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Epiphanies and Visits from the Past

On my drive to my cabin, as seems to be common lately, I had many epiphanies. First, earlier that morning, I realized some things about my relationship to my ex. I saw how we both entered into the relationship with good intentions and was able to see with clarity why I chose the paths I chose. I was able to look at both myself and my ex with great compassion and love. The feeling of it was relief and acceptance. Contemplating it further triggered some memories on my drive of my earlier life and the decisions I made. I saw myself doing the best I could with the limited memory and experience I had. I saw how my decisions and experiences created the person I am today – a tapestry of a life story nearly complete. I saw it – ME – as a beautiful masterpiece of compounded experience. I began to cry at the Knowing that I loved myself, even the past version who I have often been so critical of. When I had this thought, and while crying happy tears, my guidance asked, “Can you forgive yourself for what you didn’t know?” I knew I had. 

We come here into this physical experience without any memory of who we are. We do this purposefully. I could see how I, as the creator of this life, purposefully scripted the experiences to create the person I am today. One thing I saw especially was how, currently, I am counseling young people and learning how to be patient and loving as I guide them to make better decisions and navigate their problems. In doing this, I am also learning how to be patient and kind with myself, specifically the parts I feel “should’ve known better”. Should I have? Perhaps the lack of knowing in that past version of me was purposeful so that I would make decisions that would teach me and shape me into who I am today? I know it was! So, in seeing this, how can I blame myself for not-Knowing? I was – and still am – but a child of the Universe. In that moment I was able to see myself as my guides see me. You cannot force a person to listen, you cannot force them to accept something they are not ready to accept. My guidance offered their help, their support and their guidance. It was up to me to take it. I chose, more often than not, to “do it myself” (sound familiar?) and they let me. They were patient and loving with me, always there if I needed them, watching and nudging me along much like parents do with their small children or, even, as I have been doing with my own children and the children I counsel as part of my current job.

Visits from Old Friends

Last night while meditating a friend from the past visited me. She passed away a while ago from cancerI knew her only briefly. She was one of the first people I gave a mediumship reading to when I began exploring my abilities so many years ago. I almost missed her altogether, though. A fleeting image and memory of her floated almost indetectable through my mind. I saw it and recognized how out of place it was with the rest of the random thoughts and images floating across my mind. I knew it was more than a memory, it was my old friend stopping by for a visit. Of course, I could not remember her name and was a bit flustered by that. She didn’t mind. I asked her why she was there and she said to say hello. She told me she had been following my life, watching me and keeping tabs. I was surprised because we had known each other so briefly. I got a sense from her that in Spirit she and I know each other much more intimately than we ever did in life. She thanked me for helping her, saying I saw her illness and showing me how, during an aura scan, I noticed the blockage. I apologized because I didn’t remember (I don’t typically recall the specifics of readings I do). She told me she was returning the favor. I remembered her name and a flood of memory returned to me. I began to cry. In life she was beautiful, but in death she was glowing. I asked her about her son, her family, she said, “They are alright” seeming not to want to deter from the main reason for her visit. It was clear she was not there to pass a message on to them. She was there for me. 

As we talked, I told her, “I wish I was where you are.” She said, “Oh no! You stay. You’re amazing”. Telepathically she explain my Light is needed here. I also remember her saying, “You need a hug.” This made me cry and, as I felt the emotion rising, told her to stop. I immediately wished I hadn’t but she understood and I was reminded how I asked my father to do the same when he would visit me. It is because I feel so loved and don’t feel worthy of that love. As she left I heard very clearly, “Lilac”. I didn’t see one in my mind but I heard it. Then she said, “Look it up”. I knew she meant the symbolism of it. I thanked her.

A short while later, after looking up lilac symbolism, I felt a rush of warmth envelop me. It was the hug my friend had told me I needed. I sobbed. My friend was back but she was with others. Some familiar faces came to mind. I was overwhelmed with gratitude to them all. I knew they were there for support. They had said as much on another solo trip to my cabin. I didn’t fully comprehend what it meant then. I was too caught up in the chaos of my life to really put any attention on it. 

Recently an online friend of mine passed away. When I found out I was shocked and very suddenly overwhelmed with emotion and love I didn’t know was there. I began to cry and felt him close, a big smile on his face. I apologized for not reaching out to him more, specifically when he got married or when he sent me messages on IG. I was just too caught up in myself, in the chaos of my life. He immediately waved it off with a smile. I knew, somehow, similar to me and the friend I wrote about above, he and I were connected in Spirit in ways I never realized in this life. As he turned to leave, golden light surrounding him, he waved a white handkerchief, as if to say, “Surrender!” I believe now that it was a message to me. Surrender. Stop fighting what you know to be true and embrace your purpose.

And then, well, there is Steven. My Companion Traveler. My main guide. He is here. He is observing, watching, but when I called for him, after years of no contact (seemingly), he came. Of course, I cried a bit, but his Light immediately reassured me. We may not hear or see our guide/guardian angel, but they are ALWAYS there. Seeing him indicates a Shift for me. It is likely much more than that, but for now I am just happy to have had a visit from him again. It has been too long!

Something truly magical is happening now. I feel it and I am overcome with gratitude and love for my life, even the parts that hurt. Each day I make a point to choose joy and gratitude. I am observing my thoughts, actions and tendencies, without judgement. Lovingly acknowledging what no longer serves me and choosing what does. I’ve not perfected it but how I feel day-to-day has shifted. As a result I am sleeping better and my blood pressure is going down (yay!). 

Please check out this book if you want to change, I mean REALLY change: Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself, by Dr. Joe Dispenza. It has been what has helped me take years of lessons and Knowing and put it to use. It really is as simple as changing your mind.

FYI – I have updated my About and Services pages on my Daynaspirit.com website. I have also updated this blog so that there will be no more pesky advertisements. 🙂 Slowly but surely I am stepping into the life I want. I hope you will join me! So many possibilities!

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My First Metaphysical Fair Visit Since 2007

Yesterday I went to a metaphysical fair. I haven’t been to one in 12 years. This was a small one with only about 15-20 vendors total. The people who sponsor the fairs have had them in the area for over 2 years but I had never heard of them. Turns out they also have a school for metaphysics that offers classes and degrees.

Not long after arriving I got a headache and neck ache. I knew it was from someone’s energy in the room. At first I couldn’t find the source but then I turned around and recognized someone I had encountered about 13 years ago. Apparently her energy had not improved and so I put up protection and my headache went away.

I felt sad that one person could screw up the energy of an entire room like that. What was even sadder was that she was attracting people to her booth. I felt really bad for the people she was “helping”. I thought about going up to her and seeing if she recognized me but then decided to just keep my distance. There was no reason to interact with her.

The backstory about this woman is she came to the Austin area from California. She had plenty of money, so didn’t need a job and had a really nice house downtown. She would invite young, curious, seekers to her house and give “free” readings and “alignments” (energetic and physical). My friend at the time invited me to go to one of the gatherings. Everyone was asked to make a donation when they entered. The donation box was pretty full.

When I looked around the room, most of the people were young, college students with the exception of a few older people (like me). The vibes of the house had me on edge the entire time but when I sat through her readings and was given an alignment I lost it and called the woman out in front of everyone. She later took me aside to “talk” to me. She told me she recognized my “gifts” and understood that I thought she was a “threat” but that she wasn’t. She said some other things but it was all very condescending and her energy was making me sick to my stomach.

I went downstairs to wait for the readings to be over. A man sat down next to me and began to talk to me. He was also skipping the group readings and alignments. He told me he knew why I was upset and told me the woman was a fraud but that he came to help out. To me it seemed like he was there to clean up after her, to pick up the pieces of the messes she made out of people.

My friend ultimately got very mad at me because I embarrassed her. I told her I would not apologize for revealing a fraud and warned her about the woman. About two months later my friend contacted me and told me I had been right about the woman. My friend told me that she realized the woman was only there to get a “following”, to get attention and that her readings and alignments were not genuine.

So, yeah, sad that this woman continues to do what she was doing so long ago. 😦 Thankfully, everyone else in the room was pretty high vibe.

Aura Photo

I waited around the fair for a while to feel out the energy of the people at the booths and see who I was drawn to. Ultimately, I ended up visiting the aura photography booth and talking to the woman who was taking the photos. At first I just wanted to find out about them and so the woman and I talked for a while about the aura and other topics. Her husband shared the booth with her and was a psychic/medium giving 10 minutes readings and she focused on taking the photos.

I inadvertently saw the woman’s aura when we were talking but didn’t say anything. Eventually she showed me her aura photo and I saw the pink outline. I started to cry because I knew the pink meant she was surrounded in love and I could feel it. I told her I felt it and wiped my tears. She said her aura was normally another color than in the pictures and I told her what colors I saw. She told me that I was correct.

Ultimately I agreed to take a photo. There were three kinds – aura around the head, the chakras, and the aura and chakras. I was most interested in seeing what was going on with my chakras. I had an idea but wanted to see if the photo matched.

This is the resulting photo:

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The big shocker here is that my aura showed up as orange! She told me the entire aura was orange except the very outside which was pink. She also said the left side (which is past) was darker than the right (which is upcoming, or future). The darker orange indicates high stress, the lighter indicates problem solving and creativity. So, not so bad I guess, but I am typically blue/purple and green.

The chakra alignment was similar to what I thought it would be, only I thought the second chakra would be blocked and the third open because of all the panic attacks I have had lately. However, my panic attacks have dropped off recently, so it is possible the third chakra closed compared to what it was. The throat chakra is slightly blocked but that fits with what I perceive.

My thoughts about the orange aura is that the second chakra is so wide open right now that it is overshadowing my normal aura color. Orange to me indicates issues with family, relationships, sex and desire. This is the chakra that has long been giving me issues and has been a literal pain in the uterus. lol I suppose it is a good thing, then, that it is really wide open when previously it has been so horribly blocked. I am making progress at least.

Healing

I left the booth and waited around a while to feel out what was needed next, if anything. I purchased a nice little bracelet for my daughter and then walked around some more. Eventually I took a seat and just waited, sensing my next step was healing but not knowing from who.

Ultimately, the healer came to me. We began to talk and share our individual experiences. When he found out I was a healer among other things I could feel that he was interested in finding out more. I discovered he was Kundalini active and just coming out of “hiding” (lol) and that this was the first metaphysical fair he had ever done. Interestingly, he had an accent. I guessed it was Australian but he said he was from the UK. It sounded closer to Australian to me, though, and I know the difference having visited both places. Whatever the case, he seemed extremely familiar to me. Pretty certain we know each other on a soul level. I also think I remember meeting him while OOB….

Eventually he asked me if he could give me a healing session. His healing technique was his own and there wasn’t really a name for it. Like me, he just followed where his guidance led when giving healing.

I agreed and he told me to stand in a certain direction and proceeded to do the healing. I want to say it took a good 20 minutes, too! At first I didn’t feel much but eventually, when he got to the root chakra and there was a block he mentioned how I wasn’t from “here” and I felt like I didn’t belong. Then he asked me to say three times, “The Earth is my home” or something similar. Before that I had been asked to state things three times and had no issues, but when asked to say this I couldn’t get the words to come out. The sensations that arose were many. My throat constricted, my heart began to pound like it does when I have an anxiety attack, I began to feel hot and cold sensations, my stomach started to feel uneasy and tons of grief began to surface. It took me a long time to finally get the words out and when I did he said the block cleared.

There were many small blocks here and there but none as big as that one and none that produced such a response. Most were connected to letting go of the past and being more flexible. Some were connected to fear and anger.

Afterwards we spoke for a bit and he asked me to give him a medical intuition scan. I did and then later he asked for distance healing, which I agreed to do.

Not sure how long we talked but it was a long time. It has been entirely too long since I have spoken to someone face-to-face about my experiences and felt understood to such a degree and vice versa. It was so nice!

Afterward, I went for a walk and sat down in the grass outside the convention center. It was nice outside and I think I just needed to get out of the room for a while. I left not long after.

Knee Pain

When I got home I did my workout as planned only I discovered that my left kneecap was sore. The soreness got really bad by the end of the night (yes I did my workout anyway which was probably not a good idea). It was so sore that I had to elevate and put ice on it. By the time I went to bed it was sore enough that I asked my guidance for healing. I suspected it would be gone or at least much better by the morning.

This morning the kneecap pain is gone 🙂 but now my entire left side is stiff. I suspect my sciatic nerve is flaring up based upon the location of the pain (hip mostly). What is interesting is there was a block in the knee that the healer worked on for a quite a while. There was also a block in my left hip. Both were masculine and trauma related. I also had a similar block on my right hip.

The pain is bearable and will likely lessen with a hot bath and a stretch. The stiffness goes all the way up my thigh to my neck. Yuck!

 

 

 

 

 

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My Soul Family

I finished this painting today. It is called “As above, So below”. It is of a vision I had a while back of a tree with two tops and no roots. The top is the spiritual aspect and the bottom is the physical.

I just remembered a conversation I had with my Companion last night. I somehow lost it by the time I awoke but it came back to me this afternoon.

In my mind I saw a picture a tree and saw two branches. I heard my Companion say to me, “You are one branch, I am another”.

In recognizing I was conversing with him, I then recalled what we were discussing and knew he was explaining his relationship to me. It was interesting to me that I had been having this conversation but only was remembering this part. I had asked him to explain how we were “family” only a couple of days ago. He had said, “We will talk”. I never expected to actually remember the talk. 🙂

I understood very clearly then our relationship, though it is hard to explain now as words don’t seem to do it justice. What it felt like was that we were off-shoots of a larger energy, we and many others. In my mind I saw a very large tree, spreading its branches upward and each of those branches was another of us and each of us broke into ever smaller versions of us. To put it simply, he and I were siblings. Now it made sense why he has said more than once, “We are brothers”.

While caught up in my trying to sort through this information, I saw very clearly in my mind a class picture like is often taken in school to capture each class before they move on to the next grade level. It appeared to be a large class, bigger than my high school graduating class. I wondered how many were there. I heard, “215”.

I then wondered back in a question, “But shouldn’t it be in multiples of 12?” This idea came from previous research I had done into spiritual monads.

I received back, “Who decided that?”

My thought was then, “Guess not. 215 sounds good”.

That’s a big family, though. Much bigger than I thought it would be. I suppose that is because I usually only interact with a small group via this consciousness extension.