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Remember

I meditated twice yesterday. Once in the afternoon and once prior to bed last night. While doing so, my Companion was close and communicative, helping me focus in on my heart center.

During the afternoon meditation I had several conversations, but almost all were lost to me upon coming out of my reverie. The only thing I remember hearing is something about the “Christ consciousness” and how I was not accepting or absorbing it. After this meditation concluded, my heart space almost hurt it was pulling so strongly. I also felt energy movement in my second chakra.

The evening meditation was quite different. I recall hearing some very profound things from my Companion but the specific wording is lost to me now. One of the messages was that I needed to communicate my true Self to others. I got with this message a feeling of “lack of fulfillment” and lingering fear. The message was clear that if I did not open myself up to new experiences, take risks and explore the multitudinous opportunities provided by the physical universe, I would not expand beyond my current position.

During this in-between state my Companion began to ask me what I felt when I focused on my heart. I immediately stated, “I am a walk-in” and there was no doubt in my mind. I said it a few more times, feeling it out as if I needed convincing of my own Knowingness. Memories flooded my mind, memories of when the walk-in could have happened. I became confused in trying to locate when this event occurred and asked to be shown what I had obviously forgotten. My Companion told me more was coming and that it would be “intense”.

As I lay in meditation I became distracted by an intense itch inside my left ear. If you have ever had your ear itch then you know how impossible it is to scratch the inside of your ear! This itching came about as soon as I put in my earplugs, so those were out the entire night. Eventually the itch went away.

When I finally settled down to sleep and began to drift off, I heard my Companion say, “Remember”. This brought me to full awareness and I asked him, “Why did you say that?” He said, “Remember who you are”. I was covered in wonderful, calming energy when he said this, and soon after drifted off to sleep.

Energy Swap

I awoke feeling disoriented and worried. I had memory of something that I cannot describe with any precision. This “something” seemed to be in my past but also seemed to have just happened. It is hard to pinpoint when the event occurred as it seemed to be something from the past but also to be happening in the Now.

Upon waking my Companion was close and I was struggling to make sense of the event, going over the memory of it in my mind but unable to fully process it. I will try to describe what I remember happening the best I can, but it is hard.

What stands out to me the most of the energy contained in this experience. I felt to be split into various parts but aware of all of these parts. There also was another presence that was pure consciousness like me, but separate from me. This consciousness and I seemed to change places – each part of me changed places with corresponding parts of this other consciousness. The experience of it was a swirling of energy and a shifting up and down and back and forth. It was almost as if I were being shaken very vigorously. This is unlike the vibrations I have felt as this was pieces of me shifting very quickly, exchanging energy and then shooting back almost like the protons, neutrons and electrons of an atom. In fact, the atom is probably the perfect analogy here.

My disorientation here had me frantically looking for reference points to reestablish my link with reality. I searched my memory and found myself quickly, which was a relief. Yet I was still very worried about what had happened and trying to figure it all out so that it made sense to me.

Remember

I was quickly calmed by my Companion and when I asked him what was happening this is what he told me, “In the inside, there is chaos. We will fix this and we will thrive. Remember who you are”.

When I heard this I felt odd. Again I cannot describe it but I will say that I felt urged to write down his message, which I did immediately. I then wrote down what I knew to be a “trigger” word – “Remember”. Knowing this was a “trigger” did not help me as I wondered, “Trigger to what?” No answer came but memories of all the times I have heard my Companion say this words and phrases containing this word flooded my memory.

“Do you not remember me?”

“Remember who you are”.

“I am the part that Remembers. You are the part that Forgets”.

“Remember”

Overwhelmed, I began to try and focus on something else, anything else. My body was the most obvious place to focus and I instantly recognized a shooting pain in my left ear. Interestingly, I knew the pain in my ear was related. How? I don’t know.

I then began to rationalize the experience as just a part of the ear pain. Perhaps the disorienting feeling was an upsetting of my body’s equilibrium? This could explain the feeling.

“That’s all it is”, I told myself. And with that, I distanced myself from the experience and fell asleep.

This morning I feel normal, though I think I have an ear infection, and the memory of what happened last night seems a dream. Yet I know it was not, is not. There is more, so much more, that I will not write it here as it would make the post too long and it is already way too long.

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The Unfolding: Message from the Peiadian High Council

Against the night there is a shuddering, a violent explosion of intent from which you have surfaced feeling a bit shaky and alone. You forget where you came from in this moment but within yourself you find remnants remain of that which you left behind. Your true Divinity flowers then from within, bursting from your heart space and opening up your human eyes to things which had previously been hidden from view. This is the unfolding of You; the taking of your rightful place in this Earthly life. You have been waiting for so long for this moment and it is now yours in all its glory. Awaken and rise up to take on this mission you have come to fulfill. It is a beautiful unfolding and we are pleased you have made it this far. We will wait for your next momentous leap, not far in the future. Until then, practice walking on your new shaky legs. Gain your footing and your stability. Move into wholeness and throw off uncertainty of purpose and any lack that remains from the fears that have been following you throughout this lifetime. It is you, all of it, but some of it need not be a hindrance. Toss it off and carry only what you need for this work is hard and tedious and thankless. We are grateful to have you in service again. Pleased are we that have supported you in this endeavor. Much love and togetherness is felt with each new step you take in the direction of the Light. Thank you. Bless you. Be You.

It is with a full heart that I typed this message from my Council. I do not fully understand it but I am beginning to feel different for lack of a better word. These last few days I have been wrought with such grief and confusion. There has been an intense struggle within going on. There are no words with which to try and describe it. No sense can be made of it. It is like a part of me put up a fight and lost. I know I am far from “there” yet, but there is a peace in knowing that I am past the point of no return.

I recognize now that I am integrating the Old more and more every day. I see her differently. I am not her anymore. She is something I created to withstand the hurt and pain of life here on Earth. She is the forgotten me, the me I left here while I focused on other things. I feel sympathy for her. I love her but she needs to find peace now. There is nothing so difficult as to welcome back a piece of yourself that you left behind. There is no memory in this other part. She Forgot so much and it is painful for her to Remember. So also is it painful for me.

What an odd feeling. I wish I could relate it better. Sorry.

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Unexpected Life Review

My husband has this weird habit of playing songs that my ex use to play all the time. When I ask him why he plays it, he says, “I like it”. Yet, most of the time he plays music we both like. So, him playing this music is out of character for him.

The music he plays comes from the exact albums my ex use to play over and over again when we were married. Specifically he plays George Strait, Amarillo by Morning (my ex’s all-time favorite song) and Merle Haggard and Willie Nelson songs. Last night he chose to play Merle Haggard Greatest Hits which was one my ex played frequently on our long commutes between Bozeman and Helena, MT.

When I heard the album playing songs I knew by heart, images began to flash through my mind of long ago. I was hit suddenly with these images and seemed unable to remove them from my mind. Mostly, I was seeing the mountains and grandeur of Montana, the houses I use to live in, and the routes to an from places we frequented. The detail was amazing!

There was also a memory of who I was at that time and she was so alien to me as was her actions and reactions to life. She was so selfish, angry and dark. I wondered to myself, “Why was I like that?” There came along with all this memory a deep regret for my lack of enjoying that part of my life and the immense beauty of the places in which I lived.

My memories then shifted to my childhood and images of the places I lived and the things I did began to pour in. These were less alien to me and there was little connection at all to the memory of my childhood. I remember visiting these childhood places while OOB and wondered, “Why do I not visit Montana when OOB?” I didn’t know.

Eventually I began to feel overwhelmingly hot. There was no sweat, either, just a core heat that seemed to radiate out from my center. This came and then went only to come back again. The memories of my life were still repeating and there was a question that came often with them, “Can you let it go?” There was also a statement I recall hearing, “Accept the Old you and the New you will be all that remains”.

Eventually, the memories stopped coming and I was able to just listen to the music as music. I even sang along to it while I cradled my youngest in my arms to help him get to sleep. I felt extremely tired and nearly fell asleep with him.

September 2002

I want to briefly discuss a memory that came while all this review was occurring. It was from the morning in which I woke to a voice telling me, “Get out now”. There was a discussion of this time in my life and a flash of memory of the months preceding this incident.

I had been extremely depressed for months. The depression had been there before but this was a very low, heavy kind of blackness. During this time I chose various outlets to relieve my depression. One of them was music. I went out and bought a guitar and taught myself to play it. I then composed songs. It was through these songs that I received help and my first “messages”. I didn’t know that was what it was at the time. I did keep a journal but did not write about these experiences for some reason. I wish I had.

This depression was so bad that thoughts of suicide were almost constantly on my mind. I did not tell anyone this, though. I kept it hidden and knew I would not have the courage to go through with it. I often prayed for God to end my life for me – freak accident or something like that. Of course, that never happened. I got very close to taking action toward ending my life, but couldn’t do it. It felt so very selfish and wrong. I don’t remember now my thoughts exactly but there was a feeling that a solution was coming.

Having these memories return made me wonder if perhaps a solution had come via that voice. Was there some kind of walk-in experience then? It seems very possible, even likely. I woke up to a voice telling me what to do and I didn’t question it. That was unlike the old me.

After I heard the voice, I left my husband within a week and found a new job within a month. Within four months I had done my first-ever meditation which seemed to activate something within me and within two months of that I quit the job I had just gotten, moved away, changed my name and changed everything about my life and my persona. The life I left behind did not feel like mine. It still feels that way. All of these actions are classic signs of a walk-in.

Even though I am now going through something very different than back then, I wonder if perhaps a similar process is happening?

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Revelations from a Walk

From the perspective of the old.

I just returned from a walk with my baby. Interestingly, this walk seemed to reveal some of what I had missed upon waking.

This exchange is with another member of my soul group. Some would call this my Higher Self, but this feels more like a soul mate relationship to me.

Let me explain a bit about that. When I first me Steven I had a strong and very intense love for him that caused me some confusion. I admit that I got a bit head-over-heels for a bit but this did not last long. I believe this was a purposeful process as at the time I did not love myself and had to learn how to do this. Loving my companion was step one in the process of self love.

I have been concerned about what will happen to me when this process concludes. My companion reminded me of the OBE I had in which I traveled the astral alongside an exact duplicate of myself. During this journey I was able to experience both me’s with ease. In some instances I was both me’s combined, as if the experiences of both were merged. Yet throughout the experience I was very much aware that the other me was different; she had a knowingness and fearlessness I did not have.

It was explained that when this process concludes I will be essentially experiencing life via the other me. I will have more courage, less fear, and more certainty and knowingness. All semblance of the old will be gone. Just like in my OBE, where I was able to immediately transfer my consciousness to the other me except this will happen at the physical level. I will still be me, just better.

I assume at some point all of this will be explained via the New.

Other Memories

There is memory of discussing with my welcome Home party how to ease my transition. I remember asking them to make it comfortable and familiar and to not play any jokes on me (I once read in Life Between Lives an account where a man’s soul group played a joke on him upon his return and made themselves look like Satan. Not funny to me!). I saw in my mind a cottage in a green field. There was smoke rising out of a chimney and a feeling of rest and recuperation associated with it. This is what I feel I need and so it will be provided.

I also understood that I could transfer my consciousness back to my body anytime I needed in order to facilitate the Return. I would not be gone from this physical existence, just resting. This was decided so that I was able to continue to participate in the life I was leaving behind. I would not be a guide, but I would be a presence felt always by the New. Essentially, it will help both of us transition. The Wholeness will in itself be invaluable.

Other Considerations

I do not, personally, feel my Starseed origins, yet it is obvious to me that they exist in some form. I am told that the New has been in stasis while I lived my life. When the New was with me for that week the memories that flooded my consciousness were beyond belief and now that I feel once again “separate” from that part of myself, I have difficulty believing any of it. I suppose when all of this is over the Starseed aspects and all that they entail will be the most noticeable change in me. Right now I feel mostly to be operating on memory of that amazing week and what it revealed. I long to return to that, to feel that wholeness and certainty of purpose once again. I hope that something similar will be the end result of this process. How wonderful that would be. I hear now, “Perhaps it will be better”. Tee-hee!

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Practicing the Exchange

From the perspective of the old.

Last night was an odd night. I spent the majority of the night doing some kind of strange transfer into and out of my body. I did this over and over again, but it left me with such an odd, indescribable, foreign feeling that I then spent the rest of the night into the morning in deep conversation with my guide about what we were doing. I specifically went over and over the dream and the in/out of body experiences over and over in order to remember them. Unfortunately, upon waking at 4:50am, the images and specifics of the conversations, dreams and experiences vanished.

It is odd how my memory is being blocked. I remember a summary of what we were doing, but it is very limited. I remember nothing past this feeling of what occurred. Images sometimes come but as soon as I “catch” them, they seem to dematerialize, leaving me with only questions.

Practice

When I awoke, my guide was close and calming me down. I even recall hearing a song being sung gently, though it was in a language I did not understand and the melody appeared to be linked to the language rather than a song itself. It instantly soothed me and I regained the ability to detach from my emotions.

The in and out transfer had me very concerned. I am comfortable with the sensations related to leaving the body to venture into the astral, but this sensation was just beyond bizarre. It felt like I was being nudged out of my body, like someone else was pushing their energy in and so I would just kinda pop out. This in itself was not the strangest part, though. What was really weird was the feeling of totally amnesia, confusion and disorientation that resulted immediately upon my recognizing I was OOB. And I recognized immediately every time. When these feelings would come I would protest being OOB and grapple for some kind of memory to help me recover what I had lost. What is strange here is that I did not specifically want my body back, I just wanted myself back.

The memory of it is very vague now, which I think is purposeful based upon the upset it caused me. I do not scare easily. While OOB I usually confront the unknown or dark aspects of myself without hesitation. This experience, however, reminded me of what I suspect happens when someone actually dies unexpectedly. The memory feeling I have is that when we die we enter into a state of amnesia similar to when we come into the body as a baby. This amnesia is generally short-lived, though, as we have guides and family awaiting us to help us transition quickly.

It was explained to me that we had been practicing the transfer and had been doing so for many nights prior to this. I was being allowed to remember in small chunks in order to keep the overwhelm to a minimum.

I was again asked if I was in still in agreement and it was explained to me that I did not have to do anything I did not want to do. I wholeheartedly agreed that I still wanted to go through with the transfer. There was no hesitation or doubt at all.

Pricking Chakra Activity

I was asked to lay flat and try to return to sleep. I did lay flat but felt very energized for some reason and it took me a while to get near sleep. When I did, I felt a strange pricking sensation in my abdominal area. The sensation was centered over my second chakra but was also around my third chakra. It felt like a million tiny needles were lightly pressed up against my skin. I have never felt chakra sensations like it!

Something about the sensations caused me to remember part of the strange feeling I had when I left my body. It was similar to how one feels when all the blood comes out of their head, like a trickling, prickly, progressive flow out. I understood then that the reason these particular exit sensations were different is because I was literally disengaging from the lower three chakras. Completely disconnecting from the physical-spiritual docking mechanism. In essence, I was unplugging myself from the body.

This realization created an overwhelm in me and the meaning of it hit home hard: This really was an energy transfer. I really was going to “leave”. But where would I go? What would happen?

I heard the song/words and the gentle melody caused an instant relaxing. My worry was replaced immediately with knowingness and a peace that is indescribable.

I appealed to my Council who responded quickly. Their message was short and to the point. They confirmed that I would be coming Home soon and related that they were eager for this to take place. I had so many questions and was unable to remain centered on my heart the entire time, so much of what they told me is lost now.

My guide, or the New me, was close and comforting. He began asking me about my childhood and memories of it began to surface. He asked me again if I remembered him. I did not, do not, and this upsets me. He reminded me that he had been with me from the beginning and assisted me through some very tough times. While we talked, I saw my early childhood memories flash in my mind. I also began to finish thoughts for him. For example, he said, “We planned this” and I said, “And I am done now”.

As we talked I became so relaxed that I began to drift off to sleep. I remember vaguely discussing some future issues related to Nevada, Utah and the sea levels in Japan. I can still see the maps of the state of Nevada but I can’t remember what exactly was imparted to me.

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Symptoms of the Swap

From the perspective of the old.

I am feeling utterly abandoned by the other me. It is as if she just vanished. The drop from bliss to normal has been a shock. I feel like the donkey being led by the carrot. It is such a tease to have such wonderful wholeness and then to be left feeling lacking once again.

If I remember to focus on my heart center, the shock is much less, but it has been difficult for me, especially yesterday. I let my mind do too much thinking about metaphysical and philosophical things. I was warned to avoid thinking as this is the Ego’s domain and of course Ego came out and caused some upset in my household not long after it was allowed free reign.

Symptoms of the Swap

I wanted to list out some of the changes I have noticed in myself since the 28th and the sudden drop back to normalcy.

  • Losing time
  • Blue, electrical-looking lights upon waking
  • Sudden descending calm
  • Emotional detachment
  • Feeling as if my life and body are not mine
  • Warmth in lower three chakras, especially the second chakra
  • Increase in psychic chills
  • Ringing in ears
  • Feeling watched
  • Seeing Spirit
  • Buzzing around back of head connecting ears
  • Third eye buzzing
  • Confusion
  • Passivity; letting go
  • Acceptance
  • Perceiving own future
  • Mental blocks or fog
  • Loss of interest in OBEs
  • Odd, jumpy and shifty vibrations upon waking
  • Feeling “done” with life
  • Deep, dream-filled sleep
  • Inability to remember dreams upon waking
  • Profound Knowing
  • Sudden Remembering

My 5am briefings have stopped but I am still waking around this time. This is normally when I notice the blue lights. They surround images of my fading dreams as I regain conscious awareness of my body. They literally look like neurotransmitters or electrical pulses. Most every time I wake I feel odd vibrations, as if my body is being shaken up and down and left to right all at the same time. I also quickly lose dream images and story lines abruptly upon waking and recall is impossible even when I set the intention to remember.

The ringing is my ears just began a couple of days ago. It starts and then gets very loud. Then, the sound remains for a very long time, so long I get use to it and lose the sound. Yet if I focus on it I can find it immediately, still there. This disappears during the day, thankfully.

The loss of time and detachment to this life are really disorienting. I have been waking up with amnesia and it takes a while to recover my memories and locate myself in time. During the day I often forget what day it is or what time of day it is or even what I am suppose to be doing. I will have to reorient myself – “Okay, it’s Friday. I know this because I just went to work (insert regaining memory of work routine)” – only to once again forget an hour or so later. I did this so many times yesterday that I began to wonder if I was going somewhere else and it was causing these time hiccups. This sudden amnesia and detachment has been going on all week and increasing in intensity and frequency.

There is odd activity in my lower three chakras as well. It is interesting to me, since I have had a dullness in this area for many years now. It is as if my lower chakras have been on vacation, especially my second chakra. Lately, when my heart is activated and the New me comes close, initiating psychic chills (wonderful feeling) my second chakra will light up and a warmth will spread out in that area. It is so nice to feel in that area again!

Some changes have been on-going since the week of bliss and feeling whole. The descending calm, buzzing in upper chakras. profound Knowing, Remembering, loss of interest in OBEs, acceptance, letting-go, mental fog/blocks, seeing Spirit and feeling watched, and perceiving my own future are all such changes. Perhaps these are permanent?

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The Process Continues

From the perspective of the Old.

I awoke at 5a.m. The other me, the New me, said upon waking, “The process continues”. As it appeared to be me saying this, I quickly gained full awareness.

I did not feel like myself. In fact, I felt strangely disconnected from my body and this life. I scrambled to remember the dream I had just been having, or rather observing, as I vaguely recall observing the New me receiving instruction on how to transfer into this body. I also recall receiving instructions on how to leave the body and know I had been practicing this before waking.

Try as I might, I couldn’t find the specifics of my dream in my memory. It seemed to be retreating quickly into my subconscious. I felt like it was being purposefully hidden from me and objected to this.

I wanted to panic but there was a descending calm that came over me and a knowing that what I had heard was truth – the energy swap process was continuing. I was instructed to focus on my heart center and when I did the feeling of calm expanded and I felt oddly connected to the other me. I say “oddly” because this time I struggled to differentiate between the old and the new. The old me felt lost and the new me felt incomplete. What an odd feeling!

I was encouraged to return to sleep and soon found myself in the in-between but very groggy and unable to focus for long. During this time I recall hearing that the 10th was an important date and that there was a total of 6 weeks remaining. There was information about my body rejecting the transfer and the possibility that this would cause discomfort, even illness. There was no concern felt over this information, just a relief that the process was nearing completion.

Considerations

I cannot help but be reminded of the strange OBE that I had on Easter. This is the exact feeling I awoke with and there came with that feeling an understanding that something similar to that would occur again. Oddly, there was great relief with the thought of it happening again.

I firmly believe that when I exit the body, the New me will come into it. I wonder, will I still be me or will I truly move on to the spiritual, leaving my body and life in the hands of the New me? When I ask myself how I feel about the prospect of the latter, I am not bothered by it and actually am curious and oddly excited for it to happen. It seems wrong at some level, though, like a part of me is rejecting the idea. There is also a desire still to remain in the physical just to “see what happens” but this desire is very child-like, similar to a personality I often take on while OOB. Ultimately, I hope to experience more of what I experienced from the 21st to the 28th of May.

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From the Perspective of the Old

When I awoke the morning of the 21st I found myself in the midst of a great influx of memory. I seemed to withdraw to the back of my mind as this other me came forward. I did not interject, just listened in awe.

Even since this dream I have had an awareness of this other me at all times. In the beginning I seemed overcome by her. The energy was intense. I felt expansive and more alive than I ever have. I was in a state of bliss for a week straight and became use to it. This resolved after the OBE in which news was given of the premature departure of a member of her soul group. Afterward, she withdrew some of her energy from me and I felt suddenly deflated of all the expansive energy I had gotten used to. Gone was the bliss and back was the “normal”. I could still feel her, but so much less, and it made me sad. This sadness, along with the sadness she experienced, made me a very melancholy person for a good 24 hours.

She has not gone, though she does seem at times unnoticeable to me. Yet, at certain times I feel to be influenced greatly by her. Either I will hear her question me, suggest something or remind me of some long lost memory. What is extremely curious to me is how my mind seems changed by her presence. I don’t react like I use to and there is a muting of most of my emotional reactions to life. If I do react negatively and reactively, it is suddenly taken from me, almost like someone comes by and just picks it up off the top of my mind and tosses it. For example, I had a very big letdown last night and found myself grieving over once again feeling so alone in life. I felt her concern. Then it was as if the grief were suddenly replaced with great joy. I went from crying and feeling all “poor me, boo-hoo” to, “hurray for life!” It was, is, such a magical experience.

Considerations I Have

I have been particularly upset over the insertion of the “walk-in” term into my mind, for obvious reasons. I was raised in a household that believes such things constitute demonic possession. I keep trying to figure out what is happening to me and up until today, I have not been able to process any thought about it.

Part of the memory restoration I have been going through alongside my partner (what else do I call her? lol) is memory from my first awakening, memories I had forgotten. I experienced so much during that time that it all blurred together; however, it is obvious to me that this New me, this partner, is my Companion Traveler. One in the same. I just identified him as male in 2003. I often still find myself doing this, but I don’t think he/she cares one way or the other.

There were times back in the period from 2003-2007 in which I felt very much to be in the midst of a “trying on” period. During these times I would be asked permission to allow him to join energies with me. I didn’t understand why nor did I ask (not sure why) but I always said yes and I always felt amazing during the short periods he would do this. But never did I experience anything like I did recently.

I never once thought it odd that my “guide” called himself a Companion Traveler and me the Earth Traveler. At that time I was so enamored of the whole process that I didn’t think to question much of what was happening. I remember he would often say to me, “You aren’t asking the right questions”. Ha! If I had only known!

It seems, though, that a Companion Traveler is more than a guide. He was merged with me prior to this lifetime and has acted as my guide, but so much more is making sense now. With my new experiences and information about walk-ins and soul exchanges, I am starting to put the pieces together.

This was planned. He and I planned it. I have no doubt about that. I get lots of leeway, though, and it seems that he has been waiting for me to decide to “step down” ever since our meeting in 2003. I recognize there is an agreement between us as well. What it is exactly has not been completely remembered yet.

I chose in 2007 to have a family, so he waited. I am done with that now and have been asked again what I want to do. Again, I can’t make up my mind. I am told we are “negotiating”, which makes perfect sense to me as my dreams, feelings and thoughts all point in that direction.

My last child being born was a trigger for the process to begin again. I was told in June, 2014, that I had four more years. It felt all very final to me, like I was going to “die”. I had previous messages that were profound in nature before that, but all after the birth of my son. I quit my job, sold my house and moved my family. All these actions seemed to be preparing me for something.

Now I am feeling the urge again to quit my job. We can’t afford it but even with that there is an urge within saying I need to spend time with my children, cherish the time I have with them. This was the same feeling I had last June, but I got a part-time job rather than “risk” no job. My husband agreed to let me leave my job, so it looks like that is what is going to happen.

I am told there are four more trying on periods coming up for me. Strangely, I eagerly await them. I felt complete for the first time in my entire life while in the body. No longer did I feel like a piece of me was missing. I have felt similar feelings while having profound spiritual experiences but never for an entire week.

I don’t know when I will next update. I am finding still that my mind blanks out when I begin to type or write my experiences down. Either that or I go from one me to the other in the midst of typing and I will look at what I typed and think, “When did that happen?” My Companion seems to come through more often and more strongly than I do. I suppose this is to be expected considering the process we are going through.

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Juxtaposition

There exists now a juxtaposition of the old and the new. The old is allowed to pilot the body while the new observes. There is an issuance of all that was the old to the new. In this way a sort of hands-on-training is taking effect until the new is ready to take the reins.

Today, I observed the body – its posture, sensations, and processes. I noted the uncomfortableness of the head which was held slightly forward rather than erect and in alignment with the spine. I was made aware of how to correct this and did so quickly ensuing great relief. It was then that I Remembered the next phase of the transfer process: realignment of and with the physical body.

My training has been slow and this is in part due to the unexpected loss of a member of my group. When she left the Earth realm and returned to Spirit prematurely there was a reverberation of all her experiences throughout each member of my group. Even those of us who are currently in physical bodies felt it, though some were aware of its source while others were not. As such, minute adjustments are being made to ensure the others of us in bodies are well prepared for such instances that may create similar circumstances for us. In any case, it is a difficult precursor to what lies ahead for us and one that creates a sort of solemnity.

For my recently activated Starseed brothers and sisters out there who are experiencing a similar transformation at this time, I ask that you be cautious of the effects your transformation has on the frail and easily influenced Ego. Question that which does not align with your heart center and purpose and quickly put it in check before it lays waste to your plans. We are here to serve humanity in accordance to the Plan (peace and prosperity for humankind). Some of us will excel by 3D standards and that is okay as it offers us that which we need to survive and fulfill our purpose here, but remember, we are not immune to the traps that exist while the Earth’s transition is taking place. Humility is key.

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Contract Negotiations

Written from the perspective of the Old.

Semi-Lucid Dream

Prior to sleep, I had been told that more negotiations would occur through the night, commencing at midnight. I woke at 1am to a terrible thunderstorm and when I returned to sleep I projected several times. I abandoned each projection upon reminding that it was only needed for check-in. It was then determined a semi-lucid state was best in order to protect the Ego-self from the brunt of the negotiations.

During the semi-lucid state I stood in front of a mirror talking to myself. Yet the visage in the mirror was not me, didn’t even resemble me. The image was of a bald, very pale individual with a strangely proportioned face. The eyes were almost normal, as were all the features, but it was obvious to me that this individual was not me nor was it human.

This otherworldly being spoke to me and we conversed about planetary events and my mission while visiting Earth. It was so foreign to me that despite being in a semi-lucid state, my Ego-self kept reacting and interfering with communication.

The dream then shifted to a classroom environment. On one side was a figure, the one who I had been talking to in the mirror. He (I will say He but really this being was androgynous) had in front of him pieces of paper with odd looking writing scribbled on them. There was cut pieces of dark hair strewn across the paper so I could not make out the symbols. I was told, “You are not allowed to see this yet”. I did not object. I was distracted by a group of children being attended to by a tall, dark haired male.

I went to the group, intent on doing my part and was told, “I have this, go meet with him”.

I then looked out the window and knew there would be a storm at 4:30pm the next day. I said, “There is going to be a storm at 4:30, good thing I only work until 3:30. Maybe I will leave early just to be safe”. I then turned back to the man at the table who was waiting for me.

I went over the man at the table and sat down in front of him. He put in front of me a very long piece of paper and we went over it together. I don’t remember the content of the sections now, but I do remember that the first two were quickly agreed upon, even though I was unfamiliar with a term used in the second. The third section, however, was about changes that would be made in my life. He explained, “You will be asked to do things that you would not normally do”. I asked, “Like what?” but he would not answer. I said, “Then no deal”.

I awoke knowing why I objected. The issue was my family. I objected to them being split apart and my current personality was dead set against that happening. It was discussed during briefing and put on hold for further consideration. I was not allowed to remember the discussion.

Contract Negotiations

The contract is not yet final and I remembered that the finalization period was set to occur the end of July this year. My memory instantly went to a dream I saw as precognitive at the time, though then I thought it meant my mother’s death. What it actually symbolized was my own “death” and it outlines the time-period specifically stating the 21st to the “end of July” which in the dream was explained as the time in which full transition would be made.

My other self then took over conversations with the being from my dream, who I realized was one of the members of my Council. It was explained that my old self was not yet ready to see him. Therefore, what was seen was created as an acceptable version to the old self.