Category Archives: Messages

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Sometimes Love Isn’t Enough

This song has been following me around all day. I woke up hearing the chorus, “Sometimes love just ain’t enough”. Why was I hearing this upon waking?

In reading over the lyrics, I have to say the message doesn’t seem to be a good one.

Hang Gliding Dream

The dream just prior to waking may be a clue. I don’t recall much of it now, but I do remember very vividly a bright red hang glider that was being ridden by a young man. It was like he had wings and he kept getting in my way. I was walking up some very steep stairs and he landed right in front of me, blocking my way. The entire dream scene itself was like something out of a movie. What Dreams May Come pops into my head and the crazy afterlife scenes of never-ending stairs and people flying through the sky. This was the kind of place I found myself in.

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Scene from What Dreams May Come

There was a  vast, golden stair leading up to a large ledge. From where I stood on the stairs I could see I was close to the top and the steep stairs seemed to stretch on and on below me. Below that, a vivid green expanse and blue sky that seemed to go on forever. The sky was filled with puffy white clouds and hang gliders. Each of us was preparing for our own take off from the building high above. There were conversations but they are lost to me now. All that remains in words is the above song and that one line. Weird.

Hang gliding or seeing a hang glider in a dream symbolizes the wish for freedom from one’s limitations or limiting circumstances. The color red here may be symbolic of the root chakra and feelings of safety and security. The stairs symbolize achievement of understanding and making progress on one’s journey. The fact that I am near the top is significant here as I am able to see how far I’ve come and how close I am to reaching my goal.

There is some behind the dream memory of discussing my marriage and relationship with my husband. These discussions also occur when I’m not dreaming, so I do not doubt they continue during dream time. I can’t help but put it all together and notice. This comes with a feeling of not wanting to acknowledge some obvious truths. Even now I don’t want to look too hard for fear of what I might find. Yet, when I read the lyrics some parts practically yell at me to pay attention. Specifically the parts about staying just to have someone by my side and thinking something’s going to change but it never does.

My husband is very stubborn and determined. Even if I decide that I want to leave, he will not allow me to. He is that pig-headed. The only way he will ever let me go is if he decides it for himself. I don’t think that will ever happen. And honestly, I do love him very much, but, like the lyrics say, maybe love isn’t enough?

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Heart Surges, Boredom and a Great Blue Heron

The energy is a bit stagnant again this morning, but I can feel it is revving up for another surge around the full moon and eclipse on Wednesday. It will continue to cycle through the end of the month. Ebb and flow, surge and fall. The stagnant periods will replace the low, depressed, chaotic flow of the last cycle of upgrades and transmissions. I am grateful for that.

Heart Surges

I experienced several heart surges throughout the day yesterday. They were high heart surges and shifted into my throat chakra several times. My third eye was also triggered when my heart was blazing. With these surges of energy I felt hopeful, excited and a bit nervous. Something BIG is coming.

Unmotivated and Bored

Today’s stagnant energy has amplified my lack of motivation and boredom. I lingered in bed this morning feeling out of the energies and being warned of my tendency to over analyze everything. Even though I don’t like the feelings I am experiencing I have to learn to allow them to flow. They will pass. Nothing stays the same. Change is a constant.

There is a tendency in me to do, do, do. I have trouble staying still. There needs to be a project or something mentally stimulating for me to fill my time with. Right now is not a time for DOing. It is a time for BEing. There are timelines shifting and constant re-alignment. To DO anything at this time would result in NOthing for the alignment is not complete.

Charts, Graphs and Grids

A repeating pattern as I wake in the morning is a recollection of seeing shapes, patterns, charts, graphs and grids. They are random and flash through my memory as if they are being stored somewhere deep in my subconscious in order to protect my waking mind from too much information too soon. Mathematical computations are among these images.

This morning, the most prominent images were of seeing various grids superimposed one upon the other. They were spread across the universe, the Earth, and every living thing on the Earth. Some of the grids were square, others were octagonal, still others pentagons. So many different shapes! The colors also varied. Some were blue, others green, some red and still others purplish and their overlapping colors created a massive, multidimensional mandala of color. The grid pattern I saw from our galaxy had vortexes and circular patterns that swirled and seemed to breathe as they expanded and contracted.

Then there are the charts. The Venn Diagram is familiar. My guide showed me this back in 2004 to explain my spiritual transformation. The separate ares of consciousness – conscious, subconscious, superconscious, were merging, becoming less separated. There was another chart that was less familiar and dotted with mathematical formulas – positives and negatives, proportions, symbols, and geometric formulas that I cannot specifically place at this time. They are familiar – meaning I have come across them in this lifetime, but they all blend in my mind making them hard to separate. The graph itself showed an upward trend in red. Below, in a contrasting color, was a more even flow that remained lower in elevation than its counterpart. My sense from this chart is it was of human evolutionary patterns in relation to Earth changes and electromagnetic pole distribution. But I suspect there is much, much more being discussed and anticipated.

I searched the internet for something that looked familiar to me. This article, which upon reading makes my head spin, is very similar to the formulas and corresponding symbols I remember. The image below gives you an idea of what I am seeing. Mind boggling!

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Preparation – Expansion Pending

The BIG something I mentioned earlier is an expansion of Self which ultimately leads to Wholeness. Yesterday I spent most of the day receiving downloads via my heart – thus the heart blasts. The downloads have not made their way into my conscious mind as of yet, but the feeling from them is already being felt. I perceive the magnitude of what is to come more than anything.

My mentor was very, very close all day and is today as well. If I focus on him, my heart blows wide open, so I try to keep my distance. lol

The previous night’s Kundalini rising from my root to my heart must have cleared some blockages because my stomach has been extra sensitive, making my eating habits an area of particular focus lately. I ate a ton of french fries from Wendy’s on Sunday and spent yesterday paying for it. Stomach knots and lower back pain – it could have been worse. I know better than to eat that crap! Since then I have been focused on eating more clean foods – fresh veggies, fish, organic meats, whole grains. And I am extremely thirsty! Since this pattern is familiar, I know it is a preparation stage and this time I plan to avoid a stomach flu forced cleanse. 🙂

great_blue_heronSigns of Change

My husband is also feeling the stagnant energy and has been quite restless. Yesterday he came home and wasn’t even in the front door when he began to talk about selling our home and moving to Florida. lol He proceeded then to tell me that he wants to take his aunt and uncle up on their offer to fund his new business. He wants to move to Clearwater and if not there then he brought up Colorado and of all places Iowa! Iowa? No way! lol I immediately went into panic mode because if he quits and focuses on a new business then I need to work to make sure we can pay our bills, etc in the meantime. I have absolutely NO motivation to get back out there into the 3D world. Just thinking of going back to work makes me feel sick inside. Ugh! I had to tell my husband to stop talking about it and even told him he may have to do it on his own. This shut him up temporarily and I retreated to the back yard porch swing to calm down.

While out there thinking how I couldn’t possibly confront going back to work, I spotted a huge blue bird walking along the creek below me. Stunned, he looked directly at me and I recognized him to be a great blue heron. What was a bird like that doing in our creek!? His eyes met mine and he flew across the open area to the safety of the trees and then just stared at me.

When I looked up the message a blue heron brings I discovered a message to remain calm and remember my ability to adapt to changing situations. It is funny that the heron came at the time he did because it was like he was addressing the thoughts I was having at that time by saying, “Be patient. Answers and opportunity will come. Be prepared to take action when they do.”

 

 

 

 

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Kundalini Dream: MOAB

Last night was interesting to say the least.

Dream: Test Preparation

Quick dream recall to set the scene. 🙂

I was at school and preparing to take a test. My teacher, a tall, brunette, was focusing on me even though she had an entire class of kids. The other kids appeared to be about 10 years of age and the classroom was yellow and gold colors. Part of my preparation involved making myself a lunch for my trip which was to be by plane. I remember feeling I might be late and rushing.

During the preparation, a man kept calling by phone trying to talk to me and talk me out of going on the trip. I could see him in my mind and he reminded me of one of my old neighbors – older, gray hair, wrinkled and thin. I remember him calling on the phone and hearing him cock a gun and I said, “Tell him he doesn’t need to bring his gun.” I saw in my mind a shot gun and felt as if he were trying to protect me.

Then I was being send to a one-room house. These were to be my quarters while I prepared. The cottage sized house was cozy and had an attached single car garage. I remember the old man also got a cottage. I’m not sure why he came along, though.

Dream: Arranged Marriage

I was ushered into a great hall where an event was underway. There was a Hindu/Indian feel and theme to the obvious celebration. There was a stage and a band was playing. I remember being asked to sing a song, but I didn’t know the words so just kind of made them up as I went. The song reminded me of a Phil Collins song. lol Everyone was happy, dancing and/or milling about. I felt out of place, though. Why was I here?

The woman, the teacher from the last dream, informed me that I had agreed to marry a man. The marriage had been arranged and this was the celebration – our celebration. I understood this to be true and immediately looked for my my husband-to-be. I saw him sitting down near the band on a bench, not far from where I sat and to my left. I looked at him closely, inspecting his features and trying to memorize what he looked like. He had black hair, cropped short with medium skin tone and looked much, much older than me by the amount of deep lines on his face. His eyes were dark brown. He was quite thin and wiry and his face familiar.

In front of us there was a large, Asian-looking house with golden colored gates. For some reason I thought they were “garages“. There were three in a row and the same person (the woman?) told me that the garages were very difficult to operate. Then my attention was drawn to tiny figurines lined up by the house. I was told these were “idols” that people had put there and that this place was in fact a shrine of some sort. I then saw someone walking away from the house with two dolphins on leashes. They were taking them to the ocean. In the dream I remember laughing at the sight of it because it was so absurd.

Lucid Dream: MOAB

This is when the dream takes a turn and my lucidity begins to increase. The woman continued to prepare me for my upcoming wedding and spoke to me at some length. I remember someone asked me to purchase a newspaper and the man I was to marry interrupted and said, “It does not need to be purchased. It is free to everyone.” It was a newspaper I recognized, some scientific publication, but I can’t recall the name now.

Then the man was sitting very close to me on my right. I remember sensing his thoughts and saying out loud, “It’s okay. We’re going to be married anyway.” The man turned to me and I looked at him. I could only see his dark brown eyes. I asked him, “What is your name, anyway?” He said, “MO-AB. Moab.” I heard it very audibly in the dream and it brought on almost full lucidity. I repeated the name to him slowly and then he repeated it back to me.

The next thing I knew he kissed me very gently on the lips. I could feel it as if I were awake and I did not reject it. It is amazing to me how real it felt. There was an internal conversation going on in my head with him at the time. I also recall knowing what he felt and what he wanted. It was very strange. I sensed he wanted to kiss more deeply. I allowed this because his energy was so calming and soothing and the kissing felt nice.

Then I felt I needed to stop. I don’t know why but at the same time he was asking me not to stop though there were no words said. I just felt what he wanted. He wanted to embrace me and wrap me in his arms while kissing me. When the thought hit me to pull away, my heart chakra lit up intensely. The feeling in my heart was a mixture of pain and pleasure and intensified to the point that I couldn’t breathe. Then the energy from my heart shot straight down into my root chakra and began to move up with even greater intensity. I pulled away from his kiss and woke up.

Afterward

Even awake, the energy continued and I was unable to breathe. My guide kept asking me, “How do you feel?” over and over. I couldn’t really answer at the time. I was ablaze with energy and trying to recover. lol

I kept recalling the name MOAB. I had heard it before. Why was I hearing it again? What the heck is MOAB??

The clock said 3:45am. I was awake until 5:15am before I fell back to sleep. It took that long for the energy to settle. He kept asking me how I felt. I was finally able to respond, “Aroused.” LOL However, this arousal is not typical. The energy in all my lower chakras and heart chakra was intensely arousing for some reason, in a spiritual way. It was like the heart bliss spread to my lower chakras.

I knew/was told that this was just a preparation and more is coming. This “test” was to see how I would handle the energy. I was told I passed but I felt like I failed because I knew the energy was suppose to be moved up. How the hell am I suppose to remember to move it up when it is taking over all my lower chakras?? Since my heart chakra continued to blaze for a while after the experience, I practiced moving it up and got as far as my throat but lost interest.

Edit: I looked up the meaning of the name Moab. Apparently it can mean many different things, some of which we do not even have a word for. However, when reading this article I was drawn to this explanation:

“But the word אב (‘ab), meaning father, also occurs in meanings other than that of a biological parent. Sometimes it’s used to indicate the lord of a village (Isaiah 22:21), or an elder (2 Kings 2:12), or an ancestor (Genesis 10:21), and often it simply indicates a position of authority; a counselor (Genesis 45:8) or prophet (2 Kings 6:21). The word ‘ab is also ascribed to God (Isaiah 63:16, Hosea 11:1)

Specifically, I feel this name is given to represent our relationship (me and this guide/mentor). He is to me an ancestor of some sort and since he is my mentor (counselor) this applies as well. I am reminded of the church and how we use “father” or “elder” for those in divinely appointed positions. Perhaps this is also applicable here.

 

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Meeting my Mentor

This post is just to document some things for myself. 🙂

Messages

Met with one of my guides who refers to himself as my “mentor”. He has very calm energy and I feel very comfortable with it, it’s soothing and reminds me very much of the energy of a water sign. I felt he had no name but the name “Robert” popped into my head for some reason. I recognized his energy and knew he and my new entourage of guides had been in the background of my life for some time. They are the ones who planned this life with me.

Most of his communication with me was in feelings and images, though he did use words. So, most of what I recall now is in feelings. He asked me if it would be okay with me for us to meet. He explained that in this meeting he would not block the energy which would result in an amazing heart blast of bliss. I understood that this will happen either in a lucid dream or the in-between. He also explained that he will reveal aspects of himself to me. Since he is most definitely other worldly, I do not know what exactly I will perceive but he wanted to warn me of it in advance and reassure me that I could request it to stop at any point. He reassured me that I am ready for this and that it is necessary for me to become Whole. I wasn’t told exactly when this would happen. He just said, “soon”. I suspect it will be Tuesday or Wednesday based upon dream messages and the upcoming lunar eclipse.

While communicating with him we discussed the state of this world, my progress and my role in the future. Team Dark was mentioned and his reaction to this name and the energies they represent was, “It is inconsequential.” My understanding from his reaction was that Team Dark is simply a fear-based name based upon human programming and not to get caught up in the duality from which it arises. Those who choose that route are no different than those who do not – they simply wish to experience it while others choose not to. There is no judgement made and no “us versus them” mentality taken.

He advised me to avoid reading other accounts, channeled messages, books, etc right now because my experiences need to remain “untainted” by outside sources. He also triggered memories of my dreamtime activities. I recalled discussing trigonometry, specifically Sine, Cosine and Tangent and seeing/discussing actual math problems. There was acknowledgment of math and its interconnectedness to the universe and spiritual concepts. I saw the familiar triangles of the Merkaba and patterns of sacred geometry.

I also remembered that I chose to explore the social, psychological and spiritual while in physical form rather than scientific and mathematical concepts. This is because on the Other Side (or wherever we are in Spirit) my strengths are science and math and my weaknesses are the social sciences. I love to solve puzzles, just in physical life the puzzle I chose to solve was me. Pretty cool.

Throughout our conversations, I had an overwhelming familiarity hit me. There was also a feeling of anticipation and excitement – a “this is it!” feeling. My heart, third-eye, and crown were also activated at this time.

Dreams

I have been sleeping very deeply and have lots of dreams which are mostly lost to me upon waking. Last night I awoke at 1am to intense root chakra activity. It felt like a bubble of energy was expanding out from the root chakra. I do not recall the dreams associated with it, but I knew it was in preparation for whatever is coming next.

I recall being in college, specifically in a class about psychology and dreams. I asked a question about lucid dreams and astral travel and the class ended abruptly. I then met a woman with long, light brown hair who was shorter than me. When I saw her, I instantly felt drawn to her. The entire room had been dark but she was bright and her image very clear. I told her, “I like you.” lol We hugged and I felt we were long-time friends and she and I seemed inseparable. I sensed a strong heart connection with her and there was knowing that we were “partners”. She appeared to know this as well and we walked out of the room with our arms draped over each other’s shoulders. She disappeared after that, though.

Then there is memory of me and four others holding hands in a circle as we floated/hovered. The feeling was that we were co-creating/manifesting, but I can’t recall anymore. In the in-between more was revealed but I did not write it down and so now it is lost to me as well.

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Visiting Artemis – Message: Slow Down

It was a busy night and morning for me. I woke suddenly from a strange dream sequence at the end of which was a distinct memory of being in outer space surrounded by stars and planets. The outer space scene was completely different from the dream sequence and came with a knowing that I had been visiting with others during the night.

Dream: Mother Goose

The dream prior to the outer space experience was about helping a mother goose and her single gosling. I took them out of a cage and put them in the grass. We (I was not alone) watched as the mother and baby bonded and thrived. I remember walking to the edge of a stream. On the other side was wire and signs that said, “Keep out”. I remember being told I was not allowed to venture to the other side of the river and fence yet. If I tried, I would be stopped.

Memory Behind the Dream

The memories behind the dream emerged slowly. At first, there was just a knowing that I had been in contact with my counterpart. We were together on a ship of some sort, but we were not allowed to get close or touch. I vividly recall seeing outer space from within an open space aboard a craft and being in communication with a very, tall. E.T. I remember little about the E.T. other than seeing his hand and a feeling of great love and respect. There were also several planets visible. These planets were brightly colored, one reminded me of Jupiter.

Then there was memory of my interactions with my counterpart. There was a lot of conversation between us, but I can’t remember it now. At one point he was either dreaming or I was seeing symbolic representations of his current issues. It was explained to me that we were both working independently on our own issues and to not interfere with his lessons. What I saw of his issues/lessons looked like many small fires that were lit. Some were bigger than others, but most were small. There were approximately five total. I remember holding a garden hose and wanting to help him put them out. I was not allowed and it was explained that if I interfered the fires would actually burn out of control.

Then there was memory of standing on what I at first thought was the surface of a planet. I later was told it was a way station. I asked what it was called and heard, “Artemis“. In reading who Artemis was, I am certain the name was meant as a message to remind me to keep my own “fires” under control. lol

As I stood looking at the vastness of the universe from this vantage point, I saw a tiny craft landing. It was circular in shape. It’s entire bottom was lit up with a single, yellow light. There were also smaller lights projecting from either side.

Messages

I had so many questions about what had occurred and my guidance had to calm me down because my energy was sky high. The guide closest to me sent me an image of him coming down to my level and spinning me very, very fast. He told me, “This is what will happen if you meet him now. You need to slow down.” Then he began to spin me in the opposite direction and I felt my energy stabilize.

Calmer now, he sent me another message. This time I heard, “Inside Out” (the movie). I have not seen it but my family has and I knew what he meant by the message. He confirmed saying, “When you connect, all your emotions – everything you are – will come to the surface. All at once.” The feeling received with this message was too much too soon would be a bad thing. Again, the message was “slow down”. He said to me then, “You need to stay grounded. You are stabilizing more than just your own energy.”

I understood the messages but still, my energy was sky high. I knew something more than I remembered had happened. My body was aching all up and down my spine and my lower three chakras were raw. Apparently I am not allowed to remember everything at this time. Oh well. lol

As I tried to return to sleep, a song popped into my head. Yet another message to stay away right now. lol

 

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Prepare for a Journey into Yourself

I had some interesting messages come through my dreams as well as while in the in-between.

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I actually received this one yesterday morning and forgot about it until later when I saw the clock and it was 3:33pm. Then the memory came back full force as if to say, “Pay attention.”

What I saw was a visual of an invisible hand writing on a chalkboard. It was written three times like this:

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3

Then it would be erased and written all over again.

I looked up angel number 333 but the only part of it that stood out is the part that said this number combination was a sign of the “Jesus connection”. I figured maybe because the 3s were written vertically that perhaps I should add them up. The number 9 made sense as well. Maybe, though, it doesn’t really matter just as long as I pay attention.

Dream: Opening My Book

I had a vivid dream this morning of visiting a house with a white swimming pool and what looked like a water park tube chute next to it. The pool was being drained and re-filled. The water was completely clear and turbulent only in the tube chute area. I would not get into it, though, but was talking to the owner who was an author and discussing the many books he had written.

We were sitting at a table at a cafe. Across the way was a bald man. The other person with me pointed him out, asking me if I was interested in getting to know him. I said, “Not really. He’s old and he’s bald.”

I was then aware of a woman who I knew was a future version of me. I remember seeing her in a bikini and noting that she was still very physically attractive, but old. lol She had wrinkled, saggy skin in some areas and her skin had sun spots on it. I remember recognizing she was me and thinking, “I’m old, too.”

Then the man across the way was young. He had a lot of hair and it was long reaching to his shoulders. I remember thinking that age was just a consideration and that I could experience youth at any age. The realization made me feel hopeful and excited about life.

Then I was handed a book by the older woman (me). She had written it for me, to give me a message.

I opened the book and the page was completely black. At the top was written, “Pull tab to open.” I felt like a little child opening a present. I was so intrigued and curious! I pulled the tab and on the black page appeared white letters that said, “Prepare for a journey into yourself.” At the same time a part of the top of the page detached and upon it was a beautiful piece of artwork. I don’t recall all of it now, but I do remember that along the left hand side were letters of the alphabet, as if to represent the role of teacher. In the middle was written a name but all I recall now is the letter M. It was a collage and very colorful and bright. When I saw it I felt as if I had been given the most precious gift one could be given. I was filled with such anticipation, as if I was about to embark on a fabulous adventure.

It’s Wild World  

When I woke up the song Wild World by Cat Stevens was in my head. I have not listened to Cat Stevens in a very long time and have not heard this song recently. And I did not hear “it’s wild world” I heard, “you’re a wild one”, as if the message was to remind me of my wild side. Considering how I felt upon waking, it makes perfect sense. I felt young and eager to live. This is in such contrast to the last week that it makes me laugh.

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Message: Release All Judgments

For the first time in a week I had clear, vivid dreams and good, restful sleep. It obviously was a night of learning and reflection.

Dream: Being a Lawyer

In this dream I was called in to consult on a conflict. It became quite obvious to me that I was a lawyer. The conflict was between a very attractive blonde woman and someone else who I never met. The woman was very familiar to me and in hindsight I feel she was representative of me. The issue up for discussion was not mentioned but the feeling was that this woman was considering her options regarding relationships.

There was actually little about the issue that was discussed. I remember I was not the only one called in to discuss the situation. One man said to me, “You sure charge a lot for your services.” I remember telling him, “$150/hour is standard.” lol I also recall seeing a large, oval, mahogany table which is where the meeting was to take place. Somehow I cannot remember the meeting now, only that options were discussed.

The dream ended with me walking down a hallway looking for the bathroom. I was aware of being in a school and looking for the faculty bathroom. I inquired about it’s location and was told it was hidden. When I found it, it was taped off with red tape and I could not enter. I remember thinking, “I am not a teacher anymore. I’m a lawyer.”

Back to Reality

I woke up with this song in my head. LOL And it was released in 1989. There’s that year again. Sorry, it’s a cheesy video. Maybe it will make you laugh like it did me.

A Child’s Observation on Marriage

After thinking of this song a memory from yesterday popped into my head. I was watching The Returned and she decided to watch a portion of it with me. The exact scene was of a marriage ceremony right at the moment when the two were exchanging their vows – “‘Til death do us part…” She said to me, “That’s a lie. People don’t stay married that long. You and daddy won’t”. I said, “What do you mean? We aren’t getting a divorce.” She said, “Well, you and [insert ex-husband’s name] did.” I said, “Sometimes people stay married until death separates them.” Then I reminded her of her great-grandparents and she acknowledged it was possible to be married that long.

In recalling this conversation I wondered why she would think her dad and I were getting a divorce. She is very perceptive and also highly intuitive.  What also surprised me is that she appeared happy about it.

Message: Release All Judgments

My thoughts then began to focus on marriage, my own patterns and issues pertaining to it, what I have been taught about marriage, and the reasons we have monogamy and “rules” pertaining to marriage and relationships.

The Yanomami Indians of Brazil popped into my head during this time. My first year in college I was required to take a research course or symposium focused on the Yanomami. What I learned about them really stayed with me, probably because I got a 68 on my first research paper about them. lol They are polygamous and can be very aggressive. What stuck with me, though, was how they lived in small, close-knit family groups. I remember at the time being fascinated by this and how happy they seemed despite having none of the creature comforts we have.

This then led me to thinking about an article I read about a community, or commune, that was fully sustainable. I can’t find the article now, but this community had its own acreage and everyone contributed in some way. There was no forced monogamy and though people would couple up it was not uncommon for them to switch partners and polyamory was common. If there was a dispute, it was settled within and by the community. Children were raised communally. It was like a big, extended family. I remember wanting to do something like this and showing my husband who was not interested.

Around this time is when my guidance intervened and asked me to release all judgments. I was shown how I was judging myself and had been doing this all my life. I was reminded how as a young child I was directed to do this via my parents who showed me what was “good” and what was “bad”. If I did something “bad” I usually got a spanking or sent to my room or grounded. For me, “bad” at first was just plain curiosity. I see this in my own children and how I also limit their urge to explore via judgments of what is good and bad.

My freedom was stifled. My curiosity and urge to follow my heart suppressed by “rules” that dictated what was right and wrong. Who would I be if this hadn’t happened?

It’s everywhere in this world. These rules are put there on purpose to avoid negative situations. But basically its all fear-based. Monogamy was created to protect the family unit, to protect the pair from unforeseen acts of violence which are more likely to result from jealous partners. Parents enforce rules for the same reasons. Don’t go past the front yard is one of my rules because I fear one of my children will wander into the street and be hit by a car. Another wide-spread rule is “Don’t talk to strangers” which came as a result of child abduction cases.

There are thousands more, some in direct conflict with others. Honestly, I became overwhelmed by it. I felt like a fly in a spider web. How can we possibly disentangle ourselves from such an elaborate web of rules? Even our language traps us in the never-ending conflict of “right” versus “wrong”. Everything is judged. How can I possibly release all judgment? It’s as impossible as releasing all attachments.

Maybe that is the point. To realize we are playing a game with numerous, elaborate and often contradictory rules. We chose to do this. What is it that we hope to accomplish by being here? For me, I think, it is to recognize that I allow myself to be trapped in the web and need only recognize the lies in order to free myself from it. Nothing I desire is wrong. Nothing that others think about me is true unless I believe it to be. I am not bad for wanting what I want or feeling what I feel. I am beautiful no matter what I think, do, or feel – “good”, “bad”  or otherwise. Freedom is not accepting as truth the fears and judgments of others but allowing ourselves to experience in each moment that which we are.

This is why I am so miserable. I am trapped by myself. Not really funny but then it is.

 

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Two Opossums

I feel nearly 100% this morning. When I woke up I could breathe, I wasn’t coughing, my head wasn’t hurting, my body wasn’t hurting, and I was starving. lol The antibiotics I have been taking for 2 days have done miracles for me. Unfortunately, I was awakened at 5am by my two youngest and have been up ever since. My husband usually lets me sleep in on the weekends but he is in Georgia visiting his rich aunt and uncle in the mountains. Bad timing really but then at least I am on the mend now and so don’t feel so overwhelmed by his absence. Unfortunately, it has been raining pretty much non-stop since Monday so the kids are going stir crazy stuck inside all day. My daughter is so desperate that she wants to ride her bike in the rain and play in the swollen creek. lol

Oh and the a/c just needed a new part and so we didn’t have to pay out for a whole new one. It is a 20-year-old unit, though, so eventually we will have to replace it.

Two Opossums

This morning opossum visited me again, well he visited all of us while we were eating breakfast. This time he was out in broad daylight and he was in a hurry. I saw him through the french doors as he ran right across our back patio. He was literally 10 feet from us. I jumped up and told the kids to look and we were all up and out the doors after him. lol Usually opossums will stop in their tracks and play dead, but this one had other ideas. He was fast! It was the same huge opossum that I saw earlier and wrote about, bigger than a house cat and really ugly. lol

I followed him with my phone trying to take a picture but he was too fast and my phone has a two second delay when it takes pictures so I just got pictures of his backside. He eventually climbed into his burrow which was located just on the other side of the hill that leads down to the overflow creek that borders our property. The kids wanted to see him so I crawled down to look, but he was dug in deep and I know better than to mess with a opossum. Those things have sharp teeth and aren’t afraid to use them. Plus, if he was out in daylight he could be rabid, but doubtful.

As I was climbing back up the hill my kids were running after me. They had gone inside to get their shoes. I always wear shoes to protect my feet since having kids. Legos and other toys really hurt! Anyway, I told them to go back to the house and as they turned around there was another opossum running for dear life across our patio! My son started chasing him and then my youngest, wearing a shirt and diapers only began yelling and running after him, too. They were all so excited and the opossum wasn’t having any of it. lol It was really quite funny and I wish I had thought to turn on my phone’s video camera.

This opossum was not as brave as the other one and tried to hide behind the neighbor’s fence in between a pile of old bricks and other junk. I was able to get two pictures of him but he high tailed it out of there, too. My kids tried to follow him and I stopped them. This one was smaller and slower and I did not want them to accidentally catch up to it.

We all went back inside and not five minutes later my daughter was yelling about seeing the opossum again. Sure enough he was across the creek running. I suspect it must be mating season and the two were trying to get it on in my back yard this morning. LOL Either that or the flooding creek has displaced them. Both were totally drenched.

Message

I have already previewed my other post since I figured my guidance was trying to remind me of the message opossum brings. However, this time the opossum was not alone and out in the day. As a nocturnal animal, this is out of character.

The past message was the wait and take no action, but now I feel the situation may have shifted. What do two, completely drenched, running opossums mean? I looked but could not find anything on that particular scenario. lol Maybe too much hiding out got them drenched in emotion and they finally had enough and freaked out? LOL These two definitely fit that description. I wonder if they found each other? One hid out in a hole and the other went looking for him/her.

I found this particular meaning applicable, especially the last line:

Opossum could also be a warning against getting caught up in a situation that is full of drama. Stop making excuses and embrace the problem head on. Remember: you do not owe anyone a reason or excuse for how you feel or what you choose to experience. Source.

What happens when you hide from yourself? You end up drenched and frantic, just like the two opossums were. What is even more synchronistic here is that this morning I woke up thinking that I should stop judging myself for how I feel and what I wish to experience. 🙂

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Chapter 3

I had a very odd day yesterday. Perhaps it was being so horribly sick or maybe it was the intense energies, or maybe both, but I was out of it most of the day. I didn’t feel like myself and my body felt weird, like there was this strange energy occupying it.

In the evening my husband arrived home earlier than is normal. He is also sick and so we were a lovely pair being sick together with three not-at-all-sick children with high levels of energy. Thankfully, I had gained back some energy and was feeling more like myself and was able to keep the kids occupied.

I worked with our two oldest on a  science project to give my husband a reprieve (they climb all over him when he comes home). My kids, anxious to get started, began to try and do the project on their own. I knew they needed my help so I told them, “You need a human to help.” I began to laugh at myself for what I just said because in my mind I was saying, “You need an adult (me) to help.” So why on Earth did I say, “human”? Then, I remembered my middle son’s argument that he wasn’t human. He would argue until he was blue in the face – “I’m not human. I’m a kid.” I burst out laughing even harder. Now here I was saying “human” rather than adult. My daughter caught on very quickly an began to laugh, too. She said to her brother, “Mommy is an alien, too.” LOL

Great end to an otherwise miserable day, don’t you think?

Chapter 3

When I awoke this morning, the three Light Beings (Yeshua) were nearby. I said to them, “I’m in Chapter 3 aren’t I?” They confirmed. Then They told me they would be leaving soon. Today. This made me sad. They found this interesting and said, “But We scare you.” I told them, “Only your energy scares me.”

They told me I would be receiving new guidance. Then showed me that they were part of the Council of 9 and I had been in “discussion” with them for some time now. They corrected me on my interpretation of what this Council does. They referred to it as a “round table discussion” giving participates equal say. This was an ah-ha moment for me as I have always consider the Council as being “over” me in some way. This is definitely NOT accurate. Perhaps I should not call them the “Council” at all then? But then what do I call them? Advisory board? lol

I was able to remember that part of this discussion was my agreement to allow these Beings through me in order to observer and experience. I realized that was probably what I accidentally intercepted yesterday morning when I got all kinds of weird messages. I had agreed to allow them access, so perhaps they did just that? Yet another odd experience to add to my long list. lol

So what exactly occurs in Chapter 3? I can’t remember. Sorry. lol I am just happy to have moved on. Remember there are 7 total. I’m not even half-way through yet. 😦

 

 

 

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DNA Alteration, Spiritual Acceleration and Plasma Radiation

The warning about the energies that I got from my Team a couple of days ago was not a joke. Woah. There is something moving through right now that I have no words for. It is subtle yet powerful at the same time. I see in my mind’s eye tendrils of light that move and connect to our energy. It reminds me of a plasma lamp but much more fantastically large in scope than a tiny lamp.

Perhaps I am drawn to the plasma lamp because this energy is in fact plasma? Now this intrigues me!

Shifting gears here for a bit to get my bearings….

I’ve always considered myself a spiritual person, one that questions everything, seeking Truth and Knowledge. It is only in the past week that I feel I have made major breakthrough; a quantum jump in spiritual evolution. I am not alone in this and grateful for that.

Part of this breakthrough has me thoroughly linked with a part of myself that was difficult, if sometimes impossible, to connect to. Now, though, it is as if I am constantly linked to this part and the information available to me is mind blowing. Yet, at the same time, I know the time is not yet to reveal this knowledge and so I partition it off, piece by piece, into other aspects of mySelf. It is like I have designated counterparts whose only purpose is to hold that knowledge until the specified time for its dissemination. I will call this the Great Cosmic Mind for lack of a better word for such an indescribable yet integral part of Source Self.

Even now I can feel this part of me and it urges me in a new direction, one that is away from my normal mode of thinking/speaking/doing. And I am not in resistance to this. When I completely allow this part to flow into/though me it pours from my heart space and my third-eye simultaneously and I feel powerful, but not in the negative sense of the word. Through allowance of complete Self there is a focusing of three points of light into a central zone. I am seeing as I type geometry and mathematics beyond my current ability to comprehend. I see two triangles, each holding the patterns of the universal galactic self. From each of these triangles a focused energy is generated and directed in the direction of the other. When in balance, meaning the triangles are equilateral, then these points converge and become One/Whole and a functional partnership results.

When I see this, there comes from within a thirst for knowledge, as if I am being guided to add to my current limited human experience in order to provide a foundation from which I can better function for the purpose of disseminating understanding.

And as I read what I just typed, what just flowed through me, I am in complete awe. That came out of me?? lol

I wish to explore more of this but I am being pulled back to the original topic of this post….

The pulsing of energies infiltrating the planet right now are effecting all of us, transforming each of us. Yet the energies perceived are inherently different than previous energies. The term plasma is best used here because of the origin of this energy but also because of its subatomic nature. As I type this I am being led to research this and it takes me to the realm of quantum physics. I have always avoided this topic because it was mind-boggling yet as I read about it I am more convinced that herein the answer lies. Fascinating.

In the midst of writing this I was interrupted by hungry children and had to make breakfast. Whilst doing so this topic of discussion continued to percolate and DNA/RNA became very much interwoven into it. The plasma pulses, which have always been there, are now interacting with our body – our cells, our blood, our DNA – everything. I see that the magnetic field of Earth, in it’s shifting and destabilization, somehow created the ideal conditions for this plasma  driven DNA alteration. Thus, some of us are perceiving the subtle changes and new receptivity to plasma radiation (yes this is actually something that exists!).

So YES what we are sensing is real, very real, and it’s effect and purpose very real. We are experiencing an alteration in our very DNA, in our core biological structure. At the same time we are spiritually accelerating and the two are intricately interconnected. One cannot occur without the other.

Complex, I know. I am far from understanding it. I hope my explanation helps you somewhat understand what is happening right now.

Sources: Plasma Radiation, Wikipedia , Plasma