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Manifestation

This is a painting done by my husband in a matter of hours. It is an acrylic and he usually paints in oils. When I asked why he chose a peacock he said, “It is just what came out when I began to draw”.

He is a fantastic artist. I am so jealous. I am still working on my acrylic painting ever so slowly. I am almost done but it is nothing compared to my husband’s. I like my stuff to look realist, he is more of an abstract painter but he can paint anything.

Since he has yet to sign this painting, I don’t know if he is done but I think he is. He has not named it so I am naming it “Manifestation” because it is a painting of a peacock and peacocks are symbolic of manifestation. They also symbolize immortality, integrity, beauty, intuition, spirituality and increased awareness.

Such a perfect creature. I love peacocks.

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The Shift: Symptom Update

I’ve been meaning to write an update on symptoms for quite some time but, to tell you the truth, I haven’t been having many….until today.

Current Symptoms of the Shift

  • Buzzing energy helmet
  • Pulling sensation in heart, root and solar plexus
  • Perception changes
  • Hot flashes
  • Sweating
  • Acute changes in sense of taste and smell
  • Blurred vision
  • Mental fog
  • Awareness changes/expansion
  • Deep, dreamless sleep
  • Difficulty falling asleep
  • Increased energy

The reason I am posting these today is because of the newest symptoms – acute change in taste and smell. This seems to go hand-in-hand with my recent decision to change my diet (again) back to eating clean and cutting out sugars and refined carbohydrates. I changed my diet last weekend and have been feeling fabulous. But two days ago I started noticing that things began to taste and smell “off” to me. For example, I boiled eggs for snacks. My husband cracked one so I took it with me the next day. I was happily eating it when I suddenly tasted something not right. It wasn’t bad, really, but it was enough to make me spit the rest of the egg out. This happened again when I was eating leftover sweet potato mash tonight. I took a couple of bites and finally just threw it all out. Something was wrong with it.

The smell part is what is really getting on my nerves. I smelled the egg and combined with the taste I couldn’t stomach it. It was likely perfectly O.K. yet I couldn’t eat it. Then tonight I got out some chicken breast to cook. I decided to smell it, just in case, and nearly threw up. It didn’t really smell that bad and I second guessed myself several times, going back to smell it because when I would put it away I could still smell the nasty smell. I finally tossed the whole thing. This made me sad for the waste but I couldn’t cook it for my kids with it smelling like that.

As I was typing this I started to smell smoke and ran downstairs in a panic. No one else smelled it. Turns out there is a fire in the area and I somehow smelled it. Huh.

On top of the strange change in taste and smell, I also am having vision fluctuations. My vision will get blurry out of the blue and then other times clear right up. While driving today I felt a buzzing energy at the base of my head and then felt as if I could see all around similar to how I see when in astral. It was quite cool! Yet when I try and read the words blur together. Just odd.

I am also not able to remember things again and have all kinds of typos when I try and write (forgive me if I miss some). I am zoning out and spacing out as well.

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Back to the Top

It has been a while since I have heard from my High Council directly. I feel them all the time now, but the direct messages slowed down substantially. I know this is because I am to focus on my life and living in the physical right now. I am practicing my new found skills of being in the present moment and being constantly tuned into my Higher Self.

Thankfully, I was told a while back that any time I wanted them all I needed to do was request them. I did this last night. I asked for them to show me what was going on; what was next. I also asked to get to practice my skills in the other realms.

Back to the Top

I was awakened early in the morning to a vision of a blue piece of paper. It had white, cursive writing on it and I was reading it aloud. As I became more conscious of it, the words disappeared and the words I was mentally speaking stopped flowing. It was like I was receiving the message, “You are not to know the content of this letter”, but I know it is not that. It is simply that the conscious mind seeks information in familiar pictures, letters, numbers, facts and figures. But when information is streaming into one’s consciousness, the information is more fluid and is not limited to human symbols and identification. So as my consciousness began to follow its human blueprint, the information I was receiving was transformed into a letter and words but even that was too limited and so it was seemingly “lost” upon becoming fully aware of it.

As soon as I was awake I heard my guide say, “You will experience a top-down kundalini activation”.

As I was not expecting this information, I thought briefly about it and then smiled to myself.

“So that is the next step?”

I received a feeling and knowingness that it was so.

I then asked, “Why? Am I starting over?”

“No, you are merely integrating the changes”, my guide responded.

I wondered, “Does this mean I will have more projections?”

The response was a memory of the my first top-down activation. I immediately remembered the sudden spiritual abilities that I became aware of that first time. Not long after, I had my first ever projection.

So, yes, there will be more projections. I was (still am) briefly worried about the reemergence of my spiritual abilities.

He then offered me more information, “It will be easy. It will be fast”.

Surprised again, I asked, “How fast is fast? A day? A week? Months?” (their idea of time is quite skewed).

He responded with, “A week”.

Wow. That is fast. But then I know not to take anything future related too seriously as so much can be adjusted based upon need. I suspect it will be a week per chakra, but then who knows. Regardless, I am ready for the ride.

Tending an Egg

I fell asleep not long after and had an in-depth dream of a wedding. My wedding. In the dream, my husband and I were renewing our vows. The scene was at my mother’s pool and I was creating the ceremony as I watched it. I chose to have us walk over the water on a platform. It was beautiful and calm and very pleasant overall. I remember seeing some dressed in shorts and thought, “How casual”.

After the ceremony we were tending to our yard – mowing, watering, etc. I went in the back and there was a large chicken coup without chickens. In front of me was a small wooden box with brown eggs in it, each gently placed upon straw. I sorted through them, putting each to my ear to listen for pecking which meant the egg was about to hatch. I found one and set it apart from the others. It had a stamp on it that said it was from a special organic farm. None of the other eggs were hatching.

I then went to the front and took down and threw away some miniature crumbling houses. Then I picked up this mechanical doll that moved on its own, singing and clapping its hands. I took the doll with me and on the way found money scattered on the sidewalk. Very prominent was a $2 bill.

I went inside to talk to my husband about the yard when behind me the door opened on its own. Startled, I looked and saw a black cat sitting at the door. I said, “He’s going to come in!” and jumped up to shut the door. Then I saw he had stolen my chicken lunch and I yelled, “He stole my chicken!”

Interpretation

I have to laugh at this odd dream a little but the symbolism is what is important. Eggs are new beginnings and I am obviously preparing for one. The wedding also symbolizes new beginnings or transitions. The taking down of the houses indicates moving on as abandoned houses represent moving on with life. The doll symbolizes the desire to be someone else and the means to act on this desire. The number 2 is a message to trust that things are going in the right direction even if things seem painfully slow. A black cat symbolizes fear of using one’s psychic abilities and/or intuition. The fact that the black cat stole my chicken, which in itself can symbolize cowardliness, seems to indicate that there is nothing to fear and in fact the fear may be devoured by the results of this ability and perception.

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Seek and Destroy

I am back in session. This time I am seeking out the last remnants my past that have a hold on me. The current step is confronting change. Changes I wanted. Changes I didn’t want. Changes I tried to make happen that didn’t. Changes that happened to others. Changes that were expected and those that were unexpected.

So far, I am finding that I am not a prisoner of change. This is refreshing and gives me hope. Change in inevitable and the more you resist, the harder it is on you. I have learned this lesson time and time again. I feel like an old pro.

The next step is eradicating old, defective, destructive and illogical belief systems. This one will be harder. I am certain my eyes will be opened to beliefs I didn’t even know I had. I will share those with you when the time comes. It will be very soon.

For now, I will share with you my current wins which are that in looking back at very upsetting, emotionally tumultuous times in my life (parent’s divorce, my own divorce, death, etc) I can say with 100% certainty that these events no longer have any hold over me. I can (and did) look at these events, see the lessons learned, and appreciate them for what they contributed to me as a person and as a soul. There are no regrets. There are no more tears. There is no more hatred or guilt. I feel completely freed.

I have not done this with past lives. Yet. But to be freed from the current life is a huge step in itself and clears the path to the bigger one. I am ready.

The Super Power You

With many on this opening up to their HIgher Self, this “ascension” and Shift, much of the changes come on without any prompting. The individual does not always want nor are they always willing to endure the transformation. This resistance builds, even without the person wanting it, because of fear of what is next and what “ascension” means. I have been there.

The fear of the unknown, I believe, is perhaps the worst. But there comes a time when you realize that nothing is truly unknown and there is nothing to fear at all of who you are transforming into. It is just You. It isn’t some new person with superpowers and sudden ability to dematerialize into thin air in broad daylight. Yeah, okay, maybe some say they have dematerialized, but it isn’t a literal loss of the physical body into tiny particles that sparkle and fly away (wouldn’t that be cool, though!). It is transcending the physical body via the consciousness, via the other subtle energy bodies that we have available to us.

The final end product of all this hoopla is that you become MORE YOU, the FULL YOU. That isn’t scary, is it? However, you can’t do that by force. Some part of it, at some point, will have to be initiated by you. Your participation is necessary. If you resist, if you say to your Higher Self, “I want no part in this”, then you will slow down and ultimately it could be that you defer your shift to another life. This doesn’t mean you fail, it just means you wait.

I don’t want to wait. So I am going to participate. I am going to battle my demons head first. I want to clear that path to my Self as best I can and I now feel totally, 100%, capable of doing so. Because I have learned it was me, all along, that was “forcing” this transformation upon me.

Do you really want to fight yourself?

Change perspective. Shift with the shift. It will flow so much better and life will transform before your eyes. This is the “super power” You. It is that simple.

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Bobble Headed Alien

My post-surgery instructions are to walk for 20 minutes 2-3 times a day and elevate my leg as much as possible for 5-10 minutes at a time, one or two of those being for 20 minutes. I rarely am able to meet these requirements because I spend most of my day running after children and tending to the needs of my household. I am trying to walk at least once a day, though, and am elevating my legs whenever I get the chance.

Yesterday I managed to find some time to elevate my legs for 20 minutes. I hid away in my daughter’s room and was left alone. Since I can’t do much during this time, I decided to meditate.

Within a few minutes I was in-between nearing the dream state. I felt the familiar energy around my head, strong at my third eye and on either side of the base of my skull. I recall having a conversation with someone but now I don’t remember what about.

At one point I was reminded of a dream. I had forgotten about it somehow but there it was, clear as day and as if I were having it all over again.

Bobble Headed Alien

The dream memory was a short but poignant one. I saw standing in front of me three strange looking creatures. One was standing in the middle and closer to me. The other two were at his side and standing a little behind him. Their color was a reddish brown and they appeared to either be wearing armor or their skin was armor-like because it reflected the light. My first impression of these creatures was that they were large, humanoid insects, most similar to that of an insect with bulging eyes on either side of their heads.

When the memory came back to me fully, I was a bit surprised, but allowed it to continue without interruption. I wondered what I was seeing. It was then that I heard/thought, “They are Bobble Headed Aliens”.

I continued to try and focus in on these creatures to get a better idea of what they looked like. Their heads were the most prominent and I could not make out much of their bodies. Their heads appeared very bumpy and I was curious. I noticed there was a third prominent bulge in the center of their head, between their eyes. It stuck out more than their eyes. When I saw this I heard/thought, “Proboscis”. Since I do not use that word much, I remember thinking, “Isn’t that something an insect has?” I wondered then, “What is it used for?” and I focused in on it to look. It appeared that this proboscis was a sensory organ, similar to a nose but more like a nose-feeler like an insect would have.

Completely grossed out now, I tried to disengage from this seemingly forced recollection of a very vivid dream experience. With this rejection and withdrawal I was hit with an energy from my left where the visual manifested in my mind. It came on so suddenly that I took in a large breathe and held it. The feeling of the energy was not pleasant but it not unpleasant either. It was just different. It literally felt like I detached from an energetic connection with someone or something and this caused a disruption in the energy, breaking it prematurely.

Now utterly out of my reverie I attempted to mentally and physically compose myself. Yet I felt such an odd sensation in the left side of my body, specifically at the space just below my ribcage but right above my kidneys. It was uncomfortable and I felt as if there was a gaping hole in my energy body. I felt incomplete. It was a very unsettling feeling.

The energy began to spread out and seemed to ignite my lower chakras, specifically my second and third chakras. My head was still covered with energy and my third eye was blazing.

I want to make it clear that throughout all of this, I was not afraid.

Not long after my daughter came in and disrupted my leg elevation meditation. I got up and continued my day, but the odd experience and accompanying feeling lingered for about an hour afterward. I kept feeling urged to write it down so that I might be able to find some kind of explanation or clarity, but with family obligations it was not possible.

mantis2After – Be Careful What You Ask For

I researched “Bobble Head Alien” but found only those toys with heads that bobble back and forth. The closest alien descriptions I could find were of insect-like aliens but those were described as praying mantis-like and no accounts of a third eye proboscis were to be found.

I thought about drawing what I saw, and maybe I will at some point but right now I will just leave the memory in my mind. It is not going to fade as it was so distinct, so vividly clear, that I felt to have physically experienced this encounter. I wonder now if the odd disconnection feeling I experienced was me returning to my body from an OOB state.

Part of me wants to logically analyze the experience as if it were a dream and all aspects are symbols of me and my experience. Thus, this would just be an odd kundalini energy surge to my lower chakras and the aliens symbolized this “alien energy” and its effects upon me. Thus, the third eye proboscis would be symbolic of my own third eye.

This makes me feel better for the time being. However, when I woke up this morning my first thought was, “I don’t want to do this” – “this” meaning life and whatever that entails. The thought I received back from my guides/Council was, “You asked what the current state of Earth was and your role in it”. Yes, I had indeed asked that the night before the alien experience but I had not expected to see insect-like aliens or feel such strange energy! How it answers my questions, I don’t know.

Be careful what you ask for as you will get it.

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Synchronicity and the Current Surge

Yesterday I felt the energy shifting in the afternoon. The first time it began to be noticeable I was in the midst of a conversation. A coworker said to another, “It is a trifecta!” and it was as if her words echoed in my head. “How odd that she said that word!”, I thought to myself.

Synchronicity.

On the drive home the word “trifecta” came back into my mind and I was reminded that the final surge was on its way. I fell into an odd feeling that is hard to describe. I literally feel as if I am frozen in time, in that moment, while he world passes me by. Everything seems to be in slow motion. It is so surreal!

This frozen feeling was accompanied by a feeling of endings and I thought to myself almost sullenly, “Someone has died”. At that moment I noticed the heaviness of the energy. I was not the effect of it, but felt sadness for so many who are “lost” right now.

Again in the evening the feeling returned with more intensity.

The world and its population is chaotic right now. The energy is so dense and helpless. I swear I can “hear” millions crying out for help. I feel urged, almost pushed, to help.

Last night my desire to help seemed to call my guides and Council for I heard, “Do you want to help?” In that moment I realized the feelings I was intuiting were coming from many who have recently died as well as those who are soon to follow. The amount of despair was palpable as was a feeling from many who have left their earthly bodies that they were in “hell”. In reality these individuals can leave but just need a helping hand.

I replied to the question. “Yes. Can I?” I felt not quite ready for such dense, heavy energy and I knew the only way to help these stuck souls was to traverse the heavier energy of the lower astral planes.

The voice responded, “Yes”.

Whether I will begin soul retrieval is yet to be known, but it is obvious to me that at this time it is of the utmost urgency to free these individuals from their self-torment. There is something about the shifting energies that can inadvertently trap individuals at death, especially those who pass suddenly and traumatically. It is as if the mucky, density of the energy sucks them in like quicksand and the more they struggle, the more stuck they become.

If you have yet to feel the current energy surge, you are lucky. This is an especially dense and heavy energy. It will peak this weekend, so if you have already felt it, prepare yourself for more.

I wish I could say there won’t be anymore such surges, but my intuition tells me the opposite. In fact, there will be more similar surges and the intensity and density of these surges will be increasing. Yes, there will be periods of calm, where the energy lightens up, but for the most part the purging cycle of Earth necessitates these energies be sublimated and so the waves and surges of dense energy will continue until the purging is complete.

Thankfully, many have already transcended the effects of similar dense energies. If you are one of these, congratulations! You will pass through these surges of energy with merely a knowingness of it being there. Some of you may have urges, as I did, to help. I honestly believe these urges to help go hand-in-hand with transcendence.

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Sublimation of Old Earth Energies – Message from the Council of Many

The connection between myself and the Council can be felt at all times now. It is interesting to me how easily, how simply, the information flows through me.

The last phase in the Trifecta is upon us. This subtle energy has been intensifying over the last couple of days and will continue through the weekend with effects being felt as soon as tonight but most definitely by Saturday morning.This energy is of the denser frequencies; the frequency of old earth energies being burned off and sublimated.

For those of you who have been working on your lower three chakras and/or your heart chakra, these denser energies will move through these chakras initiating a reciprocal response in similar energies that still linger there. The response by individuals will vary from feeling an emotional heaviness or deep somberness, to a experiencing a higher level of fatigue and need for more hours of sleep as the body adjusts and sublimates the energy.

In those individuals who have been adjusting and aligning the higher chakra centers of the throat, third eye and crown, this final phase will bring out a deeper connection to your Higher Self, opening channels and conduits that have long remained dormant. You ability to “see” into the other realms will clarify and your Oneness will be felt with ever more certainty and resolve.

It is a time of a great sloughing off of the old and a reemergence of the You that has been forgotten. The peeling away of lifetime old layers of beingness, of masks you have worn in fear of being exposed for all you have done that you regret, is coming to an end for many who are in this phase of transformation. For others there will be a continuation in this phase for you have yet to come to an understanding of your full essence; you have yet to truly love yourself – good and bad. This cannot be forced and do not chastise yourself for not being ready yet to move into your new self.

The next phase will not be as physically challenging as it is the unfolding of your Self. It is tentative for most but be assured that you will not fail. You are like a flower bud opening for the first time. Slowly, but surely you will radiate brilliance and open fully to the light that is you.

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Vein Surgery and Recovery

Yesterday I had the Venefit Targeted Endovenous Therapy, which is just a fancy word for having vein surgery. The vein was collapsed by radiofrequency energy.

I learned a lesson in manifestation from this experience. Prior to the surgery I kept worrying over whether I should have it and when they called to confirm the appointment I actually cancelled it when they told me I would have to take antibiotics for ten days afterward. Five minutes later I had an urge to call back and when I did I spoke to a woman who reassured me that this was only precautionary. I rescheduled and it was set.

I had absolutely NO nerves or apprehension. I kept waiting for my heart to speed up or for me to get anxious, but it never happened. Never. So weird for me!

The doctor turned on a screen for me so I could watch the ultrasound of the procedure. He could not get my vein to cooperate and for about a half hour he poked and prodded in my leg. It was uncomfortable and since it was late in the day I was getting fed up. The doctor recognized this and said if he couldn’t get into the vein that he would reschedule me.

During the third try I sent to the universe this thought, “It WILL work this time because I am NOT coming back to do this again”. Literally moments after thinking this the doctor got access to the vein and the procedure continued. Amazing!

I immediately recognized the moment of manifestation and also how my indecision the last few days may have created this minor complication.

Recovery

One of my worries was that I would have a painful recovery. During the procedure I decided there would be no complications. I thought, “Recovery will be easy”. And so far, it has been. I have no bruising yet which is amazing in itself. The nurses told me usually there is already evidence of bruising at the end of the procedure. I have no swelling today, which from what they told me is uncommon. I have no pain today other than a bit of tenderness on my upper thigh when I push down on it. My son actually crawled on my leg and it didn’t hurt.

I know that this procedure will resolve most if not all of my leg aching and restlessness issues. It will also resolve the ugly vein issues and keep new veins from forming. I am so pleased!

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Premonition

Just wanted to post this in case this premonition comes to pass.

Yesterday someone told me about a friend who was going to Cancun for two weeks. I immediately wanted to say, “I hope they don’t get caught in the earthquake” but shut my mouth as this person was very happy and I didn’t want to worry her. Unfortunately, the feeling that came with the thought is still with me as is a knowingness that such natural disasters are on the rise. So I am posting this in case anyone is going to be traveling to Mexico in the next couple of weeks. Please be careful.

I looked up quakes in Mexico for today. There was a 5.5 in Oaxaca. Current quake activity in Mexico.

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Cerebral Enhancement

I had difficulty sleeping last night. I meditated prior to sleep and went into what I can only call a “space” where I had no memory of thought or action or anything, yet I was not OOB nor was I dreaming. I felt subtle vibrations in and around my entire head but they were not overpowering, just gentle and relaxing.

I came out of my reverie and felt much time had passed but upon seeing the clock realized it had only been 30 minutes. Where had I gone to? I had no memory. Weird.

I attempted to sleep after that and the next hour or so I found myself in a state I have never before experienced. I was in the in-between, which is common for me, but instead of moving into the dream world as usual, I stayed there right on the edge. The typical dream thoughts and images would begin to form as is usual when I begin to fall asleep. What is odd here is that when these thoughts began to manifest, just as I would recognize a sentence or pattern, I would be jolted with an electrical current through my mind that would literally shake my awareness, throwing the stream of thought out of alignment and giving me a feeling of disorientation.

These “jolts” would pull me out of the in-between and I would have to return to a state of no-thought in order for the electrical current to fade. I want to emphasize here that the jolts of energy were not comfortable. It made me feel disoriented and unsettled to the point that I began to feel symptoms in my second and third chakras similar to nausea, but not physical. It was like spiritual nausea. Additionally, my head felt expansive and full of many currents of energy coming from more than one direction. It is as if I was being injected with energy from several vantage points outside of my physical body. When these currents would “jolt” me it was when they made contact with my thoughts. If there were no thoughts, there would be no jolt or uncomfortable symptoms.

After being jolted multiple times I finally appealed to my guides for help saying, “I want to sleep! What is happening?” I got the response, “Sleep”, along with a comforting feeling saying all was okay. I was so tired by this point that I must have been able to ignore any additional jolts because I fell asleep.

Cerebral Enhancement

This morning the memory is still vivid of these uncomfortable jolts of energy. I requested an explanation and this is what I was told:

You are undergoing a cerebral enhancement and reorganization. It is unfortunate that you were witness to these enhancements for they can be uncomfortable to the physical body. The thought patterns you witnessed forming in your mind were exposing specific pathways that needed adjustment. Once this reorganization is complete you will have better control over your mental processes, thoughts and awareness.