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The Unfolding: Message from the Peiadian High Council

Against the night there is a shuddering, a violent explosion of intent from which you have surfaced feeling a bit shaky and alone. You forget where you came from in this moment but within yourself you find remnants remain of that which you left behind. Your true Divinity flowers then from within, bursting from your heart space and opening up your human eyes to things which had previously been hidden from view. This is the unfolding of You; the taking of your rightful place in this Earthly life. You have been waiting for so long for this moment and it is now yours in all its glory. Awaken and rise up to take on this mission you have come to fulfill. It is a beautiful unfolding and we are pleased you have made it this far. We will wait for your next momentous leap, not far in the future. Until then, practice walking on your new shaky legs. Gain your footing and your stability. Move into wholeness and throw off uncertainty of purpose and any lack that remains from the fears that have been following you throughout this lifetime. It is you, all of it, but some of it need not be a hindrance. Toss it off and carry only what you need for this work is hard and tedious and thankless. We are grateful to have you in service again. Pleased are we that have supported you in this endeavor. Much love and togetherness is felt with each new step you take in the direction of the Light. Thank you. Bless you. Be You.

It is with a full heart that I typed this message from my Council. I do not fully understand it but I am beginning to feel different for lack of a better word. These last few days I have been wrought with such grief and confusion. There has been an intense struggle within going on. There are no words with which to try and describe it. No sense can be made of it. It is like a part of me put up a fight and lost. I know I am far from “there” yet, but there is a peace in knowing that I am past the point of no return.

I recognize now that I am integrating the Old more and more every day. I see her differently. I am not her anymore. She is something I created to withstand the hurt and pain of life here on Earth. She is the forgotten me, the me I left here while I focused on other things. I feel sympathy for her. I love her but she needs to find peace now. There is nothing so difficult as to welcome back a piece of yourself that you left behind. There is no memory in this other part. She Forgot so much and it is painful for her to Remember. So also is it painful for me.

What an odd feeling. I wish I could relate it better. Sorry.

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More Changes Coming

Something shifted between yesterday evening when I had the strange life review and this morning. There comes with this shift a strange feeling I can’t describe.

I am beginning to zone out again. So far it is not inhibiting my ability to write in my blog, but I suspect this will be coming based upon the odd sensations around my head at this moment. My eyes want to spontaneously close and I feel a strange tiredness. There will likely be a channeling coming soon. I can sense the communication channels are about to open.

My heart chakra is also very active again. It began last night during my review. The sensation came most intensely in my back and shot through to the front. It felt warm and comforting. Simultaneously, my second chakra became warm and tingly. It felt as if my uterus was receiving intense healing. The more emotion I felt at the memories, the more intense the energy in my chakras.

Currently, the heart sensation is extending to my third chakra and there is a sense of anticipation. I feel like a budding flower, ready to open and expand into its brilliance.

I am reminded now of something my guide told me not long ago about this process. He said, “It will be beautiful”.

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Unexpected Life Review

My husband has this weird habit of playing songs that my ex use to play all the time. When I ask him why he plays it, he says, “I like it”. Yet, most of the time he plays music we both like. So, him playing this music is out of character for him.

The music he plays comes from the exact albums my ex use to play over and over again when we were married. Specifically he plays George Strait, Amarillo by Morning (my ex’s all-time favorite song) and Merle Haggard and Willie Nelson songs. Last night he chose to play Merle Haggard Greatest Hits which was one my ex played frequently on our long commutes between Bozeman and Helena, MT.

When I heard the album playing songs I knew by heart, images began to flash through my mind of long ago. I was hit suddenly with these images and seemed unable to remove them from my mind. Mostly, I was seeing the mountains and grandeur of Montana, the houses I use to live in, and the routes to an from places we frequented. The detail was amazing!

There was also a memory of who I was at that time and she was so alien to me as was her actions and reactions to life. She was so selfish, angry and dark. I wondered to myself, “Why was I like that?” There came along with all this memory a deep regret for my lack of enjoying that part of my life and the immense beauty of the places in which I lived.

My memories then shifted to my childhood and images of the places I lived and the things I did began to pour in. These were less alien to me and there was little connection at all to the memory of my childhood. I remember visiting these childhood places while OOB and wondered, “Why do I not visit Montana when OOB?” I didn’t know.

Eventually I began to feel overwhelmingly hot. There was no sweat, either, just a core heat that seemed to radiate out from my center. This came and then went only to come back again. The memories of my life were still repeating and there was a question that came often with them, “Can you let it go?” There was also a statement I recall hearing, “Accept the Old you and the New you will be all that remains”.

Eventually, the memories stopped coming and I was able to just listen to the music as music. I even sang along to it while I cradled my youngest in my arms to help him get to sleep. I felt extremely tired and nearly fell asleep with him.

September 2002

I want to briefly discuss a memory that came while all this review was occurring. It was from the morning in which I woke to a voice telling me, “Get out now”. There was a discussion of this time in my life and a flash of memory of the months preceding this incident.

I had been extremely depressed for months. The depression had been there before but this was a very low, heavy kind of blackness. During this time I chose various outlets to relieve my depression. One of them was music. I went out and bought a guitar and taught myself to play it. I then composed songs. It was through these songs that I received help and my first “messages”. I didn’t know that was what it was at the time. I did keep a journal but did not write about these experiences for some reason. I wish I had.

This depression was so bad that thoughts of suicide were almost constantly on my mind. I did not tell anyone this, though. I kept it hidden and knew I would not have the courage to go through with it. I often prayed for God to end my life for me – freak accident or something like that. Of course, that never happened. I got very close to taking action toward ending my life, but couldn’t do it. It felt so very selfish and wrong. I don’t remember now my thoughts exactly but there was a feeling that a solution was coming.

Having these memories return made me wonder if perhaps a solution had come via that voice. Was there some kind of walk-in experience then? It seems very possible, even likely. I woke up to a voice telling me what to do and I didn’t question it. That was unlike the old me.

After I heard the voice, I left my husband within a week and found a new job within a month. Within four months I had done my first-ever meditation which seemed to activate something within me and within two months of that I quit the job I had just gotten, moved away, changed my name and changed everything about my life and my persona. The life I left behind did not feel like mine. It still feels that way. All of these actions are classic signs of a walk-in.

Even though I am now going through something very different than back then, I wonder if perhaps a similar process is happening?

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Lesson: Overcoming the Fear of Death

After the weird episode of sleep paralysis, my guide was close and instructing me. Unfortunately, I don’t recall everything we discussed as I was in and out of a state that is hard to describe.

I remember being told I would project. I then began to feel odd energy sensations indicative of the trance state except that there was the familiar Kundalini energy sensations as well. I had the energy helmet over my head and my chakras were lit up from my second all the way to my crown. Oddly, the root was not lit up at all. There was confirmation that it would be soon, though, just not at this point or this night.

I went into an in-between state several times after that.

Discussing Fear

I recall standing on the top of a vast mountain range looking out on a beautiful valley that spread for miles. The colors were vibrant and it looked like someone had taken a paintbrush full of every color imaginable and painted the scenery. Fantastically beautiful!

Next to me was my guide and we were discussing fear. It was explained to me that we were to practice confronting one of my last fears. This fear was interfering with my progress.

I said to him, “I am sorry”.

He replied, “It will be easy”.

I looked out on the scene in front of me and the reality took my breathe away. It felt like I was OOB yet there was a different element to it that I couldn’t put my finger on. I began to wonder, “Where are we?” Something in my questioning took me out of this beautiful, serene place and back to my physical awareness.

I was then told there was work to be done and to think of a place that made me happy. I began to think of the mountains and tried to recall the peace and serenity I had just had, but it was hard. The energy sensations then returned and I felt the horizontal and vertical vibrations that have been the norm for me lately.

Viewing and Experiencing Death

Then next thing I remember was both watching and experiencing the death of a man. The man was laying prone, arms and legs spread, as if he had been hit hard and knocked backward to the ground. I remember he was wearing a white shirt and that he was struggling to breathe. I assumed he was either gunshot or hit with something that damaged his chest area.

What is odd here is that I experienced the man’s death as if it were my own. The strange gasping for breath and the feeling of the life draining out of me. I was choking on my own blood. It felt similar to drowning. Not pleasant at all.

I had feelings during this time similar to the feelings I have been having the past several days in which I feel propelled from my body except here I was allowed to see the predecessor to it.

To not want to die; to leave the body by force because the body is dead creates all kinds of distress for the individual inhabiting the body.

Again I felt to be OOB but there was something different about it that was noticeable but indescribable.

I came back to my physical awareness from wherever I had been experiencing this and my guide said, “Death happens to everyone”.

I responded, “I know”.

A part of me worried I was being prepared for death.

He said, “Not that kind of death”.

My thoughts continued on in this direction, trying to put together all of the experiences I had had up to that point. Was I being possessed? Where would I go when I left my body? Would I come back?

I remember hearing responses amidst my questions.

“Death is only the beginning. You must be free of this fear. There can be no resistance”.

I understood what he was referring to. It was the energy swap. Any resistance would hinder the transfer. Fear results in resistance.

I didn’t even know I feared death.

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Docking the Higher Self into the Physical Body

A couple of weeks ago I received a message. It was, “There will be a docking in December”. In my search for what this might mean, I found this amazing article.

Christine Meleriessee – Docking the Higher Self into the Physical body – Lord Adama – March 26, 2014

Greetings!

It is I, Lord Adama with the Telosian Council of Light.

Hello, Hello, Hello everyone. Welcome. I should say… you’re welcoming me instead of me welcoming you.

Let’s just take a breath. Feel the energies of this day and what it represents for us to fully understand the integration that is happening to each of you, to each of us, within this planet; and how we assimilate the movement of the energies within our physical conditioning.

Each of you are striving to bring forth your Higher Consciousness into your Physical Consciousness. Through this process you must purge through the Etheric Body and allow that Etheric Body to heal in multi-faceted ways. You’re also working within your Emotional Body and your Mental Body so that you can be fully healed in all aspects of your Soul’s existence; all lifetimes, all experiences, all moments within and without a body. That’s a pretty big tall order to allow this energy to become fully integrated and grounded upon this Earth as the Earth is changing. This is what each of you is trying to do.

Whether you think about it or not, this is truly what your Higher Self (your Soul’s Essence) is working within you to help you understand the process; to accept the changes, and to walk through the challenges in order to receive the highest frequency and acceptability within your physical body that you can hold. When we put it in those terms and have that understanding within our physical minds, it seems like a big advancement into a society that does not accept this level of understanding, which is very true. I share it in that context to help you truly grasp within your physical mind what it is you are going through.

We talk about the words Ascension, De-ascending, Enlightenment, and Spiritual Advancement. In truth, all these words represent one journey of allowing the part of you that was created in the very beginning to be remembered through your physical existence. Let’s face it, as we leave the body we exit the body, and we move into those Higher Realms. We have that Soul Body of Light, but yet the existence that you had in the physical body – you have remembrances of that but it is not like being in the physical body and trying to remember the Soul’s existence. It is quite a journey to take.

It is important for each of you to have the conceptual understanding that each moment is going to change. As your Higher Essence is trying to come more fully in the physical body, you have to make those necessary adjustments; otherwise it cannot happen. This is what you are experiencing. You are experiencing your physical body going through tremendous changes.

This is a powerful journey to begin with but then you add the frequency of GAIA shifting and her energies changing; that now you are personally feeling those frequencies of Light from the Sun, the Moon, and the planet shifting their alignment into the planet. What you have known previously no longer holds to be true; but your foundation is being cracked. It is part of your personal journey, your pathway for this to happen because otherwise you would not be in this space of knowing about the both worlds or all worlds coming together into Oneness, but it does not make it any easier. What I want to assist you with this evening before we go into this beautiful City is for you to reflect deeply within your Heart.

What is your truth in this moment?

You connect within your Higher Self. We all know that you are awakened. Everyone is on a different level of that awakening.

What is your awakening telling you in this moment?

What is it that you need to embrace to assist you to go further into this pathway?

What you have done is stepped consciously into a world that you have been training for unconsciously for your Soul’s Essence. Within that Soul’s Essence it’s an unconscious movement without a body; but within the consciousness that you hold within the development of your Light Body (your Merkabah) your frequency of Light without a Body – you have full consciousness of that moment. When you come into the body, that changes.

The Physical Body is not meant, at this present time, to accept everything that the Soul Body is supposed to bring forth; so they have to come together. There has to be a merging. It is not just like a spaceship docking into the space station. It is not a movement where it just happens and then it is altogether. You have to try, and try, and try again. All parts of the shuttle that you are commanding need to be in place. They cannot all be in place until the totality of what you are experiencing is coming together.

So the first element that you are working through is your physical body accepting a new energy to come into it. When you awaken and you decide that you want to meditate, that you want to relax, that you want to get into a higher state of consciousness, that is just the beginning. Those are the trial periods of allowing that energy to come more fully into the physical existence. Then when you come out of those meditations; you go back into that physical creation.

The more that you do the intentional meditation of those energies through your chakras and with the Rays of God, then that energy is going to surface into the physical body.

You get closer at allowing the docking element to become tighter. It takes many, many, many times for this event to occur. This is exactly what you are experiencing presently. You are trying to dock with your Higher Self within the physical existence. Your consciousness of your meditative state is a bridge between the Higher Self and the Physical Self to allow that to happen. The most important element is to allow that consciousness to be fully within you. It takes a lot of practice in order to do it consciously; we need physically, every day, every moment of your day. This is why we urge you continually to allow these changes to occur.

So then what is happening to the physical body at this time?

The physical body has to heal in order to receive the higher frequencies of the Soul Body of Light. It has to remove itself out of the 3rd dimensional construct, move into the higher levels of frequency so the Soul Body of Light can fully integrate within the Physical Body. Then the Etheric Body that you are bringing forth into your Physical Body is housing many different elements, many timelines, many thought processes, many emotions that are from all the other lifetimes. The ones that become more active are the ones that are very important. You are trying to clear those elements at the same time which is a direct reflection in your Emotional Body and your Mental Body. Those bodies have to be able to surrender onto the fact that they are going to integrate and not be separate entities any longer within your physical existence.

As you step upon the Mastery Pathway and walk through the initiations, these are the experiences that become very real. I am putting it in very simple terms to help each of you understand this process that you are undergoing. It is not an easy process and it is a continual one. Every time you go through one initiation or a step of an initiation, you plateau for a while as the body accepts the Soul Body of Light. Then you feel really peaceful and you feel the serenity. You’re able to do things more easily. It depends upon your Higher Self and what they want on the next step of that initiation phase.

Do you stay in that space for a while or do you move forward again? And everything else in the environmental conditioning of the planet and others around you also represent the focus of how this is done, how quickly you do it, or how slowly you do it.

So my focus through this discussion in this moment is to allow each of you to understand more deeply within yourself what you are experiencing.

How is the docking going?
What is happening to you through the process?
What physical symptoms are resulting?
What emotional feelings and mental thoughts are occurring?
Do you feel closer to the process?
What needs to be looked at?
Do you need to go deeper into your childhood and release some past traumas or feelings that you are still holding on to?
Look at your relationships. How do you interact with other people?
Do you allow the mirrors that you see in front of you to be cracked so that you can heal more deeply or do you continue your pathway the way that you always have been?
These are all very important thoughts to bring into your consciousness. I bring these to the forefront this evening.
The choices that you make – what is it that you are feeling?
Is there a synchronous flow that is occurring within your world, or is it a very bumpy ride and you keep hitting blockages along the way?

It also represents the ability to allow your Higher Essence (your Higher Self) to be more of your Guide Post. Your physical self can no longer walk the pathway as it had previously in an unawakened condition. In an awakened condition, you are no longer just your physical self; you are so much more. You are a part of us – that internalization of life; becoming that Multi-dimensional Being allowing those Essences to come into focus. So you may be feeling a lot of different energies from many different levels in order for you to incorporate.

What it is that you need and what you don’t need?
I want to take you into a deeper part of yourself.
What is it that is in your core Essence in this moment?
Let’s do that now by taking a deep breath.
What are the first feelings or the thoughts that come up to you?

Allow your Higher Self to guide you not your physical mind because your physical mind may want to detour you away from the full capacity of this integration that you are experiencing. As you breathe deeply into your Heart Essence, allow yourself to know that you are the truth from your Higher Essence. You understand what that truth is but you cannot fully accept it until you are ready to receive it. The physical mind has to be ready. Let us allow the Physical Mind to accept the Higher Mind in this moment. Let that flow within you.

You may already know what you need presently and what it is that you may need from another or from the depth of your soul. This is a very important part of your acceleration of understanding your inner truth. As we go forward, your inner truth will change. The depth of your knowledge will come fully within you that will create the wisdom to be shared.

It’s a powerful time and we are in the power of these Essences that are occurring presently. Every soul upon the planet will question what they are doing; when they do so, that is Illumination. The Light is fully focused within the experience that is occurring.

My truth to each of you in this moment is the fact that I deeply want you to acknowledge a more in-depth part of yourself to be accepted.

It’s not coming from whom you know yourself as a physical person, not the person that you are related to physically within this physical body; it is your truth and your knowledge from your Higher existence. Just allow those Essences That You Are to filter down through your Antakarana into your Heart Center. Even if it’s just a small little portion of what you need to acknowledge, now is the time.

Doing this will assist you in finding more balance. It is when you don’t take moments like this, that you will be hit by the bulldozer as some may say – the hand of God. In truth, it’s the hand of your Higher Self saying,

“When are you going to wake up?” When are you going to realize that these truths are our truths together?
Step into it my friend and allow yourself to fully embrace all the changes That You Are to become the One That We Are.
Breathe in deeply and allow this Essence to flow within you. It is my divine pleasure to be here with you as Lord Adama, your Brother from Telos.

©2012-2014 Walking Terra Christa Academy of New Earth Mastery http://walkingterrachrista.com/ by Rev. Christine Meleriessee and Rev. Michael Aranathanara. Permission to repost this information electronically on your non-commercial website or blog is granted as long as you include this copyright statement and the following referral links. Use for commercial websites, blogs and printed or written reproduction requires written permission.

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Symptoms of the Swap

From the perspective of the old.

I am feeling utterly abandoned by the other me. It is as if she just vanished. The drop from bliss to normal has been a shock. I feel like the donkey being led by the carrot. It is such a tease to have such wonderful wholeness and then to be left feeling lacking once again.

If I remember to focus on my heart center, the shock is much less, but it has been difficult for me, especially yesterday. I let my mind do too much thinking about metaphysical and philosophical things. I was warned to avoid thinking as this is the Ego’s domain and of course Ego came out and caused some upset in my household not long after it was allowed free reign.

Symptoms of the Swap

I wanted to list out some of the changes I have noticed in myself since the 28th and the sudden drop back to normalcy.

  • Losing time
  • Blue, electrical-looking lights upon waking
  • Sudden descending calm
  • Emotional detachment
  • Feeling as if my life and body are not mine
  • Warmth in lower three chakras, especially the second chakra
  • Increase in psychic chills
  • Ringing in ears
  • Feeling watched
  • Seeing Spirit
  • Buzzing around back of head connecting ears
  • Third eye buzzing
  • Confusion
  • Passivity; letting go
  • Acceptance
  • Perceiving own future
  • Mental blocks or fog
  • Loss of interest in OBEs
  • Odd, jumpy and shifty vibrations upon waking
  • Feeling “done” with life
  • Deep, dream-filled sleep
  • Inability to remember dreams upon waking
  • Profound Knowing
  • Sudden Remembering

My 5am briefings have stopped but I am still waking around this time. This is normally when I notice the blue lights. They surround images of my fading dreams as I regain conscious awareness of my body. They literally look like neurotransmitters or electrical pulses. Most every time I wake I feel odd vibrations, as if my body is being shaken up and down and left to right all at the same time. I also quickly lose dream images and story lines abruptly upon waking and recall is impossible even when I set the intention to remember.

The ringing is my ears just began a couple of days ago. It starts and then gets very loud. Then, the sound remains for a very long time, so long I get use to it and lose the sound. Yet if I focus on it I can find it immediately, still there. This disappears during the day, thankfully.

The loss of time and detachment to this life are really disorienting. I have been waking up with amnesia and it takes a while to recover my memories and locate myself in time. During the day I often forget what day it is or what time of day it is or even what I am suppose to be doing. I will have to reorient myself – “Okay, it’s Friday. I know this because I just went to work (insert regaining memory of work routine)” – only to once again forget an hour or so later. I did this so many times yesterday that I began to wonder if I was going somewhere else and it was causing these time hiccups. This sudden amnesia and detachment has been going on all week and increasing in intensity and frequency.

There is odd activity in my lower three chakras as well. It is interesting to me, since I have had a dullness in this area for many years now. It is as if my lower chakras have been on vacation, especially my second chakra. Lately, when my heart is activated and the New me comes close, initiating psychic chills (wonderful feeling) my second chakra will light up and a warmth will spread out in that area. It is so nice to feel in that area again!

Some changes have been on-going since the week of bliss and feeling whole. The descending calm, buzzing in upper chakras. profound Knowing, Remembering, loss of interest in OBEs, acceptance, letting-go, mental fog/blocks, seeing Spirit and feeling watched, and perceiving my own future are all such changes. Perhaps these are permanent?

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The Process Continues

From the perspective of the Old.

I awoke at 5a.m. The other me, the New me, said upon waking, “The process continues”. As it appeared to be me saying this, I quickly gained full awareness.

I did not feel like myself. In fact, I felt strangely disconnected from my body and this life. I scrambled to remember the dream I had just been having, or rather observing, as I vaguely recall observing the New me receiving instruction on how to transfer into this body. I also recall receiving instructions on how to leave the body and know I had been practicing this before waking.

Try as I might, I couldn’t find the specifics of my dream in my memory. It seemed to be retreating quickly into my subconscious. I felt like it was being purposefully hidden from me and objected to this.

I wanted to panic but there was a descending calm that came over me and a knowing that what I had heard was truth – the energy swap process was continuing. I was instructed to focus on my heart center and when I did the feeling of calm expanded and I felt oddly connected to the other me. I say “oddly” because this time I struggled to differentiate between the old and the new. The old me felt lost and the new me felt incomplete. What an odd feeling!

I was encouraged to return to sleep and soon found myself in the in-between but very groggy and unable to focus for long. During this time I recall hearing that the 10th was an important date and that there was a total of 6 weeks remaining. There was information about my body rejecting the transfer and the possibility that this would cause discomfort, even illness. There was no concern felt over this information, just a relief that the process was nearing completion.

Considerations

I cannot help but be reminded of the strange OBE that I had on Easter. This is the exact feeling I awoke with and there came with that feeling an understanding that something similar to that would occur again. Oddly, there was great relief with the thought of it happening again.

I firmly believe that when I exit the body, the New me will come into it. I wonder, will I still be me or will I truly move on to the spiritual, leaving my body and life in the hands of the New me? When I ask myself how I feel about the prospect of the latter, I am not bothered by it and actually am curious and oddly excited for it to happen. It seems wrong at some level, though, like a part of me is rejecting the idea. There is also a desire still to remain in the physical just to “see what happens” but this desire is very child-like, similar to a personality I often take on while OOB. Ultimately, I hope to experience more of what I experienced from the 21st to the 28th of May.

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Energies Wane, Time to Rest: Message from the Council of Many

Rejoice, for you have made it past a huge hurdle and are again embarking upon a period of rest. We are proud of your accomplishments and your successful reset which brings you one step closer to your emergence as a New Light Being.

In these activation periods many will find they are confused or uncertain as to what tasks lie ahead for them. We ask only now that you turn inward, toward your heart, quieting your mind and counting the many blessings you have been besought with. No, there is no bright shining star calling you Home just yet but there is within each of you a piece of Home that you can go to, call to, whenever you need. It is this talent, this gift of yours, that we wish greatly for you to access during these times of major translation of the old into the new.

It is with eagerness that we invite you to continue upon your journey with ever more open eyes and receptive hearts. There is no time like the present in which to do so as the energies are settling and so, in turn, are you. Yes, you will have doubts and questions along the way but with each heart-centered query will you find the direction and purpose which you seek. Your practice has made you much better at distinguishing truth from lie and you will only continue to become better at this.

Remain steadfast dear ones. You are nearly there!

Note: The reset mentioned above has to do with alignment of the energy bodies. I was told mine (physical, mental and emotional) have been aligned allowing access to the spiritual body (activation). However, some of you may not have aligned all of your energy bodies yet. Each activation helps to bring your energy bodies into alignment. How many activations it will take to accomplish this is dependent upon the individual. 

For more information on the energy bodies, this website will be beneficial.

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From the Perspective of the Old

When I awoke the morning of the 21st I found myself in the midst of a great influx of memory. I seemed to withdraw to the back of my mind as this other me came forward. I did not interject, just listened in awe.

Even since this dream I have had an awareness of this other me at all times. In the beginning I seemed overcome by her. The energy was intense. I felt expansive and more alive than I ever have. I was in a state of bliss for a week straight and became use to it. This resolved after the OBE in which news was given of the premature departure of a member of her soul group. Afterward, she withdrew some of her energy from me and I felt suddenly deflated of all the expansive energy I had gotten used to. Gone was the bliss and back was the “normal”. I could still feel her, but so much less, and it made me sad. This sadness, along with the sadness she experienced, made me a very melancholy person for a good 24 hours.

She has not gone, though she does seem at times unnoticeable to me. Yet, at certain times I feel to be influenced greatly by her. Either I will hear her question me, suggest something or remind me of some long lost memory. What is extremely curious to me is how my mind seems changed by her presence. I don’t react like I use to and there is a muting of most of my emotional reactions to life. If I do react negatively and reactively, it is suddenly taken from me, almost like someone comes by and just picks it up off the top of my mind and tosses it. For example, I had a very big letdown last night and found myself grieving over once again feeling so alone in life. I felt her concern. Then it was as if the grief were suddenly replaced with great joy. I went from crying and feeling all “poor me, boo-hoo” to, “hurray for life!” It was, is, such a magical experience.

Considerations I Have

I have been particularly upset over the insertion of the “walk-in” term into my mind, for obvious reasons. I was raised in a household that believes such things constitute demonic possession. I keep trying to figure out what is happening to me and up until today, I have not been able to process any thought about it.

Part of the memory restoration I have been going through alongside my partner (what else do I call her? lol) is memory from my first awakening, memories I had forgotten. I experienced so much during that time that it all blurred together; however, it is obvious to me that this New me, this partner, is my Companion Traveler. One in the same. I just identified him as male in 2003. I often still find myself doing this, but I don’t think he/she cares one way or the other.

There were times back in the period from 2003-2007 in which I felt very much to be in the midst of a “trying on” period. During these times I would be asked permission to allow him to join energies with me. I didn’t understand why nor did I ask (not sure why) but I always said yes and I always felt amazing during the short periods he would do this. But never did I experience anything like I did recently.

I never once thought it odd that my “guide” called himself a Companion Traveler and me the Earth Traveler. At that time I was so enamored of the whole process that I didn’t think to question much of what was happening. I remember he would often say to me, “You aren’t asking the right questions”. Ha! If I had only known!

It seems, though, that a Companion Traveler is more than a guide. He was merged with me prior to this lifetime and has acted as my guide, but so much more is making sense now. With my new experiences and information about walk-ins and soul exchanges, I am starting to put the pieces together.

This was planned. He and I planned it. I have no doubt about that. I get lots of leeway, though, and it seems that he has been waiting for me to decide to “step down” ever since our meeting in 2003. I recognize there is an agreement between us as well. What it is exactly has not been completely remembered yet.

I chose in 2007 to have a family, so he waited. I am done with that now and have been asked again what I want to do. Again, I can’t make up my mind. I am told we are “negotiating”, which makes perfect sense to me as my dreams, feelings and thoughts all point in that direction.

My last child being born was a trigger for the process to begin again. I was told in June, 2014, that I had four more years. It felt all very final to me, like I was going to “die”. I had previous messages that were profound in nature before that, but all after the birth of my son. I quit my job, sold my house and moved my family. All these actions seemed to be preparing me for something.

Now I am feeling the urge again to quit my job. We can’t afford it but even with that there is an urge within saying I need to spend time with my children, cherish the time I have with them. This was the same feeling I had last June, but I got a part-time job rather than “risk” no job. My husband agreed to let me leave my job, so it looks like that is what is going to happen.

I am told there are four more trying on periods coming up for me. Strangely, I eagerly await them. I felt complete for the first time in my entire life while in the body. No longer did I feel like a piece of me was missing. I have felt similar feelings while having profound spiritual experiences but never for an entire week.

I don’t know when I will next update. I am finding still that my mind blanks out when I begin to type or write my experiences down. Either that or I go from one me to the other in the midst of typing and I will look at what I typed and think, “When did that happen?” My Companion seems to come through more often and more strongly than I do. I suppose this is to be expected considering the process we are going through.

by

Lyra

Today as I was laying in savasana, my favorite position to receive, I felt transported to another place. It was strangely familiar and my entire body felt alive with energy as I settled in the scene.

The first thing I saw was a field of mustard colored grass. It spread out around me in all directions. I sensed immediately that I was home. I was on Lyra.

I opened my eyes briefly just to make sure I had not left my body. I had not, so I closed them and shifted back into the scene. The sensations of my body imitated the rise and fall of the ocean and the field of mustard grass swayed with me.

Above me in the sky was a brilliant, reddish-orange sun, bigger than any Earth sun. Behind and just below it was a smaller, yellowish-colored son, reminiscent of the Earth’s sun. Interestingly, the sky was not blue but a strange orange color that lightened to almost white the higher into the atmosphere I sent my gaze. The brilliance of the massive orange sun made it impossible to see much else in the sky.

I lingered for a while until my guide interrupted my journey. I shifted consciousness back to my body and the present time, leaving Lyra only a memory in my mind. Still, though, it is a vivid memory and so I attempted to paint what I saw. My painting doesn’t do it justice, but I imbued it with the energy of the place as best I could.

Satsa’na Nateh.