very, very hungry. After eating I resigned myself to the fact that I was probably not going to get a good night’s sleep.

I have been having a vision for several days now of being up in the middle of the night meditating. This is not a vision of my normal meditation where I lay propped up in bed. This vision is of me, sitting on the middle of the floor in a seated yoga pose, eyes closed. This vision again came to me at this time.

I did not follow it. Instead I just meditated in bed.

With eyes closed I began to drift into the “in-between” state. As I did, I saw three white balls of light float into my vision. The center of these orbs of light was yellow and the outside glowed with white light. I did not react to seeing this but instead cleared my mind and continued to meditate.

I then heard the name, “Melchizedek” and with it came a feeling of being in the presence of pure, infinite wisdom and love. I immediately felt as if I became one with my bed; so relaxed I felt I might finally fall asleep. Then I saw a vision of the planet Earth and was presented with an invitation from Spirit to receive a message about Earth. As I was preoccupied with falling asleep, I shrugged off the invitation. I had a deep concern as well that the message would be more of what I have received in the past – Earth and its inhabitants suffering from the great many changes/challenges that lie ahead. Yet this Melchizedek was continuing to ask that I tune in and listen to what he had to say.

He kept repeating his name and I kept repeating it back and thinking, “How odd a name”. I know I was saying the name wrong and so continued to listen and then try my best to repeat it as I heard it. It is not an easy name to say!

I fell asleep a short time after this invitation to converse with Melchizedek. I suppose the love energy that poured over me was the cause, though it could be that I finally stripped down to just a shirt in order to escape the uncomfortable heat I was feeling. I honestly was so hot I wanted to take a cold shower.

When I awoke this morning, way earlier than I wanted to, I was again full of energy and wide awake. I am still feeling this way and not a bit tired even though I barely managed 6 hours of interrupted sleep.

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954: A Call to Action- Message from Horace

As I awoke in the early hours of the morning, I saw and simultaneously heard a voice say, “954”.

Before I had time to consider it and while still a bit out of my element with surprise, the message continued:

There will be no delay. Everything is on schedule and as it should be. In a day’s time you will experience the first wave. Expect to feel it in your head, heart and arms. It will not be pleasant but it will not be painful. Do not be afraid.

A time arises in this planet’s evolution where things must come to order to be preserved. It is through this time of preservation that we who are Called come to assist in this transformation. All will not be lost, though it may seem as such. IN order to understand it more fully, you must come into Yourself. This will preserve what you have worked for and allow you to align with the changing energies of the planet. The “shift” will assist you and others to assume your role in this transformation.

As this tumultuous time approaches, and it will be one of great upheaval and disruption as seen in the world already in the strife that is evident in your news, the energy will peak in such a way that those who are ready will completely align and be attuned to the Earth as never before. Those who are ill prepared may choose to disembark and return at a later date while others may continue to attempt to adjust and will be guided onto their rightful paths by others who have already shifted.

In the coming months more such energy events will occur and so be prepared to attune more and more with your Self. You asked what this attunement will mean for you and others. In simplest terms it means that you will know your Self; that you will understand your purpose without doubt or trepidation and that you will fulfill this purpose without delay. It is such that you will find yourself “rising” within yourself and living within a zone different from those around you. This zone, or other “dimension” as it has been called, places you within reach of many such aspects of yourSelf that have not previously been within your reach. It also allows you access to multitudinous forms of communication and “enlightenment”, though this term is often misused and misunderstood.

He went on to present to me a personal message:

For you, personally, you will be assisted by three whom you trust and have worked with before at this current level of your transformation. As in all such cases they will be replaced by others assigned to the next specific task and it is not so much important that you know who they are as it is that you trust them wholeheartedly.

I am your representative during the current shift and will be available to you at your request to assist you in better understanding what is transpiring. I act as the conduit between you and the Many.

Note: Horace first made himself known to me in September of 2011 and acted then as a guide during a major opening of my heart chakra. Prior to receiving this message I awakened from a dream in which I was aware that I had received a lightening bolt of energy through my solar plexus. I slept through it and was grateful for I perceived that it was not a particularly pleasant energy sensation.

Edit: I changed the title because while I was cleaning house (one of the best grounding activities) this rest of the title came to me. This title is appropriate for angel number 954.

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Energy Matrix Acceleration – Message from the Coucil of Many

The coming week’s events are concurrent with the intensifying and development of numerous energy accelerations resulting in an overall shift in the consciousness of many who are in the midst of what is known as the “ascension” and is hereby to be known as the “shift”.

Many will find themselves caught up in a swirl of emotional overwhelm that may lead then into confusion, fear, chaos, and other emotional upheavals. It is important that if you find yourself subsequently affected by these energies that you take time to meditate and focus upon your heart center as this is where your stability is located and can always be found if sought out. However, those who are ill prepared for this current of change will crumble under its intense energetic effects. Expect the unexpected but do not be subdued by it for its purpose is to uplift and this will be seen in the coming months.

For those prepared already for these energies, there will come over you a descending energy from above that will feel intensely familiar yet make you uneasy for you have forgotten that it is part of you. This amnesia will be temporary, however, as you familiarize yourself with yourSelf. Many will experience specific energy within the head and shoulder area of the body as the adjustments are made. Please do not be afraid and do not resist but take time to yourself, by yourself, away from the thoughts and energies of others as this transition takes place for your perceptions will be heightened during this process.

As always, know you are loved and assisted through this shift and through all the coming shifts. We present to you this gift in hopes that you will remember why you are here and who you are.

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Revelations from my Past

In the summer of 2003 I began writing a journal of my experiences. I did this at the urging of my guides in order to chronicle my spiritual awakening. The journal covers the time frame from 2003-2007. I printed it out and put it into two, three inch binders and have not thought of it much since then. Yet yesterday I thought I should get it out and read. So that is what I did.

I am currently in the Spring of 2004 and have already discovered that I forgot well more than I thought I had!

Kundalini

I have long suspected that what I experienced in from 2003-2007 was kundalini but I wasn’t completely sure of this. I didn’t remember enough of the energy sensations or other symptoms. I am now certain it was kundalini, kundalini that was triggered spontaneously through meditation.

My first experiences with kundalini were generally ignored or passed off as unknown physical issues, panic attacks, mental problems (depression) or something else. I often experienced intense surges of energy that would come into me all at once and then move out. I assumed this energy was that of my guide and thought no more of it. I had chakras turning on and off all the time. I thought it normal – just a part of a spiritual awakening. I oftentimes would become so full of odd energy that I would become thoroughly nervous and anxious and have to escape somewhere to get away. I listened to the people who I associated with, assuming I just needed to “ground and protect” because the energy was either Spirit energy or the sometimes negative and overwhelmingly intense emotions of the people who I came into contact with.

I found an entry I wrote of conversation I had in May 2003 where I was told, point blank, by a person I knew in a chat room, that I was “preparing to ascend”. That was not the first I heard of ascension, either, but for some reason I just didn’t consider it important I guess because I never focus upon it in my journal. So I answered my own question about whether ascension was even known about in 2003. It obviously was, except to me who was oblivious.

Finally, I talk quite a bit about having an overwhelming sexual energy that I cannot avoid that followed me through the rest of the 2003. Not only was I having spontaneous orgasms during sleep, meditation and OBEs but I was also in two very intense relationships, one of which was so difficult to disconnect from that I grieved it for many, many months afterward.

This is what I have found just so far. I suspect I will discover much more as I get further into my journals.

planetsExtraterrestrial Contact

This is where it gets really bizarre, especially for me who shies away from anything E.T.

On September 28, 2003, I wrote down a long conversation I had with my guide. Her name was Leslie and this conversation was prior to my meeting Steven:

When I first began speaking with Leslie, I had many questions about evolution. Who are we? Are we descendants of chimps and apes? Or are we transplanted extraterrestrials left to colonize Earth?……

First of all, we are genetically altered versions of Andromedans and Earth primates. The planet Earth was first used as a source of minerals and other natural resources, a mining planet used for its richness in many minerals and substances depleted on the planet of our origin…..The first people of Earth were not human. They were of an ancestry millions of years old and from many light years away. These beings were very spiritual, are very spiritual, and had an extremely advanced culture of their own on other planets…..When the population of Earth was created, Earth had been through the Jurassic and other evolutionary processes which resulted in the rise of mammals…..The Andromedans saw the potential for Earth as a new colony….Earth gave them the opportunity to refine the species more because the primate, the most sophisticated human-like animal, was a social and emotional creature. These social and emotional qualities were what Andromedans view as a special aspect, a part their own species that had been lost over thousands of years of evolution.

The entry takes two pages, single spaced, so I won’t type the whole thing here. It goes on to say that it took the Andromedans a long time to perfect their genetic modification – lots of trial and error. They ended up only manipulating a few genes and created Homosapien but he was lacking culture, social structure, and norms and values, which took generations of evolution without interference. So they deposited them in pockets around the Earth and left them to “evolve” without interference. The longer humans were left untouched, unguided, the harder it became to interfere in their evolutionary development.

I go on to say:

Now, we humans are in a state of change. Our biology is changing. Evolution is bringing us back to that spiritual center we once had. Our emotions are causing us to feel stagnant. Human biological needs are met through industrialize society. There is no longer the urge to survive as in the past. So, the time has come to awaken the spiritual side. The genes inserted by the Andromedans are now becoming activated. More and more people are experiencing psychic phenomenon. Soon, the Andromedans will visit Earth again to take note of our progression. When they do see we are approaching an age of spiritual enlightenment and telepathic communication, they will make themselves known to us once again. At first there will be more sightings of unusual aircraft and electromagnetic interference. Later, they will actually make contact and reestablish the ties we once had.

Their ultimate goal, and one we should not fear, is to rejoin the human population in order to add the component of emotion into their species. We are what they hope to become. Once we reach that period of spiritual enlightenment and telepathic thought, they will return to complete that goal.

Now, if you are like me, you are likely reading this with disbelief and then thinking, “This is complete B.S.”. Maybe so. I cannot prove any of it, but at the time this information flowed out of me with such ease and clarity that I had no doubt there was truth to it. This was also before I had ever heard of any of the E.T. information on the web. I actually still know very little because every time I try to research it I feel repelled by it. It is also interesting to me that Atlantis was a colony established by the Andromedans.

Pleiades

Fast forward to May, 2004. I have since met Steven and for a time another guide named Amoradon. He tells me he is from the Pleiades and provides me with quite a bit of information which I find fascinating.

Here are some of the things he tells me:

I was discussing spirit guides with Amoradon. He told me that the council is a group of spirit guides who assist Earth Travelers (Steven has always called me an Earth Traveler and his term for a guide is Companion Traveler – I now find this interesting as well).

Me: Does everyone who travels Earth have a council?

Amoradon: No. Only those specified in the Great Plan are allowed to counsel with the council.

Me: What is the Great Plan?

Amoradon: It’s God’s plan for humanity.

Me: Is there only one plan?

Amoradon: Yes.

Me: Are the members of the Council also Earth Travelers?

Amoradon: No. They are those to which we go to seek knowledge here at Home – Pleiadia. They have lived many lives and have had many life lessons learned. To pass on their knowledge is considered a great privilege.

The conversation goes on but doesn’t make much sense to me. He mentions the Council of Pleadia and the Elders and going “beyond God”. He defines “beyond God” as “the planes of existence which surround God. It ‘exists”‘ where God is NOT. We are God, ‘existence’ is the womb of God. God grows, expands, and gives birth to new Gods (us). We are of God and of all other Gods”.

Not long after this conversation, I am taken while OOB to a place that is beyond beautiful and am told it is the Pleiades. I have various visions of my guide wearing an interesting mesh outfit. I get such clarity in my visions that I even draw them in a notebook.

Eventually I become overwhelmed by all of this and ask to not be shown or told anymore about the Pleiades or Andromeda.

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Energy Storm

Yesterday all was quiet energy-wise. I awoke feeling refreshed albeit a little concerned about how completely normal my energy seemed compared to the last five days. When I inquired as to why the energy change my guide responded, “It is done”. I assumed that my kundalini rising was on hold for the time being and the thought even occurred to me that maybe I had been wrong and none of what I had experienced was kundalini to begin with.

As I settled in for bed last night I searched online for a book to read since I had finished my most recent book, Snooze: A Story of Awakening. (I highly recommend this book, BTW. It was an excellent read for those of you who like metaphysical fiction). I opted for a book by Becca Chopra called Chakra Secrets and settled down to read. I unexpectedly found myself thoroughly immersed in the book before I knew it and could not put it down.

There was a part of the book that made me cry. It was about 75% of the way through and it hit me suddenly and unexpectedly.  I won’t go into detail about the specifics except to say that it was a note of advice in the book about not allowing fear and other negative emotions to hold you back from living. As soon as I had allowed the emotion to flow out and recovered somewhat from the shock of such an outpouring of emotion I heard my guide say, “We will continue”. It was then that I understood his earlier statement to me of “It is done” to mean that whatever work had been done was done to facilitate that exact moment which was necessary in order for me to move forward. I then heard, “The only way out is through” and knew I had been correct in my conclusion.

Energy Storm

I fell asleep quite quickly after that and slept deeply and without much in the way of dreams. Sometime in the night I recall hearing thunder booming. It was so loud and powerful that it shook my bed and caused my energy to vibrate and move upward from my root to my crown. When this happened I saw in my mind’s eye my chakras light up one by one in brilliant color. With each thunderous bang, a chakra would light up and vibrate and I would see the chakra come into vivid color in the visual of my energy body that floated above my physical body in bed. It was quite confusing to me that I was watching my energy body above me rather than being in my energy body watching my sleeping form. It felt somehow off and I tried to consider what exactly was going on but could not, my mind was too foggy with sleep.

The energy and light show of my chakras went on for what seemed like forever and I recall wondering if the storm was really happening or if it was part of a vivid lucid dream. When I awoke I immediately remembered the experience and got up to check and see if there was evidence of a storm. When I looked out the window I was surprised to find that a storm must have occurred because the streets were soaked and all the leaves that had been in the driveway had been washed away. It is unusual for a thunderstorm to come at this time of year, so I had assumed it had all been a part of my dream/experience.

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I tried to return to sleep but could not. I badly wanted to go OOB but could not. I felt last week that I would not be going OOB while this process of kundalini was going on. I am not sure why but I secretly hoped I had been wrong in my interpretation of this information. So far it has proved true and I have been disappointed.

While I lay in bed hoping to fall asleep, I recalled a dream I had in the early morning hours right before I initially awoke. In the dream I was both the observer and the participant. As the participant, I took the form of a young boy who had superb mediumship abilities. He was able to allow Spirit to enter his body and come through him. He would feel their personality, their physical features from life and know all their memories. He then would pass on their messages while expressing their unique personality and body language through his own body. I recall being surprised in the dream of his abilities and speaking to someone about it.

When I remembered this dream I remembered my experience of my friend channeling my guide and also all the accounts I had heard about how others were able to channel Spirit. I had always aspired to this but had never been able to do it, the fear of the unknown always keeping me from letting go enough to allow Spirit to come through. I also recalled the knowingness I had after my 12/12 experience where I saw myself as a conduit for energy.

Then there were the memories of the previous night’s dreams. In the dreams I was being encouraged to revisit the spiritual path I had once abandoned. I abandoned it for many reasons but primarily because it had led me to what seemed to be a dead end and my life was feeling out of control and unbalanced. The dreams had bothered me all day, leading me to question why I was being asked to return to that path when I no longer enjoyed using my spiritual gifts. I was then answered with the thought that I needed to find enjoyment in life again (2nd chakra) and I had enjoyed using my abilities once. I had found them exciting and exhilarating and still, to this day, I have not found any experience that has given me the satisfaction that comes with a successful mediumship session. And I wondered, why was I now dreaming of channeling?

At this time I heard my guide say, “You can do that”.

I, of course, cannot imagine that it is possible. Not only had I never been able to channel in that way, I have not given a mediumship reading in so long that I cannot remember the last time. There is no evidence that I can still do anything with my gifts but my guide reminds me that they are still there and accessible anytime. But I feel so dead to them and to the idea of using them.

Overall, I am being pushed to change direction in my life, to go back to the spiritual path. I do not know what all this entails but I am being told it will begin in January next year. Does this mean Spirit will again start to bug me like they use to? Does it mean that I will connect with people without wanting to? Or does it simply mean that opportunities will begin to be presented to me to help me make the transition? I know I must trust that what needs to happen will happen. Like my guide told me in my dreams the night before last, “I will handle it”. Just because we cannot see how something can be possible, does not mean it isn’t. Anything is possible. We must remember we have limited sight, limited knowingnesd and trust our Higher Selves when we cannot see the path ahead.

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What is Your Truth?

I think all my reading of channeled messages has gone to my head. Specifically I have been analyzing all of my physical, emotional and spiritual changes in the past 18 months. It is hard to lump them all into the category of “ascension” because for 10 months of the past 18 months I was pregnant. Also, I am still having a tough time categorizing my experiences; labeling them as some ascension process or even a second spiritual awakening. Ultimately, when I seek clarification from my guides I still get told that I am undergoing a “merging” process. For me, that explanation is acceptable and so much easier than all the mess of information out there about what is happening to so many people right now.

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The year I got pregnant (2013) was perhaps the worst year in my entire life. Actually, scratch out the word “perhaps” – it was the worst. Emotionally I was all screwed up. Blockages everywhere, trying to protect myself from the negative situation I put myself in. But physically I was sick more times in one year than ever I have remembered. First I got a nasty cold/cough that went on for almost a month. Three weeks after that I got the intestinal flu and it lasted 9 days! Skip to the Fall and I got the stomach flu AGAIN, this time while pregnant. Three times in one year is a record for me. I am never sick.

Skip to present time. I’ve had a muscle twitch in my right, deltoid muscle for a few days now. It is only noticeable when I am trying to relax, but when I do notice it I immediately wonder if it is the direct result of all that has been going on within me for the past who-knows-how-long. Today I don’t notice the muscle twitch but I am certain now that it was related to the clearing going on within me.

In the month of August I was hit with an embarrassing physical issue – specifically that my skin got all oily and nasty and my face broke out into what appeared to be a scaly rash. I could not get it to go away and it lasted over a month. I actually ended up hiding out in my house because I looked like a freak (in my opinion). Over that time I struggled with problems as a result, specifically that my husband got angry at me for my hermit-ways. I also struggled with my own vanity issues. Fun! – Not. I finally went to a dermatologist who said it was the result of 1. stress and 2. hormones. I was put on antibiotics and within days it vanished. Yay!

Another interesting change that I have noticed is that a physical ailment I have had since before pregnancy disappeared almost over night. I won’t go into detail on it but it was so concerning me that I was considering visiting my doctor to have it checked out and make sure it was benign.

One physical ailment that still has not abated has been, dare I say it? – hot flashes. I am not actually sure what is happening is hot flashes but I will say that out of the blue I feel hot and my forehead will start to perspire. I will not feel anxious when it starts but amidst it I will get a strong uncomfortable feeling and immediately want to stand in front of the fridge or turn down the a/c. I most commonly experience this over-heating phenomenon as soon as I wake in the morning, especially if I jump out of bed quickly. However, I will also have it hit me when speaking to others. Interestingly enough, it rarely happens during the day when I am alone and calm, leading me to believe it is the result of me picking up energies of others.

Another physical phenomenon that has been happening since the start of my pregnancy (leading me to believe it is hormone-related) has been intense sweating for no apparent reason. I don’t feel hot when it happens, either. When I first brought it up during pregnancy my doctor was concerned that it might be a thyroid condition. I was suppose to be checked out but never did. I figured it would stop after delivery of my baby, but it hasn’t, though it is not as frequent in occurrence.

Part of me can just chock all of the physical changes I have been experiencing to just having a baby in March of this year. But I have to say, this being my third baby and all, IF everything is just related to postpartum crapola, then why has this particular postpartum resulted in so much residual physical change?

Energetically

Energetically I have been a wreck since the year my dog, Trooper, died. It is like I was hit with a wall of emotional overload and just fell to the ground and curled up into a fetal position. It is odd to me that the loss of a pet would do that to me but we all have our breaking points. I guess that was mine.

I spent the majority of my pregnancy trying to cope with an intense anger at life and everyone around me. It didn’t make sense to me. I am not an angry person usually. Somehow I managed to get past it, but it wasn’t fun.

There was also a deep sadness that has been following me the entire time. When I succumb to it I cannot describe the depths of the anguish I feel. I have written a bit about the homesickness I have felt recently; the intense desire to check out of this life accompanied it. It hit me hard and out of the blue as well. But overall, I have always carried that feeling with me. Perhaps I have stripped away so much of my defenses and finally gotten near the core of the pain I have carried with me life after life?

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Spiritually I have learned so much about myself but ultimately I still do not understand what all is going on. I mentioned in a previous post that I have been feeling drawn to read channeled messages. I still do not prefer to read them, though. There are few that I can read all the way through because of their repetitiveness. Another part about them that does not sit well with me is that there is so much written in them about Galactic this or Galactic that, DNA restructuring and other strange things. I mostly skip over that stuff because, honestly, I do not believe any of that matters. What is happening is happening because it needs to. Oh and yeah, it has happened before. It is nothing new. Yet what I read suggests it is a special thing happening to Earth and its inhabitants. Perhaps this is Ego interference? Because I have recalled many lives not on this planet and, trust me, it is not unusual. Even though change in this direction is new to Earth, if you go back far enough to early man you will find we all started out deeply connected to our Selves and this is just a return to that.

I figure I am being led to read these messages to find a message meant for me, so I read them and ultimately I do find validation about what I am going through. And that is the whole point, isn’t it? Perhaps there are some people who enjoy thinking that they are part of some “Galactic Federation” or like to believe they are receiving messages from the Pleiades. I find it distracts from the real message and maybe that is what it is intended to do. All I know is that I have learned to tune into my Self and only accept that which rings true to me.

So what do you all think about the messages you have read? Do you believe that people really are channeling Angels, ascended masters, and Pleadians? The Galactic Federation? or The Council? Do you believe our DNA is being changed? That we are being “downloaded” with information?

Take Caution

I always re-read what I have written in my posts. I do this multiple times to make sure it makes sense and flows. After reading over it just now I heard a message pop into my head. Caution. Take caution when reading the channeled messages out there. This is not so much for me – as I am wary of them by nature – but to those of you who do read them. They will distract you from Life if you become dependent upon them and this process they speak of.

Imagine that there was no such thing as the internet and channeled messages were not available to you. The only information you received came from within. That was all you had. How would it be different? How would you be different? Would you be able to tune into your Self to find your truth?

How would the changes you are experiencing be different?

When I ask myself these questions I realize that what I am going through would be unchanged. I have gotten validation through a couple of channeled messages, but really all that I know came from within. Yet I know there are so, so many out there who have not reached a level of understanding, who are still not strong in them Selves, to be capable of sifting through copious amounts of empty information in order to leave behind the raw, pure Truth.

So if you find yourself confused by too much information, stop. Stop reading it. Stop surfing the net looking and searching. You can’t find yourself there. You are right here. YOU. That is the ultimate source of Truth. There is no other who knows you like you do. No other who can answer your questions so precisely and truthfully.

I know I will not be looking at these messages anymore. They do me no good. They clutter my mind and infest me with confusion and questions. Perhaps that was my lesson. Is it also yours?

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Peace

I just wanna make you laugh
I just wanna see that smile
Babe, we’re only here, oh, for a little while
I just wanna hold you till we fall asleep
I want love, I want us, I want you, I want me, I want peace

I woke this morning with the chorus from this song in my head and a feeling similar to how I was feeling not long ago – I didn’t want to get out of bed. A specific line of the chorus, “we’re only here, oh, for a little while”, kept repeating in my head. I love the song and it has been used to relay a message to me before, but this morning I just didn’t want to hear it.

Where Did the Memories Go?

As the song played in my head, memories of my youth began to trickle in. Specifically, a memory from when I was 12 years old. My father came back into my life after years of disconnection. He just popped back in, out of blue, and acted as if nothing had changed. Of course, me being 12 and all, everything had changed.

He brought with him a girlfriend. A very garish woman with big hair and penciled in eyebrows that made her look like a clown. Her makeup was dark and befitting of a twenty-something year old. Yet her clothing was more in line with her age – around 50 or 60. I don’t remember the woman’s name now, but I know I instantly did not like her. This is also not surprising considering the circumstances.

We went to a fancy restaurant – Red Lobster (back then it was considered high end – really!). We were there to celebrate my younger sister’s birthday. She would be turning 10. After eating, the garish woman and my father presented my sister with her gift and I was extremely jealous when she opened it. She got Clinique make-up! I remember looking at the little, sea green compact and feeling my heart sink. I thought to myself, “She is too young for that!” and wanting it desperately for myself. But I kept my mouth closed and smiled, pretending to be happy for her.

The memory stopped there but the feeling of it did not. I was so full of hate back then. It was me against the world. It was vile. I am not sure how I made it through my teens because that feeling pretty much stayed with me until I was in my mid-twenties. It grew and changed as I suppressed it and tried hard to not become the effect of it. Sometimes I managed to keep it at bay but most of the time it hung over me like a dark rain cloud.

Much of my feelings stemmed from anger but I also believe I brought some of them into this life with me. Especially the feeling that I should be loved more than my siblings. I secretly always wanted to be an only child. I have since remembered my last life. It was brief but I do know one thing – I was the only child. Hmmm. Ha! I was also not treated well and my life ended in a horrible way – murdered by a father figure; drowned in a shallow fountain in an unfamiliar place. Torn from my family, life taken from me abruptly and betrayed by someone I thought loved me, I found myself trapped between the Other Side and Earth – bound to a life that was no longer mine.

All these memories were instantly with me as I awoke this morning. Why? Perhaps it was because yesterday, looking into my daughter’s face as we spent time reading together before bed, I thought about how I use to cherish similar memories of my own childhood, yet, I could not remember them. Where did they go? And I thought to myself that this must be why I am so bitter about having to live life. I have lost memories I once cherished.

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I read yesterday in one of the many blogs I now follow on WordPress that as we change, we leave a part of ourselves behind. We shift into a new Self. This is part of living. It is part of change. And change is the one constant – it is expected, though many of us fear it and reject it.

I have had many me’s in this life. The first, my childhood – when joy and laughter were still very much a part of my life. This me only lasted for about six years. Too short, if you ask me.The second me began with my parent’s divorce and stayed until my mid-twenties. This was probably the most challenging part of my life. I went through middle and high school, met my first husband, went to college and then left my first husband. I lived in parts of the U.S. I never thought I would and traveled across the world to Australia and the U.K. Yet I was not complete. I felt lacking. All the time.

The third me emerged with my spiritual awakening at around the age of 26. I recall recognizing the other me’s during this time. They felt foreign to me. When I looked at those me’s a didn’t recognize them as a part of me. I was so different. There is no way they could be me. Even now, when I recall memories of those times, they seem surreal and dreamlike, as if they were just one of my many astral travels.

And now I feel like I am entering into another stage, one that will create yet another me. Hopefully the final me. I have yet to see where one me ended and another began, but this could be because I am in the midst of it. I worry that in order to transform into the new me there needs to be a drastic ending somewhere. For example, the beginning of the current me came after several drastic ends – the biggest being divorce. The ending of the childhood me came with divorce as well. And it could be that there will be divorce this time as well, but not necessarily the divorce of man and woman but a divorce of old habits, behaviors and beliefs.

Peace

The final feeling that came with hearing the song by O.A.R. this morning was an irritation at not getting to astral along with a rejection of astral travel – almost as if it serves only to slow me down right now rather than help me progress at the rate I should be. Typical of that internal conflict that has proved so difficult to overcome in this life – the ego versus the Self. Always, when I thought about the purpose astral travel serves in my life, I heard the line “we’re only here for a little while”, as if to say “Focus on living your life now, not on other planes of existence as it is this existence which is most important at this time”. And the message is clear – we are only here for a little while, just a blink compared to the eternity of that which we are. And the peace we find in ourselves can be found anywhere, even here on Earth, if we accept our chosen path, do not allow the ego to confuse us and misguide us, and travel it wholeheartedly. Easier said than done.