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Astrocartography

Mention of finding my power spot in my recent reading with Eric Starwalker reminded me of a map I was given by an astrologer back in 2007. The map indicated areas that were ideal locations for me to live in. I had not known what the proper term of such a map was until a friend mentioned astrocartography. I knew instantly that was what it was.

I was able to find the original map. I thought I had been told the most ideal living location for me was near Los Angeles, California. Upon inspecting the old map, I did find that for the purpose of career, livelihood, fame and fortune, that location would be a good location for me. Apparently, San Francisco is also a good location, but for a home-base and ideal for the purpose of self-healing and healing abilities. I remember him telling me that if I located myself between L.A. and San Francisco then I would be able to enjoy the benefits of both locations. He recommended California if I intended to magnify my spiritual abilities and career options (this was my goal at the time). I also recall the astrologer telling me the other good locations were near Chicago and Central Texas (where I am located now). The map confirms it but I made no notations as to why these locations were a good fit for me. Wishing now I had taken more notes!

I generated a free map on Astro.com. It is interesting to me that this current map has way more lines across it. It gives much more detailed information than the one I was given in 2007. On this map it actually looks like Knoxville, Tennessee is a good place for me to locate to, depending on my goals that is. I have never been to Knoxville but I was very close when I was in the state recently. Florida and Northern Georgia may also be good spots. The Knoxville area has three lines, two of which intersect directly over that area. The two that intersect are Venus, labeled DS and in green, and the Moon, labeled MC in blue. The other nearby one is Neptune, labeled MC in purple. Florida also would have the influence of the latter of the two plus further influence by Mercury. The Northern part of Florida, Georgia and South Carolina would have the influence of all four. Based on the map, it looks like Augusta, GA falls right in the middle of all four lines.

Astro.com gives explanations of each of the lines on the map to help you understand what influence those lines have on the location.

Venus:

Venus is symbolized by a circle which is located above a cross. The circle represents the spirit, which has conquered and transformed the cross, the symbol of matter. These two different principles combine in a new form to create a synthesis of earthly limitation and spiritual completeness. Thus Venus is seen to be the search for unity and a balancing of opposite poles.

Venus located along one of the main axes ensures an extremely pleasant and relaxing time. Social life takes precedent, and meeting people is a more harmonious activity. The more balanced level of energy at these locations promote mutual understanding, and allows for new friendships to be formed. Love relationships are intensified, in fact, these are perfect conditions for getting married and enjoying one’s honeymoon.

Venus energy lines are great for one’s outer appearance and a healthy sense of self-worth. Sensual appeal and erotic powers of attraction are intensified, and inhibitions disappear. We seem to trust the flow of life in a relaxed and easy manner, and delight in earthly pleasures. The danger, of course, exists that our love for hedonistic indulgence makes us passive and indifferent.

Venus energy lines inspire our creative abilities and talents. This leads us to discover a world filled with beautiful art which, in turn, inspires us to be creative ourselves. A more refined sense of aesthetic pleasure could seek expression in music, pottery, sculpture or in painting.

In these regions, the fashion and design industry fare particularly well, as do any skilled trades. Furthermore, financial enterprises could hardly find a more lucrative environment.

Mercury:

Mercury assumes a special place amongst the planets. In mythology, Mercury is the Hermaphrodite, a double-natured being, whose sexuality is neutral. It is the only sign to be symbolized by three basic elements: the cross, circle and semicircle. Body, spirit and soul combine to form a united principle, which is Mercury’s task – to be a mediator between body, mind and spirit.

The four main energy lines, when combining with the planet Mercury, become places for communication, trade and every form of human contact. The idea is to communicate with others, form new contacts and expand one’s knowledge. These places, therefore, lend themselves to the exchange of information, correspondence and publishing.

Thought processes are stimulated, and the use of our mental and verbal abilities is increased. There is more interest in social activities, to learn foreign languages and a willingness to abandon old points of view. Flexibility is more apparent at Mercury energy spots, and we are more open other points of view. Neutrality and flexibility are key words.

Generally speaking, Mercury favors methodical procedures. Being able to differentiate, ability to take in clear details and being dexterous, predestined these places for every type of career and business enterprise.

These are the places for journalists and authors. The latest and greatest on any topic or trend can be found here. Ideas abound, and the ability to grasp concepts rapidly aid both work and solve attending problems.

Mercury lines ensure movement and change; there is rarely any boredom. There is more likely to be a certain level of stress and nervous tension. This increased pace also leads to superficiality and prevents deeper connections. This lack of connection can often be in the way of putting ideas into practice, and they remain as ideas only.

The Moon:

The Moon is symbolized by a semicircle, which represents the soul and the emotions of the individual. Its round form reminds one of a harbor which offers shelter and protection. At the same time, this also represents the sign of the waxing Moon which reinforces the great force and changeability of this cosmic principle. This symbol can also be seen as a type of hollow mirror, which collects the sunlight and sends it back to Earth.

Apart from the Sun, the Moon is the most important component within the horoscope, and in Astro Maps, its lines are also considered of major importance. The Moon’s energy lines really affect the emotional and psychic domain, which creates an internal focus.

Under its influences, we become aware of our past. Of interest and concern are childhood, parents and family. We remember the past, which creates nostalgic sentiments and may tempt us to daydream. We meet the past to work through unresolved issues, which can be well finalised.

Deeply hidden needs and desires are awakened through the contact with the Moon’s energy lines. Emotions determine action and push aside rational thought. At times, we feel and behave like a child. There is the danger to have a somewhat dreamy, too simplistic and naïve view to life.

Since the Moon embodies the female side, it really depends on where this rather passive, soft and submissive side is shown in life. Especially males with traditional patriarchal views on life won’t find life too easy at such locations, and will probably experience more intense confrontations. But, in the final analysis, these experiences could prove both healing and liberating.

The Moon continually changes. After a period of growth, a change occurs and “development” leads into the opposite direction, at which point, the cycle starts once again with the New Moon. Moon energy lines are great to use to initiate change or to create a new start. The effectiveness is greatly enhanced if a connection is made to the appropriate place during the corresponding Moon phase. A simple rule applies: a waxing Moon is good for those enterprises and projects requiring growth. The waning Moon supports processes requiring change and finalization.

Neptune:

The planet Neptune was discovered in Berlin in the year 1846 by the astronomer Galle. Its icon, of an upturned cup, symbolizes both the Moon and the soul. The cross which extends through the semicircle points out the unity to the world. The arrows, pointing upwards, symbolizes a higher sphere of body, mind and soul.

Neptune’s energies are extremely subtle and non-material. Its effects are difficult to discern, and act as undercurrents, which usually escape the rational mind. In an Astro Map, Neptune points out regions of intense and transcendental qualities. Meditation, spiritual practices and a more contemplative lifestyle become more intense at such localities. If you are keen to get in touch with these spiritual dimensions, and to step into another reality, then this is definitely your place. The borders between the subtle and the material planes are never more permeable than at these locations. Boundaries disappear, the world becomes full of secrets, dreams and reality appear to merge.

Artists appreciate the inspiring and sensitive nature of these surrounds. Both romance and nostalgia can become a source of new endeavours. The subtle qualities of this higher plane promote intuition, and inspire creative processes. Melancholic mood swings interchange with feelings of cosmic connectedness.

On the other hand, these places do not lend themselves to the more material aspects of daily life. There is no solid base, so a danger exists for unrealistic thinking, the consequences of which can be self-deceit, intrigue and losses. Illusions and false hopes can foster a desire to escape from this world, or can take refuge in the use of alcohol and drugs.

Neptune embodies the universal principle of love, whose energy goes beyond the fixed boundaries of the individual. We are more open to greater connections, and are willing to overcome egotistical needs. A deeper sympathetic tendency exists for the plight and suffering of fellow mankind. Neptune places are most suitable for the service to others, and also for work undertaken in a charitable organisation.

My Current Location

The reason my current location is so good for me is because my sun and Jupiter intersect fairly close to where I live now. So I am in a power zone plus I have very good luck in general. On an astromap, Jupiter represents a pleasant and easy life, encourages a sense of being relaxed and optimistic about life. The sun represents integration, wholeness and self-realization. Those two positive indicators make Texas in general a good place for me to live, raise a family and have a generally good life.

Power Spot

I have yet to receive anything from my body as to where my power spot might be. I discussed Mt. Shasta with Eric – how I was super relaxed and slept better than I have in a long while. He said it may be one of my power spots. Unfortunately, I have no desire to relocate there, even though it is located close enough to the lines of healing and career success for me.

My draw now is to an area I have already been in several times. It is located only 20 minutes north of where I am now and I lived there for a year while in college. If my career pans out (which I think it will) it would be a good location for me I think. Being where I am located now serves me well, I am sure 20 minutes north would as well.

However, I have been extremely drawn to northern Florida for a while now (over a year), as well as Tennessee. I have been to both so cannot say for certain that either would be a power spot, but then I have not paid attention to my body and her reaction to either location. While in Florida recently I experienced a very calm, comfortable feeling at the Tampa airport. Considering I had a very stressful trip, it was a surprise to me. While in Tennessee I was overwhelmed by the energies and felt very unbalanced for the first few days of my trip and then very spiritually expanded and open toward the end. I felt relaxed but did not sleep well. It was as if I received a jolt of super energy or entered another dimension. Whether this is a signal that it was a power spot, I don’t know, but I did feel very powerful while I was there. So, maybe it is one?

For the astrologers who read this blog, any input about my map is welcomed. 🙂

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Astrological Reading 10.23.16

Here are the notes from my reading yesterday. I did not include another part because of its personal nature. However, it was helpful and gave further insight to my current life situation.

Numerology – Life Path Number 8

Path chosen to evolve your spirit. Avenue through which to advance your soul’s potential. Will encounter others in life which demand the very best out of me, starting with my father. This was accurate. Eights are born old and get younger as they get older. Old souls in a child’s body and not comfortable with it. Want to get on with mission right away. Connected to their own personal power. Word is your gold. If you can’t trust someone’s word then there is an issue. Has the ability to recognize the talents of others and place them in positions that favor this. Core intentions is to leave a legacy. Lead as a teacher or example. Respect is more important than love is – this is true in my working relationships.

2014 was my 1 year in the cycle, so huge shifts occurred. This is true. This is my 3 year, so am becoming conscious of the intentions set in 1st year. This year I find my voice. Frequency shifted in 2014 and am just now catching up to it, mentally. Connecting with new people and letting go of those which do not resonate. Marriage will reflect this. Relationship with husband will either have been strengthened or weakened. 2014 direction sets the stage for the entire 9 year cycle. Finding voice and communicating it this year. Sharing my story and being more open about who I am. Need to create an identity that is unique to me.

Need to find my power place, the place where my physical body feels comfortable and rooted. If you don’t feel comfortable where you are then you’re not in your power spot. Going into 4 year – the Mother Power year. Needing to anchor and fully incarnate, to bring all of Self home to this environment. Until I do that I will feel wobbly and disconnected.

Natal Chart

Aquarius rising, Sun in Leo, moon conjunct Neptune at highest point of chart. Bottom half of chart is Earth, top is sky. 4th house area is my foundation/roots. Also suggests previous incarnation stuff brought into this incarnation. Bottom of the chart is very closely conjunct the Pleiades. Chart suggests that I came in from another world. Jupiter is very closely conjunct the Pleiades. Suggestive of me coming in via the Pleiadian frequency. Confirms my experience/memories. Pleiadian society is very Utopian and so my mission here is to bring that frequency to Earth. Moon-Neptune conjunction in Sag suggests a connection to Higher Angelic realms, the realms in which higher worlds are created into Being. In the Pleiades these higher realms actually manifested in the physical to create beauty and ascendency of the personal creative self. I came from a very Utopian world making it a big shock when I arrived on Earth. The trauma embedded in Earth was very difficult for me to handle. As a child I would have had a difficult time adjusting. This disharmony in the human experience is a shock to me because the Pleiades is very much in line with the higher realms and lives in harmony with their physical planets. I’m like a time traveler to set a wave in motion that has already been dreamed into creation. Often a sense with me that the other shoe is about to drop.

A particularly powerful point in my chart was in the mid-80s. I would have experienced a spiritual awakening during this time. I don’t recall this, but I was only 10 years old in 86′ when these changes came about. He says Kundalini first awakened then. Theme would be to follow Self rather than to follow what others wanted of me. I would have felt a different kind of power than I was use to. Sun and moon both conjunct outer planets. This creates a feeling of being overshadowed by a greater archetype which can eclipse my individual right to pursue my own goals. Particularly with Saturn I can feel that my responsibilities outweigh my right to achieve my own personal well-being, creative self and happiness. With the moon conjunct Neptune, there are always those at a greater need than myself. It would cause me to feel that I need to be there in a compassionate way to serve selflessly rather than realizing my own emotional independence and well-being. It is easy for archetypes that are carried like that to overshadow the self. Challenge for me to disengage myself from my greater mission to serve in order to address my own personal, individual, creative development. The more I have the courage to put my own well-being at the same level as the well-being of others, the more balance will be achieved and then I won’t be defined by the greater mission. I will be defined as a human being who is a living example of those archetypes. Ear ringing here as confirmation.

Saturn this year has made for an excellent opportunity for me to bring forth the Higher Realms into this physical world in a tangible way. Also a personal mastery of the higher frequencies and manifesting those dimensions here in the physical without being drawn OOB. Anchoring those higher frequencies and becoming more able to hold those frequencies. This year is about following my joy, meeting new people and having new experiences. Follow my joy. Find the lightness of my being. Learn how to enjoy my experience. Everything doesn’t have to add to a particular goal, some things are just to be enjoyed. Communicate, talk, share. Public speaking very good right now. Share as a living experience rather than just on my blog. Spread my wings and fly.

Relationships

Pluto in Libra. Wherever Pluto is we face our petty tyrant. Demands that we take our power back. In Libra I tend to marry those who I have had issue with in past incarnations. Who may have been my enemy or contrary. Through compassion we bond to incite healing together of these past issues. I need a partner who really knows himself and stands in his own power. I push my partner to see how deeply his resolve to love is. To see if they are movable or will compromise their love. You can’t really know what a person is made of unless you push them really hard. This I do, do. lol I am looking to completely lose all boundaries and have an alchemical union with my partner. I need to feel safe enough to let go. This is why I push, to test them to see if I can trust them and feel safe enough to let go and merge with them fully. In previous incarnations I may have not felt I have met someone who had matched my power. Since I do not have past life memories of either of my husbands, it is hard to say if this is true or not but likely is. Since I have not felt my power has been matched by my partners in others lifetimes, it left me with the secondary choice of recognizing my own personal power. Queen in support of King without fully engaging the King. I have the opportunity to really transform myself and my partner now in this lifetime. I’ve been going through the cycles of initiation as a schooling to understand the inner workings of the human experience in relationships so that I can achieve my goal of alchemical union with a partner. I have reached a point, as of 2014, where I know enough about what not to do so that I can achieve this goal.

YOD

1st house since 2003 spiritual awakening. The particular agreement I had from that time is now becoming fully conscious. In a way there is no turning back in regards to the greater mission I have chosen to accomplish, becoming an angelic presence here on planet Earth (guide told me “turning point” in January of this year). This turning point would have been going on all year. It’s as if I entered a saintly period of my life. People will be more drawn to me. Learning how to physically handle those higher frequencies. This is why I need to find a power spot to really anchor to otherwise I will feel disconnected. I need to be stable for the next stage of the journey.

My primary focus now is to talk to my body and get into communication with her, asking her where she wants to be. Ask her to show me where her/my power spot is. I need to get rooted and feel safe to be the Mother Power and make my nest. Locate my true power spot and be able to incarnate my full potential.

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Dream: Coward

I had an eye-opening reading with Eric Starwalker (thanks Eric!) last night that I am still processing. I recorded it and plan on transcribing it in full today. I will share with you those parts that I feel are not too personal after I have had the chance to transcribe and digest all the information I was given. Overall, what I was told was good and there was tons of confirmation and validation of what my own guidance has been telling me. There was also some information I believe was meant to be passed on directly via Eric because I have been up until now unable to receive it from my guidance. I am extremely grateful to my friend Sophia for setting up the reading for me. Had she not encouraged me, it was likely I never would have gone through with it. There was information I did not want to hear so I was balking at the idea. It is interesting how Spirit takes care of these things, isn’t it?

Something energetically shifted for me last night. Unfortunately it has left me with a horrible sore throat which manifested before the reading and has not let up. I also did not sleep well, waking up at 2am, throat burning, from a very unsettling dream.

Dream: Coward

I was walking through what appeared to be a college campus. It was very clean, almost pristine, with white sidewalks and manicured gardens. My purpose was to plant a bomb and leave the scene before anyone saw me. The bomb appeared to be a sheet of paper that was folded over on itself. It would detonate slowly, spreading a toxic acid into the air which would smother those it came in contact with.

I remember running and hiding, trying not to be seen. I felt pursued but don’t recall anyone actually following me. I finally deposited the bomb into a trashcan and ran away.

At this point in the dream I saw the repercussions of my actions. I saw the people running and knew the bomb was slow and suffocating to those it made contact with. It was not quick by any means. This delay and torture was very obvious and seemed to be the main focus of my attention.

Then I was then in a room with a child who was mine but who I did not recognize. I was looking down at my left forearm which had a reddish burn on it that was spreading. The child also had it. There was discussion here. I had gotten the burns from the bomb which I held onto for too long and so the acid had burned my skin. I was trying to determine what to do next. I knew I would be caught and likely go to prison so my first thought was to just kill myself. Then I thought I would just go to prison and didn’t care if I did. It was at this point I remember thinking,”Wait a minute. This isn’t real. This is a dream. There is no bomb.”

A flood of knowingness came to me then. I knew the dream was about my life and how I have chosen a path that will slowly destroy my current life and in the end would also injure me in some way. My choices are drawing out the inevitable. This is when I heard very loudly, “Coward. Coward. Coward.”

The symbolism indicates my knowingness is accurate. The college campus represents a lesson I am learning. Running away from a pursuer is not facing or confronting my fears. Hiding indicates I am avoiding taking responsibility for my actions or life. The trashcan is unwanted baggage or rejection of an idea or emotion.  The bomb symbolizes a potentially explosive situation. The acid is something or someone that is slowly eating away at me. My injured arm symbolizes my inability to help myself or a feeling of helplessness in reaching out to others. The fact that it is my left arm means these feelings are connected to my feminine, nurturing side.

I was able to return to sleep but it was fitful and I am tired this morning. I don’t feel upset by the dream necessarily but my guidance has been close and asking me, “What will you do?” As if my mind should have been changed in the night by what transpired. I suspect the information given in my reading fueled this dream.

 

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11.13.Spirit

I know, funny title. I actually saw it on a billboard last night when I was driving home from visiting my sister’s house. The 11.13 was a date of some spiritual meeting, a church event of some sort. I didn’t pay much attention to the entire billboard because my eyes were drawn to the 11, 13 and the word “Spirit”, so that’s all I paid attention to. I took note of it and zoned back out into my own thoughts and musings for the rest of the trip home.

Fast forward to this morning. Waking up, I was in a sour mood. Not sure why. I can’t recall my dreams really but I felt really low upon waking. As I fought to return to sleep (wasn’t happening) I saw very clearly the billboard from the night before. I knew I needed to take note of it. As soon as I recognized this, the number 33 popped into my mind’s eye painted in glowing, green.

The number 11 is my near constant companion these days along with 111 and 1111, so I’m not surprised it is showing up again.  The number 11 itself is a message to Remember who we are – our purpose/mission. To be guiding lights to others using our unique abilities, bringing illumination and awareness to others.

The number 13 is not so optimistic in my opinion. It’s like my guidance putting a giant post-it note on my forehead that says, “Rough times ahead, hold on!” It’s all about upheaval, karma and spiritual growth. Sound fun? Not to me. Yuck. Probably why I woke up grumpy. Not a message I wanted to get this morning.

The number 33 symbolizes guidance. Ask and you shall receive is it’s message. It also reminds us that anything is possible. It is a message from my guidance that all the changes I am going through are purposeful and worth it. Then it reminds me to be courageous and optimistic.

The word Spirit is likely a reminder that these messages came from my guidance. Or maybe to help me Remember that I am not this body or physical experience. That this is an illusion of my creating and to be mindful of my thoughts for they will manifest quite quickly.

Pleiadian Message

As I become more cognizant of last night’s adventures in dreamtime, I am reminded of a message I received. It actually just came through, as if something I wrote triggered it. I was told, “Remember your Pleiadian origins” and my “mission”. Of course, I don’t remember my mission but in receiving this message my focus instantly went to my heart and the word “Hope” came to mind. I felt surrounded on four sides by Beings who were loving and exuded a gentleness, unconditional love and understanding. It was as if they were cradling me in their combined energy.

There is memory here also of reception of information about my family/soul group. Whoever was speaking to me used the word “Pod” to describe these groups. I immediately thought of dolphins and how they travel in small family groups called pods. The recollection here is that my pod is composed of 5 members and that we have been traveling together for many, many lifetimes. Mostly I have memory in images of how these pods work and interact. Interestingly, it is very similar to dolphin pods.

The word “pair bond” came up also as well as a recognition that such bonds do not only exist in one reality but in all dimensional realities. So if one is pair bonded in one dimension, they are also in all others. There was complete understanding on my part of the purpose of such bonds at the time but I struggle now to make sense of it. All I know is that a pair bonding is purposeful, agreed upon by both parties and long-lasting. In terms of spiritual contracts/agreements, my understanding is that a pair bond supersedes all other contractual obligations.

There is a connection here also to pair bonds in science (molecular geometry), though it is hard for me to interpret. My draw to it suggests, however, that the scientific explanation is the more accurate explanation. Being that everything at the macro level also exists on the micro level, one would think what is seen in the atom is simply a smaller version of what is seen in Spirit.

Based upon these pieces of information and memory, I suspect I am receiving intense, specialized instruction during dreamtime. Hopefully eventually my understanding will improve, though it may be impossible at the human level.

 

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Welcome to the Jungle

This song came to mind yesterday morning. The only words I heard were, “Welcome to the jungle.” I immediately played the song to see why I was getting the message. As I listened, I knew it meant that a decision had been made regarding the job I interviewed for the day before. Jungle = back to work, back to the 3D grind. I knew I got the job.

I let it slip my mind and went about my day. At 5pm I got the phone call. My daughter had asked me the day of the interview if I was going to take the job. I told her that I would know when they offered it to me because the answer would just come out of my mouth and there would be no hesitation or feeling of dread. This is in fact what happened.  When the woman said, “We would love it if you would come work with us”, I replied, “I would love to!” And you know what? I actually felt excited. Good sign! Yay!

The excitement remains with intermittent moments of concern at the idea of having to get up early and come home late every day. I am so spoiled now with my routine of wake up whenever and do whatever I want all day long. Yet my guidance and heart tell me this is what I need to do for now. I need to get back into the work routine. I need an outlet for my creativity. I need to be productive and contribute to the world via direct interactions with those who need me the most – the children.

When I follow my guidance and heart, things line up like dominoes for me. It was within a week of knowing I needed to take this step that this first domino was presented. I had not even applied for this position but someone at HR thought I would be a good fit. When it was offered I immediately knew that even though it is a temporary, full-time position that it would lead to a permanent one if I took it. I also knew that if I wanted it, it was mine. When I got to the interview and met the two women who interviewed me, I knew again that the job was mine. My answers just flowed out. I had not prepared nor even thought about what I would say, yet with each question the right answer emerged. There was even one time I responded and what came out of my mouth surprised me because I had no idea why I answered the way I did. Then later, one of the ladies gave me information that confirmed what I had said was correct.

This is the domino effect in a nutshell. I’ve seen it happen enough times now to know that it is no accident. Now it is just a matter of letting the dominoes fall and lead me to my destination. To question the path or try to look too far ahead does me no good. I must trust that I am being led in the right direction and thankfully my past experience shows my trust will be rewarded.

My guidance reassures me that this path is “clear”. I was shown it in a dream last night. It appeared as a brilliant white, spotless, paved path. It veered to my right and I could see a good distance down it. There was another path, to the left. It was also white but my attention was directed to the path on the right and I heard distinctly, “The path has been cleared.” I also received “Uranus” as part of the message, saying the planet is directly influencing this part of my journey.

Though I awoke feeling a big apprehensive about the future because of the heavy change ahead, my guidance continues to reassure me, asking me to be optimistic and Remember who I am.

Since I begin work sometime mid-week next week, I will not have much time to blog. The hours I will be working are 7:15am – 3:45pm with a 20 minute commute one-way. This makes for a long work day and an early morning (ouch!). However, I will have the typical school holidays – one week for Thanksgiving and two weeks for Christmas – which will be nice.

Note: I already have a contract position and turned down an assignment that would have started November 1st. It did not feel right to me at the time. I am still technically employed by this employer and could received a contract at any time, but have the option to turn them down. The job I just accepted runs until the end of January.

 

 

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Increasing OUTput

Something in the energy shifted over night. I will say that it is not a bad energy, but it is one that demands we get our shit together pronto. Or maybe that is just me that needs to do that, but I highly doubt that.

When I awoke this morning I felt heavy and depressed about what is coming. It is not because what is coming is bad necessarily but that it involves getting back on the 3D Train – interacting with people outside my family on a regular basis again, playing the 3D game.

I recently read that the Universe gives back what you give out. What you give, you receive. I believe this and have seen it in action. My journey has been focused inward for the past year. Though I give of myself to my family and some of my friends, my OUTput has fallen far below that of my INput. It’s time to balance that out whether I like it or not.

Tomorrow I have a job interview. Today I have a session to help me clear up some of the confusion that has come with the varied spiritual experiences of my transformation. I just need some clarity and am hoping that I find it. If I do end up working full-time again then I will not be online as often. But I feel I need a break from the web and social media anyway. Some distance will do me good.

My tummy is not happy with me today. Probably because of all the change I sense coming my way. Just thinking of working full-time again makes me nauseous. Yet I know that I need to take that step even if for a little while.

The sessions I will be doing will hopefully take me into some as of yet unseen past lives or even into lives I already know exist but need to be inspected more closely. I need answers and they can only be found within. Up until now I have been unable to find them on my own. Perhaps with some guidance and time dedicated to myself for this specific purpose, I will find the missing pieces to the puzzle. Too many distractions have led me into a semi, spiritual stagnation. You all may not see evidence of this, but I do.

Honestly, today I feel like disappearing completely from the worldwide web. I guess you all will know what I decide soon enough because I will just stop posting and interacting.

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Full Moon Dreams

 

Very random but vivid dreams followed me through the night last night.

Dream: Traveling for 4 Days

This dream seemed to last most of the night but it went on tangents that then converged at the end. It began as a trip with friends through a mountain pass. A woman was driving very fast and I was afraid she would crash the car. I was imagining her taking a curve too sharply and losing control. I could feel the entire scenario as if were happening.

She turned to me to confront me on my thoughts/feelings, telling me that she could feel what I feared. She told me she would have to slow down now because what I feared would manifest. I understood but was still afraid. I remember looking up at the sheer cliffs of mountain rock on either side of us. It was as if we had cut straight through the mountain and even though the car did slow down, we were still going uncomfortably fast.

Then I remember driving through the countryside, the rolling hills much more soothing and in contrast to the mountains we had just been in. We were heading somewhere foreign and in the dream it felt like France. I remember liking it and wanting to stay.When we arrived, friends were waiting to show us the apartment they had leased. I was taken inside and given a tour. It was very modern, high tech and clean. What was peculiar was there was a chair that looked like a giant spider. It took up an entire corner of the living room and was black and gray with tiny hairs making it resemble a tarantula laying on it’s back. I remember thinking it would be creepy to sit in it but wanting to.

Then it was as if I took a detour and transported somewhere else temporarily. I was with an older couple but mainly focused on the woman. The women had lost her driver’s license and much of the dream was about how to resolve the situation. I recall I was trying to buy her a souvenir and someone was showing me mugs with Christmas themes. The one I was encouraged to buy was a mug in the shape of Santa. I remember thinking it was too expensive and wanting another one but the man kept insisting I get the Santa one. The elderly lady was talking to someone about her license saying she was being forced to renew it every 15 years. The 15 was repeated and I almost became lucid because of it.

Then I was inside a car again with my family group and we had stopped for a break. We were on day 3 with only one more day of travel left. I told them I needed to go to Home Depot and asked them to wait. When I got there I kept asking questions of the store clerk  about the steps to change my name. I sat at a long table and filled out paperwork. I remember asking if they sold jewelry. The clerk said yes and pointed to the display which was right next to me. It appeared that the name change and jewelry was linked to preparing to be married and I remember being confused by this because I knew I was already married.

When I returned to the car my family had left to go to a water park. I was stranded at the car alone and could not reach them by phone. I recall the phone number flashing on the phone. It read 111 and then 1111.

Dream: Wedding Dress

I don’t recall much of this part of the dream except talking to someone about my upcoming wedding. I was wearing a brilliantly white wedding dress but when I looked at myself in it my entire body was black, like I had been burned to crisp. Seeing myself this way shocked me to the point of waking up.

Interpretation

The driving part of the dreams is symbolic me feeling like my life is speeding out of control. The me driving the car relays to me that my fears will manifest, slowing me down. I understand but still feel the fear and the car is still way too fast. The fact that the road is cutting through the mountains seems to indicate that the typically steep, treacherous terrain of the mountain has been leveled allowing for faster progress. This may or may not be a good sign. lol

The apartment in the next dream section indicates that I am headed in the right direction and things will quickly improve. The spider symbolizes mastery, power and growth. Since it is in the form of a chair and seems to invite me to sit in it, I suspect I am being invited to relax into my own mastery, power and growth.

The dream section about the elderly couple seems to indicate that I am reviewing my “old” self and making adjustments to my identification of self. The lost driver’s license further suggests a loss of identity or Self. The selection of a mug is indicative of love, nurturance, rejuvenation and healing. The number 15 relays the message that some much needed changes are being made and transitions are occurring.

The Home Depot part is funny to me because I instantly knew Home Depot was a place where I could find what I needed to get Home to mySelf. lol I suspect I was being instructed by my guides at this time on my changing identity and coming spiritual transformation. The fact that I returned to the car and found my family gone, off having a good time without me, suggests I am feeling alone and alienated from my family group (soul family). The inability to contact them by phone was also evident of feeling blocked and unable to communicate. The 111 and 1111 for me represents manifestation as well as my connection with my counterpart.

The wedding gown represents an evaluation of my personal relationships. The fact that I have black skin that appears burned suggests that I feel unworthy or could indicate there is a “death” occurring in regards to the relationship I am evaluating.

 

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Find Your Focal Point

Yet another late morning. I seem to be integrating all the intense energies, purging and Shifting that has been my life for the last week. The full moon is also fast approaching and I typically feel the energies associated with it a few days before and after. Apparently, this full moon is a super moon in Aries. Get ready to feel the fire and get your butt burned into action! lol That’s all I need, more fire in my ass (rolling eyes).

There has been quite a bit of talk about it being decision time right now. Do we choose to stay enmeshed in 3D and our typical life patterns or do we take a leap of faith and embrace 5D? I can see this clearly in my own life situation right now. I feel like I am walking a tight rope. My balance is wavering with each step and the other side, my destination, seems impossible to reach. I hear my guidance reminding me, “One step at a time.” Sounds familiar. I have learned this lesson before. And it works to just look far enough ahead to take the next step. Looking too far ahead can be intimidating and throw you off balance. I think tight rope walkers know this better than anyone! Find your focal point and keep it and you will reach your destination in no time.

Reminds me of certain yoga poses like Tree Pose. I always lose my balance if I don’t have a focal point….

Funny, I was feeling really disheartened before I wrote that last paragraph and now not so much. Makes me laugh how my guidance comes through sometimes.

So my car is acting up again. What is up with that!? This time a light continues to flash. It is the airbag light. When it flashes it means the airbag is malfunctioning and I should take it to the dealership so they can hook it up to a machine and flip a switch and then charge me buttloads of money. If I consider the symbolism behind it, I think of how right now I feel like I have no safety net to catch me. Like I am taking a huge leap of faith into a deep, black abyss of the unknown. Thankfully the seat belt is not malfunctioning, just the airbag. Airbags just give you black eyes anyway, right? lolol

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Dreams and Symbols

I continue to have tons of dreams and the symbolism continues to amaze me. Last night I had cats in my dream again. This time they were found hiding inside my black pick-up truck. The cat was black and purring. It had been hiding in the wheel well and then jumped into the truck and joined several other cats. I remember petting it and wanting to take care of it. This is in stark contrast to my past cat dreams where I always wanted them to go away  or they were injured or starving. Guess I am embracing my feminine aspect finally. Yay for me!

In another dream I was taking a test and got flustered so went for a walk. I ended up sitting at a desk outside a classroom holding my head in my hands. There was a teacher there, an old coworker. In real life this cowoker had made a bad decision which cost her her job. I showed her I had completed an entire page of my essay but the feeling was that I was distracted by another assignment that I had yet to complete and it was getting in the way. The feeling was of total exhaustion and a desire to give up. I eventually left the room and could barely squeeze out the door which had somehow shrunk in size since I had gone through it. Feeling stuck and preoccupied with past due assignments. lol

In another dream I was in a white car that had no driver. The car was going very fast and then stopped at the theater. I went inside, knowing I had a ticket in my back pocket. I had to get in line to give them my ticket. As I stood there, I was joined by a dark haired man who took my hand. I knew he loved me but I felt uncomfortable, unworthy of his love. Yet at the same time I wanted to hold his hand, so I did. That is when I turned and saw the obese man and woman. I knew them. The woman was me even though she looked the complete opposite of me – dark hair and eyes and much shorter. I felt disgusted when I saw them, total rejection. A thinner version of the woman then appeared in my mind and told me that they had to complete a contract before they could continue with their own. I saw this contract as a highway construction job. There was also discussion about them losing a lawsuit because they had signed the papers with “Mr. and Mrs.” She told me it they would have won had they remained separate.

I also woke up crying from a dream in which I was being unfairly criticized for not following the crowd. When I woke up I was thinking, “Why are people so mean!?”

Overall, my dreams seem to imply that I am on the right path but I can’t rush the process. There remains an assignment/contract yet to be completed and I can’t leave it unfinished because I want to work on the next/current one.

 

 

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A Significant Shift

Finally, whatever clearing/purging I have been going through is lessening! I woke up this morning actually smiling and with thoughts that made laugh. One of the first things I thought of was that when I came home from Tennessee my daughter’s Beta, Betty, had mysteriously disappeared. I ended up almost in tears laughing about it (poor fish) because I know that my youngest likely fished him out of his bowl by the kitchen sink and promptly deposited him in the garbage disposal. LOL There were other thoughts that made me smile, too, but this one topped the others.

Despite nearing a lull or completion in my clearing, my solar plexus is a giant, uncomfortable knot. All day yesterday I had indigestion for no apparent reason. The only thing that helped was being outside. The thing that helped the most? Cleaning my car. lol Maybe it was that I spoke in Light Language the whole time. Or it could have been all the water, especially since I was covered in it after my youngest decided to spray me and my cleaned and dried car. lol Yet another thing to make me smile.

It also helped that I have been communicating with newfound friends. FB, though not my favorite place to visit, has its advantages. Messenger being my favorite. Did you know you can video chat and call people via FB? I haven’t used these features but the messenger (text) feature is really convenient and has been a great way of staying connected. I typically retreat into myself in difficult times, and this has not been any different, but yesterday I reached out – twice. And you know what? My energy dramatically shifted almost immediately both times. I was speaking Light Language and feeling more like myself than I have in almost a week. Thank you Bobbi and Robyn! I love you!

Finally, there has also been an issue with my car since I returned. I rarely have car issues. My car was not starting up straight away indicating it needed a new battery. I didn’t drive it for two days because of concern that I would end up stranded. Yesterday my husband installed a new battery and it is all better. A friend suggested it was symbolic of my energy/state of being. I suspect she was right. My car got “new life” yesterday and this morning I feel like I did, too.

 

Dream: Packing His Bags

My dreams also indicate a Shift has occurred.

In this dream I was handed what reminded me of a shoe organizer. My husband then gave me money and items to insert into each of the slots. He was taking a trip with some others of his group and wanted me to organize the luggage. I remember taking my task very seriously and divvying out items and clothing. What was weird is the clothing being packed was our clothing and not the clothing for his group. My clothing was used for the women of his group. It felt like he was trying to help his group by doing this and I had no objection.

As I was going through the clothing he had chosen, I noticed he had included my socks and underwear. This bothered me and I began to pull all of these items out of the pile and set them aside. I told him that it was okay for him to let them use my clothes, but not my underwear. It really bothered me that he would assume I would let them use something so intimate and it kinda grossed me out. lol He did not object but made some excuse and I suggested he tell his friends to bring their own underwear.

I saw in my mind their destination. It was one of three islands and familiar. I had a previous dream where I went to one of these islands and it came through in this dream very vividly. His destination was the island on the far right. The middle island was off-limits because it was being mined for resources.

The end of the dream was of me making sure he had everything he needed and noticing he had packed no pants. I showed him an almost empty duffel bag and suggested he put in a couple of pairs of pants. He seemed not to hear me and left with a female member of his group, the duffel bag still practically empty.

Dream: Childhood Home Remodel

This is perhaps the most significant of the dreams I recall.

I visited a beautiful home that was owned by an older lady and her husband. She gave me a tour of the home, showing me the upgrades to it. She explained it had been totally renovated from a house they selected which was a fixer-upper. I recognized the home almost immediately as my childhood home.

She showed me that all of the interior walls had new drywall. Then she showed me the carpet. It was a lush, white, very expensive carpet that felt velvety soft to the touch. She brought my attention to the ceilings as well, which seemed much higher than I remember and had large, dark brown, wood beams across the top. I couldn’t remember if my childhood home had that or not and resolved in the dream to ask my mom about it. I still can’t recall if there were beams in the living area and it bothers me that I can’t remember!

The couple had moved the entire house to the mountains and the remodel and all the time/effort/money they had invested in it had made it worth millions. I remember being completely in awe of their accomplishment.

Interpretations

Both dreams are very positive. The first is suggestive of big changes ahead and the letting go of past issues and/or relationships. The socks symbolize the willingness to yield to another’s wishes. The underwear represents respect and privacy. It appears I am taking back my power, respect and privacy.

The house remodel is symbolic of triumph over major adversity and the ability to look at life from a new perspective, replacing old ideas and habits with new ways of seeing the world. The carpet is symbolic of foundations. The condition is new and luxurious suggesting a positive, new start. The drywall symbolizes privacy and protection.

The house dream reminded me of an OBE I had a while ago. In it, I was told twice, “The goat will bite you.” In this particular OBE I was in awe of my childhood home because the living room ceiling was covered in Valentine’s cards, the scratch-n-sniff kind. The cards hung down in front of me and were all addressed to me.