I am being asked to consider making a change in my life. This is not a change I am against, by any means, but I recognized early on that this change might be cause for disagreement within my family unit. I have had a sequence of dreams recently that confirms my above suspicions.

Lost Shoes

In this particular dream I found myself looking for a pair of shoes and not being able to find them in my “new” closet. I then searched in my “old” closet and noticed immediately that the clothes hanging in that closet were not my own but the clothes of my baby and children. I quickly located my shoes high up on the shelf and picked up the pair I had been missing and took it to the “new” closet which was located in another room along with my adult clothing.

The symbolism here is interesting. Closets can symbolize and actual coming out of the closet as they typically represent a hidden aspect of one’s self. Searching for lost shoes symbolizes actual searching for one’s self. I seem to have misplaced “myself” within the role of mother and forgotten the other part of me. In the dream I am looking for a part of me I misplaced for a short time.

Ancient Oak

In this dream I was learning to become a hairdresser and was meeting my partner and a mentor. Our mentor told us we had been selected to learn from her and that our internship would last two years. She referred to a very old oak tree when discussing our selection saying that it had stood through the ages and through many similar students. I recall staring up at this towering, ancient and awesome tree and being in awe of it. She said that it was in danger of being cut down, though.

Later my partner, who arrived to work before me and stayed many hours longer than me, shot her partner dead in front of me and said something like, “There, that needed to be done”. I remember being astonished in the dream at her blunt, unemotional reaction.

The symbolism here is quite direct. An internship is representative of going to school and learning new lessons in life. Being a hairdresser represents one’s self-image. I am literally learning how to become myself. The oak tree symbolizes stability, endurance and wisdom. It also indicates success is at hand. The incident of my partner killing her husband indicates anger or frustration toward an individual of a similar description in waking life.

Research

An idea had come to me last week which I resisted and it presented itself yet again this morning but in another form. I knew where to focus my attention: transpersonal psychology.

In my research I discovered a couple of universities that offered this degree and certificates relating to it. However, the one that caught my attention was Atlantic University which was formed by Edgar Cayce in 1930.

I did not go searching for this place, I just stumbled upon it. I was at first interested in the spiritual guidance mentor certificate; however, I found the graduate certificate in Integrated Imagery – Regression Hypnosis and wanted immediately to do it. Then I realized: this will not be something my husband agrees with. Not at all.

That is when the second dream made complete sense to me.

The other option I was considering prior to my research today was one that would be more acceptable to my husband. I would do it except it limits the number of people I can help and also limits my income. I wish to be accessible to others while also making a living.

Rather than panic over the whole idea, I am putting it on the shelf for now. I am sure that an option will reveal itself that is suitable to my situation.